non-lucid

15.02.2011

Pizza at School (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Log: 11:30 Teusday, February 14-15th, 2011
6:00
Hours:6:30m Alarm: 5:45am Audio: None

This dream starts as i am going down the stairs that lead to the East Atrium, and i need to get something to eat for lunch. I noticed that the line, that of which was formed right to the left of the bottom of the stairs, was quickly getting bigger. I ran as fast as i could but didn't make it very high up in the line regardless. But surprisingly, the line went really fast. I was to the front in no time. I wanted a couple pieces of pizza so i kindly told the lunch lady what i wanted. Two pieces of cheese pizza. She acknowledged me and grabbed for the pizza. She repeated, "Ok, so one cheese and one pepperoni." I was confused, but i knew that the lunch ladies were tempermental and slightly crazy. So she finished putting them onto a counter, and then she started getting out that little piece of paper that they put them on. The second lunch lady in the kitchen started asking the first what the piece of paper even was. he first went on to tell her that it was just a grease collector or sponge. But she gave it to me regardless.Then something was going wrong so i just asked her if it would be easier to give me some new pizza that was sitting right there close to us. She was fairly angry so she just gave it to me and i left. I walked off to my left and walked around the atrium. I, for some reason, passed by what i thought was Jacob Carillo's house, noticing the blue suburan and thinking about why i don't pass this more often. I kept going toward the small ramp between the two atriums. As i was about a third of the way up, i came across Riley. As i was about to talk to him i noticed that Sam was walking right behind him, but i was too caught up in him to talk to her. So as we were talking, Riley was showing me either a big poster or a picture, that just happened to have him in it, and it said somehting along the lines of, " Many African children were killed by Hitler." Riley was flabbergasted at how fail this was and he was cracking up. I was laughing specifically at his facial expression. It was great. And then it ended.

Ive been taking Silene Capensis for 3 days now. One of the things that I have read about it is that you should do whilst taking it is try to think of a question where you would like guidance in your life, and the answer will come to you in a dream.
Me being 27 and bumming round in jobs that I hate, my question to the dream-spirits has been "What should I do with my life?"...because i still have no idea!

Well, I think my dream recall is definitely improving. I seemed to have lots of dreams last night that were vivid. Was this due to the silene capensis? I am not sure. I wish I had wrote them down during the night, but they were vivid enough for me to think "I will definately remember this!" Except by now, I can only remember snippets:-

Dream 1:
I am a rich and successful man. I am wearing a suit and I can buy pretty much anything I want in life. How got to be rich... either I can't remember or it was not explained.

Dream 2:
On a submarine...? Or inside some kind of metal tank with other people. No idea what this was.... Just the tiniest fragment, but I know it was a long dream. I shoudl have wrote it down!

Dream 3:
I am playing Fallout 3 whilst my girlfriend watches. She is unimpressed with the storyline. I describe to her how I love the way the civilisation is existing right on the cusp of life and death.

I am sure I had more dreams too, but i cannot recall them right now.

REAL LIFE NON-LUCID

I went to bed at at 9:15, and fell asleep for 9:30. I later woke up for a WBTB at 3:21. I had set an alarm for 4am, however I woke up before hand and thought I might as well experiment with times. When I did my WBTB, i recalled the following dream fragment:

1) I was on Last.Fm, and I was scrobbling Aphex Twin - Vordhosbn.

After 30 minutes, I went back to bed. I decided to sleep on my side for this WBTB as I find it much more comfortable, and I thought this might have been the reason why I had no success with WILDS. However, I feel laying on my side my have limited success even further, as I was continuously switching sides which probably prevented my body from relaxing properly. Anyway, I had no success :/ I recalled these dreams in the morning
2) I was walking through the art block in my school. It was sunny with only a bit of cloud coverage outside. There was an extra door on the right of the block, whereas there is normally only one on the right. The block was now made of black glass, not brick, and it was much bigger. After walking into the block, the entrance looked the same as the real entrance. Suddenly, a Facebook page appeared out of nowhere on the right I think this was almost like a hologram. I saw a very sexist comment, and this made me laugh a lot. So, I 'liked' it. However, this automatically 'liked' every single other comment on the page! This didn't bother me, as all of the other comments were sexist and hilarious. However, it was still odd.

