lucid

(Excuse the messy Journal writing.It was done fast)
I was on my bed creating a music on a music box type of item. There were a few girls around in pajamas congratulating me for making such beautiful music. Even my mom. But than i started thinking about how i want to dream of dawn. I closed my eyes and lay down than appeared outside a house. Where a girl with red/orange spiky hair was in. I wanted to touch her hair and was pulled in by curiosity. I had come in with googles in my hand an was told by the girl that i could play with her. Oddly i felt today was the day of a tragedy event. We were playing around in the colorful park like field that was in the house when suddenly i had the urge that i should go cause i wanted to find Dawn. There were two boys there present and a mom who was telling the girl that it was time to leave. I lost lucidity and felt like the boys took my camera. I ran after them and they mentioned how they didn't have it. I went back and found it somewhere. After that i think i appeared on a bed than thought of Dawn.

After thinking of Dawn i appeared in what looked like the same place i was in before. Dawn came too but didn't seem interested. For some odd reason the place changed into a big bathroom and i asked him to brush his teeth with me. He said no because i was going to try and get him in the shower with me. Thats when things started to turn into a clothing store. I wanted to pick out interesting, cool clothing for Dawn but as i was choosing he walked away to kiss a girl. I told a girl dc near me how Dawn was being super annoying ignoring me when i was going to choose clothes for him. I followed him and some others and the place became a huge mall with orange/brown covered walls. We were trying to find our way around together but than Dawn didn't want to go with me the way i was going. He wanted to go the other way with the girl. I decided to leave them be and ranted to a somewhat fat guy dc that was with me.

He mentioned how dawn was just being a (insert word i forgot here). Than we ran around some stairs with a kung fu old guy behind us trying to teach us something. The big guy got too excited though and ran too fast around. He made the stairs jump and broke a step. We ran to tell security about the broken stairs but a girl dc came back saying that they were just lining people up and not listening.I went up to the person she talked to than the person who ran the place and he mentioned how i explained it a lot better cause he understood now. After that we walked away and i ended up walking behind my family,some people i dont know and it was in a city place. My mom mentioned about how one of the people there was carrying a money bag and i felt my head because the back part was hurting a bit. When i woke myself up my neck was hurting because of the bun on my head or because it was turned in a uncomfortable position. I'm fine now though.^^

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #2??: Rocket-Powered Flight

I’m standing at the corner where two long, endless hallways meet in an elbow bend. I’m trying to demonstrate to an audience how to rearchitect it, so I “select” part of the hallway as if this were all taking place inside of a 3D computer graphics program like Blender or 3DS Max. It lights up bright green. I want to shorten it, so I “select all” and the entire length of one hallway now glows bright green as far as I can see.

I take a moment to appreciate this power, and as I consider what I’m doing, I realize that I’m dreaming! The dream starts to fade on me, but I’m determined not to lose it. I vigorously rub my hands together and start belting out a song: “I’m not going to lose this dreeeeeam!” I sing a few more lines about lucidity, and in one line declare (with no real supporting evidence) that Dreamer is also here.

Suddenly I emerge outside in a brightly-colored world that has the look and color scheme of a classic video game from the Nintendo 8-bit era. I’m on a large, green plane that I think is supposed to be an abstract representation of grass. Nearby there’s a small pond filled with realistic-looking water, and a fair number of brightly-colored but mostly realistic DCs wander nearby.

There’s an old-fashioned looking stereo nearby that seems to be producing the game world’s music, which is a pleasant, catchy chiptune soundtrack. On the side of the stereo in black letters, I see “????? Sound System”. (Can’t remember the name!) I think about how I’ll definitely want to remember this name when I wake up.

I feel pressure in my stomach and absentmindedly push out a big fart. Rather than a brief event, though, the gas continues in a loud, embarrassing, seemingly unstoppable stream. I figure that since this is a dream, it may just go on forever (which it seems to be doing.) I get a sour look from one DC, a man with a dark mustache, who glares at me and walks away.

I suddenly recall that I received a lucid dare to engage in fart-powered flight (seriously!), so I decide that now is pretty much the perfect time to try. I think of myself being propelled upward and I blast easily up into the air! It’s some of the most effortless flying I’ve ever done. I wonder whether I should just fly like this all the time.

I soar happily back and forth through the sky, my “rocket propulsion” continuing all the while. Suddenly, Dreamer streaks quickly past me, flying in the same gas-powered manner that I am! I see and hear her “hee-hee-hee!”ing as she shoots by and I start laughing too, enjoying the hilarity and immaturity of this dream.

I fly up to a large tree, easily a couple of hundred feet tall. I shoot quickly to the top and land on one of the branches, seeing a sloping wooden hallway that leads into the interior of the tree. I walk into it, curious about what this tree is and where it leads. I hear a snatch of conversation, PercyLucid saying something about wanting to trade lucid dares with me and some other people “for a few hours” so he can do some of ours. Very shortly after this, the dream ends.

#454 - DILD - 4:03AM

I am out of town with my brother hanging out in a mechanic’s shop. We are good friend's with the owner and I see some one has an open beer sitting out. The own comes into the room and seems very drunk so we all start drinking. Some kid's join in but they take it way too far. A teenage girl and boy take turn shot-gunning can's of beer and one spills a lot. The boy takes a swim in the puddle of beer.

