lucid

Im on my sister roof it baby blue and I sliped and fall im bearly hanging on the roof with both arm hanging on and my right leg tucked under me and my left hanging of the roof. im scard and start to wonder why I came up here, and thats when I realize im dreaming so I pull my self up easly . I see squirls on the roof but im not scared of getting bit anymore I jump off the roof and fall in slow motion .

Whiel im falling I rub my hands togather and yell stabilize now I hear a airplane and see one flying realy high up I see billionds of stars and it beautifal when I hit the ground I yell stabilize agian but I wake up

Ok, so prior to me being lucid this dream is pretty fuzzy. I remember being somewhere and then a dream fading which I recognized as a dream fading. Next thing I know I was in some theater in an audience. So I thought didn't a dream just fade.. so then I became lucid in my new dream. Alright, so this dream now is pretty uneventful, I just worked on stabilization the whole time. Anyways, let's begin there I was sitting in an audience and there was some guy sitting on the edge of a stage. He said something really dumb I don't exactly recall what and then said "oh I don't have any jokes left.." But then he got up on the stage, which now there was magically props on, ans said alright I'll give this a try. So he was walking behind a wall which looked like it was made of silver and it was engraved, anyways there was like a little window in this wall and as he walked past one he looked exactly like the mad hatter from the new Alice In Wonderland, and he said "look I'm Johhny Depp." Alright so here it get's a little fuzzy again. I remember I was stabilizing the whole time by basically just opening my eyes wider, surprisingly this actually worked. So I remember now he was making fun of fruit. And he was miniature and he was like swimming through the different fruits, still looking like the mad hatter of course. And in the end I remember him making fun of watermelon talking about losing your keys in it. And he was tiny walking through the watermelon trying to pull these keys that were bigger than him out of it. I don't even really remember how the dream ended I don't recall it fading out or me waking up. Maybe I became complacent and lost my lucidity. Well, anyways I stabilized this dream for a long while.

This was the usual morning/noontime lucid I have every time I take that nap, and it started the way they almost always do. I felt flashes of euphoria in my head, leading into full-on ecstasy. Not a very intense ecstasy today.

I get up out of bed, then start doing the worm. I then float through the wall outside, ask the dream what it thinks of me finding the DV forum, and I feel the dream take over as I do a front flip then a cartwheel. I decide it's time to get it on, so I concentrate on having a woman appear. I feel my arms around her before I see her, then begin to explore her with my hand but not too aggressively. Her face appeared, she was a bit disfigured. I'm pretty picky so I left her alone.

I'm in the kitchen with my mom. There was a question I had been wanting to ask the dreams, so I pose it, "What's the best way to get my idea out there?" referring to an idea I have that it's through exuding powerful body language that we socially accelerate, i.e. change other people positively. She opens her address/phonebook and words begin to scrawl on it but the phonebook disappears before I could read more than "righteous" and "call someone" and some information about Alaska that makes sense at the time.

Everyone is hanging out in the kitchen, including Dad. I get a bit manicky, then see Dad walk past. I say "Uh oh, Dad has that look on his face. He's going to throw me in the psychiatric center," in proper mocking fashion. I get a bit indignant and follow him outside, where there's snow on the ground. I yell at Dad, "Why the fuck couldn't you see what was happening?" (Something personal.) He seemed genuinely sorry and said, "I don't know. Maybe the script is off."

Date: 15/07/2012
Place: I's bed
Time of getting into bed: 2.05am

Waking thoughts in black
Non lucid dreams in blue
Lucid dreams in red


I haven't missed the 14th. I went to a party and didn't sleep until the next night.

Dream 1 - 3.42am
I woke up and immediately forgot this dream, it was slipping as I was writing and I was lucky to get this much down!
I am dreaming about something illegal - there are TV screen up high.

Dream 2 - 8.53am
I am flying to complete certain tasks. It is almost like Mario, I use different items to gain invisibility or super powers. Suddenly an evil looking bird is chasing me. It has yellow, piercing eyes.

Dream 3 - Lots of fragments.
Again, I struggled to remember the full dream/s. I just scribbled down what I could remember and I'm not sure weather it was all the same dream or several.
My mum's neighbors are on crack, their house is dirty and they have dodgy people coming to visit them.

An ex boyfriend tells me he is lonely since I left, I try to cheer him up by finding him a new boyfriend.

I'm getting ready in a bathroom to go somewhere, I leave and go to a bar occupied by lots of people.

Dream 4
There is a pool of beautiful water. I believe I am on holiday somewhere. There is a wooden makeshift ladder leading high into the sky. A little Indian man tells me to climb up and jump off, into the water. I hesitate but he tells me it's perfectly safe, and I will not get hurt. I am a bit scared but I do it because I want to feel young and carefree. I jump, and the man is right, it doesn't hurt, but I go deep, deep underwater. I start swimming up to the top, but can't see the surface. I panic and try to swim as fast as I can but I run out of air and breathe. Amazingly, I can breathe fine. So I suddenly realise I'm dreaming.I calm down, and take some big, deep breaths of water. I swim around a little bit, the water is perfectly clear and blue. I can see sand at the bottom, dotted with shells but all in all it is vast and empty. It is quite therapeutic and relaxing to just swim and float in silence, with nobody around. I wake up.

