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Morning of April 14, 2014. Monday.



This was a very nice and peaceful dream and it lasted longer on average than other dreams of this type, though not as nice and relaxing as my recent tidal wave dreams that seemed like healing sessions as well as this dream did (mostly as water is autosymbolism for REM sleep and the absence of emotion and the release of physical tension). It is very vivid and my dream self is rendered as corporeal, enjoying all the nice giant snakes swimming around in the ocean. There are at least six or seven of them. They move their bodies about in complex patterns, rolling in the water, seemingly enjoying themselves. The head of the black and red one, which is about as big as a car, comes very close to my face and then turns and goes about its business.

I am mostly, at least at the beginning, on a European powerboat. I am not sure if it is around dawn or dusk at first. It may be dusk, as I did listen to the Charlie Pride song, “The Snakes Crawl at Night” probably too many times as a child. “When the sun goes down, then the snakes will pla-ay…” though he was not actually talking about snakes in the song at all, but when you are that young, you do not understand a lot of things.

I like these giant snakes, especially the black and red and purple ones. They are fun to play with and ride around on and are more assertive and confident over normal-sized ones (an association with the movie “Dinosaurus” seen several times as a child, though it was a brontosaurus that the boy rode, not a giant snake), which sometimes just slither off or hide. I am reminded of Cecil, from “Beany and Cecil”, which I used to watch on my older sister Marilyn’s television as a child.

Eventually, there are less and less giant snakes and I assume they are swimming off into the sunset, which is quite beautiful.

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Obviously, not all snake dreams are healing dreams, but the fact that I was lucid in this case utilizes that understanding, as my conscious self identity is inherently extant to a viable degree in such dreams. For me, snakes and snakelike creatures have often been autosymbolism for stomach cramps due to the similarity of the shape and coiling as with the human intestine. However, they are often in more realistic scenarios as simply the waking alert factor of RAS modulation that even monkeys probably dream of as such (and I doubt monkeys ever dream of snakes as healing factors or as representing other monkeys).

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Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #200: Runway

I’m walking out through the exit of an airport when I realize that I’ve left my cell phone inside, possibly on the plane. I want to turn back to get it but I’m feeling disoriented and can’t find my way back inside.

Now I’m walking along the runway as planes taxi back and forth around me. I know that this is a bad idea but I can’t figure out what else I’m supposed to do and I wonder why they make airports so confusing. A plane rolls by on my right, uncomfortably close, and as I cringe away from it, I realize that this is all a dream.

Calmer now, I walk along the runway toward an odd series of doors set into a metal frame. The frame’s set up right next to a long patch of grass and seems to lead nowhere, but when I walk through one of the doors, now I’m standing in the lobby of an ornate hotel.

There’s a fancy, circular bench covered in some sort of red pillowtop. I walk around it to the foot of a grand staircase. For some reason I decide not to go up and I walk down a hallway around the side of the stairway. I realize that a group of people including my cousin SU is following close behind me. I don’t turn to address them but instead continue on slowly and deliberately, enjoying the vivid, stable feel of the dream.

I come to a large glass window and I move toward it to phase. As I approach, I vividly see the reflections of SU and the 2-3 others behind me. I take the phase slowly, marvelling at the detail of not only the reflections behind me but the sensations of the phase itself. The glass feels like a cool, insubstantial liquid as I pass through it.

I make my way into a busy, two-floor restaurant. It’s a fancy place and I stop to study it. I notice that the waitstaff is all women in their late 20s or early 30s wearing a long brown ponytail.

I remember some snatch of an earlier Task of the Month that I think has something to do with wearing green. As I recall this, all of the waitresses turn to look at me for a moment, all of them now dressed in green pants and a white dress shirt. I notice no transition to the green pants. It’s just as if this is what they’ve been wearing the entire time. I know that I’m not remembering anything relevant about any task, so I let it go and the waitresses turn their attention back to the other DCs in the restaurant.

I walk up the carpeted stairway to another row of tables full of nicely dressed DCs enjoying dinner. It doesn’t look like there’s a free table in the whole place. I walk along for a bit, wanting to explore further, but the dream ends.

I've had a dryspell of over two weeks, but now I'm back !
This dream was pretty short because my cat woke me up

