non-lucid

Created Wednesday 02 May 2018

Got one dream in memory today, part of which I had lucidity. There's a lot more to it, I'm sure, perhaps even another lucid scene...


WBTB, then insomnia, before this dream started.

Dream 1 - Morbidity and Fury

Scene 1 - Smooth, Fuzzy Frohawk
The visuals were a bit blurred. I was in the bathroom. While shaving, I noticed my hair had randomly changed into a mishmashed frohawk, fuzzy at some parts, and smooth in others. Took about minute before I figured out the dream. Things destabilized. There were various forgotten scenes before a transition to below.

Scene 2 - Corpse Curiosity
Stuck at the void. Still aware. I got morbidly curious of how people would react to finding a corpse in public. While remaining a disembodied spectator, a scene formed ahead, blurred at first, then mostly clarifying over time. This depicted a large arborous park in the middle of a city, overcast day sky above. Exposed behind a bench and trash can was the body of a dead woman, 40's, average build, slightly tanned skin, dirty blond hair, and in warm-colored formal wear. There were no apparent wounds, nor signs of decomposition.

Passerby's appeared within a minute's time. At first, people didn't seem to notice her, or perhaps they just didn't care at all. Later, a mother and young child seated themselves on the bench. It took the kid's inquery, then horrified reaction, to finally get people to acknowledge the tragedy. Before any emergency personnel arrived, a pack of reprobates started openly looting the dead woman's belongings. This disturbed me enough to lose awareness. Unwitting transition.

Scene 3 - Toy Air Counterattack
The visuals were a bit blurred. Semi-lucid (knew this wasn't real, just not necessarily a dream). I was walking between the aisles of a toy store. Notably, I was an extraordinalily tiny figure within this enviornment, perhaps no bigger than a sugar ant.

Soon, a woman (gigantic from my viewpoint) passes by. In fact, this was the above-mentioned dead lady, only very much alive at that point, of course. I float up to eye level, where I waved and shouted a greeting at her. Upon noticing me, the woman was driven into a snarling rage, swatting and striking at me without relent. Reactively, I created a fighter jet, forming it such that I was already flying it. I swooped around the angry giantess, dodging her attacks. Concurrently, I blasted her when given the chance, taking shots at and behind her joints. These may as well have been toy munitions, for they had no effect, save for enraging the woman further.

One bad turn, and the jet was caught in the giant woman's hand. She then made the unusually diligent effort to try and peel me out of my vehicle. Well, whatever she had in mind, the dream ended before she could act out on such.

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I had some interesting dreams so far. (Currently its 3:08 A M and I couldn’t get back to sleep.)

First I remember dreaming of something with people from high school or college, vaguely. Something with a grocery store even comes to mind but its just teasing me! Not going to fully reveal itself.

Then, I was in a public bathroom stall. (M) was in the bathroom stall next to me. His leg kept coming under the bathroom stall and touching me. I was like, “Please keep your leg inside your bathroom stall.” Then there was only one toilet and we were sharing it. Other people were in the bathroom stall too.



It was full of used toilet paper, up to the top. I was embarrassed because a female I liked was there.  I said to him that he should flush all of that before it gets stuck. He flushed it and it was fine.

Then I was waiting tables at a restaurant. My Nana wanted a chicken nugget sandwich.



I was handing them out but biting off the ends first. They weren’t really on the menu. People had to specifically ask for them.

Next thing I remember, I was in my Nana’s kitchen. Aunt (B) may have been trying to type something into a tablet on my chest. I felt like I was becoming a video game character in the kitchen.

At some point there was something about building a Pokémon team. I had an Ice type in the third or fourth slot. I forgot the other types but they were all types with good resistance.



Still, opponent Pokémon in the game were a higher level, so I wanted to level up before any battling. I was imagining a Gyarados doing over half my HP even with a not very effective move (something like that).

Then it was like a mix of Pokémon and Zelda. I chose a starter. Then another character left and I became Link. I was stuck in the water.



I remember clearly hearing one of the songs from Zelda video game. I was like, ‘wait, this isn’t a Zelda game. How did they get this music?’

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkH2zETKqws

But my character became Link like I said, struggling in the water. But then my starter (I think a blue one) came to me, trailing a blue line behind it.

The starter pulled me out of the water. I rotated between a mix of characters. I think I was seeing a red one with antennae have to jump over a ravine of water.



Then I was a green one and running. I got to a fork in the path. It was like running through a canyon.



I chose to go to the right but left seemed like the safer way. Sure enough the T Rex things caught up to me. I remember seeing their shadows overtake me as I ran. But some ran right by me.



Then one did get up close to my face. Only instead of eating me, this other spirit entity came to my face.



I tried to draw that as best I could. It was tricky to actually draw. But there was talk or understanding that they wanted to harvest my physical matter and my energy for some project.



It showed a robot hanging in space. They were building it for some purpose and it was almost done. It had hips like Inferno from Beast Wars. All I could see were its legs hanging there, at first.



Then it became Optimal Optimus, kneeling. I felt like the thing had been created but it decided to not do any harm. So the kneeling meant it was surrendering.

Then I re appeared in the video game. I witnessed other characters telling the woman that my green starter and I had been caught by the “antagonist”. She easily revived us and we were okay. 

Then it kind of jumped to where my Uncle (C) was looking up some things on the computer. Something about an hour.

Then it showed a live stream called “Just This”. It was a Lucid Dreaming live stream with a woman. She sat on her bed to give the live stream. She gave a list of benefits to Lucid Dreaming. One was “Help Small Children”.

