lucid

One dream was, that a friend of mine invited me to come with her to a job, which would bring a lot of money, but it was something physical and outdoors and you had to dress warmly.
There were so many people at the gathering place - somebody said, our group would go somewhere else for another job.
This entailed sitting in the basement of a shopping-centre on long tables with a lot of other people - maybe even only women, not sure.

And it was handicraft - we were making/repairing Easter decorations - I had to fix new candles into some places, where old ones had burned down, which - typical dream - was pretty difficult.
In the end I switched and went about painting flowers - TOTM overspill, I'm pretty sure - so I painted unusual flowers on pieces of wood. Na well.

Then there is a fragment, where I'm with an ex-boyfriend from my youth at a frozen mountain lake.
He doesn't want me to go out - it's not completely safe, I could also see that.
But I went - bit also to daunt him - nothing happened, but I had to go back at one point, because cracks began to appear. No hectic or fear connected, though - I knew, I'd make it back safely.

Another fragment was being in my old childhood room, which I loved, and exactly at the right time, when the evening light would shine through my windows in a most beautiful golden way.
Bit more about me trying to get rid of some nasty furniture that had been stored there and properly moving back in.

When that dream ended - I had a mini-lucid moment, but no optics any more suddenly.
So I jumped in the air, like I usually do it, when lucid - and I had for a little moment the feeling of hovering. I stared into nothingness, hoping for a dream - but unfortunately I woke up then.

There was one more episode, where I went to university with two male friends of mine, and one of them said, women should undergo special tests before they enter - because most of them wouldn't actually do anything with their valuable (also financially) high education, but work as plaything manufacturers.
I swallowed - was after that job episode above..

14.04.2014

Tranquilizer Gun Fails, or I'm a Lousy Shot (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’m hiding behind a rock that’s probably 5 feet wide, and maybe 3-4 feet tall. I have a tranquilizer gun on me, and I believe I’m wearing a black tac suit as well. The environment resembles a jungle, and the ground itself had a color of white rock material that’s covered by all sorts of minerals, dirt, and grass.

The area’s pathway I’m on seems to be curved like a “C,” where if I were to reach the end, I would probably have to jump off from a pretty high elevation to get to the lower section of this area. I’m as the bottom end of the “C” shaped area, and there’s a soldier patrolling around the section farther away from me.

He looks kind of like a Panamanian guard that you would see in Splinter Cell: Chaos Theory, though I’m not sure if the design for the Gamecube version was different from the XBOX.

How I conceptualized the whole experience seemed to have involved me looking at my dream self through third person point of view, and occasionally feeling my dream body as well. I try to take my time to aim the tranquilizer gun at the guard, and it seems this experience in the dream had to be reset several times because I was either missing the shot completely, or I didn’t shoot him anywhere in the head to hopefully make him unconscious quickly.

One experience within the reset was that when I took a shot, and miss, some kind of random object launched its way over to the guard. The object was hard to see from afar, but I remember that it had a violet color with a slight overlay of blue. The guard turns around, looks alert, and isn’t hesitant in calling for backup.

I can visualize how said backup would arrive, and there’s soldiers wearing some kind of dark yellow camo outfit with brown spots spread around it, along with them wearing black masks where only their eyes are portrayed through a horizontal oval cut-out.

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14.04.2014

120 Subjects Learned? (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Apparently, I tell someone that I learned over 120 subjects in High School and at a University.

Words come out of my mouth like crazy, and I felt like it was just coming by naturally without any intention of having to cover anything up. I think I stated I learned 110 in High school, and the rest at a University.

Even though the dream didn't make any sense, it's kind of true of how you barely learn crap at a University, other than:

Spoiler for university/college logic:

#305 - DEILD - 6:00AM

I awaken around 5:15, try to DEILD but fail, and have a really strange NLD. I awaken from that dream feeling really alert and mentally stimulated. I know that I probably don't have much time to LD and worry that this G night will be a total fail. I quickly quiet my mind and focus on relaxing my body while I take slow deep breaths. With each exhale I feel more and more detached from my physical existence. Before I go too deep, I notice my body is in an awkward position and I am slowly able to adjust without losing any progress. Looking back I wonder if this was my dream body or physical body. I go back to taking deep breaths while focusing on relaxing my body and soon I feel the vibes.


I am now in a lucid dream state and I have my typical OBE feeling. I am able to look to my right but its all dark void. Suddenly I see a light source but it totally engulfs me and I turn away. I am unable to transition or move so I focus on walking then running then high speed inertia. The feel becomes so intense that I have to stop. Next, I visualize walking in my living room and also immediately I find myself there. I see a very disorganized version of my house. There are huge piles of denim on the couches and the dining table is in front of the TV. There are random objects on the table but the thing I note the most are the cats casually lounging on it. Everything is really unstable and blurry but I recall all the stabilization techniques Wurlman and I talked about in the Lucid For Life podcast over the weekend. I focus on the feel of the table as I walk around it. I stop and pet Stella. I look at my hands, clap and even slap myself in the face once. All this seems to have helped greatly so I stop and look around a bit more. I think about going outside but I feel like the dream will collapse if I try it so I decide to linger inside a little longer.

