non-lucid

Don't remember much.

I'm in some sort of underground network, mining or digging or something with some other people. I notice a tunnel that goes very far. I wonder who could have made such a tunnel. My friends think I'm looking for the bathroom.

I'm walking down a street and there's something about a guy telling me that his mom lets him sleep on a filthy mattress or something like that.

There are these mini gargoyle things everywhere and I'm putting bird wings on them with the object gun from Garry's Mod. I can't get them all because I'm on the move, but all the gargoyles come with me and we fight these dragons that are on the raised walkway of a castle, like the great wall of china.

~7:15 PM - 750 mL, oral, Cabernet Sauvignon red wine
~9:00 PM? - 2 shots, oral, whipped cream-flavored vodka

These drinks were not intended to be taken as supplements, I was just drinking with friends.... However, I figured I'd mention them as they actually had an effect on my dreams, albeit not a positive one. This is just a fragment in any case.

I was at an apartment with my friend M, which makes sense because I fell asleep in that particular setting after a night of drinking. I remember seeing her in her kitchen and asking her if she had any Tums to help settle my stomach, which was feeling a little distressed after my night of drinking and not being able to get dinner. There was more to the dream than that, but that's where my memory cuts off.

The only reason I even remember this fragment is because when I woke up this morning my stomach was still aching, and I though to myself that I really wish M had had some Tums, not that they would have helped. (Maybe dream placebo?) This is the second time a hangover has seeped into my dreams.... The last time I just had a headache and felt really weak, which made me sit out on a forest adventure.

My thought for the future: probably better not to drink and dream.

Wow, my first Multi lucid night experiencing 2 real lucids and 1 very short. This also means WE ARCHIEVED THE GOAL OF THE MONTH!!!1!

Although we archieved it on paper I'm still not happy with the result, it was way to sporadic and random. I'd rather have the LDs spread out over the month instead of cramming it all in the first and last day of the month.

1. Blurry night

I'm in my backyard looking up to the night sky which actually looked like the back of your eyelids, didn't saw many stars but I did see a small bright moon. It was very small and I think it was the new moon because of it's thin shape. I'm very disoriented and don't really know what I'm doing there at that time. Suddenly I'm somewhere at a public place with my mother, it's day and she's talking with someone about what I did last night. Apparently I acted like I was Harry Potter the night before and my mother saw all of it, needless to say it was quiet awkward.

2. What goes up must come down.

I'm at some sport park with school and there's this enormous wooden construction, it's not wide or anything just very high. Using your imagination it looked like this 'ITI' with the I's being the two supports and the T being a rope between them going all the way up to the top. I climbed the rope slowly using the technique with your feet and pushing yourself up. Once I got on the top I waited for some time looking around but then I noticed the rope fell of and I was stuck up there. For some reason I knew the exact height which was 28 meters, then I remembered people could die from falls smaller than that. Someone walked past and I asked him to throw the rope up with a hook on the end. That happened in my imagination but in the dream itself the person only started shouting at me for being stupid. I think he was a teacher.

3. A spark of hope.° (SEMI)

I wake up on the side of a street, it's in the middle of the night and I'm somewhere in an arabic looking city. It is extremely dark but once I sit up I think of doing an RC. I do the nose-plug and feel the air but don't completely become aware. I try standing up and walking noticing how quiet everything is before the dream fading away.

4. Come on!* (DILD)

I wake up again in the same arabic city on the same spot at midnight again, I feel more aware and actually make an effort to stabilize. I crawl over the ground for a bit and notice I'm wearing a turban and some long clothing. It last slightly longer than previous dream but still isn't enough!

5. I'm not giving up yet!* (DILD)

Once again I wake up in the same dream and I'm starting to feel angry cause I keep missing these opportunities. I manage to stabilize the dream to a point where I can stand up and actually inspect my surroundings. I'm near the entrance gate of the city but I'm completely alone and it's still extremely dark. I don't think of much to do and the dream ends quiet quickly.

6. I'm the expert!

I'm at school outside and it's early in the morning, the first class is starting and the teacher decides to do it outside on some benches spread out of the terrain. I take seat at a bench with some other students in the back on a grass field and we get an interactive task. Each groups gets a large sheet of paper and on that they must write down some key-words of what they dream about. I quickly announce that I do this very often and I explain the concept of dream-signs to them. Although I tell them very clearly what it is they seem quiet close-minded and one girl looks at me like I'm talking gibberish.
Then suddenly I hear a student on another bench behinds us making a joke about the teacher, shortly after the teacher begins shouting and raging demanding the person who said it to stand up. I'm thinking something like "Why would this happen on the first day already?".

7. The tour

I'm with school doing a tour throughout my home town and looking at historical sites. I'm in the back and suddenly some guy I know from draws a gun at me and shoots hitting a parked car infront of me. I instantly get down and another student thinks this is all funny, he start's shooting too. For some reason I also carry a gun so I get up and fire back but at the moment I pull the trigger the guy jumps away and I hit a friend that I know standing behind him in the chest. I'm like "Oh fuck!", the other guys laugh and one fires at me again at point blank range. I can barely dodge the bullet and it scratches my neck. Then I just walk away and join the group again which are waiting at a corner. I look around and see on two corners where IRL normally two banks would be located I now see two care centers for toddlers. One for those who sleep polyphasic and those who sleep monophasic. It actually says it above the doors of the two buildings.
The building I'm standing against which would normally IRL be a bar is now an empty building with a large open window on the front. It's very dusty so I can only see a bit inside but it's one room with a sky light and I think I also saw a saxophone standing against the wall. The guide tells about how some protestant group met up here to do there things. As I look better through the glass I see a large picture at the back wall, it a picture of a group of soldiers who fought in WW1.

