lucid

So I finally got lucid a bit, now it's not interesting or anything but I feel like writing it down here will help me get my lucid frequency back to normal.

Lucidity: 6/10
Control: 5/10
Vivacity: 6/10

It's the first day in school, and I'm late. I get ridiculously anxious and so in some ridiculously great trouble.
I get lucid somewhere around here. I get a class and mess around with people and break things. I touch some boobies.
The teacher, horrified, threatens to get me expelled. I answer him with a middle finger and frontflip my way out the window.
I walk away laughing my ass of when a phone rings. I bring it to my ear and my mom tells me that I'm not dreaming, and that I f*cked up all my chances to be admitted in any other school or college. It makes me loose my lucidity, and soon after the dream continues on with a total mess, and even if at one point I realized I was dreaming, I just played dumb and chose to loose my lucidity. So I did.

Another lucid dream this night. But the weird thing was that i don't remember so much of the dream. When i got lucid, i looked at my hands, and told myself: i'm dreaming. I'm lucid. Instead of rushing and do lucid things i focused and the dream got much more vivid. This dream was acually like i dreamed about being lucid. But i was lucid O.o that's the weird part.

Dream recall from today's naps. Quite alot of FA's and forgetting to do RC's even though i do them in waking life every time i wake up, still got lucid though.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was playing some game that looked like 2D isometric action RPG type of game, like Diablo. I was taking some quest in a city but on the way to completing it i had to fight lots of quickly respawning enemies.

Dream 2:

I wake up and get distracted by family, talking about something, suddenly i am in chair, i get confused and go back to bed to nap, which is located in different place in room. I try WILDing and soon i have sensation of dreaming, i recall my goals and that's enough for transformation to start, i get up with some force(and still with eyes closed) and i feel as my body starts changing, i stand on all four and my limbs are changing to be ones of a dragon, tail starts appearing as well, all feels as vivid as it would be if it was in waking life, then i decide to open dream eyes to take a look but i find myself back at the bed, unchanged. I think that i actually woke up and decide to go back to nap.
I wake up again, this time i am sitting in chair and facing window, i hear annoying metallic noise, some black dude is standing on metallic platform connected to a car, platform slowly moves out of view and he says something, i respond by waving and he says that he can't reach me through window, then platform moves out of view. I shrug and go back to nap.
I wake up again, i notice somebody's bleeding finger on the table and decide to throw it out of window, i fail epicly and then i think what am i doing and what's happening, i realize that i am dreaming and stand on all fours again, my limbs start changing vividly but shortly dream fades out...
And ofcourse i wake up again because there's some weird sound outside, i look through window and notice huge ad stand that closes and opens with an annoying noise, i blame it for the noise that i heard in dream earlier and then i get into discussion with somebody about some kind of new sport event, the huge ad opens up with sound again and plays some ad related to that event. I wake up properly.

Have non-lucid:
Looking on a weird question and answer site. One of the questions I asked is supposedly from the night I tried to kill myself, but the date is wrong: August 10th, 2009. I am begging for help as I am overdosing, and the only answer is an automated response about how suicide is bad. In my brother's room. Other than that, there is activity in the house, so it isn't that scary. Wake up. Check for False Awakening, but the check succeeds, and I realize I really am awake. Go back to sleep.

First lucid:

It starts as a documentary about some gangster. It says that the gangster called for backup, because the cops were raiding him. I become one of the cops, and a gunfight ensues. I then realize I am dreaming. "Sounds like fun", I think to myself, and start shooting. For some reason, the situation slowly changes into a western, with the cars turning into horses and the pistols turning into revolvers. I decide to ride away and explore. I find a Native American village, and hang out there... quietly killing randoms. I wake up.

Lucid Nightmare:

I look at my fingers to do a reality check, and I am very disturbed to find that one of my fingers is 95% torn off, and is loosely hanging off the middle knuckle. I accept that I am dreaming, OR may be having some weird medical emergency. I go downstairs and notice the drink I asked for sitting on the table. I try to leave the house, but the door is locked. I look above the door to a sign saying something like "You will pay for what you have done, and you will NEVER leave." I realize this is a dream, and I try to make myself wake up, but I can't. I try to call my tulpa but the words won't come out. I turn around, terrified, and look in the mirror. There's two of me. One matches my actions, but the other just sits there, grinning at me. My dog walks over and barks at where the other me WOULD be if he occupied physical space, before looking as though he is in a trance.



