non-lucid

DREAM #1:
I was in a poor neighbourhood that reminds me of Chinatown.
I was looking at a rich home. There were some grass hedges surrounding it.
There was also a swing. A young girl used to live here and ride on the swing often, but she was dead now.
All around the rich homes, there were shops owned by poorer individuals.
~ this was a really vivid dream, so I was surprised when I could barely remember much of it :/

DREAM #2:
- I saw my friend A at one point. Can't remember what happened.
- I was outside of a Buddhist temple with someone. Two guys nearby told us the names they'd "signed up" under (some sort of competition). One was not Asian, but he'd signed up under the Vietnamese name, "Hai Qúa".
- Something to do with taking down a man (may've had to do with the competition). The man was very popular and well-liked, so the task wouldn't be easy. But he wasn't a good person (can't remember why) so my goal was to find him doing bad things.
- I was standing outside of an area that reminds me of the University Hospital. It had been built recently. There was a walkway that consisted of a brown, metal frame and glass walls, where I could see the people walking through it. There were some brochures and directories erected throughout the area, talking about the history surrounding it. I remember a statue that reminds me of the Statue of Liberty. However, the top part of the statue had been destroyed, chunks of it laying on the ground. Apparently, there were a lot of people who disliked this new area, so they went and messed it up pretty often. I thought about how the organizers would have to get used to re-building and repairing if they still wanted to continue with this.
While I was here, I did a corkscrew for whatever reason. Even though it was on concrete, I pulled it off with ease and without fear. There were some street lamps nearby. I saw one or two women dressed in business attire walking by. They didn't seem to notice me.

Points:
- 1 NLD (1pt)
- 1 frag (0.5pt)

COMP TOTAL: 75

yesterday 8.23.15

daytime sleep, this dream remembered when woken up at 10:30pm

I come to a place that looks like a locker room. I report to someone saying "I'm your new *manager". (mimics events from waking liffe). There are about 4-5 males and a female. She is their boss. Ther are gearing up for a field trip to nature. She tells me to change if I have something more comfortable to change into, because it's going to be hot outside. She is wearing a top that exposes her boobies. I look and I see every detail. I look down and I'm wearing all black, as it is my current uniform. I don't feel like changing into something she is wearing, haha.

I was living on some kind of farm area and there was a chain link fence between my house and the neighbor's. My dog Loki escaped from the house and went running over to the fence, and at the same time I saw the neighbor's two bigger dogs, like both retrievers or something, run over and snarl at her. Loki was just walking along obliviously while these two dogs tore at the fence to get to her, and for some reason I was stuck at the door and couldn't go running after her, so I was watching helplessly and screaming. The two dogs tore through the fence, one went through the middle and the other went under, and they attacked Loki and I could hear all her whimpering and I was just flipping out. The two dogs eventually backed off and I ran over and Loki was lying on the ground covered in blood with a huge gash on her belly, and I started crying because I thought she was dead, but I looked and her eyes were open slightly and she was breathing, and when I picked her up her tail wagged a little. So I rushed into the garage but the car was blocked by someone's car who was visiting the house, and I screamed for Cory so his friend moved the car and Cory and I got in our own car and drove off to the vet. I was sitting in the passenger seat with Loki all distraught. It took a long while to get there, and when we stopped Cory got out but we were at CULVER'S... he came back to the car with two pints of ice cream and I was like WTF! I woke up pretty shaken.

I had a lucid dream, I don't remember how I became lucid, but it happened while I was standing in a dark grassy field looking out over a starry night sky. I rubbed my hands together to stabilize myself and scanned the horizon for the moon. It was pretty low on the horizon and slightly covered by some dark trees, but as I looked at it, I thought "I wonder if I can still do that ki flying thing... aiming for the moon would be a huge success." So I did! I focused my attention on the moon as a goal and I jumped into the air, flying towards it. I almost fell at first, and kind of dropped to the ground a bit, but I ignored it and kept my focus on my goal, and soon I was flying at super human speeds with the moon growing bigger and bigger. The moon was coming up pretty fast, so I threw my legs forward so I could land on my feet and descended. The moon was pretty small... it was like the size of King Kai's planet. I wandered around and looked at all the craters, then sat down and ran my hands through the sandy ground. Moon dust! The stars in the sky were even more awesome on the moon. I noticed off to the side was a little deep cave, so I leaned over and thought it would be cool to have moon-people, so I cleared out a bunch of rocks and stuff blocking the entrance and I saw some movement inside. But then I woke up.