I accidentally shave off skin on my face.

I am at high school. I forgot to fill out some kind of review. For some reason this feels like a congruent dream where I am perpetually forgetting an assignment, but not recalling the dream.

I was walking across a path behind my neighborhood when I met a young blonde girl with a prosthetic arm who claimed to be psychic. She was able to tell me a lot about myself. I wondered why, and became partially lucid in realizing that you don't run into psychics on the street like this regularly. But slipped out of it a few moments later.
She then took me to see her brother who was on the second floor of one of the houses in my sub (One I've never been to in RL). Her brother was blonde as well, wheelchair bound and very overweight. He spoke through a computer, like Stephen Hawking. But his psychic energy was insanely strong. I could feel it in the room. We had a long discussion but I cannot recall what it was about.


I had a long discussion about the maneuver gear from Attack on Titan with S's brother. He was trying to argue that it did not distribute force evenly across the body and if it was used in real life, it would tear someone's arms off. I was trying to explain to him that the force was actually applied all over the body and that was the reason for all the straps and the jackets that they wear on the show. I then told him that it's an anime and that anything could happen.

I'm very happy I did all the things, I announced in my last entry - and - it worked!! So that's two comp LDs, one the day after and this time directly the night after my hypno-session. Going by what that rather botched "research-experiment" was asking of us a while ago, I might do it every night now for the rest of the comp!
WBTB with a bit of haphazard WILD attempting lead to a DILD - my most successful method, actually. Just I sort of lost the belief it will actually lead me to a WILD one day...

LD #1: Again from being in a forest I had the impression, something wasn't properly real optically, without a dream-sign as such. This is rare. Gets more unusual - with lucidity I didn't only not lose optics or respective quality - nope - everything got brilliant, had a dreamy shine of beauty about it! Sweeet! So I enjoyed this on a clearing - birds swooping about and chirping, really beautiful! Nose pinch for reasons of counting it as RC, I knew it. Then to the three-stepper - hand through tree - no problem - went in, and a bit of smoke or something came out at the entry point - no heat, though, just some weird special effect. I didn't feel anything inside - as if it was hollow - and coming back out produced the feeling of breaking an elastic membrane. But the tree stayed intact - so I suppose that counts.
Next thing - telekinesis. There wasn't much there to do it on - and it wasn't easy, either. First I tried with a stone, but gave up and used a small heap of leafs instead. I wonder - but I guess it counts that I have made them fly up and swirl about in a spiral. Made me proud no end! Next time something heavier! In a way it's gravity/element manipulation as well, isn't it? I'll say it was telekinesis! Then I couldn't remember the last one (advanced flying) but got the right idea at least and went flying around a bit - but clumsily with my air-swimming.
Sounded different in my post in the comp. thread maybe - but I didn't think of fighting and conjuring DV members in the first place...

In a way - air-swimming is exactly the kind of comfy sight-seeing-friendly slow flight method I prefer through beautiful landscapes! Aiming at getting somewhere makes it instantaneous with the other stuff, often. Yupp - and lost lucidity, dreamt on normally.

Furthermore I got two dreams and two fragments - and I pray to a non-existing god to help me in that I will journal them later and not let laziness get the better of me, now I know, I could also leave it be. No I will do it - but it's so fantastic on the forum in the moment - so much to read and answer to and enjoy - could spend all day on here - got to find some time for living at the side!


Edit: worked, obviously, but not well. Next night with better dictates, and also in the morning - again lots of stuff lost due to suboptimal handling...

Dream #1: On my way to the place in Bavaria where I grew up for holidays. I'm driving, and it's winter, very beautiful scenery. And I come across a bridge, of which in the dream I was convinced, that I knew it, had been there before. Like a beacon about how I could get there, because I had lost my way. There was soo much more, and I have a load of beautiful, nostalgic nature pictures from it, but the main strain was really having troubles in getting there. But get there I did, and when I reached the lake and went out, somebody came towards me from over the frozen waters - a man, I had never seen before, and very friendly and inviting. Then the dream ended, I believe, I woke up from that. Most of it was being on the way...

Dream #2: Now this one I did completely forget, dictated at 6:18 am, I sleep in atm - and now listened to at 19:40 pm. I understand only about half of it - lots of scenic noises, like me blowing my nose - and lots of well recorded stuff, from an audio standpoint - but totally mumbled. Need to not try using English, when half asleep - doesn't work...
Seems I have been communicating with a Muslim per writing on the internet. I also read 'God Is Not Great' by the late Christopher Hitchens at the moment, surely inspired this, as well as my atheism thread. Anyways - seems I was on about, that claims about peacefulness and something I called, now cryptically to me, "going forward continuously". I proposed there would be jumps in it, but I have no idea which ones or what I meant in general. Communication went back and forth, though, and for a while - so this is a dream.

Fragment #1: I meet somebody in a forest, who makes sculpture from thin sheets of tree-trunks.

Fragment #2: At a concert, and somebody has trouble with somebody else - a shouting fight

Dream - Lucid

I was "remembering" a time when I was in high school, and I had a blue origami parrot. It very much so seemed real; it would move, though it would make no noise. I showed it to my friends. I was super happy having this paper bird. When I took it home, though, I could not find a place for him. He needed a cage, but I didn't have one. I'm not sure what happened to him.

I'm not sure where I was, it was a building in my town, but I wanted another origami parrot. I called up one of my friends, maybe Rachel, and asked her if she wanted to come with me to get one. I "remembered" I had gotten it at Animal City, a pet store here in town, though I wasn't 100% positive. Rachel was then with me, and I told her we were going to Animal City. We walked out of whatever building we were in, and Animal City was right next door. We walked inside.

