lucid

4:41AM -#151 - Longest SP - WILD

I am counting 1 I am dreaming, 2 I am dreaming, ect. while focusing on my body. Suddenly I am gripped by intense sleep paralysis (NOT REM atonia this time)I hear a demonic cat sound and feel a presence hovering above me. The vibrations are really intense and I cannot move. I feel the entity grab my balls and the vibrations intensify there to the point of mild pain. I try to cry out but the sound is caught in my throat and it sounds like a feeble wheezing. I open my eyes and see swirling black entities like Dementors above me. I am terrified but having been here many times; I force myself to relax and stay calm. I will the entity away. Immediate calm and quite comes over me.

I do my usually getting out of bed. It's dark and I feel really dizzy. I fall backwards into the wall. I feel like I am falling into a bottomless abyss. I see the hole I entered getting farther away.

I find myself back in bed. I can't see at all now. I use my dream hands to pry my dream eyes open. My eyes do open but I can see the bedroom and the red glow of the alarm clock. I close them. I do this several times but feel like its my physical eyes. At one point I feel the ceiling fan drying my eyes out and have to blink. I try getting up again but pretty much the same thing happens again. Then again I get up. I try to phase through a wall but it's solid. I am too frazzled to think clearly. I end up back in bed.

The vibrations are so strong. I decide to wait and focus on the vibrations. I feel like I am lying in an awkward position but I am not hurting so I don't move. I realize too that my head is at the foot of the bed and I can feel the box fan on my face. I don't care. I'm in the zone. I hear my wife ask I am ok. I become annoyed and tell her, "Yes Shhhhhhh!" I wonder how I am talking in SP but just go with it. I consider the probable fact that none of this is really happening. Still, I feel the vibrations and can't really move. I get the feeling that we are in my childhood bedroom in Luling from my teenage years. The lay out just seems to match.

I think I hear my son cry and I hear and feel my wife leave the room. I just lay there in waiting. What seems like a few minutes later she comes back and gets in bed. I realize that now I am back in the right position in bed. My hands are free to move now so I reach over to feel if my wife is there. I grab the ankle of a small child. I hear someone *gasp* so I let go. Was it my son? I was surprised she brought him to bed with us. I shrug it off. I feel like I can really move my hands now. I rub them and feel my face. Super real. BUT I can still feel vibrations. I decide to just wait this one out and let the dream form.

This waiting was a really long time. I think I'm forgetting a few details but it's mostly all there. I start doing things like the Gladius swing, Walking motions, anything repetitive to maybe get something started. Nothing worked. I get really bored so I meditate for a few minutes. Then I visualize being on the beach. I see some really vivid images but its more like flickering photographs. I try to imagine my feet in the sand but its a dull sensation that quickly fades. At some point I start talking to myself. I say something like "Well Shit. Hurry up dream. I am dreaming." I say all this out loud and I wonder if my wife can hear me because it sound ultra real. I begin to think at some point that I am going to be stuck like this forever and never wake up. I think this is my idea of Hell. Then I laugh and say out loud, "Of course it won't. It will change. I just need to stay patient."
After some more waiting and fiddling about in bed I start to hear music. It's Sugar Ray's Fly but instead of "I just want to fly" it is "I just want to dance." The beat and music and vocals are very high quality. I am thankful for some entertainment right now and I feel relieved to have a distraction. I begin to sing along loudly and dance as best I can in bed. I move my arms, head and upper body in rhythm to the music. It begins to feel invigorating and soulful. I enjoy the hell out of it. Soon the words fade and the music begins to wind down like a slow record player.

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Then there is nothing. No physical sensation. No sound. No movement. I just wait a second and the BAM!

I find myself standing in a big open room with no furniture. The room is well lit and there is gray carpet. I look around and say, "OHHHHH WOOOOOW! THAT IS SO COOL!" The layout of the house is off but reminds me of the house we lived in Luling. I can see out the windows as there are no blinds or curtains. I see the front yard but in the distance there is a thick mist. I have a feeling that my brain hasn't finished rendering the dream yet but I feel super stable and confident. I make my way to the front door. At that point I remember how this house was "haunted" in waking life. I imagine a horrible demon coming after me as I close the door but nothing happens.

Now I am outside the lighting is a little worse. The world looks cold and gray. I walk along the front of the house on the sidewalk. I realized that I forgot what my task was. I think for a second that I really should stay inside until the dream gets more stable but I am afraid and really impatient.

