non-lucid

Me and some random DC's, about 2 woman and three men are hurriedly walking through this cafeteria, it's dim and loud and it looks futuristic. Then we barge into this door and walk into this room that it brightly lit up, we all sit down, I don't know what's going on but I just float along, they're making plans for trying to find someone, someone bad. Then one of the guys shows us a video of who we're after on a little video recorder, we see in the video this blonde girl and this brunette guy who has this man strapped into a hospital bed, and they put a shot into him and say it's to paralyze him and that they need to to do experiments on him, then suddenly as we are watching one of the guy in our group seems enraged he points to the blonde girl in our group and says "That's you in the video!", then we all look at her, he says how could she because he became closer to her than all of us in fact he had a crush on her, she looked worried and innocent and kept saying we don;t understand and that she can explain, I got the vibe that she was right, because the guy who showed us the video seemed suspicious and conniving, and he had this dirty smirk the whole time the guy was yelling at the girl, so I knew we didn't have the full story and that it was probably necessary, then the girl said that the guy strapped up was a zombie and that it was necessary for the sake of all the people, but the guy who liked her was to infuriated and reached for his gun, and by the time we all looked back to her she had ran through the door that led to more brightly lit up lab rooms. They all took chase after her, and I followed, we got into a room that had three doors with windows, one door was from where we came from back into the lit building, one door that led outside to the left gated area, and one in front that led outside to another gated area. This room is lit with outside day light. The girl ran out the front door straight ahead, and she jammed it shut, me and the others realize it's of no use and importance so they go out the the left outside area. I stand in this a room a little longer watching the guy who loved her and the conniving guy angrily try everything to get into that room, she's just looking through the window with a pained look on her face, then she walks away. The guy who loved her climbs up the wall a bit to the vent that leads to her outside area and brakes the glass above, I'm not worried because I know she's probably gotten away so I lose interest because my interest was the blondes safety, so I go out the left outside door, and go sit with my comrades I guess you say. I see them sitting in the shade against the cool brick wall. Then we see the army commander on this tall stage area, he is so mad and he's angry about one of my comrades, he wants to kill him, I turn to him and tell him we need to sneak away because now the commander has ordered his men to search this area, so I grabbed him and we walked through this crowded area around the corner, I hear the commander yelling in a microphone that his enemy only has a shitty shot gun, and I look to him and see he has a sawed off shot gun, I realize this will draw attention to us, but surely he needs a weapon so we keep going into crowds of people trying to hide, then we hear the commanders men shooting multiple rounds into all of my fellow comrades and people begin to run in our direction trying to get away and we begin to run away as well.

I'm not in this dream, just zooming around spectating from different angles. There is three people and their clothes are torn up slightly, and they have blood and dirt all over them and their faces and arms. They're in this grass field that is meant to lead people somewhere, like the home stretch of a marathon race. There's booths, and plastic flagged string leading the grass field one way. One of the guys just sit in the middle of the field and then the other two a man and a woman go sit of to the side by a booth. This place is completely empty, but then I see a mass crowd of bloody zombies groaning and walking towards them. I look to them and wonder why they aren't running away. Then some zombies get up to them and the zombies seem to inspect them, then I come to the conclusion that the people must've put some sort of scent that blocked out their human scent and made them smell dead, so then the zombies start to pass them and continue down the race path, but then the guy who was off to himself gets up and starts walking against the crowd towards the other two and is talking. I cringe because surely the zombies don't talk and will recognize that as a human trait and attack them, but the the other two get up and walk all normally and begin to talk. I am stunned, and then this blueish zombie guy in a torn business suit walks up to my visual and gives me the deepest look and it expresses sorrow, I am shocked, and I am feeling empathy, then the zombie begins to speak, a bit slurred at first, he begins to tell me his life story and he seems saddened by it, I notice it's only his life story since being a zombie, it's as if he doesn't remember from before when he was a human.

I had a strange dream last night.