Then there was something about fasting or some kind of powers. I remember I, along with some other people, was being spoken of as one of the “top in the nation” with this power. Maybe something to do with fasting. I started to feel like I didn’t want to be public about it. I drank one of my waters and went to find my other.

I was near this patch of dirt. I started to go pee on it. I woke up really thinking I had peed in my bed. Luckily, I didn’t!!! 

If I had wet the bed, I mean all I would do is just clean the bedding and the mattress. So its not the end of the world. I guess it would cost me some sleep. But it could happen to anyone and so I just want to prepare myself not to flip out or be mean to myself about it if it does.

That was it! I woke up from those, and had a decent recall. I must have slept from about 9 to 1 or 2. Since then I haven’t got back to sleep. Maybe I will get back to sleep in an hour or two.



Well I fell back asleep probably around 5 and slept until maybe 7 with little micro awakenings. I dreamed about my Brita filter in the kitchen. And of being at a meeting I hadn’t been to in a while, noticing two people in particular, who I hadn’t seen in a while.

Then I had a Dream Induced Lucid Dream where I was falling backwards onto the floor in my old house’s bedroom. I looked up and saw some shaped on the ceiling. I became lucid as I fell and confirmed it when I landed with no pain. Then I woke up momentarily.

[img of mattress and pillow]

In my next dream there was a mattress and a pillow. I interacted with a guy in the dream. Something about moving a pillow. I was lucid in this dream.

Then there was a younger girl and I guess her mom. I helped the girl with her home work. Then I talked to her Mom. It was a meaningful conversation but I couldn’t remember the details. I remember looking at her eyes though.


(It was closest to the middle one on the bottom row)

They were a greyish color but hard to name the color exactly. Very vivid. Eventually I woke up from that.

I woke up in my old house’s bedroom in a false awakening. Tried to write my dream. South Park was playing really loud on a monitor behind me.



I tried to turn it off. But wasn’t really able to. I think I might have thought it was a dream momentarily but didn’t get lucid.

My computer fell behind my desk. All I wanted to do was write down some brief notes about my dream, before I forgot it. Windows acted funny when I picked it back up. All the windows were different. I worried that dropping it had broken it. I was glad I backed up my computer at the start of the month. (I really did back up my files in waking life)

There was an air conditioner in the window. (I had been thinking of putting in my AC in waking life) so I was like, cool. I guess it never got taken out.



I had a little micro awakening. Then I dreamed of appearing some where my friend was setting up cafeteria tables, for a party. She was like, “Are you here to help?” And I figured I was because I couldn’t explain it otherwise.



I dreamed something about a heavy metal band. I remember the image of the neck of a guitar.

Then I got up. I was kind of sad when I had another insomnia happen.  But I had more peace of mind anyway. I got up and did an hour or two of stuff on the computer that I was going to have to do that day. I mean this was when I just knew I wasn’t going to sleep. I try not to give up on sleep prematurely, but sometimes, I can feel I have too much energy to sleep.

Date of Dream: WED 2 MAY - 2018



Dream No. 319 - Separated Sections

Dream 319 A - The Paris Rats
This dream wasn't too vivid. From what I can remember, I was walking around this complex full of huge sheds. It's when I was inside them thought that they looked more like the interior of old houses or a garage with house furniture in it. As I was walking through them, I managed to catch sight of WB in the distance who looked really angry towards me. There were some similarly aged family friends with her who were giving me all these piercing glares as well. As much as I sighed at their snarky attitudes and ignorance for who I really am, I walked out of there and the dream moved to the next scene.

I was walking around some unknown outdoor area but I could tell that it had just been raining. There was a huge puddle filled with muddy water, almost big enough to be a lake. Out of it jumped one of the rats from the Sly 2 Paris episode... An enlarged version of it with the exact same appearance and even clothing as in-game. The rat also had the exact same move-sets as in the game; I fought this rat by slapping it constantly and I won. I came across another puddle and it was a Sly 2 Paris frog; same deal, I slapped it up and won. And then the third time, it was another rat; slapped it and won. I forgot what happened for the remainder of the dream.

Dream 319 B - I Know Who You Are
I don't remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was looking through some Discord “stream-chat”; this website was a mix between Facebook, Instagram and Discord. On there, I saw a cartooned image of someone that was claiming to be SkipDip, who in real life is supposedly responsible for Logan's current ad struggles on YouTube. I sent a message to SkipDip and I said to him, “If you don't stop flagging Logan's YouTube videos, I will freeze all your assets and the only method of capital gains tax you'll have access to is the frozen indexation method”. That's all I can remember about this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None



Dream Competition #3 (2018) - Housekeeping Details:

Dream Guides (Worth 10 points if lucidly summoned):
1. Dreamy WB/Miss T
2. Murray
3. Mario and/or Luigi

Emergency Team (Can act as dream guides but are only 5 points if lucidly summoned):
1. Sly
2. Bentley
3. Dreamy Logan (Probationary License)

Scoring Template...
Competition Night:
Lucid or Non-Lucid:
Dream Guide:
Emergency Team:
Eligible For Competition points:

Points Calculator...
Points For This Entry:
Calculation Details:
Total Accumulated Points:



Non-Lucid Fragment = 2 paragraphs or less (unless stated that the dream finished)
Full Non-Lucid = 3 paragraphs or more




Dream 319: Results (Competition #3)

319 A
Competition Night: 1
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

319 B
Competition Night: 1
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 1.0
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)

+ Previous Total: Nil
Total Accumulated Points: 1.0

Morning of May 2, 2018. Wednesday.



My dream begins with the very common circadian rhythm correlation of the “something wrong with the sun” factor.

