lucid

Morning of April 17, 2014. Thursday.



The setting is very similar to our backyard, and it probably would be our backyard were it not for a group of Aboriginal Australian girls moving from near the front of the house along the side, seemingly coming to talk to me (perhaps I am trespassing). They are mostly dressed in blue jeans and casual blouses and tank tops. It seems to be late afternoon. I am only semi-lucid and I am thinking of some sort of “trick” (in case I am absentmindedly trespassing and thus to avoid a confrontation by going over to what appears to be a public-park-like area) which involves walking through the tall wooden fence (which looks very similar to the one we have in real life). I move one slat on the fence (so that it is only still attached near the top by one nail) that is almost to the end of the backyard (perhaps the fifth slat back from the end corner) and am able to step through sideways with just a little difficulty. However, I end up in an area (which may either be a public park or another backyard, though seems almost like a woodland area) that also has a large group of Aboriginal Australian girls who seem a bit annoyed at my antics or appearance from the other yard (it is possible that the two groups are having a feud with each other).

An older female of about seventy or so, with white hair, asks me if I have seen her husband. There is some sort of short conversation she continues with, with me, relative to whether he has been “left alone” (I am not sure if he was supposedly on the other side of the fence or had disappeared or become lost - I get the impression she means that he might have even died) which seems a bit odd and with an ambiguous meaning; that is, “being left alone” in a negative sense (and not having a partner to share life with) and “being left alone” with a positive implication as in not being bothered. I am trying to work out the odd ambiguity as my dream looses focus, the older lady’s eyes being quite vivid and intense and I am not sure what to say because I am confused about the meaning. I say something like “People have never left me alone in my life,” (coming off as a bit sarcastic) which does not sound quite right, as I am supposed to be talking about her husband, not myself, though I have no idea who he is or about anything else that is going on.

Hi ,
I've been lucid dreaming for a few years now i can do it when i want basically.
So i have this dream i like "going into" i don't know how to say it but i can remember my dreams and pick which one i want to have or i create a new one and store it almost. I dream that i am some hybrid of magical creatures and a witch, but that i have this because i am mother natures daughter~crazy right?

But anyway, i dream that i save this blonde boy with silver eyes when he is little as he fell into a lake and was unable to swim, i appeared in time and save him. Then i skip ahead to being older and i have powers like i can heal with water, mostly elemental powers. Its really detailed but hard to explain to you. Part of my powers from mother nature is that i collect your dreams,thoughts and life experiences and you each have a tree and that tree has leaves that fall and regrow. My job is to thread everybody's fallen leaves into a leaf timeline which if broken can mean you never remember what was lost. Only i have the power to be able to do this and people are after me to break peoples memories (i don't know who yet i'm going to create that tonight).

I had been kicked out of the fea community as i used my other powers that they hated as they couldn't do it to. I also have a baby sister that i can never decide how old she is so i keep changing her age to fit how i want the story to go.

So after i was "exiled" from the fae community i build a home (literally) with my earth powers it looks like it is made of really good wood and its so pretty with flowers around it in the middle of a meadow. So anyway me and my sister live there and i also have a friend there called Alisa a pretty girl with long light brown hair and is tall wearing jeans converse and a light purple top around 17 so a year younger than me. In the dream i can change my outfits to the situation so i normally have a top created out of water but frozen so you can't see anything haha and then my skirt is a short beige ruffle skirt thing and i'm wearing my favorite black boots.

Urm so yeah in the house we get attacked by the people after the memories of literally everyone ( the memory trees are kept safe as they exist in a "ball" i have which i say a magic spell and shrink myself inside collect the leaves and come out of again haha.) Anyway they burn down the house and i escape with my friend and my sister and i find the boy again. He is in a magic school (like Hogwarts but not haha?) and he speaks to the headmaster saying i can learn magic there and so i go to his room in this boarding school and attached to his dorm is mine and my friends. So we start talking as i tell him why he knows me and catch him up that i have powers as i left as soon as i had saved him last time ect.

But he introduces me his friends they are lovely after they get used to me. i show them i can change into a tiger which is white and pretty and they love it and admire me for being powerful. But the rest of the school don't take to me at all as the boy i saved {james from now on haha} has a bit of a reputation for being the hot bad guy haha which every girl wants kinda thing. In the dream i'm really attractive to so we both get envied/jealous people trying to steal us from one another....

