lucid

I was reading about how to identify if you are dreaming just before I went to bed. The book said that it would take many days of writing down dream journal entries to finally recognize if one is dreaming.

Anyways, when I was dreaming last night I made sure I was paying attention to my surroundings. Everything was going good until I noticed a person in front of me with only one hand, and they had a mickey mouse type of glove on (haha!). At that moment, I knew for sure I was dreaming. Once I became aware that I was dreaming, I was extremely excited since it was my first time lucid dreaming. I immediately started to fly but after a couple of seconds, my excitement got the best of me and the dream slowly faded away. For a couple of seconds, I could feel I was being disconnected, so I tried to calm down a bit, but the world was getting darker and less vivid, and then I woke up.

I really need to learn to keep my concentration in the dreams and make sure I don't wake up!

The weirdest thing is that I know I have felt that feeling of lucid dreaming before. It is as if I have lucid dreamed before, but just did not recognize it to be lucid dreaming.

Extremely weird night...

This was a carrot-on-a-stick dream that had me chasing after something I have only seen a couple times before in my dreams.

I get out of bed, then walk outside. I request some rollercoaster ecstasy, but only get RE lite. In addition, as if to slap me in the face, it's accompanied by me falling through the earth into the pits of hell. I'm used to about anything in these dreams so I stay relaxed. Down there I see a monstrous form rising up out of a crouched position. I try to will it to be something cute and cuddly, but it brings its head into view and after I see 2 curved horns there can be no mistaking this for anything other than Diablo from the game (which I hadn't played in 10 years). I shoot a ball of fire at him that he easily stops with one outstretched clawed hand. He fires it back at me and I slice at it, expecting it to break up; instead, it stops mid-flight. The dream moves on before our fight could reach its conclusion.

I am at a beach now, where a girl with big boobs (probably fake) is walking by. I say hi to her, disrobe her bikini, then suck on one for a couple of seconds, then bring her to the ground. After giving her about 5 seconds of oral, the dream moves on. A man just can't get satisfaction.

I've seen unbelievable cityscapes of St. Louis a couple of times before, so I ride along in a car to downtown. It's nighttime. I can barely catch a glimpse of the city, missing the arch (or 2 arches as it has happened), before we move on to an apartment complex, which looked pretty cool in itself. I get out of the car and start heading back to the city, using a hookshot to get around. Over every roof I expect to see that breathtaking cityscape, but over every roof I only just see something, maybe a rollercoaster peaking or a tall, somewhat curved building bathed in dazzling lights.

I walk inside one of the buildings blocking my view and jump up into the ceiling, digging like a rodent to reach the top. I quickly see an overview of my area and notice someone digging down to stop me. Back in 1st person, I find that our tunnels have reached each other, and his was wide enough to hookshot up. A muscular Homer Simpson joined me along the way, contributing nothing. At the top I was hoping for the city, but a fog had settled in the meantime! Ugh. I saw a bridge and knew this was it, once I get past that I would get my spectacular view. The man who was trying to stop me appeared and I just run past him yelling "You can't even appreciate this anyway, you're probably only semi-lucid!" I step foot on the bridge and...

...I get kidnapped. My vision turns to tunnel vision, where there is blackness all around except for a small circle. I look about and slowly deduce that I'm on a boat in a swamp with a large rickety house on an island in the middle of it. I'm taken inside to the kitchen and my vision returns to normal. I find a box of cereal and grab it, munching on the food to console my disheartened self. One of the kidnappers uses telekinesis to draw the box away from me and I use telekinesis to get it right back, so I can eat while I continue to brood.

I am now back at my house. I realize there's a pool now and think "Oh cool" right before I am thrust backward like in karate movies where someone is punched super-hard. I take control now and start flying, making my way back to St. Louis until I decide willing myself there would be faster. I arrive just short of the same bridge as before, but it's up on a terrace so I have to hookshot up a few ledges. At least this time there's no fog to deal with. I walk through 2 brick monuments on either side of the entrance to the bridge, then find out I have a bit farther to go as the bridge arcs upward and I can't see past it's peak. I move pretty quickly hookshotting the sides of the bridge, then...