Our wife's stop in and want us all to go out. I tell them we already went bowling, but I'd be willing to go out again. I am surprised that no one seems to care about the teenagers staggering around drunk. I lay at them because they only drank three beers and they are totally wasted.

I leave to meet everyone wherever we are going and stop at a fast food restaurant. My old friend Carrie is working there and she seems a little annoyed to see me. I feel awkward and dismiss myself to the restroom. I notice the restroom is very small and only has space for one urinal. I pee then take a look in the mirror. I am shocked that my hair is completely shave off. I look really good bald, but miss my hair. I wonder if someone shaved my hair when I was drunk, but I don't see how I wouldn't know. Suddenly, it dawns on me and I say to my mirror DC, "I am dreaming!" I watch my reflection spin around as my hair now looks longer in places and with bald patches. I stare amused at this until I wake up.

I'm working at Target, which is where I used to work in real life, except I'm a cashier instead of a Starbucks barista like I was previously. I've just started back there for some reason after not having worked there in months, so I can't remember my employee number to clock out. I realize I have to get to my other job at Home Depot (another place where I used to work, years ago) and I'm panicking because I can't get anyone to help me clock out and I have to be at my other job in five minutes. I finally yell at someone that they'll have to take care of it tomorrow and storm out through the parking lot towards my car. As I'm walking through the parking lot it starts to rain.

I look down at my hands and realize I'm dreaming. I do a quick nosepinch RC and then decide I'll do some flying in the rain. I'm in a very good mood because I haven't had an LD or been able to fly in a dream in months. I'm soaring around in the warm rain and I pass over a parking lot where music is playing and there are people breakdancing. I start busting a move in the air, just flailing around dancing like an idiot while flying. It's so much fun!

I decide I want to try to go to manifest a certain celebrity, so I touch down expecting him to be there, but instead it's Jonas from Sense8. I laugh a little and say 'Why are you here?' and he says 'I don't know, it's your dream'. I realize we're on a street in the town I grew up in and I don't want to be there, so I tell him we should fly to Egypt and check out the pyramids.

He gets out a map and I sort of tried to fly into it, but it didn't work, so I just flew up again and went way, way up until I could see the whole continent of Africa on the globe. I descended slowly towards Egypt but got frustrated because I didn't know the exact location of the pyramids. I ended up flying over Cairo and observing the city from the sky. Finally I flew out of the city and into an empty desert. It was quite beautiful at night but I was still a bit disappointed that I couldn't find the pyramids. I grumbled to myself that "I can control my dreams, I should be able to do what I want!" and then I woke up.

Today I had my first LD, it was short and a little bit blurry (I did't knew about stabilization till today) and I wasn't fully lucid, maybe around 60% (still a big step!), but I remember everything that happened. It took place during the morning when my alarm woke me up and in the usual "5 more minutes" routine I snoozed it, got to sleep again and had a false awakening:

I was in my bed when I listen outside my bedroom the voice of the person who does the cleaning in my house, it was weird because she only works 3 day per week and it wasn't one of those days, she knock at my door asking if I had clothes for laundry, something she used to do and I hated because she wake me up, so I was intended to reply but I was unable to speak, I tried to find my phone in my bed and couldn't find it and suddenly, the idea that I could be dreaming came to my mind, so I did a reality test (with my nose) and I was dreaming.

As the night before I was thinking about visiting an especific place in a dream, my first reaction was to somehow teleport or change the place to get there, as I didn't knew how I decided to get there by flying but when I was in the street and did it, I realized that only my house and a few more of my neighbors houses where there, and the rest was like an infinite layer of desert-like asphalt. I decided to explore the place and landed into the backyard of one of the houses, which was like a comunal garden between some other small buildings, and the first thing I noticed was the grass, so green compared to the asphalt that I had seen before, then I realized there was also a boy and a girl, staring at me in a not really nice way (I didn't care about that then, though).

In that moment I remembered that it wasn't a great idea to tell the characters that you where dreaming because you could overexcite and wake up, and as I wanted to get the more from my first LD I thought it could be interesting to interact with a mirror so I asked the girl where I could find one. She was medium height, had pale pinky skin, dark long hair with a bang and was dressed like a little girl, though she was more like a teen. She show me the building that was next to us, at our right, took a key out of her dress and opened the gate. Inside, there was only a big mirror, like one of those in the public restrooms, I attempted to get in but I had a bad feeling, still I did but when I was getting near the mirror the image seamed dark and blurry (I saw this particular scene in third person, and somewhere near this moment I start loosing lucidity). I looked back and the girl was closing the gate and laughing, I went back and she reopened it, I brought her down and took the key, but suddenly a beefy, tall, and bald guy entered the place and attacked me, I fight back but I could't free myself, but we were near a window and with the upper part of my body I tried to open it, while the guy started yelling "nooooo".

I finally managed to open the window and reach the street, but the other side of the road was blocked by a fence covered by a climber, and as the big guy was very near and I saw no scape, smashed myself into the fence trying to find a way out, but he finally grabbed me, we struggle and got to the road, I was dragging on the floor trying to get read of him, and as I could't use my hands I decided to bite his wrist, he started bleeding but didn't loose me...