I was in some kind of school-type setting, with a bunch of other people, and this guy kept checking me out and starting hitting on me and stuff. When he came over, I leaned over and whispered to him that I was going to go in an empty room down the hall, and that he should come out five minutes later after me, so we could meet up without everyone in the class knowing what was going on. So we met up in the empty room and had sex. Right afterwards, all the other people decided to move to that empty room, so we had to gather ourselves really quickly and pretend like nothing happened.

There was a mini-dream I had when I dozed off, it just involved me picking up daddy long legs spiders and one of them kept biting me. I looked at him walking along my arm biting me over and over and I was just all "Why you gotta do me like this, bro?!" Bah.

I was in an aquarium with Manei and Marcus. We were all wearing wet-suits and swimming around and there were all these different fish. Marcus said something about how well the police were choreographed. Then we realized we were being chased by police. Marcus had a small escape submarine but it was protected by a force field that he had to disable first. Apparently the force field was actually tank gravel suspended in a magnetic field used to protect the submarine from theives.

We got inside, somehow without using the airlock. The door had some kind of field like in the first star wars movie where you could come out from being underwater. I think a little bit of water had gotten into the submarine though. I remember the inside was full of board games and toys. I thought this was weird.

I remember we needed to escape because the police were going to catch up. Marcus told the AI to run the thrusts. Apparently, the thrusts ran off of Biomass from living humans so you had to sacrifice a part of your body if you wanted to make them go. He said he wanted to the AI that he wanted to sacrifice his feet to help us escape. The AI said that was sufficient biomass for a short thrust. I saw the submarine started moving but his feet became smaller and more bony. It didn't look painful though. In fact, I didn't think he even cared. Well I cared...

"No! Wait Stop! Watch this! AI, use my tonsils, my wisdom teeth, and my appendix!"

"New biomass selected."

I didn't feel any changes in my body except a slight tingling in the back of my mouth.
We traveled through a coral reef for a minute. But all the coral looked fake, and there were only a few fish/aquatic animals that were not very colorful or interesting. Eventually we came to the surface. We were in a pool of water under the parking lot of my high school.

There was something important to Manei and Marcus in the dream. We were characters in a video game. Marcus was like the character in the tutorial level, and Manei was the companion character. This is why Marcus was supposed to sacrifice his feet, because he could only help and guide you from a distance.

A car drove up. It was black and I think it was unusually wide and flat. I remember thinking about the arrangement of seats inside was 3x3 and that had some significance. In it were a bunch of clones of Psy. (The guy who did the Gangnam Style Dance.) I said something to him. But he then pulled out a giant bazooka and said that this was because I didn't like his new song. (Unpopular opinion: I don't really like Gangnam style or Psy in general. ._.) He shot at the side of the submarine that had morphed into a bus. The rocket made a pitifully small explosion and did no damage.

Marcus portaled away leaving me and Manei to fight. We didn't have any weapons. I poked up out of the porthole and I asked her to hand me all of the board games and toys. I started throwing them at the large black car. I remember the front hood would open and close and snap like a jaw and the front end of the car was bouncing up and down. I think it had metal teeth. I was trying to throw something into the engine because it was like a video game weak spot. More and more Psys appeared and started advancing on us in phalanxes, doing the gangnam style dance all the way. Manei said we had run out of board games to throw so I told her to just give me anything.

...

I was then in the movie theater in my town and there was a trailer for the new pixar movie. The movie started off with a Dinosaur trying to build a house out of longs and tie it together with vines. He said something sad about how he knew that the meteor that killed the dinosaurs was going to come and kill them all because he was going to be re-incarnated as it.

As he was finishing building the house, he stood on the roof and pulled one of the vines tight with his mouth. But one of the logs broke because he was standing on it. He got very sad and just sat under the house anyway and cried.

It then showed a dragon named Lionheart. She had a really big/thick body and six short legs along with short stubby wings. She was light bluish green with dark blue stripes. Apparently she was the last dragon who died 600 years ago. She was flying above the ocean during a stormy night.

Lionheart stopped on a small island with one palm tree and curled up. She said that she was dying now, but would next be re-incarnated as a flag. She then vomited up a blue banner and died. Her body turned into fireflies. The blue banner was made out of a really tough sort of silk material that was unbreakable. It had a gold embroidery on the edge. Then a blue circle outline appeared in the middle of the banner and glowed brightly for a second before just turning into a white printed circle.

The banner was left partially buried in the sand and the island slowly sank. The island became known as Clusterbottom because the sand still made a cluster on the bottom.

The Secret of Clusterbottom 12345678910 was the title of the movie. It ended with a character saying that "In order for you to gain something, you have to lose something first."

...

This was what Manei called a dream of a dream. It was supposed to be the future, but we were still speaking in the present. It was weird, we were dissonant from the rest of the environment. In the dream we had a family... three kids I think. Born as triplets. Two girls and one boy.