I can hear something like cheering and jeering at the nearby football stadium. I feel curious but I have something in mind first. I really want to burn this house down and never visit it again. There are too many bad memories. I see my shadow projected on the side of the house. I see brown wood siding. (Brick in real life) I think that if I can start a fire there is will catch and be gone. I do the clapping motion that I used for the fireworks TOTM. I hear a loud sound of fire like a flame thrower but only see a small flame on my shadow like a cigarette lighter. I try several times but only see and hear the same. Then I hold my hand up still looking at my shadow. I see handcuffs and a chain coming off it. I note this but ignore it for. The crowd at the stadium is jeering loudly now. (Damn I could have turned that into the Colosseum if I thought about it) I tell myself I will investigate in a minute. I really want to get the fire trick down. I focus on the palm of my hand. I see a glowing ball form. I stare at it and focus longer and harder.

Then, I am suddenly awake. NOOOOOOO!

This was a great LD for breaking a dry spell! No progress on tasks, but some fun action, a DV member cameo, and what feels like progress on keeping caffeine dreams stable. As usual, the last thing that I read during WBTB (in this case, a Visitor Message from NewArtemis) has a significant impact on my dream content.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #79: The Hall of Letters

I'm sitting on the side of the mountain, looking across a green valley at another mountain that's dotted with caves. A person sits in each of these distant caves. I recognize my college friend RS and somehow I can talk to him even across this huge distance. The weather is sunny, clear, and beautiful, so I casually say to RS, "Isn't the day amazing?"

"It is!" he says, and suddenly blankets and rugs come pouring out of the mouths of these faraway caves. The blankets and rugs go tumbling and sliding down the side of the mountain to the valley below. Fascinated, I wander into the valley, not sure what to make of what I'm seeing.

Now the valley is teeming with hundreds of people. Each of them spreads out a picnic blanket, removes their shirt, and flops down onto their stomachs to sun themselves. I see RS take a spot of his own ahead of me and to the left and I realize that I am now holding a blanket as well. I start scoping out a spot of my own.

As I'm looking around, I see AA, a mutual summer crush from high school. I want to say hi but when she removes her shirt I see that unlike the rest of the female DCs, she's not wearing a bikini top underneath. I turn away, not wanting to get caught staring. I lay out my blanket and remove my shirt, looking forward to feeling the sun on my skin. But when I check, I find that I have another shirt on underneath my original. "This is a dream..." I tell myself, and almost immediately Hulk-jump out of the valley, thinking of the Great Wall of China.

As I'm soaring through the air, the scene quickly darkens and soon I'm in the void. "This is fine," I tell myself, "I can do this all night." I rub my hands together and feel my forearms, drawing myself into my dream body. With my left hand I reach down and massage my knee cap, extending my right hand for aid. I beg for help, saying, "Bail me out. Pull me into a new scene."

A smallish hand, seemingly female, grips mine and yanks me forward. A voice says, "Hey! It's [NewArtemis]! I know you can't see yet, but we need to keep running!" I obey, and I sense that we're running through the hallways of some building.

I start getting flashes of imagery -- signs with arrows and strange, all-caps letter patterns like "ABCD ->" and "<- PQDELJH ->" (the first one was definitely in the dream, but the second is a reconstruction/guess.) Seconds later, I'm in the halls running, my vision restored. Art says something along the lines of, "Okay, you're good now," and drops my hand.

I hear the running footsteps of pursuers, so I begin floating so that I can get a look behind us. I move a few feet ahead of Art, turn around, and start floating backward. A squad of frightening-looking Enclave Soldiers (from Fallout 3) is pursuing us, perhaps 50 feet behind. "It's those guys from Fallout," I say, not able to remember what they're called. Art doesn't appear particularly concerned about this, so I figure this isn't as big of a deal as I'm making it out to be.



At the end of the hall, we take a right turn into a circulator elevator with a bumpy, cylindrical metal pole in the middle of it. I feel the bumps with both hands, and the texture is like that of a cheese grater. "You should do this," I tell Art. "It really helps with stabilization." Feeling confident, I boastfully add, "This is making my dream so stable. Try it." She laughs and shakes her head like I'm really failing to grasp something basic.

Art shifts to where she's out of sight behind the pole, and when I look around the other side to find her, she has completely vanished. The elevator doors have shut now and I'm on my own. There are buttons with weird symbols on them and I start pressing them at random. Each one lights up as I touch it and soon I feel a faint vibration from the elevator like it's moving.

I wait a long time, hoping that the elevator doors will open, but nothing seems to be happening. I begin to fret that I'm in a bad situation now -- stuck in a small room, inactive and waiting for something to happen. The dream begins to feel thin, goes dark, and my half-hearted DEILD attempt fails. I'm awake now.

Dream recall from today's nap, got lucid due to attempting WILD in a dream again as well as finally did some goals as well as TOTM.