I'm in my apartment with six people who are my friends (but i don't actually know them they are random DC's). The apartment resembles mine, but is totally different than the real one. We are playing music, but the instruments don't make any sense at all. I don't recall what the others where playing, but i was playing....a piece of cardboard. (yes, you read that right and are not dreaming...or are you? Quick, do a reality check!). We where playing some kind of Jazz tune but i wanted something fast and more upbeat. No one wanted to play anything but that jazz though. I decided to take it upon myself, and started playing a different song anyways. The rest of "the band" ended up playing what i was playing. We began playing faster and faster, and every time we sped up it got louder and louder. It was getting to a point that i was getting really tired and had trouble keeping up but i was very happy, spinning around playing my cardboard. Right before the climax of the song, the dream fades and we are on a circular race track in the clouds. There are no clouds above the racetrack, just the race track being clouds itself. The clouds/track was a sort of really light Amber color, it was quite beautiful. there was some space between the racetrack and the surrounding clouds, so the track was separate. off in the distance there where black clouds, making a sort of ring around the entire perimeter. Me and the six friends began racing in go karts. The race continued on, and the faster the carts went, they started transforming. As we went faster the carts turned into "customized" karts if you will. They each resembled one of the Mane Six from My Little Pony. I had a Rainbow Dash kart, and i thought that was weird. (because Rarity is best pony). So the race continued on like this...i was having trouble taking turns now though because the Rainbow Dash kart was too fast. I still managed to continue though, and we all just kept going around around the track. At this point, the karts transformed again, and they where the actual ponies they resembeled. (my friend riding the karts where gone somehow). I was now riding on the back of Rainbow Dash as we flew through the air. The rest of the ponies just sat in the middle of the track and cheered us on. I was having so much fun, it was incredible. But, Rainbow dash kept going faster and faster and she wasn't even able to stay within the track anymore. We where doing large circles around the entire perimeter, just barely missing the black clouds. I knew where going to not be able to stay within the area if we kept going fast. I tried to tell Rainbow Dash to slow down but she laughed and said "yeah right".

I hear Applejack yell, "Don't go past the black clouds!"

It was at that precise moment, where, we went past the black clouds. There was a loud roar and my vision was shaking. Rainbow Dash stopped abruptly, and flew us back over to the Mane six. A giant Cyclops came out of the black clouds, and a Castle was being raised out of the racetrack. (castle on clouds, really cool to see.) The Cyclops began trying to swat at us furiously, while also destroying the castle.

Un-fortunantly this is where i woke up. That dream had alto of potential, too.

I should also note that i don't write down every single dream i have here, either out of laziness or if it is one that i would like to keep personal. So if it seems i haven't had a dream in a few days, do not be fooled!

I should do more, I guess - but here one dream, I really liked a lot:

I grew up (mostly) in a village at a lake in the Alps.
It is one of my most persistent dream-signs - the whole setting - esp. our old house - but I didn't realize, I was dreaming there again.
So anyway - I wanted to go swimming - but at the lake were tourists everywhere and the water was less than crystal clear and I was disappointed.
But then somebody told me, there would be a lake prior to the big one - directly in the mountains - close to the wells.
There are such small lakes - but the one I dreamt doesn't exist.
Soo beautiful - surrounded by a bit of meadow, which was a clearing in a beautiful forest - and I went swimming and it was really joyful - a great dream.
Swimming I also often do in dreams - and not irl lately - should go to a public swimming pool maybe - I need a bit of workout - always liked swimming.

There is another motive, which keeps returning - me searching a (new) place to live. This was just for staying close there.
So I looked around and found a rock with a hollowness - it was rather small for a house-rock - maybe 4 meters high and as broad - free standing.
With a cleft to crawl through - but inside was a cosy room, which I decorated a bit and put in my mattress and there I had my secret vacation-home in the rock.
I even had a fire-place and there was a hole to the upside of the rock for the smoke to evade through.

Bit later - other people arrived - I kept my rock secret - but the people were nice - and it was clear to me then, that the ones finding that lake were somehow special, interesting people - so I went swimming and talked with some of them - they called it the Ring-Lake - and I wrongly dream-remembered*, that that was indeed the name (I know a part of the original lake, which is called so - but it is just a natural bay irl).

Later a friend of mine showed up and took me with her to a "lake-party" at the big lake - these do also exist and take place every summer.
We got ourselves beer - and I got x-mas cookies (I love them - best sweets in the world if home-baked - esp. the ones my mother in law bakes) but I didn't find/get at my money in my back-pack - so she paid.
Next motive - me searching my - often a lot of - luggage for something and getting frustrated.
Then we watched a theatre-show for children - on very small stools and almost the only audience. The piece had a witch, who looked like these over-enthused esoteric around 50 years old women, I met a lot of through my mother - we deemed her un-impressive and went on.
Then there sat a former boyfriend of mine - and I wanted to talk to him - but he seemingly not with me.
And I also had problems speaking - but tried hard - and woke up from that.
Very unfortunate - because I was starting to suspect something, when I couldn't speak properly - dream time was through then I guess.


