non-lucid

Preface:
I have been preoccupied with family situations, thinking a lot about the future and possible futures. I think I have been concerning myself with these kinds of things lately, as evidenced by my dreams. I have not gotten much sleep. I did not concentrate on awareness today and so I did not recall more than one dream.


DR 1

I dreamt about being with a family...a little girl and two boys. We are outside In the countryside. There is open sky, and there are fields of green everywhere. The little girl is angry at me, I am trying to console her, because she only wants to go home. We see a plane fly by above us. I try to encourage the girl to stay and watch the plane. But then then suddenly, the plane falls out of the sky!
We are startled. Then-.half the sky turns off. It’s as if someone has hit a light switch, but only on half of the sky (right side from where we are standing). I become very concerned about our safety. Everything is dim, so I tell the kids we will all go to the house together. We travel by foot to a little cabin.
I get them inside. The girl is obviously the first one inside, because she’s wanted to go home so bad.
And we stay there...I use the toilet while the kids are getting ready for bed.

I am mostly just trying to figure out what to do. I start looking around the house for a short wave radio, or anything I could possibly communicate with. Instead, I find small miniature jukebox , which is of no help but is somehow comforting. I am reminded of days when I was younger and remember about A-track and cassette tapes. Anyway, I am fumbling in the kitchen when I awake...

Side Notes: It seemed so real when the plane went down and the sky got dark. Iw as scared but I went into protective mode...There was no time to feel real fear. Thinking back, I was very afraid, but more afraid to show it I think. Somehow in the dream I feel like I'm a father, not a mother.

4.25.16

While I was visiting with family, I talked with my brother's son about dinosaurs a lot. Just yesterday I was wondering how come I didn't have a dream with dinos. And last night I did. Also about looking for shark teeth on the beach, which was another topic.

Today 11am nap after WBTB. Slept till 8 am in the morning.

As I am falling asleep, I'm trying too many things. Going down the latter to get into higher state of consciousness and also trying to AP.

I'm trying to visualize trees, walking between some trees that are next to my moms house.

Dream:
I am WILDing in some busy place. Lots of people around me. Somehow I am able to communicate with them after I fall asleep into a WILD. I can very slowly raise my hand and even show 1, 2, 3 fingers so they notice me.

I wake up, tell them about it then I WILD again and do the same 1 or 2 more times.

Then I decide to "wake up".

Few days ago I had a dream where I stepped through some door and ended up in another dimention. Looked like this physical reality but it wasn't this one.

(Side notes:
1. This is my first time posting on this website, so excuse any newbieness that I may have. I found it just this morning and saw that there was a place to put dream journal entries. I have more than 100 notes on my phone of dreams that I have had in the past. If anyone would like to hear about some of those past dreams just let me know, ill gladly post them.
2. The way I tell my dreams may be a little sloppy and/or confusing because I write them down right when I wake up and try to get it all down as fast as possible before I forget important details. If you have any questions or if something doesn't make total sense feel free to ask about it.)

Dream:

This dream that I had happened to, what I consider, to have a dream within a dream. Although I never truly woke up in it, instead I started noticing things that I hadn't noticed before and realized that what was going on wasn't what the "real world" (actually that dream world) should have been like. Anyway, we'll call them the story dream (since it was like i was just following a storyline) and the real dream for organizational purposes. The story dream was nothing interesting, just me going throughout my normal school day, talking to people and what not, so I won't give any details about that. Although throughout that dream I kept noticing something stalking me in the shadows. I remember seeing it multiple times and thinking "that isn't suppose to be there, why is it there?" In the story dream I had a best friend who wasn't actually anyone that i knew irl. Him and I would go throughout our day doing regular stuff, but kept joking around and saying "we need to put your underwear on our heads one day and run around like that". I would just laugh and be like "nah lets not do that." Anyway, it was raining and we were walking to a pizza place for lunch. It was weird because the only way i was able to tell the story dream from the real dream was that the story dream was VERY brightly colored and had a jelly like effect to it (ex. every time I opened a door or touched something it would wiggle like jello for a few seconds), while the real dream was all in black and white. In the story dream i paid no attention to the jelly factor because i thought it was normal. So then skip forward because I dont remember anything after walking in the door of the pizza place. All i remember next is being kidnapped by the man that owned the pizza parlour. He took me into his attic and i saw a black cat up there as well. That's when the jelly effect went away and EVERYTHING became black and white. He kept telling me that i was in danger. I asked him how and he said that there was this giant creature coming to destroy my world. I asked him where i was now and he said i was in "second dimension earth" and that i lived in "seventh dimension earth". I believed everything he said and asked how i was supposed to kill this creature. I dont remember him responding at all, but instead skipping to the black cat sitting in a corner. The cat comes out of the shadows and said that he was the thing stalking me in the story dream. I didn't believe him one bit for some reason. Something told me not to. I told him that he looked much different from the thing that was stalking me, until he walked back into the shadows and proved to me that he was indeed the creature that was following me. I was in shock. They both started to explain to me that everything that is able to travel between different dimensions has a different form in each one. You cannot control which one you are in unless your body feels the need to give you control. The cat started switching between the two forms that he had, showing me examples. At first he was a sleek black cat, then turned into an owl. It looked silver, almost like it was just pure silver light. They explained how when youre in the wrong dimension for a specific form you look like a silver shadow, but once in the correct dimension you will look normal. So i figured the owl must have been the cats form but for a different dimension. The fat pizza man was explaining all of this stuff to me and the cat was continuously changing forms so that i could see how it worked. The pizza man also explained how if you are the chosen one that once you travel to a certain dimension that turns you into the creature that you were born as you can never change again and travel through every dimension as that creature. Skip forward again and i was battling some massive, all black... thing. I wish i could explain to you what it looked like, but i never got a good look at it. It was HUGE and all black. I could see no form of human or animal traits. It was almost like it was a 2D black creature, but was in fact 3D. There was just no detail to it. I was struggling to hurt this... thing because of how big it was. It had crashed through the building, but only its foot was on the floor i was on. The rest of it was scaling the building. That should explain how massive it was in size. I was stabbing its foot with a dumb kitchen knife when somehow my friend from before came in and was like whoa whats going on. I was asking him how he got in here when the creature kicked him back into the story dream. There was a whole in the wall from where he got kicked and i could see him floating in space with a bunch of other brightly colored and wiggly objects. I don't entirely know what happened but it seemed like there was no gravity there, but only there. I suddenly got the feeling that he was dead and i became enraged. I didnt know where the cat or the pizza man went so all i was thinking of was ways to kill this thing. Suddenly the roof got torn off and thats when i noticed that the creature was all black. Next to it there were three dragons flying around. A brown one, a red one, and a green one. Everything was still in black in white but somehow I knew what colors they were. Then my entire perspective changed to being, what seemed like, was inside of my body. I was trying to tear out of it almost. I ripped through whatever I was in and emerged as a MASSIVE dragon. Id say 3 times as big as the three other dragons, but not nearly as big as the black creature. I was never able to see myself, but i knew I had a silver lion's mane and was covered in color changing scales. I flew up to the other dragons and they bowed to me. I remember feeling completely shocked when my dream skips again. I'm not entirely sure what was happening next, but all i can say is that it seemed like i was bouncing through dimensions. I crashed through the floor of the pizza place and ended up in, what i will now call Jellymoto. (You'll see why I call it that in a bit) Once i was there i went back crashing through and ended up back in the black and white dimension. I did that several times until i saw my friend from before floating around with a bunch of my underwear. He wasn't dead, but i could tell he was dying. I was back in human form somehow and started collecting all of my panties. I handed him a pair while placing one on my head. He put them on his head as well and i shifted back to dragon form and put him on my back. I never said anything to him, but remember thinking "If youre going to die, then youre gonna fight by my side until you do". I crashed back through to the other dimension with him sitting on my back screaming "FOR JELLYMOTO!" Somehow doing that killed the creature because my dream skips yet again and we're all back in the attic. Im still in dragon form while they explain to me that I'm like a god. I wasn't JUST the chosen one, but a daughter of some type of goddess or something. They said i was the most powerful being while i changed from hundreds of real creatures to make believe ones. Then suddenly i woke up.

