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Night of the 17th:
Fragment 1 - Me and hubs are at the dollar store for some reason. I deiced to buy a few platters and something else. When the lady rings me up it come to 1.24. I guess the lady asumes i dont have any change and thinks i am going to give her 2.00 but i tell her i have the .24. I end up giving her .25 and telling her to keep the penny. She looks as me funny and i tell her to giving it to someone who neds it next or to throw it on the ground and make it a luucky penny for someone else. When i get to the car i see a bag of stuff hubs bought. He tells me it is presents for my bday.

Dream 1 - I am walking around a house at night with some girl. She has a camra which is also a xray type of thing letting us see through the walls. Every thing about this dream feels like a nighmare but it is not too scarry for me. We use the camra to look into the house we are by and see a pool of blood with a trail going into one of the other rooms. I tell her that is enough and not to follow it. We walk around the house when the feeling something is after us hits. If we do not get under cover we are going to be attacked. We try to get into the house but it is locked.

As we are banging on the door trying to get it to open a midget comes running around the cornr of the house screaming in terror about something. I tell him we are scared as well but if we stick together we will be fine. At first i tell them we need to find somewhere to hide, but there is nowhere to do it. So i then deiced to use the house as a kind of wall and put the midget in the corrner of the house followed by the girl then me first so i can fight off what ever is coming. After about a minuet waiting in fear i deiced this might not be a good idea after all and tell them to follow me. We run towards some other housed that i can now see. When we get to the house it is now daylight and the ameatit threat of what ever is after us is gone. I ask the people of the house if we can stay there and hid out with them, but they say they have too many other children to proect. I decied since it is day light to run since i see a forest and mountains in the background. A woman warns me to stay away from the freeway otherwise the beast will bpick up our scent and be one us quick. With that in mind we start running again.

About a mile down the road i stop and say screw this part of the dream and turn to the two dc i have in tow and ask them if they want to go flying. They say yes so i put the girl on my back and hold onto the midget. We all tak off into the air. Once above the clouds i am starting to get board with the dream and deiced to try to full fill my secend step task and fly into outer space, but i do not brake orbit before the dream fades and i wake.

Night of the 18:
Dream - I am trying to remember the fragment before this dream, so the dream starts off showing me hubs, but all the people are asian looking (we are not in rl) i make my way into some bathroom. While looking into the mirror i see a girls face behind me, but when i turn noone is there. I start to get mad then get pissed saying i know you are there and just because you refuse to show your self i will not be afraid of you. This time i turn around and the girl is there. She says something about needed help because some beast or something is after her. I grab her and run out of the bathroom. When i get to what i am guessing is the living room i try to get the dcs there to help me protect this girl. They just all sit/stand around looking at me like i am crazy. I give up and go outside. When i get out side this bid green lizard like thing attacks us (no not godzilla, more like a moss covered camono dragon ) I disspach tfhe monster with no problem. Now the people in the house and other out and about run up to me and say the beast i killed was a guardian or something and the girl is the evil on and the only way to kill her is to use the guardians blood since it is like acid. Do i pool up some of the blood and put the girl into it which is now like a small doll.

Hi everyone.. has been a really long time - over a year actually since I made any new posts, I would guess most the people here now are new users who wouldnt remember me, but to those that do.. Hi!!