Dream 5
Me and my friend I are talking to some young teens. One of them, a young lad with longish hair is really cute, and I find I am attracted to him. I try to flirt a little, but his friends keep distracting him or me. He shows me a book he has, and although I'm not interested in it I pretend I am so I have an excuse to talk to him. I give him some long piece of material to remember me by and I leave. I have no idea what the material was or what it means. We go to an aquarium, which in=s inside a restaurant. All the fish / turtles etc are all crammed into tiny little tanks with no room. It is dark but everywhere is lit up with UV light. We realise we left a baby with the kids we were talking to earlier, so we have to go back. When we get back the place is a mess, with beer cans and rubbish everywhere, but the kids are no-where to be seen. I get's angry but then we find the baby is safe, so we aren't too bothered.

First REM Terror

[I went to bed at 11:30PM yesterday and had this dream at 1:15AM, which makes me believe that it was in my first REM cycle ]
[Sometimes i wonder why i use this AM/PM stuff in my own DJ... but i guess i'll be nice, after all, it's hard to count to 24 ]

I was sitting in my room on the ground and watching some kind of musical show, where they've played "Songs of the Years" or something... 2009 and 2010 were listed on the side of the screen.
As i was watching this, i heard the noise of keys and heard that someone has opened the door and walked into the house. I turned off the TV fast, to make it seem like i'm sleeping already.
Soon after this i heard that the other TV in the living room was turned on and the same show continued.

I was wondering who this might this late at night, so i walked out to the living room, carefully.
I noticed that it was my old love and she also carried a bag with herself. She smiled at me and called me to watcht the show with her, so i stood next to her and we both started watching it. It took some time until i suddenly thought "What..? What is she doing here?!" I turned back to look at her and she was still staring at the TV. I became lucid here.

I backed away from her and suddenly i felt an unimaginable fear. I turned away from her and wanted to jump out of the window, but at that moment i knew that something was watching me and it wanted to attack me. I couldn't think too much, so i started flying around the room, while everything got darker and darker... it was like dark flames were trying to consume me. I kept flying in a circle and shouting in my mind "NO! I CAN FIGHT IT!" and similar things, but i couldn't really believe it at that time. [I was so scared and confused that i didn't really know what to do at that time].

The walls soon turned into wood with missing planks, like it was an old wooden building about to collapse. I flew out of the wall and continued the "escape" along the street.
I constantly felt that terror as something was chasing me and like the whole world was against me. Everything got blurrier and i could barely see anymore as it was nighttime and my eyes were teary for some reason. I rubbed my right eye with one hand, then the left one too the same way, which then made me able to see clearly, but it was still dark outside.

I flew as fast as i could and i got to some kind of mountain and decided to fly upwards. I still didn't feel safe, i could feel that something was really close to me and that i could hardly escape it. When i almost got up to the top of the mountain, suddenly a ceiling appeared above me. That surprised me a bit and i fell back down. The ground was only some meters away now and as soon as my back hit it, i woke up.

[Ah well... i can't really put that terror into words, i was just overwhelmed by it. It felt like i wasn't allowed to be lucid at that time ]
[It really rare when i get lucid this early during the night... when i woke up i first imagined the time to be 5AM at least... but it was just 1:15AM]


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They Can't Kiss Right

[Had this dream at 9:15AM, a bit later than usually, because i woke up for WBTB later than i should've done so]
[Lol, it took me a while to find a somewhat good title for this dream, but it seemed impossible, so here you go...]
[Oh and i took 3 Negro candies yet again, for the menthol]

I was just trying to hide from an insane teacher, who i insulted earlier in the dream and she knocked me unconscious with a Tesla-Coil. I ran through the city and then found myself in another town soon.
The teacher was really close, so i decided to fly up into the air... Since i was able to do so, i became lucid.

The dream felt rather unstable and it was kinda blurry... i remembered that i told Dreamprofessor that i'll try to find him on this Monday, but i can't do it in a dream like this.
I decided to fly high in the sky and think out something else to do.
Soon i reached a huge bubble near the clouds... it looked rather strong, not like a normal bubble. As soon as i noticed it, for some reason i had a thought that there's a candyland like place in the bubble. [I have no idea where i got that...].

I got through the side of the bubble, but it turned out to be much smaller than i expected, also it was EMPTY... ah what a disappointment
I decided to leave this place if i can't even find a single gummycandy or something...
I flew back down to that town where i came from. I started floating nearby a long street. I just realized at this time, that the town was supposed to be near a lake, but the water was missing from it. This made me remember that i still wanted to explore underwater, as my last attempt turned out differently than i wanted it to. [I imagined the exploration to be fully underwater and not just a small part that leads to ground again].

