lucid

Wake up at 8:56am.

Curl under my blanket, and manage to WILD purely by accident.

*Note, after writing 3/4 already: I walked around with my blanket for most of the dreams, so I'd have something to feel to stabilize the dream*

Wake up in my bedroom. Somehow realize that I'm dreaming. Try what one of the experienced LDers told me to do, to find my tulpa, and go into the bedrooms in my house to try and find him, but it's only my family sleeping in their beds. Double check to see if I am dreaming, and I have 10+ fingers on each hand. Go downstairs, and my dad is on the computer. The upstairs is my current house, but the downstairs is my old house. TRIPLE check to see if I am dreaming. First the clock says 7:31, then it says 7:11. Shout my tulpae's name. Nothing. Try to "think" to him. He explains, mentally, that he doesn't know how to get in the dream. Some other stuff happens. At around 5:01 (or so the ever-changing clock says), he says he's going to bed.

Wake up in bedroom again. Check my fingers, 6 or 7 on one hand and 5 on the other. Go downstairs. There is a bunch of animals in our house, and on the front lawn. They are all the size of a cub or a puppy. I see a wolf, but it is gone before I can get to it. My parents explain that they are looking to buy a pet. I ask them if there was a wolf, and they say yes, but they don't know where it went. I sigh, sadly, and look around the house. Come back outside, there is a group of people hanging out around the house, as well as the pups/cubs, and a few anthro animals. I look up, and there's an anthro wolf wearing a trench-coat. The dream starts to fade, (This was at the end of the dream, and my clock says it was about 40 minutes long), and he points at me, and gestures me to come over. I walk over, trying to stabilize the whole time. I say "Is it you?" and he says "Yes". Then he wraps his arms around me an kisses me.

Wake up at 9:35. Ask my tulpa if it was him and he says it was.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

There was some anime with story about some detective dude who visited some school and was getting all clues by beating up people and in the end he found out that the teacher was behind everything and then there's some other character appeared.

Dream 2:

I am in my room, doing some stuff, and i spontaneously realize that i am dreaming, i take off a few headsets(seems to be my new reality check, multiplying headsets, haha) and then go towards balcony, i look around and it's different, more cramped than IWL and it's more structually into building. Suddenly dream fades out.
I wake up still dreaming, but can only see cloudy blackness, though still can feel that i am in my room. Dream is highly unstable. I get up from the bed and go in general direction of balcony, i hear familiar voice of attacker DC, as he gets in my way, i forcefully shove him off to the side and continue towards balcony while trying to force dream to stabilize with sheer will. As i reach balcony dream becomes stable and blackness fades, i rub hands and take off a few more headsets because why not, balcony seems to be pretty similar to before false awakening.
I jump, feel my wings and start flying. I fly to the left from the balcony and there are some yellow buildings, trees and some highways. After a bit of just flying i decide to try that idea of starting transformation from phantom sensations. I focus on them and it starts, i feel and see snout and also the side of nearest building becomes reflective, in reflection i see that my head is a head of dragon now, black/grey scales and a few horns, but as i try to move, it reverts back. I fly over some fence and there's some passage under bridge. I land and decide to go through it, there are some DCs.
I exit passage and now i am in some foggy park place(As in, natural fog), with trees and a puddle of water to the right, i take off once again with my wings and i fly higher, out of the fog. I look around and there are some tall red brick buildings surrounding the park, i fly higher and get onto the roof of one, then i continue flight. As i fly i notice that one of buildings has small weird HP bar near the roof, i get onto it and stomp a few times, with each stomp taking out part of hp bar, as it reaches 0% building falls apart in the place, then i continue flight and notice more buildings with hp bars and part of their hp missing, they look actually damaged. As i fly over one, i hear some voice saying something and then some force knocks me to the right, i fall onto the streets, but manage to land perfectly. I look around and see some buildings on fire and some factory building. I walk and lose lucidity, i walk through some streets and reach some gas station.
I wake up and i am apparently in some outdoor restaurant place and my tagbook is on the floor, some weird kid is looking at it. I grab whole thing and kid says that he knows me from dreamviews apparently. We start talking about something and then he asks if he can have some of candies that i apparently have in the pocket, there's four of them. I give him one and eat one myself as well, it's yummy.

lucid
*I became lucid instantly standing a car. I looked around at the trees and the surrounding area amazed that this is actually I dream. I felt the wind blowing and the day was sunny. I started to jump attempting to fly. After a while I felt like I was being sucked in the ground and then reemerging. This experience left me with a sick feeling in my stomach. Also all this happened in the presence of lama surya das.

non lucid
*I was up at night with my step brother preparing a warm glass of milk to help me fall asleep. We were talking different schools of buddhism. He felt that his school was better others.