I can't recall much about dream start, but i was at home and i was apparently sick, it was nighttime and i was watching Syphon Filter let's play, it was pretty weird in way that there were driveable vehicles and one level had the jump that was supposed to be done in vehicle, but player failed and was forced to redo whole level because the jump was done above area where level starts. Dad was annoying me because he decided to sleep in my room for whatever reason. Later i was watching another level with massive bridge and armored enemies, which supposed to be boss level of some kind. I looked at time and it was time at which i should go for nap. So i went for the WILD.
I wake up and it is daytime, i can't move, also for some reason i am in position in which my view is rather limited. The bed position is different too, and there were no curtains on windows, but i didn't notice it at that moment. So dream manages to convince me that i have sleep paralysis event. In a bit i hear sound of someone walking behind the window. I am slightly alerted for a second, but only for a quick second, then i get back to calm state again. I hear more sounds behind window and then i see some shadow figure. It breaks through the window and runs towards me. At this point i start suspecting that i am dreaming, but still can't move. Now it's not shadow anymore, but a person, i can only see legs though due to position i am paralyzed in. He starts punching and kicking me, i feel being hit, but no pain, i still can't move though so i just absorb hits like a badass until i fall out of the bed. I am able to move now, and i ask the person why he's doing it, i can't recall response but i was not satisfied with it, i looked at the person and apparently he is a midget. He decided to continue attacking me, but i just... sit down on him. He's angered and somehow manages to grab me and almost throw me, but i grab him in response too. Then he grabs in different way, making it harder to keep balance, but i respond by grabbing differently too. We continue that 'fight' while epic orchestral music is playing, until i get him into situation where keeping balance is just ridiculous, like he has to stand in weird pose on single finger while grabbing my hand, and while i am not touching the floor at all and grabbing him somehow... i am not sure how to describe this fully, haha. But i apparently win and i free myself from the grab.
I say something i can't recall to midget which was lying on the ground and walk to the window, which is not broken now apparently. I smash it with my fist and it breaks, i get through and check hands, no damage on them and left hand has 7 fingers, also they are like super detailed. I take off and start feeling wings, i fly straight ahead and then slightly to the left this time, and i fly pretty quick, i also hear sound of wings more clearly that previous time. Shortly dreamscape changes and i am now flying above some different place in the city, i decide to try transforming into a dragon again, but no dice, i continue flying and dreamscape changes again, to some kind of outdoor restaurant with a bunch of DCs, i fly above it and dreamscape changes once again, now there's some buildings. I spontaneously get an idea that transformation would be easier if i get more destructive.
I fly straight into building wall and start breaking through it at full speed, it ends up very very thick, since i am breaking through it for whole 5 seconds already, without lowering speed. There's not much light and i decide to visualize transformation now, and i have feeling of change. After a couple more seconds of breaking through the wall i manage to reach some rooms, which luckily had some light. I look at my hands and i have claws and hands are fully covered with green and black scales, it's awesome, though i didn't changed in size, i think. I try to talk and my voice has weird tone messed with something like combination of roar and some high pitched sound. I haven't stopped flight for whole time, so i end up breaking through the wall again, deciding to get back to outside, but eventually everything fades out.
I feel myself back at the bed, but all i can see is darkness, i try to shout, but my voice is replaced with sound similar to one i had during transformation, i feel paralyzed and shortly i see some black and white portrait in the darkness.
I wake up while shouting, family is in the room and they make 'wtf' faces, i respond that "that's why i don't do this when someone else is in the room, especially when sick", i get up and then i wake up properly and immediately do an RC, haha.

2006-2007

1. I go to the pond by my house and realize that there are seven mystical locations in the forest near it. The next day, my friends and I search the woods but cannot find the locations.

2. I return to the Lake. I am older when I have this dream. I notice it, and become lucid. Unlike the swaying trees and sweet water of the Lake of my childhood, it is broken and gloomy, causing me to fear a broken psyche. I tell the DC next to me to stay away from the Lake. I try to run away into a new dream scene because I know something bad will happen if I stay dreaming here. I run to a house. While I am in it, the lights go out. I maintain lucidity, but I am overwhelmed with terror. An entity creeps in the shadows. I run out of the house, and as I do, a hand touches my ankle. I go back to the lake, but the DC isn't there. I become worried. I do not want to awaken, so I simply go into the forest. All of the trees are dead. I call for the missing DC. I become frightened and run out. I stumble over the twigs that dig into my shins. I find another DC. He appears delusional. It is night, but the DC wants to go swimming in the pond. For some reason, I feel more terrified than before of the water. I scream at him, but he twists a grin and drags me into the lake. The water becomes murky and I see blood and an unnatural smile as I wake up.

3/23/13

DILD (false-WILDs)

This was during a nap. I may have lost the dream and restarted it a few times due to eyes not opening/darkness.

I kept waking up in a hotel room on University. It was hard to open my eyes in all of the attempts. I get out of bed and look at the mirror. I can feel the pillow pressed on the side of my face. As I look at myself, half of my face is squished. I can tell it is from the pillow.

