non-lucid

I was with my sister in a really dark room. I remember her changing her shirt in font of me and she didn't have a bra on( her body looked like mine not hers). Anyways, I took her seat which was close to the tv but she got mad and kicked me out. I went to my spot which was all across the other side of the room. I sat on get floor with my back leaned against metal lockers. They were poking into my back and it hurt also I couldn't really see the tv so well.

The film was based in a true story about a boy overcoming a struggle (haha I am so sorry this very vague) all I remember is the boy was wearing a black shirt and he had to wash it. He was boasting about how it never faded( kinda like those laundry detergent commercials). The thing is though that the shirt wasn't very black it was more of a grey colour.

Then I was in a 3rd person perspective watching a man race in a mine cart track. He had to collect diamonds and other random trinkets. At the delegated stops he would hand them over to people who gave him a boost. I remember wanting him to win badly. Near the end of the race it got really close but the guy I was cheering for turned into a giant. His shoulders brushed against the ceiling and debris fell on his opponents. He also dropped a boulder on one person too.

Just to be clear, I don't have english as my native language, I'm norwegian. I'm sorry for the bad english, just don't hate me or kill me in your dream. that will be horrible. be nice and please tell me how Fucked up I am (btw, I'm very sarcastic when I say I'm fucked up. don't take It personally. I am horrible, I love blood, gore, horror, and what you see as a night terror or nightmare is my happy forever ending dream)


Please help me

I'll just start and tell you about my dreams. can tell you about one I had long ago.

I woke up inside the dream. the was total darkness, I scream and scream. I didn't know where I was or what had happend to me. everything was just too realistic. I scream until I got an answer from the right corner in the little total dark cellroom. it said " keep silent". And with my stupidness I scream and scream. two red eyes glared at me, from an finger distanse and turned the light on. what I saw was the most horrible and terror I ever in my life experied. I get shivers down my spine when I just thinking about it. he looked Like a demon. one horn on the right side of his forhead. sidecut, red eyes. long murder nails. skinny. blood everywere on him. around him there was bodies of people I loves and did love In the past. he had eaten everybody and Looked at me with hungry eyes.

he strangeled me and told me, " I did tell you that If you keep silent I'll go easy on you, but You stupid woman. I'll never seen so much stupidness in a Whore" (sorry the bad and horrible language I just recall what he said). He lifted me up in the air, with his had around my neck. he tossed me from the one corner to the upisite corner. when he was done. He put me down and said time for dinner. he grabbed one of my eyes and crushed it inside of his mouth. the pain I felt in the deam was too realistic. he throw up the eye inside my mouth and forced me to eat my own eye. The demon like man. he laughed so hard and lifted up an mirror and told me how pathetic I was. I saw myself. it was so horrible, I was so skinne tat my bones almost came out of my skin, my hair was so dirty and pilled up like regga poeples hair. the bruises and scars. this was one of my most horrible dream that when I woke up. I scream in pain and fear. but, most pain in my right eye.

Is this normal, to wake up because of the Pain in one dream? and yet remember it clerly after 3 months ?

Morning of January 27, 2014. Monday.

Dream #: 17,206-03. Reading time (optimized): 3 min.



I am in the distant future and about eighteen years old. I am in a control station where men are performing maintenance. The underground chamber is dark. There are three sets of tracks that interlink, in an arrangement of one above the other in some areas so that a train may be very close when passing in either direction above or below another. It is a bookcase-like framework. Groups of men cooperate to guide a big fire hose and are watering down sections of the track after some trains pass so that they do not overheat. I see steam everywhere. There is noise, and it is hard work. The population is dense, so underground trains must move across a big complex grid of tracks of at least three tiers. (Some of this was influenced by “The Bloodhouse,” a 23-minute documentary, about a week ago, about where my wife was born in Port Kembla, a town of surreal industrialization.)