Then my alarm start ringing again and I wake up

The black Void

I appeared on my bed listening to voices. I was a bit out of it at first because i went from awake to dream mode and it kind of blurred my train of thought a bit.After laying down on the bed for a bit and listening to voices the back part of the bed/wall began to break apart and i began to fall backwards into a dark black void.I let myself fall down and could see black and dark gray clouds in my void. There were also black rocks appearing in it. After falling fast for a while i ended up somewhere where i was hanging around with Eye. But i forgot what happened at that time.After whatever happened happened I woke up.
I decided to go into the dream the same way I did before though.

The black void 2

I slowly started hearing voices around me again than felt i couldn't move.I decided to wait it out and eventually the back broke apart again. I ended up falling fast down the dark void but this time was different. As I was falling i could hear footsteps that sounded like they were walking quickly across a carpet. I decided to imagine the footsteps far away from me as i was falling. It faded but than came back and i saw a dark sweater hooded figure looking at me from behind a black rock in the void. It went somewhere else and than i heard the footsteps again though. So I imagined pushing the thing farther, along with the footsteps sound. I felt it was gone than fell down relaxed until i arrived at a outside of a large school.

I decided to imagine kingdom of hearts into the dream and Sora appeared along with the opening song of the game. I fought sora while flying for fun while trying to sing along to the song. But than it quickly changed into Chinese. As I was battling sora though i spotted riku in the distance. Wanted to go to him but than i saw that there were bodies of people laying on the ground. I felt like it would be awkward to go on the ground with the bodies laying around the courts. Yeah, I saw the bodies on a basketball court and tennis court. I flew away since i won against sora already and ended up in a bedroom. There was a dream character present and he was holding a needle.

"There is no needle" I thought and manged to get it away from him. But than he brought it back. It was like i was battling with my mind to try and imagine it not there. But i couldn't help but pay mind to it. Thats when i tried to run and jump away while calling Dawn. But i bumped into something and ended up giving up. "Instead of a random DC, I'll just imagine Dawn's giving me the shot". I thought to myself. Than all too quickly i was stabed in the back with the needle and felt the thing injected into me. Than a black heart rate meter like thing appeared in front of me and i saw the numbers 558. It was going up when i felt the needle but went down slowly when i was relaxed. After that I woke up.

New Dream Guide...Sort of

Something non lucid occurred where i was inside a apartment talking to people.I became lucid though as i was holding a laptop and something made me think of Jade/Maeni. I decided that in this dream i would go onto my dream email or a dream guide messenger site and see if it could find me a better dream guide. I typed on the bright white screen that looked like a chat/forum place. It was designed in a basic organized way. Nothing too flashy. Anyways I typed with my imagination "Looking for new dream guide. Post if interested! : )"
Than someone got online with a yellow colored avatar. I asked if they were interested and they said they would think about it. So I decided to leave that alone for now and wait.
After that a dream character came and told me to follow him. We ended up inside a school where i got distracted.
I was non lucid inside a school that was for middle school kids i think. After walking around and doing whatever i did, somehow i got in trouble and I was sent to the principal's office in anime form with anime characters. The principal was secretly a monster that wanted to feed on the students that disobeyed or were new. Than tried to eat me. I told the character with me that we had to work together. The DC agreed and we ended up escaping but than i noticed that "Good Times" characters were in the school. It was the sister and older brother and they were arguing because the brother didn't want the sister to date someone. I decided that i wanted to leave the school and go somewhere else at that time than followed a group of students leaving.

However after walking for a bit i ended up back inside the school. I decided to go another way than and took a door that led to the outside school yard. I was questioning it though because it led me to go up a stairs.When i finished stepping up I saw two boys trying to swim away from where they were. There was water halfway up to their body and it was raining. I liked the rain but didn't feel like swimming so i went another way and ended up on the sidewalk with the two boys.But one of them jumped me from behind and i fell on a bush. He was pinning me so i called for help and told him to get off. A DC came and took him off me. After that i got up than walked away and ended up in a apartment.There i remembered about the dream guide post thing and imagined a laptop in the room. I picked it up and looked at the screen where i posted the question. I didn't really notice much change though. Only a little and typed "Is no one really interested? Still waiting for a reply." Than i noticed something pop up on the site.

I decided that i would just wait patiently and left the laptop alone. As i was walking A DC appeared. It was a tall white guy with blue eyes and dirty blonde hair color but braided. And he wasn't wearing a shirt.
"Uhhh....Are you my new dream guide?" I asked. " He scratched his head and smiled at me than said "Yeah,Well,Sort of." I noticed how his blue eyes reminded me of Marcus even though Marcus is old and told him how his eyes remind me of Marcus. "Really?" he said as we were walking away to another room." You can't be Marcus though. Whats your name? IF you said sort of does that mean your dawn?" I asked suspicious. He made a look that said "maybe" and than told me to look at his hair and to touch it. He had two little braids sticking up on his head though.

"Do you like it?" he asked me smiling as he had his head down in front of me waiting for me to touch it. I put my hand and felt his braids. The way they went down from the top of his head to the side. His hair length was obviously up to the middle or bottom neck. I told him it looked nice on him and than went up to a mirror to look at myself. I noticed that i could see my back and chest and i had the marking of a giraffe. "I can't believe i got these marks on me" I said than told him how i have them on me. He looked but than i noticed there were two big rats in the apartment."Rats!What do we do?" I asked him unsure. He told me that we need to get away from them. we ran but than i jumped on him so the rats wouldn't bite me. I didn't think he would mind. Anyways he carried me fast out of the apartment than down the stairs with the rats trailing us. I wasn't afraid of the rats but i liked him saving me from them even though they weren't scary.