+In a large house for part of what feels like a movie trailer. A girl says, “If I didn’t know any better, I would think this was a dream!” So I did the nose pinch RC and I could breathe 3 times. I was surprised because I really thought I was awake, but I realized I must be dreaming. I set out to find some people to play spin the bottle with for the TOTM. Somehow I ended up in a small storage closet area with my husband and some random guy. I invited them to play the spin the bottle and we just magically had a bottle. There wasn’t enough room for us to place the bottle so it was on an uneven surface and hitting our feet. I spun it but my husband’s phone rang, which he answered, and the other guy lost interest. I tried! I should have stabilized better.
+I got a job in a fish market/butcher/factory place. I end up falling in love with the man training me. Sometimes he looks like Ragnar Lothbrok and sometimes he looks and acts like my husband, very affectionate and loving. Supposedly I look like his ex-wife, Siggy. At different points I do his laundry, climb trees, text, and search the first aid room for alcohol to clean up the fish smell. One day I go into the room where he’s sorting fish and try to help him. He doesn’t want help. He’s depressed because he really wants to be a chef. He wants to show people his broth soup. I tell him I love soup and he should bring some for me to try. It makes him happy. In a meeting there’s a proud coworker who likes to be the best at everything and likes to do it all himself. I volunteer for all the odd jobs during the meeting to peeve him and my lover and I get a good laugh out of it. There’s lots of controversy surrounding our relationship, which is becoming more and more apparent to everyone. I’m the only woman working in that place and everyone, including my beau, are concerned it will just turn into a fling and I will be hurt in the end. I think about getting a different job since this job is far from where I live (they recently moved the factory to Kilauea). But the only other option is selling blow-up mattresses. I used divination to examine it closer and the results were: Screw, nail, nail (x3). Somehow it means that it would be wise to be in a place away from children and that in the end I’ve found my match and it will help me develop the personality traits I need to be successful in this life. In the back of my mind I was worried that meant my husband and I had to divorce, that we weren’t meant to be. My older sister was jealous.
+My mom was hanging out with Sadie, who was larger and had a huge bump on her head. My mom showed me this chocolate fountain thing she made. At one point she said, “don’t even think about it.” and I said, “I’ll think about whatever I want.”

It was a rainy afternoon. I was in my house, taking books out of my backpack. Suddenly I found a note which I wrote down to remind me about a big and important contest that I must participate in. I complained in my thoughts that it'd waste a lot of time. I rushed to a wardrobe and took a black suit out of it.

Then I saw a couple meeting together at an evening. It was a blonde, slim and tall woman and a dark haired, tall dude. She was wearing a red dress and he was wearing casual clothes. They went to a date in an exclusive restaurant in a tropical island.

I was back in my house, taking everything that I needed for the contest, then called my mother and younger sister so they would drive with me. They decided that mother should drive this time. Leaving the house and getting closer to a car, I had a strange feeling that the contest isn't tomorrow, that it has passed. I ran back to house and looked at the note again - it showed a date from last year. I went to kitchen to my older sister and said that I almost unneccessarily drove for a contest that passed long ago!

Then I saw the couple again. They were arguing a little. She wanted a serious romantic relationship with him, while he repeated all the time that he isn't worth her and she should find someone better. Everybody looked at them. He jumped on the table - he was wearing torn rags - and shouted "Now tell me what you see! I am nothing! You know how I look like?!" after a while of silence he shouted "I look like a dirty beggar!" She replied "No. You look like a really nice guy!" He tore his rags off and started wanking. When he finished he said "Sorry, sometimes I do stupid things for myself...". She said "I do these things for men!"

24/4/16
Dream 1: I was in a lab at uni with an ousb board which I was tinkering with. I went out of the lab to get something and came back to find my board gone, so I went to the people in charge and asked if they had seen it. One of them came back with it and said they had been running some weather pattern program on it and apologised for taking it.