When I look toward the kitchen I feel a presence there staring at me. I shout out, "Who's there? Show yourself." Nothing happens so I move to the kitchen but when I do it darkens out as if the presence there wants to remain hidden and unseen. This causes the dream to become very unstable but I focus my vision on the living room and re-stabilize. I see a book case full of old NES game cartridges. I become interested and pick one out. I look and see the movie picture of Fievel Goes West on it. I read the title out loud and see "Fievel Goes Japanese". Then, "Japanese" turns to "Japanapedia". I let this last word roll out of my mouth feeling amused.

At this point I partially wake up but am fully locked into SP. My impulse reaction is to fight it but I relax and focus on DEILD. In an instant, I am in another dream scene, standing on the porch of my parents old house. I feel compelled to enter and when I do find myself sensing that same presence as before. I can feel it's eyes on me just watching. It doesn't seem evil nor benign but I am highly annoyed. I feel intruded on and want to discover who or what this is. I rush to the dining room where I sense the feeling is coming from, but as I get close the void over takes me and I find myself in SP again. As I begin to DEILD and wait for the next dream I am suddenly pulled back into physical existence by the sound of the alarm.

Dreams I had this month or a month ago that I remember.
#0
[Dream training]

I was in a room with students around me. Than I left them to go to a invited party with my family. My brother and my mom and I entered the room. It was filled with tables with food on them. I was like yay! I wanted to eat some dessert with strawberries. But I saw that the foods were rotten and old. So I was like why are there old foods here!? My middle school teacher from years ago was assisting with the party and said something i don't recall. Than that's when my brother said that putting rotten food out was a stupid idea. That's when i began walking and saw a tall young man say to me. Hey, I remember you. i remembered the guy from a pizza dream of mine. He was so tall that i was like woah. Than jumped holding on to him. Than I let go and left that scene. I was taken into a small room where i was told my assignment was to get out. I looked behind me and saw a bear standing on his feet. I tried to trick the bear by telling it that there was food somewhere else and he left. Than I jumped way up onto something. I saw string and climbing material on the floor. I was high up and was told my next assignment was to get down first. There were other girls beside me trying to win. But I manged to get down first and won. After that I woke up I think....

#1

[The scary girl]

I was dreaming something I don't remember...than I walked into a room where it was a rectangle and there were tables around. A middle aged man offered me some wine and I told him no. I don't drink wine. Than I ran out the room and started walking. That's when I felt like someone was following me. A girl was behind me and when i got in the middle of the room I could see a girls picture on the floor. Than she started to laugh in a evil manner. I moved quickly and ran up some stairs. I could see a dark room with a figure of a person inside. It scared me so I ran again and the girl started to chase me. Saying I would never get out. When I was running through the hall I saw a room where there was a man who looked like Abraham Lincoln butchering a person on a table with two others. The girl cried out I would never escape. But I flew and tried to get out through the walls and I did. I tried to get on a train i saw but I was pulled back in the building. So I tried to fly through the roof. When i touched the roof and the girl was right behind me i appeared on my bed. Couldn't move until I tried to wake myself up and i did.

#2
[The stomach stab again...]
I appeared in a narrow long room with a red carpet after exiting a bathroom. I could see a picture of a blond lady with a pony tail. A voice spoke like a news reporter saying that Jenny was in trouble of being chased by bad men who wanted to kill her. I than proceeded to turn than walk. I could see a boy in a wooden seat. With a cup of clear blue water to his side. He wore a mask of that troll face picture i see on the internet and there was a small blue fire like thing floating above him. Another voice spoke saying "This boy waited for God and died from a terrible sickness." I was kind of scared than so I tried to get out the building but that's when small childlike Goku from dragon ball gt came out of no where and grabbed me. Than I felt someone stabbing my stomach. That's when I thought of my old dream with the little girl who did the same. Than a voice spoke saying I wouldn't escape. But I managed to escape goku's grip and that's when i woke up.

