non-lucid

I can't remember much of what feels like the longest dream, was too tired to try writing it down after waking up last night :/

1.
Something to do with a witch and this big company that was working for evil but no one knew except me and a few others. I tried escaping this huge building and made it outside where it looked like some kind of exotic zoo area.

2.
I was in a bar/food court? At the table with Dave, Rose, John and Jade (from Homestuck). There was a guy at the next table who was being really obnoxious so I got up and asked him to keep it down. He argues with me, insulting me. I reply, "I said, 'be quiet'." and take the lid off his drink and pour it over his lap (careful now, badass right here). Then a fight that feels like a musical number for some reason breaks out and I get shoved towards Dave and he balances me.

3.
I go to visit Brandie, but she's lying in bed acting ill. She says she's been in labor for a few hours, but she's never had sex. I suggest maybe it's calcium build-up. (wtf she's not a coffee maker???)

notes: Wish I could remember more but at least I had a dream about Dave! Really wanted some kind of fandom dream so I tried focusing on him last night. I'd hoped to actually talk with him, but I guess getting his own close-up and catching me works too :P

"Atlas, probe"

I was in our college. I was given a plant. I brought it home. I got lost in a 'forest.' (more like 'woods' but forest came to mind in the dream) I was supposed to plant it there, but I left it in school.

I looked around. There were people going to their school in the 'forest.' I was nude. I was momentarily conscious and then forgot all about it. I saw a small car with a small woman driving it. I asked her for a favor: if she can take me to the college to get something. I looked at the back of the small car and saw that people are riding it as well, I think as a favor, going back to town. She seemed to agree. I entered through the left side of the driver's seat; she was on the right side. I can barely fit, and it took some effort to get my left leg in the car. I accidentally hit the side mirror while adjusting myself, and I had to adjust it; the driver said it's okay, and adjusted it a bit.

When we arrived in the city (reminds me of the BPI along Lacson St.) with some buildings, we got out of the car, but I realized we passed by the location I need to go to. It seems it's not exactly in the school, but some location a bit outside of it. She said she'll accompany me for a while. We climbed over some gravel, and I realized how quick she is thanks to her size. I had to struggle to keep up. I thought of something like "I maintain that smaller people have advantages." (Probably from the quote from Shengji Yang).

Home town. I was in our store at home. Aunts and relatives were there. One in particular asked me how I live as a gay person; somehow, they know that I am. I felt relieved at this. They asked how I'm doing, and I answered fine. It was sort of a coming out Q&A. I thought that I'm gonna post about it on Facebook. I was tired. I went to sleep in the house.

Sept. 3, 2013

Chowking, a fastfood resto. I was ordering food from our hometown. I was going out with a bunch of people near the beach.

There's a line of tables and chairs for eating. The left side is for straight guys, the middle line is for gays, and the one on the right is for girls. I was going around, talking to everyone and anyone, but I think only with the straight guys. 'Fran?'

I was near the beach, elevated a few meters above the sea level. A calamansi plant grew on the salty waters near the cemented elevation (reminds me of the bridge in our hometown). It grew tall and reached a little beyond the elevation, but I heard or knew that the taste is bitter.

Kind of a weird post, to start of my dream journal but whatever, here we go..

Brightness turns into a shape, it's a zoo.

Due to personal reasons I havent been to a zoo in a long time, altough the last time was quite fun.

After i realize that I'm in a exotic part of the zoo, the one with the tropical animals such as snakes and iguanas, I notice my pet Juancho in a terrarium. So I run towards him and try to alwardly poke around the glas. I try to shout "that's my lizard!" but it seems that nobody can hear me.

The dream progresses and the next thing is me walking down some stairs. As I walk down the stairs I notice there is a big party going on around me and the people are dancing and having fun. I try to find my friends but some guys jump me, I must have pissed them off somehow. One guy beats me and grips my nuts and squeezes them.. UGH.. I wake up in a hospital and get a poorly made Apology note.


As i wake up i remember i forgot to feed my pet lizard Juancho and give him 2 fat crickets.

I am a lion in another Africa, another world. All carnivores are scavengers. I watch an old elephant breathe its last. I run to it, and make sure it's dead. I yowl, calling other carnivores to the dead beast. Hyenas, lions, and vultures come. We share, and devour the flesh in a couple hours. The hyenas and bugs eat the bones. Clean. There is no trace of the elephant.