We walked around inside Animal City. We saw what looked like a very large brown cat with flecks of different shades of brown playing on a cat tower (one of those carpeted towers cats use to climb/scratch/perch). Many people were around it. I figured it was the store's current mascot (IWL they always have some sort of mascot animal). I, being the cat lady that I am, went over to the cat. I was super excited to see the cat. The cat then turned around, and its face looked alien. I had no idea what kind of animal it was supposed to be, but it definitely wasn't a cat!

I then continued my search for the origami bird. I then came across a woman who had a small, green origami parrot. This is what I'd been looking for! The bird was perched on the lady's shoulder. I started to speak with her about the origami bird. She said something about it having poetry written underneath its wings. She unfolded one to reveal it. I did it myself as well, and had trouble getting the paper to fold back properly. I wondered if my old origami parrot had had poetry underneath its wings also.

I then saw that the bird only moved when the lady moved its tail. It was like an IWL origame swan; when you move its tail, the wings move. But she would do it very subtly to make it look like the bird was moving on its own. I did not remember doing this when I had my origami parrot. Maybe my memory was deceiving me. At any rate, the paper bird moving on its own was definitely an illusion. I wanted to believe that it wasn't, but it definitely was.

I don't remember if I got to have the bird or not.

~

I was with Dallas at my old friend Kacey's place. She lived in a different town, as she does IWL. We were watching her do some dance performance with a dance team. It was some interpretive type of dance. I saw people that I knew in high school also dancing with them, one being Mary Lane, but her hair was waaaaay longer than I had ever seen it IWL. I saw someone else too, a blonde girl, but I couldn't place her name. I called her something that started with an R. Kacey's husband, Rick, was somehow also involved with this dance.

When they finished, I talked to Kacey about Mary Lane being there. I also talked about the other girl, the blonde with the R name. Two girls, identical twins, then approached me. They had grey and pink in their hair. One I had mistaken for the blonde girl I knew in high school. I then realized I was wrong about the name of the blonde girl; I had no idea who these twins were.

Everyone but Kacey and her husband cleared out. We were all visiting in their living room. A boy, a child of about 5 or 6 who was supposed to be Kacey's son (she only has a daughter by marriage from Rick IWL, none of her own) came up to us. He seemed like a happy child. I saw him smile up at me with his teeth.

Then, where her son had been, was this big white bathtub full of milk and...dry cat food (I've dreamed of a bowl of cat food and milk once before, though I did not write it down). It was behind the couch. There was way more milk than cat food; I only saw some scattered pieces floating around. In the middle of the bathtub was a black and white kitten, who was drinking the milk and eating the cat food. She seemed super happy (what cat wouldn't be?). I then thought about how milk isn't good for cats, and how they would probably have to clean up cat diarrhea later.

I then woke up, but went back to sleep into the same dream.

The cat in the tub was now gone, and I was talking to Kacey in the living room. Dallas then came up to me, and told me he had heard Rick say he was going to cheat on Kacey! Kacey had not heard him tell me this; I think that Dallas whispered it to me, or Kacey was out of earshot. I really debated on whether or not I should tell Kacey, but she is one of my best friends, even though we barely talk anymore, and I owe this information to her; she deserves to know so she can decide what to do about it.

I then told Kacey about what I had heard. She was aware of the problem; he went and cheated on her all the time, and didn't think she knew. I then told her that if she wanted out, she always had a place with me. I would take her in for as long as she needed. She wasn't sure what to do, but I feel like I kind of pushed her to leave him. She finally agreed, and started throwing some of her things together. On my part, I felt that I may had been somewhat impulsive, but I would, of course, take her in no matter what she needed. I didn't want her to feel pushed though. But that feeling quickly faded, because I was finally going to get Kacey out of her horrible situation.

I then thought about her son, and whether or not she should take him. I couldn't remember for sure if the son was hers or Rick's. I guess I decided it didn't matter. I saw her get some things together, careful not to let Rick hear her, and we got into my car to drive to my place. I thought about us staying at my old apartment with Cherie', my old roommate, but realized that I had just turned my keys in (true IWL), so I couldn't just go in there anymore. So instead, I drove her to my parent's house. I had not told my parents prior to this that I was taking her in, but my mom loves her, so I figured it would be alright, and it was for a good cause as well. I did need to tell my mom, though. I went into the living room while Kacey stayed in the kitchen. I saw my mom wrapped up in a blanket, asleep on the couch. She was sick with a cold or something. I woke her to tell her about Kacey. I don't remember what she said. BUt I then figured out that my dad was cheating on my mom too. Wtf.

I then thought about how Rick knew where my house was, and so we should probably relocate, because he would absolutely suspect that we were here.

Back in the kitchen, I saw Kacey helping to fix up some dinner. As she poured frozen green beans into a pan with the entree', chicken probably, I thought that she looked like an expert the way she was putting the food together with confidence. It had something to do with the way she was pouring the veggies; she just looked like she knew what she was doing.

I then realized that we had left Dallas. Whoops. We had to go back and get him. We drove back, hoping Rick didn't notice our absence. We got there to get Dallas, and Rick had a backpack on. A guy friend was waiting for him with a backpack. It looked as if they were going camping. Rick had not even noticed we were gone. He said he'd be back in two days. I knew he was going to cheat on Kacey when he was gone. Further, if he cared for her at all, he would have noticed she disappeared without warning for awhile. His mind was obviously preoccupied.

At some point being back at Kacey's, I saw a bunch of sweat pants. I wondered if Kacey wanted to grab those to take with her.