#3
[Ending to a dream]
I was at a school walking in a line with other students. When suddenly a huge guy from the line grabbed me than threw me to the floor. After that he stomped on my head. I could feel the pain in my dream. Than i appeared on my bed and a dark figure grabbed me and threw me under the bed and started beating me. After that i woke up and I was shaking in real life at times. So I started playing the 3ds to feel better and felt better a few minutes later. I've never had a scary nightmare like that. But I think I had that dream cause i was focusing on my head a lot the current week. Since sometimes i get anxiety when i see scary stuff on the news...-w-

#4
[In The Library]
I was in the Library with my sister and my nephew. There were other people around doing their own business. My sister turned to me and asked me to help her find a book for my young nephew. As I looked I saw a little girl behind my nephew. I than knew that I was dreaming and felt that she was the girl who liked to stab my stomach. So I said to her " get away from my nephew!." and she disappeared a bit. My sister came up to me and asked what was wrong. I told her we have to get out of here quick. That's when people started to leave the library like it was closing down. So we began to leave but the little girl came up to me and was telling me not to go. I said get away from me! as i followed the crowd through the hall. She said said she wouldn't let me. So I was like I believe in Jehovah! I don't believe in ghosts. And that's when she let go and i reached the outside. Outside i got on the bus but suddenly a boy ran up to me and said something i don't remember. I said no! Just leave me alone!. Than he said fine! I'll never bother you again! and left. On the bus I saw a girl crying for him in the third person and than saw words on the bus floor which looked like a song or poetry. Saying something about missing somebody. : P

April 14, 2014. Possible WILD. A fairly long LD, considering how I normally wake up in a few seconds.
I'm in bed. I do the nose plug RC and I can breathe. I remember my promise to just focus on stabilizing, and I do so. I feel the room around me and try to focus just on that. I actually look around the room this time. I have some trouble with the eyes, and am not sure whether I opened my dream eyes or real eyes. At some point I just close my eyes and look through them.

My bedsheets are blue and white. I think there is a desk and a bookshelf. The balcony is still there. I rub my hands and walk outside. There is snow on the ground and on the balcony. The snow is crisp and cold. I start to jump off the balcony but remember that I'm not doing any of that this time. I move back inside my room. I decide to look for Dream Drops and a remote. I look down at myself (which I've never really done before) and find that I'm wearing a white dress blouse and black pants. Concert attire. I feel around my pants pockets but they're empty at first. I'm like "come on, I know I have a dream drop somewhere" and roll my fingers around my pocket until I find one. It's a red gummy candy. I eat it. It tastes like strawberry. The vividity of the dream slightly increases. Not sure though. I can't find a remote control.

I hear the vacuum cleaner running outside, assume that my brother is using it, and decide to go chat with him. I leave my room, but there's no one in the kitchen. Must be in the waking world, then. I go to the living room and see a guy's top hat underneath the window. I poke my head through the glass and say hello. He says hello. He looks like one of those Jewish guys who live in the neighborhood.

I ask, "What's your name?"
He says, "Henry."
"Henry?"
"Harlem."
"So, Henry Harlem, then?"
"Yeah."

I feel the dream slipping away and try to focus back on the dream environment to no avail. I awaken to the sound of a vacuum cleaner in the kitchen my brother running on a treadmill in the living room.

Morning of April 14, 2014. Monday.



This was a very nice and peaceful dream and it lasted longer on average than other dreams of this type, though not as nice and relaxing as my recent tidal wave dreams that seemed like healing sessions as well as this dream did (mostly as water is autosymbolism for REM sleep and the absence of emotion and the release of physical tension). It is very vivid and my dream self is rendered as corporeal, enjoying all the nice giant snakes swimming around in the ocean. There are at least six or seven of them. They move their bodies about in complex patterns, rolling in the water, seemingly enjoying themselves. The head of the black and red one, which is about as big as a car, comes very close to my face and then turns and goes about its business.

I am mostly, at least at the beginning, on a European powerboat. I am not sure if it is around dawn or dusk at first. It may be dusk, as I did listen to the Charlie Pride song, “The Snakes Crawl at Night” probably too many times as a child. “When the sun goes down, then the snakes will pla-ay…” though he was not actually talking about snakes in the song at all, but when you are that young, you do not understand a lot of things.

I like these giant snakes, especially the black and red and purple ones. They are fun to play with and ride around on and are more assertive and confident over normal-sized ones (an association with the movie “Dinosaurus” seen several times as a child, though it was a brontosaurus that the boy rode, not a giant snake), which sometimes just slither off or hide. I am reminded of Cecil, from “Beany and Cecil”, which I used to watch on my older sister Marilyn’s television as a child.

Eventually, there are less and less giant snakes and I assume they are swimming off into the sunset, which is quite beautiful.

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Obviously, not all snake dreams are healing dreams, but the fact that I was lucid in this case utilizes that understanding, as my conscious self identity is inherently extant to a viable degree in such dreams. For me, snakes and snakelike creatures have often been autosymbolism for stomach cramps due to the similarity of the shape and coiling as with the human intestine. However, they are often in more realistic scenarios as simply the waking alert factor of RAS modulation that even monkeys probably dream of as such (and I doubt monkeys ever dream of snakes as healing factors or as representing other monkeys).

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Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #200: Runway

I’m walking out through the exit of an airport when I realize that I’ve left my cell phone inside, possibly on the plane. I want to turn back to get it but I’m feeling disoriented and can’t find my way back inside.