But yh thats where i am up to so far i think i'm going to expand on it tonight. I'm an odd one. I swear i could turn this into a fanfic or story or something haha.

Have wonderful and magical dreams everyone <3<3<3

Night of 4/15/14

Dream 1:
(I've been watching 30 rock)

fragments:
there was a meeting with liz
miss mahoney was wearing a bra that shot out sparks (not electrical, like fireworks)

Dream 2:

In a cafeteria
My lunch is ruined- i left it on a table and someone sabotaged it
a friendly lunch man makes me more lunch and makes sure it is very satisfactory

I see a girl im into
close friend decides to go for her instead

Dream 3:

bible school (childhood trauma, what?)
really boring

*****

went into some sort of FPS mode
everybody was shooting at each other
I was shootin up fools
water surrounding a tower inside, it was dark
Went outside, FPS mode gone


*****
Went into different inside area, can't remember how I got there


*Usually when I go lucid i say out loud that it is a dream*
*In this case I just felt kinda lucid*
*Felt strange transitioning into lucidity, like there was little change*

*****

was in a building with church people
I wanted to sex up a girl
People would always invade space.
There was very little control
I tried to build a wall and door with a closed door
failed

They said if I wanted to have sex it would need to be with a family member
I loose control over the dream, (who wouldn't in that scenario?)

*****

I was at my cousins' house, which is just up the road from where I live. I guess I must have gotten bored, 'cause I started flying off a cliff, concomitantly realising it was not real, and thought of my plan to, next time I became lucid, take my friend to LA to find her favourite actor. So I called her down from the top of the cliff and she flew down and I told her my plan, and she agreed and we were trying to decide whether to teleport, fly, or take an aeroplane. Okay, decided to take the plane; we'd at least know we'd end up at the right place and wouldn't get tired of flying and fall into the sea or something, so we flew to the airport, on the way going through the school where I flew under a bench where a girl we knew happened to be lying, and then I flew under another bench upon which the girl's twin sister was sitting (she does have a twin sister). Then someone said "They might as well not be brothers-in-law." (I think she meant twins, but whatever.) And then my friend started laughing because she found what I was doing funny.

At the airport we hadn't any luggage to put in the luggage place so I said "Let's imagine what luggage we'd like to take," and my friend said, "I want to take my MP3 player!" I said "No, I mean imagine your whole luggage and it should appear here." Then it did, and then my old maths teacher came by and said something nasty about a bag we had that was ugly and smelt bad or something, and I said "That isn't ours! That was already here!" and then I realised it was ours - my friend's - but we laughed and said "Shh!" Not like we would tell HER that; not any of her business.

And then we tried to teleport onto the plane, but it didn't really work. So then we flew somewhere else, to the edge of the land I guess, where it had this cage with a mini island inside it and then ocean, and we flew over the top and all this random stuff happened, with a random baby thing that two of my brothers were awed by because it was like an almost-complete replica, the way it acted anyway, of a baby from some game or something. And then we tried to teleport to the actor's house from there but we had to hide a balloon from my parents and my piano teacher, and we weren't sure whether to tell my brothers to tell Mum and Dad that we had gone and blah-blah-blah, or to just GO. So we ended up not even getting there.