Lucidity: 8/10
Vivacity: 8/10
Control: 8/10

I'm in a modern luxury hotel room, on my laptop. I've got an awesome view on a rich, almost futuristic city with high buildings and an ocean on the left. Apart from the floor and the furniture, the hotel structure sort of reminds me of a friend's apartment.
I'm watching a friend of mine's video on youtube; it's a weird magic video. Accidentally, I copy the video on an editing program and freak out for no reason at all.
I become lucid.
There's no need for any reality check: I know for sure that I'm dreaming.
I brows the program's options and find a cool-looking key: "wooden". I click on that and enter the screen... I land somewhere in the city in which my hotel was at. I see branches coming out out the ground and buildings, green stems and leaves progressively growing on them. Eventually, full trunks grow too, until the place resembles a city that would have been deserted for hundreds of years.
People in front of me back up slowly, looking at me with awed stares, as if I was the Devil just coming down to kill them all.
Well, they're not exactly wrong...
Up on the rooftops at my right, a friend of mine stares at me. I feel like he is the hero whose duty is to stop me.
Nah f*ck that.
I walk a bit in the streets, with a masked guy who followed me. Eventually we arrive to a sort of "bridge"; the beach is close to my left, in front of me is a ~5 meter drop onto a calm road.
The masked guy asks me how big I want to become, and I scream "I want to be expandable !" (wut?).
I've already grown about half my size, but I want more.
I walk up to the fence that is supposed to prevent me from falling onto the road, cross it, and adopt a suicidal pose: my feet half way in the air, holding myself onto the rail behind me.
I focus on the buildings in front of me, with the masked guy watching me. I slowly take a few steps in the air, but I'm not falling: my body extended to the ground. I walk around a little bit, I can hear my feet pounding on the floor. The masked guy followed me. He grew too, but not as much as me.
I hear weird, loud noises coming from everywhere, until I wake up and realize my cat was scratching on my door

12.04.2014

Putting on a Tape Suit & Plastic Bag Carrot Humping (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’m inside a classroom that resembles my biology class at a High School I attended years back (CLHS as an abbreviation for personal reference).

I’m trying to put on a transparent suit that looks like it’s really made out of tape. I ask individuals how to put it on, and when one of them portrays the method to me, it seems more complicated than it seems. How in the world does one put on a tape suit without it sticking to their clothing?

After a bit, there’s an inflated, and transparent produce bag with a few carrots on the bottom. I put my penis inside, and started humping it. I think there was a competition of who could hump it more, and going for more than ten was more than enough to get by, I guess.

I think the individuals were cheering me on, talk about ego boosting for inanimate object fornication.

Kind of reminds me of what I had to do for work today, excluding the humping part and ego boosting, and cheering…and my penis inside a bag.

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12.04.2014

Buzzing Near the Window (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wake up from my bed, or so it seems, and tried to get back to sleep, seeing how I didn’t want to feel too groggy for work, especially with the activities done today. It feels so nice wanting to go back to sleep, back into a state of relaxation and comfort, until something keeps making a buzzing sound that’s extremely annoying.

I wondered how could something could be so active during the dead of night, seeing how unless it had vision for seeing clearly for night, it would reside somewhere safe until there’s more light apparent. I tried to go to sleep several times, but the buzzing sound keeps pestering me.

I eventually decided to do a nose plug reality check, pressing my nose with my right index finger and thumb, and was able to breathe just fine. The dream environment seemed to have replicated the house I’m currently residing in to some extent. So, having this in mind, I take the chance to try and go out the usual way to exit the house.

I proceed by going through the white door, and trying to open it. However, it seems I have to punch in some kind of code in order to unlock it. The buttons consisted of a light milky green color with a rubbery texture. The material surrounding the buttons is white all around, and is shaped almost like a tooth, without the points at the end of course.

And out of reflex, I seemed to have entered a random code: 90321 I believe, without knowing if it was the right one or not. Unfortunately, the alarm has a very long and annoying beep sound, and this prompts me to try an escape, because I don’t know what could be inside the other bedroom in this dream, especially when it’s way too dark inside.

And wanting to turn on the lights was out of the question, since I felt a bit fearful of something randomly coming out. Though most of the time, the places in my lucid dreams are often barren, and not really something where random entities will come about to try and kill me, or something dangerous. I probably should’ve been aware of this before running as if I’m Michael Scofield from Prison Break, ha-ha.

I go through the living room, and quickly unlocked the door to get out, and now the dream shifts from night to early morning immediately. Now I’m immersed in a virtual experiential reality that seems to be exactly like waking life at first glance, and with more clarity and realism as well. I marvel at this, my breathing, and just my overall existence within this dreaming state.

The weather, the sensations on my feet against the cold concrete of what seems to be an area where it rained recently, everything felt so real, and then some. After a few seconds of absorbing this experience, I get an urgency to continue running, even though it doesn’t seem like anyone is after me.

As I’m running, I’m changing perspectives where I look at myself running, and it seems to go by in slow motion, and the motion of running is a bit exaggerated at times; it often looks like I’m floating in the air for a good bit, and making weird leg movements to quickly save my descent.

After watching this for a while, I wake up in a series of false awakenings for most of the dreams below. Fortunately, the nose plug reality check is going to save me.

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12.04.2014

Confucius gives LD advice (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Felt as if I woke up, then I reconciled with awareness of the experience being a dream again.

I’m standing on top of a building, and it seems to be early morning, or an event where it rained previously. I see a dream character that looks like Confucius, and he’s lecturing to others on lucid dreaming techniques and advice.

As for actual declarations to recall from him, I can't remember.