Now I’m walking along the runway as planes taxi back and forth around me. I know that this is a bad idea but I can’t figure out what else I’m supposed to do and I wonder why they make airports so confusing. A plane rolls by on my right, uncomfortably close, and as I cringe away from it, I realize that this is all a dream.

Calmer now, I walk along the runway toward an odd series of doors set into a metal frame. The frame’s set up right next to a long patch of grass and seems to lead nowhere, but when I walk through one of the doors, now I’m standing in the lobby of an ornate hotel.

There’s a fancy, circular bench covered in some sort of red pillowtop. I walk around it to the foot of a grand staircase. For some reason I decide not to go up and I walk down a hallway around the side of the stairway. I realize that a group of people including my cousin SU is following close behind me. I don’t turn to address them but instead continue on slowly and deliberately, enjoying the vivid, stable feel of the dream.

I come to a large glass window and I move toward it to phase. As I approach, I vividly see the reflections of SU and the 2-3 others behind me. I take the phase slowly, marvelling at the detail of not only the reflections behind me but the sensations of the phase itself. The glass feels like a cool, insubstantial liquid as I pass through it.

I make my way into a busy, two-floor restaurant. It’s a fancy place and I stop to study it. I notice that the waitstaff is all women in their late 20s or early 30s wearing a long brown ponytail.

I remember some snatch of an earlier Task of the Month that I think has something to do with wearing green. As I recall this, all of the waitresses turn to look at me for a moment, all of them now dressed in green pants and a white dress shirt. I notice no transition to the green pants. It’s just as if this is what they’ve been wearing the entire time. I know that I’m not remembering anything relevant about any task, so I let it go and the waitresses turn their attention back to the other DCs in the restaurant.

I walk up the carpeted stairway to another row of tables full of nicely dressed DCs enjoying dinner. It doesn’t look like there’s a free table in the whole place. I walk along for a bit, wanting to explore further, but the dream ends.

I've had a dryspell of over two weeks, but now I'm back !
This dream was pretty short because my cat woke me up

Lucidity: 8/10
Vivacity: 8/10
Control: 8/10

I'm in a modern luxury hotel room, on my laptop. I've got an awesome view on a rich, almost futuristic city with high buildings and an ocean on the left. Apart from the floor and the furniture, the hotel structure sort of reminds me of a friend's apartment.
I'm watching a friend of mine's video on youtube; it's a weird magic video. Accidentally, I copy the video on an editing program and freak out for no reason at all.
I become lucid.
There's no need for any reality check: I know for sure that I'm dreaming.
I brows the program's options and find a cool-looking key: "wooden". I click on that and enter the screen... I land somewhere in the city in which my hotel was at. I see branches coming out out the ground and buildings, green stems and leaves progressively growing on them. Eventually, full trunks grow too, until the place resembles a city that would have been deserted for hundreds of years.
People in front of me back up slowly, looking at me with awed stares, as if I was the Devil just coming down to kill them all.
Well, they're not exactly wrong...
Up on the rooftops at my right, a friend of mine stares at me. I feel like he is the hero whose duty is to stop me.
Nah f*ck that.
I walk a bit in the streets, with a masked guy who followed me. Eventually we arrive to a sort of "bridge"; the beach is close to my left, in front of me is a ~5 meter drop onto a calm road.
The masked guy asks me how big I want to become, and I scream "I want to be expandable !" (wut?).
I've already grown about half my size, but I want more.
I walk up to the fence that is supposed to prevent me from falling onto the road, cross it, and adopt a suicidal pose: my feet half way in the air, holding myself onto the rail behind me.
I focus on the buildings in front of me, with the masked guy watching me. I slowly take a few steps in the air, but I'm not falling: my body extended to the ground. I walk around a little bit, I can hear my feet pounding on the floor. The masked guy followed me. He grew too, but not as much as me.
I hear weird, loud noises coming from everywhere, until I wake up and realize my cat was scratching on my door

12.04.2014

Putting on a Tape Suit & Plastic Bag Carrot Humping (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’m inside a classroom that resembles my biology class at a High School I attended years back (CLHS as an abbreviation for personal reference).

I’m trying to put on a transparent suit that looks like it’s really made out of tape. I ask individuals how to put it on, and when one of them portrays the method to me, it seems more complicated than it seems. How in the world does one put on a tape suit without it sticking to their clothing?

After a bit, there’s an inflated, and transparent produce bag with a few carrots on the bottom. I put my penis inside, and started humping it. I think there was a competition of who could hump it more, and going for more than ten was more than enough to get by, I guess.

I think the individuals were cheering me on, talk about ego boosting for inanimate object fornication.

Kind of reminds me of what I had to do for work today, excluding the humping part and ego boosting, and cheering…and my penis inside a bag.