Some dreams just cannot go unrecorded.. It should be noted that i am currently using nicotine patches, because I am trying to kick my filthy habit! (BOOOOO!!!) and that they have dramatically changed my dreams, made them more vivid, more memorable and more realistic- However.. I wouldnt advocate using them for this purpose as all you will end up with longterm is a nasty nicotine addiction and an empty wallet.
And so to the dream!
I was in a bar, propped at one of those really high tables, distracting myself from looking like id been stoodup by digging through my bag as if i was looking for something, every item in my bag was purple( its my dream colour- always has been) I do that for a while and finally cease, reaching instead for a pack of playing cards from the other end of the table, i open the pack, fan them out and all of them are purple too, standard cards in purple tones. I unfan them as if to put them away and they set alight, I dropped them, stamped on them, when i look back up my friend has arrived. We sit and I tell her about my day- that I knew of a warehouse full of designer goods that some local mob has been whispering about doing over. I suggest to her that if we followed behind them we could maybe grab anything they dropped without them seeing us,and just skim a little cream off the top of their hard work,she is hesitant but agrees and we set a time and place.
The dream skips to the warehouse and i am sat outside on a parking barrier swinging my legs. It is pitch black yet I can see very clearly.Im getting annoyed- she is clearly late. I sigh and am about to give up when I hear footsteps, I cup my hand around my eyes as if there is sun and there appeared two men- they were actually the gay couple off that show "modern family"- kind of irrelevent but made me go "huh?" They dont see me sat there and walk straight into the warehouse via a side door with no caution or hesitation. I wait a few more minutes mostly in hope that they might be the ones doing the place over and that surely they would grab more than they could carry and drop something on their way past. She arrives, making no excuses and just waves at me to follow her through the same door, i try and dissuade her and she grabs me and says " no the police are here this is the only way we can go" I follow her in and we are suddenly in a dark, festering maze, a heavy smell of flesh making us each gag as we slowly walked, clung to each other, trying to breathe through our mouths, trying to breathe at all at one point. Suddenly we stop and freeze, she screams i just kind of stare and feel nothing much. in a puddle of blood and guts, were the two men, their bodys mangled and kind of wrapped around each other, one head severed and propped on the others chest, the other head had been seemingly flung to the other side of the tunnel. Momentarily one of their mothers appeared and did that painful scream you often hear on movies when a mother looses their kid. But quickly she vanished again and so did we.
random dream kicked in: I was jumping on a bed with my neice, the dog jumped on the bed too, we were laughing, the room was purple the bed was purple , everything else was black. we jumped and then everything vanished but me. I cooked mac and cheese and then i was in jail.
I was walking through town and had stopped to look in a travel agents window. I turned around there was my sister in law, who happened to be in the police and in full uniform,i greeted her warmly she looked at me cold, said she was arresting me for the murder and dismembering of two police officers, I tried to explain to her that I had nothing to do with it, We were just there and saw the bodys but was nothing to do with us, she didnt believe me, and led me to the police car. I got in and my friend was already in the back. She couldnt get her seatbelt done up. the police officer helped her. My friend and i smirked at each other,we were scared but kind of excited, new experiance? We stopped at a cafe, the officer got out,her hair was purple. she went inside and we could see her on the payphone through the window. she was smiling and chatting calmly. my friend and i got our storys straight..for some reason the story we agreed to was chalk and cheese to what id dreamed about in first half but it seemed to be what we both believed had happened- that we had been in the warehouse trying on costumes for a play and a woman with a knife had welded it at us and then killed the men. The police woman came back out, calmly got in the car and drove each of us home, my friend first and then me. My brother knew all about it when i got in and i assumed thats who she had called. he laughed and joked about it as if it was no big deal. he was unphased completely and made me beans on toast in seconds and placed it infront of me. I confided in him that i was starting to think maybe it was a dream and we hadnt really seen anything,he informed me it was not and reccomended i sleep as tomorrow i would likely be arrested again. i obliged and instantly appeared in my bed i closed my eyes.
I woke up then.. and had to pinch myself that it was all just a dream, I was so glad it was, i did my usual (actual) routine, brushed teeth, put kettle on, oh my brothers here " morning" he said " you look happy" i said "sure why not" he then mentioned prison and i cried. i honestly believed i was awake and in reality, i was horrified that i had " really experianced it all" I paced all day waiting for the police to come get me, I kept repeating over and over " it feels like it was all a dream, i dont think it even happened? am i going mad?" various sentances along those lines. the waiting period.. actually felt in my dream like hours and hours of pacing. It was awful.
Then suddenly ( thanks to my very bouncy puppy and very noisy alarm clock) I actually did wake up, and for many minutes laid and stared and tried to rationalise it and fathomed that now i really was awake and yes it was all a dream, It did take quite some time to be certain of it though.
I wouldnt say my dream was particuarly fascinating in content but it is the first time that within a dream i have "woke up and said oh it was a dream" and this was definitly one of my best flowing and memorable dreams, and filled with details and consistency.
Also please excuse any bad spelling or grammar.. my objective was to get it down as fast as possible so i didnt forget any parts. Im sure i probably did forget some though.

I'm really excited because I had a terrific LD where I completed the advanced task for the month, and then had a "date" with a certain velvety voiced potions master hehe. But I was tortured first by a DEILD Demon. here's the story:

I saw Chris off to school in real life at 7:15 then went back to bed. I fell asleep and had some non-lucids that I don't remember. I woke up around 9:30 and was really groggy, so went immediately into some HI. Well sounds actually. I was lying on my side, and could hear voices in the room that I knew weren't really there. Then I felt the WILD vibrations, and felt the DEILD Demon "spoon" me from behind. As usual, I could feel him against my body, and his arms wrap around me, and took each of my hands. And it would be a romantic feeling, except he was growling. Like a mad dog! It was horrible. AND I had major sleep paralysis, and I almost never have sleep paralysis. I usually DEILD, and the dream chaining happens so fast I usually skip SP, or it's really brief and I barely notice it. But this time was different. I kept trying to wiggle, and press my butt against his crotch to have a little fun. But everytime I made any movement, it was so sluggish from the paralysis, and it would make him growl even louder. It was so scary because he was right behind me, and the growling was in my ear. I didn't want to piss him off too much, because I've had DEILD Demons bite me before. Plus I figured if I endured all this, I would eventually slip into a lucid. I went through several cycles of feeling vibrations, then the demon, growling at me if I tried to move, then I would partially wake up. I remember thinking to myself "I can't wait until I get lucid and hop out of my bed and this fucker will be gone!"