*I picked to be a japanese T.V. show, but I was nervous at the fact that I didn't know japanese. My friend who was korean told me I could learn line by line as we make the show. I was excited about the idea.

*I was hanging out in an area that was secured. I was casually sitting there surfing the web.

*My girlfriends mom didn't want me to left them. I told her I had to because I already had plans. I believe was going swimming some where.

*I told me brother that I had a chance to star in a japanese T.V. show. He said if I don't take this opportunity then I am retard.

*This girl confronted me saying that her girlfriend wants me. She took me to her girlfriend to confirm that nothing was going on. haha. I did end up knowing the girl, who was actually quite hot and thought about getting with her by the end of that dream.

*My guru lama dorjee was giving a teaching. I entered the teaching late with my girlfriend. I sat very close to my teacher, then he suddenly announced I was a good student to the crowd. In the dream this didn't really effect my ego.

06.08.2013

Eva Talks About Thought-Forms and Stuff (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm in an environment that looks like a graveyard, and the contents within this dream mostly consisted of shades of gray and bits of dark green here and there. It seems that I'm mostly just watching the dream from a spectator point of view, and I noticed Eva is hiding behind pillars, and there's caption showing on the "display" in this dream, like on Youtube videos.

She or maybe someone else is talking about how people who emulate those in real life into thought-forms should just allow those people who died or exist to have a distinction. She's wearing a dark green jacket that's slightly unzipped until it shows a slight cleavage. She's wearing light brown pants and dark brown leather boots I believe.

Anyway, it's raining as well, and this dream itself is kind of depressing, almost as if while the voice is narrating certain things to me, despite of my lack of ability to recall the exact words, my emotions were mixed with feeling slightly sad for something, but also being comforted with something else.

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06.08.2013

Missed The School Bus, Elementary School, & Female Police Officer Flirts With Me (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I did a few more sessions with the mental exercises that helps with being more proficient and aware of tapping into the unconscious mind by letting it do the job for you with the mental imagery, and all I have to do is just describe what's going on. Slept late last night, had the confidence that I'll be aware of my dreams, knowing how my unconscious mind will make those connections to enable me to have a lucid dream, and I managed to get a decent lucid, despite of its randomness of someone flirting with me and all sorts of stuff.

I freaking love these exercises, makes visualization, imagining, and other things so much freaking easier to do now. I used to think I didn't have to put in much effort into dream recall, but now, that was clearly an understatement. Anyway, let's move on to the lucid dream shall we?

Alright, so I'm in an environment that looks really familiar to a previous neighborhood I resided in waking life during my Junior year in High School. The setting is early morning, and things obviously feel more dream like that it's just blatantly obvious that I'm dreaming.

As soon as I feel the rush of emotions and sensations common in the dreaming world compared to waking life, it doesn't become a challenge for me to know whether or not I'm lucid dreaming.

I noticed that there's a school bus I have to follow to class, I don't know why, but I just presume it has to be the one I needed to take. The reason being is that I'm feeling sensations and emotions of being rushed, out of choices, and not knowing how to go about finding other routes to get to whatever destination the bus was going to take me. The consistency of the dreaming environment was dependent on my ability to calm down, so if I was panicking for too long, the dream just feels messed up.

However, it's not like I was going to have an unstable dream to the point where I would wake up, no, been through that already and know how to plant myself into this dream. Emotions and adrenaline do not matter anymore, just don't pay attention to how they can wake you up, and you can enjoy them as much as you can. So as I'm wondering where in the bloody hell to go now that what seems to be my only ride to whatever location I had in mind passed by too quickly.

I even tried lurking around to check to see if the bus will make a turn-around somewhere, since it had to have more than one route to pick up the dream characters. But it just happens that the route that I'm in is the last one, but at least I gained competence in a dream for once to look for alternatives. Now it seems things are hopeless for me, and although I knew I could just do whatever I wanted to, I decided to just let this dream happen and watch while being able to go back and forth in spectator mode, third person mode, and first person mode.

It's hard to describe, it's as if I'm shifting through three states of consciousness or perspectives I should say all at once. It's not even 360 vision, it's just sublimating my awareness in 3 perspectives at once, it's a really funny feeling, but it's really comforting being able to do that, especially when it would enable me to keep track of anything suspicious going on. I noticed that I'm wearing a long black jacket and a dark blue polo shirt and black dress pants. I believe I'm wearing lace-less shoes, but because I'm not focusing much attention to my outfit, and rather on what to do next, it's merely conjecture for my dream body description.

I turn around and I quickly noticed a dream character that looks very familiar, and it doesn't take me very long to deduce that this was a dreaming counterpart of a person in waking life that I'll just nickname "K." He had the mannerisms, body posture, and annoying attitude of the real one. He's wearing a black and white striped dress shirt that's buttoned and spread out. Even though I'm looking at his back, it's clear to identify that he's wearing a white t-shirt. Now for the pants, the thoughts coming into me now say he's wearing white baggy jeans.