I gaze up at Humans in small anti-gravity platforms, about 8 feet across, hover low and watch us with a gentle fascination. Their clothing is made from a living moss. They have engineered our genes to be strong, peaceful, and telepathic. They are playing a galactic game in which they improve global ecosystems. The game is practice to become benevolent gods.

I was at primary school, and I was seeing a boy band be put together and through to the next round. I think it may have been the boy band from the UK (McFly). There was only 3 members, 2 which had different hair cuts to what they usually had. As they were put through to the next round, they all hugged, and were ecstatic.

I was watching a music video of a McFly song. One of the members (Doug?) was on a horse and cart, flying down the dirt track. As he was approaching, they introduced him as the new member of the group. They gave a bit of a bio about him, such as, hard work, rough around the edges, but welcome him to the group. He was the singing from his horse and cart. He sang the same line a lot through out the film clip (assuming it was the chorus). The scene was a windey road with tree's and green grass on the outskirts.

A small guy came out on stage. He was probably close to the size of a dwarf. The queen was trying to ruin his career?

They show was looking for people to sing. A spot light was getting moved around the crowd. It stopped on 2 girls, but only 1 could be chosen. The skinnier girl was given the spot.

Fatish guy was chosen, and was shown on a TV promo (was skinny with wild curly hair?)

I was now at my primary school. It was night time, and I was walking my dog Rex. We walked towards the basketball courts, which steel mesh walls through out it. Rex was finding the holes through the fences. They had been cut holes. I went through about 3 holes, and it was very dark, and made it hard to see where I was going. The last hole was hard to get through, so I pulled the bottom of the cage upwards, so that I could get under.

I was now in the car park, next to the courts. I could see a car up the end of the car park, it looked like a security patrol car. It started coming our way. I started to freak out a bit, and lost sight of my dog. I was stressing out that he was missing, and considering he was a black dog, made it even harder. I thought I saw him in the distance, but I think I had mistaken him as a cat. It seemed to fast to be a dog.

[Dream Fragment]
I was playing with an oxygen mask. I put it on and was breathing through it. I think I purchased it off of eBay.

I was working for a company in C-Town.

The company was located at my old house in Blacksland. I was waiting for my shift to finish, but I decided to stay back a few extra hours.

I got asked by the boss?, If I could start work earlier, around 5:30am the next day.

It was time to finish my shift, and was ready to head back home. My transport home was a road bike. I think David C was working for the same company as well. He had a road bike also.

I let the boss have a ride of my bike. He jumped on and gave it some power, and flew down the street on the footpath, going passed Robert S's house. He returned from the opposite end of the street.

Dream 1:

I was playing some RTS game that partially looked like Warzone 2100, but was different. I've had one huge base from the beginning and buildings had to be built on specific ground platforms. Battle with enemies was weird, enemies attacked by summoning some kind of spaceship things which were on different screen, my buildings automatically spawned units to fight them but i had to order them directly for each shot and they looked like dots on second screen. Later i had to attack enemy base, that summoned second screen as well, which displayed lots of buildings and enemy units, which launched missiles that had powerful AoE explosion. I could spawn units anywhere on second screen and i've made some missile units as well and was trying hard to micro them to dodge enemy attacks.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was in some outdoor place with red brick buildings.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing Spiral Knights and it had like completely different levels, then i have found a glitch and gotten some items that weren't supposed to be here. They were displayed like tickets and were named differently, i thought it was something unfinished to be finished in future updates. Using some of them summoned text menus with some stories and one of them shifted the game into something like Worms.

Dream 4(fragment):

Was playing some video game.

I stayed up two hours later than usual with a friend the night before last, so only recalled a fragment that night.

Dream:

A man is running through a field, He, Varric, finds that a silver stone structure is still there. There was a moving contraption up top, along with overgrown foliage.

The ‘camera’ pans over to some small stone structures (I think, 'of course they were made by dwarves'), and a gravesite with about eight graves with markers. I read: Dizzy, Logi, You— I pause at that last one, wondering if it’s ‘You’ as in the viewer, or as in the Japanese name. I also stopped before Logi, stumbling over the name, and thinking that his body actually couldn’t be there, because he’s nearly impossible to kill. I wonder what it was like for him to wake up (come out of the grave) in this place.

I’m going through these square, fenced in spaces, where the only way to get out properly is to leap over sections of the fence. There are small Stop signs mounted at top right of the section that’s safe to jump.

Other ‘heroes’ were doing the same. I caught a girl’s eye and nodded at her. A part of me wondered if I was supposed to know her. She didn’t look familiar (IWL). I laughed when I hear (and somehow see) from behind me Spider-Man jokingly asking an African-American police guard if he’d remove his mask. The man replied “that’s not my thing’.