The next part is disturbing, so don't read on if you can't stomach it.



The dog walks over to me, knocks me over and then rapes me. That's the last I remember before I wake up.





WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED THERE?!

07-16-2013 -- Somehow I am with dad in his truck, driving up and down an air field in between the planes landing. The landing strip is kind of narrow, wide enough to hold the plane body, but the wings extend out over the grass on either side, and it is on that grass strip that we are driving, hence the need to do it in between planes. There are a couple planes that are missing the runway and crashing and burning, and oddly, a plane with the Adobe logo on the tail which is flying around trying to spy on people who might be pirating Adobe products.

Soon I find myself at home with mom. There is a paper kite that was designed and printed out in Illustrator lying on the ground, and we are somehow printing out these odd little plastic ID labels directly from the printer. Very strange stuff.

I have a friend (or perhaps a frenemy) who seems to be developing a new power and can cause their fingers to produce flames. I do the same. As I start to wonder if they can do some of the other things that I can do with my strange dream powers, they hesitantly start to rise in the air and start to fly. I do the same, but a lot more skillfully, because I have been doing it longer. I wonder if they realize this is a dream, like I do, but before I get the chance to ask them, things start to heat up.

More and more people around us are suddenly starting to develop these hero powers, and as we do, we are being approached by government agencies who are threatening us with imprisonment and experimentation if we do not join their particular agencies, and they are getting more and more threatening about it. Things are getting really tense, and the situation is bad enough that Martha Jones calls for the Doctor, even though he only just left her, and thankfully he hears her and returns to help calm the situation down.

Somehow I end up flying above the TARDIS, which has no ceiling, looking down on a wild maze of rooms where I can see all eleven Doctors and dozens of companions running about. It seems that all times are concurrent within the TARDIS. Interesting. Meanwhile, I spot a personally autographed copy of No Coins, Please which was dedicated to the Doctor because at one point he saved Gordon's life, and I just find that to be amazingly cool!

It was lucid. I found out that I'm dreaming. I was in subway. I saw 2 fighter men in the train. They would hit me. I was fast. So they couldn't hit me. I went upstairs. Looks like metro had infinite floor. Staircase I was very interesting. Staircases were so crowded. All the people were looking at me. I stopped at one of the floors and felt down myself to be killed. (I decided to die in dream to wake up in another dream). After hit to the floor I felt pain and then went somewhere else. Looked like It was an OBE. Then I waked myself up and done a RC. I was awake in real (current) world...

07/15/13

The Infection
I am in the sick bay of the tower on the moon. I am there with Janet and Washu. I am talking to Janet. She says she can check to see if I have actually been infected by a foreign virus, just lie down on one of the beds and she will do a scan. Right now my mind isn't particularly clear, so I don't remember what she might be talking about. What virus might I be infected with? Can it be cured? If it can't be cured, what will it do? I go over to one of the beds and lie down on my back while Janet goes over to one of the computers and initiates a scan.

She looks at the scan for a few minutes, reads a couple things on the output, and then looks at a couple graphs of some kind on a different display. She comes back to the bed and looks at me for a bit to be sure I am paying attention. She says it seems I have been infected by an interesting virus. She says it isn't immediately clear what the virus is meant to do, however, because it appears the virus is dying off even as we speak. I ask her how much of the virus is left in my dream body. She says it will be completely gone within another day or two. I ask her if she can tell why it is dying off. She says it looks like my nanites are eliminating it, probably because they are programmed to eliminate anything intrusive, and the virus was identified as intrusive. She asks me if I am actually wanting to keep the virus for some reason. I ask her if it could possibly have a beneficial effect. She says she can't tell without taking a sample and analyzing it for a while. She asks if I know where I got it. My mind is clearing now, and I can remember two possible sources of an intrusive virus. I tell her either it is the Mercer Virus as depicted in Prototype which I obtained directly from Alex Mercer after Witchblade failed to form and block an attack, or the fucking Templars actually found a way to get something past all of my defenses. She says we need to find that out, because if the Templars are coming up with new methods, we have to counter that. I get out of bed and go to one of the portal generators. I focus on locating the specific Alex Mercer that I think might have infected me. The portal opens and I go through. On the other side I am in a room with a couple of people. A woman, Dana Mercer, is sitting at a computer doing something. Alex is behind her looking at the screen.