In late afternoon, I am in a distortion of my Cubitis home, on the east side of the living room, though it is implied as our present home. I become aware that the sun is becoming too hot for life to continue on Earth. Thus, this is a typical “end of the world” theme (though these are rarely nightmarish for me in the way described by other people), which has occurred on a regular basis for over fifty years. I perceive much of the solar system as being oriented above and beyond the house to the east, with the implication there is no detail rendered elsewhere (such as beyond the other side of the world or to the west). This is surreal, as there are vestibular dynamics where I seem to “fall” into outer space in a dream within a dream and then shift back into my original dream’s setting without waking or with any perceived concurrent threat or concern other than the prospect of the sun eventually becoming too hot. It is as if my dream self is subliminally testing the autosymbolic (vestibular) design of my dream before deciding to continue (even though I am not viably lucid).

I am aware that the sun’s heat will be increasing exponentially, and that in a few hours it will be about 6,400 degrees (or 80^2). A number of unknown people are present. Some of the others talk about surviving for a few additional hours. Apparently, they believe they can live for an extra hour or two, or longer, by staying in a building with an air conditioner that remains on. We all go out to find a safer location.

There is a surreal scene where I am temporarily inside an upright hollow rectangular prism. Someone else is near the top looking down at me, as I am looking up from within it. There is some sort of ambiguous association with it being a vehicle. It seems nighttime at this point, but soon switches back to afternoon.

While in an unfamiliar building on the third floor, I watch equidistant soap bubbles float by outside. I realize that this means aliens are present (subliminally influenced by comic book story I had not thought of at all in years). I consider that the aliens are here to save humanity, even though I only see the spaceship briefly in a dream within a dream. Some of the others suggest that we need to go underground, though we remain on the first floor for a time.

My dream becomes more vivid and I am now in a distortion of the Loomis Street house, near the back door. A doll walks in from outside. It is about a foot high. It does not talk but makes clicking and humming noises as if to analyze a person’s status. A teddy bear also walks in as well as a stuffed elephant (with a floral print) walking on its back legs. They are all the same height.

In the final moments prior to waking, I consider that the friendly and helphful aliens are very shy, so they sent in these devices to make first contact and to study people for a time before taking the human race to another planet to ensure survival.

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The “alien” association is caused by the transient dream self not being correlated with the conscious self identity while in REM sleep (as the non-lucid dream self has neither viable contact with the unconscious, such as consistent memory of personal history, or the conscious self identity as in waking life, though most people do not have the ability to realize this at all, hence belief in nonsensical forms of “interpretation”). This is not quite as common as more mundane RAS correlation factors. This is resolved by the introduction of the dream state indicators, teddy bear (first-level dream state indicator) and doll (autosymbolism for the physical body being inactive in sleep - more specifically, my subliminal awareness of Zsuzsanna also being asleep). An elephant, the last “toy” to enter the room, is autosymbolism for the waking alert factor in this case, due to how it “trumpets” (initiating the return to waking consciousness). Once my fictitious dream self subliminally accepts the dream state indicators, RAS modulation begins the waking process. Additionally, this is also a form of doorway waking symbolism, as the “toys” walk in through the back door from outside. (There is no personified preconscious factor as the “toys” hold this role.)

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It looks like alot of pages but there are like 15 big pictures so its not so bad. Actually only 1794 words.

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Spoiler for Twext of dream without images:

Tonight was of some I think very interesting non lucid dreams. I also had my second good night of sleep in a row since the insomnia attack! So hope that continues.

My earliest dreams were at my Nana’s. Too vague to remember. Then something in the woods. And something at my high school, near the art rooms. Those were very vague.

Next I dreamed about a skate park though. I remember something about watching other people do tricks, and not really wanting to take the risk myself.

Then we were outside in this field. But there were houses too. A guy was standing beneath some sky. I think he had some control over the cloud shapes.

He made it so that a ring appeared in the sky. I was wondering if I could do it too. It was a ring of light.

I remember my sister’s friend wanted to buy some things I had for the material. There was a graph of how many ounces of material each one had and the price. I remember walking down a road and seeing someone I knew in waking life. I had my hands in my pockets, hiding something. We walked down near a baseball field.

I had to get by there but they were going to play the game. I got to an auditorium. At this point I was holding a snake that became a lizard. I was afraid it would bite me. Didn’t know what to do with it.

Someone ahead of me was drawing a lot of attention to himself by saying wild things. I was glad he was drawing attention to himself because I felt bad about something. I didn’t really want to focus on myself.

I became afraid of the snake and decided to put it down. I draped it over the back of my chair and it kind of hung there a moment. Then it got to the floor, where I noticed it had feet. And walked beneath the seats.

It got up ahead and the person in front of the assembly noticed. But then another kid a few rows ahead picked up the lizard. I could tell the kid wanted the lizard and would take good care of it. I was glad because I didn’t really want the lizard. 

After the assembly I told the kid that he was a great person. And that I was so happy he would care for the lizard. Then I was talking to other people.

I saw a youtube video of a guy who made his background the ocean floor. It was flickering and he said it was glitchy.

There was something falling to the ocean floor at first. There was also something with someone from college. Eventually I woke up from those and thought them through. That was a big improvement in first round of dream recall, but I don’t know what to chalk it up to! 

So then I actually did some physical exercises in the dark before going back to bed. Fell asleep pretty easily.

I had some dreams, but fell back asleep while thinking of them.  One was about a toilet that kept shattering.

I forgot the rest  But when I fell back asleep I had a very long and interesting dream that I remembered a lot of .

I remembered walking on a dock. Some of the planks were bouncy. I bounced on them. I got to the end of the dock and there were two people there.