When Rick was gone, Kacey and I went into town to investigate. We came across this building that had signs on the front window. It said "Cheat! Cheat! Cheat!". It was a lounge for men to go to to cheat on their wives (subtle advertisement, right?). I forgot what it was called. There were men going inside.

We then went into the lounge. Since it was daytime, not too many people were there yet, thank goodness. There were lots of big, circular and half-circle couches there. We went up to the counter, and two young men were there. We spoke with them, though I can't remember what it was about. They were acting like we didn't know where we were, trying to hide it and not doing a very good job at it; they were smiling and surpressing laughter as they spoke with us. They said something to us along the lines of there was no man that stayed faithful; all men cheated. When we decided we would leave, they said
"Thanks for visiting the ____lounge, I mean room." As if room made it sound less shady.

There were bits where Kacey and I talked about Rick cheating, and how she would approach him about running away from him. I don't remember if this was done in the dream or not. I don't think it was. During this whole dream, though, I felt very close to Kacey, closer than I have in years. I missed that, and still do IWL.

4 January 2014

Note: This is the first dream where the dialogue is memorable enough to jot down although much of it will need to be paraphrased. There will be some holes in the dialogue. Believe it or not this is one of my favorite dreams because it is one of the most vivid and made for a good narrative (I love dreams with good narrative). Anyway it may not be the most positive but it is definitely the most interesting dream I have had.

[~]-used to indicate hole in dialogue

There may be some phrases I use that you don't recognize

Aperture-a random opening that leads the dreamer to (what seem like) completely random spots. For example: a closet door that takes one from his bedroom out to an open field or a classroom door that leads from the classroom out to the edge of space would be considered an aperture.

"Denizens" are what I call my dream figures.

It was nearing the last day of the final year of Prairie Park School. Me and all of my friends sat around a table in a dimly lit room. Sitting there was my friend from scouts Nick, he sat across from me along with Sarah. Next to me was Alternian troll, Terezi Pyrope. The school was deserted and we sat silently. Sarah sat working on her paper for her finals or something; I cannot recall what everyone else was working on I just remember that it was silent; no one said a word to one another. I had eyes for Terezi, I am not sure why. There was an aperture at the top of the steps that led into the house of the apple family and I do believe that the other denizens had use of the aperture. I was staying with the apple family and was in a room with four bunk beds. I think I was bunking with Alicorn Princess Twilight Sparkle. Now Twilight was unusually quiet and seemed to spend most of the dream brooding over something, people didn’t even notice her existence. The strange thing here is that Twilight was in her usual pony form whereas the apple family consisted of anthropomorphic versions of themselves. There was not much happening beyond this point in time that I can well remember.

The next day was the same as the first; we all sat in the exact same spots in silence. Sarah worked silently on her paper while everyone else seemed to sit staring at the table. Terezi was just outside of my field of vision to my right. The room was the same as it was yesterday, empty, dim, somewhat eerie. I wonder what everyone was thinking as we approached the end of the year. What was going through everyone’s mind? What was going through my own mind? Even I did not know. After nearly two straight workdays of complete silence Sarah finally spoke up and said: “Dammit! Being friends with MT was a waste of time [~] can’t get this project done because of him [~] wish I was never friends with him.”

I heard this and felt as though I had been knifed in the back by a friend. This was not a sentiment that I was unfamiliar with. One would think that I would be used to it by now, nonetheless it stung. Just as always the wound felt fresh, as though I was experiencing this pain for the first time because, the truth is, you never do get used to it no matter how many times it happens and no matter how much you try and convince yourself otherwise. I was even more shocked to find that nick shared the same sentiment as did every one else there. I was unable to recount exactly what was said but there was definitely a common theme amongst the group: MT was a waste of time. I was blamed for everything that was wrong in their lives and I tried to defend myself but I was not given much of a chance to speak.

I was catatonic. I had no idea how to react and didn’t even have a firm grasp on my own thoughts. I was slumped over, staggering like a drunk. If the human mind really is designed to respond to a verbal attack as it responds to a physical one then it was a miracle I could even stand after such a merciless beating. I made my way through the aperture hoping to get away from all the hate and negativity but it seems that the fates had declared me undeserving of such respite. I would say that the apple family’s attitude towards me had changed but honestly I don’t think they liked me to begin with. The only thing that had changed was the volume at which they voiced contempt, that is to say, they were no longer keeping their opinions to themselves. Lazy, worthless, words along those lines which were spoken by the apple family, hurled at me from all directions. I did not have supper that night. Confused and upset, I retreated to my room. Although I suppose technically it was our room, Twilight Sparkle was still there although mentally she was lost in her own little world all day everyday. I was not surprised to find her in the exact same spot I left her slumped over on her bed with her wings hanging limb over her shoulders; just…thinking.

The next morning was no better than the previous night. I went out only to be greeted by more insults and put-downs. I think my peers from school were there at the house having breakfast and they willfully joined in on the onslaught. A huge unmemorable chunk of time passed before I was back at school with my so called friends. There wasn’t much change from yesterday except that the denizens were wandering around this time exchanging the same dialogue they always had been. At some point I saw Terezi and I tried to grab her attention: “Don’t talk to me,” she said angrily as she began to storm off. For the first time ever in this dream segment I had a clear grasp on my emotions. I knew what I was feeling and I knew exactly what I wanted to say. I could feel it in my cheeks, my skin tone would not show it, but I was red. I was furious! Much so that I was trembling. Such wonton hatred from a girl to whom I have barely even spoken. “STOP!” I shouted, “Just fucking stop, and listen, please! You at least owe me that.” She did not say a word nor did she turn to face me but she did stop. She stood still with her head raised as though to say, I’m listening.