As I appear Alex turns around and sees me there. He asks where I came from… and for that matter, where did I disappear to last time? I just disappeared into thin air… I say that must mean he has seen me before, which I figure is a good sign… He looks at me strangely and says of course he remembers seeing me before. I feel the dream slipping already, and I want to find out what I came to find out before I wake up. So I ask Alex if he infected me with a virus on my last visit there. He seems to hesitate a bit and then says yes. He seems surprised when I tell him that's a relief. I add that it is far better than the alternative… the idea that the Templars… err… you don't know the Templars here, so I'll just say Gentek since they're really the same people… found a way past my defenses and infected me with something. I tell him there's nothing to worry about, this is a complete non-issue now. A tiny mechanical mosquito lands on Alex and extracts a small sample of virus. He slaps at it and misses. It flies over and lands on my shoulder. I figure it was sent to get a sample for Janet. I tell Dana and Alex I will have to be going. Everything around me fades to black as I wake.

Note: Janet used the sample and ran a comparison, confirming my dream body has been infected with the Mercer Virus. She also confirms that it is quickly dying off and will be gone soon, though she has not identified why it is dying.

Comment: So I got tired of this heat plus other distractions reducing my ld count and decided to try with G

Preparation: I had pre bed insomnia, too wakeful plus nagging thoughts. Still, I decided against setting an alarm and going for a natural wake.

WBTB: Of course, I missed my desired WBTB but decided to go ahead. I was very sleepy due to the heat so walked around a bit. As soon as I took the pill and went back to the bedroom I saw this huge moth (a real one!) that came in last night and we couldn't catch it. It started flying around and caused me some additional wakefulness. I tried to ignore it and went to bed.

Started my usual induction mix and internal dialogue was fine but I felt too alert bodily to be able to fully fall asleep and be absorbed by those dreamlets/HI. Here are some that I remember, some were lucid, some not, I don't think it matters much in this case.

Mini-dream: I am somewhere and to my right is a guy that I identify as Xanous. He is holding some kind of a brush that I next take and inspect. White bristles, strange shape. I wake up. (Not much time to observe appearance, but in my mind it was him)

HI/dr: The head of state

HI/dr: The best lucid dreamers in DV [Names]

HI/dr: The tree of plenty from HMM game

HI/dr: A very large tropical plant plus other greenery

Micro-ld: I am standing on my grandma's balcony and it is night. I can hear nice music playing and look down to see a strange guy in front of the building. He is performing for a new place that has opened up just in front of grandma's. I have positive feelings towards the guy as he reminds me of a friend of mine. But most importantly I am very happy to have finally made it to a dream. The air is very stuffy and warm but I feel some kind of pleasant power in the air. I try to move my head to look around but meet some resistance as if my dream body isn't quite ready yet. I'm thrown out of the dream and into my super awake body.

I try to go back to sleep for some time but in vain so I give up and go to meditate in the other room.

I spend appx. 50mins meditating then go to the restroom. Moving from thought to thought and by means of association I remember my phone, see a quick phone image along with the thought, then another image quickly flashes by - the true location of my phone.

I have looked in the place two times but couldn't find it before. I decided to give it another try, this time a fully thorough search until I got out every little piece of crap from there. And at the bottom was of course - my phone!

Background: I bought a new phone but put it somewhere in a hurry in April, while preparing for guests. I totally forgot about it in May, looked for it everywhere in June, gave up in July and decided I would ask a DC where the hell it was. Asked a few times, got some nonsense and the best answer that came from DCs was "outside". Well, it was inside and not outside. Lol! Anyways, one task less.

I have a bunch of apologies to make. For one this dream is very strange. For two, I'm a day late, I had this while on vacation in Michigan earlier and the week and we were so busy bikeriding and kyaking that I never took the time to sit down and type this one out.
I actually classify this as a lucid nightmare. The inability to control it and the idea of being attacked by drowning and tornadoes... it kindof sucks.