The epitome of a wanna-be gangster who doesn't know how to pull up his pants and is either too indolent or incompetent to know how to use a belt. Of course, this doesn't bother me one bit in the dream, and I noticed that he's looking left and right, and I make sure that I don't attract any attention to him.

It's weird, although I knew he couldn't possibly hurt me, since I'm going with the classic predisposition that this is a lucid dream obviously, but I still needed him. The reason being is because he's the closest thing to being a student or someone looking for a bus as well. And because I wanted to know why I had intentions of going inside of the School Bus, he was my only option for the time being.

So I make sure I keep a trail off of him at least 30 feet away from him or so, and he's slowly walking. Then he picks up the pace, and before he starts going a bit faster with power-walking, I noticed my vision is now focused on his trail and where he's going. Which means there's an augmented tunnel vision in my perception of the reality in this dream, and everything else outside that scope is considered blind, insignificant, and a waste of time to recall to the best of my abilities.

I had a mix of emotions when following this guy, and they weren't really that positive at all. I had the urge to just slam this guy to the ground and destroy him completely, but again, can't do that since he's still a valuable dream character. And as I'm picking up my pace, I noticed he takes a sharp turn to the left side, and I quickly avert my eyes to the right to pretend that I'm not trying to follow him.

He doesn't really seem to have much competency level in terms of being sentient and sapient of my presence, and this tempts me to just shrug him off completely once I figured out that the path he's going towards is to a school. I walk past him, but then find myself slowing a bit just to see where this dream character is going to go. Instead of just ignoring him and him fading out of existence because of my lack of interest in being aware of him and the other DCs, I decided to just let his existence hang just a bit longer.

I noticed that the psychological tendencies I had towards this guy, especially in waking life, were now shut down completely. He's not the type of person I knew "K" was, a very loud-mouth individual that was cross-eyed and didn't see to have much going for his life. He's countenance is completely different, despite of his dark-skinned complexion still being difficult to conceptualize to full detail. He seems to be expressing a kind demeanor, especially towards younger children, and I just let go on auto-pilot in terms of walking as I shift to the completely different "K" individual.

There's a little boy he's walking with, and he looks familiar as well, all too familiar, and this boy is wearing a shirt that consists of dark warm colors (mostly orange, maroon, and such). He's wearing sports shorts, but I can't make out the actual color because as I'm walking in auto-pilot, I noticed that I'm picking up the pace a bit more because I'm having less interest in this twisted up version of "K" of a dream character.

I finally avert my eyes to the environment surrounding me now, and the tunnel vision has disappeared completely, and you could say that I'm just going through 360 vision now. There's no need to go through the sublimation of 3 perspectives seeing how this is a school environment, which means there isn't really going to be much of a threat, seeing how I'm never encountering physical threads in school dreams.

So as I'm easing myself into this third-person 360 vision, I begin to notice that I'm already shifting myself into the building. And here's where the environment starts becoming inconsistent, but just for a little bit. Now, imagine for a moment for where I'm standing right now in the dream, imagine seeing the back of a person at a slightly tilted angle to where their face is slightly further away from your perspective, but only by a a few degrees.

Now, as I'm absorbing the content of the dream environment here in order to make presumptions of where to go next, something feels very peculiar about this dreaming environment. Typical. Anyway, allow me to describe the environment during this moment. The overall colors that pop up are brown, dark yellow, green, and maybe a faded and dirty milky violet color here and there. These colors mostly show up on the tile flooring below me.

The stairs that I'm on top on, which probably has 3-6 steps, has the dirty milky violet color along with the walls as well. It almost felt that the colors themselves made this dream more like a a puzzle, kind of like this image below (I'm really freaking shocked on how that association just came up on a fly, whatever, not complaining! Whatever helps me get to the point right?)

Just imagine that some of the walls are patches of brown and dark-gold with those few walls that are also the dirty milky violet color as well.

I apologize for my horrible description of colors as well. Please bear with me.

And one interesting thing shows up after I analyzed the dreaming environment. There's a vault, a fairly huge one, I'd say about 8 feet wide and 9 feet tall. But here's the thing, because the vault crank, or whatever you call it is small from my point of view, but it still felt like it would be bigger when I get closer to it (just imagine the huge vault cranks you see in those movies where there's bound to be a bank robbery or something).

So I noticed my perception in this dream is a little bit skewed, it feels like things aren't really following along pretty well. However, this doesn't stop me from exploring what seems like constant and altering chamber that resembles a prison and elementary school at the same time. The Vault crank itself has a fairly large black dot in the middle, and it now looks like a Huge Gear trying to protect something I believe.