Dream
Lucidity
Notes

I was on a ship filled with people when someone threw a homemade bomb into the crowd. The bomb got tossed around like if it was a "hot potato" and it finally blew up on some guy. He went flying and we thought he was dead but he slowly got up and started running off the ship. His head was blown open and I could see his brain. While he was running off me and a girl chased after him, especially the girl but I realized he was too wounded. I said "That guy is wolf food now..." We were then in an island and as we were getting back into a bus, I started fighting people. I beat up a lot of them but then I got thrown off the bus. I was locked out but some girls that were in the bus were nice enough to hand me a few bottles of water. I told the girls I'd be back to help them. I went into a big house that looked more like a motel on the inside. There was a TV playing music and as I walked towards it, I said "I haven't had a sad dream in a while." A fat lady was walking towards me and I asked her "If this were a dream, would I be able to change the song to a song from Tangled?" The replied
Yes, but it would play before the current song" That confused me but all the talk about dreams made me do a reality check. I started counting my fingers and noticed I had a lot of them. I realized I was dreaming.
I looked around the house and there were a lot of stuff on the counters. I noticed my dream blurring and getting disoriented so I rubbed my hands and then looked at them to stabilize the dream. I faced the TV and tried to make fireballs but the only results were sparks or embers coming out of my fingers. I thought about maybe taking a pill that would give me the ability to use fireballs but didn't. I flicked my index, middle finger, and thumb, which caused a glowing crescent to come out and fly towards what I pointed. The crescent curved in the way my palm faced. I tried different positions of my palm and the crescent would react to how my hand was. I turned around and went down some stairs into a dark room. I flipped a light switch and a few lights started to go on. I yelled while raising my hands "Let there be light!" and the room lit up. I looked at stuff on the counter and then decided to go back upstairs and into another room where I heard Blacksher calling out to L. Hernandez. The place looked like Denise's room. I saw Desirae on a counter laying down. I asked her why she was there and she said she was sick to her stomach. I asked with what and she said with Vygil or something. She looked really pale. I then went to Blacksher and she was saying something and I wanted her to shut up so ducktape replaced her mouth. She was trying to talk and had green skin. I let her have her mouth again and left towards Desirae. All 3 cats were there and I wanted Lucy to turn into a tiger. I pointed to Bugaloo but realized it was Bugaloo. I saw Lucy and flicked a crescent on her and she started turning into a tiger.

I believe in this dream my lucidity was low, since it didn't feel as real as previous lucid dreams. I could still control myself, though. As for the Glowing Crescents, I'm going to use that as a way to point to things that I want to change, like I did with Lucy. If I want to change, for example, a tv into a radio, I'll use a Glowing Crescent on it while. I think this will help me with changing stuff.

I was underwater and did a reality check of my hand. My hand looked normal and it looked like I had 5 fingers but upon counting them, I had 6 fingers. I became lucid for a few seconds.
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In my other dream, I was at a school campus and was getting some food at the cafeteria there was a very long line of people I recognized. After I ate, I went to a football field. It was nighttime and it was very foggy. Some little girls were there and I said "Looks scary, doesn't it?" I was gonna take a video of the fog but the girls got in the way. The camera was laggy. I also remember seeing P. Foy and M. Padilla talking.

Ok I'm going to keep this short but I want to note a micro DILD I had after an unusual WBTB. I was stoked about the lunar eclipse this morning and made about a 45min WBTB out of it all. When I got back to bed I tried for WILD but it was keeping me too awake. I changed positions and decided on SSILD but I'm not sure I actually did any cycles.

The next thing I recall is being outside waiting for "the otherside" of the eclipse. I breifly see a glowing ring in the sky like a solar eclipse and wonder if that was real. My dad is ranting about end times prophecy and I follow him into a house. I older daughter shouts at him that it's just science. I have some disagreeing words with him and go back outside.

I search for the moon but I all I see is darkness. As I realize I am lost in the void I shout out, "I am dreaming!" It's too late to try to salvage the dream so I go into DEILD mode.

Unfortunately, I lost lucidity and find myself walking on the street in downtown New York with my wife. She text a friend that lives in the state about our surprise visit but she doesnt seem to care or want to see us. Suddenly we are in a canoe floating down a street of water. I think of Vience and wonder how this happed here. I turn and my wife's boss in the canoe. We have some converstation until the alam wakes me.

4.15.14

Last night bed at 8:45 pm - 1:50am

I had to be at work at 3am, hence the early bed time.

DR 1

Woke up at 11pm from a DILD.

I'm in an unknown hallway with my dad. I'm telling him we are dreaming. We were doing something fun, but now he is like "what else is there to do in a dream"? So I say we can go and slide on a big yellow inflatable raft. Thank got this boring part ends here.

Now I'm at some other place. It's night. I feel like doing it and there are 2 girls. Somebody takes one of them. I'm thinking "oh great, I'm left with the chubby one". But I also dont care, hehe. I push her down and she giggles, and I remember Ophelia talking about having her way with girls, when she changes into a guy in her dreams. I'm not sure I changed into a guy, but I just knew, that none of those tiny details will make any difference with me completing my plan. Not sure what happened after.