I wake up.

I had a dreamI was living in some town I called home and went to a local shop and the guy sold me 2 quads of purple weed cause I told him those were my faviorites and then im in my house and theres a lot of girls here a I go up stair get kicked out of my room then see a girl I knew from high school walking around naked. Ha very good dream.

First off, I'd like to thank Kraom for mentioning the SSILD technique to me, and whoever mentioned the underwater breath-holding technique on #DVA last night. Now, I did not wake up to journal these techniques (since I was trying to chain dreams together via the DEILD technique), but here is what I remember.

I woke up 5 hours after falling asleep. Began to do the SSILD reps, and when I fell back asleep, I was in a wildly vivid dream. I knew I was there for a reason, sort of a half-lucidity. Eventually I decided it was time to take full control of the dream. The setting was in this wooded area, with log houses and dirt roads. I was flying down the dirt roads and hurling fire at the houses, so I was lucid for most of the dream, yet I never had that "Eureka" moment when I go directly from non-lucid to lucid in an instant, often waking me up. Anyway, walk into a house, and there is a dark room. I remember writing on Monday that I wanted to speak with my Anima. I yelled out "I want to talk to my Anima!" This was astonishing for 2 reasons:
1) I've never yelled out or really used my dream voice before when lucid.
2) When I did this, a wave of color swept over the room.
There in front of me, stood my best female friend from high school. She started talking, but I couldn't make out the words, and the dream faded rapidly.

Normally this is where I wake up. Not this time!
I layer completely still and didn't open my eyes. HI started engulfing my vision, and soon enough, I was in another dream! The only thing I remember about this lucid is that I had sexy time with a smoking hot girl

07.17.2012

Eating Lunch and Saincara (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside of a family's house, and apparently it's the family of a man in waking life called Mo. That's not his full name, but let's go with that.

It seems outside is either early morning or early afternoon, because it's fairly bright. Maybe it's too bright for a reason, so that I would focus on the interior of the house more. There's a shiny wood flooring I'm standing on, and furniture, the objects, and the house itself are very realistic.

There's isn't a Half-Life 2-esque kind of graphic style that I normally see, it's real just like in waking life. Mo is trying to get his family to come together to eat with me, and it feels like this meal would be my last in the house for the time being.

I think I explore the house a little more in the mean time, but I can't remember all that I did. I think I went to a closet to decide which shirt and pants to wear.

I'm not sure if this experience that I'm going to mention is a separate dream, but it felt connected with this dream.

As I'm trying to decide what clothes to wear in the guest bedroom, I see some activity outside through the window on my right. I see three characters from Code Lyoko.

Ulrich was wearing a shirt, with a small dress shirt opened on top of it. He was trying to confess his love for Yumi, and after a bit of stuttering, he finally tells her that he loves her. I assumed Yumi would say she loved him as well, but she just stands there with her eyes wide opened.

Ulrich is still waiting for her to acknowledge his confession, and Yumi finally takes one step back and shakes her head. She couldn't say anything back to him and runs away. Sissy, the third character that's outside, gets near Ulrich to console him.

I can't really tell if Ulrich feels bad, to me, it felt like he knew Yumi wasn't ready for that confession, even though they had many many many MANY MANY MANY moments in the actual show that they had feelings for each other.

Then I believe the environment shifts a bit, and I'm not even sure if this fragment belongs here, but oh well, here goes.

There isn't anyone outside at the moment, there's just a gray bench, and how it's represented is just like the Code Lyoko art style, so I guess it looks like it's painted, but it's still realistic, just a bit. While I'm staring at the bench and the rest of the environment outside, I hear two people talking.

I focus on one point in the environment outside, and then blank out on the rest, then I see subtitles on the bottom of the area I'm looking at. The two men talking, even though I can't see where they are right now, are talking about some kind of Camp located in Africa.