I start the dream over and try to head out the hallway. I hold my nose shut and keep breathing as a constant reminder that I am dreaming. I also thought it would help stabilize the dream.

I eventually get outside and get an idea. I see a bus stop and I plan on checking what bus is coming next, waking up, and seeing if I was remote viewing. The bus stop has a long, jagged, hard top. I fly to the top of it. A bus is already there. I look at it for a second and see the next one coming. I lose the dream there.

03.23.2013

Fat Demon (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I have travelled back through time to the year 2008. I am going to my grandma's house. I'm really excited, even though it is a very important mission, because this should mean that I will get to see my grandfather again.

Outside the house, there is some scene involving a cat that seems important, but I cannot remember it.

Weird things are going on in the house. My grandfather is already dead, which doesn't make sense since he died in 2011. My grandma has a shrine for him built in the living room. I am stressing out, trying to figure out what's going on.

After examining the signs, I realize I have seen this situation before. A certain type of fat demon is causing this. All I have to do is kill him and things should go back to normal.

More weird things happen, and I remember becoming lucid. I go along with the plot of the dream for a while longer (though I can't remember any of it! I just remember being lucid for a really long time in a huge market like area). Eventually I decide to try to complete by goal of finding out the name of a girl that my friend drew. Crazy things are still happening all around me, and I'm wondering how I can focus on summoning her while I'm being chased by whatever it is.

((This was a really long dream. I wish I hadn't forgotten all the important parts.))

Had a DEILDy thing. My alarm woke me up at 6:45, then I went back to sleep. I got up at about 7:30 and went to the bathroom. When I went back to bed it hailed like crazy for 20 minutes. The power came on and off a couple times, then I fell back to sleep.

I was dreaming about being at work, and I had to go get something off one of the aisles really quick, so I ran. As I was running, I felt like there was a possibility that I was dreaming and could maybe even fly. So I jumped up as I ran, and took to flight. YAY lucid. I flew for a bit then remembered the basic task ii for this month. Fortunately the store was filled with DCs: team members and customers. I saw Alice (from the cashiers) walking away from me with another girl. I said "Hey Alice!" She turned around and looked at me, then turned into a random black girl.. weird. Anyway, I asked her "If you had one wish, what would it be?" She took a long time to answer, and I was afraid I was going to get a mute, brain-dead DC on this one. Finally she said, "I wish someone would make me my sandwich." So I grabbed her hand and said "Alrighty then!" Good thing this dream happened at work and there was a sandwich station. We went to the pre-made sandwich section, and I told her to pick one. She just couldn't. After a few suggestions, I finally picked up a tuna sandwich and said to her, "Oooo, look at this one, it's tuna! Doesn't it look goooood?" And I shoved it into her hand. Then I woke up.

I rolled over and felt vibrations right away. I waited for a few waves to cycle, then I felt like it was safe to slowly open my eyes. I got up slowly, noticing DC Danny sleeping in the bed. I didn't want to disturb him in case I wasn't in a dream yet (I still can't tell for sure sometimes in those first few seconds, which is why I always take it slow). I felt myself entangled in the sheets again, so I knew it was a dream. Then this is cool: as I walked to the bedroom door, I felt part of the pillow on the right side of my face. And I remember when I rolled over before, I rolled onto my right side. I could feel it as clearly as if I were awake and noticing the feeling of my face on the pillow, and the weight of my head on it. And yet here i was, standing up and walking around my room. Very surreal, like I was existing in 2 places at once, though I was more in the dream. Just a hint of the waking life dimension. I'll never forget it. Then I woke up.

I rolled over again, felt vibrations again, then opened my eyes slowly again. Again I wasn't sure if I was in the dream yet or not. In fact, I was more sure that I wasn't, so I closed my eyes to try again. Then I noticed that my mouth was filled with sawdust. It seemed perpetual as I kept digging it out of my mouth and spitting it out. Then I remembered that this was a dream sign of mine (and others), so I opened my eyes and got up again. But even after all that, I really felt like I had gotten up for real. Nothing was out of place at all! But I like to have that fuck it attitude when I WILD, just in case. Or else I'll be kicking myself later for having a FA. Anyway, I promised myself I'd test it out by flying when I got outside. I was pretty sure I was dreaming though. I made it to the livingroom, when I saw the DC version of my son Chris. He said, "Mommy, my bandaid is coming off," and pointed to his leg. He had some drooping gauze around his calf, and blood was starting to ooze from it. I forced myself not to tend to it, because I knew it wasn't real. But I invited him into the kitchen where I got us each a wine glass. And I told him we could throw them. So we threwthem against the wall and they shattered. That's so never going to get old haha. Then I said, "Ok Chris, just give me a few minutes. Wait right here," and I went outside. I started jogging, and broke into a run. As I was running, I hopped a couple times, and took to the air. I saw some interesting landscape ahead that I can't quite remember in detail. But I wanted to get there without soaring uncontrollably up too high, but not too close to the ground either (some lucid flying issues I have). Anyway, that's all I remember before waking up happy.

