non-lucid

Black: non-dream
Blue: non-lucid
Red: lucid

Dream 1 - Gang violence
I remember being on a sloping suburban street that curved around as it went uphill. I was hanging out with some friends from high school. Their families were there, and I noticed that they were a pretty rough folk. Most of them were Mongrel Mob members wearing leather jackets, drinking beer and just hanging out and stuff. They seemed so normal to be honest. I was standing by a white car just talking with my friend when I noticed a car driving slowly past.. They were looking out their windows at the people around me (I guess it was some kind of barbeque get-together) but they looked sinister as hell. I saw one get a gun out and point it towards everyone, they started shooting and I was absolutely terrified. I saw a bullet ricochet off the concrete near my feet and I huddled my head down and tried to crouch behind the car for cover. My friend wasn't too phased by the event, she had an expression that I interpreted as 'geeze their so lame, a driveby while we're partying? wankers'. The car drove off uphill and around the bend and I woke up.

Dream 2 - Killed in my dreams
I think at some point in the dream I was involved in some gang related murder, we killed a friend of Snoop Dogg's (Can't seem to remember it anymore). I was driving at night down a well-lit street, the orange glow from the street lamps lit the red-brick apartment buildings that were common in this lower class area. A car drove up next to mine with the windows rolled down, I look over and see Snoop Dogg. I know what's coming next, and I know there isn't any way I can escape. He gets a gun out and puts it to my chest, I try and explain it wasn't my fault but he clicks the trigger. A gasp of breath escapes, my mouth is open and I look down in shock to see the hole in my chest and blood flowing out. It felt so real, the profound feeling of death lingered. Then the dream reset.
I see Snoop Dogg in the car next to me, I know what's about to happen. This time I explain "wait! I didn't want this to happen! How could anybody want that to happen?!? Nobody should have died, and there's nothing I can do to change what happened" the feeling of tears seem to well up inside me. Snoop Dogg lowered his gun, but I had made a crucial mistake. Snoop Dogg's friend didn't hear my plea. He appeared in front of me (somehow in my car he just popped up in the space where my legs go (I didn't seem to be in the drivers seat anymore as well)) and pointed his gun at me. Bang. A gasp of breath escapes, my mouth is open and I look down in shock to see the hole in my chest and blood flowing out. It felt so real, the profound feeling of death lingered. Next thing I know I'm awake.

The last dream was pretty scary to wake up from, kind of shocked me.

Sleeping: September 2nd 2015, 10 PM (UTC +7)
Awake: September 3rd 2015, 6:30 AM (UTC +7)

Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening

I was in a mall between food and games area. My mom and younger sister were talking to someone, far away from me. There were games for kids which I used to play when I was so young. I somehow wanted to play them again so I just got some coins in. (I'd rather not note all the details here. Whole dreams were just playing games, in one sitting.) After a while, my mom just saw me and chuckled a bit. I continued playing as I felt nobody was watching. Things were getting harder and harder until I failed. Although, the result was pretty high in leaderboard, I decided to not leave my name there. I then pulled a burger out of nowhere to eat. I woke up before I could even know the taste of dream foods.

Long things short. How the hell is our brain capable of imagining the whole game mechanism in few seconds? I don't even bother writing all of them here, or what it was.

Sleeping: September 1st 2015, 10:45 PM (UTC +7)
Awake: September 2nd 2015, 5:50 AM (UTC +7)

Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening

Since when I got back from that event (August 17th-18th 2015), the dream place started recurring at steady rate. That was where I assumed I was, but in fact the scenery was all different. I was with my 5-6 friends on the top floor of hotel. It was evening, meal time. There were long tables with foods on it, for us to queue and get them. Of course, nothing to expect much. I had already finished eating them. Went onto conversations about various things before we got out of this table. Left to our room to do our things.

Things fast-forwarded to somewhere almost midnight. Nobody was at their proper rooms. It felt funner sticking together at someone's room, right? The thing was... we weren't inside the room at all, but I believed we were. The place resembled my school's gym. I was sleeping on the ground with my feet pointing to a room. We just sat down and talked about various things. Topic changed from time to time, without anybody even noticing.