"Ugh. How could you stand having all these kids?"

"You forget. This doesn't have to be our future if you don't want it. In dreams, the past, future and present are not set in stone. They [are dynamic]. We can change the past when we go to the future. This is just one possible future that we can live. This is why your body doesn't age or change in a dream, because we chose to stay at a young age out of preference."

I remember looking in the mirror and seeing that we both still looked exactly the same as we usually did. I then saw that our kids were painting these little clay pots. I instantly thought to myself that these are kids. They're probably just going to end up smashing these or painting poop or something. So I was pretty surprised when they just painted them. Each in their own style. I guess I should have had a little more faith in them than that.

I couldn't help but be fascinated in what they were doing. I don't remember if the kids had names. After all this was just a projection of one possible future. One of them seemed to be very perfectionist. Painting detailed zig-zags with a tiny brush. Another seemed very spontaneous, simply randomly splattering and smearing paint with her fingers all over the pot. Yet another seemed to be painting lettering all over the pot in some language.

"I'm sorry. But I still don't like this. I can't handle this level of attachment to the dream world. This is a beautiful fantasy, but I'm afraid this could ultimately do the both of us more us harm than good. Perhaps sometime in the future we can revisit this reality, but not right now."

"How do you know this isn't your destiny? I shared this dream with you once before, when we fist met. You denied it then and you have denied it now. All this time together and you haven't changed a bit."

"I don't have a destiny. These are my dreams, I make that so."

...

I was back in the parking lot, but all the Psys were gone. I flew out of the bus because I felt like we were still being chased. I would have just flown away, but Manei told me to come back. I saw that the parking lot had morphed to a beach and the dinosaur from the pixar movie trailer dream was there.

We were walking along the beach. There was a lot of fog and rain/mist. I saw a number of brown brick buildings build at super fast speed. For some reason I told Manei and the dinosaur that seeing those buildings was a dream sign. I did a nose pinch and could breathe. It then became nighttime, and the sky was a pinkish color with many large bright stars but no planets. I told her that stars were also a dream sign. I lost the dream and woke up.

Challenge of the year: Tell me what the first part of this dream symbolizes.

It's Halloween, and I want to check out a house that I haven't been to—a local social media personality is having a party there.

The dream turns into an Alex Veras-style adventure, except that I'm an exorcist, so maybe more Felix Castor. I'm casting an exorcism. I try a traditional Christian exorcism but almost break down laughing, and switch to one using "spirit" as the anchor.

Now we're on a road trip.

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I'm at W Park (the one with the swans) with my family. Someone asks to have the water gun pointed at them while they're on the diving board because they forgot to shower before going in the pool. The pool and diving boards are within the park instead of across the way.

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Fragment: phone call

Night #5:

I remember having three other lucid dreams that night but every time I would wake up, I wouldn’t be able to remember a thing about them. It was quite frustrating! Maybe it was because I kept waking up coughing and being a sicky.

DILD:
I had a short moment of being lucid while driving some girls around in a van. I lost control of the car and ran into a brick wall, but I realized that it was only a dream and I could change everything back. So I rewound time until the car was fixed and we were going around that stretch again, and I didn’t crash the car that time. Then I lost lucidity while talking to the girls and got absorbed into the dream again.

Night #6:

DILD #1:
I don’t remember most of the details of this dream, only a small fragment of it. I remember being with some cocky real estate guy and transforming a house into a giant birthday cake but that’s about it.

DILD #2:
The same thing happened with the poor recall. I actually woke up from this dream super excited about just having had a lucid dream, then I looked over to tell Dreamer about it but as I opened my mouth to tell her, I had forgotten all about it.

I just remember becoming aware while meditating in the dream and I turned my body green and this vivid green, glowing aura appeared all around me.

Night #7:

My sickness turned into a sinus infection. So I’ve been having awful headaches and almost all foods smell strongly of rancid vinegar to me, but I think I’m starting to get better now, so hopefully my recall will start to improve!

DILD #1:
I became lucid while asking a receptionist guy about some mean DC girls that were bullying other girls. He said that they were ‘student leaders’ and they worked for the school. Suddenly I was in a prison filled with prisoners that happened to be old friends of mine from high school. I started flying around their heads by humping the air – Each time I would thrust I would get a little bit higher.
I told them that if I kept doing this I would eventually build up enough power to be able to teleport out of prison and escape. I teleported to a shopping center. One of my old best friends was there and he was chugging a gallon jug of chocolate milk. He said that it gave him the energy he needed to teleport places. I drank some of it and walked through the automatic doors of the store. Then a commercial for the drink started playing that talked about how this drink would give you reversible weight gain, so that you could use all your energy in a flash. There was some kid going down a waterslide into a giant pool of chocolate milk. I lost lucidity and appeared at my parents’ house when the commercial ended. My mom was going through my childhood room while eating a bag of old potato chips and saying something about Rum Ham. There were Australian $2 coins on the floor and I had a feeling the cops were coming to get me.