I struggled to gather my words as a lump had formed in my throat and I would be damned if I gave her the satisfaction of letting her see me cry. “What is my crime? What have I done to you? For fuck’s sake! Where is any of this coming from?”

She turned her head slightly, “You wasted my time…you didn’t like me back.”

“What?”

She turned to face me with trepidation in her voice, “I liked you, you idiot! I liked you all this time [~] I sent you all kinds of signals and you never returned the sentiment! I wasted the year trying to get your attention and looked over me completely!”

To this I did not cry, I did not shout, in fact, I smiled. I smiled and I began to chuckle and soon again I started to laugh. I was not happy about what I had just heard, in fact I was livid. But what she had just said was just so fucking ridiculous, how could I not laugh? “Are you serious? Are you fucking serious?? You are all pissy at me for not reading your mind? How could I have known? You never fucking said anything! And, newsflash, I liked you too!”

“What? Then why didn’t you say anything, idiot!?”

“I didn’t know what to say [~] you didn’t say anything either and you don’t see me abruptly snubbing you now do you!?”

I do not remember her response but our friendship was never repaired. We turned away from each other both in an angry huff but before I walked away I turned and asked her: “What about the others? Why are they angry with me?”

She barely turned to me again; her words were cold steel “You wasted their time too. You held them back.”

On my way back to the aperture I heard them going on about all of the things that they could have accomplished if they hadn’t of known me. I left them without saying anything; back into the cold unwelcoming residence of the apple family. Even Apple Jack did not care to speak to me and I still had no idea why. I retired to my room with my roommate Twilight. I may have spoken to her; venting the events of the past three days. I didn’t shout nor did I yell; I just talked to her. I knew she didn’t listen and I knew that she was not cognizant of me or even what I was saying. She was too preoccupied with her own naval gazing but it was nice to have someone to talk to about this regardless. I fell asleep that night for the last time before I was taken out of myself.

Imagine that I am a camera drone getting a view of the table at which the four of us were sitting.

ZOOM OUT: I see the school, Prairie Park, among buildings but these are not ordinary buildings; these are crystal buildings. Among the buildings I see jet black, jagged, and spiky vines growing amongst them. The top half of the sky seems to be over cast with vines.

ZOOM OUT: I see more of the city now. There are more vines wrapping around buildings and getting in the way. Aside from a small break towards the tops of the shorter sky scrapers the vines seem to come together to form a dome over the city. Anyone could see now that the city is being consumed.

ZOOM OUT: I now have a full view of the city. There is no doubting that this is the Crystal Empire coming under siege by a merciless onslaught of parasitic plant life.

ZOOM OUT: I am now miles out of the city which appears to be floating in an eerie nebular haze. The city is in between two hemispheres composed of these vines both of which are closing in on one another. There is but a small break in between the two hemispheres and in a matter of moments they will make contact; entrapping The Crystal Empire forever.

I see one vine stretching away from the mass towards a small floating house orbiting the city just a few miles out. This was the house at which I was staying; that is where the aperture had been taking me. As I get closer I see Twilight Sparkle smiling at the catastrophe through the window as though she were marveling a masterpiece. I knew that she was responsible for this as I could hear her internal dialogue for the first time.

“I know what I am doing is wrong,” she said “and I also know that I am not myself.” Dark music plays in the background as she dialogues: “Perhaps I should stop this and end this madness for the sake of my friends who are trapped inside, but why should I?” I understood now what was going on in her mind. She had been hurt by people, Lord knows how many people and Lord knows how close to her these people were. She had been betrayed and lied to and now her pain was made manifest through these vines.

Now here was her moment; her moment to choose what she will do. Will she save the Empire from certain doom or embrace the darkness that is gradually overtaking her heart and allow this kingdom to be consumed? As the vine grew closer to her an evil grin grew ever wider across her face, it was clear at that point: a choice had been made. The vine reached for her and Twilight extended her hoof ready to grab it. It was as though darkness itself was extending a welcoming hand and Twilight was ready to accept. She was ready to embrace a life of anger, sadness, and revenge.

Just before Twilight grabbed the branch she thought to herself: “I did not really care about The Crystal Empire for what is a pony other than a mere insect?”

That was the very last thing I heard before waking up and it is the only line I remember verbatim. The music cuts out as my eyes open.

Trivia
Terezi Pyrope was the odd one out as she was the only non-human at the school

The house looked just like my third childhood home aside from my bedroom which resembled a slightly bigger college dorm.

I have seen this nebula two other times in previous dreams.

Started as a one dream night, WTF? Dreams are supposed to *build* in a competition, not vanish! Boo hoo.

2mg melatonin at bedtime, it's hot, I want to make sure I sleep.

I think there were some fairly awesome earlier dreams but they vanished.

06:30

1) in a coffee shop, talking to dude across from me, soccer girl.

At a large table in a coffee shop, about 8 in our group, the waitress is pouring water into our instant (if this is such a nice coffee shop why are we drinking instant?), the guy across from me is gone for a long while then he returns, he's gotten another cup of "K3", I say "you're probably all set for a night long work session!" I ask him the longest he's been awake, he answers 2 days. He starts talking about the soccer video game he likes to play, how the game creators are very careful about security so the game can't be cheated.

He starts talking about girl on a team(?), I see a series of still photographs arranged in a grid about her and her progress?

WBTB -- up a long time, can't sleep

09:30 BTB, eventually sleep

12:20

wake up with some fairly detailed recall, yay happy for the day again.