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12.04.2014

Picking Up a Black Biker Jacket Wearing Chick & Escaping with Her (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wake up once more, only to reconcile with awareness of this being a dream once more. Maybe this was a DEILD, since I can recall those experiences of transitioning back to waking state with my eyes closed, and seeing imaginary simulations of being awake, or maybe it’s just a false awakening altogether.

I’m inside a theater, and it has the usual settings. You know, red carpet, and other warm colors to mask off all those stains from being apparent at first glance. The putrid smell that is also prevalent in theaters that’s like a mélange of buttered popcorn, weasels, intense chlorine, air freshener, and other chemicals. I didn’t take the time to visualize all the major details of the theater itself, but I do know that in the current location I’m at, there’s many paths you could take from the circular base I’m standing on.

I see an attractive girl, I think, with long black hair, and she’s wearing a black biker jacket of some sort. Underneath that, she’s wearing some kind of milky vanilla shirt that’s fairly tight, and makes her bosoms eye-candy at this point. For some reason, I had an urgency to pick her up, and hold her back, and the bottom of her knees, and run off with her.

She seems shocked at first, but then kind of goes with the flow, and I’m going with the flow as well. Then the next moment, I’m using my legs to kick anyone that seems to be in my way, and there’s a slight uproar going on while I’m running with the girl.

This takes “chasing” women to a whole new extreme.

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12.04.2014

Kakashi Gives me Lucid Dreaming Advice (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This seems to be the last dream in the false awakening chain of events, or maybe the one before it was.

I’m sitting down with Kakashi, younger version, and he’s giving me lucid dreaming advice. However, the advice seems kind vague, and not really something that could be applicable in all circumstances.

He states that if you find yourself in two conditions:

• Where there’s little light
• Where it’s too bright

That one would most likely be dreaming.

Your non-sequiturs are what prevented you from saving Rin, Kakashi, just as your vague circumstantial lucid dreaming advice is. And that totally was not a non-sequitur, ba-dum tiss.

Though, looking back, he could be right, especially since I was in complete darkness in the buzzing insect dream, to being in a hyper-realistic virtual experiential reality the next, and then inside a bright theatre.

But still, the advice is severely limited.

4/12/13** My awareness is still not up to pre dry streak levels but 3 LDs in 2 days...I'll take it! Lots of fun as well! To bed around 12:10am - tried to simulate son waking me like on 3/30/14 which launched a nice early LD, this time using a gentle alarm ~70 minutes after bed for DEILD attempt but may have had some REM rebound the previous time...will try 80 minutes next time. Completely missed the 3 snoozes 1 hour apart and turned it off at wbtb...my alarm app has a max snooze of 60 minutes so...may be better for late DEILD attempts.

Interesting non lucid tie-in to another non-lucid in same night. Father Fitzpatrick (name not known to me but I bet there are a few somewhere in the world) is coming by and a Patrick comes by...could it be Patrick Fitzpatrick I wonder...no just a Patrick. In a later dream I tell Father Fitzpatrick "You will not believe this! I had a dream about you last night and this is the first time I am meeting you!"

DILD 1 - wake from it ~8:40am. I am in a kitchen unlike any from my memory, old style. There is a bag of candies but only 5 left and they look picked over and broken. I am peeking out my curtains and apparently there is a house in the back yard, like an in-law unit but it is a good size white single story home that looked most like an old farm house. I could see someone in the window and then the curtains close. I go back into the kitchen and there is a stranger standing in front of the sink and I realize this is a dream. I decide to knock around the stranger and go on a bit of a rampage around the house messing with different DC's and eventually fly up out of the house and then realize I should fly back down and think about what goals I should do before losing awareness or most likely waking up since I don't recall anything after and my recall was fairly strong tonight.

* sexual content warning *
DILD 2 - wake from it ~10:50am - 2 different components from this WILD attempt turned DILD showed up in my dream - an HI that I played with via visualization and then a completely manual visualization. My father and I are on a bus or RV and guiding the driver. I have been here before (false memory) and it goes from 3 lanes to 1. "You can get over one lane...actually you can get all the way over now." We jump out to help in some way and plan to get back on at the red light but the driver runs the red light and leaves us behind. We cross two crosswalks at intersection to get on same street he turned down to see if he pulled over. Nope. We go into a nice hotel lobby and my father says he has the driver's number. I should get it also I think. My father jumps on a University transport bus to borrow a phone but the doors close=2nd separation (1st from others on RV/bus). I know if I stay at the hotel he will find his way back to me and he does later and it has shopping like the hotel is connected to a mall or just a really large hotel with some shops including an ice cream shop. My father makes some corny joke to the lady in the shop and repeats it in case she missed it the first time. I see a woman standing provocatively and realize I am dreaming but start off with lower awareness. She is standing on a ramp elevated purposely giving a view up her skirt and I take a look (this was also the theme of an HI before the dream). I go around like a bit of a dog and enjoyed in particular this large breasted blonde woman (more blonds than normal I think as a result of Scarlett) with a white pull over shirt and jean shorts. I pull up her shirt and she pulls it back down. I tell her "you know you like this" and she goes along. I pull it up again and am expecting a bra clasp in the front and lower the shirt and raise it again willing it to be in the front. Nope, so I reach around and undo the clasp. Nice! I remove her shorts and underwear and my own and she remarks "I think your **** is too big, you might hurt me" but as I stick it in she enjoys it. We go at it a good while to the point of me thinking that this dream just keeps going and going. I carry her around the mall with her legs straddled around me and continue to have sex. We make our way into a movie theater and my father has followed...oh well. They are playing a racy movie on the screen and we continue to have sex in the theater seating. Someone grasps my shoulders from behind and I know that it is my wife. She says "you have saliva all over your ****" I say "saliva...uh, yeah right..." I use my mind to change the movie to a cartoon. There are kids around but I am dreaming, it doesn't really matter. A's friend M (another visualization before dream) comes over and the blond is gone now and she sticks her hand on my **** she just has to get a feel on it. My underwear is back on but I yank it out and let her feel it some more. I wake up physically affected...enough said.