But now I'm in a room that looks like wooden cottage, like wild west type of a building. Someone walks in, a guy this time. I lock the door and we do it. Happy ending iz all I'll say. Thank you, come again, hehe.


DR 2

I'm in my homeland, on some kind of a trip with foreigners. We walk down into the river and water is reaaaaly low. At some place I kneel down and touch the ground. There is just less then 1/4 of an inch of water. Just enough to make a wet sound. Rest is sandy.

I look ahead and the river is missing all the water. It must be a drought. I tell them we have go and explore, because this happens like only once in 20 years.


DR 3

I'm walking through a street fair or some other fair. I look for some candy. I see lollipop glasses made from blue sugar. I buy one and taste it and it's the best flawor I ever had. I want to buy more, but the lady is out. So I keep looking at similar things, maybe I'll find them, or they will taste the same, or other vendors will have them. But the lady says, after I ask her, that she doesn't have any more of them. I really want to buy some for my family, who is also there at the fair, but walking separately.


DR 4

I just glanced at the title of an entry 2 post below mine, and from "suspenders" I recalled this dream.

I'm in my childhood room. I have these mans suspenders on. Everytime I pull on them on the top on my shoulders, they levitate me up. My mom is standing in my door and I'm showing her this and saying, that changing lightbulbs and cleaning the light fixtures will be so easy this way. She faints.

I can sooo clearly feel the gravity being 0 and me just levitaning upwards so easily and effortlessly. Such a freeing feeling.

I don't remember the first dream. All I remember is I was talking to a person in a room about something about dreams and it ended. I woke up at three thirty i think and went back to bed.
At that time I had a dream I was in my house but than suddenly it started to flood. So I ran out the house and appeared outside where there was stores and a big parking lot. To my side I could see a guy and a girl walking with a gun. So I ran all the way to the bus stop. There were people around and I asked a little girl which way was back. She told me to wait on the other side so i did.
I took the bus but when I got out i appeared in this room. There were two men standing and a lady in a pink performer costume balancing herself on the guys shoulders on a platform above. But part of the building began to collapse and they fell. Suddenly a guy with a gun came out. I guessed he was a bad guy so i tried to throw some small golden rocks i saw. But I missed and he shot me in the shoulder. I decided to try again and he shot me two times in the same spot...on my left shoulder and i fell onto the ground. It didn't hurt but i felt pretty stupid. That's when I woke up.
I thought about how those dreams sucked and tried to fall back to sleep. I did eventually and had a dream I was inside my house. I saw people playing a game like super smash bros brawl. I wanted to draw so i went to my brothers room and found a sketch pad and a sharpened pencil. But my brother yelled at me for taking his stuff. So I got mad and yelled at him and his friend. Than I left and saw my lil bro eating something. I got mad out of no where and started yelling about how i wanted food and that that was my food or something like that.[I've been having lots of dreams where i yell for food...I need to stop that...-w-]
Anyways I left the house and found myself outside. A pizza appeared in my hand and i took a few bites. A lady and her son who was a child came out and threw something in the garbage. I decided to throw the pizza away so i did. Than when I turned I saw a dark skinned old man walk out the back and walk past me. I asked the lady. Is that a ghost?[I don't believe in ghosts] She said no. I walked up to the open gate and closed it. After that i walked back to the lady. A random person walked up to us[I think it was the dark skinned old man] and said that people need to recycle more and need to start caring about what they do. Be more neat stuff like that. I was like yeah..Than I woke up. : P

It's been a while since I last put a Dream Journal entry in, I've been out and about with friends playing music! I've been putting a lot of my focus on tantra also, since I had some sort of euphoric sensation overcome my entire body a couple of nights ago and I was wondering what on earth it was, it led me to tantra!