I kind of hugged him too tight though as he was carrying me and when we stopped on the last floor we saw the rats. I got off him and he ended up fighting them off. Reminded me of the old days but i kind of felt bad because I let him carry me when i could have ran myself. Than I woke up.Forgive me Dawn. TwT If that were you.

The dream recall leading up to the LD were not really anything exciting or long. But the LD more than made up for it despite being a slightly bit unstable: it lasted a good long time (by my standards) with 3-4 different scenes, girly stuff, accomplished TOTM, some flying and some breaking through walls, some lightsaber action.

+ at a beer garden choosing (4 choices) what I'll have for the next round consulting with the woman sitting across from me. I'm thinking of a really pale beer next round, something with almost no taste. (Don't remember the names but some had some), (decided on a house special?)

+ I'm at the far end of a long snaking narrow camping tent, a friend is outside. I see and say that there is no zipper/way out on this side, so since the tent is so narrow I don't have room to turn around, so I start crawling out backwards. I notice some dirty spots on the floor of the tent and wonder if they're wet spots from dirty boots. I finally make my way out of the front where my friend is waiting for me (the boot guy below?)

+ There's a man who says he must cover his metal-tipped boots when he's outside or else the reflection will blind people. He gestures to his boot tips and I see a chunk of metal near the tip. Someone discusses how "hard" your boots you want, if you get them too hard they'll make a lot of noise on wooden floors.

+ walking through some sightseeing place with people, fairly dark indoor environment, turning corners (going up sloping pathways?) need flashlight, I have one or two in my hand, then there are hundreds strewn all over the floor to choose from.

+ Walking down the main stairway in my childhood home, my dad is talking about the nurses at the hospital, how they used to have a thing around there neck that expanded, it was called a (???), I see one and how it expands, but they wear something different now. My dad has to go to the hospital, I'm now in the living room where my mother has set a breakfast table (for me and my dad?), I sit down and eat, there is a bacon and egg sandwich and more bacon and some other things. It all looks really good and I start with the bacon. (I pick a piece of bacon out of the sandwich?) my mother says not to pick the bacon out of the sandwich but I say "hey it's bacon, it's OK" but I fully intend to eat the sandwich properly.

At some point I wake up, pee, recall dreams, and head back to sleep, the exact place I re-enter is not clear.

I see the breakfast table again and it's messy (piled with cereal boxes?), it's still in the living room because my dad's going to the hospital so we need a segregated breakfast table (WTF?). My dad is now concerned about being late even though he got up really early in the morning. I walk to the kitchen through the dining room and I hear my dad talking and coming towards the kitchen from the back porch.

I don't want my dad to find me in the kitchen because (then I'll wake up?)

I fly out the living room window and immediately I realize I'm dreaming. It is a solid realization, I'm very happy I got lucid. The scenery is daylight, bright and clear. I'm flying low over a Eucalyptus tree coming up ahead, and as I pass over it I lower my right hand and let my fingers run through the leaves to establish tactile senses. I feel very little, maybe 25% or even less, I'm somewhat surprised, touch is usually not less than 50% and usually full. I grab a bunch of the leaves and form a fist with my right hand, squeezing them, and I start to feel them a bit better.

I then experience a slow, interesting transition (sort of a "pan"-effect) back into my childhood home's living room. I think of TOTM and am happy at having decent waking like memory. But then I just can't remember the basic tasks, for about 30 seconds I'm pacing around the living room saying "Right, let's do TOTM, the task is....the task is....it's...uh.." and just can't come up with either of the basic tasks. I recall at last the advanced II task of having a conversation with an object that doesn't make sound.

I walk into the dining room, crouch down in front of the marble-topped cabinet/drawers, and say "Hi! What's your name!?" I imagine face forming and it responding to me, but instead a black rectangle whooshes in from somewhere, replacing the cabinet, then vanishes, leaving them both gone.

Not upset by this, I just stand up and move to the living room where I see a coat rack, I immediately approach and say, "Hi! What's your name?!" (I think a face forms?) and it says "I'm Hank, and my son is Frank!" (I think the rack is covered with a string of lights, and wonder what they look like turned on?).

I go out (the front door?) and see a sloping hillside in daylight of exposed dirt and some plants (ivy?). I wonder if I'm still dreaming, if I am then I could fly, I take off flying and am happy that I'm still dreaming. I turn to face downhill, and see through a window of the house into the living room where Hank is still standing, he looks sort of humanoid at this point with a very large head, like a small Ent or a large mushroom man. I think/say "turn on your lights!" but Hank looks at me, shaking his head "no," and holds up his arms containing the string of (Christmas tree?) lights. I think he must be done working for the day and has already taken off his lights, I do not want to force the issue so I forget him and fly forwards.

Ahead of me (still flying) is some building, down below me a few floors down I see some girls standing at an ice cream stand. I can see down their shirts and there's some nice cleavage showing there. I land and watch them as I approach, there are 3 girls, young & pretty, one of them has dark sort of bushy eyebrows.