I don't touch it of course, instead, I just go about lurking in random areas in this confusing dreaming environment. I begin to notice that as I'm going through these doors, it feels like randomly generated scenarios with dream characters and such. Kind of like what you would see in movies where the person is in an area with what is presumed to be an infinite amount of doors, and they stumble upon the most abnormal and peculiar of things.

Except it's a little less scary fortunately, just randomly generated child dreaming characters, teachers, and other school staff members. I remember one door where there was just a black void and that same kid I was imagining before that hanged around with the "K" guy. He seems to be looking at the teacher, and the teacher is a female that looks very familiar.

Kind of like my Reading teacher that I believe I had for 6th grade in middle school. I noticed that her hairstyle is still a bit poofy and proper, and she's just looking down on the child while having her face and neck turned awkwardly.

Anyway, I close the door for whatever reason, even though I doubted myself on what I would be doing here in this dream with stairs being inverted, twisted and stuck on places where they shouldn't be. The abnormality itself is what keeps my lucidity sustained I guess. I find myself noticing how I'm raising one of my eyebrows speculating what to do next.

Then after what seemed so long, boring, and dragged out event, I'm just going to skip to the final part now. I find myself getting near an exit, actually being able to see what's outside for once. As I'm preparing to go for the exit, the tile checkered floor here is different than the one before. It consists of a faded vanilla and black colors, and the moment I find my shoes making contact with the floor, it delivers the type of echo as if I were in a large and spacious region in a building.

The area itself was too hard to make out because it was a little dark on the corners, despite of the fact that there's a strong lighting outside and the sunlight is still able to leak in some rays as well. I continue heading to the exit, and there's a metal bar that I would have to pass through, kind of like the rotating bars you would see if you were to come to a supermarket .

Except this time, I wasn't able to get past these bars, and as I'm trying to move back and forth to see if they're sensor-activated, there's a random female dream character in front of me that informs me I can't pass. I was a bit puzzled on why she would tell me this, and I decided to turn back and realized there's a female police officer, or some security guard up front.

I immediately go up to her and she informs me that I just have to show my I.D. or something, and I just pull up a random card out of my pocket, and she takes it real quick and looks as if she's busy typing information. As she's going about doing whatever, she tells me I'm handsome.

I said, "Thank you." in a silent voice, but it didn't seem she was hearing me well, so I said it a bit louder. I wanted to just remain silent, but I just had to pretend to be social with her since she's my only way out. She has very short hair, as if she was bald a few weeks before, and she's fairly cheeky and has a dark complexion. Her outfit is mostly dark blue, and she seems to be the cheerful type of guard, but of course, I can't really revel in her kindness for too long.

After that, I don't know what the heck went on from that point sadly, seeing how I had all sorts of dreams in the middle most likely.

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06.08.2013

Military Base Stuff (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

All I remember for this one is that Eva's face is zoomed in, and it seems we're just going around inside a military base. The main colors are very light gray.

Yeah, that's all I remember for that.

I dreamt that I was playing a board game with three others. We were in a worn down building and sitting around a table close to the window, inside a room that was part of a corridor. It was dark, cold and cloudy outside: perfect weather to be sitting inside and playing boardgames with a few friends!
We were two teams playing against each others... our side was losing. But then I managed to do a brilliant move that caused us to win!
That was the last game for the night, everyone thanked each other for a good game and stared packing up. We had been drawing the score on a nearby wall and I began cleaning it away. But then, a piece of the wallpaper fell of! Beneath it was an older wallpaper, and on it was some writing...it looked at it and saw that it was a part of something called the "Diary of Aina".

It was then that I think I became lucid!
I was interested in the writing so started reading it aloud. But when I did, I spoke in another persons voice. A voice that was darker, almost hissing and that sounded very sinister. And it was then that I felt a presence, like someone staring straight into my neck! I dared not look around, even though I knew that there would be nobody there. I knew it was the spirit of Aina, and it was in her voice that I had spoken. Through me, she told her story.

I continued reading it aloud, hesitant at first, and always it was not me speaking. But quickly I realised that I could not stop even if I wanted to, I was not even looking at the text any more! My friends were looking at me with a confused look, they didn't know what was happening, and thought I was just acting strangely. The voice kept talking until it was done reading the part of the diary that was written on the wall. By then I was terrified, and I forced myself to wake up. It was hard, but it worked.

Now I regret waking myself up of course. But the interesting thing is that I know that it was not the last time I will encounter that diary. I know there are pieces of it scattered around the dream world, still waiting to be found. If only I could remember what this one said...but I think it was a story of sadness and anger.