Fragment: Playing Elder Scrolls Legends

Dream 2: I was at a basketball stadium which the local priest had poured a lot of money into to revamp it. We had a bit of a party and after the priest's speech I took part in the inaugural game. I didn't play too well and got dunked on early, but I think I improved.

Dream 3: I was in a luxury hotel room where they had 7 course feasts for a few different cuisines. I first tried the Chinese one and then saw they had a Mongolian one so I decided to try that as I hadn't had Mongolian food before. It had a lot of soups and stews and was quite yummy.

Bed time: 23.00
Get up: 07.00

Every man's dream
I'm in the living room at my mom's house, close to the door to the kitchen. In reality there's a table positioned on the spot where I'm standing. I'm with my girlfriend, who is standing right in front of me, facing me. To her left (from my point of view) is another girl that I don't recognise. Then the best thing that can ever happen to a man happens


Graceful crash
I'm with a group of about 10 people, I think most of them family members. We're about to get into 2 cars. One of them is my mom's boyfriend's, the other my mom's. There's a pile-up of people in my mom's boyfriend's car. My cousin, my mom and I decide to take her car. I think it is my mom who mentions something about being fucked if the police passes by. We turn onto a highway. There's a building standing right next to the highway, just about positioned against it. My mom thinks the exit ramp should be around this point and starts going to the right. My cousin and I both warn her not to go.. and we're flying. There's no exit ramp. We're just falling to the ground. I brace myself. The impact is surprisingly low. We continue our way through a lot of smaller streets. I ask my mom if we can please just for once stop using the navigation system that her boyfriend has given her, cause it messes with us every single time. She finally agrees and asks me for my navigation (Google Maps on my phone). The display is totally different from reality though.

Fragment
I'm standing outside in a parking lot. It's dark. I'm with some people, though I can't remember who. There's something going on that has to do with Mexico. Cinco de mayo perhaps? At some point there's a lot of fireworks coming from a building. I think our intent was to fuck up the people who were inside it and this was how.

Hi everyone! I had a dream last night! The second I've remembered in quite a short space of time!

I remember I was myself again, just like the previous one! (I went through a phase of always seemingly not being myself in dreams in the last few years I've remembered)
Anyway, I was with this boy, in the dream I wasn't sure who he was, just that this random guy started to chat to me. Before I knew it he was asking me to go away with him, and for us to elope to Italy..!

It was a strange dream, even my dream self was confused by this person!

Dream 1 - Train crash
There was a bit more to this dream but I'll start from where I can remember clearly.. It was snowing outside, nearby was an old run down rail track with a shitty small train. I had a little white dog with me, he had cute curly hair and resembled my friends dog from when I was at uni. I got into the train, the driver is an old man and I see him get on the train and we start driving. My dog is on the ground somewhere near the entrance. There's a big crash nearby and a bit of shaking goes on. The train stops and the driver comes back to check everything is okay, the sound came from where my dog is. He picks up a large metal bell that had apparently fallen off, my dog jumps up on me and I'm relieved he's ok. The driver continues driving, there's a few missing pieces in the rail track and the train goes 'off-road' in a sense as it goes between these gaps. There's a gap that's a bit bent and the train ends up capsizing, I hold onto my dog as things get momentarily fucked up. I hop out of the train, OH GOD. The drivers legs are sticking out underneath some snow, his top half completely covered.. H- help! Help! I try brush some snow away, I see a person nearby that's walking towards the direction we came from. He's an old man with a strangely expressionless face. Hey, you! Help! He continues walking on, I chase after him as he rounds the corner.. He's peddling along a vending machine that has a dead man attached and I think that he must be a murderer that is trying to get away. I turn around and head back to the crash site, I see a car in the distance and think I may be able to get help from them.