Soon i noticed a pool further down the street. I turned around and imagined it to be bigger, then turned back to check it out. It definitely got bigger, but not big enough...
I turned around to check for other possible underwater sources. The other side of this street ended in a long street that was close to our house. I looked back and forth... it looked weird how the world merged two different towns together

I started slowly flying above this street towards the part that lead to my town. I was constantly checking around for some water when suddenly i found a nice looking pool.

There were some kids playing in this pool and it wasn't even too big, but i decided to try my luck at it... I jumped into the water and woke up immediately.
[Back with DEILD].

Ok... that was a bad idea... it seemed like this blurry dream didn't really want me to do anything good.
I moved on from this place, towards the closest market... i thought that maybe i could find something there...
I almost passed by the market while i was distracted by how the dream was trying to collapse constantly, i had to focus on stuff around me to stop it from doing so. [It tried to collapse multiple times earlier as well].

I stopped in the air and thought of going in the market building, but then i noticed two rocker girls standing on the grassy part near the market. Ah well... i thought that if this dream is so pathetic, then at least i'll end it in a fun way

I descended to the ground near them and to my surprise the dream finally got clear. But since i was already committed...
I checked them out for a while. One of them had black hair and fully black clothes and had a somewhat mean look on her face. She was standing near the wall. The other girl had blonde hair and looked a little more friendlier, with black and white clothes. They both had heavy eyeliner around their eyes. [Well, i like that style, so i didn't want to just leave them there ]

I walked up to the black haired one and kissed her. I focused on keeping my eyes open to not make the dream collapse on me.
She just kissed horribly, she didn't even move her mouth or tongue at all, she was like a plastic doll or something. I backed away from her shortly after and was thinking of an insult of how badly she kissed, but then decided against saying it out loud... after all she is a DC, she knew what i thought.
Instead, i walked up to the blonde now and kissed her too. It was somewhat better and her lips felt somewhat more life-like, but still not quite right. She didn't do anything either just like her friend, she just let me play around in her mouth without any interaction from her part.
I still got excited while kissing her and felt that tingling in real life again, but i could withstand it for a while... but not for long enough, it distracted me too much and caused me to wake up.

[Oh well... those girls kissed like dead weasels, not like i know what's that like, lolol... i'm going crazy here... ]
[Anyway, i'm really disappointed of this lucid. I wanted to meet Dreamprofessor or at least do something interesting, but when the dream is so blurry and unstable, it's not much fun and takes away from the experience.. ]

Aids:1/8 tea peppermint oil before bed
Methods:DEILD/WILD - FA
Morning Suppliments:500mg L-Lysine, 500mg C, 595mg Potassium Gluconcate, 1 Super B-Complex
Sleep Quality: Light, wakefulness, RLS

Huge Storm 1:12 AM
Huge storm coming. Riding with dad. I see storm shelter. I hear some song that reminds me of someone. And then another song. I remember an ex-girlfriend.
"I say I hate all songs."
I see Jeremy and Jess in the car with us.
"What song? I say do tunes to what you want."

Dude, Where's My Car? 3:15 AM ish

I am at my parents sleeping in a recliner. It is dark and I can't sleep.
I went to my parents with the kids. I am leaving. But I can't find my car. I see a white car that is stripped down. The kids think it's mine but I know better. We run down the street looking for it. I feel tired and weak and can't run well. I see white cars everywhere but none are mine. I don't want to call the police yet because I keep thinking that I remember that I parked in a strange place and I knew I would not remember. I tell the kids this.

Now we are in some nursing home and wondering around. Not sure what happens here. Something about me not being a good enough Christian. How I let bad things into my life. Thats why bad things happen. Some old woman? I feel guilty for lucid dreaming like it is a sin.

We leave. I tell my kids we got to look some more before we call the cops. Deanna says that Dalynn already did. I asked her about that. It was when I was holding her and she blew into a strange balloon.
She says, "Well that lady scared me. So I called the cops."
We run outside but I feel overwhelmed and too tired to walk. I lay down in the grass and dirt. I curl up on a mound of dirt. I tell the kids I just want to close my eyes. My body relaxes and I wake up.

WILD 3:30AM ish
When I wake up I am in the recliner that I moved to because of my RLS. I don't move a muscle. I relax myself and I roll my eyes into the back of my head and focus on my skull. Sleep Paralysis almost immediately kicks in.

I hear the familiar strong wind sound laced with rinings of the ears. I feel the familiar vibrations and windy sensations. I noticed this time that the sound and vibrations increased and decreased in intensity like waves on a beach. I make a quick note of this. I can feel my legs moving up. It feels like something has me by the ankles. I become afraid and I have to remind myself it is not real. I try to enter the dream but I get stuck in SP for longer than I wanted and because of the last dream I thought I was doing something evil. I keet telling myself that it was ok. And it wasn't real. You do this all the time and its always been fine. No good, the feeling was persistent.
I try to ignore the thoughts and visualise anything to move on. I my mind wonder and my dream eyes see.

I see a road. I am flying low and fast down a vivid and brightly lit road road hugged tightly by evergreen trees. I enjoy this but my eyes begin to opened and I see the dark living room with one eye and the road with the other.