Key:
basic i: Red
bonus: Blue

Earliest Part I can remember was in a grocery store. I became lucid and felt like messing with DC's for some reason. So I started walking backwards through the store as the DC's looked at me like I was insane. Then I got on my hands and started walking upside down and backwards through the store and I walked over to one guy and slapped him on the butt. He was a large gentleman, I apologized because he looked quite shocked. I told him, "I would have slapped you on the back but I am upside down as you can clearly see." I then started stealing peoples' shoes with telekinesis. I would make their shoes fly off their feet or make them fly in the air before I steal them. They all started running at me trying to take my shoes but I just laughed at them and ran over to another area of the store. I found Bender and Fry from Futurama there. I jumped into their spaceship (which had a door on the other side of one of those frozen food aisle doors).

We shot off into space and on the way we somehow split into different spaceships. I suddenly noticed that something was quite strange and noticed that I wasn't moving anymore. We were all getting sucked into a supermassive black hole. This is where it started to get really weird. We didn't get fully pulled into the absolute center. We left our ships and swam through space (towards the black hole) until we got to a membrane that separated the black hole from the rest of the universe? I don't know how to explain it very well. It was as though we were in the middle of this membrane where on one side was the rest of the universe and on the other was past the event horizon. Everything that had come to this point was squished together in this space but it seemed to those that were squished there to be quite normal and nothing looked like it was squished together. We all started exploring this strange place and I asked one space creature why we were here and not getting sucked in further. He told me that nothing could pass the point at which the acceleration due to gravity exceeds the speed of light. I told him that I thought he was wrong and I asked why he said that. He told me that we couldn't travel faster than the speed of light. I responded that I remembered something about changing relativistic mass. He said that was not relevant in this situation.

I went off to explore some more with Fry, Bender, and The Professor who was now with us. We came to a home of a space cricket that had gotten trapped here too. He peeked his little cricket head out of a pile of space plants. They looked like fried onion rings but were extremely light. I asked him in cricket language how we could get out of here. He said in cricket sounds that I couldn't understand that the black hole was about to collapse in on itself and open a worm hole (Fry translated for me?). We all raced to our ships for some reason. I was swimming through space to get to my ship but it had turned into the size of an apple. Fry's ship had as well. So Fry and I raced to get to another ship. I decided that this was silly and that I had awesome dream powers. So I swam towards the black hole side of the membrane while chanting to myself that it's okay. I was a lil' bit scared. On the other side was a void of nothingness. I woke up.

This is the kind of experience that I don’t know exactly where to put it: WILD/OBE?...
I woke up at 5:30 extremely happy, I thought for an hour about how happy I was with life, just because…

I know that when I’m this happy, I have a strange feeling in my belly, like something warm and moving inside. I fell asleep again with this overwhelming feeling of happiness and next thing I felt were the vibrations and the funny feelings of an OBE, which I think are some kind of different from WILD, I also felt like a BIG hand pulling me from my bed, I thought “not OBE please, I just want a lucid dream”, I instantly felt like something was “decreasing” and then some images began appearing as if there was a screen in front of me, and that usually happens when I try WILD, the screen appears and I jump into the scene.

I feel “something” is “calling” me, I don’t know how to describe this feeling, but the next thing I feel is that I’m flying over a ship, the sea is brave and there is someone in the sea asking for help, it’s not that I hear her, I just know this person is probably dying, also I don’t know why I do it but I just sent love to that person dying.

Next scene: I’m in the middle of nothing, floating around in space, there’s almost complete darkness, I see some stars but very far away, and very few. I try to look at my hands but I don’t have a physical body, I don’t see anything but I feel I am something. I touch my belly (the place where I feel there’s something) with my “hands” and I feel something extremely weird, I don’t know if “pain” would be the appropriate word, but it felt as an electric shock.