FINALLY I woke up in my bed, but this time I was lying on my back. I got up, feeling that dreamy lucid feeling. Then my son came into the room, looking about 3 years younger than usual, and I knew I had already taken him to school a few hours earlier. I followed him out of my room, and willed his hair to turn blonde, then neon green. Lol, I just had to be sure I was lucid. When we got to the living room, I got so excited because the lucidity felt really strong, not like I was about to lose it or go blind. I saw a mirror and looked in it for the heck of it. I looked like me of course. I widened my eyes and got really close, and the irises went all green and sparkly as usual. I looked at Chris and said "I gotta remember what it was that I wanted to do!" I couldn't remember the basic task, but I remembered the Pegasus task! So I went out the front door, and it looked just like a block on Swiss Avenue. There were fancy cars rolling by, and some people on horseback. I also saw a few horses with noone on them. I thought to myself that I could easily turn one of these horses into a Pagasus. So I went to this brown quarter horse and got on top of his back. I told Chris to wait in the front yard (he had already turned into a passive DC, you know, just kinda there. Which is good because I don't want to freak out and lose lucidity if I see something bad happen to my son, DC or not). So I told this horse very nicely, that he needed to grow some wings so we could fly around. He sprouted these small, triangular wings with brown feathers that matched his coat. I pet his mane and said that we're not going to be able to get off the ground with those. So he started flapping them, and the wings grew with each flap. He started to trot down Swiss, flapping the whole way, until it turned into a gallop and we took off into the air! It felt just like I would have imagined. I guess it helps that I've ridden horses IRL, so my subconscious didn't have to invent too much. We rose above the trees, but didn't go much higher than that. This is the moment where I gave him a name, BUT I FORGOT IT It was something cool and Mythological, like Orpheus or something. Or it might have been Bobby. At any rate, we flew parallel to Swiss for a minute or so, then circled around and came back. I didn't want to go for too long, because I wanted to do other things, so I leaned forward to make him land. I'm really impressed that I didn't get vertigo like I usually do when I fly alone in LDs. I think I just felt more grounded because I was sitting on a horse. Well, Pegasus Still, I didn't get those woozy butterfly feelings in my gut, so I'm super happy about that. We landed in front of the house and I patted the Pegasus's butt. His wings shrunk back down to nothing and he just walked off and rejoined some horses on Swiss like it had never happened. What an obedient guy, I couldn't have asked for a more tame Pegasus.

I saw Chris still in the yard. I said "Did you see that Chris!!" He said "Yeah!" We went back inside and I got excited again, because my lucidity wasn't going anywhere. What a treat! I paced around, trying to remember the other main thing on my list. To get some Snape loving. Teehee I know, I'm a goober. So I told Chris that I'm expecting someone over for a date so he needed to go to bed. Even before I finished saying that, I heard a knock at the door!. Chris disappeared into his room, and I went back to that same mirror and fixed my hair. But it was lucid magic: I just moved my hands around my head without touching a hair, and it all just piled on top of my head in a loose and sexy bun, with little ringlets trailing down my collarbone. Sweet. I looked at the window by the front door, and could see the silhouette of Severus Snape, peeking in to see if anyone was there. Impatient much? I went to the door and opened it, looking at my hands on the way, just in case. It really and truly looked like him. Normally I have to fix stuff but not this time. He said hello and embraced and kissed me. His voice was spot on. He did get kinda raunchy though. He sat down, whipped it out and demanded that I perform oral sex. I was obedient of course. After a moment he did start to slowly vanish away. Noooooooooo. So this is where I would normally shout and scream and stomp, trying to actively strengthen the lucidity, but this time I tried something different. I don't know why, it just came to me. I hugged him really hard and said "Say something!" My ear was pressed against his chest, and he said, in those rich velvety tones "It's ok, I'm still here" and I could feel his entire body return to its normal self. Kinda hard to describe. It was really vivid though, I remember the feeling of my face buried in thick black robes, and how his entire chest vibrated when he spoke, just like I always imagined it would be. Fuck this is a long post. Anyway, I resumed the you-know-what, and he started making these really hot grumbly groaning noises. Like, he was so turned on by what I was doing, he stopped me and decided to go for the gold. He pushed me down on a couch, and spread my legs apart. I was wearing jeans and he didn't bother taking them off. Or taking his clothes off. Somehow, magically, he just created a hole in the crotch of my jeans (damn I'm getting all bothered again just typing this). Talk about easy access hahaa! What a wizard. So he went to town on me (I'm trying not to be so x-rated here), grunting and groaning in that gravely voice the whole time. That's some hot shit right there I gotta tell you what. I came in like 10 seconds. He made a sound like he did too, but the dream was fading. I guess I was done hehe. He just kinda collapsed on me. I was touching a piece of the fabric of his black cloak, and rubbing it between my fingers when I woke up. And I woke up with a SMILE.

So I have never kept a dream journal before. Hopefully this helps in some way or another.

I woke up at about nine this morning after falling asleep at about five am. Usually when I manage to stay up that late and only get in four hours of sleep I don't dream at all, or at least I don't recall the dream. Yet, that wasn't the case, as I had the usual nightmare.

Running naked down a windowless and door-less hallway, I knew something was chasing me even though I couldn't see it. I always get the distinct impression that it's male. I ran and ran though the maze like hall till a sound stopped me like usual. It sounded like flesh scraping or rubbing up against hard stone. I was lucid this time and tried to change the nightmare by giving myself clothes which didn't work. Usually after I try to change one thing in the dream my pursuer catches me but this time I was able to try three things. I tried giving myself clothes, I tried to give myself a weapon -focused on a ball bat as it seemed simplest- and then I tried just shifting the scene outside. None of them worked and I would up getting caught by No Eyes.

No Eyes is a pale white gender-less corpse that is all twisted and contorted. It has eyes, only hollow pits. No nose and a ragged slash for a mouth as well as crooked rotting teeth. It never speaks, only hisses its breath between its teeth. Once No Eyes catches me it is always the same. I become hypnotized as it stares at me with it eyeless pits and hisses. Suddenly more corpses like No Eyes break through the ground beneath me. They are just like No Eyes, but they are not as maggot white and are considerably more decayed. They then proceed to eat me alive while I hear a male voice laughing from somewhere. Right as I am about to die, I woke up this time instead of cycling through the same nightmare more times.