Prebed: Natty Light
Bedtime: 11:30?

4:30AM - Church Politics - NLD

There was something about church politics. An angry mob. I closed the doors to project those inside. They peopled didn't care about me so I did all I could to keep them out. I tried to lock a set of double wooden doors but someone got through. It was my old supervisor. The one I despise to this day.

I wake briefly but go right back in the dream sort of lucid but not really. I just thought of it as a day dream even though it was a full on dream.

I see D running along side one wall. There are rows of pew between us. I run super fast along the tops of the pews and and hulk jump on top of her. I grab her by the hair and slam her into a wall. I wake up.

7:00AM - #149 Vastness and Sensations - WILD

I woke briefly to take care of little man. I felt pretty good so I went for WILD. I focus on my cheek bones and chest with "I am dreaming" as my mantra.

I see a dream form. It's this strange abstract space fight. There are no stars and I am just cruising in the darkness. It's almost video game like. I see a read view of my "ship" It's just this gray saucer section with a cylinder jutting up in the middle. There is little to no detail. Really, it just looks like a hunk of metal. I am controlling it somehow and I shoot reddish yellow phasers at another ship. I come really close to a ship that looks like the starboard bow of some titanic like ship. I wonder if I am really underwater and I think of the actual vastness of the dream scene. The feeling is overwhelming and I go into REM atonia of sorts. At the exact same time as that though process was going on, I realize this is more than hypnagogia and become lucid.

I am in my bed and I all floating and strange. I can hear the alarm clock going off but I know that it is not real as my wife already left for work and I am off today. I tell myself it's not real but wonder if some how its really going off. I tell myself to ignore it since it really doesn't matter right now. I think I want to transition out of my body but I can't this time. For some reason I feel like something has a hold of my feet. My legs are being twisted and pulled upward. I feel myself stretch like taffy. I try to control the sensation and imagine my feet going to the floor but I just can't control it this time. After about a minute of fighting I wake up.

I try to DEILD but don't get anywhere so I record in my DJ and continue WILD

7:29 - #150 - Rastafarian Baby - DILD

I am next to a dry wheat field. I go into it and think we just need rain. Immediately it begins to rain. The tops of the wheat turn bright green and form a roof over me. I see through and opening where I stepped in that it is raining very hard. There are little wheat sprouts coming out of the ground at my feet. I reach out to feel them and as soon as I touch them they begin to grow larger. I leave now because I feel my space is getting crowded.

I enter some old white farm house. (The memory is a little blurry here). I wonder around the house and find my son in two different places. Both times I check on him to make sure he's OK. The third time I find him he is in some crib. I pick him up and he turns into a "Rastafarian Baby". His skin is dark with very long dreadlocks. I become lucid and say, "I am dreaming." I put him down and turn to leave.

Before I can do anything the dream goes dark. I find myself in the void and feel the dream fading. I rub my hands together. It seems to help but not enough so I rub them impossibly fast until I feel heat from friction. My physical presence become ultra real. I touch my face and I wonder if I am really awake.

Then I feel my wife in my arms. I think that since I can't get this thing going I may as well enjoy some lucid sex. I'll leave that part out.

At one point I wonder how much of this I am going to post. Then I suddenly feel that my wife is gone. I feel my crotch and I think that I am just humping the bed in my sleep. I become confused.

I have a false awakening. I find myself on a couch in someone's living room. I see my brother and nephew on a couch across the room. My mother in a recliner to my right. There is a TV to the left. I quickly enter my dream in my DJ. I remember thinking all the way back to the wheat field and running through the whole dream in my mind. Not once do I think this could be false awakening.

I realize there is some loud music coming from behind my left ear. I think there must be a speaker mounted on the wall. My brother tells his son that they need to get going. I feel sad they are leaving so soon and I slept the morning away. Then I think the music will probably wake my wife up soon. I don't worry about it because I want her to come sit with me. At that point she walks in and says something. I get up and go into another room with her. I wake up.

A stupid dream:
-Hi Sandra how are you?I said to she.
-Fine,you?Said Sandra
-Can I go to you?
-No because Im going to Roma,Colloseum-(lol)
-Colloseum?!
She did not understand and told me nothing.
-Ok Bye.
Done.

Dream recall from today's naps, got a couple of DILDs and a bit of progress with dream control.