A really short, small girl flies back after trying to leap the fence but getting poked in the butt instead. She rolls across the grass and I can’t help but laugh. Her figure reminded me of Kabeyama. I see that she’s wearing a light yellow shirt with Kabayama’s face upside down on the back of it.

A girl cringes as I reply to something, ‘but don’t get the fence stuck in your butt!’. As I said this, I was picking out two pieces of sharp fence from my thigh.

Inspiration: I watched some gameplay videos for Dragon Age: The Inquisition recently so that’s where Varric comes from! Last night, me and mom were talking about how movies do in other countries, and she mentioned Wolverine, so that’s where ‘Logi’ comes from. The girl/Kabeyama comes from the last episode of Inazuma Eleven I watched, Kabeyama had more screentime because he was struggling. I think the stone structure and gravesite actually could have come from the book I started last night, The Book of Earth (Dragon Quartet #1).

Notes: I got deja vu after thinking through the dream, I’m pretty sure I’ve had a dream in the past where I was hopping fences, during some sports event.

Emotion: Humor

I'm in a maze full of doors that lead to other worlds. The people with me have decided to take a door that leads out onto a snow-covered wasteland, they think this is going to lead them to our ultimate destination, but I have my doubts. I'm sure they're just going to wind up back here with a lot of wasted effort. So I let them go while I stay in the maze. After the door's shut behind them, I open it again, just to get another look, and while I can see them, the dream briefly switches to their perspective, showing that they can't see me or the doorway; our realities are out of sync.

In the maze, I try to take a path roughly in line with the path they're taking through the wasteland, so that we can meet up again when they inevitably wind up back here. I check through doors once in a while to make sure we're still going the same way. But eventually I run across other people in the maze, and I discover people are gravitating towards a set of locked double doors with two keyholes to either side. This is the door my group's been looking for. But we don't have a key, and neither do any of the people clustered around. Hera approaches me in the form of an incredibly tall and slightly muscular woman, with long red hair and a peacock blue dress that clings to her body. She's looking for something too, but not a key, and she asks me why I'm looking for one. I explain to her that like the others I'd joined up with, I'd simply woken up alone in a vast, seemingly empty room, so big I couldn't see the walls or the ceiling, and eventually I'd worked my way here. As we're talking I realize that she's Roman, not Greek. She tells me she can get me through the door.

As we go through the door I'm starting to focus on how attractive she is, and I hear a warning, something I think of as a quote, about the risk for dealing with gods "to become not ascension but craving." I acknowledge this but decide to go with craving anyway, she's very attractive. On the other side of the door we're in my IRL home. However, although I didn't notice anything odd at the time, once I took her out of the maze setting the DC stopped showing any personality; I carried her to the couch, but when we sat down she disappeared entirely. The dream storyline switched to a visit from my IRL father who starts 'getting the trees ready for winter' which involves ropes and makes me feel lazy for not doing it myself, and a sitcom involving two elderly men teasing their sullen young relative about just ignoring what you don't want to hear.

(Woke up. Felt like those last scenes, my father and the sitcom, were both about me making the wrong decision with Hera. Back to sleep.)

I'm Roman from Hemlock Grove. Olivia's lying on the stairs and I've had a taste of her blood, and it's put me in something of a trance. I'm thinking about the difference between love and lust. Peter knocking at the door snaps me out of it, but I watch Olivia stand up and walk up the stairs before I answer the door. I make tea, though he doesn't want any. He's picked up one of Olivia's shoes off the rack by the door and is fiddling with it, pacing around the kitchen.

Fragments:

I'm a teenage boy who gets into fights too often, trying to explain to a girl the reason why.

I'm in a setting that looks based on the 1800's, getting into my uncle's carriage, although my uncle's surprised I want to come and warns me against it - I lie about the reason I want a ride, saying something about the walking path along the way. He accepts the lie and offers me a bulb of garlic.

i was at a picnic table in the dark late at night with a couple ppl (dont remember) and also hayley m. i told her, after mustering up some courage, "you know, you're always in my dreams, all the time. which is weird bc you are the cousin i least interact with in real life" it was ironic i said that because i was actually in a dream with her saying that, but i was unaware that i was in a dream at this time.