11th April -

Dream 1
Walking through a motorway type stone tunnel with a bunch of people, it turned into a busy stone hall but much tighter packed. I'm walking in the same direction as a lot of people, others are busily walking in our direction too. There was this guy who was walking next to me at the same time as this group of charity collectors pass me going the other way. The main collector asks me if I want to donate as he passes but I immediately tell him I have nothing to give, and he shoves me (I'm always charitable when I've got it, so this kind of behaviour annoys me). He keeps going, but the other guy who I mentioned was next to me says something offensive as a passive response to my having no money as to imply I'm tight, and I told him to fuck off or something long those lines. Further down the hall I'm walking into an open market type place, there are boxes of random toys and things on the floor and I have to step over them as I look around. Suddenly I turn around and the guy I told to fuck off before has the most insane keyboard in his hands, it's strapped on to him and he's holding it like a guitar, it was like a meter long black beast of an instrument, and he was playing some notes. He shouts to me that he's having it and there''s nothing I can do about it. Then the dream fades.

I was sleeping on a couch and woke up about 6 hours into my sleep and recalled that last dream. The light was coming through the living room window and there were buses loudly stopping and starting outside, it was quite noisy. I was quite uncomfortable too, the couch wasn't big enough to allow lying down fully stretched, so I was in the fetal position. It took me a while to get back asleep, my eyes were closed though, I was determined to get back to sleep even though I didn't feel too sleepy, and after 20 minutes I started to see some imagery appearing before me in the darkness, then I suddenly and very unexpectedly transitioned straight into a lucid dream, I was in a blurry room and it there was purple electricity flowing over half the stuff in the room. I didn't feel like I woke up in a dream and had to regain consciousness, I felt like I had literally just been lying on the couch trying to sleep and then all of a sudden I was in this room. I unfortunately came straight out of this dream anyway, and I was on the couch again.

So I tried again, I rested patiently for about 20 minutes, this time it seemed a lot longer to happen and I was getting a little disappointed until the imagery started appearing, then I knew it was game on. By imagery I'm talking about colourful neon type patterns swirling, which sometimes briefly transform into vivid objects. I've been practising dream schemas, thinking about what the patterns I'm seeing look most like, and therefore convincing my brain that that is what I'm seeing.

Anyway I went back into a new room, it was the same again - a transition with no loss of consciousness. This time I was sat on a bed and knew instantly I was dreaming, and I was calm. I looked around the room and it was more vivid than any lucidity I've had so far. There was a washing line sort of thing hung across the room with a football attached to it, and as soon as I looked at it I calmly thought about how I could change it into something. I decided to change it to a star, but looking at it and thinking I wanted it to change to a star did nothing. I looked away and repeated the thought, I wanted the ball to become a star, and when I looked back it was still a football. Then I woke up again.

With the two lucids I was trying to "open" my eyes as the imagery started coming to me. By open them I was not actually trying to physically open my eyes whilst keeping them closed, rather it was more of an embrace of all the imagery, as if I was accepting I was in a 3 dimensional space.


So that was annoying, that I couldn't change the football into a star. How will I fly if I can't even do that? I think the problem was that I was only thinking I wanted it to change, with little expectation of it actually happening. I didn't visualize it happening, I just wanted it to happen. Next time I'll have to "see" it change, and maybe it will.


13th April -

Dream 1
I was in a religion class with some old friends, they were all sitting about and smoking joints/playing games. The religion classroom transitioned into a bedroom without me noticing. I remember talking to a friend who used to body build but he looked really young again, like he did before his body-building days, and we talked about how it's a waste of time if you can't afford a good diet.

Dream 2
My dream log simply says "Dan spelling cat and" (I must have been very tired). I can vaguely remember a funny situation where my friend Dan was in a position of spelling something, and I was taking the piss out of him spelling the simple words cat and dog for him in a patronizing (but banterish) way.

Dream 3
I don't know what happened in this dream, except I know that there was a scene where I vividly heard words inside a dream for the first time. I was lazy in my logging efforts and have now forgotten them, in fact if I wasn't so sure right now about how I felt after I woke up that I heard vivid voices, then I would be convinced that I just feel like I have. Anyway this was unusual for me, usually I can remember being part of conversations in dreams but not actually hearing the words clearly, rather just remembering them. This time it was different, but I've forgotten the words so basically it doesn't even matter now haha.