Nap #1:

I was on my PC, playing some kind of mod of video game called Doom. I got bored and decided to replay one of my own old mods for Doom. It was going on normally for a while, but soon it was smoothly transitioning from 'me playing game' to 'me being in game', then i ran into some technical problem with game not loading properly, but i fixed it, as i got to the next level it was suddenly overdetailed compared to everything else, there were yellow and red cave walls and also there was some kind of reactor behind the gate, and objectives stated that i had to destroy it. The detailing work on that map was ridiculous and i was never that good at map making so i realized that i am dreaming, i was walking around a bit and there were monsters from doom, which were frozen in place for some reason, but before i could do anything dream suddenly transitioned into my room.
It was daytime, i recalled my goals and went to the balcony, which was already open. On the balcony i was ready for another attempt on transforming into a dragon, i recalled that behaving like one would help transformation process, so i tried to do a roar, but failed, i started to fly and felt wings again. Dream destabilized in a second and i, what i call it, 'lagged out', basically no matter what i did i was shifted into previous position while moving again, and shifting to previous position again again in infinite loop, like what you would see when other player lags out in some multiplayer games. I tried shouting 'stabilize!' but shortly dream faded out.

Nap #2:

There was scene where main character of the game Medievil, Sir Daniel Fortesque, was talking to some princess, but she later lured him into some kind of trap. He managed to get out and she attacked him with sword, but he, being undead skeleton, was mostly unfazed by attack. Then dream skipped.
I wake up back in my bed, i recall the dream that i had and then i take off headphones and can still hear binaural beats, which means i am still dreaming. I get up and go to the balcony, on the way i engage senses and try feeling objects, for some reason it was hard to move fingers and for a second i felt the bed with it(being nowhere near the bed) as if i was still in the bed, i was thinking that it might feeling from my waking body but i quickly discarded that thought to prevent destabilization.
I take off and feel wings again, this time flying is even easier and i can even hear sound of wings! I fly to the left(if facing building) and then just fly around for a short while. I decide to try attempting transformation into a dragon right in the flight, i shout 'Dragon form!' while visualizing and expecting change to happen but nothing happens. I notice that i am flying above some kind of marketplace and there are lots of DCs. For fun i decide i try something different, i fly right at random DC, which apparently is female DC, and suddenly stop right in front of her face, there's expression of shock on her face haha, then i fly away. I decide to go for another attempt at transformation into a dragon, i shout 'Dragon form!' again while visualizing and expecting the change and suddenly i feel the change on my right hand and hear weird periodic sounds that i can describe as 'crackle', i look at my hand and it's clawed and there are black scales roughly halfway to the elbow, in a few seconds it becomes back normal though, but hey, it didn't instantly destabilized dream this time! I fly around for some more time and then dream fades out.
I wake up back at my bed and in a few seconds i wake up properly.

March 21, 2013 - 7.5 hours in - 3 minutes - WBTB, SSILD, MILD

Woke naturally a couple times and tried to fall right back asleep, then woke naturally after 6.5 hours and did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length. Afterward I did a mantra of "1, I know I'm dreaming, 2, I know I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit up to 25, then went back to bed.

I am in a car with dark seats and T. is driving and E. is in the back seat.

I am looking at a menu of sorts which on its list has something called a male restaurant and a female restaurant. I think this to be strange and as I think more about where I am, I find that I cannot remember how I got here. I ask E. if anyone else is in the back seat and he says no. I plug my nose and try to inhale, but I expect it to not work, since everything seems so real. I can do it but I don't have the right grip, and I do it again and I can definitely inhale. I rub my hands and try not to think about how I am actually lying in bed, and just take in the scenery.

The trees are bare and the ground is covered in snow. The scenery consists of fields and patches of trees mixed about. We are on a wide urban style street with curbs. A street goes off to the right, and the street sign has the name of a real life street a couple miles from where I live. A yellow sign reads "Park Closes Gold." The road narrows and the curb ends and it becomes a road closed in with trees as we head slightly uphill. A green stoplight appears which we go through. There are a couple more green lights, and the road transitions in and out of an urban style road with curbs. Those stoplights on the curbed sections of road are on metal poles, and those on the country-style sections without curb are on wires and/or telephone poles.

As a country road it goes down a hill and I notice that we are going very fast. I fear this will eventually destabilize the dream, so I will it to slow back down. At this point I don't seem to have any awareness of the car anymore. Ahead on the horizon is a large steep hill, and before that point there is a railroad crossing, although this one has green lights, not red ones. A train is coming and I speed up trying to beat the train, although I think to myself there is a good chance I will be hit, ending the dream. I barely make it through in time, surprising myself, but the road curves fairly sharply to the left without me and the visuals fly to the left a little but run out. I don't try to keep the dream and let myself wake up.

The orange bit is when I became lucid.