Spoiler for sexual activity:

This part gets vague but I'm pretty sure I squeezed one of the girls boobs and got some quick BJ action before the dream transitioned.

Now I'm in a stairwell and I think the authorities are coming because of my taking liberties with the girls. (See/hear some security guys?) I'm running up the stairs and decide to break through the wall, I run my finger in a circle on the wall and push out a section and jump through.

I'm in some non-descript alley/corridor between very tall buildings, and I decide as I approach a corner that I need a weapon, so I hold up my left hand and imagine there's a lightsaber handle there. I look at my hand and it's sort of fuzzy and transparent but I see it. I hit the "on" button and imagine/say that the blade will be green. I see sort of a 50% transparent green blade.

I walk by a guy DC and swing the blade through his body 2 or 3 times, (he falls down?). Then I see a kid walking with an assembled clarinet, and step up to him and slice the clarinet into 3 or 4 pieces, haha.

Up ahead on a higher floor (floating?) is a group of uniformed security. I prepare myself for a big jump to go up there and fight, I'm setting my feet just right and fidgeting then I notice a hot girl is floating down towards me, I imagine she wants sex, so I direct her to a bench and she starts taking off her clothes, then I wake up...

Advice
Dream journal everyday do realitychecks meditation binaural beats
and dont believe you can lucid dream trust that u can
and wbtb or the cat technique mild wild sild deild fild etc
Dream
i was lucid and i had a dream character show me around the dream
he put his hand trew steel bar and we took off flying

#453 - DILD - 5:16AM

Last night, for whatever reason, I found it comforting to wear my sleep mask that I mainly use to block the early sun light on days I get to sleep in. Someone on place gave me the idea to use the sleep mask as a reality check. If I can see, I must be dreaming.

I am in some version of my grandparent's old house. There is some conversation with Nanny that I don't recall. I walk into a room and realize that I can see and decide that I must be dreaming. Excited, I look around the room to see what I can find. I spot and orange tabby cat. It notices me, and scurries away.

I become deeply introspective for awhile and lose my lucidity. I don't recall much of this, but my thoughts come back around to being at my grandparent's house. The last time I was here was right after they... OH! I remember that I have no surviving grandparents and being here brings me back to full lucidity. I think about searching them out, but really don't want to revisit the emotions, so I abandon the idea. I see the cat again, but like last time, it's runs off. I think to chase it, but remember I had a goal in mind. I want to get an inanimate object to talk to me. I happen to have an empty drinking glass in my right hand so I decide to talk to that, "Hello. How are you?" To my surprise, someone has drawn a face on the glass with a permanent marker. Ha! This is great!
I listen, but can only hear a faint, "Hello."
I talk to the glass again, but this time put it to my ear. There is no sound. I try a third time, but can't get anything else out of the glass. I become overly frustrated and and shout, "Talk to me you SOB!" I then squeeze the glass with both hands until it pops and shatters. Oops. I let it fall to the floor and search for something else, but I quickly wake up.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This was a HUGE dream. When I woke up, I just remembered the last half, and then slowly, bits of the first half came back. But I can't promise that I remembered everything.

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I was at my mom's house. I think I was in my bedroom first. My mom was doing some sort of renovation project, where she was removing a little "hallway" to my desk, and just making that whole wall even. She also added an extra, large window in my room. I could hear the workers still working on the outside of the walls outside. I remember being surprised once I walked into the room. I had an extra window! Awesome! More natural light!

The scene shifted. I was now out on the back porch. A lot of people were there, from my little brother's age to my age or older, whom I didn't know barely any. We were apparently having some sort of party. There was at least 40 people there, either on the back deck, in the living room, or in the basement.

I don't remember performing an RC. Well, I do remember the sensation, and seeing my hand clutch my nose, but I don't remember exactly when I did it. I was still on the back porch. Not completely and totally lucid, but I was somewhat aware. I remember I think someone was being rude to me. Some guy... I lifted my hands up, above my head, and "pushed" my hands back down like I was pushing some invisible force. As I was thinking of it, small droplets of rain began to drop around this guy. I looked up. The rain was only happening a little bit above his head, and no farther up. Like his own little rainstorm.

I turned to my left. I could see over the deck fence over to where a main road should be. About 10 people were around me. Suddenly, the sky got a darkish grey. Flashes of cloud-to-ground forked lightning happened several miles away, over and over. The first time, the lightning was a light purple. The next time, it flashed a bright yellow. Then, a bright red.. I remember hearing myself say, "Oooh, that's pretty..."

Suddenly, in the lightning's place, a huge tornado was forming. Too fast. It was already a cyclone. I could see it heading for the house. It had just overtaken a house that was about a quarter mile away. Forgetting that this was a dream entirely and that I should have just stood my ground, I ducked inside the house and hurtled myself towards the basement.

There were several people down here, but some I specifically remember were these two boys watching something on a small TV that was on the ground. I looked closer at what they were watching. It was some old black and white show.

I think my lucidity dipped here, but I regained most of it when I found myself in a small city that looked like a town over, but a lot less cars driving around. I remember standing partly on the asphalt road. I wasn't the only one walking. There were several people around that were walking, standing, or pushing carts.