(COPIED FROM WORKBOOK)
Date: August 6, 2013
Method: WBTB & MILD (WILD)
Total hours of sleep time: 6 hours (WBTB 1 hour)

Well, I have a lot to talk about so let's get to the good stuff!

I went to bed at my usual time of 12:00am and I have to get up to fix breakfast and wake the kids. After getting everything done and the last child out of the house, I looked at the clock frustrated because I just knew I couldn't count this as a good WBTB method. According to what I have read on DV, I should not do to much activity during WBTB and I should try to be silent and keep the lights dim. Well, with this being the first week of school, this morning my house was grand central station ! I was up cooking, waking up people, shouting that the bus was coming and every damn thing...sigh!


When everyone was out the door, I looked at the clock and realized a whole hour had passed. As I turned off the lights and got back in the bed, I said to myself, "You have done far to much to count this as a WBTB, no way are you going to become lucid now...chalk this up as another loss." However, my inner self told me to continue to say my mantra and just get a few minutes of sleep (It was 7:11am and I had to be up in an hour to get ready for work).

This is when the magic happened!

It seemed like mere seconds before I noticed that I was standing in front of my door screaming at my kids telling them the bus was coming. I had my hand on the couch which is in the living room by the front door, but I noticed that the couch was in a different position on the other side of the living room. Instinct (and I mean pure instinct) prompted me to do a RC. I told myself to levitate...AND I DID!!! That's when I felt the vibrations, and I knew I was lucid! I'm am not good at my dream control, so I told myself to calm down and the next thing I knew, I was back in my bed. I stayed still and played sleep and like magic again...I was back in the living room! "Oh GOD, please tell me what to do!" I thought as I just floated there. I remembered that I wanted to gain some dream control so I started to touch the living room wall by the front door. As I was looking at the wall and the front door, I thought it would be fun to see if I can go through the wall...AND I DID!!! As I was going through the wall, I'm not 100% sure, but I think I saw like lights? sparks? flashes? Hard to explain, but also, as I want through the wall, it felt gooey . I did come out on the other side of the wall to my front yard and then I faded to the dark again and was back in my bed.

Well, you know my method for this by now DV, I laid still in my bed and DEILD my way back out of myself. This time, I was in a different scenery, but it was still my house. Everything was not quite right, so I knew I had to do something, or I would be back in my physical body again. So I'm standing there and my husband is just looking at me. He says, "Aren't you suppose to do something?" I look at him strangely, but for the life of me I couldn't think of what I was suppose to do (once I woke up, I realized for the TOTM, I was suppose to ask a DC what is the meaning of life? )! I stood there wondering what my husband was talking about and I realized I was losing my lucidity by getting wrapped up in my husband, so immediately, I refocused my attention on getting out of there! For some strange reason, one thing I can always remember is trying to teleport to Egypt and that is exactly what I tried to do.

Canis Lucidis told me to close my eyes and imagine Egypt down to the very last detail. I closed my eyes (tight) and kept thinking about how Egypt looked with the pyramids and the sand (kinda how it looks when I watch the Discovery Channel or National Geographic). I kept repeating these images in my mind and then I began to hear music, or people singing (this isn't the first time I have heard beautiful music while lucid, but every time I wake up, I can't remember the music or the songs)? Slowly I open my eyes and the first thing I see (hard to explain) is like a wavy image (you know how you look in the distance and it is really hot and you can see the heat waves?). The image clears up and I hear people say that Pharoh is a crook. I look down and a child is telling me to follow him (he looks like my God son in RL, but now he is my God son in Ancient times, his clothes are rags also). So I follow him. He stops by men that are working and building something and they are wearing tattered clothes and they look like prisoners. One of them looks like he is eating something and he gives him some of his sandwich to eat and the child says thank you. When the child let go of my hand to get the sandwich (I saw bread and meat, so to me, it's a sandwich), a new scene in front of me appears. I look back at the child who is running toward me and I start to walk toward the new scene, but the closer I got to the scene the more the scene moved further away. I guess I began to get too tired of what I just went through, because I faded to the black and opened my eyes to see my clock on my nightstand...7:46am.

I got up and lunged for my journal and wrote down all that I could remember. I have no idea why I am able to WILD in three's, but by the third one, my mental energy is shot!

A Special Thank you

To Canis Lucidis,
Thanks for sending me to Egypt, you (along with all the other facilitators, moderators, members, and friends) are appreciated.