The other sensation I felt in a dream for the first time was physical pain. I was unwrapping a bandage that was around my wrist, I think I had burned it or something, and I can vividly remember the feeling of the bandage being peeled off my raw skin and the stringing sensation of it. I hope it isn't possible to feel super physical pain in dreams, because if that happened to me with the mind I've got, I'd be fucked.

One dream was, that a friend of mine invited me to come with her to a job, which would bring a lot of money, but it was something physical and outdoors and you had to dress warmly.
There were so many people at the gathering place - somebody said, our group would go somewhere else for another job.
This entailed sitting in the basement of a shopping-centre on long tables with a lot of other people - maybe even only women, not sure.

And it was handicraft - we were making/repairing Easter decorations - I had to fix new candles into some places, where old ones had burned down, which - typical dream - was pretty difficult.
In the end I switched and went about painting flowers - TOTM overspill, I'm pretty sure - so I painted unusual flowers on pieces of wood. Na well.

Then there is a fragment, where I'm with an ex-boyfriend from my youth at a frozen mountain lake.
He doesn't want me to go out - it's not completely safe, I could also see that.
But I went - bit also to daunt him - nothing happened, but I had to go back at one point, because cracks began to appear. No hectic or fear connected, though - I knew, I'd make it back safely.

Another fragment was being in my old childhood room, which I loved, and exactly at the right time, when the evening light would shine through my windows in a most beautiful golden way.
Bit more about me trying to get rid of some nasty furniture that had been stored there and properly moving back in.

When that dream ended - I had a mini-lucid moment, but no optics any more suddenly.
So I jumped in the air, like I usually do it, when lucid - and I had for a little moment the feeling of hovering. I stared into nothingness, hoping for a dream - but unfortunately I woke up then.

There was one more episode, where I went to university with two male friends of mine, and one of them said, women should undergo special tests before they enter - because most of them wouldn't actually do anything with their valuable (also financially) high education, but work as plaything manufacturers.
I swallowed - was after that job episode above..

14.04.2014

Tranquilizer Gun Fails, or I'm a Lousy Shot (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’m hiding behind a rock that’s probably 5 feet wide, and maybe 3-4 feet tall. I have a tranquilizer gun on me, and I believe I’m wearing a black tac suit as well. The environment resembles a jungle, and the ground itself had a color of white rock material that’s covered by all sorts of minerals, dirt, and grass.

The area’s pathway I’m on seems to be curved like a “C,” where if I were to reach the end, I would probably have to jump off from a pretty high elevation to get to the lower section of this area. I’m as the bottom end of the “C” shaped area, and there’s a soldier patrolling around the section farther away from me.

He looks kind of like a Panamanian guard that you would see in Splinter Cell: Chaos Theory, though I’m not sure if the design for the Gamecube version was different from the XBOX.

How I conceptualized the whole experience seemed to have involved me looking at my dream self through third person point of view, and occasionally feeling my dream body as well. I try to take my time to aim the tranquilizer gun at the guard, and it seems this experience in the dream had to be reset several times because I was either missing the shot completely, or I didn’t shoot him anywhere in the head to hopefully make him unconscious quickly.

One experience within the reset was that when I took a shot, and miss, some kind of random object launched its way over to the guard. The object was hard to see from afar, but I remember that it had a violet color with a slight overlay of blue. The guard turns around, looks alert, and isn’t hesitant in calling for backup.

I can visualize how said backup would arrive, and there’s soldiers wearing some kind of dark yellow camo outfit with brown spots spread around it, along with them wearing black masks where only their eyes are portrayed through a horizontal oval cut-out.

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14.04.2014

120 Subjects Learned? (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Apparently, I tell someone that I learned over 120 subjects in High School and at a University.

Words come out of my mouth like crazy, and I felt like it was just coming by naturally without any intention of having to cover anything up. I think I stated I learned 110 in High school, and the rest at a University.

Even though the dream didn't make any sense, it's kind of true of how you barely learn crap at a University, other than:

Spoiler for university/college logic:

#305 - DEILD - 6:00AM

I awaken around 5:15, try to DEILD but fail, and have a really strange NLD. I awaken from that dream feeling really alert and mentally stimulated. I know that I probably don't have much time to LD and worry that this G night will be a total fail. I quickly quiet my mind and focus on relaxing my body while I take slow deep breaths. With each exhale I feel more and more detached from my physical existence. Before I go too deep, I notice my body is in an awkward position and I am slowly able to adjust without losing any progress. Looking back I wonder if this was my dream body or physical body. I go back to taking deep breaths while focusing on relaxing my body and soon I feel the vibes.