I'm in some sort of lava/volcano place. I'm walking along on a wide shelf of rock that is angled slightly to the left. I take note that a thin layer of lava is spreading downward (there is a lava river on either side of the rock shelf.) So I know that unless I hurry, I won't be able to beat the lava and get to the other side of the shelf.
I don't make it in time. I decide to turn back. It's too late, lava has flooded the shelf on both sides. I'm trapped. I run through the lava to get to the other side, where I was originally going. The lava hurts my feet really bad to walk through and feels sort of sticky, but I am able to make it.
Once I get across, I see the shelf ends where there is a river of (already, were getting into some dream logic here) blue lava.
I was beginning to get lucid at this point, and had the feeling that killing myself in the lava wouldn't have any permanent consequence. (Plus, I was surrounded by erupting lava and volcanoes anyway, so either way, I was going to die.)
I jumped into the blue lava. It was very painful, but only lasted for a second. I died and became a "soul" that floated up to a safe spot away from all the lava on a small ridge. Once I was deposited there, I was in a new body and became fully lucid.
Ok, I wasn't fully lucid yet, but I knew I was dreaming. All of these computer graphic hologram menus appeared and contained various options that supposedly would allow me to terraform the planet that I was on.
I changed the settings to create a more temperate, earth like planet instead of a volcanic planet. Once I did that, I was in a forest type area with some kind of play structure for kids. It seemed to be wintertime, because all of the trees were missing their leaves.
I began to stabilize the dream using voice commands to increase the clarity. I began to notice that I could feel my position on the play structure (That I had climbed) and could tell which parts of my body were holding the weight. As I finished stabilizing, I noticed a small crowd of 20-some people were watching me stabilize the dream.
When I looked at these people, I couldn't help but think that they were looking for guidance, like I was their dream king or something. Just an interesting thought that I had while dreaming.
I eventually found Lia, my dream guide. But as soon as I found her, she began changing into an older man. When she had finished transforming, (s)he looked like Jonny Cage from the Mortal Kombat games.
Enh, sense when does ANYthing that happens in my dreams make sense anyway.?
All of the sudden I realized that I couldn't breathe. I remained calm and somehow realized that the entire area was actually about 100 feet underwater. I nearly passed out swimming to the surface, but as soon as I reached the surface, the water drained away. I should also note that the water was very clear. I'm not entirely sure how the area got flooded like so.
I think for a few moments somewhere in there I caught a glimpse of my dream "Nemesis" a boy named Jonathan. I think he was the one flooding the area in an attempt to kill me.
The next thing I knew, me and Lia were loaded onto this small iron gondola. There was a very large strong figure bearing armor that looked like the power armor from Fallout. The figure somewhat forcefully put us in, and slams the door.
Ok, no more video game references in this dream, I promise.
The cable car moves very fast, and the cable seems free form, as though it's solid and not tethered to anything. In that sense, it was less of a cable car and more of a... sky train? But no, it was a gondola, not a train.
The gondola follows the rail/wire high above the area we were just in. I can see the play structure was just a small part of a large island. Most of the island was actually made up of abandoned factories and bordered on all sides by docks and huge shipping cranes. The play structure where I had attained my lucidity was in the middle in a small grove of forest.
Around the island there are other areas of land. The island actually divided a river, and there was more snowy terrain dotted with factories and apartment buildings all around us. The river was not frozen.
My attention turns back to inside the gondola. Lia is sitting opposite to me, changing back to the way she usually looks.
Now comes the weird dream guide dialogue. I can't remember why I asked this, but I asked if Jonathan (my dream "Nemesis") was able to leave my dreams and go into other people's dreams.
Lia told me that he could in fact leave my dreams.
I proceeded to ask her some other question about my "second REAL lucid dream" and Jonathan. (My second real lucid dream didn't involve either Lia or Jonathan, it was just dream control practice.)
The gondola was now really low over a road. The road cut through the same sort of snowy forest that we had been in earlier. But the reason I had looked up was that there was a massive tornado just off the left side of the gondola.
I looked ahead, and saw a whole plethora of tornadoes, that seemed to be lining up with the intent of destroying the cable car we were riding in.
The cable car seemed really strong though. We passed straight through the tornadoes and the car barely rocked. Lia told me that the car was very strong, and despite its rusty, distressed appearance, she was no liar.
Then things got really strange. The tornadoes turned sideways and began flailing around like wips. I started the process of waking myself up.
"He's bringing the whole dream down on us!"
The gondola was torn off the rail and flung onto the road below. The car broke open. The last thing I remember was the both of us getting picked up in the tornado before I woke up.