Pretty gruesome. I've yet to figure out anything that I can do while lucid to stop the dream without triggering the climax of the nightmare.

Ah! Finally some time to catalog the last few nights dreams. I stayed up working and fell asleep in my street clothes I was in and out of consciousness for the earlier dreams, trying to gather the resolve to get up and actually get ready for bed. However it never came, :3_ so some parts are difficult to order correctly and there was a persisting sense of disorientation throughout. It's long but if you read nothing else of this, please read dreams 5 and 6 and comment on what you think.

April 13th, 2012

Dream 1:

I'm outside in this open park-like area [on the outskirts of a forest]. My dad and [apparently] one of my friend's dad {idr who} is there. It's day time [maybe sunny(?)] and the flat ground of the clearing is covered in short, light-green grass. Fully leaved trees are scattered about the area, their shade forming pools around their trunks {so I guess it was around noon}. I look around on the ground and see these navy-blue berries (slightly smaller and rounder than actual blue berries) pepper the the grass a few feet away from me. I'm bare foot and for some reason in a bit of discomfort from what I feel below my feet. It's feels like a multitude of small pointed things, similar to walking on a pile of twigs. I survey the earth more immediately around me. There are a few small twigs here and there but none directly underneath me. I then wonder if fire ants are the cause and again check the ground, this time with more care and alarm. A few black ants, a shade close to the navy-blue of the berries, march unorganized a few feet away. Now I'm really confused..



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Dream 2:

I'm in a car with my brother and a younger light-brown haired girl {I might know her in real life, but again I'm uncertain}. I'm on the passenger side. We pull over to the right side curb and stop at the girl's mail box. I reach my right hand out through the window and open the box for her. The head of the mailbox is the traditional half cylinder shape but its inside is anything but one would call traditional. It's a full panel of numbered buttons. She recites a long string of numbers for me to enter, "[628...--]", but I tell her to wait and that it's probably best if I weren't the one doing this because I don't want to set of her house's security alarm. She agrees. [We pull into drive way (?)}..

Day [3]:

{This dream's the fuzziest} This woman suggests to her boyfriend/husband that they should go "to their cabin in the woods". This Immediately triggers a connection to the recent, and very much unoriginal, movie title "The Cabin in the Woods" {I saw a brief glimpse of the trailer on youtube I believe}. It's vague but I know afterward the couple, and whatever company they bring, inevitably are chased down by psychos who torture/kill them etc. {essentially was just like "The Strangers", creepy masks, fall setting and everything}...





Dream [4]:

{This is another hazy part. I'm not quite sure, but I was an observer most of this} There are these people probably between 19 and their early 20s.They're looking to make a Paranormal Activity 4. Apparently, in all the movies prior in this series, the cast actually died as a result of the paranormal activity they tried to record on film. Of course at this point I'm thinking: "Okay now folks,..people DIED doing this and despite knowing this information..you do it anyway???" {I feel like if that really happened in RL, people would do what these guys were trying to anyway. Oh, humanity, common sense is no longer common } A young woman in the group tells one of the guys "that graveyard actually is haunted", as if it were local, and then continues to tell enthusiastically some experience she had there. This comment then makes me think back to a show I recently watched on psychics. A teenage boy said that he always sees this shadow man whenever he walks by a certain local graveyard and it makes his stomach hurt immensely..

Dream 5:

{Pretty sure this was a direct result of the last dream..} I'm in a living room similar to that of my old house. I'm sitting on the off-white carpet [with my legs folded under me]. My brother and our close friend, M, [and maybe another one of my best mates] are there sitting on either one of the couches or on the floor as well. My family's old, short wooden coffee table is to my left. It's half boxed in by our old love seat, long couch and single-seater couch just as they were in my prior home except the table is pushed out further away from the couches and closer to the TV. A fluffy husky-looking puppy is in the room with us. His fur is black and white. [I was just petting/playing with him] before all of a sudden the puppy starts acting strange, as if terrified, ducking under the table onto its bottom panel. He turns over on his back and starts seizing and whimpering, showing his white chest and curled white paws. I know something we can't see has a hold of him. Something dark and paranormal. I'm unsure of what to do, it's just so awful. I reach out for him saying, "It's alright, buddy..", but he jerks away, off the corner of the under panel and onto the carpet. He continues to squirm side to side crying. M and my brother are talking in urgent words, their voices overlapping in the chaos. I look behind me to see a large flat screen TV. It's displaying an all white back ground with some text in the middle of it, like a TV show title. I pay no attention to this because I'm focusing on what looks like blacker-than-night smoke, drifting out of screen view at the top right corner. I turn back to my companions and say "[I think] it's leaving". It seems whatever was attacking the dog released its grip. The small creature remains on his back but appears to be recovering. I, however, feel this overwhelmingly powerful and dark presence (very difficult to describe). I feel something start in my chest that forces its way upwards until it reaches my mouth in less than a second. I rock forward emitting resonating and blood scream. {It felt like what I can only describe as insanity..}



Dream 6:

[I wake, walk out of my room] and then slowly make my way down the hallway, dazed and still a bit disturbed. I then hear something from my right. It's a scream. It's human but unearthly. It sounds like several screams in one echoing cry. It startles me. I then hear a second scream, putting me in a state of sheer terror. I think "Oh no!! I must have fully awakened my psychic abilities and now I'm going to see dead people and life is gonna suck and--
but wait, what if I didn't wake up? What it I'm dreaming? I'm totally dreaming!". As I grab the stair case banister post and sling shot myself around to the top of the steps, I look up at the mirror directly across from me in the hall way. I think I see myself in it, but in the confused panic I can't make much sense of the blurry, dark grey figure in it. Everything's a shade of grey, not black and white, but as if it's daytime and what little light shining in from outside comes through insidiously dark storm clouds. All I can think now is "Get outside. Just get outside. Get to the front door!". I rush down the flight of stairs and fling the front door open. [Quickly closing the door behind me], I'm looking down when I take my first step onto the porch and ,at which point, I promptly close my eyes and think "Make it Fall. Wait, no! Summer!". I accidentally open my eyes as I'm rushing down the porch steps. I see grey skies and grass melancholy with patches of dead earth. I quickly close my eyes again and in a last ditch effort think "Blue skies! Happy!" but nothing changes.
I then see a mini-van in the driveway. My brother's in the driver seat. I see one of my best childhood friends, Marry, {whom I haven't talked to in years unfortunately} sitting in the back on the passenger side. My new train of logic at this point: "if my brother can't see me, then I'm dreaming. If he can, I'm awake and I'm suddenly hearing dead people". I go up to the drive side window. I wave my arms and scream his name several times, but he seems to be looking through me. He then, however, greets me as if he'd been spacing out momentarily and I let out a dramatic, "NOOOOooOOoOo!!", almost dropping to my knees {this makes me doubt my lucidity}. I then see Mary get out of the sliding door of the van and when she walks its front to the side I'm on, she's suddenly my friend M from Dream 4. I'm beyond confused and disorientated...

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream character talking
Green means notes

Got it? Great. Enjoy, and feel free to grab a bite to eat as you read.

Dream #1 Where is the love?

Im in a very huge house (looked like a mansion) in a bedroom with this girl who looks like Meagan Good. Im putting my pants on sitting on the side of the bed while she is yelling away at me. YOU NEVER SPEND TIME WITH ME ANYMORE!!! EVERYSINCE THAT DAMN GIRL SHOWED UP, YOU HAVE BEEN OFF TO ONE OF YOUR STUPID LITTLE MISSIONS!

Uh-huh..(putting my watch on) You make me so damn sick at times, whoo sometimes you make me just wanna PUNCH YOU!!! (She punches me in the arm) LISTEN BOO CHILL ALRIGHT!? Damn i told you im making progress here with this mission yo. Jeez relax. (Her arms are folding with the covers on her) She takes her foot and kicks me off the bed, while im bending over putting my shoes on. I hope she dies. What? (She rolls her eyes pouting her lips) What did you say? Cause..she keeps taking you away from me! Look...im sorry i keep running off like this, but i gotta make sure this gets done babe ok? Why does she have to be a female though? Like i said, she's the best at what she does. Here i want you to have somethning. ( i reach in my pocket to grab my totem) Here ( i place it in her hand. But babe, this Gem means alot to you, your mom gave it to you years ago to protect you. I know, i want you to hold on to it as a reminder that if i don't return, you'll have something to remember me by. (She tears up) Babe, don't say that! Look wanna see something? What? where are we goin? (Shes's in a red bra and red panties barefoot as im pulling her by the arm off the bed) You see the sun? (we are outside on the balcony staring at the sunset) Yes. You see that house? Yes. I built that house with my own two freakin hands. You see that car? Yes. (I think it was a dark blue cutless) Thats your car. Everything in this world is yours you know why? Why?

Because im God in this world baby, thats why (i put my arm around her as we stare into the sunset) dream fades.

Dream #2 Trigger happy.

Im in a shootout with some thugs, in some warehouse Natalia is there with me. Here take this extra clip. She's running ducking under tables and hiding behind scrap metal.
(Bullets ricochet off of the walls and scrap metal) I got something fo yall, I get up from behind the scrap metal and my Adrenaline is rushing thru my veins. Everything is going in slow motion, (like the movie the matrix) im walking past bullets taking these guys out like nothing like im shooting fish in a barrel. (Explosions and intensity fills the room) LETS GO, LETS GO!!!!! YES, YOU ARE AN ANIMAL! TAKE THEM OUT!!! (She sounds a bit turned on by all this) Ok, so this is obviously target practice BRING OUT YOUR BOSS! (All of a sudden this big Ving Rhames lookin cat shows up crackin his knuckles) Lets kick this thing up a notch chief. Lets say we do this shit ol school no guns and rumble it out? lest you scared to get cho ass whupped in front of that beautiful italian honey you got rooting you on hm?

(I throw the gun down) (Natalia talking ) Fuck is the matter with you!? SHOOT HIM!!
No, im gonna beat him at his own game.

Dream #3 Gold is the final level.