WOW! I am pretty sure that I had 3 lucid dreams in one night!!! The first one wasn't very lucid, but the second one was more so and he third one was very but it ended straight away . My recall also got destroyed by me brother turning on the light 5 seconds after I woke up and walking noisely around my bed, but I'll write what I remember.
DREAM 1: (kinda lucid)
Length: average length
Detail: Average
Awareness: A bit more than average but not totally lucid
In this dream I remember walking through these tunnels and rooms in the this kind of chamber, and I remember something about being chased by something and having to solve puzzles and stuff. I got kinda lucid for a little bit bu this dream was early on so it just kind of faded away a little bit after that.
DREAM 2: (More Lucid)
Length: Average
Detail: Above Average
Awareness: more lucid but still not completely.
In this dream I was at my grandparents house preparing for lunch or dinner or something. I was undergoing some kind of training, and at some point the house changed into something different, and I kind of got lucid again. The direction of the dream changed, and I was put on this other training thing, and then stuff happened, I can't remember that part too well, then the dream faded (I'm surprised I didn't wake up with my bit of awareness there.)
DREAM 3: (non lucid)
Length: Long
Detail: Above average
Awareness: Minimal
This wasn't a lucid but it was a cool and long dream. In this dream my family and I were staying at a cross between a beach resort and a water park, right at the edge of one of the islands. The place was split into rectangular islands lines up in a row with paths and bridges connecting them. I remember walking along these going from one side to the other. I saw some fountains and pools and people in spas that were right up against the paths. I remember turning back for a bit, then getting a bit lost and kind of wandering around aimlessly. I don't really remember to much else, apart from really boring stuff or hazy stuff, but this dream was quite long. Again this dream just sort of faded out and merged into the next dream a bit.
DREAM 4: (Lucid yay!)
Detail: Average - Above average
Length: Short
Awareness: Close to full lucidity, if that makes sense. Ill explain soon.
So in this little dream at the end of the night I was dreaming about a kind of card game/rts kind of thing in real life where you move around the map with your guys and take over parts of the map to win, kind of like Dota 2 (which my friend has been obsessing over a bit) Then for an inexplicable reason I got lucid, but the dream scene blacked out and I started feeling my body more. I tried to stop thinking about that but the feeling got stronger, so in a last ditch I span around to try and keep the dream, but everything was shaking crazily and then I woke up. When I got lucid I had those few seconds of clarity, then it was almost like a fog was trying to stop me being lucid as I was waking up, but still retained consciousness, just that it was harder to keep it.

3rd person following a woman, and I'm aware this scene is about to become a nightmare, something involving a husband who came back from outer space wrong, carrying something inside him that will manifest in the house in strange ways, killing him and trapping her here. It's already starting to feel like a nightmare, so I take over and steer her toward the front door to change the scene. It takes two doors to leave the nightmare/house.

Outside, I'm my IRL self, and I'm walking out of the mansion I'm temporarily staying at, walking down to the road to see if my IRL sisters have arrived yet. I follow the road toward town, and I pass Tilda Swinton walking the other way and rubberneck shamelessly, walking backwards until she's out of sight. Eventually I come to a fair, where a few people are in costume, including myself, something patriotic-themed. I spot my sisters in the crowd but don't want them to recognize me while I'm in costume. The crowds push me into one of the tents showing various curiosities, and one of them, something about a man who fell from the skies, switches the scene to something more stable.

3rd person following a man who observed that if you trace every human interaction you've had throughout your life, and all the interactions those people had and so on, it creates a fractal pattern which he used to warp time and space around himself, condensing it all into a single point with himself at the center, the God of this world. The ground loops over his head to meet itself in a single vividly-colored sphere. Although he's the only creature that can exist in this sphere, there's a door through which he can watch or enter the old world at any point in time or space. The world's been completely transformed by his actions, all throughout its timeline. At the moment he's observing the writing systems that are developing. He's been translating the various markings that he's seen through the door, images made by different cultures throughout time and space, but as far as he can tell, none of them are using a written alphabet. All the markings translate into numbers.

He walks through the door into the same point in time/space that he'd originally lived, modern times. The place has been through something like an apocalypse as a result of his actions, but it's mostly recovered now. He seeks out a friend who'd tried to stop him, and they talk about the changes in the world, and about what's happened to his older brother's estate since the funeral. 'For a madman, he was alright,' the other man says.

Dream recall from today's naps

Dream 1(fragments):

I was typing up some DJ entries and then was discussing spirituality stuff with someone, then i started watching some let's plays and one was apparently let's play of old Spyro 2 game, except intro scene went kinda different and there was different draconic character instead of Spyro and some other new characters, they talked about learning how to use different forms of something. Then i was back at my room, i was about to realize the dream but it faded out and i wake up. I keep eyes closed and try to DEILD.

Dream 2:

I am suddenly in the forest, there's a huge tree, i think something about future i realized that i am dreaming and i have incredible temptation to make huge tree fall down(dunno why), and i literally will it to fall down, and as it does, ground shakes a bit.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was at home and i couldn't fall asleep for nap and i try to find something to do, suddenly Oreo comes in and we have some talk(that i can't recall much), then he leaves and H. apparently comes in and annoys me with some talk about glasses and leaves as well, and then comes back, talks about it again and leaves again. I stay confused for a few seconds.