3) I was in a holiday home abroad with my Family, however only my sister and I were in. I was sat by a desk with my Sister. The area and the desk looked very similar to the art block in my school. This dream may have linked with my last dream. We were on a laptop together, talking about something that annoyed us. I cannot remember what.

4) I had written in my dream journal that I had a dream about having sex with one of my female friends. My friend Ryan. B read this, and thought it'd be funny to tell the entire school

5) I was sat in my friend Chloe's house. Her house was on the left of a hill up to my local Sainsburies. Me and her were sat in her living room on a soft, worn sofa. It was very dark in the room with no lighting, and it was early evening in the winter, so there was very little light coming in. I had told my Mum I was going out briefly, but I decided to stay for a bit longer.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was in what was supposed to be my friend Kacey's room, sitting on her bed. My butt was hurting (weird). Later, I took off my pants and there was a lot of blood in my underwear because I was bleeding out my butt (ahhh!!). I told Kacey and she said "Well that explains the stain on my bed." I was then told by someone that I needed to switch to softer toilet paper.

I also remember someone wanting to have sex with me, but that was not going to happen in my condition at the time.

I know there was more to this one, but that's all I can recall.

~

I was in my living room, watching my brother, who in this dream was much younger than in waking life, play with some toys. My friends Courtney and Caitlin wanted me to go to the mall with them. I had already been, so I didn't really want to go, but I went anyway. They went to Forever 21, and I went in there with them and browsed.

Then, we were in an indoor cemetery. We walked by many graves, and went through many different rooms. I think Caitlin was looking for a certain one. As we were walking, I saw cemetery workers taking these boxes out of the graves; boxes of the deceased people's internal organs, and they were cleaning them. It really grossed me out, so I turned around to leave.

~

I feel like this may be a continuation from the first dream.

I was at my boss's house, but it was much smaller than in waking life and kinda looked like Caitlin's house. Caitlin, Courtney, and my old friend Stephanie were there. My boss was standing in front of a glass sliding door. Outside the glass door was a huge field. It was dark and very cloudy outside. My boss was talking to us, when, in the distance, I spotted a tornado. I told my boss to turn around and look. She did so, and we all went outside to find the tornado shelter that was built into the ground. I herded everyone in there, but my boss didn't come in. I pointed out where the benches were. I remember I was sitting on a bench to the left, Caitlin was on the right bench, and Stephanie was on the back bench. I can't remember where Courtney was sitting.

We knew the tornado was coming closer, but my boss was still not in the shelter. Someone looked through a crack in the shelter door and said they saw her, and that she was alright. Then, the tornado picked up the shelter, and we were spinning around through the air. This lasted for a few minutes before the spinning stopped. I remember thinking to myself that it probably didn't last near as long as it felt like it did.

We exited the shelter, and it was sunny outside. We were in the middle of a field. I remember seeing a family in a garage holding a wedding ceremony. We were trying to find my boss's house again. I can't remember when or if we made it back, but I feel like we did.

~

Yet another continuation.

I was back in the house, but my friends were gone. The house was now my grandparents's old house, but it didn't look like it. My grandparents were there. I wanted to take a shower, but I knew I had to time it so as not to waste water (my grandparents used to make me time my showers with a kitchen timer when I was little in waking life).

I started the shower, and then I realized I had to eat dinner with my grandparents. I sat at the table with them. I don't remember eating, but we all talked, I think about the tornado. I know I was thinking about the tornado at any rate. I then went back to take my shower, but my grandpa had turned the water off. I was just about to turn it back on, when a very big, tall, older man entered the bathroom, and asked me if I was going to take a shower. I said yes, I was. I think he wanted to take a shower first. Then, he started asking me more and more questions.

again, non-lucid. i really need to improve on getting lucid. anyways, i was in what seemed to be an RPG. i had a party of me, my mum, my friend jake, and what seemed to be a form of my friend catherine. there were loads of puzzles we had to do, (in standared RPG format) and we progressed. what was interesting is that there ws an ice lolly stool, just randomly placed in the dungon/classroom/corridor/idk, and it selled mountian due slush in a cone. i found that strange. the last i remember of my dream is me doing a super-long cutscene move/attack in which i turned into matt smith and smeared lipstick all over my face, and the did a morris dance. then the raw awsomeness of that attack woke me up. maybe. or it could have been my mum.

i did remember alot more of this dream, but my pen for my solid DJ feel down the side of my bed.

of, and i relized that my dream sign is....wait for it....my friend jake! he's not going to like that though. he thinks lucid dreams are a load of balloney. so when everytime he walks up to me i do a RC, hes going to get very mad, very fast.

oh wells.