Non-dream | Dream | Lucid

Bedtime: 05:00

Title: Untitled
Description: Surreal dream in which I bump into a lot of people from my past with brief lucidity and a false awakening.

There was more before this, but I can only remember anything after this point.
It's dark and quite late and although I don't remember any of them, I'm with a couple of people walking into some kind of bar in town. Once inside, it's absolutely packed with people and I notice something really weird. Amongst the crowd I start seeing people I used to know, but much younger. I even saw my younger self in there.

I come around the corner to find a round table against the wall where I can see Chloe and some other people sitting while talking and drinking. There's a lot of noise so I lean over in between two people who are sitting on top of the table to shout something across to Chloe. She leans in to listen and I Tell her "Something really weird is happening, everyone I used to know from childhood is here" but she doesn't really understand why that would be weird so I try to explain by saying I just saw my younger self.

Suddenly I become distracted by the idea that I'm probably dreaming, and look around to see what I could do or where I could go. However, the entire dream had been a bit "foggy" and I'm not really aware enough to stabilize the dream so I quickly lose lucidity.

I notice someone who I think was a young Kusano in the crowd in front of me and it prompts me to think of NEWS, which leads to another brief moment of lucidity where Massu appears behind me, also a younger version, but for some reason he's taller than me.

He casually throws his right arm around me and leans towards my face to say something, but before he does I cut him off and ask him where Shige is. Usually my DC's don't reply to me so I was really surprised when he answered me, and in English too!

His reply was very strange, he told me something along the lines of how Shige isn't available or can't be visible or present in my dreams. It kind of made sense to me as he is very rarely in my dreams even when all the other's are, and I often find it impossible to successfully bring him into a lucid dream. But why? Why Shige?

I tried asking why, but the scene changed and I was thrown into my parents bedroom with one of the other's. Whoever it was still kind of looked like Massu but also both of the others. The entire dream wasn't very "clear" so it's kind of hard to tell.

Anyway, whoever it was leaned in over me as if they were going to make a move on me so I shoved them away because they weren't Shige!

After that, I had a false awakening but failed to acknowledge it and tried to get back to "sleep" but I couldn't. I could hear my parents outside my door making noise, and I really REALLY had to pee so I gave up and climbed out of bed.

Then I actually wake up.

This was a really "weird feeling" dream, I woke up feeling a bit well, weird. And I did really REALLY have to pee. I consider myself lucky LOL.

Anyway... It's been a long time since I last focused on lucid dreaming, and I'm so ready to get back into it! Although I'm surprised I (kind of) had one on the first night, especially since I didn't even try. I think I remember waking up naturally about 4 hours after I fell asleep, and had the dream after that.

Characters: Chloe | Kusano | Massu | Koyama | Tegoshi | Mentions of Shige

I did a WBTB waking up at 4 am and took some vitamin B6 200 mg.
I was using an induction in the form of audio, something my dad gave me.Suddenly I was in another dream in my room. I tried getting up but it felt like I was being held down. I tried too hard and woke up back in the other dream.mi went back in and was still in my bed, this time I could move with difficulty. I got out of bed staggering around, and looked out the window, which was changing size back and forth. I tried to push through it but I couldn't. I decided to think the way CL does and thought "It's not there" I jumped through and my dream became so crisp I thought I woke up. When I was out the window I realized I had just jumped through the window screen that blocks bugs. I started to freak out cause I was in the air and didn't want to fall. I started to try swimming which worked, it also got the screen off of me. Once I realized I was flying, I decided to try and fly without swimming. I was thinking about it then I decided to throw myself forward. I started to zoom around the neighborhood which looked like a mix between an ancient city, and a modern one. I went to some walls with holes in them, like giant holes. I decided I wanted to try the TOTY which is the Egypt one. So I said "Through this hole are the pyramids." As I was about to fly through it, I saw a DC she was pretty fat wearing lavender clothes. I decided to do the TOTM, and hugged her. She got creeped out and pushed me away, (turned down by a fat chick ) The dream ends there.

