non-lucid

18.02.2011

Blue dimension (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in San Diego downtown. I was with my meetup group of meditation. I was in front of the Red Lotus Society for a guided meditation session.

I realized it was thurday, there was no meditation of Thursday and I was not hosting one either. I figured I was dreaming. I saw a female friend who comes to my meetup group. For some reason, I lost lucidity.

I wanted to meet with her somewhere around the area. She told me with telephaty that she was at the sports bar. There were several sports bars around. I entered a couple but I could not find her.

I turned lucid again for some reason and decided to look for Dreamer. I recalled she opens portals with her fingers, so I attempted the same. I drew a circle with my fingers, however, the portal was too small, I could not find it.
I attempted to draw another portal, with success. I entered the portal and I was floating in a different dimension. There were nothingness. It was empty, however, it was all blue. I was in an endless blue atmosphere. I could see different tones of blue but that's it.

I figured I was going to be alone for a long time in there, so I drew another portal. I exited the portal and appeared in a beach.

I lost lucidity. Something happened with a car, but I do not recall well.

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2/18/2011

Mall Hospital

All one long dreaming marathon, I'd conservatively guess at an hour in duration.

Its night and I am flying around over some highways. [I find myself doing this often, I fly following the highway, this often turns into a driving dream.] I see a shipping port off to left and for some reason think that Superman's evil friends are coming into town. Then they are supposed to be in the car I am in. Then I imagine they are shooting lasers out their eyes at the under part of the over pass but I know they aren’t really here at all.

I am exploring in a building. There is no one in there but imagine there is and I am fighting them, almost like how a kid imagines that his action figures are real. I hide behind this and that and throw a flask of exploding oil. I feel that I would have won at this point and leave through the double doors.
I am in a mall like place with a lot of different people, hundreds, of all ages. I walk around and see some places that look like hospital rooms and those hospital desks where the professionals sit and do their work.

This huge mall hospital had a children’s section which I found after much walking. I saw one boy looking up at a hanging mobile. It was a colorful fish I thought. I saw water dripping from it and thought it might be the air conditioner moisture dripping down or the boy has a secret stash of liquid explosives up there dripping because of a leak! I liked the second idea and started looking around for a bomb. Bored, I walked outside after a little walking around looking in potted plants and stuff.

There was a large parking lot out here. I walked onto a grassy median and saw a penny on the ground and being a penny collector I bent to pick it up when I saw 2 more, then 2 more. They were covered in dirt and I could feel the grains of dirt between the pennies and thought I could clean them later. There were some teens boy and girl talking and flirting by their car who were caught off guard by me. I hoped I didn’t look like a dork picking up pennies off the ground.

Dreamy Feelings
Napping

I closed my eyes to rest a bit but did not want to become fooled by the deception of dreaming. Each time I would start to dream I'd catch it and come back to just being in darkness. I came to see that I really liked the feeling of letting go and letting my dreaming entertain me. This became the feeling I was fighting. It would be like being in a really good movie and trying to avoid it dragging you in. After about ten minutes of this I woke up surprisingly refreshed.

I am feeling there is a big entertainment quality to our dreams, that we need to some extent, this may be what is so refreshing about sleeping. It felt like my consciousness was a heavy load that I could put down and rest from. This feeling is in opposition to the euphoria of LDing. Its like saying you can't enjoy the play if you're its director. Still I will find a way to reliably become the regular director on a regular basis. It may just take denial of the seductive pleasures of letting go and letting the dreamy feeling entertain you.

This dream was very quick, and very odd. I have recenty been playing a game on my ipod that is about a giant worm that attacks and eats humans. The dream was just that, except it was the dinosaur version. There isn't a dinosaur version in waking life. So it was weird to be seeing it, but it was almost as if my minds eye was the screen, for eveything that was visible, was just in front of what i could see, and that only. But as i climbed high in the sky in the game or lower in the ground, more and more similar aspects of the game showed themselves to me. It was quite intriguing that i could recreate the game in my dream. And at one point, the worm i was controlling was in a cloud and i had to get through it and eat more and more until i got to a certain part that i needed to eat. As i ate more and more of the cloud it revealed more abstract characters, images and aspects of the game, and it was very colorful, almos tlike the animaitons sometimes features in KE$HA's music videos. Then it ended. But the only reason i remembered any of my dreams at all, was because upon awakening i had the desire to play the game. While contemplating the fact, it snapped in my mind and i remembered the two dreams that i did. It was awesome.