Trains would crash into each other unless a worker remains vigilant, using a control box on a large column. It is like the duty of an air traffic controller but a faster pace. There are about four pudgy men on a break before checking the condition of some older panels and equipment of lesser use. I wander into the area, saying I am only looking around and enjoy learning from places I have not yet been. I explain myself because an older man (of about sixty), whose name is George, asks me why I am “back with humans” again because he recognizes me from when he was much younger, yet I was of the same appearance then. My presence seems to annoy him. I like George, but I am apologetic that he does not seem to like beings who are “not human.” He was part of a group of adopted children from parents whom aliens had abducted, but the adoption agency never revealed the truth. After their parents were back on Earth, their children never learned of this. (“George” is a play on “György,” my wife’s father’s name).

Over time, I witness a derailing. People talk about how to avoid them (influence from “The Bloodhouse” video). I go to a group who are familiar with adoption coverups. Polish people were also abducted. I want to find out about George’s parents so he might have closure. I use a machine that is reminiscent of an old disused video game kiosk to insert a device that is like a CRT monitor (but lighter) into a hollow section. I enter access codes. The history of the world is available. There are scenes of dinosaurs and flying pterodactyls and later, prehistoric men in a later era. I tell someone about a species of dinosaur that could speak, comparable to parrots. There is an idea, featured as a cartoon of low quality that the first “dragon” was a pterodactyl. I lived during these times and have vague memories of my prehistoric past.

I am now near a frozen lake. Athletic females are ice-skating as part of the “Ice Capades.” There are small groups of spectators, one of old female hippies from Nimbin who have at least two mermaid dolls among them; one with a green scaly tail, the other with a purple scaly tail. A couple seems in a trance as they can barely move. I decide not to approach any of them. I slide around on the ice on my stomach, mentally propelling myself forward at a slow speed at times, enjoying the iciness for several minutes. I eventually conclude that it is not that interesting, so I get up to do something else.

Details about blue and brown eyes become a focus. It allows me to find George’s father, who supposedly had brown eyes. I gather documents to reveal the parents of all the adopted children. Even though the people are all old now, they will have closure. I get the impression that George’s parents are still alive, so he will finally get to know them.

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Dream signature: Vestibular system adaptation with vestibular cortex activity (railroad tracks above me), melatonin mediation (workers watering railroad tracks), preconscious mediation (talking with George), thinking skills and consciousness emerging (entering access codes), dream state sustained (frozen lake), contemplation of vestibular system correlation to increase awareness of physicality (watching ice skaters), contemplation of water reinduction with awareness the body does not move while sleeping (mermaid dolls), willing vestibular system correlation (sliding on ice), REM recognition (focus on eye dynamics). Waking contemplation (George “returning home”).

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Journal Entry non-lucid #18 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background:

Dream fragment 1 from 7:40pm-2:14am" Circus Job": I was working at some sort of circus show. I had to work there to remain at the place. I saw some all around me from the stage smoke. Don't really remember the details.

Dream fragment 2 from 7:40pm-2:14am" Driving in freeway": I was driving in the freeway to go to church. My parents were right in front of me. Then we pulled over some place

Dream fragment 3 from 7:40pm-2:14am" Wrong Mother": I was in my house arguing with my parents. They told me to stop LD, they were both frustrated with me because of my refusal. And my mom was white, but I didn't notice. I went to my mother and she was trying to sleep, and I told her I love her and I didn't mean for the conversation to turn into an argument. She told me she loves me no matter what. I thought, "wow a mothers love is unconditional." Then I saw this creature or shadow pass by. I said what was that? she said what. I didn't see anything. I then did a cheap RC. A women from my church that got me sick was in my dream.

Dream fragment 4 from 4:30pm-6:34am" Acting like a dream": I woke up in my room and I walked to the kitchen to pick up some food. The women from my dream was in my house. I thought that is strange why is she here. Instead of asking myself I asked her what is she doing here? She responded, "I stayed the night at your place". I accepted her explanation and went on with getting some food. She was over there eating some chicken. She was talking about orange chickens. I then walked over to my sister who was washing some dishes. I looked at one of the forks and they were melded together with other metal forks. I didn't question that for some reason. These teenage boys were running around with this BB gun/ nail gun they asked me to pass them a clip. I looked at it for a minute. My father came home and I didn't want to show him what I have so I hid it and I hugged him. I looked at my dads clothing and he had this small and ridiculous jacket on. I told him about it. He said oh yeah i have another one. He takes out this huge jacket that was up to his feet. I then saw them run out my house. I went around the back to give them their gun which was black at first it turned full orange.