I remember watching something on the internet and also N was speaking to me.


Going to try WILD soon, since I got home so early.

Last night I thought I'd give WILDing a try, but I failed because I wasn't lying in a comfortable enough position. I didn't want to give it another try so I went to sleep the normal way.

From there on I remember being with friends in a city - judging from the architecture probably French - in the middle of a terrorist attack. We were armed too and tried to hide the weapons from the police who were trying to sweep through the neighbourhood.

The second part I remember is me swimming in the ocean at night, swimming towards an island far away, which I could barely see in the moonlight. Suddenly something grabbed one of my feet and pulled me down, at this moment I woke up.

I think tonight I will try to adjust my position to something a bit more comfortable where I can relax all my muscles in an attempt to get a WILD.
I'm happy though, I managed to actually recognize some of the people in my dreams

14.02.2011

Night drive, day scape. (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wad driving in the freeway. My wife was next to me and we were talking about some psychic exercises I was doing. My wife recalled some psychic attack I did to someone in waking several months ago. My wife told me, "I love your dark energy." I do not know where the heck this comes from... I am a good guy and a spirit of light! I guess my darker ego showed up in the dream. I found funny what my wife told me.

It was very hard for me to drive. I could not drive straight in my lane and I would change lanes without wanting to. I also could not keep a constant speed while driving. My vision was very blurry and I felt extremely tired. We arrived to some sort of mall and I saw everything super blurry. I felt it was not normal for me to be so tired, having a big time driving and such a low vision. I checked my hands. My index finger was very thin and long. I knew I was dreaming, but I needed more proof. I asked my wife to please check her hand. She also had six fingers. I decided to take a flight to make my dream stable, however, my lucidity was not great. I followed the plot of the dream and lost lucidity.

We entered the mall and my wife was mad at me for some present I gave her or something I do not recall well. She suddenly told me, "Yeah right, go get one of those 75% discount sunglasses like you always do." Funny, I have never bought my wife sunglasses in waking, I wonder why I dreamed that. I told her I was not going to buy any sunglasses this time.

I wanted to leave the mall, however, it had no windows, no doors and the roof was made out of steel. All I wanted to do was to leave. I saw some sort of reception and saw an exit behind reception. I could see the sun coming from the outside. I turned lucid again, it was night a while ago, it was impossible to be day so fast. I walked towards the reception and said, "12th floor, please." The receptionist told me, "There is a private party there and you have no ID." I told her I just wanted to go through the door to be able to exit the mall, I did not plan to take the elevators. She informed me, "We are going to need an attorney to witness you are indeed just exiting the mall." I replied, "Oh, come on... This is a dream, I will wake up eventually!" I had no dream control on this particular dream. I saw some guys approaching the door. They were granted access. I got next to them and ran outside.

A guy asked me how much did I charged for a Tarot reading. I told him I was dreaming in that moment. The guy was surprised. Before I decided to take a flight, I lost imagery of the dream.

I had a FA in my room. I had a ton of e-mails from Amity, however, when I tried to read one, it would not open. I also started to write down the dream in my pillow and read some scripts about meditation when I woke up for real.

My Notes
Non-lucid
Lucid
Awake

Tonight, I decided to try to WILD with the help of a free lucid dreaming Iso tone I got from iso-tones.com. I would listen to if after I woke from my alarm.

My first dream, and in fact all my dreams this night, were very long & vivid. The first dream wasn't very pleasant. I was standing outside my bedroom with my older brother. We were looking inside my bedroom. There were six spiders on the inside of my window. Six spiders. In the real world, I'm quite scared of spiders, but it's x10 worse if the spider is in my room. I express my disbelief to my brother.
The scene changes; I'm in my backyard with my younger brother. My bed is also out there. Since it's a dream, the extension has yet to be built. It's night-time, and we're spraying the bed with my insect & bug killer. i don't miss a spot.
I'm back in my room. I notice, in the cupboard, there is an old dirty hole. I franticly spray in there. I think to myself, it must be where they get it. I don't see any more spiders. I feel that since they're all gone, and that the holes have all been sprayed, no more should be in my room again. This gives me some peace of mind.