The man declares about a location called the Saincara? Something along those lines, and then the guy tries to correct him by saying, "Don't you mean the Sahara?" The other guy confirms that he's not confusing it with the Sahara, and he goes on to explain that it's some lost location on the map, and that it was sort of like a camp for a specific group of people.

After that little soap opera and Saincara (I think it's really Saincara he said now, but I won't go too much into it), I shift my attention back to the closet, I finally decided what I wanted to wear! I already had a plain white shirt on, it looked like it felt tight on me. I wanted to wear a dress shirt on top of it opened. The sleeves were a little longer than the usual dress shirt, maybe 3-4 inches more.

I decided I should fold the edges up a little bit, and then it felt uncomfortable, so I unfolded them. I go down stairs, and I see the family of Mo are waiting for me and one other random person. I sit down, and there's some random blonde guy, who seems to be their butler or something, and is handing out their food.

He's a fairly tall man, blonde hair, but he looked a little too old to still have nice hair. He's wearing a fancy dark blue dress shirt that's buttoned up, slim light blue jeans, and a very enthusiastic expression towards everyone.

He manifests the plates out of nowhere, for all I know, he could've just pulled them out of his ass or something.........

But no one cared, so I conformed and decided to not worry about it either. I forget what he serves to Mo, his wife, and his daughter, but I do know that they were completely random food objects. When he serves my plate to me, it's basically Guacamole and Chips. While he was putting the plate in front of me, he said the meal's name in what seemed to be in a French Language.

Must be from all the French talk during my vacation.

I look at the plate for a while, it's a dark blue plate, and the Guacamole looks like it's LEGIT Guacamole, with some bell peppers chopped up, and some decent corn Tortilla Chips. Before we could actually eat, Mo and his family prepare for grace.

Now, I may be putting a stereotype here, but I don't think this type of family would be one to use Grace with their cultural beliefs...but whatever...

Mo is to the right of me, and his wife is to the left of me. He closes his eyes, and she does as well, and they both spread their hands out to me. It takes me a while to understand what they're doing, and then I realized they're saying Grace. I quickly held their hands, and put my head down to listen to what Mo was saying.

Within 5-10 second, he's already finished with declaring Grace. He says something at the end like, "Thank you God." etc etc., probably for the food on the table.

I take one chip and scoop a huge load, since I didn't get a lot of chips in the first place.

The Guacamole almost tastes exactly like the one I had in a Hispanic Restaurant in College Station or Bryan, Tx. It still felt bland, but I ate it anyway, and once I'm done eating, I say, "Excuse Me."

Seems no one here cares about anyone having basic table manners....oh well. I pick up my plate, and I head over to the sink and put it in there. I see a small plate filled with some Ginger Ale. Eradicating all basic logic in my mind that it's supposed to be in a bloody cup, I take it and drink it.

I felt the fizz swirling in my mouth, and it tastes pretty good, very refreshing. I try to look to see if the wife was looking at me, because I wanted to pour more Ginger Ale on the plate. I did my best to make it look like I'm looking at something else, and tried to use my peripheral vision to make sure I wasn't trying to do the obvious.

Seems she's still busy eating, and I guess I was just being paranoid in trying to get another shot of Ginger Ale. I pour it out slowly, and drink it a little slower this time, since I couldn't have a lot on the small plate.

I forget what I did next, but I believe the dream after this one somehow correlates to this one.

But about the Saincara thing, I don't have a lot of background on it, but based on what I read and searched, it involves something about how desire is born and grows.

Hmmm....my desire for what exactly?

I have several "desires," but I never really fulfill them, or at least don't think that I can.

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07.17.2012

Public Bathroom (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It feels like this dream was a continuation of the previous one, so I presume that after I left Mo's house, I'm inside a Public Restroom. The flooring is light gray, the walls are dark gray, and the ceiling itself is probably light gray as well.