2) sister tag tower. I'm in some bridge tower, darkly lit, my sister is there we're playing tag (as adults) she runs up several landings up the stairs and hides in the darkness. There's no way I'm going to get here without her seeing/hearing me she'll just run away farther so I play it cool and just hang out, more people arrive. I think my moment is here so I signal my father to start playing music (singing?), this will cover the sound of my steps so I stealthily climb up to the next landing and I see my "sister" wearing a colorful dress in a crowd of women wearing dresses like dancers and I surge forward and tag here before she can get away, the other women think I cheated, I go and stand in a large platform below where they're standing.

3) football catch punt. I"m watching a (US) football game DO high over the field and a bit to the side. There's a kickoff but the kick goes out of bounds so it won't count, but somehow the play keeps continuing and I see the ball rolling in the center of the field rolling towards the end-zone, I expect the kicking team player (wearing a white uniform) will down the ball on the goal line but at the last second he just stands up and lets the ball roll into the end-zone. Instead of bringing the ball out the kicking team takes the side of the receiving team and without uniforms starts playing a "fake" play of football all to themselves, then one of the big guys runs up the field and the referee declares they can punt (back towards the original receiving team). I see the punt, it looks like a bad kick it is very high but not very far. HEY, the ball is coming RIGHT FOR ME, I see the football spinning rapidly and getting closer, and I *catch* it with two arms! I'm ecstatic, I hold the ball up like a trophy among my group on the balcony. I'm looking for a referee to hand the ball back to and toss it to someone on the balcony level below mine. I think, "crap I should have had someone take a picture of me first before I did that." Then there's a scene of some football players doing a celebration dance, they're right in front of me, and I (unfortunately) see the foot-long schlong and big nutsack of one of the players who's directly facing me, swinging back and forth with his dance, I really wish I hadn't seen that.

4) in store bags of food. I'm walking through a upscale grocery store, I'm looking for some good snack food. I see packages hanging up on the wall, I'm expecting they'll be potato chips, but I see instead it's full of weird things like marinated salisbury steak chunks, I move on through the store where I have to push through some young people coming the other way. I head up a ramp towards the check-out and I notice my legs -- I'm wearing black thermal underwear but the pants are so old and thin that when I lift my legs and the overhead light strikes it you can clearly see my skin, I'm embarassed a bit about that. I'm now approaching a register but the area is like dark casino gambling pit, it's carpeted. There are some "bad guys" also approaching, I wonder how they'll get through. I bring my stuff and unload it onto the circular check out counter, I see I have forgotten to put some of the vegetable items, including a small clump of some short greens, into bags. I count that I need 4 bags and tell that to the clerk who echoes it back to me.

F1) drive past church with missile statues. Driving in a car with my wife, she points out another Church where we used to stop and the kids used to play, I sort of recognize it, I look out the window as we drive by and see a war memorial with about a dozen large sized missiles pointing towards the center of the square.

F2) watching TV in my childhood room

Dream 1
6:30am

(Not sure if this is a new dream or linked to the 2nd dream)
Im outside with Josh and we're watching the neighbour do some yard work. I can see an excavator in the yard also. Josh mentions about the man not doing much of a good job and that the girl with him has a weird nose. I can now see 2 girls in the distance, who're wearing work clothes. I can now see one of the girls up close. I notice the nose of the girl which is like a shrek nose but still not bad looking. I start to feel sharp stomach pain which transitions from waking life into the dream.

I'm in a house and I become semi lucid. I turn into a sex crazed maniac... Ugh, and can't control myself to stop and become proper lucid so I can try different things for a chance rather then chase some tail.. I see a women running away from me (don't blame her) and she's nude. I have intentions to have sex with her. I chase her down and wrap my arms around her from behind and start to feel her breasts. She has small cupped breasts and rub them and squeeze them. She isn't relaxing and still trying to break free but I am physically too strong for her. I man handle her and start to fuck her from behind. It feels little odd, as if I was too high up on her back and needed to find the right angle for penetration. It lasts for what feels like maybe 30 seconds before I wake up.

Dream 2
8:10am

I'm with Daryl and Josh. We're walking through an area with a lot of people and someone throws a piece of tissue or rubbish at me. I pick if and throw if back as a joke. I think I throw if at a guy that didn't throw it at me for starters. I get a reaction from a group of the guys once I threw it. One of them chanted something similar to "ceiling to ground". They come towards me and pick me up and throw me to towards the ceiling and catch me as I come down. They repeat this process for about 10 seconds. This was all in fun.

I leave the area and reach Daryl and Josh. They're in what looks likes a house or a restaurant. They're eating their dinners which is steak and veggies. I ask them about something to do with how I'll be able to get my food. Daryl gets up from the table and says that he's done eating. Im surprised due to the fact that Daryl truly loves his food and never leaves a scrap IRL. I ask him is that all you're going to eat? He gets my drift and says I could have it. Now a older lady comes over with her and offers hers. I feel like a burden now that everyone is sacrificing their food for me. Daryl's steak looked as if it hadn't been touch and was perfect looking in shape and colour.

I'm outside with my brother and he goes over to next door to offer to fix things. He's knocking but getting no answer. I somehow make a noise or hear a noise which tricks my brother into thinking it's coming from inside the house. There's a large women in the garden and she spots me and asks what I'm doing. I feel as if she is suspicious of me and I tell her I'm looking to do some repairs on the house. She starts to get angry and points at the tool I have in my hand, when is an old looking chisel. She keeps insisting that what I have in my hand is going to be used for other purposes. I insist that it's for fixing things. I start feeling pretty defenceless in the convocation.

I think the lady tries to catch me out as if she knew I was bullshitting to her, and invites me inside to have a look at things. I walk inside and it's very dark. I see a light from a smart phone around a corner where a man around my age is laying in bed looking at his phone. I greet him and he thinks I've said something different to what I said and repeats it to me in a confused manner. Moments later he clicks on what I really said and greeted me back. As I look around the room I see major holes in the whole, some small and some big. A few of the holes were shape a human body as if someone had walked through it. It was a perfectly shaped hole of a human.