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12.04.2014

Buzzing Near the Window (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wake up from my bed, or so it seems, and tried to get back to sleep, seeing how I didn’t want to feel too groggy for work, especially with the activities done today. It feels so nice wanting to go back to sleep, back into a state of relaxation and comfort, until something keeps making a buzzing sound that’s extremely annoying.

I wondered how could something could be so active during the dead of night, seeing how unless it had vision for seeing clearly for night, it would reside somewhere safe until there’s more light apparent. I tried to go to sleep several times, but the buzzing sound keeps pestering me.

I eventually decided to do a nose plug reality check, pressing my nose with my right index finger and thumb, and was able to breathe just fine. The dream environment seemed to have replicated the house I’m currently residing in to some extent. So, having this in mind, I take the chance to try and go out the usual way to exit the house.

I proceed by going through the white door, and trying to open it. However, it seems I have to punch in some kind of code in order to unlock it. The buttons consisted of a light milky green color with a rubbery texture. The material surrounding the buttons is white all around, and is shaped almost like a tooth, without the points at the end of course.

And out of reflex, I seemed to have entered a random code: 90321 I believe, without knowing if it was the right one or not. Unfortunately, the alarm has a very long and annoying beep sound, and this prompts me to try an escape, because I don’t know what could be inside the other bedroom in this dream, especially when it’s way too dark inside.

And wanting to turn on the lights was out of the question, since I felt a bit fearful of something randomly coming out. Though most of the time, the places in my lucid dreams are often barren, and not really something where random entities will come about to try and kill me, or something dangerous. I probably should’ve been aware of this before running as if I’m Michael Scofield from Prison Break, ha-ha.

I go through the living room, and quickly unlocked the door to get out, and now the dream shifts from night to early morning immediately. Now I’m immersed in a virtual experiential reality that seems to be exactly like waking life at first glance, and with more clarity and realism as well. I marvel at this, my breathing, and just my overall existence within this dreaming state.

The weather, the sensations on my feet against the cold concrete of what seems to be an area where it rained recently, everything felt so real, and then some. After a few seconds of absorbing this experience, I get an urgency to continue running, even though it doesn’t seem like anyone is after me.

As I’m running, I’m changing perspectives where I look at myself running, and it seems to go by in slow motion, and the motion of running is a bit exaggerated at times; it often looks like I’m floating in the air for a good bit, and making weird leg movements to quickly save my descent.

After watching this for a while, I wake up in a series of false awakenings for most of the dreams below. Fortunately, the nose plug reality check is going to save me.

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12.04.2014

Confucius gives LD advice (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Felt as if I woke up, then I reconciled with awareness of the experience being a dream again.

I’m standing on top of a building, and it seems to be early morning, or an event where it rained previously. I see a dream character that looks like Confucius, and he’s lecturing to others on lucid dreaming techniques and advice.

As for actual declarations to recall from him, I can't remember.

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12.04.2014

Picking Up a Black Biker Jacket Wearing Chick & Escaping with Her (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wake up once more, only to reconcile with awareness of this being a dream once more. Maybe this was a DEILD, since I can recall those experiences of transitioning back to waking state with my eyes closed, and seeing imaginary simulations of being awake, or maybe it’s just a false awakening altogether.

I’m inside a theater, and it has the usual settings. You know, red carpet, and other warm colors to mask off all those stains from being apparent at first glance. The putrid smell that is also prevalent in theaters that’s like a mélange of buttered popcorn, weasels, intense chlorine, air freshener, and other chemicals. I didn’t take the time to visualize all the major details of the theater itself, but I do know that in the current location I’m at, there’s many paths you could take from the circular base I’m standing on.

I see an attractive girl, I think, with long black hair, and she’s wearing a black biker jacket of some sort. Underneath that, she’s wearing some kind of milky vanilla shirt that’s fairly tight, and makes her bosoms eye-candy at this point. For some reason, I had an urgency to pick her up, and hold her back, and the bottom of her knees, and run off with her.

She seems shocked at first, but then kind of goes with the flow, and I’m going with the flow as well. Then the next moment, I’m using my legs to kick anyone that seems to be in my way, and there’s a slight uproar going on while I’m running with the girl.

This takes “chasing” women to a whole new extreme.

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12.04.2014

Kakashi Gives me Lucid Dreaming Advice (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This seems to be the last dream in the false awakening chain of events, or maybe the one before it was.

I’m sitting down with Kakashi, younger version, and he’s giving me lucid dreaming advice. However, the advice seems kind vague, and not really something that could be applicable in all circumstances.

He states that if you find yourself in two conditions:

• Where there’s little light
• Where it’s too bright

That one would most likely be dreaming.

Your non-sequiturs are what prevented you from saving Rin, Kakashi, just as your vague circumstantial lucid dreaming advice is. And that totally was not a non-sequitur, ba-dum tiss.

Though, looking back, he could be right, especially since I was in complete darkness in the buzzing insect dream, to being in a hyper-realistic virtual experiential reality the next, and then inside a bright theatre.