I go back into full SP. Still the same feeling of guilt. I think that this is getting no where and I want to go back to my bed. So I suddenly and forcibly make myself get up. I stumble back to my bedroom. I heard and felt my loud footsteps.

I think how odd this is. I was feeling the vibrations like wind on my body. The loud sound of wind and ringing. Typical SP. Was it possible to not be truly paralyzed in sp?

I now find myself tangled in my blanket. I am standing by my bed and I can't find my way out. I am unsure of what happened. I feel so confused and my mind feels numb.

I say, "I'm dreaming. I'm dreaming." But my voice sounds odd. It is weak and unsure. Almost like I am asking a question. I am not convinced. Then I throw myself in the bed. Now I can find my way out. I feel half asleep and strange.

All my actions have woke my wife up. My wife mocks me. And complains how this is not good what I'm doing. She is pissed I woke her. I feel embarrassed and say nothing. She gets up to go the bathroom. I close my eyes and relax. But instead of going to sleep I wake up still in the recliner. God dammed FA!

I was so sure I was awake.

I had a weird dream that has sort of confused me to what it means.

It was the shortest day of the year, and even though it wasn't Autumn all the leaves were falling. I was walking outside in a courtyard (similar to the one at our house IRL but not quite the same) when I looked up and saw this guy in a tree, with a sniper rifle aiming at me. Instinctively I drop to the ground, but suddenly the ground gives way and I fell.

Waking up, I find I'm in my bed, and so I swing out and almost stand on my cat, Georgie. It's at this point I realise I'm dreaming, because Georgie died a while back. I rub my hands against my bed, and strangely enough it feels like cat fur.

After 'stabilising' my now-lucid-dream I go outside and into the courtyard again. The ground is intact and the sniper is still in the tree, but this time I yell at him, and he gets angry and pulls the trigger. I hate dying in dreams so I quickly wake myself up, which I've always found easy to do once I know I'm dreaming.

So I suppose that was lucid and also had a false awakening in it. It wasn't scary or anything, just strange and memorable...

NON DREAM DREAM LUCID

Alright, I'm back. I totally suck, I know. I've kinda given up on keeping a consistent journal, because I just can't do it. But anyways, I'm back because I had an interesting lucid last night and I wanted to record it somewhere!

FRAGMENT 1:
I'm in a giant park with my friends. We find a softball that must have been accidentally thrown too far off the field during a game, so I pick it up and run to return it. I see a game going on, and there's a wooden play structure for kids. I jump on top of it but accidentally drop the softball into a very thin, wooden opening. I start crawling inside and get very claustrophobic. The space is very small. However, I end up getting the ball and returning it to one of the softball team coaches.

FRAGMENT 2:
I'm in a giant movie theater with my friend, her sister, her dad, and her dad's girlfriend. We're waiting to see some important movie. It's huge and filled with people. The movie hasn't started and the lights are still on. The seats are arranged in very random ways. Finally, it gets dark. The walls are covered with several small screens, but as every one gets quiet and finds their seats, the smaller screens move together to form a giant screen. I don't remember what else happened.

FRAGMENT 3:
I'm in a haunted hotel and there are lots of people there. As it starts to turn to night, everyone starts rushing back to their rooms. They don't wanna be out and about during the night. I run around for what feels like hours, but I cannot for the life of me find my hotel room anywhere. I'm running around with several other people (at some point, including my mother) who are trying to help me find my room, because they don't want me to be hurt. As we're running down the halls, we hear noises and screaming. (The way everything is set up kind of reminds me of the computer game Amnesia, and we're all just trying to run to safety to hide from the monsters.)

So, yeah, those were a couple of dream fragments I had, but there was also a main dream I remember which eventually led into the first lucid I've had in a while.

I'm in some sort of competition in the middle of the woods where two sleds are tied together with a rope, and you have to race with your partner to get to the finish line first. Somehow I transform into the cartoon character Pops from The Regular Show, and my partner is DJ from Total Drama Island. (I don't know, I have a brother that watches a lot of Cartoon Network, okay? ) I accidentally turn our sled the wrong way, causing us to go off course. The rope that attaches our sleds together gets tangled around a giant tree and now we're completely in last place.

I've transformed back into myself (thank God) and I start pulling the rope and sleds down from the tree. DJ is genuinely pissed at me for making us lose. Eventually, we have everything back in place. DJ has transformed into a random man that I didn't recognize. We sit back down on the sleds and start moving downhill through the forest again. Soon our sleds turned into a canoe, and then we were canoeing down a river. I say, "Hey! I did something just like this in real life!" (Which is true, just a week ago I went rafting down a river for five hours...sunburn sucks) That's when I realize that this is not, in fact, real life, and I become lucid, confirming it with a reality check.

The canoe has now transformed into what I can only describe as trays with wheels, although I refer to it as a train. We're (obviously) no longer in the river, but instead moving on a set of tracks through the woods. There's now a random lady with black hair in a ponytail sitting in the tray/train seat beside me.