jen was pregnant. wearing a white dress and visibly big. ben was there and i talked to him on the phone before i got there. he said that jen and him had a fight and she was crying and i thought it was a huge deal so i was trying to talk him through it. but when i got there, ben seemed to think it wasn't a big deal at all and she was just "being jen". he tried to cuddle me and stuff and i felt really weird bc he was with jen but for some reason i thought " well maybe he is just friendly and we were pretty close friends before so he might just be trying to bring those days back". so i snuggled him.

jump to matthew and i. we were cuddling and stuff and then he went into this big conference room with all these people. amazingly enough, i decided i must do a hand stand. i somehow was so strong and it was really effortless i could just lift my whole body off the ground. i was naked and i thought matt might like the view of my legs wobbling around above the couch that was in front of me.

suddenly i switched to matthews perspective. i was matt. i was sitting in the conference room and i saw my legs and it looked just like i was fucking someone bc the couch was covering my torso and the legs were just sticking up. i saw a flashback of some times we had together and felt genuine hurt.

back to nat. matt walks in and somehow i know what he thinks. i try to play it off cool like i don't know so that it looks really natural bc i really dont have anything to hide anyway. idk what happened after that.

i was staring at a bag of oreo hershey chocolates in bens bed. i studied the whole packaging and watched ben eat one. i wanted one but decided against it bc it was so rich. then hayley m walks in the door bc she lives in the room in the back, which was wear jen was sleeping or crying or whatever.

there was also a lot of drama bc i was supposed to go to epr and mike was setting shit up and stuff but then mom interfered and i was all pissed and i was in some random town but i apparently thought it was santa clara. i ran into axel and then ali c, and ali was crying real hard and we both exchanged our weird nights. she seemed worried for me when i told her my stuff and i tried to reassure her i would be ok, i was working on sobriety.

at one point in the dream i was trying to get into my apartment and there was this girl at the door and she said you cant go in with pills. i had to show her that it was just allergy medication and she said it doesnt matter swallow it. and i said no because its fexofenadine and it makes me awake and i don't want to feel that way and she said what about the other pills and i said really firmly no it's lithium and i don't want to be tired and the other is trazodone and i'm not falling asleep yet! and she bitterly let me just go in. wtf and my apt was like a small kitchen and thats it.

i also remember when i was in the park with hayley it started smelling horrible and i said 'dont worry guys its just the houses back there' and they were all like wtf and i was like 'yeah i have no idea what goes on back there but it just smells randomly sometimes'
it was weird bc i could actually smell in my dream.

had no lucid breakthroughs probably because i havent been trying so hard the last 2 weeks bc of exhaustion idk why im so tired lately? weird and opposite of me. but my mind is workin overtime . alright i'm out, i have my psychiatrist for that shit.

Sunday, 9/1/13

Last night, bed 11:37 - 9am

DR 1 -
I get into a court yard through an opened gate. There is some sense of urgency. Some houses on the street look like they went through some battle.

From the cement courtyard, I climb inside through a small opening in the wall, that looks like it was made by some explosion. There is a lots of debree. I bend down and climb under it. I think I'm either dragging or encouraging someone to follow me.

The streets are quiet, but I know it's just a quiet before storm. We expect either some invasion, or it's already happening and we have just minutes to hide.

I see boots approaching. Looks like some soldier, maybe like from Hellghast. He is looking around. But I know, we are safe, so I'm worried.

DR 2 -
I'm moving some boxes. One box is bigger that the door frame. We have to open it and disassemble what's inside, before we can take it through the door.

DR 3 -
I'm in lavish house or apartment. Some kind of danger is approaching. Maybe a wildfire. So me and a woman who lives there are looking for a hotel to stay at, that would also take cats.

Date: September 3, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (failed)
Total Hours Sleep: 9 Hours

Dream 1:

I was with my older niece who was adamant about finding someone to do her hair. She is very picky about who does her hair so we were searching day and night for the right person. When we finally found the right person for the job, I had to wait for a very long time. As I was waiting, I noticed that we were in some type of shopping center. I saw what looked like a ‘dollar store,’ and a place where kids could have a birthday party (like a Chuck E. Cheese). I do remember the parents looked miserable at the Chuck E. Cheese, like they just wanted it to be over.

While I was waiting, I ran into a student of mine (I was a teacher in the dream) who didn’t understand the course assignments given to her. Instead of going over the course assignment, I told her to give me her email address and I would email her the directions. She stated her email wasn’t working and I spent all day explaining to her how to do the assignment. Her mother was with her and her mother was really agitated with me for some reason.