But still, the advice is severely limited.

4/12/13** My awareness is still not up to pre dry streak levels but 3 LDs in 2 days...I'll take it! Lots of fun as well! To bed around 12:10am - tried to simulate son waking me like on 3/30/14 which launched a nice early LD, this time using a gentle alarm ~70 minutes after bed for DEILD attempt but may have had some REM rebound the previous time...will try 80 minutes next time. Completely missed the 3 snoozes 1 hour apart and turned it off at wbtb...my alarm app has a max snooze of 60 minutes so...may be better for late DEILD attempts.

Interesting non lucid tie-in to another non-lucid in same night. Father Fitzpatrick (name not known to me but I bet there are a few somewhere in the world) is coming by and a Patrick comes by...could it be Patrick Fitzpatrick I wonder...no just a Patrick. In a later dream I tell Father Fitzpatrick "You will not believe this! I had a dream about you last night and this is the first time I am meeting you!"

DILD 1 - wake from it ~8:40am. I am in a kitchen unlike any from my memory, old style. There is a bag of candies but only 5 left and they look picked over and broken. I am peeking out my curtains and apparently there is a house in the back yard, like an in-law unit but it is a good size white single story home that looked most like an old farm house. I could see someone in the window and then the curtains close. I go back into the kitchen and there is a stranger standing in front of the sink and I realize this is a dream. I decide to knock around the stranger and go on a bit of a rampage around the house messing with different DC's and eventually fly up out of the house and then realize I should fly back down and think about what goals I should do before losing awareness or most likely waking up since I don't recall anything after and my recall was fairly strong tonight.

* sexual content warning *
DILD 2 - wake from it ~10:50am - 2 different components from this WILD attempt turned DILD showed up in my dream - an HI that I played with via visualization and then a completely manual visualization. My father and I are on a bus or RV and guiding the driver. I have been here before (false memory) and it goes from 3 lanes to 1. "You can get over one lane...actually you can get all the way over now." We jump out to help in some way and plan to get back on at the red light but the driver runs the red light and leaves us behind. We cross two crosswalks at intersection to get on same street he turned down to see if he pulled over. Nope. We go into a nice hotel lobby and my father says he has the driver's number. I should get it also I think. My father jumps on a University transport bus to borrow a phone but the doors close=2nd separation (1st from others on RV/bus). I know if I stay at the hotel he will find his way back to me and he does later and it has shopping like the hotel is connected to a mall or just a really large hotel with some shops including an ice cream shop. My father makes some corny joke to the lady in the shop and repeats it in case she missed it the first time. I see a woman standing provocatively and realize I am dreaming but start off with lower awareness. She is standing on a ramp elevated purposely giving a view up her skirt and I take a look (this was also the theme of an HI before the dream). I go around like a bit of a dog and enjoyed in particular this large breasted blonde woman (more blonds than normal I think as a result of Scarlett) with a white pull over shirt and jean shorts. I pull up her shirt and she pulls it back down. I tell her "you know you like this" and she goes along. I pull it up again and am expecting a bra clasp in the front and lower the shirt and raise it again willing it to be in the front. Nope, so I reach around and undo the clasp. Nice! I remove her shorts and underwear and my own and she remarks "I think your **** is too big, you might hurt me" but as I stick it in she enjoys it. We go at it a good while to the point of me thinking that this dream just keeps going and going. I carry her around the mall with her legs straddled around me and continue to have sex. We make our way into a movie theater and my father has followed...oh well. They are playing a racy movie on the screen and we continue to have sex in the theater seating. Someone grasps my shoulders from behind and I know that it is my wife. She says "you have saliva all over your ****" I say "saliva...uh, yeah right..." I use my mind to change the movie to a cartoon. There are kids around but I am dreaming, it doesn't really matter. A's friend M (another visualization before dream) comes over and the blond is gone now and she sticks her hand on my **** she just has to get a feel on it. My underwear is back on but I yank it out and let her feel it some more. I wake up physically affected...enough said.

Key:
basic i: Red
bonus: Blue

Earliest Part I can remember was in a grocery store. I became lucid and felt like messing with DC's for some reason. So I started walking backwards through the store as the DC's looked at me like I was insane. Then I got on my hands and started walking upside down and backwards through the store and I walked over to one guy and slapped him on the butt. He was a large gentleman, I apologized because he looked quite shocked. I told him, "I would have slapped you on the back but I am upside down as you can clearly see." I then started stealing peoples' shoes with telekinesis. I would make their shoes fly off their feet or make them fly in the air before I steal them. They all started running at me trying to take my shoes but I just laughed at them and ran over to another area of the store. I found Bender and Fry from Futurama there. I jumped into their spaceship (which had a door on the other side of one of those frozen food aisle doors).