DILD #2:
I don’t remember this one very well either. I just remember being lucid and having Dreamer sing for me, it was beeeauuuuuutiful!

WILD #1:
There were all kinds of noises going on outside (see ~Dreamer~’s latest DJ). Some lady was yelling at her dogs for barking and it would only make them bark even louder, maybe they thought she was barking with them or something.
But I was feeling really peaceful and content despite all the chaos around me. I sat with the wonderful feeling and waited for a dream to start.

I started outside of a lovely beach house. I thought to myself, “Yes! I’ve always wanted to go to a beach house”, then started to wander up the front steps.
I made the front door open with telekinesis and took a peek inside. There were huge windows on all of the walls which let soft morning light come in from all sides to illuminate the parquet floor. A woman was sitting in a chair at a small table, sipping coffee and reading a newspaper. She had short, light brown hair, green eyes, and an olive complexion. I went over, kissed her, and gave her right boob a little squeeze. She looked up at me with a very kind face and smiled at me. I tried to change her face into something else but it didn’t work very well. Only her nose got a bit thinner and her skin color became more vibrant. There was another woman that was standing across the room, fiddling with some papers on a table. She said something about celebrating my graduation. I ignored her and saw a bowl of fruit on a table. I looked intensely at it and made 2 apples, 2 oranges, and a banana fly up into the air. Then I casually strolled towards the backdoor so that I could go outside. I stood on the read wooden deck and leaned against a rail while I stared out at the ocean and tried to remember what I wanted to do.

I remembered that playing with the elements was a fun one to do. I turned around and saw my university diploma hanging on the wall. I raised my finger and tried to make flames erupt from my hand, but nothing happened. I touched the diploma and it wilted everywhere that I touched, as though my hand was fiery hot. Still not satisfied, I turned my hand over and saw that I was holding a grill lighter. I pulled the trigger on it and a nice flame came out. I used the flame as a source of my fire power and made a stream of fire burst forth from it. The flame danced in the air in whatever pattern I told it to. I drew shapes and words with it all over the place by tracing with my finger exactly what I wanted it to do, it was pretty fun! I turned my hand over and the lighter disappeared.
I turned around to see what was going on inside and I noticed that a giant Santa Claus looking fellow had joined the ladies. I tried to make time slow down for all of them by imagining a ticking clock sound getting slower and slower. It wouldn’t work, so instead I imagined pushing a fast forward button, and they started zooming around the house. I changed it to slow just for fun before returning time to normal. I walked back into the house which had transformed into having an enormous ballroom with greenhouse style skylights, fancy dinner guests, and a band that was playing soft jazz music. The party was to celebrate my graduation I guess. I was suddenly wearing a suit and I think that I had a glass of wine in my hand, and I’m pretty sure I tried some as well. I saw these beautiful women walking in. They were wearing very expensive looking dresses. I turned to the lady bartender and asked her when the strippers were going to arrive, using her to summon some strippers. She turned around to get right on it. While I was looking at the bar, I remembered a dream that Dreamer had recently told me about, where she dove into a brick wall. I decided that I liked that idea and that I was going to dive straight into this bar. I jumped towards it head first and smashed my face into bar’s hard surface. I was not be deterred though! I slowly pushed my way into the bar and then moved through it until I was on the other side. Everything was dark at that point though. I could feel the room around me but I was like a ghost in that world now, unable to interact with or be seen by anyone. I moved around the bartender lady to try to get her attention, then gave up and teleported.

I opened my eyes and saw that I was now in front of a giant video game museum (it was like I was in an RPG, the museum wasn’t dedicated to video games). I was with someone too, and I’m pretty sure it was Dreamer, it felt like her energy anyways. I remembered that I wanted to open Pandora’s Box, so I turned around expecting to see someone there that would give me the box.
There was this magnificent park with a huge open space in the middle where a giant Princess Peach was sitting. She was about twice the size of a large house and she was surrounded by bright green trees. She had a large chest in her hands that was Pandora’s Box!