(This fight i had with Ving Rhames was one of the most intense fights i ever had in a dream) He was basically beating the hell outta me at first. But eventually, I ended up Glowing gold when the odds were stacked against me. He looks at me as im layed out on the floor. (Ving Rhames talking) I knew you was weak, you a charmer for the women man. you ain't no damn fighter! if you was my cellmate back then, mm i would've made good use outta your cute ass. (I get up wiping the blood away from my mouth) You sure do talk alot, im not done YET!!! LOL. You got heart chief, i give you that much. But i gots things to do and you holding me up. (He picks me up by my neck with one hand choking me) ARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH! (Im trying to wriggle free but his grip is to strong) (I feel everything almost getting darker hang it up you did good Q you did good) I hear a gunshot. (I wake up) Uuggh. (I feel the dream fading i yell) This.....is....not....THE END!!!!!!!!! (Power is surging thru me the dream snaps back in focus)

Final dream IM A BOSS, OF ALL BOSSES!!!

(Natalia talking) I shot him in his arm to buy you time now pick up that gun AND SHOOT HIM!!! NO NATALIA!!! His ass is MINE!!! (Im in a stance like a Chi master warming up looking at the palms of my hands and feeling sparks of gold energy building up) Im feeling the earth vibrate, glass shatters, the walls crack my shirt tears off of me, my hair is draped across my shoulders a shimmering sparkling gold colour. Im filled with rage I run straight at him and take my right fist and jam it straight thru his stomach. (He vomits blood) I hurl him straight thru the building. (It is nighttime and we are near a cliff) he is crawling moaning trying to get up. Im walking towards him and stomp on his back as he lays on his stomach. Turn over and look at me. (I take my foot off and stand over him staring at his battered bloody face) The moon is full, it illuminates off of me. The water sounds calm, im calm. Im a boss of all bosses, never forget that. I decides who dies and lives YOU GOT THAT!?!?!? (He nods and catches his last breath he is dead) I stare up at the moon, the moon calms me. Wait min where is Natalia? (I run back in the ruined warehouse) Natalia!? Natalia!? Im over here. (Shes in another room located at the back of the warehouse. You Ok? Yea im Ok. You sure gave me one hell of a surprise. Yea. Sometimes i surprise myself. (We both laugh) The dream comes to a end and i wake up.

(Notes) This was one of the most intense lucids i have ever had! when it came down to it, I just made sure to remember that it was all a dream, and its not real no matter how painful the fight was. LOL! I shoul note that i did WBTB at 5:30 am, and went to do some subconscious training for about 20 mins. I woke from that dream at 8:24. And could not recall a single dream after that. Oh well, i was pleased with my results.

When I was about 9-10, I used to have this recurring dream. I would be lying in a partially darkened room because I usually had a nightlight on somewhere or my blinds open. But at the time it seemed dark.

I would dream that I had fallen asleep (which I had) with my left arm hanging off the bed. I would wake and realize something was watching me. I knew it was behind the cracked door. So, I would stare at this space behind the door.

Out from behind this door, walked a black cat, with huge green eyes. I didn't have such a cat at the time. He would seem friendly and casually walk towards. When he was just beneath my arm, he would lunge and attack my arm.

I would wake up.

This dream occurred for months. It happened the same way, every time.

Dream Type: Non-Lucid, Semi-Lucid, Memorable.
Dream Mood: Mysterious, Stressful, Eerie, Sad, Happy, Strange.
Dream Setting: My Hometown, Some Futuristic School, The 50's.
Dream Characters: My Mom, Some Old Guy, Random Classmates, False-Parents.

This was a long string of dreams that I had due to the fact that I kept waking up and falling asleep again because of a sudden and painful cramp I got in my lower back.

Anyways, as usual, the beginning of my dream is not quite present, though I remember my Mom and Me were at some sort of emergency of some sort and told some old guy to drive me to a hotel or something where she would be staying, though I was concerned of her trust in this unknown man. He was a Caucasian man with no hair and a long strangely beard. I got into a black, modern-day car with him, and we drove off but not to the hotel, but to my mother's house, where we cooped up in my bedroom and began eating and talking. At first, he was a bit of a jerk, though as time progressed, he became nicer, and even ordered me a pizza that came in an instant. My mom texted me, wondering if I had gotten to the hotel yet, and for some reason, I said yes. We then conversed on how we were going to get to the hotel. We never did get to the hotel by the end of the dream.

This next dream was very strange. I was sent to some futuristic boarding school of sorts, where everyone wore a tight suit that exposed their lower legs and their arms. Many things were quite futuristic, actually, such as the TV screens that were large and wide in our classrooms. I was in one of those classes, and a girl who I don't remember knowing was my friend. I was making a killing in these answers, getting almost every question asked by the teacher right, and once class was over, the girl asked me if I wanted to see a play she was in, and I agreed as we walked towards the front desk to see what time the play was at. I don't remember finding out though. Next, I was outside the school, and some guy was fixing something on the road as I watched him a bit, though suddenly, I saw a large truck, an 18-wheeler that for some reason drove on it's side coming his way. The whole truck avoided him, though the tires bounced up and down, and I realized one of the tires was heading his way, and as I saw one of them suddenly bounce a bit over his head, ready to crash down on him, I shouted "Watch out!" but it was too late, well, he didn't even react, but instead, the wheel came crashing down on him, putting his body into a round pulp of skin. I was shocked, traumatized at what I saw, and as the other's crowded around the mangled corpse, I ran, far away. I went on the road, making sure I was far from the school. I even went into the forest, and kept running and running, faster and faster. I eventually crossed a WWII airbase, and they began shooting, someone did at least. I realized that I was going to die then, so I wouldn't let them have the pleasure, and I jumped off the takeoff point, falling to my death. This was the end of my life, supposedly. Once I "died", I only saw black and a flash of some images that I cannot remember, but I was given the opportunity to start my life over, as if there was no heaven or something. And so I did, though I was given the choice of an era to choose.