Then there was like an opponent there and we had these fake guns. They made a bang but no projectile. Something about weight lifting. One fellow doing a demonstration of an overhead snatch, let go of the bar when it was over his head, and it went flying behind him into the water.

I was telling them my power would be weight lifting. But we needed some heavy metal music. So I started making a guitar riff with my vocal chords while they got the music ready. I was going to deadlift.

There was another part where I was walking through woods. There was a bunch of honey dripping everywhere.

I remember walking through some of it. And something with a bee. It was pretty cool.

I remembered being on a bus ride and sitting next to (A) from high school. I was not feeling great about myself, so I didn’t really take the chance to talk to her. I think I was like, well, she’ll never really like me, so why bother. But I realized later that I didn’t need to think of it in an all or nothing way. We could have had an regular conversation.

Then we were on a beach. There was a heavier woman there trying to do sprints to get exercise. She had really big forearms.

I was thinking that I would quit dairy because it caused me bloating. And the bloating lowered my chances with (A). (in waking life I haven’t had dairy since 2016)

Then I was on a message board. Someone asked me why I was motivated. I told them I was motivated to boost my dream recall. That was interesting because that’s a big motivation for me to change different parts of my life style right now.

Then there was a family there. The theme of dream recall boosting continued in the conversation of the dream figures I was with.

The daughter said that her dad let her open the window while she slept. This had boosted her vividness of dreams, perhaps by fresh air. The family was very traditional and didn’t like to change their ways so this was a big deal. The daughter said that her dreams and memories became more vivid.

I thought to myself that the noise from the traffic might make things worse though. So maybe it was just another factor, like the fact that she thought about her memories and dreams more. I raised this possibility.

One of the brothers went quiet. He seemed kind of angry on the inside, or confused. The idea of making yet another change might have been too much. The other brother said that they never change things. They always do the same, autopilot routine, every day. And if there’s anything they need to think about, they just think about it while doing their autopilot routine. Nothing changes.

The other brother said that ignorance is bliss is their motto. He showed his web site and clicked on a page with some topic of social change. The title of the link was something to do with social change but once clicked, the page just showed a bunch of snack foods and candy. And a message about, “now, why would you want to ever think about that?” 

I pulled away from the computer and found myself in a living room. My Uncle told my Dad to give him a “deuce”. I figured this meant 200 dollars. My Dad basically said no.

Then (J1) from college was pounding (J2) into the ground. He was turning bright red. Eventually it broke up and I went over there. (P) blocked me out of the circle. (J) and I glared at him. I told him I noticed that subtle little move of blocking me out of the circle and I wasn’t cool with it.

Then the scene changed again.

One character looked like a fallen tree but was actually the prince. There were a variety of other types of beings around who wanted to kill him but he was a good guy.

A gang of guys with knives came along to take a stab at him. I remember walking by them and they ganged up on me instead. It was kind of vivid. Then the dream shifted and they were breaking out of a store by scraping away the windows. I think it was a jewel store.


The police came and stopped them. I had to carry some stuff out to our car. I had my house plant.

We got into a Jeep and as we drove, there were two characters. One was a woman figure with six wavy arms. She sat in a lotus position and told us some things.

She looked less like a spider though. Kinda like this but not quite.

Behind her was a creature kind of like Trogdor. Here is a drawing.

We pulled into some kind of parking lot near a beach. As we got out, we saw a car falling from the sky.

Okay my drawing didn’t come out quite right.. It looks more like a car with blue angel wings. The flames were a lot more crackly. It was very vivid. The car had blue flames trailing out of its windows, like something was on fire in it, but blue fire. The fire looked really dense.



I ran towards the water to save whoever was in the car. Then a giant red orange crab monster or kraken thing began to rise up. I turned around and ran the other way. Whatever was in the car must have expanded on impact with the water, and became a monster here to destroy all life on Earth!

All of us in the parking lot ran for our lives. We ran into this building and glided down stairs for safety. It was very scary!

We ended up in a class room thing. Some kids were playing a video game but asked why I didn’t play. I told them that I wanted to stay open to situations like this, in case a giant monster ever came to Earth to eat everyone!

I woke up from those in awe. The monster thing was really powerful. I didn’t wake up in fear. I woke up really impressed and amazed with the dream though. 

I slept one more time. My first dream I could remember was of walking by my neighbors house. There were big black rocks in the road.

Then there was a dream of playing Super Smash in my friend (J)’s basement, like in high school.

I had my selector thing over Ganondorf. But then the game was confusing because I couldn’t tell which character was responding to my controls.

My last dream I remembered was of walking by a woman in a mall. She handed me a black journal with writing in it.

I thought she wanted me to write in a page. But then she got mad at me for opening it and looking at it. I tried to tell her I didn’t read anything just looked for a blank page. (The truth) (Why did she give it to me then?)

Well it was a good night of dreams. I am pretty happy with it 

Fire

I was watching a scene unfold of a woman telling someone how to do something correctly. She mentioned that you had to make a big circle with red and white string than put feathers in it until it ended up being the right scale. (Obviously my mind took this from the pi joke on Hukif Entry) I left her after that and watched a man holding a cigarette enter the now formed bathroom. He than lay in the tub totally out of it and dropped the cigarette. The flame grew big.

I ended up where my dad was now somewhere inside the house. We were trying to escape when I remembered my birds. He followed me as I ran from room to room until I found them. He carried the cage out the room with me but than I remembered we could use a fire extinguisher. I didn't know how to use it but I picked one up and tried to get it to work. It ended up spraying the fire a bit but it wasn't enough. That's when mew aliens began to slowly come out of objects and tried attacking us with beams.