I sit down on the couch with my brother and the man on the phone. The light are turned on now and I can see peoples faces properly. Myself and the man gets into a convocation. He looks to have long hair and some facial piercings. I get a feeling as if the man is maybe gay and attracted to me or maybe just wanted to be my friend. I tell him that I live next door and if he ever wanted to hang out to just come over.

As we're leaving my brother kisses the man on the lips. I'm confused on how to approach this goodbye and go in for a hug. As I hug him he doesn't hug me back but instead shakes my hand as I'm hugging him. It's an all time award moment.

Dream 1

A girl started crying because I was joking about something she did in the year 1885

Dream 2

It was nightime and I was on my front drive. My mums car was parked where it always was and a boy about 15, with blonde spiky hair came hurtling on his pushbike into the side of my mums car. It left a huge dent, I had a feeling he did it on purpose as a joke. After he got up without saying a word and rode off round the block close to my house, I knew this was true. I chased after him, after a while I caught up with him. I pulled him off his bike and was not happy with him. After some heated discussion I found out he was poor and he had no money to pay back the damages he done to the car, purposely. So I got my mum to come and we decided we should let him off.

Dream 3

My nan and grandad had a new dog, we were in their bedroom and it climbed out the window and jumped over the fence

1. I was in my driveway. There was a pretty big truck there and my grandpa told me to get in it and drive. I got in and he got in the passenger seat. The truck was silver and was the suspension was jacked up alot, so it sat really high. I put the truck in drive and slowly pulled out of the driveway. I had never driven a truck before, so I noticed that it handled alot differently. I turned right or left out of my driveway and started driving. Immediately my grandpa started criticizing my driving(even though Ive never driven a truck before this) and told me what I was doing wrong and what not.
I kept on driving and drove wherever he told me to go. Sometime later, as I was driving down a street in my neighborhood, I started tripping, REALLY hard. Everything was moving like waves and breathing like in a trip and it was really taking an effect on my driving ability. I immediately thought I was "crashing", something I had talked to a friend, PKJacker, the night before. I tried pulling over, and as I was my grandpa stopped me and told me to keep going- so I did.
Later on I somehow got onto the freeway and my dad was now in the passenger seat. We were starting to ascend onto a bridge/overlook on I-4 (no idea what highway that is). As we kept climbing this steep ramp I got really scared because it was really high and I didnt trust myself in this truck. Once the ramp sort of leveled off it split into 2 other bridges. As I neared this split I told my dad to take the wheel, and he did, and we ended up going onto the right bridge. I took the wheel over again and continued driving. We were approaching and tunnel that had a random drop in it where your car would just fall onto another road below it(into traffic, so it was really unsafe). My dad guided me on how to handle this and told me to watch for traffic below and speed up to where I would land on this small platform and fall onto the road below us(I know, really confusing). I made it down safely and continued driving.

With the end of the month tomorrow and thus also it being time to review the results I think it's fair to say that it's time for change. I already talked about using DEILD for next month and stopping the WBTB-alarm, one of the goals of this month was archieving a succesfull WILD which I won't do next month cause doing a full WILD (not a short one using DEILD) seems to be too difficult in the house during an afternoon nap. I get interrupted constantly and I just don't have such a lucid-desire during the day. Dream-Recall goal for next month will likely be reduced from 4 minimum average per night to 3 because 3 is more than enough.

Anyway, the dreams this night were quiet highly detailed and vivid, able to support lucidity is you asked me.
I woke up once but moved before I realized it, I should really tell myself not to move.

1. Mine(craft)

I'm somewhere deep down in a cave in the game 'Minecraft', I'm digging up resources like Redstone and instead of ore I find complete blocks of pure Redstone. Then I have weird X-ray vision and I can see a bit better in the dark. Some creepers attack me but I can kill them with a sword, in the background I hear some voices of people reacting shouting things like "Oh god a creeper!" or "Watch out!".

2. The old house

I'm in an old house located probably somewhere in the middle of Antwerp during the Victorian era based on the clothing and poverty. I suddenly have two sisters instead of one IRL and the house we live in is in extremely bad condition. It could probably collaps any time, the floors were mostly gone on most levels meaning you could stand on the bottom of the house and look straight up to the roof. My sisters slept on the first floor and I slept in the attic, the way I reached this attic was by climbing a thin make-shift stair/ladder which was very dangerous but somehow I was used to it. The house also felt very cold because of holes in the roof and broken windows, it was probably winter outside.

3. The old/new farmhouse

I'm aproaching a large farmhouse with my dad, there's a snow storm going on and visibility is bad probably 10 meters at most. The house is remote with some fields around it and than a thick forest, at first from the outside it looks very old and maybe also derelict. Once we get inside it is quiet dark and cold, we quickly go around turning on all the heaters which also provides light throughout the house. While I go around turning on the heaters I realize just how large this place is and I think of how nice it could be if renovated. Slowly I realize I'm suddenly in the same house but it is very modern and nicely decorated. On the second floor somewhere in the back of the house I find two rooms which are seperated by a glass wall. The room I stand in first is empty and I think just a lounge corner. The other room which I enter not much later has some fitness equipment in it and upon better inspection also has 2 baths and a shower which makes me really happy cause it seems so usefull. Both rooms have a beautifull view over the field infront of the house which is completely covered in snow. It is evening and the snow storm is still raging outside so I can't look very far outside still. I feel an intense joy as if I own this house and I never want to leave it.