I'm in a backyard that I've never been, I'm climbing on them and looking on the tops of the fence and every once in awhile I find a stack of money. Then my friend and some boy I don't recognize walks into the backyard and they ask me what I'm doing. I tell them that finding money on fences is how I make a living, they're are shocked by this, so I show them, I pick a spot on the long fence and I climb up a little and find a small stack of money and show them, they're intrigued but still shocked, we start walking away from the fence, and suddenly the boy has a pitchfork in his hands and is walking towards me, he first goes towards my friend but I jump in front of her, and it goes into my stomach but doesn't puncture me yet, I say to him "what the hell are you doing!" and then he say's "I'm sorry, I can't control it!", so me and my friend say it's okay, but then I run out of room to back up in and then the pitchfork impales my torso and goes all the way through, my friend gasps but I tell her it's okay, for some reason I don't feel any pain, but it feels like a sensation. We are interrupted by some man and he says we must go to the hill and watch the aliens arrive, the boy has disappeared, but me and my friend panic and go to the hill so we don't stick out for any reason and get in trouble. When we go to the hill there is so many people laying and sitting on blankets or just on the grass, me and my friend lay together really close anticipating a bad thing, (then everything, the wind the grass the people just get very vivid) and I hear something loud and horrible coming i think its the ship but before I see anything I become aware that I'm in a dream, and I think i prevented the ship from coming because I can just hear the awful noise and shaking sensation, then I turn to see my friend but she's gone so I realize I can get the heck outta here and I look at the grass then when I look back up I'm still at the hill and I get annoyed but all the people and noise are gone, I try it again and when I look to the light I'm in this really really small room with just a rug and Then I feel as though my lucidity is slipping so I look at my hands and my fingers go out like smoke and I rub my hands together and I guess I stabilized, I make a door appear for some reason, I don't even use it, then I remember I need to brake something (that's the only part of the totm I could remember for some reason) but there is nothing to brake, no window nothing, when I turn looking I see a small table that a lamp would go on and I try to touch it but it sort of acts like two magnets deflecting from each other every time my hand got near, so I sloppily swing my foot at it and it explodes with one touch and wood chips go in the air in almost slow motion and I think why is it less wood then was in the form of it being a table. then I want to try to fly, but when I try it's like I'm doggy paddling in water but I stay in the air where I doggy paddled instead of going back down.]and then my cat woke me up quite alarmed because he had to take a dump and the litter box is in the hallway.

My journey began at Pacific High School. It's the school I'm always dreaming about. I'm standing at the quad waiting for a few friends to showing up during the day. There was a lot of people walking around so I'm assuming school was out. I met up with a few friends a met from another school I'm taking right now. Well, I really just met Natalie. When she shows up, I was lucid. I was lucid before this, I just forgot where I was and what I was doing.

There were times when I just wanted people to die. That's when I used my powers to have them killed off easily. That's when I start to notice differences in how I can control my powers. I felt that the more I thought about killing someone, the harder it'll be or it may not happen. I tried not to think about it and look away and strangely, it worked. I raised my right hand and formed it in a shape of a pistol and killed almost everyone I saw. Even as me and Natalie were walking home, I was killing people.

I remember telling Natalie something. I told her that I had some kind of friendly love for her. She didn't show too much sympathy but when we reached the quieter part of the school, she showed some interest in walking very close next to me. I also saw a man walking in the direction we were walking in. At first, I thought he was going to kill us, but I walked in to a factory just half the mile from the school. I didn't take to much time there. That place was a ghost town. I'm not sure what was standing beyond the road, there was a big wall surrounding the area I was walking next to.

This is the part where I ditch Natalie and enter the factory. There's a few people I met in the factory, but nothing special happened. I only noticed a few women standing in front a set of clothing while some of them were nagging about it.

I also do remember another part. I was back at my house with the power of lucidity. I was standing in front yard with two other people on the ground, injured. I looked up at the sky and felt it was a perfect time to end the world off with a meteor. I paused and stared at the school for a few seconds and raised my right hand. I tried my best to destroy the world but it just wouldn't work. Again.

I don't remember much of last night. Again, I was distracted and not focused on dreaming lucidly, although I did ponder it as I fell asleep.

I had one of my out of body experience type things. Sometimes, while asleep, even though I am not dreaming I will instinctively "sit up" out of my body and begin an OBE.

I was not able to easily fully free myself from my body, this time - for whatever reason. But I WAS able to see - in the past, I've always been blind - although I wasn't able to fully open my eyes. I was quite aware that this was a form of dream, although I was unable to control its course. I stumbled around my dream-room, half-blind and unable to control my limbs very well at all or free myself from my blanket, which I felt like I was entangled in.

I realized that this wasn't working well and lay back down, attempting to visualize and possibly break out of the OBE into a regular lucid dream. I also attempted to do a scene change to sky, which didn't work. Unfortunately, I lost lucidity.