We ran together until we came upon a door my dad opened. The room was filled with water but we had no choice. We went in and swam up coming across a door on the ceiling. I tried to get in the door after my dad but my movement was going on the opposite direction that I wanted to go. "I can't do it!" I shouted. "You can!" My dad replied. "NO, I cant! Help me!". Than I just buckled up and moved in the opposite direction i wanted to go until i got in the door.

I and my dad were now right side up and in the living room. But the mews appeared too. We ran out the door, my dad still holding the cage. My dad ended up in the car with my birds faster, while I was halfway to it. The mews than went though the door, their eyes glowing yellow as they sent yellow energy balls at me. "Open the door for me!" I shouted. When I tried opening the car door it wouldn't work. I had to deflect a energy ball with a random shirt. That's when the door opened, I got in the back seat and than I woke up.



Gyeongbokgung Palace

I was laying on a bed in a small room, looking at the floor thinking to myself "Gyeongbokgung Palace".
When I realized that the small room I was in had a peculiar small square window with red tape around it.

"Gyeongbokgung Palace!"I said knowing that I was in a dream now. I flew out the window and ended up on a clear path that looked like urban Japanese style homes around me. However, as I thought about the palace again I soon was flown and teleported to on top of a gray mountain where I could see more mountains and the city way down below. It was daytime, bright, with clouds in the area. "The mountain is a nice spot but where I really want to go is the palace". I than thought of Gyeongbokgung Palace multiple times until I teleported into a crowded area inside what looked like one of the houses in the palace site.

Hearing the sounds of people chattering as they pushed around me I got the feeling I was in a area probably where a cafe was. But since it was a dream it could be any area. I than walked to the side until the crowd lessened and looked at the wooden flooring to see a small black outlined square with kanji and hiragana in it.

What I could read was "te, ii noni". It doesn't make sense and wasn't the whole thing but it was something. I than looked around. To my right side there was a counter where you could order something. It was interesting but than I moved into the next room where I became non lucid.


My teacher was present and handed me a test back. He said to look at it than handed someone else their test. Afterwards he made an announcement that the trip was going well so far but for no one to get lost. Thats the last thing I remember.

Dogs

A dream where I became a dog with other people. A bear took over our house and kicked me out. My brother tried fighting me with a pencil. I was playing ds with my old best friend but I couldn't hear her and when she got close to tell me something she kissed my ear. I wasn't into her though and thought it was probably a mistake. At the end I was talking to my cousin who was getting facial hair like a guy. Oh and there was a time I looked in the mirror and saw myself as a guy.

Notes- It was interesting how my dreaming mind put kanji and hiragana into the square. Squares are common in waking life so it was probably a coincidence but i decided to do some digging and see if i could find anything in the palace that had language in a square. I found three pics with symbols on them. I dont know what they mean and i didnt know the palace had them. After looking at more pics of the palace im noticing symbols or designs on architecture. This makes me wonder if jewl symbol has something to do with the palace. Also do you have an idea what these symbols in the pic mean Jewl?

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The 29th I was in my father's old house on a staircase. I walked down and saw some friends in the room. For some reason I just knew this was a dream and looked at someone and said "this is a dream" and they nodded and everything was vivid but I wasn't really controlling much just aware. I looked at the staircase and bahar came down and I told her it was a dream and she nodded like "duh" and then some other sexual things occurred.

I had a dream about skydiving. I'm outside of my dad's old house clearing. There's a massive building where I think the planes are. The dream skipped around a lot. I think at some point we got up in the air.

Part of a dream I was walking up this massive hill of some kind. On the left was a church and there was a funeral going on. It was strange because the funeral had the family of the deceased on stage facing the crowd. They were crying and hugging each other. Everyone was wearing black. I could see a few cars parked outside of the church. There was a massive tree shading everyone at the event. I kept walking up the stairs trying not to look at the funeral, up to the top.

I was at a sporting event like a football game. I was very high up in the stands and was in fear of falling down the stands and getting hurt. My view went to several parts of the stands and I noticed that I would have fallen further at some points compared to others but I was in an okay spot. Someone was talking to me about the games like about who was playing but they kept getting confused because it would be two teams and then four and then different teams.

I started floating down the stands while looking at the huge scoreboard thing in the middle. I was saying "this is a dream" and floating down gently to the middle. When I got to the bottom I realized I wasn't in a stadium anymore but a bedroom. A girl came walking down the hallway through an open door and to me. She was light skin and not wearing a lot of clothing. She had light brown hair that might've been curly, and freckles on her face. She had told me her name was something that started with a "C" like "Clarissa" but also told me another name as well that was like the name she goes by or something. We started to kiss but I kept my eyes open because I didn't want the dream to collapse. I could see her freckles very close to my face. We started to become intimate and we got into a rhythm. She finished and then asked me how that had happened. I remember looking at her and saying something like "wow I've been in this lucid dream forever. This has been my longest lucid dream." And it really did feel like a long time but the weirdest part was it felt like the most stable. It most of my lucids I'm thinking it's going to crash at any moment but this was just so calm and stable I didn't think it would end. We continued on in other positions. She asked me what her name was and I said "Clarissa" and she said it was another name and I said "no it's Clarissa I want to find you at some point when we get over into the real world." She simply nodded and the dream went back to non-lucid.

The dream was now in this hotel space. Kids were lugging laundry bags to do their laundry. It was like a vacation place but also a dorm where young adults lived. We were a group that was going to leave the next morning very early so we started packing our things so that we could just get back and leave with our belongings. It felt like we were going to a cross between firefly music festival and kings dominion amusement park. We were packing up our stuff and weird objects were there on shelves. I can't remember what the objects were but they seemed to be associated with magic. At some point I walk into a room and there's my doctor there telling me I have some sort of sickness. He goes "yeah this is the rarest sickness of this type" but I don't feel threatened at all.