I began swimming around in this nothingness, not knowing exactly where to go, since everything is very far, and there’s almost nothing. I see something like a big hand appearing and pointing me to follow it (well, I didn’t quite see it, it was a combination of seeing and feeling… nevermind, it’s hard to describe what it was like) I follow it but since I’m moving too slow by swimming I increase speed with thought until something “opens” and I’m traveling very fast, I’m approaching to something big and red, I think I’m going to land inside a planet, but as I come closer I see it’s not a planet, it’s just something red with gold, a planetary nebulae (now I know the name), like this one but less dense


when I pass by it I hear a loud whoosh!! I gasp because I was impressed, I’ve never seen something like that before… but I think that the sound of gasping was real because I heard it coming also from my real body, and that’s what woke me up… well, not exactly full waking, it was false awakening over false wakening several times… and on the last one happened something really weird that had happened to me only a couple of times before during OBE, it’s a very brief moment where I realize why I am here, it includes so much more…. It feels like traveling very fast through “layers” until I’m here, but the difference between those layers it’s just some energy I would call fear.

Journal Entry Lucid #23 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background:I meditated before going to sleep. I told myself I could have a LD but it is ok if I don't have one just as long as I could remember my dream.

Dream fragment 3 time 4:360am-5:43am"":
I was being annoyed by my sister. She kept on running in front of me and opening the door, but in a slow way. She opened one door and it led to my school in the AA building next to the restaurant. I realized I have been here before. I walked and did a RC, a nose plug. I felt the air pass through.

I realized it was a dream. I tried to stabilize by spinning. The dream was really unstable, I though I was going to lose it. I started entering void. I hear a voice that said, "a lot of people view themselves in a dream as powerful people, they live a split personality". The voice brought me out of the void. Like a picture it came back. I was at the school. I laid on the floor. I looked at the floor it looked just like the schools. I thought this is too real. I kept walking, I started to think that i was in an alternative reality. I tried to use telekinesis when my calc II teacher drove by. Car turned, I was about to be relieved, but he came out just to say sup to his friend. I thought I couldn't do simple telekinesis. I kept walking. I see cars just like in school. I see people talking and having a great time. Nothing out of the usual. On the other side this man followed me. He seem to know what is going on. The only person that paid attention. I walked to him and said, "could they see me?" He responded, "they don't see a man that sees no-one. This goes both ways. And that is why I am going to kill you".

I realized not an alt reality it is just a dream. I then started repeating what he said so that it will stick inside my head. I tried my best. I then started smiling. I jumped to fly. Since my belief changed, it is now a dream in which I could do what ever I like. I flew up, he flew behind me grabbed my foot and tossed me back to the ground. It felt painful when I hit the floor. He landed and tried to have a one on one with me. I did a jujitsu move and I took him to the floor. I wrapped my legs around him and I said, "I am sorry, I love you (I am just trying to project love, it didn't work) but I am going to have to kill you. I started squeezing the life out of him like a snake. He started to smile. And as he was about to give out, I woke up.

Journal Entry Lucid #22 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background:I meditated before going to sleep. I tole myself I could have a LD but it is ok if I don't have one just as long as I could remember my dream.

Dream fragment 2 time 8:00pm-2:37am"":
Long story short inside game, met a guy that was trying to teach my friend to shoot with a helicopter. He landed an airplane and he tried to convince us that he has a book that is wonderful. we were in a book store and he picks up a book and he told us it is really good and we should buy it. I turn and I see a pig looking guy like from Simpsons, he was in the store and he was inside my house all of a sudden. I asked who's dream am I in?(dream quality went up) Am I inside this pig guy's dream? They chuckled at me. I thought about it, it doesn't make sense, why would I be in someone else's dream. I am most likely in my dream. I did a finger count 5. My hands were wavey though going back and forth. I then did nose plug. I felt my hands pinch my nose while feeling the air pass through my hands.

I realized it was a dream. As I am heading to my room, I see grandmother and it started to get pitch black. I decided to go outside. It felt like somebody put a purple overlay on my eyes. The world looked different with an increase in highlights of purple. I then started to rub hands and it started turning reddish. I then did spin technique and it stabilized the dream incredibly fast. I see tree's all over my house. I saw green trees and blue. Some tall as the red wood and some short. I walk and I see a swimming pool and in the middle a nice little island with a tree on it. I tried to walk on water. I did it before I told myself.

I touched the water and I felt the water beneth my feet. I didn't walk on water. I thought I was going to sink in so I started to fly. I then realized that the water was not big enough because it hasn't even covered my legs. I then landed and started swaying my hands up and down to make the pool get full. The water followed my hands as I push forwards the wave went forward as I pushed down it goes backwards. I realized I still can do telekinesis so I turned and lifted my left arm the water followed me. The water itself was motionless above my head. I wanted to see the texture of the water so I put my hands in side of it. It felt like any water I ever had. I became excited about the realism of the dream and the possibilities. So I woke up

Journal Entry Lucid #21 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I had, well a misunderstanding, a disagreement with my mom and dad about our belief. I told them that it is ok that they don't believe the same thing as me. We agreed to disagree. I also meditated and I told myself I could have a LD but it is ok if I don't have one just as long as I could remember my dream.