I'm back outside again. There is a big old-looking tree. It has a tarp, I think a green one, going over it. On the top of the tree (it's slightly taller than me) is a disturbing sight. It's a mouse, completely engulfed in spider webs. The tree is covered in spider webs, that look similar to beeswax. My little brother, who is now with me, doesn't realise what it is. I have to explain it's a mouse.

My alarm wakes me up. I remember to use the iso, combined with WILD. I listen to the entire 30 minute MP3. I'm still nowhere near entering SP, and my hair is beginning to itch, so I decide to just go for WBTB instead. I remind myself to become lucid, and to remember my goals and to stabilise the dream. This pays off.

I would rate the following lucid dream as a layer three, minor.

Spoiler for Layer Three:

Layer Three (Minor):
You'll realise you're dreaming and fully understand the implications of what dreaming really is. The dream will be stable and vivid. However, you'll not have full control over your actions and at points it may feel like you're watching a film. You understand that the dream characters are merely a facet of your imagination, although they still believe that they're real.

When you become lucid, you understand the full implications, but you're not in total control. Because you're watching it unfold without any real influence over it, you become so immersed in the dream you lose lucidity. Later on you regain lucidity and remember how earlier on in the dream you were also lucid.

I'm on a stretch of road, in a small town. I don't really how I become lucid; I think I was lucid from the beginning. I excitedly rub my hands to stabilise the dream. I yell "This is a dream" many times. As I do this I notice some buildings in the distance increasing in detail. I want to finally complete some of my dream goals. I consider finding my DG, but I realise that may take some time, so I just try to find my dream name instead. A friend of mine named Harry.B is in a black car near me. I get in the car as he starts to drive. I ask him my dream name. He think for a few moments. He says "Hansen Francis." I can tell by the look on his face, and the fact that a friend of mine is called Hansen, that he just made this up. I decide to disregard this. Whilst in the car I have to yell "This is a dream" a few more times.
By now, my lucidity is fading. I'm still lucid, just much less aware. I'm at school outside my lockers, and I'm still trying to find out my dream name. I ask a kid named Luke. He gives me a very intellectual speech on how one does not just find his dream name, he must earn it. I'm surprised at how much sense he's making. I remember for a few moments being in the canteen, but this doesn't last long.
Now I'm outside again. There is a big factory to my right. Nobody is near me. I decide to try and fly. Since my logic was still not working very well, this was very extremely easy. I just jumped up, and off I went. I was thinking to myself how badly I didn't want to forget this when I awoke. Then I woke up.

Only when I woke up, did I realise how un-lucid the end of that dream had become. I happily wrote the the dreams down.

I went back to sleep for a short while. I had a third very vivid but short dream. I was in my maths class, which was very dark and gloomy. Sitting next to me on my left was my school crush. I hear someone to my right on the other side of the room talking to her. I'm slightly embarrassed, and incredibly sick. I have a very runny nose and headache. I keep coughing and sneezing. I look to my left again to see that an old lady had sat between me and my crush.

I'm ticking the "task of the month" DJ category because I believe "find your dream name" was a previous one. I'm going to try my luck with the Iso tones again tonight. Hopefully I can use it to aid WILD.

Last night's dream was... Weird.

I know that's a silly thing to say about a dream, since they're all weird in their own right, but I find something about this dream unsettling.

The dream was processed over the course of an hour from 6:30 to 7:30. I remember playing a pokemon game. It was like a cross between Mystery Dungeon and one of the regular games... For some reason there were conflicts about it, but I can't remember over what specifically.

At some point, the antagonist came to play. There was no name for him. He was a hulking creature that wore a ski mask and overalls, but the rest of his body was pretty much black as the night sky.

Then I met up with my significant other. Or maybe he had been with me all along. We argue about pokemon a lot so the conflict could've been there...

But then we reached a place that looked like a combination of Walmart and an abandoned house I had explored the night prior (in real life).... And the antagonist was hanging out of the entrance to the attic... Which really wasn't attached to the building.

Standing at the registers of this place were two strange little people. I believe both were female and part bear, yet so short. They wore miners caps and overalls much like the generic looming figure.