Now, if anyone knows me at all, they know that I love the TV show Supernatural. The two main characters are Sam Winchester (Jared Padalecki) and Dean Winchester (Jensen Ackles). Of course, I can't hang out with them in real life, so I gotta take advantage of this in my dream world.

I shout, "Hey! Where's Sam and Dean?". I look off on the side of the trail we're riding down where I see houses. I assume they live in one of them. Nothing happens, though. I try again. "SAM! DEAN! GET OUT HERE!", but still, nothing happens. "Have you seen--oh!" I begin to say, but as I turn around, I see them already sitting in the seats behind me. "There you guys are!"

Sam smiles and says "Yup." I don't know where the train is headed, but I wanna get out of this forest. So I say, "Train! Take us to...Miami!" The train suddenly changes course, turning right and going inside a building. It starts going upstairs, but I say "Train? Is this really the way to Miami?" The train seems to hesitate, before backing up and turning around. It goes up another set of stairs. "Is this the way to Miami?" The train keeps going. "I said, is this the way to Miami?" The woman with the black ponytail turns to me and shouts, "YES! THIS IS THE WAY TO MIAMI!" I get quiet.

Turns out, we're in an apartment building right in Miami. There's a woman that lives in one of the apartments and we're about to go inside before I see a sign on her door. It states that we're only allowed in if we have at least five people. I'm about to get us all inside when I realize that the lady with the ponytail is gone.

I would be upset, but I know that since I'm just in a dream, I can summon whoever I want to take her place. I look down the stairs that we had just gone up and shout, "Hey! Doctor! We need you up here!" Right after I say that, the Tenth Doctor from Doctor Who turns the corner and walks up, saying "Yeah, yeah, I'm coming," as he fiddles with his sonic screwdriver. I figure that if I should summon anyone, it should be him, because the fact that he happens to have a time machine may come in handy later. You never know.

Now that there's five of us, we can go inside the apartment. I knock on the door, and an older woman with short red hair answers. She welcomes us inside after I assure her that there are indeed five people. After a moment of walking and looking around her small apartment, I notice that the random man on the boat/train with me earlier has disappeared. I don't care, though, because I have no idea who he was. Now the only ones left in the apartment are me, Sam, Dean, the Doctor, and the red haired woman.

I ask the woman, "Hey, since we're in Miami, shouldn't there be beaches and sunshine everywhere?" She walks over to her windows and pulls the curtains open, revealing that there are no beaches anywhere. "They were all shut down years ago. Every pier is closed," she explains.

Awesome. I have a plan, though. After all, I have a man with a time machine, don't I? I walk over to the Doctor and ask, "Hey, can we go back to before the beaches were closed and actually enjoy our trip?" He brushes me off, though, continuing to fiddle with his sonic screwdriver and saying, "Yeah, yeah, maybe later."

I'm about to continue arguing when more people arrive at the apartment. I'm surprised to see my mom, her cousin, my two little cousins, and my great aunt and uncle. The red haired woman is apparently friends with me family, because everyone is hugging and acting happy to see each other again. Immediately, my great aunt and the woman move to the small kitchen and start cooking. My uncle helps, too. I spot my little two year old cousin, and he's still as adorable as ever, so I walk over to him and kneel down. I start playing around and tickling him and whatnot, making him laugh. After a while I get bored, so I walk back into the main part of the house. As I look around, I realize that Sam, Dean, and the Doctor are nowhere to be found.

Nope, not letting that happen. "Hey, where's Sam and Dean?" I ask the red haired woman. She points out the window and says, "The Doctor is in the backyard putting them in the baby swings so they can watch Wyatt (my little cousin), you can go outside and see them."

Well, this I wouldn't miss for the world, so I run outside where I see a children's playset. Sure enough, there's Sam and Dean, each sitting in a baby swing. It's the funniest and most adorable/pathetic thing I've ever seen. I walk up behind them and start laughing, but they don't seem to care. I say to Sam, "Aww, does wittle Sammy want me to push him on the swing?" to which he replies simply, "Yes." Well, I wasn't expecting that answer, but I say, "Oh...okay," and start pushing.

Eventually I stop pushing and just sort of lean up on him and rest my chin on his head as I watch everyone else bustle around outside, setting up a big outdoors picnic table for dinner. That's when I remember that the Doctor is still around here somewhere, and I still wanna go to the beach. I spot him standing outside, still distracted by his sonic screwdriver. I leave Sam and walk up to him, angry that he's not paying attention to anything else.

I say, "Doctor, you really need to pay more attention. Can't we please go back in time to when the beaches were open? This isn't a very fun trip." He just looks at me and says, "Sure, but can't we eat dinner first?" As I look over, I see the table being set. The food actually looks surprisingly good, and eating food in a lucid always helps stabilize, so I sit down and start eating. There's turkey and vegetables (or so it appears). I start to try to eat the turkey, but it's really hard to cut, and I ultimately fail. Everyone else seems to enjoy it, though.

I'm about to give up on eating and just leave, but then I wake up.

I just remember thinking, "No no no! I'm not done yet!", but as I reviewed everything in my head, I realized that the dream was very long and vivid and I could remember a lot from it, and that's a success for me. Yay!