Dream 2:

I came home and I really wanted to be alone and I found several children waiting on me to take care of them. Many of the children’s parents wanted to know my work history and if I was able to handle so many kids at one time (not sure what my job was, maybe a baby sitter?). The parents were not very nice and they couldn’t leave my home until I was able to rattle off my work history and experience with kids. One parent was talking to me (or at me) and wouldn’t let me get one word in. She went on and on about why I was not capable of handling children and wasn’t sure I was the right person for the job.

Frag 1:

I was on DV reading everyone’s post about becoming lucid (how could I have missed this dream sign?! )

Frag 2:

I was eating some mixed nuts and I really like the brazil nuts and noticed that when I opened the container, mostly all of the nuts were brazil nuts (instead of the usual peanuts, cashews, pecans, hazelnuts, etc.). The brazil nuts were really big and long, which never happens to me when I buy a can of mixed nuts. Usually, I am digging around the can trying to find them so I can eat them first. I really should have become lucid because this was a fragment too good to be true .

Frag 3:

Something about a History Book...

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps. No lucids for some reason(Maybe schedule), but decent recall anyways.

Dream 1:

I was in some weird FPS video game, i was coop with somebody and we were going through weird maroon-colored passage and shooting some zombie-like enemies. Passage was fairly dark but the later part had more lighting. Soon we reached part where we weren't been able to progress because next passage was too high. I heard some heavy machinery sound behind and looked back into tunnel. Crazy laughter followed that and shortly some kind of weird truck-like thing came out of the tunnel and stopped nearby. It was a weapon shop and the merchant was apparently Grigori from half-life 2. He talked about something with my coop partner and in that talk called me a dragon.

Dream 2(fragments):

There was something about some girl in research lab, she was doing various stuff and she really wanted to return dragons and was talking about some kind of dimensional travel.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was at home and there was something going on at the streets, a group of midgets were filming something and one of them had a cane that could fire bullets and even had a silencer and laser aim included.

Dream 4:

I was watching some minecraft video of some let's player. He was playing multiplayer with somebody and he was saying that he haven't played it for years and was reacting surprised to new stuff. Then they got swarmed by creepers and spiders and he had to escape through some cobweb place. Then suddenly video was about yogscast and they were exploring some level that looked like some alien place. They were playing normally at first and reached some cave area with lava, but then they started talking about some party and decided to turn the level into fireworks by using lots of TNT.

1.
I'm in a room at my house, using these 'cake'-like things with teeny beetles inside that grow to full-size when halved(not sure what I was using them for). Then I'm in my grandma's dining room, mom in the kitchen, and I'm freaking out because the beetle-cake I had was the wrong type, and there are now bugs of all sizes all over the room. The biggest was this centipede/reptile thing, about 8 feet. My mom helps me to capture a few little ones (but I can't remember what happens to the rest). The big centitile thing escapes to the living room, followed by this creature that is not a bug, but a small leopard with a very long tail. We run in and out the back door there to find my grandma and tell her, but she hasn't seen them.

Somehow the topic changes to wanting to visit Australia, and suddenly my family is all there and looking around this giant outdoor market. It was as if we'd ended up in some other world entirely (it wasn't Australia at all but no one questioned it :P). Everything had a hint of magic to it, and there were beautiful treasures everywhere and entertainers performing tricks and dances. It's nighttime then, and I'm hanging out on a pillow under the starry sky playing with a big sheet of frosted glass that is hovering above me, and I'm scraping away at the layer of 'frost' with a small razor, drawing shapes of animals and patterns into what is becoming a very large, astronimical/astrological image. Some places where I scrape have glowing images behind them, like the sun, moon, and other planets.

2.
Tried to reblog a troll ancestors fanart from a blog on Tumblr that turned out to be hacked or something, gave me a virus that forced me to follow it. Keitorin tells me to try using this 'feature' that lets you restore Tumblr to an earlier time to get rid of it. I see a button with a box underneath where I'm supposed to type something from the blog, which is 'dark knight' because it appears often on there?? The box says 'enter maximum command' at the top.

3.
Sort of like watching a documentary, this old hipster guy, who seems like a real jerk, is talking about his artwork. He cuts out shapes from paper and draws on them, then forms them around his head and shoulders. One lady next to him is wearing a large piece of paper covering her shoulders and head, the drawing on it is of a woman's portrait. The guy really got on my nerves for how snooty he sounded.

notes: I guess the troll fanart and tumblr business came from my constantly seeing it! The art thing, idk. I like art. No idea about the bugs and 'Australia' adventure! I hate bugs but in the dream I was more concerned with them getting away.