Fazit: Incubate your friggin' dream-signs!! And don't just tell yourself - if I see - then I dream - just posted a failure stemming from such under facepalm - but rather mantra myself into doing RCs, if I see/experience xyz.

This dream had almost an overload of dream-signs:

Geographical setting around lake I grew up close to
Looking and finding a place to move in for living
Swimming
Searching luggage and getting frustrated
Ex-boyfriend
Not being able to speak

Six of them in one dream - and I stayed happily non-lucid.

Made a mistake with my alarms - the app needs to be open, for them to go off - I noted, it was not - but my dictation-thing, when I woke up naturally quite late.
Was awake for the next one still then - and the one after that woke me up - and I tried it out as a micro-WBTB with mantra - in the end I fell asleep to a non-lucid.

Buuut: before that was a short phase of - very short - disappeared once I got a bit excited about it - HH!!
And pretty strong ones - bit of vibration and a strong feeling of weightlessness - but at the same time movement - swerving about - even falling.
That was the second time of my life, I had strong bodily HH - any HH, actually - first one was after a longer WBTB and 2 min. of just looking at the back of my eyelids on a WILD try - on my second ever WILD try!!

And such I made a lot of tries the last two months up to half an hour - never again with HH or success in WILD (but quite often with a following DILD).
I guess, I need them some more times, before I can avoid getting so positively excited about it..
This is progress towards WILD, though - and makes me very happy indeed!

It was not on my back but in my usual position on my stomach and turned to the right.
Will copy this over to my workbooks and in the alarm thread also.






*that's a phenomenon, I am interested in..

this cat a toald a really cool story where it bnasically bossed this guy around for a while. he was in one of thoseo 2 hand oul lcarts. this guy was the cats bitch and would do whatever he saidd. so he take him on a tour and somehow leads the cat into a small box with change. clausterphoic in the coach the cat gives up and just lies there depressed.

kater i was makking out with one of the counslers of that experience and she was oslder and all her friends were like oooo es 18...but then i didnt really want to be seen with her

I am with my sister in mall. We are younger(like teenagers) again. There is a pool in the centre of the mall and she keeps picking me up and chucking me into it. A bunch of her friends show up and we go up on a platform in the pool. I grab onto one of her friends, he has red eyes and try to drown him. We fall off the platform and sink to the bottom of the pool. Every time he tries to swim up I grab him, push him down,stand on his body and push myself up to the surface. I get out of the water but he does too. I asked him why he wouldn't die. He replies that he is immortal and plus we were only under water for one minute. The platform turns into a table and we all sit down for a meal. There is a bowl that had powder in it, we pour milk on it and it turns into a pudding and then cake. I eat half and then another dessert comes. My sister asks me if I like the food. I respond with a bunch of strange head and hand gestures. She looks confused for a long time and then she's like "oh she thinks they're ok".

My highschool art teacher and I were put into a group together. We had to complete a series of art assignments first to win( I don't remember what the prize was or even if there was one). There were three other groups but they had four or five people in them. The first task involved painting wax onto a stick,building it up to a thick consistency. The second task was unclear, I think we just had to make a painting. The third task involved metal rings and using them to create a light fixture. It was chaotic and confusing and our group was last pretty much the entire time. I felt awful because I barely contributed to the projects.

This last part took place in a studio space I had in college. My old public school friend had copied a art project of mine. I had made a painting/sculpture of outer space , it had a planet sticking out of it. Her work was just an inverted version of mine. I was so angry at her because of the work I put I to it. I had to shoot out of a barrel up onto a floating island to collect the pieces for my art work. I told the professor that she copied me and he said that she would have to write three essays and create a new piece. I felt awful because I thought the punishment was too severe and I started to cry.

1.
Was telling my mum that I was doing this lucid dreaming thing...it seemed so real, was insane.

Journal Entry non-lucid #15 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background:

Dream fragment 1 from 8:40pm-1:47am" I can't hear you": I was in a class room. This women was teaching. She was Asian, had glasses on a mildly attractive. Well she asked me how to say my name. I told her. She asked again I told her. This went on for a while. She then started hunching forward to hear me. I started screaming at her. She said still nothing. I felt my throat hurting so I stopped. I woke up to record and accidentally fell asleep, if I didn't kick my dream journal while sleeping I wouldn't have remembered any of the detail.