Dream 2 - Casino lucid
I realized I was lucid pretty randomly, I was in a casino like building that had a lot of people in it. I distinctly remember a blue haired girl sitting on a catch to my right. I continued walking forward past everything without doing any RC's, kind of not tuned in or understanding the significance of being lucid. Nothing really happens from what I can remember, eventually I have a FA and recall typing my dream up on DV and sending a message to my dream buddy.

I got really sunburned yesterday & did a lot of yard work for my elderly mother-n-law, so my body is very unhappy w/ me. I had a dream that I was in an auditorium, one I've never seen before. The dream was too erratic to explain. The scenes were constantly jumping around. Maybe it was due to the pain I'm having. I did notice that the people in my dream were mostly from my childhood which makes some sense. Lately I've found a couple of my childhood friends & talked to some others that I've stayed in touch with... Tomorrow should be a better day since I don't have any obligations & my husband will go back to work per usual after the weekend. Also my sunburn should be a little better & my pain level should be better. Today I am working on a dreamscape that I would like to have. I'm going to meditate about it & try to get a good visual.

Dream: I was playing dodgeball soccer in high school gym class. If you were on your own side of the gym, you were allowed to throw the ball and get people out. You could also throw for the soccer net at either end and score that way. If any ball went into the soccer net the other team instantly won.

You could cross the center line, and if you were on the other side, nobody could get you out by throwing the ball at you. Then the game became like soccer. You had to kick the ball into the goal.

I just remember that I went across the line and tried to kick the ball into the goal a couple times, but it kept rolling away/losing control. At some point I wound up bunny-hopping my way around the gym holding the ball between my ankles. I actually managed to score that time.

...

I remember I lived in a minecraft cave base with someone. (Or actually I think it was three or four people.) But we were perpetually getting overrun by big groups of monsters. Not minecraft monsters, just big hordes of random monster beings. (I guess if I had to describe them they were like gray humanoids exaggerated in various ways, like some were overly tall and skinny. Others were large, fat and extremely strong and tough.)

I remember we were fighting them and trying to block off the entrances that they were coming in from, but they kept coming through in new ways. I remember at one point, my friends died, and I tried to flee the underground and get back to the surface. I was running out of the main room of the cave base and there were a big group of them right behind me. One of them said to send in eggman's robots.

I went around the corner and there were two pairs of robots, a smaller pair in front and a larger pair in back. They looked a little bit like star wars battle droids and super battle droids respectively only they were painted black and red.

I wasn't lucid, but I knew that I could use earthbending or that that was important somehow. God dangit, so close! (I guess it was pretty easy to visualize earthbending in Minecraft nonetheless) and I threw stone blocks at the robots. I think I managed to get past them but some of the monsters grabbed me from behind and I lost the dream.

...

It was at this point I woke up for an ever so brief amount of time. I don't think I opened my eyes even. I remember thinking that I wanted to go back into the dream and start over. I could still feel the connection to the dreamworld so I let myself slide back in sideways. Literally it felt like I was moving to the right and the dreamworld was forming around me. I don't think I got excited about the fact that I was WILDing since I didn't realize what was happening.

I arrived on a beach setting. At the same time it was very vivid but kind of dark, as a proto-dream should be. On my left were a bunch of palm trees and a beach cottage. (It looked like one of those old Hawaiian houses or something.) And on my right was the ocean. I remember the sensations started coming in. The sound of the waves, and the wind from the sea. I could swear I was right on the edge of being awake because I could feel my dream body and my waking body.

I thought of Manei (I was thinking about her before I drifted off to sleep last night) and she began to manifest. She manifested feet first, up to her head, as she manifested the missing parts of her were a black outline. I could also swear there was like a computer loading bar in the corner of my vision... She was laying on her back in a beach chair when I was finished. But she wasn't awake/alive at first, but she started to come to her senses.

Just as I was about to say something, I lost the dream and woke up almost instantly. I really tried to go back, but couldn't. Too awake...

NLD (x2=2)
WILD (x1=10)
Advanced Summoning (x1=15, Dream guide)

Night Total: 27

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10 different people/different entries. =3 points.

Thanks Spock and DreamCafe11 in particular.

Wrote my dream on paper last night, internet wasn't working (stormy weather).