I had a dream last week but I don't remember which day it was so I'll add it here.
It felt like I was in another country that was either in the amazon or in asia. The scene was in between my schools though at the bus loop without buses. I could see tracks in between different places and buildings. Everything that wasn't a building or track or person or object was just this empty black color. I was swimming in this black stuff on a track and could see these massive bugs crawling next to me. It was really freaky. There was apparently a restaurant we were going to that had fish and chips. We ended up meeting people there and I was supposed to pay with my mom's credit card. The end of the dream was weird because I was standing in this black stuff in the middle of the bus loop and the idea was I was on mushrooms. I've never done them before so I didn't have an experience to base it off of. I was standing lower than the track and looking up I could see these people with spirals for eyes like Rezz looking at me. They were higher up than me but it seemed like they were tiny people. In my mind I'm thinking "here they are" or "oh hi nice to meet you finally." It felt utterly weird being in the presence of these things, they weren't like dream characters they were like actual beings that knew they were in some sort of dream with me separate from what my mind created. They seemed to just look at me.

Another dream from that night was located at this restaurant place. The place was symmetrical and had all of these objects. Someone would hide an object and I'd have to find it. Someone hid a small sphere in the corner and I had to reach down further to get it. This place was brightly colored with reds oranges and yellows and seemed very clean and set up but in a cartoonish way. That eventually gave way to the idea that I was with a group of people downtown somewhere trying to go to a concert. We were at someone's house about to leave. Dana walks in with her friends and I awkwardly blurt of "how you are yeah?" and she walks further into the house towards the kitchen. I eventually go into the kitchen and grab some cookie dough out of the refrigerator and start to eat it.

So I was at a school and I was going to eat with this guy who apparently was my friend. The place kind of looked like my middle school cafeteria so maybe I was in middle school? I was wearing jeans and a t shirt.

So as we are in line for our food we are waiting and out of boredom I start talking and I make this joke that has practically everyone in earshot laughing, except my friend. My friend just had this sad look on his face. I guess the joke must have been an offensive one, I feel like maybe it was making fun of boys.

Anyway I guess I got really popular but I felt really bad after seeing my friend's reaction. The dream showed me this list, it was kind of like a pause screen or a spreadsheet I guess. The list had all the people around me and described their reactions. Most of them thought I was hilarious, a couple of them laughed along because they wanted to fit in, but what really got me was the report about my friend. "You really hurt him with that joke. It might take him a while to get over this."

The joke must not have really been that funny since I can't remember it.

Date of Dream: MON 30 APR - 2018



Dream No. 318 - My Brother's Boss

I don't remember much of this dream. From what I can remember, I was in some unknown area, it looked a lot like the outside of my brother's workplace though. I saw this girl there that was from my high-school. Just like in real life, something clicked in my mind... She had the same surname as my brother's workplace boss. In this dream, the girl, PP, had a distorted look about her but I could still tell who she was. I asked her, “Is your mum's name Deborah?”. She said yes. I was extremely surprised. In amazement, I say to her, “So then, your mum is actually my brother's boss!”. That's all I can remember for this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None



Dream 318: Competition Results (FINAL for April)

Competition Night: 29 (Final)
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Estimated Length of Dream (Lucid Only): N/A
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

Points For This Entry: 0.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)

+ Previous Total: 24.5
Total Accumulated Points: 25.0

I found myself in a huge convention center, it seemed. And to my surprise, the place sort of circled around a large domain where the space needle was being constructed, though it was black. I met this woman, and everyone presumed she had an attitude about her that made her cold, unapproachable, and seemingly ill-tempered. I chose to ignore these elements and sat down with her at a picnic table, still inside this convention center. This woman's disposition was an absolute amalgamation of several personas of multiple strippers.

La

I'm so stupidly foggy as to other dream aspects, but I was at one point conversing with my mother about something lifelike.

Additionally, my friend Matt was at my house, and he felt the need to watch television on our big screen downstairs. He gathered together a jumbled mess of extension cords, and sought the assistance of my father to garner a means to watch his program. When i met him at the foot of the stairs, I asked why he needed to do this, and he responded with "I didn't want you to give me that look of eyes five inches apart!"

WHO CARES WHAT PSYCHIATRISTS WRITE ON WALLS!

Created Sunday 29 April 2018

Got various things to note, though I've lost memory of several of these.

Scrap Group 1
Something about a highway drive.

Went to a fancy Chinese Buffet with my friend Vlad and brother Javy, the entrance priced agreeably at $6 per person. While going through the food counters, an attendant handed each of us a gigantic bucket of fried rice. I forgot it while serving myself other things, and only realized when I took my seat.

Dream 1 - Coincidental Return to My Old Job

The visuals were mostly clear. I was working again in my old job at the gas station. Coincidentally, Anthony, a former co-worker who'd left before I did, supposedly returned just a month prior. Spent quite a while catching up with ourselves, even if I'm embarrassed to admit certain matters. Later, I man the registers, only it was logged in someone else's name. Enter another presumed co-worker, a tall black guy. I realized we were never formerly introduced, but seeing as a lot of time has already passed, it would've been awkward to do so at that moment. A former boss, Paul, also showed up briefly.

Not too sure on much else. I know some woman ended up behind the registers to pick out cigarettes for herself. Don't recall how this ended.