Non Dream
Dream
Lucid

I don't remember how I got lucid (probably MILD) but I did. I was in the kitchen of a house with my brother in law and my crush. I tried to change things up a bit so I went into another room to summon another girl using my usual behind the hand trick. I couldn't summon anybody. I went back into the kitchen and went to my brother in law. He's real intellectual so I thought he would provide a more interesting answer. "What's the meaning of life?" I asked him. He said he knew and seemed confident. He started by saying "It's all about the pretty things" before talking about random stuff I couldn't understand. Then, he started talking about the anatomy of the earth itself. In the end, the final answer which I confirmed with him was that was the meaning of life is the earths core, mantle, crust, and all of the things on top. After that I decided to have a thumb war with my crush which she won with her small, quick little thumb. After that, I lost lucidity as indescribable nonsense and chaos (I won't bother) ensued before I woke up.

#206 - 4:00AM - SSILD

I am having some NLD talking to a female DC and changing clothes in front of her. I realize this doesn't make sense because the last thing I remember is rolling over to my right side doing SSILD cycles. I decide I have to be dreaming and start to wonder off but quickly remember the task. I go back into the bedroom of some version of a house I lived in once. The woman does not really look like anyone I know but I think she must be my wife. I say, "Hey, DC."
She is sitting on the edge of the bed in an all white night gown. She looks up at me and responds, "Yes?"
I quickly ask, "What is the meaning of life?"
Her answer, "Something good."
Knowing that this dream feels like it's about to collapse already, I turn away and say, "Thanks DC." I suddenly wake up.

(Technically lucid, in the sense that I clearly knew I was dreaming, but there was no more control than usual and no particular moment of becoming lucid that I remember, I seemed to have simply started out that way. Then again, I can't remember how this scene started. Background info: I recently read something claiming dreams usually don't include all 5 senses, mostly just sight.)

I want to test out that bit about how senses work in dreams, so I float up to my bedroom ceiling and run my fingers over the ridges of the plaster. My sense of touch seems to be working fine to me. I even break off a piece of the plaster and taste it - the taste is probably not what plaster really tastes like, and it's very bland, but the sense of taste is certainly present. I decide I need to wake up to write this down.

(And I did. Rather than being any more aware than usual, it seemed more like I'd unintentionally programmed my dream self to complete this task, and my dream self was just carrying out those orders, without me having to take any active control of the dream. I went back to sleep for a few more hours.)

I'm playing the role of Louis de Pointe du Lac and watching a performance of Les Miserables in french. The girl playing young Cosette reminds me a little of Claudia, which makes me remember the songs she used to sing around the house. Their voices are similar. But Lestat's distracting me, talking as we watch the performance, telling me about his run in with Daniel and how he'd given him that 'choice I never had' line. And then he says to me that really, that was something of a lie; Daniel was already 'for the blood' as he puts it, since he'd met me.

Date: 5th Aug

Total sleep time: 7 hrs<

Pre bed: Calcium&Magn, 100mg B6

Natural wakes: 6x, vivid dreams after each, lazy to record, also mislaid notebook

Early dream(+3 hrs?): a memory of a lucid, where I didn't do anything in particular? We were gathered on street around a fountain/pillar?

Dream: An emotional personal dream with a rather unpleasant outcome. Sadness and anger.

Dream: Sitting on the table of a local cafe. My high school classmates smoke cigarette after cigarette. I am thinking about that, blowing out clean air in front of me.

Dream: A bit like a FA, or was it a dream, this was more hearing the dream than seeing it. Mom is talking with dad that she regrets not noticing the details of her dream, because this is the third time she actually has a lucid.

LD: After trying to fall asleep for a while after the natural wake, I catch myself in the midst of a dreamlet. I see my bf already in the dream on the street, but I am still there more of a side spectator than an in-dream presence. My bf starts doing repetitive movements with his hands as if he is entering the dream as well. I concentrate and soon my hands and body appear in the dream. I have a little trouble moving, feel my body slightly paralyzed, but am relaxed about it and just wait. Bf gives me a hand and pulls me closer, which helps me become more solid. He is very friendly and nicer than most of his DC appearances and I wonder whether this could be a shared dream. I walk on the street for a bit, but things destabilize, then the dream is possibly back again. Memory gap?

I have no idea what happened but now am on the roof floor of a building with lots of kids around. I think I lost my lucidity or am quite distracted at this point. The kids are playing with two balloons, one red and one blue, and I am getting closer to the edge of the building as they almost throw one of the balloons too far. I have worries about falling down. Then I go over one of the kids and tell her to turn off/change the music. Here I regain my lucidity as I try to go down while I get a strange fear of heights. I conclude that when people feel this fear they enter a similar to the dream state while awake. Some sort of exaggerated anxiety mood.