When I woke up. I didn't read any thing about lucid dreaming, but instead prepared for an quiz for chemistry. I meditated before going to bed. I tried to relax myself and re-enforce the thought of having a lucid dream, but concentration wasn't clear and I had half sleep for a while.

Dream fragment 2 from 4:34am-6:09am" Wet dream": It was a wet dream. I haven't had this in a while, why I have them now doesn't make sense to me. I really don't want to share it, but I want to mention it to easily keep track of dreams without losing them through the pages of dream journal.


Dream fragment 3 from 4:34am-6:09am " The train that leads somewhere": I was on a train. It was going somewhere. I went on it with the thought that it will come back to the original place it came to. I checked my pockets, I had my cellphone and my wallet. I think it had $10 with me. I hopped on the back of the train. As the train stopped for a while, so I came out. I saw this man on the alley that looked like Saul Goodman from Breaking Bad. I told him about my problem with getting rid of old habits and my problem on starting new ones such as lucid dreaming. I turned around suspeciously for some reason. I saw a football player run across. When I turned back around Saul was gone. I looked around and saw him curled up on the floor pretending to hid. I said, "why did you do that?" He told me that habits can't be changed. He told me he has bad habits too.He said the study that supports habits has mostly to do with psychology, not neurology. He said," the study didn't looked at chemical of brain. You will have to fight bad habits forever". I told myself what he told me and accepted it as a good thing. It is all psychological so I can convince myself to overcome it. I walked to football field. People were making fun of a player. He could throw a football very far though. The football was odd. It was long and white. The train was about to leave so I went back to it. I sat in the back once again. As we were passing these construction wood. The wood was passing thorough the train and through me. I looked at my legs and it didn't affect any of my sensations. .

I was walking around this old pool I've never seen before. I don't know if it's a public pool, or belongs to someone. My grandma and sister are standing by and edge talking about the sea crap in the pool. So I look and see sea weed. I start to tilt uncontrollably towards the water and I fall in, I swim anywhere, I can't find the surface, I end up in the shallow end on the other side from where my sis is. I realize there's sea weed gunk tangled on me, I pull it off, then realize there's an oyster suctioned to my inner fore arm. It's using it's mouth to suction on me. I tell my grandma and she says I need to take it off, then goes back to conversing with my sister. So I try to detach it from me, but it's stuck, I see that its mouth is a little open where it's suctioned so I go under water thinking water getting into it's mouth would force it to let go. I do this a few time and each time I come back up it's still stuck to me. So finally I pull at it with all my might and it snaps off, and I throw the mother fucker over the wood fence around the pool area. I feel relived at first but then realize that where it sucked to me is a dent where the pearl was, a red irritated dent, then I see an object making my skin protrude up. I instantly know the oyster put a chip into my fore arm, that was his purpose. I move my skin over the object but it stays in place. I swim panicked towards my sis and grandma and tell them the oyster put a chip in me, then they bend down and get a good look at it and mess with my skin, and they suggest to me to scape it out. I think to myself a better way to do this.

1.22.14

woke up 7:20, nap around 1pm to WILD

Got about 3 rounds of vibrations. I told myself to just stand up when they hit. So I did and counted 6 fingers. Woke up.

I hear some animal growling just 2-3 feet from me. I'm thinking"come one kitty, take a bite out of me". because I didn't want to be scared.

non-lucid:

I'm sitting in a back of a church, in the kids isles. Not participating in prayers. I see pews in another room ahead of me, facing right. I only see last few rows, don't see rest of the church.

I freak out, when my vision changes. All I can see is on the perimeter. Center of my vision is blocked by gray. I grab a hand of female sitting next to me, because I'm kinda scared. But I also know I'm safe, and this is just a game.

Tuesday, 1/21/14

Last night, bed 10:45 - 7:20

I'm with mom in a restaurant. Having some cake, with my brother. Someone got infected, and his eyes are turning alien gray. Then the band around his eyes, and now the whole body.

Mom wants to go to the restroom, but she doesn't wanna go alone, since she doesn't know the symbols for boys-girls.

Kes (from star trek Voyager) done something, and as a punishment, to make it even they cut off her left foot. Someone is carrying her in his arms and I see the cut off foot.