We shot off into space and on the way we somehow split into different spaceships. I suddenly noticed that something was quite strange and noticed that I wasn't moving anymore. We were all getting sucked into a supermassive black hole. This is where it started to get really weird. We didn't get fully pulled into the absolute center. We left our ships and swam through space (towards the black hole) until we got to a membrane that separated the black hole from the rest of the universe? I don't know how to explain it very well. It was as though we were in the middle of this membrane where on one side was the rest of the universe and on the other was past the event horizon. Everything that had come to this point was squished together in this space but it seemed to those that were squished there to be quite normal and nothing looked like it was squished together. We all started exploring this strange place and I asked one space creature why we were here and not getting sucked in further. He told me that nothing could pass the point at which the acceleration due to gravity exceeds the speed of light. I told him that I thought he was wrong and I asked why he said that. He told me that we couldn't travel faster than the speed of light. I responded that I remembered something about changing relativistic mass. He said that was not relevant in this situation.

I went off to explore some more with Fry, Bender, and The Professor who was now with us. We came to a home of a space cricket that had gotten trapped here too. He peeked his little cricket head out of a pile of space plants. They looked like fried onion rings but were extremely light. I asked him in cricket language how we could get out of here. He said in cricket sounds that I couldn't understand that the black hole was about to collapse in on itself and open a worm hole (Fry translated for me?). We all raced to our ships for some reason. I was swimming through space to get to my ship but it had turned into the size of an apple. Fry's ship had as well. So Fry and I raced to get to another ship. I decided that this was silly and that I had awesome dream powers. So I swam towards the black hole side of the membrane while chanting to myself that it's okay. I was a lil' bit scared. On the other side was a void of nothingness. I woke up.

This is the kind of experience that I don’t know exactly where to put it: WILD/OBE?...
I woke up at 5:30 extremely happy, I thought for an hour about how happy I was with life, just because…

I know that when I’m this happy, I have a strange feeling in my belly, like something warm and moving inside. I fell asleep again with this overwhelming feeling of happiness and next thing I felt were the vibrations and the funny feelings of an OBE, which I think are some kind of different from WILD, I also felt like a BIG hand pulling me from my bed, I thought “not OBE please, I just want a lucid dream”, I instantly felt like something was “decreasing” and then some images began appearing as if there was a screen in front of me, and that usually happens when I try WILD, the screen appears and I jump into the scene.

I feel “something” is “calling” me, I don’t know how to describe this feeling, but the next thing I feel is that I’m flying over a ship, the sea is brave and there is someone in the sea asking for help, it’s not that I hear her, I just know this person is probably dying, also I don’t know why I do it but I just sent love to that person dying.

Next scene: I’m in the middle of nothing, floating around in space, there’s almost complete darkness, I see some stars but very far away, and very few. I try to look at my hands but I don’t have a physical body, I don’t see anything but I feel I am something. I touch my belly (the place where I feel there’s something) with my “hands” and I feel something extremely weird, I don’t know if “pain” would be the appropriate word, but it felt as an electric shock.

I began swimming around in this nothingness, not knowing exactly where to go, since everything is very far, and there’s almost nothing. I see something like a big hand appearing and pointing me to follow it (well, I didn’t quite see it, it was a combination of seeing and feeling… nevermind, it’s hard to describe what it was like) I follow it but since I’m moving too slow by swimming I increase speed with thought until something “opens” and I’m traveling very fast, I’m approaching to something big and red, I think I’m going to land inside a planet, but as I come closer I see it’s not a planet, it’s just something red with gold, a planetary nebulae (now I know the name), like this one but less dense


when I pass by it I hear a loud whoosh!! I gasp because I was impressed, I’ve never seen something like that before… but I think that the sound of gasping was real because I heard it coming also from my real body, and that’s what woke me up… well, not exactly full waking, it was false awakening over false wakening several times… and on the last one happened something really weird that had happened to me only a couple of times before during OBE, it’s a very brief moment where I realize why I am here, it includes so much more…. It feels like traveling very fast through “layers” until I’m here, but the difference between those layers it’s just some energy I would call fear.

Journal Entry Lucid #23 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background:I meditated before going to sleep. I told myself I could have a LD but it is ok if I don't have one just as long as I could remember my dream.

Dream fragment 3 time 4:360am-5:43am"":
I was being annoyed by my sister. She kept on running in front of me and opening the door, but in a slow way. She opened one door and it led to my school in the AA building next to the restaurant. I realized I have been here before. I walked and did a RC, a nose plug. I felt the air pass through.