18.02.2011

Hotel de Sam (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Log: 01:00am Friday, February 17-18th, 2011
10:00am
Hours: 9:00m Alarm: None Audio: Stephen LeBerge
(MILD and Trance)

This was a fairly unsuccessful dream recall night, but when i went to bed i wasn't really caring about it much other than the fact that i listened to Stephen LeBerge as i was falling asleep. The dream started out in a Hotel of some sort. A few people, i think they were reletives, were upstairs. I could look out over the balcony and see a bunch of poeple everywhere, on the outside of the doors. Up where i was, a small boy (Maybe it was Curtis) was trying to get down. He almost jumped over the balcony if it weren'y for the people holding him back. I went downstairs and out the doors, and for some reaosn i was really surprised to see all the people out there and Jacob was out there waiting for me. I met with him and we were trying to think of something to do or somehwere to go. As we walked away from the scene of a lot of people, i looked back and, i don't know if she was inside or outside of the Hotel, but i saw her, and i regretted not going back. Then it was over.

My Notes
Non-lucid
Lucid
Awake

I made a big mistake last night. I went to bed at around 12:40am. I then set my alarm to 6hours and 25minutes. This is the time I usually wake up, so trying to WBTB then Instant-WILDing obviously failed.

My first dream was short and lacked detail. I was in a crowded place with The Queen. She looked normal, but she was wearing black glasses and looked cooler in general. I asked her a question I thought of on the spot. To my surprise, she replied with a smile.

My second dream began outside. There were lots of people, and some guy was showing me something he had. It was a fairly big black horn. When he played it, the "Dun,dun, duuuuuh" sound came out (see this popular video). I'm now at school, outside the canteen. For some reason everybody is piling up to form a square wall. Even in the dream, I had no idea what the heck was going on. There is a girl, in the wall, near me who is upset. She keeps saying how she really doesn't want anybody on her. I later see a big black-skinned man on her, and she's fine with it. Hah. I see inside the canteen, they're making crêpes with pizzas. I'm really disappointed that I didn't bring more than $5.
I'm now at some big film award ceremony, like the Baftas. Behind me are hundreds of filled red seats, each row higher than the previous. I'm right at the bottom, on the seats furthest to the right.George Clooney is near me I seem to remember.
I'm on the stage, well, not really. I'm just viewing everything from the stage. Donald Faison is on the stage singing something. There are lots of women skating around him. I think to myself how much pressure they're under not to screw up.
I'm back in my seat. My little sister has the black horn thing. She keeps turning it on and making the sound in front of all the celebrities. I'm quite embarrassed.

18.02.2011

Mr. Darcy's Project (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm in my room on campus, lying on my back in bed. It must be overcast outside, because the morning light is pretty dim coming through the window.

A pleasant Asian girl who I don't really recognize (but she seems familiar for some reason?) steps lightly into my room. I watch her as she crawls up in bed and sits on my legs, facing me. She says it's my birthday. That's cool. I ask her if she'd like to be my birthday present, and apparently she would. We begin to kiss, but then somebody interrupts us.

It's my middle school principal, and he's just walked into my room. He wants to check up on a project he's had me working on lately, and so I reluctantly but dutifully search for some important pertinent documents I've left in my desk. I'm looking for a particular sheet of information that he gave me on a previous meeting, but I can't seem to find it anywhere. Time is running short. A woman's voice calls my name and I wake.

These are just some short dreams I wrote down in my notebook before I had gotten into lucid dreaming.

A.

This dream I was at my parents house on the front porch, and the porch had like 6 cats on it all of which I recognised but they did not belong there. I went out into the yard and my headphones were stuck in a tree kinda like a parachute would be, I remember it was really frustrating trying to untangle them and get them out of the tree. It was also really windy out and looked like it was going to rain. My mom said she was going to walk and get some food (I think she said she wanted taco bell, which she hates..). All the sudden it got dark out and people were talking about there being a killer on the loose, so I got in my car to go pick up my mom. There was a bunch of people (mostly kids) dancing in the street for some reason, and I had to keep dodging them in my car.

B.

This was a really short dream I remember walking down a long street with my roommates and I found a like brand new smart phone on the ground, one of my roommates wanted it but i wouldnt give it to him. Apparently we were walking to the bar, but it was wierd because I recognised the outside of the place as a BP (gas station) near my house. We got inside and it was really empty. I saw some chick I recognised from high school. I was looking at myself in 3rd person for a min (I had my hat on backwards which is wierd cause I dont do that). We bought pool balls to play pool then like left I think.