The bathroom stalls are dark gray, so even though things are a bit bland for a bathroom, it contrasts pretty well. I see a man wearing a dark gray jacket and hat (like the hats that Mafia members wear) and shiny black shoes. He goes into a bathroom stall, and something about that guy bothered me.

He wore glasses, looked like he was in his 50-60s, and he was holding his hand with his left hand, and using his right hand to cover up the opening of the jacket he didn't button up all the way.

Maybe he was just preparing to take them off when he was going in the bathroom stall, but because he held that position with his hands before he even reached 1 feet away from it, it felt suspicious to me.

By this time, I do my business and get out of the bathroom.

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07.17.2012

Hot Sweaty Sex (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Spoiler for 18+:

The fact that I know I have god knows how many perverted and debauchery acts repressed in my mind, and how my dreams are slowly exhibiting these very very very very very perverted and enticing dreams, but doesn't let me participate in them, it just.....it just makes me feel horrible when I wake up, because I know my day is going to be boring and so full of shit.

I......I.............come on, at least try to nullify the self-hatred I'm going through right now with some sex subconscious, even if I never had it. :c

I immediately become lucid the moment I see two women on top of each other. I mean come on, if I'm non-lucid for someone as hot as that, especially since I did a WBTB before this dream occurred, there would be something wrong with me.

Anyway, the girl on top is a blonde, a skinny blonde, but looks very hot, at least to me. She looks exactly like Catherine, the succubus in the game, "Catherine."

Hm.....succubus desires starting to show up slowly for me....

She's gliding herself up and down a female with green hair....hmm...and it looks kind of like the hairstyle of Shion from Higurashi, which leads me to believe that this is Alyzarin.

It's because Shion automatically makes me refer to Alyzarin because she talks about her and loves Shion's laugh.

The blonde that looks like Catherine is taking complete control of Alyzarin, who is in awkward position, but she can't help but close her eyes and enjoy the ride Catherine is giving her as she's rubbing her clitoris against Alyzarin's.

Alyzarin/Shion just......omg...lol....She has her eyes closed the whole time, with her mouth open. I can't hear if she's moaning, all I see is that Catherine is obviously the top in this kinky relationship.

And while I'm watching, I feel some squishy stuff from my crotch.

Uh.......................

I didn't really bother to focus on that until I just typed it. Then the perspective changes to where I see the heads of Catherine and Alyzarin. The rest of their body is following the horizon, which makes it look like the bodies are far away.

Catherine is just giving Alyzarin a good time, she even somehow gets her nipples to graze against Alyzarin's/Shion's, and Aly/Shion still has her mouth opened and eyes closed.

Catherine starts sweating more because she's doing all the work, and then maybe 15 seconds after that, the dream fades away.

Like, it fades, and then disappears like a vortex sucked it in.

NO YOU COME BACK CATHERINE AND ALYZARIN, THIS IS NOT FAIR

THIS IS NOT FAIR AT ALL

I.....THIS IS MESSED UP

The whole dream itself, I'm glad I saw everything, but how it ended, and the process of it being ended is what pissed me off. I mean, I can deal with the dream fading because of my excitement and all that, but when it ends like someone is saying, "That's all you're going to see," it makes me wake up with more self-hatred than I had before!

Just.........whatever.

I had my first lucid dream this morning! I was in my house; everything was normal. I was playing something on the computer. I got up and went into the kitchen. When I went past the sliding door to the deck, a sound played from my computer, and it caused snow to appear outside.

That didn't seem right, so I looked at my hand and counted my fingers. I had six, but it was hard for me to focus on counting, so I only counted five. Something just looked a bit off about my hand, though, so I counted again - six!

"Oh my gosh, I'm dreaming!" I shouted, getting really excited. As the dream began to destabilize, I remembered that I had to remain calm and control my excitement. It was too late, though; I knew I was about to wake up.