I am now in a lucid dream state and I have my typical OBE feeling. I am able to look to my right but its all dark void. Suddenly I see a light source but it totally engulfs me and I turn away. I am unable to transition or move so I focus on walking then running then high speed inertia. The feel becomes so intense that I have to stop. Next, I visualize walking in my living room and also immediately I find myself there. I see a very disorganized version of my house. There are huge piles of denim on the couches and the dining table is in front of the TV. There are random objects on the table but the thing I note the most are the cats casually lounging on it. Everything is really unstable and blurry but I recall all the stabilization techniques Wurlman and I talked about in the Lucid For Life podcast over the weekend. I focus on the feel of the table as I walk around it. I stop and pet Stella. I look at my hands, clap and even slap myself in the face once. All this seems to have helped greatly so I stop and look around a bit more. I think about going outside but I feel like the dream will collapse if I try it so I decide to linger inside a little longer.

When I look toward the kitchen I feel a presence there staring at me. I shout out, "Who's there? Show yourself." Nothing happens so I move to the kitchen but when I do it darkens out as if the presence there wants to remain hidden and unseen. This causes the dream to become very unstable but I focus my vision on the living room and re-stabilize. I see a book case full of old NES game cartridges. I become interested and pick one out. I look and see the movie picture of Fievel Goes West on it. I read the title out loud and see "Fievel Goes Japanese". Then, "Japanese" turns to "Japanapedia". I let this last word roll out of my mouth feeling amused.

At this point I partially wake up but am fully locked into SP. My impulse reaction is to fight it but I relax and focus on DEILD. In an instant, I am in another dream scene, standing on the porch of my parents old house. I feel compelled to enter and when I do find myself sensing that same presence as before. I can feel it's eyes on me just watching. It doesn't seem evil nor benign but I am highly annoyed. I feel intruded on and want to discover who or what this is. I rush to the dining room where I sense the feeling is coming from, but as I get close the void over takes me and I find myself in SP again. As I begin to DEILD and wait for the next dream I am suddenly pulled back into physical existence by the sound of the alarm.

Dreams I had this month or a month ago that I remember.
#0
[Dream training]

I was in a room with students around me. Than I left them to go to a invited party with my family. My brother and my mom and I entered the room. It was filled with tables with food on them. I was like yay! I wanted to eat some dessert with strawberries. But I saw that the foods were rotten and old. So I was like why are there old foods here!? My middle school teacher from years ago was assisting with the party and said something i don't recall. Than that's when my brother said that putting rotten food out was a stupid idea. That's when i began walking and saw a tall young man say to me. Hey, I remember you. i remembered the guy from a pizza dream of mine. He was so tall that i was like woah. Than jumped holding on to him. Than I let go and left that scene. I was taken into a small room where i was told my assignment was to get out. I looked behind me and saw a bear standing on his feet. I tried to trick the bear by telling it that there was food somewhere else and he left. Than I jumped way up onto something. I saw string and climbing material on the floor. I was high up and was told my next assignment was to get down first. There were other girls beside me trying to win. But I manged to get down first and won. After that I woke up I think....

#1

[The scary girl]

I was dreaming something I don't remember...than I walked into a room where it was a rectangle and there were tables around. A middle aged man offered me some wine and I told him no. I don't drink wine. Than I ran out the room and started walking. That's when I felt like someone was following me. A girl was behind me and when i got in the middle of the room I could see a girls picture on the floor. Than she started to laugh in a evil manner. I moved quickly and ran up some stairs. I could see a dark room with a figure of a person inside. It scared me so I ran again and the girl started to chase me. Saying I would never get out. When I was running through the hall I saw a room where there was a man who looked like Abraham Lincoln butchering a person on a table with two others. The girl cried out I would never escape. But I flew and tried to get out through the walls and I did. I tried to get on a train i saw but I was pulled back in the building. So I tried to fly through the roof. When i touched the roof and the girl was right behind me i appeared on my bed. Couldn't move until I tried to wake myself up and i did.