Failed a WILD attempt today, probably due to lack of focus. But after getting up to move my car, I realized I was still pretty sleepy. I went to lie down for a while and ended up having a DILD instead. However, the lack of focus meant that I forgot about my dream goals and simply went along with the plot.

I walked through a store, trying on shoes. Narrowing my choices down to two pairs of heels, I selected the red pair with the higher heel. I made sure that I had two matching shoes before heading to make my purchase.

I moved onto a different shopping center that had a large outdoor area. After quite a long walk through an outdoor courtyard, I reached the interior. I'm walking down a flight of stairs when I realize that my shoes don't match. The left shoes is the style I picked out, but the right shoe is the style I rejected. I worry about how I'm going to fix this. The best option seems to be to rush back to the other store and exchange one of the shoes. But I don't want them to not take a return because the shoe looks worn. I take off the right shoe, put on a thick sock, and walk off wearing one high-heeled shoe and one sock.

Once I get outside, there's a large crowd that is blocking the exit from the courtyard. I can't seem to get through, but I explain my problem and someone offers to help me. She has a large camper in the parking lot and takes me there. She brings out a chest of drawers from the camper and tells me I can swap my mismatched shoes for a matching pair. I open the first drawer and recognize my own clothes. If these are my clothes, then I must be dreaming. If I'm dreaming, then I'm confident that when I open the next drawer, I'll find my matching shoe. Once I have the shoes I want, I leave with the woman who helped me. She takes me to an apartment in a warm, sunny city. I think it's Miami. I see something odd reflected in a mirror on the closet door. Turning around, I see that there's a small window. Outside the window, I can see large whales swimming down a narrow canal. They don't look like any whales I've ever seen before -- very large with a flat head that doesn't look like it makes them very aerodynamic in the water. Instead of swimming, they move forward by leaping through the air.

I turn away from the window. Near the entrance of the apartment, there is a group of people gathered around a woman. She is a victim of domestic violence and they are trying to clean up her injuries. I notice she has a Nintendo DS in her hand and realize that I have to reset her current game to help her. But when I reach for the console, the others yell at me. They say that I can offer my advice, but I shouldn't reset the game for her. It has to be her choice.

In this dream, the challenge that my school made me endure had been extended, and there was a bunch of imagery relating to Majora's Mask. Eventually, I got told I had to make a 75 page brochure. This resulted in me somehow becoming lucid, and I said something along the lines of "F*** this dream, I'm going to wake up!" And then I did wake up.
This was the first time I even attempted waking up from a dream

I was walking around outside my house and I looked at my shoes which had been cut into pieces. Most of the pieces were gone because I had ate them sometime in recent history. I was a little perplexed by this. Why would I eat my shoes? And how would I go on runs from then on? It slowly came to me that I was dreaming.

Ok, I am dreaming. I walk into my kitchen and just try to look around, but things are a little strange and flickery. I pick up my passport, which is covered in strange words, and page through it. I go through it backwards and it looks like a strange book. I get to the picture and it is changing faces about 5 people per second. I recognize my friend Grace's image there. Okay that was weird. I go outside an decide to fly. But I really take off this time. Like a rocket! I end up about five to ten thousand feet above ground. There are lakes below, and I feel myself start to stall and return to earth. I face my palms to the ground and decide I can go higher. I take off again, I watch a tree in the distance turn into a dot, then the same happens to the planet. I wake up.

I went in and out all night tonight because of the crazy heat. However! I reached my deadline... I got a taste of Lucidity again. It didn't hit me like a brick in the head like the very first one I had, but it still had the "click" to it. However the dreams all leading up to that point weren't all happy. In fact the first one was very much like the one before where my Dad goes nuts. Which I still don't think he is capable of. But I don't care about that right now because I said I would, and I got my lucidity started again in the 3 weeks limit! If I remember how it went before; I kind of tripped the first time, then a couple nights later I got it completely but got so exited that I woke up. Now lets just hope I can prevent that this time. I'll update this later. but I just wanted to give the current news.


I didn't write that one down fully because I was on the wrong page. And I had a hard time keeping awake. But despite the weirdness, I do remember either thinking that I went back in and out of the dream to get answers or I did go in and out. I remember dad coming in and getting a little ticked, but nothing that seemed to hint that it would get bad. Then the rest is gray after that. The most vivid part of it all now was when I was in the car parked in the garage with mom. and we were both talking in what seemed to be in the middle of the night. This was after I saw the ambulances and fire trucks and wondering what the ambulance was here for? It was late at night too. In the car mom told me what happened and when it got to a certain point I fazed out, then I told myself "I need to ask what happened to my brother." then I fazed back in. She told me, but it was hinted. Either way I understood what it meant but it wasn't sinking into my brain all the way. Then I fazed in and out a couple more times and that was it. Basically, Dad did something and it was fatal to my brother. I hope this isn't another fun campaign my brain wants to go on. I'm getting tired of those. When I woke up before the 2nd part of the dream where I fazed in and out, I realized 2 things; 1: I was sleeping on my stomach, and two, I needed to write this down. I failed and knocked out lol.