The era I would choose to be born in was the 1950's. I can't say why, but I just chose that time. Still, there was no point where I was a baby or anything, but instead I was a child, more of a pre-teen really. I wore a red and yellow striped t-shirt and had short blonde hair, much like my actual self, and I had different parents, ones that were unfamiliar to me, and we were looking for a house in the dead of night. We found one eventually, and it was right by a dreadfully scary woodland area, though we didn't seem to mind, and without any caution to who or what was inside the home, we went in, and it was already furnished with all the things that we needed. Many things didn't seem like they would exist in the 50's, like cable TV with a channel guide built into the TV and modern-day cartoons such as Ed, Edd and Eddy. Still, we took the house.

I can't quite remember what happened after that, but what I do know is that there was quite a large gap between then and the next part of the dream, where it mainly consisted of me, my false mom and my false dad, who now lived in a very prestigious home with a large backyard and a horse statue in the middle of it, and not to mention the great view of a large green, grassy landscape. I can't remember what we were doing there, but we were there.

I've been having a lot of death-related dreams recently... I wonder what it could mean.

1) I was walking down the road and I saw my friend(hes in a lot of my dreams) tied to a string flying high in the air. The other end of the string was tied to somebody on the ground. I also saw a zombie thing standing there. He started to fly in the air on the string and he ran into my friend and they almost fell and my friend was very pissed. Then the zombie started chasing me and I was barely fast enough to get away but he was right on my tail. He was about to catch up to me but I did a boost thing.

2) I was at school and in my favorite teachers class(im there in a lot of my dreams) and I was supposed to do an assignment but I didn't feel like doing it. I went to the bathroom so I could get out of class and I saw my friend laughing at my other short friend. Then I was going back to class and the bell rang and I didn't get to finish my assignment.

I had sleep paralysis once. It was when I awoke in the middle of the night from some kind of stressful dream, though I don't remember what the dream was about. The dream did stress me out to where I actually willed myself to wake up from it immediately. That was so cool, I became lucid in my dream and used my lucidity to wake up from the dream!

I was awake in bed in the middle of the night, and I couldn't move, lol. So for about 30 seconds I'm lying there thinking so this is what sleep paralysis is. Good thing I heard about it before so I wasn't freaking out. I know I was still tired and it was the middle of the night, so I fell right back to sleep about a minute later. That was the first, and only, time I experienced sleep paralysis.

04.14.2012

Man with Cutlass, School Bus Lady (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Spoiler for Talking.....and annoyed.:

No luck with finding Kaomea. I swear, either I'm just too lazy with these WBTBs, or my body is in desperate need of sleep.

I have been sleeping late recently, especially on Wednesday where I stayed up until 3AM or so in the morning trying to finish some report and print charts and graphs that I probably didn't even do correctly because I was just trying to fill things in.

I'm really annoyed that I didn't find Kaomea, Alyzarin, or Melanieb. All this sleep just for hazy recall.

When I woke up, I remembered one dream, but I slept again, and then I forgot it along with the recent one. Then I decided I should just calm down and stay still on the bed and close my eyes and think about what I experienced.

Then I remembered one dream, "Man with cutlass" because of how intense my emotions were in the dream, and then the other dream, "School Bus Lady" because an image in my head popped up and I immediately held on to that thought to remember most of what happened.

Dream 1: Man With Cutlass

I'm outside somewhere with another person, and we're headed to go inside some random place, and we have to go through this hallway that would have two doors you have to go through.

There's a man chasing us, and I'm assuming that he's out to kill us.
He's Black, wearing a white shirt, has long Khaki pants, and probably one of those brown lace-less shoes, and is pretty muscular. He probably was wearing glasses as well.

I open the first door, which has one of those knobs you have to press down/up to open/close. The lock looks pretty stable, and when the guy tries to come in, he fails at first.

He still scared me though, because he looks like he's really trying to open the door. After the second time he tries to open it, he's almost there in getting in where me and some other DC are at.

I tell the other DC,

"We need to get the hell out of here!"

I dash to the second door, and open it quickly, and the man chasing us managed to get through the first door, and I quickly slam in the the second door because he's about 3-4 feet away from us.

The dream shifts to where I'm inside of a house, and it looks pretty familiar. I'm in the kitchen, which is pretty much one of the smallest areas of this house.

The guy in the white shirt is out to kill my mother and father, and it seems I managed to get on top of one counter, and I see the guy has a cutlass. My mother quickly exits through another door, and what's weird was that she disappeared instead of actually opening the door!

I guess she was phasing through the door, and the man stabs my father (I'm assuming it is him...).

Instead of staying still and being overwhelmed with fear, because I knew I was going to be next, I decided to go back to the same door I opened to get in here quickly.

I was in such a rush that I forgot what happened next, all I wanted to do was to get the hell out of there.

The man looked really similar to a person I know in waking life, he wore glasses just like the real one, except the glasses is what helped me figure out who he could possibly be.

Other than that, his visage was hard to define because the hue was a little too dark for me to pick them out.