C.

In this dream everthing seemed animated and there were some characters from South Park in the dream. There was some drama going on between two cartoon people. Then one had an idea and the other one was suspicious of the idea. There was some snowman in the dream (in my notes I wrote "cool snowman not acutally cool"). Then we found Kyle (from South Park) in some junkyard and he was dead. And so Cartman (from South Park) was flying over the place in some plane and I think he was like some detective.

D.

This dream was really short, it was at a hockey game and my team was called the Pantheons. I remember that somebody scored in like the first 3 seconds ( I think it was me who scored it was wierd I was scoring and playing the goalkeeper at the same time). Then I remember the game was really intense after that. Then they subsituted some little girl in, and she like forgot her shoes or something?

E.

This dream took place in a map from the game Battlefield 2142 (Harbor map). There was something going on were there was an enemy team and then my team. People were like dumbells you find in a gym and they were rolling around trying to kill each other I guess. Somehow I was a dumbell and transformed into Stewie (from Family Guy). The dumbells were different colors I remember a green one, and mine was like random it kept changing. I remember rolling under some monster truck that was trying to run me over. There was some random suitcase on the ground (i wrote in my notes that it might have been a bomb). Some enemy dumbell kicked me off the edge into the water and as I was falling I mooned them.

F.

This is a short dream that took place in a somewhere that looked like the college I go to but it was like sloped. I was with some friends from highschool and they were smoking and trying to rap (This might be some line they were trying to rap I wrote down in my notes "Whatcha want getting moved with the biggy"). Some cop came over and starting smoking with us, we sat down on a bench and talked about something.

G.

I was in some buffet line getting some wings then I went and sat down with some people I didnt know. We were sitting at like a really long picnic table. I went to get something to drink and when I got back apparently the janitor threw my food away. I saw someone I recognised and he asked me how the food was. I sat down with him and talked. I wrote in my notes that this might be connected with the next dream.

H.

I was in what looked like some slums, though I wrote that i was at college. I had some tired dog following me around that I think was mine. I was walking on some country roads and I saw a place called the Frontier Music School (I have no idea what this is). Then I was at some sketchy house with a buddie looking at gas powered bongs. There were people there playing card but I thought they were faking it. Then I was back on the road passing the music school and I remember hear some soothing music comeing from the school. I reminded my of a friend i had that went to some music college so I called him on my phone.

I.

In this dream I wrote that I was in the 'Alpine House', I was with a friend, some chick, and 'Mr. Sketch'. There was some guy from the FBI in a boat (I think me and my buddy worked for the FBI and were undercover following Mr Sketch). The FBI guy in the boat was like our backup and Mr Sketch killed him somehow. Me and my partner knew what was up so he went out skiing to see if Mr Sketch followed him while I waiting in some cover with cameras trying to get proof. Mr Sketch knew what we were doing and somehow killed my partner, then came back to the Alpine House like nothing happened. We were in some hallway with a candle in it and Mr Sketch was hiding a knife behind his back. He got nervous and then we had some sword fight or something.

J.

I was driving on the road and we decided to stop at a gas station. A friend of mine was following me driving a semi truck. I was driving some old car and was having trouble driving it cause it was a stick. I got seperated from the guy following me and had to turn around, I remember having trouble turning the car. We met back at the gas station and there was some cops there. Apparently there was a wolfman hiding behind the vending machines.


I really enjoyed writing these stories it made some details come back to me about them, and after writing I though wow some of these are pretty wierd. Another thing I found interesting was in the last dream I wrote I was having trouble driving, something that happened in my first LD I found it really hard to drive cars.

DELETED

Dream in black and white
Personal interest level: 5
I had a false awakening. I saw myself in bed trying to sleep (not astral projection). I was thinking I needed to go back to sleep to have a lucid dream.

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Personal interest level: 7
I dreamed I looked at my hand to do a reality check and counted eleven fingers on one hand. One finger was sticking out of one of my middle fingers.

This was not a reality check. I dreamed of what I've been thinking about for the last three days. The finger sticking out of one of my other fingers was straight from an explanation I read on DV about why looking at your hand is a good reality check. It was pure suggestion.

So, I count eleven fingers and don't even think that is weird enough to go lucid. I know that doing a reality check is a good idea even though it didn't register in this dream, but how frustrating is that?

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Personal interest level: 8
Later I had another sex dream. I was doing something nice (O.S.) for someone else this time. A car pulled up. It was the owner of the house. I ran upstairs to get my clothes on. I had trouble getting my pants on.