The next dream had fireworks in it that were going off in the dead of night. And there was a red-ish hue to everything that could be seen outside that dark night as I sat on the pool's step ladder that was placed up against the wall in our back yard. The wall over looks a backlot. I was there looking at the fireworks that were being set off through out the city with my dad and some other guy in a black shirt. The fire works in the distance were just going bonkers, no choreography, or anything just madness. Then a bunch of guys in 2 groups came up in our back lot behind our house as we were looking and they were on both sides of the field and started to run at each other. Then they set off their own fire works and fired them at each other. the flying rockets that looked like little flaming balls of colors and sparks lit up and flew across the field and some even bounced and sparks trailed behind them. They were like those spells in Harry Potter. And both me and my dad both agreed while saying "oh this is smart" sarcastically. As the war of Jubilee just got started in front of us. But a few moments or seconds later the fighting rapidly became worse as more explosions went off and fireworks went flying everywhere. Then as the fighting raged on, suddenly, a field of some sort materialized in the center. It was reddish, orange, and it had Japanese brush-strokes on it. It look ed like it was from Okami. As it grew and began to engulf the field as it spun like a swirling globe I yelled for everyone on my "sane" side of the fence to get inside. And we did just that. We entered our dark house and as I went in and looked through the windows with my back facing (but not touching) the opposite facing wall, I saw that the field was literally up against the wall that we were at just about a few moments before. The field was bright, and it looked like a red sun. It continued to engulf our fence, then it continued on our sheds, then it roared or made some kind of loud continuous sound as it advanced to our house and started to rip it apart (thankfully I couldn't see it). I started to run with everyone else to get the hell out of there, we were driven out into our front yard as it grew behind our house and destroyed it. Everything that it was doing behind our house couldn't be seen, but I knew in a few more moments the entire face of our house would disappear in it too. I woke up again, then I tried to continue to write after I took off my shirt but I K.O.ed again XD.

This next one is the one I obtained some lucidity. But thinking about it now; I think gore maybe a dream sign for me as well. I think this because it has happened more than once now. Rather it is as settle as ambiance in the night, or it's in my face, there is violence in some of the dreams that I have, if not gore. And while it may not be as bad as others here in dream views. The gore is bad enough for me.
There was a little city in my room that was in the middle of a desert. In this city there was a bunch of stuff happening, but I only remember so much of it. There was a cat that was building part of a school in this city. He was a cartoon character, but I don't know who. He was using this weird material that worked like some kind of jello goo. And the cat wanted to use that goo to scare some kids. He was going to stick his fingers and face through it so it would show his profile on the other side. Much like the ghosts moved through the walls in the movie "The Haunting". But 3 strangers came up, one of them being a female, and the cat wound up getting killed and hung in that hallway. And for some reason he had no fingers, just stubs. Before or after the killing the female asked "You know what happens when _____?" (I don't remember).

After that the dream switched somewhere else in the small dusty city. Afro Samurai was outside with bandages wrapped around his waist and on his lower abdomen. He looked worn out and tired. And he explained "I don't want any more blood."

Then the dream switched again to another guy who was leaving the city. But as he was using his car to get out, others were chasing him through the desert. But he lost them behind a very large rock formation. His car was trying to catch up with a jet and he managed to get into the jet by driving into it so hard that it hit the back of the cockpit wall with a large thud after it flew in through the back hatch. They then followed through with their plan to nuke the place.

This is where the dream starts to turn in my favor;
The dream switches from arial view of the place being nuked to my view as I walked around the miniature city, and out of my room to get away from the nuke's little shock wave so I didn't get radiation from it. After closing the door I looked through the crack at the bottom of my door and waited for the dust to block out the sunlight that was shining through. The dust did just as I thought it would. But after that, 2 sets of black dress shoes, formal creased pants that were also black, and black socks appeared behind the door. I got up and walked away from the door. I knew what they were, they were agents from the matrix. Then it clicked, or I think it did. I suddenly couldn't tell if I had woken up and went back in or if I was just making things up because I might have been awake. But either way, I must have something for randomly shooting Kamehameha waves because that was the first thing I did before I jumped into my room and started fighting them. However, the wave did nothing but fire off and disappear silently like a ghost. Everything that we were doing was hard to make out as we were fighting. And it felt so fluent that it was like watching a movie. Was that me or my dream self? I then remember wanting to switch the fight into another style as I was doing a flip from the wall to the ceiling. I then realized that doing so may be dangerous because I felt something. I feared that I may lose control so I switched the fight back and continued. After that I don't know. I think I woke up.