I put it in my pocket for later usage. As I was observing a swimming pool this old man comes and tells us to do something. I got mad out of nowhere and punched him. He got knocked out and I said, "he always disrespects us." This other old man was looking at me. He had a shady look and resembled a mobster. I clenched my nail gun. He tells me we have to talk. Then a bunch of old geezers surrounded me, they all looked like they belong in the mob. As I was talking to him I realized there was too much people in my house, so I took him to my parents house. I told him I didn't want to hurt him but he never respects us and he treats like children. He told me to forget about that and we will forget about what happen hear. His friend comes over and tells me to eat a cupcake to honor our resolution. I hesitate but I ate it. It tasted delicious by the way. Then when I was walking to dinning room they said wow that was some great acting. I was on a movie set. I thought wow, they need someone that is totally convinced that they are in the movie for them to get good acting, just like I believe I am in a movie I normally do in a dream. I then woke up and went back to sleep after using bathroom.


Dream fragment 5 from 6:40am-8:04am" Weird guy plays with feces": I was walking in my school. I came out of the food area. This guy pops out and I showed him animal feces and said isn't that disgusting. He said yes that is. It was different colors from different animals. He grabbed it and started smashing it together. He said, "does that bother you?" I said yes that bothers me a lot.

(I can only remember a glimpse of this dream)

I'm standing in this baby blue tiled room, scott and styles from teen wolf are standing in front of me arguing. I think to myself "why am I having this dream, this is a dream my sister would have". (YET I DIDN'T BECOME LUCID!!!!!!! >:O)

A Takarazuka production of Elisabeth with a new scene, in which Death is kneeling before young Elisabeth on the throne, kissing the underside of her wrist. Both of them are dressed in red; at the beginning of the scene, Death had been disguised in long red robes.

I can't remember most of this dream hardly

Dream Fragment: I'm watching this commercial, but not on a TV, like as if it's being performed for me in front of me. It's for anti bullying and when the adults talk to the kids the kids act concerned about bullying being a problem, but when the adults turn to each other and talk amongst themselves the children begin to bully and get evil looks on their faces with bad intent. They are manipulators, So I just fucking tune out and walk away and every one including the commercial adults get offended like I have no empathy. I just know better I tell them and look straight into the children's eyes, and they look back with surprise.

Me my mom and sister are in my half sisters room. We are sitting on the floor, suddenly the light goes out. I complain about how all the light bulbs are going out, and how we should really stock up on light bulbs. My mom says I know that's why me and zoeanne are going shopping today. I feel relieved by that. Then I see my mom splitting all the wood on my incense sticks. I yell at her and ask her what the heck she's doing. She tells me she thought it would be better because that's how my sister likes it. I tell her know the wood is to weak to even hold up the incense. I grab them all from her and put them in a cup. And try to light one.

I'm with mt mom, she's driving my grandparents redish orange car. For some reason I can't go in any of the car seats, I just assume because they have too much stuff in there. So I have to lay/sit in the trunk with the trunk hood up, and I have to hang onto this hinge thing to keep balance. My mom drives us to this shopping center. She's driving by all the store super slow, and I hear this loud ass girl about 13 years old with her mom, she's being loud so people think she's interesting or some shit. I'm displeased by the rashness of her voice and pitch. My mom parks and we get out of the car, and the girl and her mom are just walking up and down the side walk of all the stores. Me and my mom quietly go into an Albertsons and come right back out. I guess we are done with whatever we went here for. Then we head back to the car, and I hear that loud ass little girl coming, now she's talking to a friend who is only slightly less loud then her. Me and my mom begin to run to the car, she hops in the driver seat and starts the car, and I hop in the trunk and lay down and grab the hinge and we drive off and I hear that girls blabbering the while time.

The most awkward thing happened to me a few days ago.