I'm with my mom standing outside. Looking over a tow, partially hidden by trees. We see cupolas, like the Capitol Hill, and I know we are in Washington, DC.

Behind us, there are huge brown bear, laying in a mud, enjoying it. He is holding high powered rifle.

Several fragments based on Tolkien, involving hooded figures, the statement that "No (name of hooded figures) will survive Aragorn" which has some vague association with atheism, and a few scenes in which Aragorn is either fighting the hooded figures alongside one or two other humans, or calmly talking to them, and either way shown to be in complete control.

As Rumpelstiltskin, I'm stopping by the door of one of the storerooms. Belle's inside, talking. The room's mostly filled with straw, but it also holds a mirror, and she's using it to speak with the image of an old woman sitting in a chair and knitting, a woman I know. The woman's giving her advice. I'm pleased - partially at seeing the two of them get along well, but mostly at seeing Belle making use of my magic. They stop talking and Belle turns around and sees me watching them, and I feign disinterest.

As FK's Nick, I'm stretched out on the floor of my apartment, talking to someone and using a laptop on a low table to search for something; the side of me that's a disembodied observer associates this with the semi-lucid search techniques used in other recent dreams.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

A vampire watching a woman turn, which at this stage mostly consists of becoming more physical, much like the old movies - not sexual specifically, just more aware of the senses. He's saying something about how there's no need to believe in a divine plan to explain the way they find each other again and again.

Mina and Grayson are talking in a train car; she says she loves him, and the moment she does, he's flung by some invisible force out of the car, into the next, which is filling rapidly with water, up to the ceiling. He's thinking something regretful about Lucy.

Nightmare: I see a picture in a dream of myself, but it is a perfect healthy physically fit version of me, and makes me extremely jealous and sad because I am not like that now.
I felt so bad and envious because it was an alternate reality version of who I could of been.

Action nightmare scene: A man is flying some sort of machine through a city, he is firing missles, homing, that hit some weird object. He flies down into the city and I assume lands.
Change scene and perspective, I am being hunted by that same man, I can feel him coming down the alley to my door. A neighbor, adult protector figure, is helping me hide.
He shows me a passage down into some tunnels under my home, and I try to get to a flashlight in the house but the man chasing me is too close to the door now and I leave without it.
In the tunnels I run and find a corridor with a series of lockertype doors on it, I pick one open it jump inside, it is huge inside, and filled with all sorts of knickknacks.
I burry myself in a pile of what feels like pillows and blankets and perhaps a stuffed animal. I cannot get the blanket to get over my head entirely and I wake up trying to pull my
blanket over my head IRL.

Fun good scene: I was walking to somewhere, recieved a call, girl asking if she could borrow my phone, she also invited me to a movie, Robocop.
I get to my destination, I am in a store snack vendor store buying food, my guess, the theatres snack store. I get a large sandwhichpizza thing, a drink and fries, large.
Woke up. Still have vague images of the dream running as a background process, a subconcious aspect of me is in the theatre with the girl on the date watching the movie.
Fall back asleep, movies over I assume, I am getting a refill for my drink, head outside with some friends, get on a bus, its free, my drink is huge have nowhere to sit with it.
So I just set it on the ground and stand at the entrance. Thus bus starts driving whereever, I look out the window and see three girls sitting on the sidewalk, one flashes us.

Me and my sister are at my grandmas house, we're laying in our own sleeping bags getting ready for bed, and I'm fucking about on my cell phone and my sister is reading, my grandma is sitting on the couch and we all are laughing at the dog being cute and we feel happy, but then suddenly it's day outside, and my mom comes through the back door and tells us she's here to pick us up, I begin to gather my things when I hear my sister say she's going to stay another night, my mom seems shocked and annoyed, then she looks at me, and I contemplate going with my mom or staying another night at grandmas, I think about the possibility of spiders because spiders re crazy here, but I decide to stay with my grandma and sister, and my mom storms out the front door and me my sister and grandma go sit at the dining room table and just smile.

Me and my sister go into this movie theater, there is no one here except two workers. One at the food stand, and one and the beverage area. We are handed a ticket by the girl at the beverages, and then the two workers silently run out of the theater. We think nothing of it, until we realize we are here alone, and we grab all the hotdogs and popcorn and boxes of candy and then I run to the beverages and fill a cup with root beer so I can go back to the snack section and put ice cream so I have a root beer float, and essentially we were like no face.

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