#2
[The stomach stab again...]
I appeared in a narrow long room with a red carpet after exiting a bathroom. I could see a picture of a blond lady with a pony tail. A voice spoke like a news reporter saying that Jenny was in trouble of being chased by bad men who wanted to kill her. I than proceeded to turn than walk. I could see a boy in a wooden seat. With a cup of clear blue water to his side. He wore a mask of that troll face picture i see on the internet and there was a small blue fire like thing floating above him. Another voice spoke saying "This boy waited for God and died from a terrible sickness." I was kind of scared than so I tried to get out the building but that's when small childlike Goku from dragon ball gt came out of no where and grabbed me. Than I felt someone stabbing my stomach. That's when I thought of my old dream with the little girl who did the same. Than a voice spoke saying I wouldn't escape. But I managed to escape goku's grip and that's when i woke up.

#3
[Ending to a dream]
I was at a school walking in a line with other students. When suddenly a huge guy from the line grabbed me than threw me to the floor. After that he stomped on my head. I could feel the pain in my dream. Than i appeared on my bed and a dark figure grabbed me and threw me under the bed and started beating me. After that i woke up and I was shaking in real life at times. So I started playing the 3ds to feel better and felt better a few minutes later. I've never had a scary nightmare like that. But I think I had that dream cause i was focusing on my head a lot the current week. Since sometimes i get anxiety when i see scary stuff on the news...-w-

#4
[In The Library]
I was in the Library with my sister and my nephew. There were other people around doing their own business. My sister turned to me and asked me to help her find a book for my young nephew. As I looked I saw a little girl behind my nephew. I than knew that I was dreaming and felt that she was the girl who liked to stab my stomach. So I said to her " get away from my nephew!." and she disappeared a bit. My sister came up to me and asked what was wrong. I told her we have to get out of here quick. That's when people started to leave the library like it was closing down. So we began to leave but the little girl came up to me and was telling me not to go. I said get away from me! as i followed the crowd through the hall. She said said she wouldn't let me. So I was like I believe in Jehovah! I don't believe in ghosts. And that's when she let go and i reached the outside. Outside i got on the bus but suddenly a boy ran up to me and said something i don't remember. I said no! Just leave me alone!. Than he said fine! I'll never bother you again! and left. On the bus I saw a girl crying for him in the third person and than saw words on the bus floor which looked like a song or poetry. Saying something about missing somebody. : P

April 14, 2014. Possible WILD. A fairly long LD, considering how I normally wake up in a few seconds.
I'm in bed. I do the nose plug RC and I can breathe. I remember my promise to just focus on stabilizing, and I do so. I feel the room around me and try to focus just on that. I actually look around the room this time. I have some trouble with the eyes, and am not sure whether I opened my dream eyes or real eyes. At some point I just close my eyes and look through them.

My bedsheets are blue and white. I think there is a desk and a bookshelf. The balcony is still there. I rub my hands and walk outside. There is snow on the ground and on the balcony. The snow is crisp and cold. I start to jump off the balcony but remember that I'm not doing any of that this time. I move back inside my room. I decide to look for Dream Drops and a remote. I look down at myself (which I've never really done before) and find that I'm wearing a white dress blouse and black pants. Concert attire. I feel around my pants pockets but they're empty at first. I'm like "come on, I know I have a dream drop somewhere" and roll my fingers around my pocket until I find one. It's a red gummy candy. I eat it. It tastes like strawberry. The vividity of the dream slightly increases. Not sure though. I can't find a remote control.

I hear the vacuum cleaner running outside, assume that my brother is using it, and decide to go chat with him. I leave my room, but there's no one in the kitchen. Must be in the waking world, then. I go to the living room and see a guy's top hat underneath the window. I poke my head through the glass and say hello. He says hello. He looks like one of those Jewish guys who live in the neighborhood.

I ask, "What's your name?"
He says, "Henry."
"Henry?"
"Harlem."
"So, Henry Harlem, then?"
"Yeah."

I feel the dream slipping away and try to focus back on the dream environment to no avail. I awaken to the sound of a vacuum cleaner in the kitchen my brother running on a treadmill in the living room.