OKAY DREAM 1!!:

I was hanging out in the living room, it was a beautiful day - a beam of light was pouring through the window, illuminating all the dust in its path, nice stuff. I looked outside and there was this strange creature sniffing around the window. It was a large, green rabbit with various spring flowers growing out of its back. I thought, DAMN THAT's cool! so I reached through the solid window and gave it a nice pat on the back(still didn't realize it was a dream). A bunch of green dust was now on my hands from petting it. I smelled the green dust and it smelled of grapes, I had a split second thought of eating the grape flavoured rabbit. Then it ran away from the window and shook off all the green dust and flowers. A smaller rabbit and a raccoon jumped off the large, now just brown, rabbit's back. They all came charging towards the door to get inside, pushed it open somehow, then started dancing around me. I felt a little nervous and the raccoon jumped up and clawed at my shoulder then they all ran outside. The cats ran after them and then I woke up.

Lucid 1:

This dream started in the sun room, so I was surrounded by plants and there was light everywhere and a little mist and it was very pretty. I felt like something was in my throat so I coughed and out came this giant worm. It wriggled around on the floor for a couple seconds, gooing all over the place before I thought, either I have a serious parasite problem or this is a dream. So I tried to make the worm fly into the air with my mind powers and it shot upwards a couple feet. Hurray! I casually strolled outside and picked up a flower and ate it, tasted like flower petals. Then I decided to try to fly off into space. I started off flying slowly before I felt as though I was tethered to the ground by an invisible rope. I managed to break free and I went off at super speed, everything turned white. I saw a black hole in front of me and I flew straight into it. I instantly appeared back in my backyard. But I was floating around as though there was no gravity. I flew straight through my house, then the neighbor's house, and I appeared right back in my backyard, so I did it again and again and I was stuck in a loop so I just relaxed and meditated as I kept flying through houses faster and faster. I felt a strange calm and contentment even though the world around me was anything but. After a couple moments of feeling fantastic I woke up, in my backyard, and ran to a table to try to write down some stuff when I thought...I don't usually wake up in my backyard, FALSE AWAKENING!! I still wrote some stuff down to help me remember.

Once I was done writing some notes about the previous dream, I walked into the house while trying to think of something else to do. I remembered the reading DC mind/becoming DC tasks and I decided to try to feel the emotions of my cat. I felt nothing, just a strong desire to eat bugs. So I looked behind me and there was a DC sitting there. I let myself feel what the DC was feeling and it was great sadness, as though an old friend had died. I woke up.

So first I'm a little confused about when class ends so I leave it early, only realizing once I'm out in the halls that it's against the rules, and by then, I don't dare go back. I head toward the exit of our school, when I decide that I might like to stop by the orchestra room and pluck some songs on my viola. I sit in the back so as to not disturb the players who are coming in and setting up, and I mess around on my viola a bit. However, cellists sit on my left and on my right, and it takes Cpt. Picard (in place of my actual orchestra teacher) to tell me to move to make me realize that I've disrupted the seating - I didn't know they would be sitting this far back. (In real life, that's not where the cellos sit, anyway.) I feel pretty embarrassed as I sit in the far corner, and I want nothing more than to leave, but that would draw even more attention to me and make me even more embarrassed.

Later, I'm playing a game where my character is a banded sea krait!naga/mermaid when in the water and a person when out, though he's got legs at the end of his tail.. This means that when outside of the water, he's naked. His human friend, because of this, is naked for some reason too. I get stuck somehow, I don't remember if I just don't know where to go in the game or if I have computer problems, but I ask my dad and my friend to come over and help. However, I'm covering up the middle of the screen with the two characters with a blanket. Unfortunately, it's see-through. My Dad and friend say it's no big deal and it's just a game, and I insist that no, they don't understand, I'm not just keeping them naked for the heck of it!

Later, I am the naga, and I'm also that tall blonde-haired guy from Free!. My human friend is the black-haired guy who loves water so much. (It's been a while since I've watched this, heh.) I no longer have legs at the end of my tail, and sometimes I forget I'm a sea krait and I swim like a normal fishy mermaid. Most of this dream is avoiding dangerous humans, talking to my two friends (I later get a friend who's a girl, though I don't think she was from Free!) about the conservation of the sea and the creatures and structures that reside in it, and talking to a skiddish sea krait!naga/mermaid who is scared of pretty much everyone from years of avoiding dangerous humans.

Late to bed after watching two episodes of a series, drinking a bit of alcohol and then, I didn't do something on going to bed. Upon waking up naturally, I wasn't willing to properly WBTB. Had done some simple RCs yesterday, at least.
Today later I plan one more hypnosis session and I did two, and hope for more extended RCs with pretending to be lucid and what to do then. I will also put an alarm for WBTB, not to "decide" about it on the spot (the wrong way...).
My I-Phone is loaded for dictation in the night and morning, too.


Dream #1: That's the one, from which I woke up - the one, which was clearly there, when waking up in the middle of the night is gone by now. After talking about it yesterday in my DJ and making said thread - tadaa - I was "shopping dress ideas" again (irl I didn't buy new clothes or anything like it for a long while). And shoes - seriously out of my reach - there are people, who have a shoemaker doing stuff to their specifications. Hm - hehe - how to get famous and rich?
Well - anyway - it had the so often present small difficulties along the way, including a toilet, and there was more to it, but what I have seems "dream-worthy".


Fragment #1: I drive a car, going backwards around a corner upwards to park it into not much space. Worked.

Fragment #2: With my grandmother in our old garden, planting hyacinths.

Fragment #3: In a restaurant, and a woman, I know from former work, and didn't like her, was the waitress and it was awkward.