Here's where it gets strange. I claim to recognize them from a paranormal magazine or video of some sort, where they had claimed they could enter anyone's dream from any place in the world. In a way, I realized I was dreaming... But didn't at the same time. In the dream, I was aware that it was a dream, yet I wasn't conscious of the fact.

Anyways, my significant other immediately interrupts and says something to the effect that should such a thing be fact it would falsify the existence of humanity or some such nonsense. It sounded like something he would say.

When he finally shuts up, the two start explaining that they're in my dream for a reason. To help me conquer the antagonist in the background who scares the shit out of me. Eventually it leads us up to the attic. At first, we see nothing... But then roaches start coming out of every crevice. Collapsing on the floor, I take hold of my boyfriend and hold him tightly. The bugs start to whirl around us in a twister-like manner, while a few of them hit us across the face. I remember feeling his warmth... Which is strange since I slept alone. The two yell at me, tell me that this is it. I needed to survive this and then everything would be okay.

I screamed... And my scream turned into my alarm. At that point, I woke up... Feeling cheated.

I'm in the army. My squadrons task is to herd sheep every day. We do this for a bit, then suddenly one day we come out and there is another group of sheep at the end. Immediately i start moving down the side to get a head start to herd them back, but my squadron commander blows his whistle and everybody sits down and all the sheep turn into kids. One of the kids raises his hand and asks "Does anybody ever try to invade your fort?". For the first time I notice a fort off to the left of us. Our leader says "Yes, but we have to shoot them". Suddenly, I flash To a scene of somebody running towards the fort and being shot down. I view that scene like it was in a movie, with the perspective being on the ground and to the left. Suddenly I'm back to the field. The same kid raises his hands and asks "How old are they?". "usually about 70-75, guess they just can't resist the treasure" says my squadron leader.

I am walking through the woods behind my house with my best friend. We are talking about
how airplane food is really bad. My parents come out and start talking about how he is up to
no good. He argues that he is going to "AAT" or something and they say he has to get accepted
first and that that won't happen. The dream ends there.

I am in some sort of indoor zoo. This college girl is doing a project with foxes and
she is standing beside a large glass pen that has been set up for them. There are three
foxes and they are snow white. They look to be half way between cub and adulthood and
very closely resemble the arctic fox. The snout is slightly longer though. But they are just
as cute . the girl picks one of the foxes out of the pen and brings it over to me. This
dream is very vivid and I can see the fox in stunning detail although I am not lucid. I
carefully reach out my hand and stroke the fox's soft, snowy, fur. It is such a beautiful animal.

Arctic Fox

I am in the same setting as the last dream only this time the building is much
bigger. There is an elevator and I am currently on the sixth floor. A guy, probably
in his sixties, is leading this coalition to take over the world and I disagree
with his views. Noone seems to care though as long as I don't interfere. I try to
destroy his plans on the sixth floor but the leader notices and tells me to follow
him. I do and he takes me to the elevator.

I wake up, then fall asleep back into the dream.

He drops me off at the second floor then proceeds up to go wherever he was needed.
He had also disabled the elevator stop mechanism so I couldn't get back to the sixth
floor. The elevator would just take me to the top floor and stop. I get into the
elevator on the second floor and press the button to take me up to six. I wait for a
while and think... "now". I hit a red button and the elevator comes to a stop. The
indicator for the fifth floor lights up. I open the doors and get out. I am in a sort
of shopping mall setting. I am walking through and a friend from college says hi to me.
I know he is working for the old guy so I am warry but I play along. He asks me where
I'm going and I say I'm looking for the stairs to the sixth floor. big mistake. He thinks
about it for a while then pulls a gun on me. He says "I know what you are doing, I can't
let you interfere." I don't recall what happens after that but I somehow manage to get
away from him. I see the leader and follow him up a staircase on the far end of the room
and through a door. Then I wake up.

I am in a building and there are some other people there as well. It is around
10PM. We all decide to do something at 5am so I think "I have seven hours to
finish my school work. I log on to my laptop which just happens to be in the room
and then end up not doing anything after all. 5 am hits and I still haven't done
anything. Instead I have just drawn a bunch of wallpapers in gimp. The guy who
organized everything comes up and gets everyone together and we go somewhere in
the building. He gives a some sort of test, the details of which I do not recall.
The dream ends.