I looked up to my left. I could see the road went up a large hill, and blocked everything on the other side. I decided to walk up the hill and see what I could see. First, though, I remember stomping the ground, to try to get some of my senses to fully function. I felt like I was on autopilot, though. I then dropped to the ground and felt the road beneath me. I think I tried to crawl, or I just layed on the road.

I finally went walking up the hill. I got to the top, and I could see a Walmart on my right. I thought I would walk in to see if I could find some candy.

Time moved forward. I was inside. I think I saw E in there, walking around. I remember walking down random aisles, mainly in the bottom left corner of Walmart, looking for candy. But all I was seeing was hardware, and fishing stuff, and other things. I was walking down another random aisle when I decided to stomp my feet again. The pressure of my feet hitting the floor kind of hurt; the force vibrated up my calves. I kneeled down to the floor again, but this time, only to examine it. However, while I was crouched there, I remember thinking how I felt like I wanted to "go to sleep" or like I was sleep deprived. I couldn't shake this feeling, no matter how alert I tried to make myself. I still felt like a zombie.

I walked forward a bit, reached my hand out to a lower shelf, and closed my eyes. I imagined to myself that my hand was about to touch a small box filled with something chocolatey. Sure enough, my fingers brushed against something. I opened my eyes. A small orange box of Reese's minis was lying there. I got excited. I picked them up, ripped the top open, and gorged myself. They weren't bad, but then again, I wasn't really focusing on the taste.. as I was trying to find what next to do.

Another dip happened in my lucidity and now I was in a small shop. J and her roommate were both standing beside me. We were all looking around at things. I remember seeing a stand close to the checkout counter that had decks of cards in it. I thought to myself, "I do need a deck of cards, I've never owned one before." But then I reasoned, "Hang on, this is a dream. I can't take this back (but I wish I could)." So I tore my eyes from the display and walked out the door with J and her roommate.

We were walking down the opposite way of the road I had been on much earlier. We came to a kind of deserted, graffitied building. Sam and my little brother were with me now. We all walked in, and found two guys in there, rolling on the floor or something.

They laughed and walked out. I realized that this was just a bathroom. The walls were also graffitied in here as well, and the main wall paint was black. I walked into one of the larger stalls and looked around. A small light bulb hung over everything.

We were back outside. We walked to a gravel/rock parking lot that was beside the building. I wanted to go somewhere else. I had never tried teleportation before, so I thought it would be cool to try.

Using expectation with the dream characters/people around me (Sam, my brother, J, and her friend), I remember looking around and grabbing a semi-smooth stone that was about half the size of my hand if I had made it into a fist.

"Guys, look.." I said. "This is a summoning rock."

I don't know why I called it that. I showed it to them. They were a little surprised by it and thought it was cool. I tried to etch something into the rock with my finger by expectation, so as to make it seem more.. "symbolic". I silently thought to myself that I could. The top of the rocks surface was then able to be chipped away like a half-baked cookie. I etched a small cross into the top of it with my fingernail.

I held it in my hand. I wasn't sure how we were all supposed to teleport there at once, but I decided that if I believed we could, then we could. I told everyone to get into a circle, and all hold hands. We all did. "I guess I put the summoning rock into my hand.." I muttered. "And hold yours.." I said to, I think it was, Sam.

Now, we were all linked. I closed my eyes and shouted, "To Hogwarts!" That was the first thing that came out of my mouth. I didn't even plan to go there, I just wanted to go somewhere.

We "appeared" in what looked like the Great Hall without any tables or chairs. I could see a much larger Hagrid standing beside a weak-looking Dumbledore like a guard. Dumbledore was seated in a throne-like chair. Hagrid was not happy to see us.

Then I woke up.

Note: At one point during this dream, I remember using the spell "Incendio" with just my hands, on someone. I didn't have a wand. This resulted in a small flamethrower-like fire coming out of my fingertips.

Night of July 20, 2015 Monday.



I meet the “mystery girl”, the life-long “dream girl” at an apartment building (where her half-brother is living at the time) - the building with the same name as my middle name near a road with the same name as my first name; neither name being very common and certainly not that popular with mainstream society. I walk up to her taking in the layout of the building on the second floor, the railing, her beautiful smile. “Now you know for sure. That I really care for you. Only the eye can tell you why”.

The dream girl came from a place called Heaven. She lived in an unlikely house with exterior walls missing, like a cutaway view of a house as I saw in my dreams as a child; a rainforest girl, born on Friday the Thirteenth. She was the flower girl in a Nimbin event. The Cowsills sing “I love the flower girl. Was she reality or just a dream to me?” She was across the ocean though I always could feel her and sometimes tried to make the journey in my dreams. “Nimbin” is an imaginary place, a classmate tells me.

“What time is it when the clock strikes thirteen?” it says on the back of a paperback book of ghost stories. “Time to get a new clock,” writes my sister on the cover in blue ink.

“Why did you…?” I start to say to the “mystery girl”. Why did she copy the drawing of the only other person I suspected might actually exist on this planet in a way that brought on the blue light. She looked over my right shoulder on my desk in her moment of lucidity, the drawing of which she mentally took back with her to copy so that I knew something was going on when she sent it to me years later upon discovering she was real. The dream girl and the “other” (the one who originally drew the image) both had similar first names (Susan and Zsuzsanna/Suzi) and their last names; both seven letters, and vowels and consonants in the same sequence, probably not that important in the scheme of things

“I’ve got the key, I’ve got the secret,” sing the Urban Cookie Collective. “Come with me see a brand new day”, Yothu Yindi sing. Meeting my partner is the biggest joy ever, especially seeing her as the most beautiful girl on the planet since early childhood…Roma Hungarian (gypsy) but with an intriguing and unique Roma-Australian accent.