Dream 2 - Botanical Draqueduct Trial

The visuals were slightly blurred. I was wandering around in the mid-upper levels of an apartment building, a grey sky visible out the windows. Later on, I go through walkways interconnecting the structure with adjacent buildings. These platforms got dangerously narrow at times, reduced to even a long wooden plank at its worst.

Eventually, I meet up with a striking figure, a tall woman with impressive musculature, and a forceful personality to match. She demanded I follow her into one of the buildings. Seemed unwise to not to heed as much. Inside was a series of blue stone hallways. A spectacular bloom of vines and other plantlife decorated every inch of this structure. Such vegetation grew thicker the deeper we went. And then, the plants began moving. They lashed out, forcing us further inside. As I was crossing a doorway, a shrub suddenly sprouted behind me, interposing between the woman and I. She bade I not mind her, that I continue on my own. I did so without hesitation. As I went further ahead, the vegetation dwindled in number. Soon after, I found myself back at the entrance.

The tough lady was already there, alive and well. She explained that I'd gone through some kind of trial, one only select persons were allowed to complete. After that, she takes me to another nearby building. Upon taking one step inside, a plant emerges yet again from behind, blocking me from the woman, the exit, and even from any light. "You alone were chosen", grunted the woman. "This is something you have to do on your own."

Unnerved, I walk towards the darkened open space ahead. Just then, a deep voice boomed from above.

"You have come far in this trial.", said the enigma. "Now, final judgement is upon you. But beware" the voice bellowed fearsomely, "failure in this next test will result in your certain demise. Prepare yourself!"

I shook in place uncontrollably. Only, I realized it wasn't me, but the entire structure itself. The floor quickly gave way. Now, I found myself sliding backwards through the winding tunnels of a vast stonework aqueduct, the sky partially in view through narrow slits above. I started looking for a way out of this unintended ride, when I noticed a terrifying figure overhead: a massive dragon, bony spikes protruding from its olive-green scales.

"How long can you survive?!", taunted the creature, quite apparently the source of the aforementioned voice.

I forced myself to go faster, hoping that I could somehow outrun the beast. Indeed, I did soon lose sight of it. But then, I found myself face to face with its massive jaws, snapping in from one of several occasional large openings on the walls of the structure. Luckily, its wicked fangs missed me by a hair.

Reactively, I reached into my pockets, but could only find a handful of stones. Still, I 'figured' I had magical abilities. I enchanted the stones, then waited. Eventually, while passing some large gaps, I saw the creature trying to swoop in at me. So, I hurled a stone at it, if feebly (I was still getting dragged by currents, after all). Nonetheless, even a mere graze caused it great distress. Roaring in fury, the dragon responded by breathing a gout of flame, almost incinerating me, had not the tunnel closed again in the nick of time. When it next tried to attack, I conjured an earth elemental, created from the materials of the structure itself. This being obviously stood little chance, but it could at least occupy the menace long enough to give me some distance.

Later on, my ride was abruptly halted by my getting dropped into a huge cistern. I swam around momentarily, scouting for an exit, but could see none. This delay cost me my lead. The dragon soon hovered in from above. In such circumstances, I was all but helpless. Just as I thought my demise was imminent, I was suddenly flushed into the depths. When I came to, I found myself sliding down that aqueduct all over again. The trial wasn't over.

Much of that sequence repeats, until I eventually woke up.

Scrap Group 2
Some extended scenes of the work dream above.

I got to sleep OK around 8. And slept until maybe 1 or 2.

Yams

My first dreams I remembered were of being at a big round table with my family. I was handing out sweet potatoes. They turned out to be soft but at first I thought they were under cooked.

Out Somnia

I had insomnia again and it was from after my first sleep cycle until IDK when. I gave up after an earnest try, and got up. I don't know what comes first. My workaholism or my insomnia.

Loft

Eventually I went back to sleep. Around 6 I guess. I felt myself drop in.

I don't remember much of the dream but I was in a loft. Something happened. Then there was someone like Goku. they expanded into a big illustration.

That made me lucid for a moment. I realized I was in a dream but didn't know what to do.

Springy False Awakening

I had a false awakening of waking up in a bed. But the bed had springs on it. I figured the dream had startled me into waking with a jolt. And that made my bed keep swinging back and forth.

The springs creaked. I kept trying to tell myself they would eventually slow down. But it seemed like my swinging gained momentum, and the creaking got louder. First it was right to left, then from head of bed to foot of bed. And squeaky squeak squeak.

I was thinking I need to record this dream in my voice recorder. Which I had put away since the sun was already up. (If I dreamed I planned on just getting up to write it. But I forgot that during this false awakening.) I wanted the bed to stop swinging and creaking, otherwise that sound would get recorded, too. So I tried to think about the dream while waiting for the bed to stop.

Then I grabbed onto this black metal bar of the bed to stop it but the force was too much. It felt like it would rip my arms off.

Missing Table

In waking life there is a table to the side of my bed. I got up from my bed to stand, and try to stop my bed swinging from the outside. I realized it wasn't there. My chair near it was though. "Oh well," thought I. "Maybe I moved it before sleeping."

Actually woke up

I appeared in my physical bed kind of surprised about all that having been a dream! It took me a moment to be like, oh, wait, my beds not shaking.

It would have been a great dream to become lucid in. However, I might have just gotten excited and returned to my body, if I became lucid. I'm surprised I didn't find lucidity over the bed swinging like that. I kept telling myself it must be possible and thinking of how my bed was built.



The end!

I’m walking through an unfamiliar urban area. It’s fairly busy traffic-wise, but there are some young men kicking a soccer ball around in the streets. Occasionally, someone has to run out into the street and bring it back before a car gets to it. This strikes me as a little dangerous.