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Personal interest level: 3
Later still I had a dream that I was at my old high school. It had 5 stories or more. I was friendly with someone one grade higher than me which surprised me in my dream.

I ended up looking for a bathroom that I could not find. I looked down halls until I was at a lower grade from elementary school. I saw the kids doing more juvenile learning and turned around to go back.

I ended up seeing stairs to the school that were falling apart a little. It became a job I was on. The stairs needed to be repaired. I took on a helper and somehow made him cry about the job which he didn't really understand. I started apologizing and patting his leg like I do my own little boy. The kid wore kacky (sp) pants. He finally felt better.

The End

I watched Inception last night for the first time. Not realizing how long the movie was, I put it on at 11:30pm, and did not get to be until after 2:00am. This having been the last thing on my mind, I decided to use the movie as a target for a visualization MILD. By this time, I was awfully tired though, and it ended up simply being an incubation attempt as it was easier to just tell myself what to dream.

Sleeping in Class

I am in Chemistry class. The professor is really, really boring and students are nodding off and going to sleep. I nod off as well...
...After a time of what seems to be actual unconscious sleep, I wake up in class. Other students are waking up too. I feel a little bad for sleeping through the lecture, but it feels as though I couldn't help myself.

Inception II

This dream is not easy to follow. I don't even know if I was lucid or not. I was sort of the main characters in the movie Inception, so I would have been dreaming that I was lucid. Since most of the dream took place with me believing the plot was real, it probably wasn't fully lucid. But in parts all I knew was that the dream was just a dream. So, I'll make it purple in color for hald lucid and half non-lucid. I don't even know where this dream starts, but here goes.

I am sitting on the couch, talking with my family. Someone is going to deliver a truck full of concrete. There is a snowstorm going on, which I had been lost in at one point.

I am trying to convince my parents that this is a dream. I seem to be slipping from the couch into another dream, or dream level. I retain "lucidity" as I do so. Then I go back to the couch. I have a pair of pants that I think are too soft. I fill them with sawdust, and shake the sawdust out outside the back door. My mother thinks this is weird, but I explain that it will make the pants less slippery. I realize that that is not a normal thing to do, and see that it is more evidence that I am dreaming.

We go into another "level" of the dream. Now we are at Niagara Falls. We are looking around the place, and are in some kind of a gift shop. In one room is a lot of candy, and I consider buying some. However, up a sort of a walkway is another building, and one I have not seen in over ten years since the last time I was in Niagara Falls in real life. I think that this may be one of my only chances to see it for a while. And besides, it's part of the mission.

I walk up the ramp to the building. I know that it is just a dream, but I figure that it is drawn from memory, so there should at least be similarities. I don't really remember anything about the building in waking life, but I look around to take in as much detail as I can to compare.

Some confusion here. We do some things related to our mission, possibly going into another "level". There is the old guy in the hospital bed, and some girl. The girl is part of it, and has to do something that makes her so upset that she almost vomits. We explain to her what we are doing, and she feels a lot better. Still, she goes back to the bathroom as though she is going to vomit again. We stop her from doing this.

I think we return to the Niagara Falls level after this.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was in my bed. I looked over at my phone, which was charging. The front screen was blinking on and off. I took it to my mom to see if she could fix it. She did, and gave it back. I went back to sleep, and woke up and it was again messing up. I repeated bringing it to my mom, and she fixed it again. This process repeated one more time.

Then, I went into my mom's office. She had found some weed I had apparently had, and had it dumped out on her desk. She was making it into a big pile. I told her not to mess it up or lose any of it because I was going to smoke it. She got up and left the room. I started to collect it back into the baggie it came in.

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I was in a car. It was very dark, and I couldn't figure out where I was at first. Then, I started to hear Jenny's voice very vividly. She is a girl that I went to high school with and who comes into the coffee shop from time to time, but we've never really had a conversation, or acknowledged each other's existence. She was sitting in the passenger's seat, and Caitlin was driving and talking to Jenny. In the dream, Jenny and Caitlin were best friends.

We ended up at what was apparently my new apartment, which I was sharing with Caitlin and Katie. I remember my room being the first one on the right, closest to the living room. I had my own bathroom, while Caitlin and Katie shared one. There was a party going on at the apartment. I saw my grandma there, and she was walking outside to what looked like a bunch of gas pumps. The ground was very icy, and she was trying to avoid the ice so she didn't slip and fall. A lady came up to me and started saying how my grandma couldn't do it, and was saying some other things about her. I got very angry, and started yelling at her, defending my grandma. Someone had to hold me back so I didn't hit her.