In a nutshell, the entire night, all the way until I had the morning sun shining through my window was nothing but-

First Dream:
Brain: GET UP!!
Me:.... Crap!! Gotta write that!
Brain: no!
Me: But-
Brain: No!
Me: But-
Brain: NO!! GO TO SLEEP!!! BAM!!
Firework Dream:
Brain again:GET UP!!
Me: ... Must...wirte...dream...
Brain: FUCK THAT GO TO SLEEP!! *Head butts*
Actual Sleep:
Brain: GET UP!!
Me: Alright! The sun is out! I got it this time! *grabs pen*
Brain: *PFFT* Yeah right! GO TO SLEEP FUCKA!!. *Hits me with a chair*
Brain:Trolololololololol!
Third Dream:
Me: HEY! Partial lucidity!
Brain:..... I let you have it....NOW GET UP!!

Most of my dreams start the exact same way. I submerge out of a tank of water. Once my head comes up from the water, it begins. I was in an abandoned apartment complex, and I knew I was dreaming. I had no real control of anything. I heard someone yell "zombies!", so I decided to just go hide in a room and try to wake myself up. As I went into a door, I locked it. Once that happened, I felt a minute of calmness. I then heard some quick feet coming from the hallway..

I held the door because I was scared it was coming towards me. Clearly it was. Then I hear some scratching, and a piece of paper gets slipped under the door. I read it, and it says "Hello" written in blood. I look through the peephole, and I see a zombie. It looks at me, and knocks the door down. As I get squished by the door, I woke up. That was followed by some sweet sleep paralysis which took me about 5min to wake myself up.

*I never understood how people though of so many ways to reinvent zombie movies and shows.. but clearly it's in the dreaming process. Last time I checked, zombies couldn't spell. It was a neat nightmare nonetheless.

I went to an art fair which was more like a competition between two people; comparing who creates better and faster arts in restricted time. I need to make 3-4 pieces of arts in one theme with restricted materials; paint, pastels, crayons, few fabrics and markers. It was a long, time consuming fair that bored everyone except competitors; me and a lady dressed in a white one-piece outfit.
The lady had a theme of Cinderella and I had Snow White. I quickly had a glimpse of her painting. She’s painting a scene where Cinderella is wearing a passionate red dress, dancing the tango with a prince with manly mustache. She was blossoming white foam like frill dress from her milky hands; decorating her inner skirt, like a seductive rose.

Hey, wake up~

How did he even sense me? This blind old man seems to have a superpower.
There is a unique system in this fair called Helper. They are an adviser, watcher, supervisor and helper for artist who will assist beside till the end of the competition. Helper over there looks a bit clumsy, but is a ‘normal’ person; carefully advising, where as mine is a blind old man. I do not have anything against blind people, but… a blind helper in an ‘art fair’?

Wait… … maybe he’s Jedi Master… …

I have two more pieces to go, but not enough time. The lady has only one more to go… I’m in hurry. At this point I need someone to finish this. So I asked him for help.

He snorted with squinting eyes, and said.

You do it.

14.07.2012

Running in the Rain (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember being in an old house. I think it was some sort of China house, with pagodas on top. I remember walking outside the backdoor. When you walked out, you were standing on a platform about 10 feet in the air. there were steps going down to the right side of me.

Suddenly, a gigantic monster comes out of nowhere. He's taller than the platform where I stand. He charges at me. I scream and run back inside, squeezing through the door.

I come through the house and out to the garage. I find my family and others gather around picnic tables. Light music was playing around. The garage doors were open and I could now see that it was a light drizzle outside.

Suddenly, a thought occured to me. I MUST be dreaming. I did my nose RC, and I was! The thought that occured to me first was to get away from there. I looked outside at the rain again, deciding. Well first I should probably put on some shoes. I looked down at my feet. They were a light yellow color. My hand caught my eye. My fingers were bent up in a weird way. Disgusted, I looked up.

I closed my eyes, and tried to "feel" shoes on my feet. No luck. Whatever, I can run barefoot. I ran out into the rain, feeling it's wetness slapping my face and neck. It felt pretty real. I felt the concrete under my feet scratch against my heels as I ran down the driveway. Once I came to the end, I looked to my left, then to my right. Which way should I go? I went right, so I would be heading to the end of the neighborhood.

I starting running as fast as my legs could carry me. Faster, faster! I was so fast. It was exhilarating.

I was almost at the end of the road. I saw a large car lot, like the ones you see in town with the ribbons/flags streamed across the lot. It was placed in an odd way, it wasn't supposed to be there. I saw a small tarp in front of me, I decided to pick it up. The wind started to pick up. I remember reading someone's dream on how they flew on a tarp, like a hot air balloon or a parachute. I ran a few feet and then jumped, my hands grasping the two corners across from each other.

The tarp picked up a little bit, making me glide over to the car lot. I looked below me. Not 3 feet under me were 3 Mustangs (light blue, lime green, green) going backwards on their own, all connected on top of a tarp. The wind was blowing much fiercely now, so the tarp under the cars was screaming for release. I hovered back down to the ground beside the cars. I wanted to fly for real. I bent down, and then tried to jump up. When I did, I heard an "Ow!"

(This part was very fuzzy. Apparently I "woke up" in my room and hit my mother [she was beside my bed] because I jumped up in my dream. I think this was an FA, because I don't remember doing anything else after "hitting" her.)

I woke up for real and my mother was standing over me, saying that she was leaving for work.