I woke up on the couch at thirteen minutes past midnight (despite having fallen asleep in bed at six-something AM). Nothing around me actually changed, so it was barely even a false awakening. Excited, I told my mom I'd finally had an LD and held up my hand, telling her I'd become lucid after counting six fingers. I still had six, but I didn't notice because I didn't actually count them this time. I woke up a couple minutes later.

[Dream happened at around 8:20AM, almost 30 ]
[Oh well, i took 3 Negro candies yet again... which made me have a painful stomachache, but i could get rid of it after a while and get back to sleep]
[After waking up from this lucid, i didn't get up immediately and slept back for 2 or so more hours... interestingly, i only forgot one single part from this dream during the extra nap ]
[The dream also collapsed multiple times, but i can't really recall the places where it happened]

I was at a place i knew well in my town, near the house of my old school's ex-principal's house. Some guy was just trying to park in that garage with luxury cars. I became semi-lucid here and grabbed one of his cars and smashed it exactly in front of the garage door, so he couldn't move his cars in our out. I laughed and moved on.
I started with walking towards the middle part of the city, when suddenly i noticed my cat Kormi. Since i was just semi-lucid, i had an idea that i should ride my cat. I became smaller than my cat and jumped on his back. [That was weird ].

He started jumping insane distances as we were moving towards the inner part of the city. He even jumped above a lake which should've not been there. Soon we reached a random house where he sit down on the window ledge and let me down from his back. At this moment i became fully lucid.

I just realized what i've done and laughed at that. I looked around for a while from the ledge, then flew up into the air to check around from there instead. We weren't exactly in the middle of the city, but it's okay. I turned back to my original height now.
[I've done something here which i totally forgot during my nap, so time skip].

I was flying towards the old train station and admiring how nicely the Sun was shining, while i was wondering what i planned to do today... I just couldn't recall my goals for some reason. It bothered me a bit, but i continued flying around just for fun.
Soon the world around me shifted and i was in front of our house. Oh well, i decided to check inside, after all it was daytime now, so someone must be in there.

I flew through the closed door and started floating in the living room. I noticed my mom and dad in the kitchen. They were talking about some carnival or something like that, but i didn't pay much attention.
I decided to go on, so i flew through the window towards the garden. [Ugh the garden... why do i get back here again o.o?].

I was just slowly passing by the fig tree, when i suddenly remembered that i wanted to meet up with Lucy again. I got a little nervous, but then i told myself that i can't skip this now. I gotta befriend her finally.
I started flying towards the end of the garden, when suddenly i noticed a bird flock coming towards me really fast. I wasn't worried at all, so i just let them come close.
When they got close finally, i realized that these were SHARK BIRDS

This image makes me sick o.o

I started flapping my arms around and knocked most of them away, but one of them was just somehow stuck on my face, it wanted to eat my left eye.. ugh.
I didn't hestitate and just grabbed it and thrown it away as far as i could. [Weird shark birds, you deserve this... ].

I started flying faster now to avoid stuff like this. Soon i reached the end of the garden and while fighting the almost collapsing dream, i called out for Lucy.
I shouted "Lucy!" "Lucy!" "LUCYYY!" for a while, but nothing happened. I got somewhat mad at her for hiding again, but then something unexpected happened.
There was a hole in the wall at the corner of the garden and some power started lighting it up and beams started shooting out of it. [When i was young i always feared that monsters come from that corner part of the garden...]

Soon a bigger beam appeared and it pointed to the ground. Suddenly, a monster appeared from the beam.
But i just knew that it was Lucy in a different form, to scare me away. This monster was made up of a bottom half of a human with legs and everything up to the waist, but it had no upper body at all! It had a torn skirt on and it had two hands coming out of the legs. It also had some tentacles on top of it.
I was staring at this weird thing and all i could think of was "What's wrong with you Lucy?!"

I didn't have much time to think, because she attacked me almost instantly. This monstrosity ran towards me with those huge legs and wanted to hit me with the tentacles. I jumped out of the way. Suddenly i've seen myself from above and i had a sword and shield in my hands. I couldn't control myself anymore and she was just beating me without any problem. I could only stare and do nothing against it.