I was actually surprised at myself after this dream occured. I had the most obvious dream sign ever and I still didn't manage to become aware/lucid. I had more than 5 fingers on each of my hands and all I did was look at them and I have no idea what happened afterwards.

And then after a few days, something strange happened as well.

I was in a dream, I actually became aware, I was lucid and I didn't get excited but my dream was fading away slowly and I could hear myself breathe and I thought okay that was it. But I think that it was just a FA because I don't remember waking up tbh.

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The thing is that my dream recall is getting better. Getting lucid is apparently becoming easier and easier, but there's one thing I've noticed. It's easier for me to become lucid when I'm at my chalet on the mountains. I don't know why but nearly all of my lucid dreams have happened there.

I'm walking about in a walmart. I realize that the store seems to be getting ready to close, even though it's bright daylight outside. I get to close to the register line and it sucks me in, I panic because I have nothing to buy, all I can grab is a phone book from the free phone book rack that is right by the register line. It's my turn up at the register and I drop the phone book onto the belt, and the worker give me a weird look and then rings the book up, I expected it to be free, but he says that it'll cost three cents. I think thank goodness I have a five dollar bill in my pocket. I get it out and hand it to him. At first he takes it then gives it back. I thought he was gonna be nice and just let me keep my whole five, but then he grabs it back from me and puts it in his register and starts grabbing change out. I don't mind that either, and I didn't care if he was going to gyp me, I just wanted to get out of there but he is taking a long time. He tells me to put out my hand and drops one by one a dime, another dime, a nickel, a quarter, then just drops the rest. Him and his friend lady co-worker begin telling me that walmart now only pays them a quarter per hour. And I said that's a fallacy. But then he bagged my phone book and I went for the exit and mumble then why do you work here? And the worker the stands at the door heard me and gave me a glare, and I just hurried outside and then took my phone book around the parking lot.

Today i dreamt i was in my school with my brother, he was
assisting my class for 1 day, no one ever knew he was my brother, i keep
talking with him and playing with him while i was in the class, teacher was telling me
to stop, but i ignored. when the break came, my brother went to some place. he told me
to be near his bag and stuff so no one would robber him, then i was looking for him.
i was on the library, but there was some guy throwing needles to baloons that a girl was throwing as well.
even in my dream i got far away from that noise, and went to search for my brother around the school, i left
the library, came down the stairs, and went to the 1st corridor where all those 4 doors are, i saw my brother
entering on the 2nd door counting from right and when we enter the corridor. he seemed worried about something, so i followed him.
when i opened the door as well, i saw him stopped and looking on that sitting walls, his friends were sitting there, i just knew diogo.
he went near them, but when he got near, they disappeared, we looked above and then a long trade truck passed by.
it had like 3 truck carriages. my brother was sad, and then he asked me:
"Where is our stuff?"
i completely forgot and went running with him getting our stuff.


Dream elements:

-brother
-in school
-diogo (my brother friend)



Technique used: WBTB

hours slept: 6 hours

1/25/14 saturday

Last night, bed 9:30pm - 3:40 am

DR 3:40am

I'm sitting in a small conference room. 3 people are next to me, 1 is sitting opposite to us. Simple, wooden chairs, brown. Like in some old pubs. Room is rectangular. I'm holding a clipboard, and a woman opposite to me is asking me something. I start to answer and I notice I'm kinda talking giberish. I realize I'm nervous. The woman is giving me an ncouraging smile and she is nodding her head.

I know I need to get my shit together. I have a feeling I was just named a new boss, to replace me old boss, that was transfered to new workplace. (IWL). This is a meeting of 4 top managers/leaders for the whole damn district. I'm not sure how or why I was named the boss, but I know I have to step up and prove them right.

After the meeting, we stand with more people, and I'm talking video games with one guy.

DR
There is a faint memory or another dream just before the one above. maybe it will come to me later

1. [Non-Lucid]
Was invited to my friends birthday party at her house.

We arrive at her house, upon entering nobody was around (the walls were painted orange I think), so I went out the back door into the garden, the garden had these metal wire fences scattered about the place so I had to navigate through them (some had holes that had been cut open) to get to the bottom of the garden where there is a shed packed with people talking and just hanging out having fun.