Eventually, I find myself walking down into a large lecture hall, mainly white with light-colored wooden seats on either side of a central aisle. There’s a projection screen down in front, and everybody is watching a movie on it. The front area looks mostly full, but there are entire rows of empty seats closer to the back, so I sit down in a row on the left side.

It seems I have the option to select how I want the movie rendered—it’s a little like a menu popping up on a computer, but more abstract. There are three options. In the first option, I would only perceive those aspects of it that are capable of being represented in the available medium. In the second option, the basic narrative pattern of the story would be preserved, but with the unrepresentable parts of it translated into a form that the medium can handle. That's the option I choose. I can’t remember what the third one was.

As I watch, it quickly becomes apparent that the movie is something provisional rather than a finished creation. The screen shows static pictures representing the characters on a white background as their dialogue is spoken. I notice, however, that the acoustics in this room are incredible. It’s a high-ceilinged room, and the sound just fills it. I can feel a shift in my awareness, as it it’s expanding to fill the room as well.

29.4.18

My dreams were consumed by another theme so much so that the palace just wasn't happening.

Chance, Gamble, Shuffle

I was in a golden box with a red carpet inside floating in the middle of the ocean. Invader Zim was present and talking to another character about how the situation presented was turning out to be ridiculous. I agreed with him but I wasn't just going to sit and mope. I climbed out and the scene began to form a ground. When I walked on it, I ended up in a purple dingy room that was decorated for a Halloween party.

I could hear Teen Titans Go in the BG and thought that while the kids watched it, I would go ahead and eat some of the snacks. I went up to a old dusty reddish chimney where a black rectangular tray had some pieces left of a skeleton candy. But just as I picked up a small piece the wall and chimney began to shake. "He's coming everyone! Hide!". I saw a boy run under the small square table in the middle of the room. I didn't want to go far or somewhere obvious/cornered so I hid behind the near small blue sofa that had a black gaping hole behind it.

As I crouched behind the sofa I saw a blurry spirit in the form of a man with a top hat come in. He slowly walked around the small table in the middle. It felt like he was looking down. Seeing through the sofa, I stepped carefully mimicking his movement so I can go around the sofa and keep out of his view. When he chose the person that was out of game and in his view, everyone in the party jumped up and ran in a line close to each other. I stood in between two guys and the one in front of me was wearing a waiter outfit. He had silver glittery cards in hand and began to shuffle the deck as soon as the spirit ordered him to begin. He didn't speak through words but we understood through feeling.
I watched as the guy shuffled the cards. There were four that seemed like they could turn around the game.


Moral Support

I was laying on my bed when suddenly a guy approached me.He took my hand and put his other hand towards me, saying he would heal me. I felt others present around my now illuminated room and than gently pushed his hand away telling him I didn't need to be healed. He than asked me what was it that I really wanted than. I said I just wanted to understand why things were the way they are.

After that I turned and looked at the other characters. They seemed like angels but I mentioned that they weren't. They agreed that they weren't and began to laugh together at my comment.

The dream than shifted and i was now in a sandy large circular area where large arches had bars in front of them like jail cells. I could hear noises coming from it and felt like it symbolized restraint for wrong doing.

After that the place changed again and I was in a room with what was supposed to be an evil person. My mom dc was present as well. While she was cooking the person made a small fire appear that burned my mom than summoned a larger fire. I blew out the fire and asked him why he was doing that. He said because he didn't care. I asked him why, is it because he lost someone he cared about and now no one else matters. He said yeah, kind of hesitating. I smiled feeling like we made a break through but this made him uneasy that he climbed out a window.The guy from the start than came back and told me that we would continue tomorrow.

After that the dream shifted and the guy from the start of the dream came out again and brought me to a light blue hall where the others from the start were grouped together.(For a moment u wondered if it was tomorrow yet...^^")I was asked to try and help them in a short amount of time.As they began to walk around doing their own thing I walked up to each one telling them things they could do to better their situation and change their perspective to a more positive one. But even if it looked like it helped some slightly they all came together and began to laugh without facing me.

I asked why they were laughing and why couldn't they just understand. It than got to the point when I wanted to smack one in the head but I stopped myself because it was not right. Instead I sighed and just watched them laugh. "Their obviously doing it to annoy me".The guy from the start than came back and asked me if I understood why things were the way they were now. I said yeah and understood that there were many opportunities for change but they didn't want to for some reason. He than brought me to a table with a yellow creature in btw us and showed me a metal with drawings on it that he drew. He said that I did a good job in changing some slightly or making them think even though I failed to make them leave the side they were on.


Final fantasy

I was trying to lend someone a pen but they were upset with me and didn't want to take it.

After that I ended up in a facility where I zoomed up btw some escalators. I passed a repetitive dc than heard a dc singing a lovely song in an unknown language. "I wish I could make music like that" I thought than sat down to listen.

The dream than shifted and I was in a room with green colored walls. There was a girl present who asked me what music I like. I said I like metal or rock but I do enjoy pop as well. She than put some rock music on and I left to find my younger cousin. She was in her room doing her best to ignore me with a poofy black short vest on. "Why is she wearing that?" I thought. I than flipped over a group of games in a basket where a final fantasy game was. This annoyed her so she flipped it back. Curious if she would do it again I did it again and the result was the same.

Notes: Perhaps to get to the palace I need to try meditating on it so I can clear my mind and have more of a chance of it becoming a theme in my dream. Next week I know its going to be another place but I still want to see if I can get myself there. On the bright side I did get fully lucid but i got distracted and wanted to see the end result.