Dream fragment 1 time 8:00pm-11:34pm"":
I was in the car with my dad and I was about to do a R.C. My dad stops me and I think he said, "don't be like John(I thought john the baptist for some reason)". The car was no more and we were walking on the road. I see a man in the middle of the highway. My dad was saying while I realized it was a dream, "you never know when it is a dream".

I realized it was a dream. I became angry that my dad tried to trick me earlier and he didn't want me to do a RC. I started backing away from him. He looked at me, I said, "leave me alone you lied to me, I know it is a dream". He transforms into a bigger version of himself. I leave and I tried to stabilize by rubbing my hands. He followed me. I was now next to a bridge. I started disassembling parts to some vehicle by using telekinesis. I then wanted to see how good of a toss I could get out of my telekinesis. I toss it as hard as I can. It stopped mid-flight.

I turn and I see my dad with his hands raised up. I told him, "I don't want to talk to you". He walks in front of me. I toss the object again but then he stopped it yet again. I got angry, I said, "why would a DC be this powerful?" I told myself normally I would wake up in a time like this so I stabilized. I didn't want to have anything to do with him so I used my telekinesis to toss him in the air. s I was walking these people showed up to distract me and wake me up. A guy told me about my wrong doing. Too many people so I ran. I went through a door in a builiding and out a window which led to another room and I had to go through another window, dream logic . I ran across street went into somebodies house. I see this fat girl thathad her butt crack showing it was disgusting so much so that I started losing lucidity. I turn and I see my dad and other people. I realized I better wake up before I forget dream which I did a little.

Journal Entry Lucid #20 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I told my parents I no longer need their permission to have LD. I realized that "right" and "wrong" are just a different view of the same picture so they don't have to agree with me and I don't have to agree with them. I told them that and they were upset at me. They were praying for me, I guess to change. And the most important part of the dream the man with half a face showed up because I have been having dreams that are gruesome where one involved my grandmother being killed and other with a man being stapled. I had the chance to confront it but I blew it for my own selfish telekinesis. I will have another chance hopefully. I meditated and I told myself I could have a LD but it is ok if I don't have one just as long as I could remember my dream.

Dream fragmennt 1, time 8:10pm-12:00am"":
I was in the living room and I see my dad on his laptop. He was using a program without me showing him how to use it. He asked me, "How long have I slept?" I looked at hand clock and it said 11 something. I said that weird why would he ask me, he hasn't slept at all. I then hear a voice that said move to your energy box. It got pitch black as I walked to grandma's room. I awoken for a brief moment and understood that it was the recording of Robert Monroe.

While conscious I tried to go back to sleep. I see a vague picture of a white horse in my room. It then became clearer and clearer. I had arms and I could move them. The first thing I did is rub my hands to stabilize. As I opened the door to my room it took me to a country side. I see a man to my right with half his face torn. No eyes and flesh dragging on his face. I thought I should project love. I don't want him to bother me though. I don't want to wake up,since I wake up after being satisfied with task I finish. I then gave him a cheap hug and I said, "sorry!". I turn to see if he left and he looked at the floor sad and began walking away. Most of the time when other lucid dreamers project love it ends in a wonderful way. I started to feel conflicted about the choice I made, he didn't disappear. I kept walking and thinking about it, I completely ignored the road made of gold and started walking elsewhere. I see my sister along with my cousin FN, AL, and BY. I tried to use my telekinesis and lift my sister up, but I was still distracted by the incident. She was just on her phone, nothing happened. I turned and tried again she went up, but then she shook her head of disapproval and she floated back down. I tried to lift my cousins and they went up but once I tried to lift my sister it doesn't work. I got angry and when I flicked my finger to make them land, they got launched to the floor. I then hear a countdown 10..9..8..-4 I woke up It was the mp3 player doing count down.

1. M.
I'm riding my bicycle down the road in a crowd of other cyclists. Suddenly I hear someone call my name. I recognise the voice (female, sweet), but I don't quite remember to whom it belongs. I stop riding, turn around and see my old friend M walking towards me smiling. I haven't seen her for a couple of years IWL. She looks happy and beautiful. Her hair is shiny and black and she's wearing a cable-knit sweater the colour of cream. At this point I know I'm dreaming. The surroundings are a little drunken and blurry, so I decide to stabilise the dream. I go in for a hug M ducks out of it with a confused smile. "What are you doing?" she asks. "I'm just trying to stabilise the dream" I tell her, and she allows my second attempt. Her body feels solid and warm, her hair is soft and smells of perfume. The experience is very real and I feel very happy. We then move to a table outside a nearby restaurant. M starts drawing with charcoal on a piece of paper. She's drawing me as I looked when I was a baby. I see that she also has a drawing of my brother J as a baby. The drawings are very good, they look like photograhps. M then attempts a portrait of me then and there, but she can't even draw an oval for the head shape. It looks like a child's drawing. She shrugs and proceeds to show me som of her other drawings. There is one of her old professor, one of some girls from high school and one of a lecture hall from my time at uni. The last one is moving and colored, and I feel myself getting dragged in - the dream slipping out of control. I wake up.