I ran up to her with Dreamer and a huge grin spread across my face. I jumped up super high to try to get to the box but it wasn’t enough, so I took a second jump mid-air (by stepping on the air). Then I did a couple front flips and landed in Princess Peach’s hands. I opened Pandora’s Box and there was another chest inside that was covered in gold and various colored gems. An RPG like cut-scene happened with beautiful animated graphics, but I skipped it because I wanted to open that second chest! I appeared outside a shop in an animated Japanese town. I had light brown hair, a white shirt, and black shorts. I didn’t like my appearance so I changed into Cloud from FF7, then got ready for an awesome RPG adventure! I woke up. I stayed still and tried to imagine opening the chest because I was so damn curious and there was a golden key inside of it that was called ‘The Key of the Abyss’. Aw well, fun dream! It was really cool seeing such an enormous Princess Peach.

I did a WBTB and tried to WILD but i had some problems falling asleep and i have a long week in front of me so i aborted and shot for a DILD (awarness should be high enough after such an attempt)

Dream starts with me trying to fall asleep. i stand up and sit at the computer and play a 2D game similar to Gurk or Pixeldungeon [interesting, didnt play any game like for 3 month or so]. i thought as long as i dont get to exited i might fall asleep again. i lay down in my bet again but my roomates alarm clock started ringing so i stood up again and went to the living room. there were my roomate with his girlfriend. i set to them on the couch still trying somehow falling asleep. after we talked something or they tease me with something i decided to try again go to bed. i went to my room [looked completely different then my room] and noticed a bong standing next to my bed. i wondered why it is there and thought maby my roomate whom AC was ringing decided to sleep in my bed?! i took it and wanted to bring it away [i hate the smell] and for some reason did a nosepinch. i somewhat couldnt belief it and looked on my hand too and counted finger because i just didnt suspect it. i am lucid and my first task is to phase thru a solid object because its the only thing missing on my 3 task and i want to pick some new next week. my door is closed and i try to move thru it. it dont work. i try again with some speed nothing [how realistic hard a door can feel in your dream...]. it seems that i am not completly grounded yet and decide to fly around in my room. but that dont want to work either. so i leave the room (old fashioned way, how laborious ) and move in the living room again. my vision is pretty dark and i decide to search my glasses which are night vision glasses i look in my pocket but cant find them so i summon them behind me on the ground. i go there but they are not there. but i look more precisely and find them 2 feet away. i put them on and it feels strange like somone stepped on them. its crooked and uncomfy but i ignore the fact and indeed everything gets more brighter. i am positivly suprised because i didnt think it would work. on the couch my roomate and his girlfriend are sleeping. i move in the room next to the living room and there is a friend of mine L. i remember that there are points for asking a DC for advice and so i do: "Do you have an advice for me?" L:"Yes" Me: "and what is it" a little pause like i perplex him "When you clean the apartement with your roomates one of you should stay away afterwards so its longer clean" or something.... i didnt even let him finish this bright and awsome advice and phase through some plants and the window to the outside. i land there and think about what to do next. a car is driving in my direction and in the last moment i jump over it. i move to a busstop and on my way there is a woman with a dog. while i pass the dog i pet the dog shortly. i think about to summon a nice girl (faye reagan inspired by a DJ entry of a competitor ) put i first switch the streetsite. it looks like autumn. there are a lot of brown leaves on the street its wet and windy. i let one of those leaves fly with telekinese. i want to switch streetside again but its windy like fuck. i start screaming "wind stop STOP" because i´ve read that you sometimes need just to shout commands but i think i get to ruffled up because everything got black. i tried to DEILD but suddenly my body got hot and i started to sweat so i descided to write the dream on paper.

I was in a city centre, running after two groups. They wanted to kill a certain man from Docks District, and take a valuable object from him. After a while of running, I decided to reach the man first, and used a shortcut they didn't knew about. I was in the district quicker than they. It was a poor district, with old huts scattered all around, shipyard and warehouses.

I saw an old man going out of a hut. He was bald and wearing rags. I came closer to him and he said: "You're one of them? You want to kill me?" I replied: "No. I want to help you. Give me the object they are seeking, and I'll deal with them myself.". Then he took a small bronze box from his hut and gave it to me.

Next I decided to go home. After a while of jogging, I was on my frontyard, where I met my father. He told me that he needs help in his carpentry workshop. Then I entered the workshop with him, and we worked upon a construction of some kinds.

When we were finished, I entered the house. My sisters were watching a movie and mother was preparing a dinner in the kitchen. I went to my bed and fallen asleep. I awakened in the middle of the night, and looking at a clock I saw it was 15:68.

I went out of bed and head off to the toilet, but someone was already inside. I asked who's inside. Somehow I had troubles with talking. I heard the voice of my brother. I deided to get back to bed, and when I lied in it, I've got teleported.

I was falling down from the sky, into an ice cold waters of arctic ocean. I broke the ice when falling down, and landed in the water. I started to swim, it was really cold in there. On a nearby island I saw my sisters. I swam closer to them and we talked for a while.