Dream 2: School Bus Lady

I'm inside of a school bus, and I sit there for a while, but I don't know what I'm doing specifically. After a while, the bus stops, and the lady opens the door either with an automatic switch, or one of those knobs you push to open the door.

I take a look at the lady, and she looks just like a lady I know in waking life, let's call her "K." She was wearing a black dress, and she was turning around to see who has to come out. A few people come out, and it takes a few seconds for me to presume that I should get out as well.

Before she closes the door, I see a guy outside that looks like "J" with glasses who was #2 in a High School before I moved. I think he was talking to someone inside of the bus, and then I realized,

"Oh wait, this bus stop is closer to where I want to go!"

I get out quickly, and then I join James and some other dude he's with. The dream shifts to where we are playing tennis with just our hands.

We're not exactly out on a tennis field, just a random area that is spacious and doesn't have many things blocking us from moving freely. It seems we're inside some huge warehouse, and I throw the tennis ball at some random dude I'm playing with.

He's a bit slow, but we managed to get a few rallies going back and forth until the ball rolls under one of these large red containers that were stacked on top of each other.

I thought, "Awww man!"

But apparently, all you had to do in order to get it back was go to the left side, climb up and move one side of the red containers to leave a decent gap to reach for the tennis balls.

I can't remember much after that.

I was in a desert-like place, up against a chain link fence. There were several people with me, and a few people standing. I think they captured us somehow, and we were prisoners. They wanted to know something, but I had no idea what was going on so I couldn't answer it. Every so often they took someone up to the front and did something. First they grabbed a girl and slit her with a knife, then the next time they took another girl and cut around her face with an axe. It was really cruel and I was panicking. Soon there were only a few people left, mostly the younger ones. They had us stand up and hold a metal coil to our knees. They were going to pound it in with a hammer. The guy next to me said that it wouldn't hurt, but I didn't believe him. He was first, then I was second. It didn't really hurt, just a shock, but I still fell to the floor. I got back up and the pain was instantly gone. Then I woke up, and my knee (the same one that was just hit in the dream) had a sharp pain, but it went away quickly.

1983/82
Non-lucid/partial lucidness Dream
Memorable
Vivid
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After my Grandma passed away, I was very disturbed by her leaving this world. One night, I lay in bed and tried to imagine what she might be feeling - how would it feel to be 'dead'. With these thoughts in my mind, I fell asleep. As the dream began, I found myself swimming. It was probably a typical swimming pool. I tried to come up for air and found a see-through barrier preventing me from getting to the surface. I swam left and right to no avail.

The dream shifted. I believe I became conscious. I wondered how would one feel if they were dead? I began shutting down each of my senses. I figured one wouldn't be able to hear and then I could not hear. One would not be able to see and then I could not see anything but black. One would not be able to feel....and this is where it changed again. I felt cut off and isolated. I was floating (seemingly) in this blackness - all alone - without sight, without hearing, without feeling. I did not exist. No one worried about me. I had no worries but I had no joys either. And then...I became terrified. I wanted to mean something to someone. I wanted to be remembered. I wanted to feel and see and hear. I woke up.

*Afterthought: Looking back on this dream, I often wonder if I had not just gone to the void that I found after years of meditating? To a child, the void might seem terrifying especially if you don't know what it is. But when I found the void as an adult, it was peaceful. And because you are meditating and your focus is internal - not external - I don't hear anything, or feel anything, or think anything. I could have, if I'd wanted to. But the goal was to focus and clear the mind - clear them mind of all that is. Only after clearing the mind can one be able to hear other things and see other things. Before that you only hear what is yours to hear. ... your own noise. And if someone/something else was talking to you, you would never hear them above your own chatter. So, as a child, the void, if that is what I entered, was a nightmare. The unknown can be terrifying...

I am in my back garden with my hubby, a dog who is ours and a young girl. It's night time and there are alien robot things out the front and we can see them through the gully and hear the noise from them. We are all really scared and trying to hide in the garden from them. We cower down by the coal bunker, my hubby points and says "how do we get over there?" I look and say "that's our garden" and I'm a little confused as to why he didn't realise that. We hear a loud noise above us and we cower down more as we hide from whatever it is. I look up and see bright lights and suddenly a UFO flys over us, I'm so afraid and panick incase we have been seen. I hear the robots out the front, they are getting louder and are coming for us because they know where we are. I'm now in a blind panick and wake up, my heart is pounding and I'm so scared that I can't go straight back to sleep lol.

Old Dream from childhood....1980's (yeah, I'm OLD)

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My mother was driving my twin brothers and me somewhere at night. It was a dark two lane road and late. I felt really scared. All of a sudden the car breaks down and she tells us to stay in the car - she's going for help. She gets out of the car. Houses line the left side of the road. These houses are on a slight hill, but nothing that my mom can't climb. It's an easy grade. She heads toward the only house with a porch light on.

From the corner of my eye, I see dark figures sneaking up to her. I know they are after and stalking her. She starts to run and they chase her. I scream (and it comes out IRL). I open up the door and burst out of the car. I run toward my mother but she is already on the ground and the men are on top of her. They are holding her down and she is screaming. I am calling to her and trying to run. As I run, I pump my arms, willing myself faster. IRL I must have swung my arms too because I scraped my knuckles on my stucco wall and this woke me up. My knuckles were bleeding slightly and my dad was in my room. He apparently heard me scream.