I woke up with this strange dream, at 5, and tried to WBTB (failed obviously) after it.

Me and ? are waiting at the bar to get seated in Mirjan's restaurant. Tables and chairs are made of pine. Because she's not giving us a place I asked her about it. She sits next to us, and bents over a bit. I see that her black hair is getting gray streaks in it. She says we'll have to wait a bit to see if there's enough place, or else we can go to "the other place". "You mean the brewery?" I ask her. "No", she says in an angry way, "I'm not with Jules anymore, don't you know that?" I tell her that it's been more than a year since I last was in town. "Can I say something about that?" I say to her. "I never thought you and Jules would split up."Oh well", she answered "I've always known that but I hadn't expected it to take 20 years". By the way, "the other place" was at her sisters. Jules was waiting along with us and other people, he left after a while. Then Lex came in. He came to DJ, apparently that was his new job. He looked good and happy. When I came closer to him, I saw he was wearing make up, but he forgot his neck. I left and took Lex's motorcycle, he'd told me I could borrow it. It was a darkgrey colour. I don't know how to drive one, but I managed to drive of anyway. I drive through the town and try to find the way home. There have been a lot of changes in the roads and I end up on a muddy path. I get stuck. The motorcycle is dirty and in pieces. I manage to repare and clean it and drive of in the direction of my house.

D1 - In school i am doing exercises with the class, to reach another dimension. We are making a square with our arms and everybody is making the same moves. I see a large square (portal?) being created. At the top we create a swirly square that is yellow and red, bit like thick acrylic. We keep doing this.
The powers that be ??? want to stop humans from connecting with other beings in the universe. So we must pass on the knowledge to the children of the next generation, for tha sake of all.
I am generating music with my intention and emotions. The music starts to play over and over along with the production of the square.
We have opened the channel and the woman I know appears, her skin is like gold with dark tones. She is dancing and undulating.
I am overwhelmed with emotions of joy and happiness, waves of energy.

D2 - Next I am travelling through hills and valleys, in the countryside trying to reach her again. The journey seems like it will take forever.
I am high up on a hilltop and the countryside stretches on in front of my to the horizon,
Again I am worried about the powers that be trying to stop me.
I take a leap of faith and jump up and plummet down, down , down into the valley below.
I use my powers to change the landscape into flatness and manage to land perfectly safely.

I had another similar dream to dream 2 but only remember journeying again.

[comment]
The song in dream one, was Alabahma shakes, I found you.

First fragment

I turned on my laptop and started working - I was making textures and models, then used them to make maps for a Half-Life mod that I was creating.

Second fragment

I was writing a forum RTD game set in S.T.A.L.K.E.R games universe. A first reply was about another game like that, only a few days older and quite worse.

Competition night #14

1) I was talking to a girl about her health. She had problems with her knee and elbow. Then I was withe her and her parents they were saying how awful the families health was and were shocked that she nowhad to go onto parenteral nutrition, I couldn't understand it. The the scene shifted completely and I was watching a car chase and there was a dog attached to the front of the car behind it edged towards the other car the dog put its nose into the exhaust of the car in front and caused it to crash. There was a big explosion. A major incident was called. Then I was a doctor attending the incident. There were hundreds of fire crew stood around and I commented that at least there were plenty of them but maybe too many. I walked into a building and spoke to the officer in charge of the incident and told him that I had to go and check out a computer shop next door. I walked out carrying my emergency bag over my shoulder. I looked for the shop but couldn't find it. I saw lots of other shps and stalls and went to see what a crowd of people were looking at and it was a food stall. Then I woke up.

2) Fragment: I was smoking in my office at work (gave up years ago) I got really worried that I might get caught and tried to hide the evidence but it was till smoking.

3) Fragment: My wife had picked all the apples in the orchard and was tipping them out into a big container.

4) Fragment: Watching TV in a small flat, I woke up and drifted back into the dream. Almost had a DEILD: loked outside onto a balcony, saw a cat smemi-realised I was dreaming and woke up again.