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So it's been years - seriously - since I've had a lucid dream that lasted for more than a second or two. Until two nights ago.

I discovered lucid dreaming on my own, and it was incredible. Mine were never super vivid - like they always felt hazy - but they did happen quite often, and I could always fly. My sleep cycle as a kid and teenager was really screwed up, mainly because OCD and insomnia kept me up late into the night, and I had to wake up early for school and such.

But then I started taking melatonin nightly, and lived a more regular albeit hectic schedule. On one hand, this was awesome, because I slept and felt better. But I also slept deeply. To the point where my dreams became less vivid, and in the rare event I would become conscious, I would be so exhausted that I'd just let myself become unconscious again. When you only have 4 or 5 hours to sleep...suffice it to say that isn't very good for lucid dreaming.

I have been fighting to get back to where I used to be, and I want my dreams to be more vivid, too! My efforts have finally been paying off.

So, the dreams from two nights ago! This night was the first effective MILD I've done. I basically told myself "I'm dreaming" until I fell asleep.

The lucid one! : I was standing amongst mountains, in a pine forest. It looked like I was on a lower part of a mountain, but a mountain indeed. There were a lot of people around, and a parking lot - seemed like a national park of some sort - and there were lots of tall mountains around me. We seemed to be on a cliff as well. I managed to realize I was lucid pretty quickly. I think it was because I realized I could fly! I was with my brother, and I yelled in excitement something along the lines of "WE'RE DREAMING!" I did upside-down pull-ups on the railing and all sorts of things, and I felt weightless. It was fantastic, and more vivid than I'm used to, too.

It was also foggy. Very foggy. I could see around me, but off the side of the cliff everything was mostly obscured by fog.

I decided to explore this building which seemed to be built into the mountain. Inside the building, there were towels everywhere, and a bunch of secret passageways. My brother came along with me. I happened to stumble upon a bathroom, and as I entered, I heard this gasp and saw a blurry reflection of a girl through some glass. All skin, maybe a shower cap? I don't remember! She must've just finished taking a shower or something. It looked like someone else was in there, too, but I couldn't tell. I figure the reason she gasped was because I accidentally walked in on her!

Aaaaaaand then I woke up. -_- But hey! I had a lucid dream for the first time in YEARS! Hard work pays off. I know this now. I hope this can continue into the school year. I don't want nights where I only sleep 3 or 4 hours anymore. I never liked those. I will do my best to improve on my time management so I won't have to (hopefully). I will do everything that I can.

Note to self: the reality check of whether or not I can fly is seeming to be more effective than checking my watch or my phone. But we will see.

Other, non-lucid dreams...

- For some reason, I had to move in with the parents of a friend of mine who lives in Nevada. I felt really lonely, even though they were really nice and friendly.
- Another friend of mine (who ironically knows the first friend) was with me in this glass house that overlooked the city below. There were a bunch of paintings kids had done, and they were sitting and drying on the floor. The floor was glass so you could see down below. We were probably just a few stories into the air. The city lights below were actually quite beautiful. If only I had become lucid during this one. That city would've been fascinating to explore.
- Apparently, some girl, younger than me, kissed me on the neck. I have essentially zero recollection of this one, but that's what it says in my dream journal. I actually do think she may have been blonde with blue eyes. But I don't remember any kissing...
- Another friend (yep, another! who happens to know the first two, I think!) was riding in this car or carriage or something. He was really famous, but he stopped to say hi. I was in a really crowded street, if I recall correctly.

But then the next night, I experienced zero lucidity, and I think I fell asleep when I was trying to write down a dream. Thus, the only notes I have are "Stormy and rain outside - some papers wet."

Very anticlimactic to the previous night beforehand, which was a shame because the prior night had been so captivating. Oh well. I tried sleeping in since I had nothing going on until church in the afternoon, but I couldn't sleep. I just laid there and felt wide awake. So I just watched We Bare Bears on YouTube instead. Wham!

We Don't Have The Correct Dress Code (23.8.15)
I'm out the front of a bungalow that has no blinds. It's my cousin Rach's place that she stays. I think that she doesn't have any privacy, and what if she wanted to have sex.

I'm out the front of a night club, waiting in line. I realize I don't have the right pants on to be able to enter the club. I was wearing tracksuit pants. My brother gets knocked back due to his shoes. We walk into a near by toilet where he changes them. The shoes he is now wearing were going to be tight putting on, but he had some spray which must make his foot slide into his shoes much better.

I get a taxi back to my old house with lee and my brother. I feel a nice confidence about myself when talking to Lee. I run inside and get what I needed. Now that I think about it, I thought I had spare pants that I could change into when I was out front of the club. So I could have changed in toilets with brother.