I am now one floor below, with my bf and a number of DCs next to me. I decide to ask my bf about the meaning of life. Again, he looks more like himself here. At first he answers something about "going forward", which I very much like. I tell him to repeat it again but instead he says "I like going back and forward" and then blurts out "Money". This disappoints me a bit. I want to get more and better answers so ask another DC. This guy looks falsely familiar and initially gives me the impression I might have encountered a real dreamer as he begins to ponder the question. But then he just keeps repeating "mmm" and "mmmhum" and doesn't say anything. I am annoyed and feel the dream is slipping away as I have been waiting too long. The dream stops but instead of going through the void, I lose consciousness. It takes maybe about 10 seconds and I am back in the dream.

I was in some sort of a corridor before and now I go into the next room where there are a lot of DCs from my class. I want to ask once again, so I organize those DCs which are now around 20 to gather in front of me as if I am about to take a picture of them. I then make an intro and ask them what the meaning of life is. Lots of my classmates raise hands and I select K. who is smiling to answer. She starts a long speech about happiness. She doesn't say anything exciting, just tells me about her life. I have no more interest in getting the question answered. I then address the whole class and ask them if they know what a lucid dream is and if they have had one. A few try to say something, but it is really hard to concentrate as there are too many DCs in the room. I tell them that this is a lucid dream, but then begin to worry that I might actually be having a shared dream with someone and they might think I am crazy. I leave them to talk with one another. I lose consciousness again, the dream is back in a few seconds. (no void)

I am trying to think of more tasks when I see this pretty Asian girl maybe around 20 years old. I start having distracting side thoughts and want to get close to her but she looks scared and tries to run away. I relax a bit and so does she. She lies on my lap as I marvel her beautiful hair and caress her. When she stands up, I notice she is wearing a knee-length dress. I know it is a bad idea to do it temptation-wise, but I just can't resist and start licking her leg. (Yes, I have a problem!) I notice how super real her leg looks, feels and tastes (a bit salty). I am still considering whether I should fully indulge or try to remember and do other tasks, when the dream suddenly ends. I stay still, but am too wakeful to DEILD or fall asleep.

Comments: I did some quick reading related to neurotransmitters and noticed that B6 plays a role in the synthesis of five: serotonin, dopamine, epinephrine, norepinephrine and GABA. So, after the intake of B6 it is likely that my levels of these increase.The usual effects for me are earlier onset of memorable dreams (today first wake was at plus 3hrs), emotionally loaded dream contents (often aggressive DCs, sometimes me running away, i.e. fight or flight response, also some sexy moments), reduced sleepiness/increased alertness. After thinking about the effects, it looks like one neurotransmitter receives a significant boost and influences the overall mood of the dream - dopamine. I feel that this information finally coming to my attention is important as it increases my understanding of dream intensity and may help me eventually achieve better control during lds.

So the dream starts out with me walking home. Some guy pulls up in a truck. He looked sort of shady and he was carrying a gun. I then started trying to wake myself up.

Then I realized, wait, I'm trying to wake myself up? I tried to imagine the guy turning into some sort of a gummy bear. It worked, but it was more like a pile of green mush.

At this point I'm really exited, I start to remember the task of the month. Which is teach a DC something you don't know how to do. My thoughts were, my mom was a DC, so I would teach her something. I flew over to her work, then realized it was night time. I closed my eyes and tried to imagine the world being light out. It worked! My mom was pulling up in her van.

I stopped her at the door and said "I'm going to get you a better job, you hate your job." This was true, she complains about her job a lot. She smiled and said OK. We both got in the car and she started driving. She passed her grandparents on the street, and said "I'm going to be a flutist ". So then the problem of finding out something for her to do was over. I don't know a clue about the flute.

As we were driving down (it seemed like a short time) she veered off into the woods. I started freaking out but she remained un-phased as we flew through trees.

Yes. Through them.

I closed my eyes, for no apparent reason, then opened them just as quickly. We were in a new place! I had teleported! I then tried it again, only ending up at the same spot we were at 5 seconds ago. I tried it one more time, this time imagining a music place...

And then I woke up.

Damn it.

I guess I learned my lesson about how NOT to teleport.

But hey! I did:
Transform someone
Fly
Dilate time
Go through things
And teleport!

Oh, and fail at a task of the month.

Seems pretty good to me.

Type: WILD

I saw that I'm in a a sea beach and in about 0.5 km's away I saw one of Pyramid of Egypt in the sea
Then I decided to swim in that water. I had a good swimming experience in lucid dream. It was very real. I needed to take breath when I was under water
Image source: https://www.facebook.com/thepyramidsofegypt