I mishear “you see that cycad palm” as “you see that psychic come”. When I learn of the real lyrics, I smile inwardly. It is a good thing. “Psychics” cannot exist because the Source will have none of it. The Source cannot be controlled, named, poked, or prodded. You might as well try to control how your food digests, molecule by molecule.

I look at her in the mirror (as if I was looking at my own reflection) just prior to her contact. “…and if it sounds a bit upside-down, it’s from down under…” The cassette is my first treasure from her.

My bride is the only voice I could ever hear more deeply inside of me (and it turns out that she was the one that told me things as I was growing up - such as the package of books in the mail that had been split open and left on a desk downstairs from my apartment before I got to my boarding house and their exact arrangement in an impossible visual “memory” - yet this was also somehow like a feminine memory and her voice at the same time), the only one who can bring the blue light within me, it seems. The only other one who seems to exist with me.

“Blue flame!” shouts my brother-in-law looking at me as if for the first time and twists his head around in his arm chair, almost straining his neck, to see if other people are looking my way. He says he sees “blue fire burning” around my head and shoulders. A few minutes later, he is himself again, short-term amnesia taking root as it always does with “normal” people.

I look upon the face of my “imaginary girl” and her visage is of the same beauty as before we met. The same unique voice and accent - since April 9th, 1994, the 99th day of that year.

Have others, somewhere at some point in human history, lived as I have…or even understood as I have, the makings of their own place in the universe, and where every little pattern and idea that exists seems to be specially designed for the self as some sort of clue or hint? There are no records of such that I know of. Skepticism. Anger. Jealousy. Short-term amnesia. Nervous doubt. Fear of the unknown. This is what makes people human. I have to remember that others are like chicks in eggs. I have to remember that even as a young child, adults were like chicks in eggs to me. Everything I saw around me was ridiculously deceitful but unable to sway what I knew. All those frustrated people of my past watch me walk away.

- Eating chocolates with C in the bedroom (Cadbury eggs, yum!) when I look down at a half-eaten one and notice it has this disgusting thing in it:



These are parasites that normally get inside fish and eat, then take the place of, their tongues. They then proceed to steal all of the fish's food as it eats it. So, I freak out majorly and cry etc. I end up saying to C's brother that I'm just gonna have to wait 'til a lump forms in my tongue, then go get it taken out.

- Helping a young teen girl with long, straight blonde hair get out of an abusive family situation; dragging her around town trying to find a safe place, feeling like we're being hunted/followed; go to my old house in town where there are other people living now, take her in and lock us in a room; feels like we're safe, but the owners of the house come home I guess and we have to leave. Later on, girl is gone and I'm frantically searching for her and some other people we were with for a second (Lu, Z & C I think). They'd been parked along the road, waiting for me. It's night and I can't find them. It seems like they had to drive off for some reason, like the bad people came or whatever. I keep looking in dark vehicles, hoping they're hiding in one. Most of them are empty at first, then I start finding scary dark shadow people that I don't know. I get really freaked out and become sort of lucid. I just know that if I fly to the moon I can get out of this reality somehow. So I take off and zoom as fast as I can towards the moon. The going is a little slow due to fear. I top a hill covered in buildings and find myself looking at a big lake with hills far across on the other side. The moon isn't reflected in the water, but its light shines off the surface all over. I'm still trying to get to the moon but I start sinking towards the deep dark water. This scares me, but I'm so tired of being scared that I just say "fuck it" and let myself follow the curve of the dream. This decision actually raises my lucidity to normal levels. I end up deep down in some flooded underwater facility. Alarms and lights are going off and some of the crew is still trying to get things to work. It feels very space-like and reminds me of "The Abyss" except everything is completely flooded and we're all swimming around inside. Things go even more wrong and I want to get out of the situation even more. Suddenly C is with me, helping me calm down and guiding me to the "edge". I feel like the dream has an edge and when I pop out of it I'll wake up. We reach a weird corner that seems superimposed over everything else and we start to push against it, side by side with arms locked together. It's difficult, but I draw strength from C and we both persevere. Slowly the stuff starts to bend outward and our heads start to go through. C starts yelling like there's a really weird sensation, then I notice it. My head feels HOT and very tingly and I "see" pink and purple sparkles on the other side, a little like the static on an old, inactive TV. I can see a cross-section of my own head where it has entered the other side and it is much darker purple than what's around it. I get scared because it feels like there is intense pressure on my head, but I remain determined, let go of C's arm, and dive through the rest of the way. I feel almost like a baby falling out of a mother with the last push, but I also feel like I'm ENTERING a womb-like space. Once totally across, I assume the fetal position. Almost immediately I sit up in bed and all seems normal. My bed is in a different position now, but I don't notice. I decide to RC anyway and surprisingly to me I'm lucid! I wonder what to do, not caring about tasks, and decide to have some adult fun. I stand up and walk out of my room calling for D. I have a short moment of doubt about whether or not he will appear, but I dismiss it. I turn the corner into a small dining room that normally doesn't exist, and there he is, sitting and eating at the table wearing nothing but white boxers with red hearts on them. I interact with him verbally (no recall) and he gets up to come into the other room with me. His form seems weirdly insubstantial though, so I just walk away by myself. I encounter some people already having sex in my bedroom, so I decide to just watch. The guy is facing me while the girl is not and he keeps noticing me and being weirded out. I mutter some things like, "I'm not here, you don't see me," and wave my hands over my face and he stops paying attention. I end up getting involved then waking up.