I am at the county fair. A group of close friends is with me for some time and we purchase ice cream and other treats. It is hot out and there is a car crash down the road. I distinctly remember my bright green shirt and messy hair, the way I stepped over the blazing blacktop. Noon was born and I retreat to the horse barn, evading the heat. I am alone and before me is a large blank door. As I step inside, I descend many wooden stairs into many strange chambers made entirely of wood. I find electric saws, hammers, other woodworking tools all about. I find devices of torture and tables used for such, but empty and unused.

I find what appears to be an underground village, and the people there were welcoming and kind to me. They seem civilized and I remember their warm hearts. I exit the village and return to the horse stables, then move back to the centermost part of the fair. It is evening now and the sun is setting. The sky is red with dusk and blooms purple in its far reaches. The crowd thins, I see marauders in the distance wearing masks, mugging the innocent. I evade this and slink to the shadows, fleeing cowardly.

After wandering hopelessly for some time, I return to the village. As I find it this time, it is different. The nice people I remember are all gone, and several were hanging just beyond me. There, viper-like ropes clenched their throats and their bodies swayed. In horror and shock, I move along and find the remnant of the people. They are all dressed in police uniforms, yet I know in my heart that they are not who they say they are. There is a woman leading them. She is short with slightly wavy dark blonde hair. Her skin is pale and she has emerald eyes and wears gray formal attire and high heels. She is middle aged, perhaps older, in her sixties. She is cruel and frightening in every sense and has many, many people hanged. I see now that the masked marauders I had witnessed earlier begin to drag people in from the outside and torture them on long wooden tables. Work saws tear them apart and nails are driven into their skulls. One man is fed to a rabid horse. A pregnant woman has her stomach torn open and her unborn fetus baby is ripped out and devoured by a plethora of swines. There are demonic creatures walking in the halls in the distance, and I can hear them laughing malevolently.

I meet this woman, and her name is Dianne. I have never met her in the real world. She describes to me that she is in charge. I agree and begin to compliment her appearance, saying "what lovely hair you have", "what nice clothing you wear," and make an attempt to give her a great image of myself. Perhaps I may rank highly among these people, work alongside her. It was either this or die. I could do nothing. I had no choice. It was a psychopath's wonderland.

I point out to her who new targets should be, I show her who would be valuable assets to her. I help her find innocent, weak people to kill. I don a swine's face and wear it as a mask as I slip to and fro among the darkness and in the thick of night, kidnapping as I will, and massacring the populous. As I return, I am high in ranking and Dianne is appreciative of me, yet I am still new and she still attempts to frighten me and does succeed. She leads me to a large barn in the village. We stop at the door and she looks at me with a malicious smile. "I must warn you, inside you will see lots of violence, nudity, and sexual situations. Are you alright with this?" she asks me.

I nod and reply, "I can handle it."

"Okay," she said. "Follow me."

We move inside, accompanied by a few of her lackeys in their police uniforms. The first alleys of the building are filled with cells upon cells which hold captive live, unharmed humans. They are clothed and not touched harmfully yet, but are distraught and wailing. They are scared beyond compare and crying, begging release and mercy. They are all female. I finally realize that one of these captives is my own mother, and her face arranges hope as she sees me. She is on her knees in a tiny cage, just under another and flanked by even more. She begs silently, using only her facial expressions, for me to release her. To protect the both of us I must remain silent and pretend as though I do not know her, but my heart aches and I feel as though I could explode. My eyes want to stream a waterfall, but I must suppress my sorrow or risk death.

As we move through the rest of the building, I see grotesque experimentations. There are humans mixed with various farm animals. I see naked humans with horse heads, some with cow hooves, some with goat heads. Some are women with the rumps of pigs and some are men with the testicles of bulls. Some have sallow greenish, brownish, or grayish skin. There are bones nailed to some of the walls and I see authorized personnel leading normal humans to troughs where they are slaughtered and fed to these hybrid beasts. Women with the heads of pigs tear apart innocent human women and devour them. I vividly remember the blood and innards that were poured over the pavement at feeding time. Dianne during this time was happy and pleased. I watched as some of the personnel in uniform molested and engaged in other sexual interactions with the hybrid beasts. I remember wanting to divert my eyes, but could not out of fear. I wanted to please Dianne, so I pretended to love all of this, and that seemed impossible. There were times I even stepped into stables with the horse-women and laid my hands on them, even though I was terrified. I touched their bare bodies with my bare hands.