Soon my body dropped to the ground and she let out a monstrous laugh, while a word appeared in front of me: Love.
I woke up.

[Ok... what the hell... that was weird when it happened, but it still sounds weird when i think back to it...]
[That "Love." in the end felt like she meant it in a way like... you know... like she delivered what she wanted and is satisfied... but maybe it has more meaning than that... o.o]

I became aware in my dream, done the reality checks, stabilized the dream. I think the dream started just outside my house and I summoned someone, I was going to try and fly but I decided to go up on top of my house to try it for some reason.. and thats it.. Im not sure if this just lasted longer and I can't remember it.

3 LD, but all short and stupid. First was WILD, the picture wasn't clear. I was on the path and i don't know this place. I rub hands and wait till the picture will be better but lost awareness.
Second one began from the winter tree - i remembered that now is summer and tried to fly to space to make TOTM. There were strong very cold winter and it blowed to my leg and feet and it caught me for feet and drag me down away .
In third LD i spoke with relatives, understood that its a dream, flew to the sky, at first with very high speed, but soon i became loose the speed and stoped. I just had no energy for flying.

I couldn't sleep on christmas Eve in 2003 and looked at my pepsi watch and saw it was 1:05. Angry and bored I threw my head down on the pillow and in what felt like 2 seconds, I looked back at the watch and saw that it was now 8:03. Im pretty sure I didn't knock myself out when I hit the pillow, but who knows.

I woke up on phone and I Wonder where I am. then I accidentally all over the phone and on my Dog. I Was very disappointed when I see that my Dog dead. And my Phone break. All over the kitchen floor my mess there. So I Had to pick it up and it very dirty in side. I Drank the soda and juice and reestablish connection to netwok and accidentally all over your face this time. Was not happy.

Im on my sister roof it baby blue and I sliped and fall im bearly hanging on the roof with both arm hanging on and my right leg tucked under me and my left hanging of the roof. im scard and start to wonder why I came up here, and thats when I realize im dreaming so I pull my self up easly . I see squirls on the roof but im not scared of getting bit anymore I jump off the roof and fall in slow motion .

Whiel im falling I rub my hands togather and yell stabilize now I hear a airplane and see one flying realy high up I see billionds of stars and it beautifal when I hit the ground I yell stabilize agian but I wake up

Ok, so prior to me being lucid this dream is pretty fuzzy. I remember being somewhere and then a dream fading which I recognized as a dream fading. Next thing I know I was in some theater in an audience. So I thought didn't a dream just fade.. so then I became lucid in my new dream. Alright, so this dream now is pretty uneventful, I just worked on stabilization the whole time. Anyways, let's begin there I was sitting in an audience and there was some guy sitting on the edge of a stage. He said something really dumb I don't exactly recall what and then said "oh I don't have any jokes left.." But then he got up on the stage, which now there was magically props on, ans said alright I'll give this a try. So he was walking behind a wall which looked like it was made of silver and it was engraved, anyways there was like a little window in this wall and as he walked past one he looked exactly like the mad hatter from the new Alice In Wonderland, and he said "look I'm Johhny Depp." Alright so here it get's a little fuzzy again. I remember I was stabilizing the whole time by basically just opening my eyes wider, surprisingly this actually worked. So I remember now he was making fun of fruit. And he was miniature and he was like swimming through the different fruits, still looking like the mad hatter of course. And in the end I remember him making fun of watermelon talking about losing your keys in it. And he was tiny walking through the watermelon trying to pull these keys that were bigger than him out of it. I don't even really remember how the dream ended I don't recall it fading out or me waking up. Maybe I became complacent and lost my lucidity. Well, anyways I stabilized this dream for a long while.

This was the usual morning/noontime lucid I have every time I take that nap, and it started the way they almost always do. I felt flashes of euphoria in my head, leading into full-on ecstasy. Not a very intense ecstasy today.