2. Garble, Random Violence, TotM-failX2 and Flying.
I enter the dream already lucid. Its the same cityscape I just left, only more empty and the buildings look more 2D. My friend M is still there, but more as a comforting presence. I leave her still drawing at the table, and go across the street, where I see around 6 DCs benched around a wooden table. I join them with the intention of completing the TotM, which I remember (falsely of course) to be "speak garble to a DC and record their reaction". I start to introduce myself to a DC like this: "Hello, I'm floobbydy quaklik saddadink kong long" or something like that. To my surprise the DC gamely responds in the same fashion. Only he is shouting and gesturing wildly, as if he is doing sign language at the same time. The other DCs start doing the same around me, and I get a little intimidated. So I decide to hit the nearest one hard on the head with my knuckles! This makes him very aggressive, and he graps me.
I decide that now is the time to fullfill the goal I have set for my next LD (levitating) and kick off from the ground. I fly a some 8 metres into the air, but the DC is still clinging to my feet! I'm getting a bit desperate as he starts to climb up my body, but I can't kick him off. I then get the great idea to imagine my body completely covered in olive oil. One of the DC's hands immediately slips off my leg, but the other is grapping my pants. I'm so slippery that my pants fall clean off and disapear together with the DC. As I'm floating pants-less in the air it occurs to me to finish another TotM, namely being naked in front of a crowd of DCs (this is also not a TotM, I think it is an old one). But then I wake up.

3. The Crazy Lady's Ark and the Creepy Horror Show. Oh and another TotM fail.
I enter the dream somewhat lucid. Lucidity fluctuates though, and my dream control is very bad. I am standing in front of a house. The dream scene looks like a high-end american suburban neighborhood with mansion-like houses. On the porch of the house a crazed looking young woman is standing. I glimpse some movement behind her, but it is difficult to see. I study my hands to stabilise, but it only works for a moment. The crazed lady is chasing some teenagers away who apparently wanted to explore "the haunted house". I am suddenly in the house. I see several fiery ghosts surrounding the crazed lady, and I get a flashback to her past, where I see her burning her entire family alive.
(Memory gap)
I am still in the house, but it looks like my old elementary school. The hallway is filled with all kinds of animals. I realise, that the crazed lady is building Noa's Arc Vol. 2. Suddenly the animals start moving towards me, towards the doorway. They seem to be more or less floating as an unstoppable fleet. I almost get eaten by a giant shark. I have to press myself into a corner to avoid getting squashed by the giant polar bear. When all the animals are gone, only the crazed lady and I are left in the hallway. I look out the window and see some pigs and goats and two little white lamb. I ask the lady: "Aren't those animals going too?" She looks at me and gravely says "God doesn't like those kind of animals". I convince her to bring them anyway.
(Memory gap)
I'm outside the house. It's dark and I can't stabilise the dream. I feel close to waking up. I decide to change the dreamscape and try for the TotM challenge of creating my own never-seen-before plant (which is actually the TotM). I start spinning very fast while keeping my eyes open. I imagine a simple white room with a window and a potted plant.
What I get is a vivid, dark and very creepy dreamscape that looks like a part of my parent's farm. This one feels more stable. I'm in front some old buildings which aren't in use anymore. There is a big full moon which casts a creepy light on the roof and the road in front of the buildings, but I am standing in the shadows. Suddenly I feel something disgusting brush by me. I grab it and throw it into the moon-illuminated road. It is a slimy pale human leg somehow attached to half a human brain. The brain has a long slimy flesh cord dangling from it. It is utterly disgusting I walk away from the thing and then I see a grey stallion rearing in front of the full moon (classic!).




But then I encounter two little creepy turkey/chicken. They are small and fat and have the faces of old women. They look evil, so I decide to go around the buildings to look for something for my plant. I find a garden with a lot of strange, bulging and glistening vegetables. They look promising, but when I get closer I see that most are halfway covered in greenish blue mold. I don't want to touch that! But I find a small vegetable that looks like a cross between a tomato and a sharon fruit. I pick it, and then I wake up at a table in another dream. I see a lady who looks like a 80ies aerobics instructor. I tell her "you are a very good dream coach! I just had my third LD in a row!" She is impressed and replies "Wow, that's crazy, have you told the intern yet?" And then I wake up for real.