Then, I wanted to smoke some weed. Everyone was ok with it, except for Jenny, so we didn't smoke (this was never voiced in the dream, it was just understood). The party then started to clear out. I saw Ryan sitting in a recliner. We went off to my room, and I asked him if he wanted to stay the night. He said
"Yeah, I have to get up in an hour."
I looked at the clock, and it was 5:30am. We put on our pajamas and got in bed.

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I was in what was, again, my new apartment. Lynsay and her ex-boyfriend, Parker, were there with me. We sat on my bed in a circle, ready to smoke some weed. We were trying to avoid others in the apartment from knowing that we were smoking. I started talking to Lynsay about my pipe, which, in the dream, she had given me (I bought it myself in waking life). Then, we started talking about my old pipe, which she also got me in the dream (again, I bought that one too). It's gone in waking life, but in the dream, I still had it.

Then, we were at an outdoor church. My brother and mom were there as well. There was a stage with a podium on it, and instead of pews, there were fold-out chairs for everyone to sit in. The collections envelope came around, and my mom put a few coins in, and so did I. Beside me was this clear, plastic nightstand type thing with 3 drawers that I have in waking life. In the bottom drawer is where I keep the container with my pipe in it. The preacher came down and asked me if the container in the bottom drawer was full of loose change. I lied and said yes, thinking that he would leave it alone after that. He tried to get into the drawer to get the container, but I told him no, don't touch that. He kept trying to sneak over to get it, and I kept telling him no.

After all that, Lynsay, Parker, and I decided to get out of there. We were in the car, but it was dark, and none of us could remember how to get back to my apartment. I called my mom to ask her, and she told me we had to take this very confusing and specific route to get out, or we'd just end up back at the church. I knew if that happened, the preacher would catch me.

-I dreamt that I was at the store, looking at 'car oil' for my family's car. I reached out and grabbed a case when the lady next to me shrieked to not do that. I put it back and asked why not, does the car oil have carbon dioxide or radon in it, and the lady said yes, both. I screamed and ran away.

Later, I was at school and the lady from the car oil place came in and lectured the class about touching car oil.


-Something about car races and testing out cars and flipping them over on ramps.
-Later, I saw a tornado forming in the sky so I went to where my parents were sleeping and shouted something along the lines of 'TORNADO! GET INTO THE BASEMENT NOW, I'M EFFIN SERIOUS THIS TIME'!

i had a dream that i remember having many time when i was younger.

Me and two others walk into a restaurant. we get a table and order, but we don't eat. We get up and begin burning leaves with a black hobo. The hobo gets arrested, and we turn on all the faucets on the beer counter. Booze floods the place and the waitress gets pissed.

(i'm not sure if this was semi-lucid or not but this part never happened but i remember being so angry)
I change bodies. Now i'm someone else, and the group i had been with gets away. I follow the waitress into the dining area, and there is a kid with a hamster being a brat. So i hold up spoons that had holes melted in them (they burned my hands, or at least they felt warm to the touch) I tell him he could have ended up like the spoons, and asked him if that's what he wanted. He said no. So i cursed at him.

Alarm woke me up.

Dream started on or where i remember first thing was mu old schools yard where the bus came and i got in.
We drove overly fast for being safe but still never slipped away from the snowy road...
... Until we arrived to small village with church which we hit accidently, front end of the bus collapsed in and i was almost crushed between the seat and and the cockpits wall.
We jumped out of the bus and started walking.

Dream ended soon after.
7.00 AM

I was outside my parent's house on the lawn outside the hedge. Two of my friend's were with me. I had some sort of small device which could send people back and forward through time. My friends were begging me to press the button and send them forward through time. I did, and I could see them speed up into the future. It's hard to describe the visual aspects of this. I looked around me, and there were cats everywhere. For some reason this made me want to do a reality check. I couldn't think of a good one to do at the time, so I tried sticking my finger through my palm. It didn't go through, so I decided that I must not be dreaming. Stupid reality test.

I was at some large outdoor event with tons of people. There was loud music playing, and I really liked it. My parents were there, and my dad said something that offended me, but I can't remember what.

From another night which I forgot to enter:
I was walking along some outcropping of rock that went way out into the ocean. The water was bright turquoise-blue, and there were all kinds of giant sea creatures swimming about. All different kinds of whales, dolphins, manta rays, etc. I even saw a narwhale or two. It was so beautiful and calming.