I get up out of bed, then start doing the worm. I then float through the wall outside, ask the dream what it thinks of me finding the DV forum, and I feel the dream take over as I do a front flip then a cartwheel. I decide it's time to get it on, so I concentrate on having a woman appear. I feel my arms around her before I see her, then begin to explore her with my hand but not too aggressively. Her face appeared, she was a bit disfigured. I'm pretty picky so I left her alone.

I'm in the kitchen with my mom. There was a question I had been wanting to ask the dreams, so I pose it, "What's the best way to get my idea out there?" referring to an idea I have that it's through exuding powerful body language that we socially accelerate, i.e. change other people positively. She opens her address/phonebook and words begin to scrawl on it but the phonebook disappears before I could read more than "righteous" and "call someone" and some information about Alaska that makes sense at the time.

Everyone is hanging out in the kitchen, including Dad. I get a bit manicky, then see Dad walk past. I say "Uh oh, Dad has that look on his face. He's going to throw me in the psychiatric center," in proper mocking fashion. I get a bit indignant and follow him outside, where there's snow on the ground. I yell at Dad, "Why the fuck couldn't you see what was happening?" (Something personal.) He seemed genuinely sorry and said, "I don't know. Maybe the script is off."

Date: 15/07/2012
Place: I's bed
Time of getting into bed: 2.05am

Waking thoughts in black
Non lucid dreams in blue
Lucid dreams in red


I haven't missed the 14th. I went to a party and didn't sleep until the next night.

Dream 1 - 3.42am
I woke up and immediately forgot this dream, it was slipping as I was writing and I was lucky to get this much down!
I am dreaming about something illegal - there are TV screen up high.

Dream 2 - 8.53am
I am flying to complete certain tasks. It is almost like Mario, I use different items to gain invisibility or super powers. Suddenly an evil looking bird is chasing me. It has yellow, piercing eyes.

Dream 3 - Lots of fragments.
Again, I struggled to remember the full dream/s. I just scribbled down what I could remember and I'm not sure weather it was all the same dream or several.
My mum's neighbors are on crack, their house is dirty and they have dodgy people coming to visit them.

An ex boyfriend tells me he is lonely since I left, I try to cheer him up by finding him a new boyfriend.

I'm getting ready in a bathroom to go somewhere, I leave and go to a bar occupied by lots of people.

Dream 4
There is a pool of beautiful water. I believe I am on holiday somewhere. There is a wooden makeshift ladder leading high into the sky. A little Indian man tells me to climb up and jump off, into the water. I hesitate but he tells me it's perfectly safe, and I will not get hurt. I am a bit scared but I do it because I want to feel young and carefree. I jump, and the man is right, it doesn't hurt, but I go deep, deep underwater. I start swimming up to the top, but can't see the surface. I panic and try to swim as fast as I can but I run out of air and breathe. Amazingly, I can breathe fine. So I suddenly realise I'm dreaming.I calm down, and take some big, deep breaths of water. I swim around a little bit, the water is perfectly clear and blue. I can see sand at the bottom, dotted with shells but all in all it is vast and empty. It is quite therapeutic and relaxing to just swim and float in silence, with nobody around. I wake up.

Dream 5
Me and my friend I are talking to some young teens. One of them, a young lad with longish hair is really cute, and I find I am attracted to him. I try to flirt a little, but his friends keep distracting him or me. He shows me a book he has, and although I'm not interested in it I pretend I am so I have an excuse to talk to him. I give him some long piece of material to remember me by and I leave. I have no idea what the material was or what it means. We go to an aquarium, which in=s inside a restaurant. All the fish / turtles etc are all crammed into tiny little tanks with no room. It is dark but everywhere is lit up with UV light. We realise we left a baby with the kids we were talking to earlier, so we have to go back. When we get back the place is a mess, with beer cans and rubbish everywhere, but the kids are no-where to be seen. I get's angry but then we find the baby is safe, so we aren't too bothered.