I know that this wasn't a misadventure with sleep paralysis because I've gotten very good at differentiating. When I woke up, my bed and bedroom were unmussed despite the fact that in my OBE/dream, I had completely wrecked my bedroom and knocked/thrown stuff everywhere. Unless I then cleaned them up in my sleep... lol.

I was woken up by my smoke alarm chirping. I had to get up and change the battery. While I did so, I tried to ponder the dreams I had, but I couldn't recall any of them. It was frustrating. My dream recall seriously hinges on how stressed and distracted I am.

Before sleep: felt like listening to relaxing music when falling asleep but decided to turn it off. Big mistake, was way too awake and my mind decided it was time to torture me with worries about an incoming situation irl. I managed to convince myself I am not interested in its worries tonight, and started day dreaming more pleasant situations instead. 2 hours went by before I felt asleep…

Total sleep time: 7+hrs

Dream recall techniques: tired and lazy tonight, so none

First Regular Dream: No DJ entry. Woke up around 3 hrs after falling asleep, went to toilet and repeated two times the key word which was supposed to unravel the dream. Was really sleepy and did not turn on tablet to write down, which I should have done, because I couldn’t remember anything from this dream when waking up 4 hrs later.

Snooze dreams: I wanted to sleep, felt really tired, but I also wanted to lucid, so I switched between setting the alarm clock for 20 more minutes or just pressing the snooze button.

Snooze dream1: Me and some classmates were in a building, which later feels more like a mall. I remember in the dream that there is a place in the mall, where they sell really attractive cupcakes/brownies, etc. I am interacting with my friends and I dream some toilets as per dream tradition.

Snooze dream2: The building I am in feels like some kind of hospital in space, maybe spaceship. The atmosphere is very dynamic because it is part of the “Aliens” game that I am playing in the dream. This is very similar to previous dreams I had. [I haven’t played “aliens” for years and after so many paranoid dreams I am surely not buying the new one!] The room door in front of me will open any minute, somebody is counting down, and there are lots of aliens waiting to jump on me. Just great! I try running away from them, rushing to a room, closing the door. They are coming! I try to open the window and jump from it. It is very high and I fall, I fail to hold on to any branches of a nearby tree and keep on falling. But I guess, my attention is not programmed to hit the ground, so it happens as if I really managed to grab some branches and am hanging in the air. I feel gravity in a really strange way as I am completely disoriented as to in which direction the ground is. The aliens are probably climbing the building so they will reach me soon.

I wake up putting the alarm for some 20 mins later and think I want to WILD. I feel very sleepy but I try to keep myself awake, staring at the blackness in front of me, keeping the intention to have a lucid. I didn’t notice when I fell asleep.

Snooze dream3 - DILD: The scenario where the aliens are coming continues, but this time I am at my old place, in my room. A transparent guy, I can only see the contours of his body, walks in the room. At first I think he will chase me, but then he turns into a friend from school. I have the urge to kiss him, and well, I do. The paranoia returns and I feel the presence of aliens or whatever is after me behind the room door. There is only one way out now – the balcony. I head for the balcony, and as I cross and have the view of the balcony in front of me, I become aware that I am dreaming. I repeat that I am dreaming in my mind, to be sure that I don’t reintegrate in the dream and lose awareness. Ok, great, but there is this thing that I still feel is coming. Would it stop doing that? I kind of know that I am causing its behaviour with my thoughts, so I try to make it disappear. Does not work. I continue down the balcony, which is really long. I think that if I ignore it, it may not be there, but then I turn my back and there it is. The chaser is now an old rasta man that feels somewhat ominous to me. I mumble that I want him to go away, no effect again. I am reaching the end of the balcony, the corner of the building. I try to think of alternatives of how to deal with the situation. At that very moment the damn alarm clock starts ringing. I am extremely annoyed at this, I really don’t want to wake up now, argh! Perhaps my anger turned to determination not to wake up and I managed to hold the dream and me there as I heard the alarm clock resonating everywhere. No idea how long that was, but it eventually stopped. [I have never attempted to ignore an alarm clock before, neither have I noticed that it stops because I always wake up and turn it off]
Still on the edge of the balcony, thinking what to do, I see the old rasta advancing, and consider the option of jumping off the building. I know that I will be fine, but when I think about down, I don’t turn my head, just think, I see blackness and I am concerned that I will probably lose it, because the scene will change. “Try to think of a scene to land in”, I think but this is way too complicated. I decide to jump anyways. I am standing at the edge of the balcony and the soles of my bare feet are half way through the air. I do not feel stable enough underneath to be able to perform a jump movement and to launch myself. The dream slips away and I wake up.

Comments: Chasers can be really annoying when you LD. I had some tasks in mind but I really can’t do anything when I feel compelled to run away. Is there any reliable and efficient way to get rid those cheeky entities that prevent you from doing other planned LD actions? Fighting them is way too distracting and making them disappear does not always work. Any tips?