These were my dreams from this morning. The first, which I remember almost nothing about, solely consisted of me texting a friend while sitting in bed. Something caused me to wake up and I saw that I still had a little more than an hour before my alarm would go off, so I attempted a WBTB.

I remember I was in a car with Sam and Dean from Supernatural, with possibly one other person. We stopped somewhere to eat I think, and at some point, I acquired a flash of lucidity. I got a little too excited and closed my eyes, very nearly waking myself up right there, but I just relaxed and visualized the setting of the dream and managed to stabilize it. I got back in the car with everyone else and started driving when I got the idea to just make the car fly like the way John flew the car in Homestuck. I imagined the car lifting off like a plane as I drove on the road, and it did start to lift a bit, but then a tornado appeared in front of us and lifted us up, although I still had complete control over the car and apparently the tornado. I commented that it was like The Wizard of Oz and cackled like a witch on purpose, then the dream or my recall skipped again. Still lucid, I was in a city at night standing in the street. I looked up into the sky determined to fly again and jumped. It was a bit difficult and I gained altitude pretty slowly, but I spread my arms, visualized rising up like an eagle riding a hot updraft (visualizing seems to really help when I'm trying to exert control), and flew up and over a bridge. Some of the birds who were up there squawking and chirping at me, so I jokingly squeaked and chirped back. I got the feeling that we actually understood each other, and eventually I landed on a rooftop garden courtyard thing.

I believe I lost lucidity at this point, and there were a lot of kittens laying around in this courtyard that led down into an apartment. Most of them ignored me, until I walked down into the apartment a bit. I was afraid to proceed too far into the apartment for fear of getting caught, but then a few cats meowed and jumped onto me. They weren't hurting me, but they wouldn't let go and were basically just trying to weigh me down. I tried climbing back up the stairs but so many jumped on me I collapsed. I wasn't exactly afraid, they were just kittens after all, but I was a bit annoyed and I kept struggling until I woke up.

I have just waken up from a 5 hour sleep, I sit there and decided I wanted to try and have an OBE and with in 2 mins I was knock out again. That's when I realize I was no longer lying down on my bed I was standing up at the front door of my Father room. I check my hands to confirm if this was a dream or was awake or having an OBE. I had 5 fingers however I felt very dizzy as if I was swaying from both sides while standing up. The room look real however I wasn't fully convince I was awake in real life so I decided to jump and when I did I began to hover on the ceiling. Once that happen I confirm that I was dreaming, I decide to leave my Father room and go through the living room to go upstairs. As I went upstairs the dizziness began to increase as it overwhelm me enough to fall down. I manage to make it upstairs and decide to go in my mother room. It look the same and no one seem to be in the house. So I decided to open up the curtains and it show the sky was grayish clouded but bright as if sun was litting out from them. I wanted to go outside now so I attempt to go through the wide window however it push me back . I was wondering why all my lucid dreams don't let me go through things all the time. I left my Mother room and could tell the dizziness was going to take me out of the dream. I jump over the stairs and land gently on the ground. That's when I look at the sofa and tried to change it's color however as it change to stripe orange my arm froze and then everything else froze. I couldn't move and knew the dream was over. Lucidity Time : 2 mins

I'm in China buying some things in a store but I'm in a group. They start leaving because it's late but I'm waiting for something, then I began running because the boat will leave us if we don't arrive soon.

By the time I get there with my heavy bags the boat had already left and I was the last one standing there. I panic because I don't know the language and I'm on my own. To make things worse, the scenario changes and people start throwing something like small bombs, gunshots begin also, everybody carries some kind of fire, torches or something, they are saying things like "destroy the anarchy!", it seems a war is starting and I'm in total panic because they are throwing bombs at me, at everybody. Also I have an urge to pee and there's nowhere to, it's my life or my bladder...

At this moment I'm paralyzed by fear and this kind of blinding fear is one of my dream signs, so I think "wait a moment... wtf am I doing in China?, it's not July yet...this is a dream!!".

Even when I became lucid I was still very scared. Obviously I'm not making any task in the middle of this riot, I neeed to get out of here to calm down.
I look at the sky, drop my bags and began flying to the space. There are some people in the air following me with their fire. This can't be possible... I control this dream... I think in the tornado task, but I don't want to kill them, just to stop killing each other, so, while I'm flying I summon heavy rain to extinguish their fire.
I don't feel the rain, but take a glimpse to the ground and it's kind of blurry, but I think it worked.

I continue going up to the space. There's a moment where I reach a place where I am surrounded by complete darkness, I wait for some planets of galaxies to appear but there's nothing, and I'm floating without control of my body because of the zero-gravity, but I'm calmer.
For a moment I don't know what I am, I don't even feel I have a body, I'm just floating there in the darkness, I opened my eyes and woke up.


Note to self: work with the attachment to material things. When I dropped the bags I felt kind of sadness for leaving my recently buyed things.
Obviously this dream is a projection of my fear of going to China next July, I fear not knowing the language and the possibility of facing situations on my own there.