2:18AM

Short dream about watching a football game in a strange house with my wife. The rooms keep shifting but I see the T.V. UT is beating A&M very badly. The score is like 90 something to 15.

I listen to Relax Melodies app. I set low theta 4Hz with Duduk music and ocean sounds. After about an hour I get vibes but I become actuely aware of the ocean sounds. The waves sound too loud and the vibrations stop. I mistakenly think I am awake. I have a non lucid dreamlet of hovering over a rocky beach. I hear the loud sound again and I fully wake up and turn the app off. I roll over and have many dreams but only remember fragments. I was too lazy to record.

Nap/ From the window i saw that snow plough destroyed my fence and riding in my garden. I ran into the street and went to the gate - they were on the ground. I noticed that my neigbor's gate was in the wrong place, made RC and become lucid. I desided to improve my falce with advanced summoning, and decided to make a flower on my palm. I stared at the palm, imaging a butiful lotus flower, but nothing happened and i awoke. I tried to DEILD, but couldn't.

I was in some building. My dream turns into lucid, i lost it, but kept mooving arms and legs and soon the dream came back. In this LD i decided to earn as many point as possible. I tried to make a flower on my palm, but at first my palm dissapered and there was a dark sport. Then appeared, but it didn't look like a flower, so i gave it up and decided to pass through the wall with open eyes. The wall was too thick and when i passed through it i found myself in the destroyed room and there was a beautiful pine wood behind the window. I understood that the wall was a portal - thats why it was so thick. I went through the window and just enjoy the scinery. All was so real - mountains and pines and grass. I just walking and enjoy myself and soon forgot about points and so on, and awoke.

This was a total waste of a Lucid Dream. I was Lucid for maybe 5 minutes and didn't do anything that I've wanted to do in my dreams; almost like I had completely forgotten what I wanted to do. Anyways...

So, the first thing I remember were my neighbors were making a movie with this really crappy DV camera. It's the cheap, vertical cameras where the screen pops out to either the left or right, and you hold it sort of like you would an item scanner at a retail store. Apparently, and also illogically, they had no experience in editing video, and I was supposed to do it for them. I watched them film the couple of scenes they needed, although I don't remember exactly what happened in the scenes or what they were about.
When they were done, I was about to start editing the clips together, since the short film was due for some festival in a few hours. I, for some reason, went into my bathroom to brush my teeth. As I brushed, I noticed my teeth ached, and when I took a look, there were cavities on my teeth, and some had even fallen out. I ran out, and my neighbor was obviously distraught, as I needed emergency dental work and their film was due in mere hours.
The dream skipped to me at a dentist's office. The dentist wore surgical scrubs and a mask, and he instantly began applying some sort of paste to my gums to numb them. After they turned a bit numb, I saw him get out the novacaine syringe and walk my way. This, I suppose, woke up the logic part of my brain.

I instantly stood up, looked at the dentist, and said something along the lines of "I need to check on something at work. I'll be back in a little bit." The dentist nodded, and without doing a reality check, I instantly said, "yeah, I'm dreaming."
I left the room, walked down the stairs, and was at some sort of college. The best way to describe it is a grand wooden fold-back staircase that led to a log-cabin cafeteria filled with students. Down the hall was a gift shop, and outside was a park. I decided to test out my "dream powers", and looked at the first dream character I saw. I, for reasons unknown, decided to blow them up. Sure enough, it worked, and I shrugged it off as just something that was sort of "cool". Then, I walked to the gift shop area and met up with this douchey kid who, until then I had not noticed, had been in previous dreams that night. He was apparently some sort of famous musician, but let's face it: he was a total douche. I started calling him out, and then I woke up. I actually woke up at 6:59, one minute before my alarm was set to go off.

This really bummed me out because I have so much I want to do, yet when I get opportunities like this, I completely waste them because for whatever reason, I'm not thinking properly.


Also, after work, I took an hour and a half long nap. I don't remember if I had any dreams while taking it, but I did wake up and sort of lay in bed and try to visualize a little bit. What followed was a super-illogical "dream" that was too abstract for me to even begin to comprehend (that, and I don't even want to share because it was that weird). I was well aware that I was in bed, and could feel my body laying there, but didn't have any logic whatsoever apparently.