In the end, I was given my own uniform and told to work the building. As Dianne and I neared the door which we entered through, I spotted my mother again. There were no personnel around and I saw my chance. I pushed Dianne and broke down the cage door to my mother's cell, picked her up, and began on a mad dash to the door. The doors moved past me and all grew silent except for the sound of my crying, my pain, my heaving as I trekked across the ground with mother in my arms. Finally, an end did come.

This time i am working in a hospital. i transport a bottle with medium to the reception. she wants me to verify some payment with my accounts current. she asks me if i am a client or a worker. i tell her that i am here to bring away the bottle. i tell her there are 2 antibiotics in it so nothing should grow in it. i leave the room and on my way i step over a black cat [i saw IWL at the same night] i bring the bottle to a room that is closed because they do some tests and there is radioactivity. i ask and go inside because i think i just do it very fast and shouldnt be a problem.
i finished this task and go out. i feel that i need to go to the toilett and start searching. i meet a friend on my way and we go together. i am pissed because its 9 pm (as i see an a clock on the wall) and i still didnt had a break and didnt eat anything so far... he tells me i could have just take a break but i tell him i needed to finish this. consents me and say i should bring this up in the groupmeeting on wednesday. we leave the building and move a way up. he tells me he is not sure where there could be a toilet but i kind of know we find one there. i look behind and see a LIDL [a supermarket in germany]. on the right site there is a run down building that has garade doors as windows it seems. i tell to my friend hey lets buy 5 of them and do some shit with it. we turn left and enter a shop that seems to be a chinese restaurant or something because there is writen Soft monkey and some other weird stuff. we enter the shop move right trough and i enter a toilet and hit a pissoir. this one is made of copper and is kind of to high for me. i look up and down again and it moved a feet. i get lucid do a nosepinch and this time just stop pissing and while i think of whats next i wake up

I woke up naturally after 3 different rem cycles last night, I don't know how lol. I had a dream where I became semi lucid and dreamt about becoming lucid but alas I can't remember it anymore, doh.
1: I was inside a sort of palace with a soccer team, weird trans-dimensional things were going on, invisible walkways etc. Forgotten most of this one as it was from first rem period.
2: I was in my maths class and doing questions set by a substitute teacher. There were some flirty games going on in the class.
3: I woke up early and decided to play some games instead of falling back asleep. After a while my mum found me ut I excused it away and she went back to sleep. My friend saw I was playing and asked me how come we were both playing the same old retro games without knowing the other one did. After that I was very tired, so I was running late to school. I ended up not getting off at my regular stop but in the city, and wound up trying to get changed there. I then realized that no trains were going back on the same line, so I ran around loking for help. I went to buy mints in a store and asked the shopkeeper for help, and he gave me a philosophy pamphlet he wrote himslf for help. He was an old german man who had fought in world war 2, and seemed just a tad crazy. The dream sorta cycled in on itself here, repeating some stuff again, and I ended up back at the shop again, where he explained his pamphlet and tiraded against a redneck woman. He had a great quote when she abused him, something like "Well I can see that your breasts are no longer that which brought 4 American children to this earth", something like that . The I eventually managed to get a train to school and I promptly woke up.

I was inside a bedroom and trying to fall asleep. However, I was interrupted by what was supposed to be a bad spirit. I got scared and started to pray asking for forgiveness because i felt like i had almost befriended something bad. After that i was pulled to the side of the room and shown how on the wooden floor my younger brother's name was written differently more than four times. I asked what was so important about showing me that than reappeared on my bed.

What was suppose to be the spirit was supposedly coming back so i flew outside the window and into the sky. I was way up high looking at the clouds below that covered the cute looking houses. I than flew straight and ended up falling down. When I landed i was covered in snow and there were two cartoon pig characters dressed in winter outfits. I stood up observing them as the boy was calling out to the girl.

"I'm glad God granted my wish for you to be here"[boy pig]
"Me too. Now we can play together!"[girl pig]

Than they twirled around together holding hands in the snow. I thought they were being too silly and that God granting their wish was kind of absurd.

...

Next thing I recall is ending up somewhere, maybe home, where i'm holding a phone and asked what I want to do about it. I can't remember anything after that since i didn't bother trying to recall what happened right after i woke up.

Last night - and this morning had many NL dreams .I did wbtb around 4am - 5 and settled down for WILD ... during the process of falling asleep and as I got closer to wake up time I had various dreams where there was a strong buzzing in the dream and a weird feeling in my face and body - almost like it was morphing or shape shifting - this is something I am coming to recognise now from a few dreams as a sign - I am starting to see it is my self becoming more and more aware of the fact i am dreaming - the buzzing and change of feeling are part of a new intenseness that accompanies the realisation of " I am dreaming " I think - when ones does become lucid. I am hopeful that I am starting to notice this more and more which will result in more Dilds and Wilds