Was talking to my dad who was with me about me needing my harness off and on sometimes but he wasn't having it saying he would be far too busy to do that.

Fragments:
Following Emily back up to the house, its quite dark and we had navigate back though the fences.
Were in the house where I'm asked if I'm ready for dinner.
I see a small blue bowl with beans n sausages in it, and a bigger bowl behind it, all the while I keep hearing a noise. (I awakened to the phone ringing)

Tried alarm-based DEILDs starting at 05:00 but was too awake, didn't make it back to sleep after first alarm, eventually back to sleep at around 07:30, turned off the alarms.

05:30

+ walking on a beach. neighbor boy with mother is there too, his foot gets stuck in between some stones, I'm walking over the sand and over rocks in the sand.

+ work elevators. Walking past a group of people returning from lunch. On an outdoor path. The group starts pressing into me strongly and closely as I try to push past, I keep an eye on my bag to make sure nobody steals my stuff. I"m keeping an eye out for cute women in the group. Someone says "oh, my." I reach the elevators, there are about 3 elevators. There's a crowd, can't get on, elevators open on left, a tour group is there, they don't get on at first, tour guide says "the minimum age is 52."

A bunch of short dreams throughout the late morning punctuated by quick awakenings.

Somewhere in there tried a classical WILD, was reaaaaalllllyyyy sllloooooowwww to get relaxed enough, but eventually felt the beginnings of ragged breathing, jerking eyes, and an "all-body-buzz" which are my WILD noise indicators. No body movement hallucinations, felt a bit light-headed. Tried to remain calm but didn't make it into the dream.

08:00 ?

+ I find myself Looking at a wall of snow about 6 feet away right in front of me. The snow at the top level of the walll is the bottom of a ski run. I"m thinking about how I could try to jump down this wall on skis: how I would try to dig my ski edges into the sides of the wall, and I also think this may not work since the wall is more or less vertical and I'd probably just fall down, the wall is about 10 feet high. As the dream fades I realize I'm dreaming and try to get back in but I don't feel like counting it as a lucid since the visuals were gone before I realized I was dreaming.

09:30 (dreams from many earlier quick wakings)

+ walking past my elderly mother in the living room, she's sitting in a chair. Something snags her skirt and pulls it entirely off her, I'm trying to find the cloth and put it back, she's laughing, I finally can get a hold of the cloth and put it back in place.

+ I'm walking outside on a street with my son, lots of people outside. We're carrying a pet hamster in a glass. There's a pet store nearby. I want to go in and I say there will be a lot of cute animals there. My son is reluctant, he may be concerned that we'll lose our hamster. I look at the hamster it has kind of a shimp-like face with big black closely-set eyes. My son pours some water into the glass with the hamster. I look at it and say it has a stupid little rhinoceros-head.

+ plane crash. I'm in my car at the top of the hills. I see a large commercial jet plane flying overhead at the top of the hills, it's taking off and barely misses me, flying towards the water. I'm driving. I'm in my car then at the bottom of the hills and look up and see the plane flying, and looks like it's in trouble. It flies out over the water. I"m at a red light. I'm leaning forwards to see the plane in the sky through my windshield. I see the plane bank sharply and head back towards me on the land. The traffic light is now green. I drive out of the way so the plane doesn't hit me. I'm driving in water, to the left, the plane will crash land a bit to the right, I think I'll drive way out to the left in the water if I have to to avoid the plane. There are designated parking areas on a pier for the cars in the water.

I walk by the crash site and I see bodies floating face down. There are certified drivers who are diving to save the people, I see several. Someone says "oh, yeah, there's sharks." I think of course there are sharks there is probably a lot of blood in the water from the crash. I see a few people walking away in soaked clothing and I think a few have been rescued.

+ walking by a vietnamese restaurant, I'm outside on a boardwalk, there's a menu posted on a board, I'm reading it and see an item on the menu is called a "whiskey rim-shot." I also see a picture of a big bowl with red liquid inside and slices of hot peppers, I think it's a picture of someone's bowl after they've eaten and used a lot of red chili sauce.