I was swimming in the ocean and kept going until i saw a boy was told he was going too far. That's when someone who was older and behind him held him so he could move forward to collect a necklace or something like that. (He had a swimming thing so he could breathe under water too)However, a metal gate was in the ocean so no one could move onward. I felt good about this since i became the character that was being a bit too curious. The person carrying me swam back and we ended up on land.However, when i was hoping he would be a interesting DC suddenly he got on a roof and jumped down. He fell slowly and acted like he died when he touched the ground. I was like "'Get up! I'm not that bad to be with! Come on!"

He slowly faded so i went to a bedroom where i saw a kid playing the Wii U. Super smash bros game. He looked into it and for some reason i had the urge to go on the computer. While i was on it i told him i was having a lucid dream and that he was in the dream. I even told him that he should look at the computer when i wanted to show him how to get on dream version of dream views. He said he didn't know English that well though. I decided I would leave him alone. I left but ended up getting up from a bed in my old room. When the lights came on there was a guy singing to a girl on another bed. I decided to leave them alone and went upstairs.

There the house looked somewhat different but you could tell it was morning. I saw a man who looked tan with brown hair, wearing a white long cloak coat like get up there. At first i didn't say hi but when i saw my family hanging around than looked at the cemetery out the window with people looking at it i decided to say hello. He said hi to me and gave me a smile that said "I'm gonna be nice and smile but there's something i'm concerned about." After that i asked the ones in my living room why there was a cemetery outside my house. Than a dream character came from behind me and pushed me outside. We were walking and as i saw the little stones but decorated cemetery sitting on a little mountainous area but still in the country i asked what the dream and the cemetery represented.

The character sounded like a woman i think though. She said it represented my fear and sadness and that thats what people were looking at. Than she took her hand and rotated her hand around my chest like she was rubbing it in the air. I felt the pain that i felt when i get really depressed and sad. Than it faded and I understood what it meant. After that i woke up though.

Iguess i was thinking about my problem again without realizing i was and the dream was just signaling that.

#451 - DILD - 7:15AM

Some goons are chasing because I have an item that is valuable to them. Two come at me and to shoot them both with pistol. I feel like this is a video game and I become lucid. I run through many doors and various rooms for quite a long time. I eventually come to a larger room and meet one of the bad guys head on. Knowing this is a dream an nothing can hurt me, I bum rush the man and put my gun to his temple. I am disappointed by the lack of sound and only see sparks spurting out the other side. Perhaps they are robots? I let this thought go as collect my thoughts as I dismiss whatever story line I was involved in. I realize that I had some goals in mind, but I can't seem to recall them. The effort of thinking on this causes the dream to collapse. I rub my hands to stabilize, but it is of no use.


7:25

I lay awake for a while and think of some cool lucid dream goals. Staring at a ceiling fan and trying to walk up a rainbow. Perhaps one night I'll give it a go.

#452 - DEILD - 7:46AM

I fall into a non lucid dream of being a rapper on stage. I spout some freestyle nonsense and end up sounding a lot like Emenim. I wake up slightly and start to rub my hands with my dream body. I am surprised how vivid it feels so I get up out of bed. I am blind, but I remember that I put on my sleep mask to block out the day light. I try looking through the mask and find that I can partially see the room. This only works for awhile as I make my way outside. I very much feel the mask on my face, but never think to take it off in the dream. I am blind outside and the dream quickly collapses and I wake up.
Or so I thought. It turns out to be a false awakening and I spend a lot of time trying to record my dream in my DJ without much success. I eventually wake up.

I was Trying to get a item (i dont remember what) and these monsters from a horror game ive played, they tried to kill me but i wasnt scared.
i began running as fast as i could and i remember that i double jumped like in videogames.
i ran down some stairs and entered a bright snack store.
(this snack store is very close to my house and i always go there on fridays)
but something didnt seem to fit in.
i started wondering if there was a fridge in the middle of the store last time i was here.
and i realised that im dreaming, i started thinking "dont think of something scary or i might end up in an nightmare"
so i accidentally thought of something scary(it was some kind of dark room with minimal lightning.
the floor collapsed and i fell down on a chair.
a scary looking girl dressed in white approached me closely and i said you're not real.
i'd feel stressed and started laughing without reason.
i began to look at the wall and try to move it, and after some tries it did!
the wall was now a portal to a tropical forest and the girl in the room looked alot prettier.
(i love to have a dream girlfriend because things are less complicated here haha )
i grabbed her hand and jumped down.
we fell to the ground after jumping from the room and everything looked much bigger, like the size of the forest growed alot.
we began to run and explore the forest together and the last thing i remember is that we were sitting on a leaf and eating from a giant taco.