I realized it was a dream. I tried to stabilize by spinning. The dream was really unstable, I though I was going to lose it. I started entering void. I hear a voice that said, "a lot of people view themselves in a dream as powerful people, they live a split personality". The voice brought me out of the void. Like a picture it came back. I was at the school. I laid on the floor. I looked at the floor it looked just like the schools. I thought this is too real. I kept walking, I started to think that i was in an alternative reality. I tried to use telekinesis when my calc II teacher drove by. Car turned, I was about to be relieved, but he came out just to say sup to his friend. I thought I couldn't do simple telekinesis. I kept walking. I see cars just like in school. I see people talking and having a great time. Nothing out of the usual. On the other side this man followed me. He seem to know what is going on. The only person that paid attention. I walked to him and said, "could they see me?" He responded, "they don't see a man that sees no-one. This goes both ways. And that is why I am going to kill you".

I realized not an alt reality it is just a dream. I then started repeating what he said so that it will stick inside my head. I tried my best. I then started smiling. I jumped to fly. Since my belief changed, it is now a dream in which I could do what ever I like. I flew up, he flew behind me grabbed my foot and tossed me back to the ground. It felt painful when I hit the floor. He landed and tried to have a one on one with me. I did a jujitsu move and I took him to the floor. I wrapped my legs around him and I said, "I am sorry, I love you (I am just trying to project love, it didn't work) but I am going to have to kill you. I started squeezing the life out of him like a snake. He started to smile. And as he was about to give out, I woke up.

Journal Entry Lucid #22 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background:I meditated before going to sleep. I tole myself I could have a LD but it is ok if I don't have one just as long as I could remember my dream.

Dream fragment 2 time 8:00pm-2:37am"":
Long story short inside game, met a guy that was trying to teach my friend to shoot with a helicopter. He landed an airplane and he tried to convince us that he has a book that is wonderful. we were in a book store and he picks up a book and he told us it is really good and we should buy it. I turn and I see a pig looking guy like from Simpsons, he was in the store and he was inside my house all of a sudden. I asked who's dream am I in?(dream quality went up) Am I inside this pig guy's dream? They chuckled at me. I thought about it, it doesn't make sense, why would I be in someone else's dream. I am most likely in my dream. I did a finger count 5. My hands were wavey though going back and forth. I then did nose plug. I felt my hands pinch my nose while feeling the air pass through my hands.

I realized it was a dream. As I am heading to my room, I see grandmother and it started to get pitch black. I decided to go outside. It felt like somebody put a purple overlay on my eyes. The world looked different with an increase in highlights of purple. I then started to rub hands and it started turning reddish. I then did spin technique and it stabilized the dream incredibly fast. I see tree's all over my house. I saw green trees and blue. Some tall as the red wood and some short. I walk and I see a swimming pool and in the middle a nice little island with a tree on it. I tried to walk on water. I did it before I told myself.

I touched the water and I felt the water beneth my feet. I didn't walk on water. I thought I was going to sink in so I started to fly. I then realized that the water was not big enough because it hasn't even covered my legs. I then landed and started swaying my hands up and down to make the pool get full. The water followed my hands as I push forwards the wave went forward as I pushed down it goes backwards. I realized I still can do telekinesis so I turned and lifted my left arm the water followed me. The water itself was motionless above my head. I wanted to see the texture of the water so I put my hands in side of it. It felt like any water I ever had. I became excited about the realism of the dream and the possibilities. So I woke up

Journal Entry Lucid #21 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I had, well a misunderstanding, a disagreement with my mom and dad about our belief. I told them that it is ok that they don't believe the same thing as me. We agreed to disagree. I also meditated and I told myself I could have a LD but it is ok if I don't have one just as long as I could remember my dream.

Dream fragment 1 time 8:00pm-11:34pm"":
I was in the car with my dad and I was about to do a R.C. My dad stops me and I think he said, "don't be like John(I thought john the baptist for some reason)". The car was no more and we were walking on the road. I see a man in the middle of the highway. My dad was saying while I realized it was a dream, "you never know when it is a dream".

I realized it was a dream. I became angry that my dad tried to trick me earlier and he didn't want me to do a RC. I started backing away from him. He looked at me, I said, "leave me alone you lied to me, I know it is a dream". He transforms into a bigger version of himself. I leave and I tried to stabilize by rubbing my hands. He followed me. I was now next to a bridge. I started disassembling parts to some vehicle by using telekinesis. I then wanted to see how good of a toss I could get out of my telekinesis. I toss it as hard as I can. It stopped mid-flight.

I turn and I see my dad with his hands raised up. I told him, "I don't want to talk to you". He walks in front of me. I toss the object again but then he stopped it yet again. I got angry, I said, "why would a DC be this powerful?" I told myself normally I would wake up in a time like this so I stabilized. I didn't want to have anything to do with him so I used my telekinesis to toss him in the air. s I was walking these people showed up to distract me and wake me up. A guy told me about my wrong doing. Too many people so I ran. I went through a door in a builiding and out a window which led to another room and I had to go through another window, dream logic . I ran across street went into somebodies house. I see this fat girl thathad her butt crack showing it was disgusting so much so that I started losing lucidity. I turn and I see my dad and other people. I realized I better wake up before I forget dream which I did a little.