I looked at the clock, and it was almost midnight. I was about to tell them that we should have slept already. A person suddenly walked in and told us we had to get up early next morning. So, that was it. We just left to our rooms and slept. Things fast-forwarded from that scene to next breakfast. I was about to take some fried rice as I heard there was. However, I couldn't find any. I was just confused, trying to find, and next thing I stumbled upon. Everything turned into creepy veggies, felt them staring at me. I just... "freak." and ignored them.

I woke up right afterwards.

Related dreams

• Pre-Journal Entry - Unknown Date - Top Grade Gourmet

I was a real asshole in this dream. I don't think I was lucid, but I was aware that the place wasn't in reality, and that I had great power over people and things down there. I was testing a very basic kind of power. I realized how using hands to perform telekinesis wasn't really necessary - the hands just provide the brain with a cue that make using the power easier to direct. The power itself is innate to the mind. I realized that anything could be achieved simply by focusing willpower very intensely. Making things move simply by thinking about it, by "seeing" it happen in your mind and forcing it to become reality.

I experimented a bit. On DC's, too. I think I made one guy explode in a cloud of blood and gibs. The other, I imagined him walk backwards, off a pretty serious drop. He had no choice but to obey.

The dream took place in a dark place, out in a wide open space. The ground consisted of black rocks and rivers of lava. There was a lot of massive scaffolding suspended above the ground. The first scene involved me flying through the dark, apparently trying to prevent a nuclear explosion from killing the last few humans. I could not prevent it, but when the blast finally happened (a word entered my mind: "first light"), I knew it was about 14 kilometres away from the people I was trying to protect. They would be safe.

I landed somewhere (possibly between two buildings, on some scaffolding). I think people were watching me from above, saying I couldn't do something. I wanted to prove them wrong. Then something happened. I already had angel wings (nice white ones), but too small to be functional (about 1 meter wingspan). Suddenly, they grew. Quickly. They grew until they were massive, about 2,5 meters in wingspan. I wasn't sure it would work, but I tried flying again, and it worked. For some reason, I was trying to reach for a certain skyscraper, but I had trouble staying still in the air. I kept drifting off. I managed to reach for it, and hung onto the side of the building, which was now very small - small enough so I could probably wrap my arms (or wings!) around it easily. I climbed down a bit, until I found the spot I was looking for. It looked like a red jewel (??) embedded in the structure. I punched through it and reached inside.

I looked at the horizon, and saw something unsettling. I saw a massive group of alien tripods (the ones from the 2005 War of the Worlds film) advancing towards the human outpost. They had no idea that they'd be attacked soon. I ran and flew as fast as I could, jumping, flying and gliding between the scaffolding. I think I was getting shot at, too. Laser beams. And there were smaller enemies among the tripods. I got past the advancing aliens, and kind of crash-landed (not sure why I kinda crashed) in human territory. I approached a bunch of humans by a campfire, and said I needed to get them out of there pronto. One of the men was Jan, a colleague from work. Only he looked the way he did years ago, before I even worked there. Anyway, he agreed they needed to get out of there.

I had a long and loopy NLD, it was entertaining so I thought I would share .
1: I am on the tram with my brother, about to leave for school. We are talking about this fountain of youth or something that had just been discovered. Suddenly, a man with white hair comes aboard, and he started zooming around so fast he comes a blur. What on earth is going on? I think to myself as he dashes around the tram, but I soon realizes in horror that he is taking us prisoner. He stops in front of us suddenly, and says his name is Rabbit. He has tied up most of the people in the tram by now, and he embarks on a long winded monologue about what he is doing and why. He apparently stumbled across the fountain as well and managed to steal a drink from it, but it gave him super human speed and strength, not the 'youth' everyone else thought. He commandeered the tram and drove us towards the school, not stopping at any of the normal stops.
Scene transition, and My brother and I and two friends have managed to sneak off the tram and are trying to find the source of Rabbit's power, the well, to stop him. We walk into a warehouse sort of place, and inside it is similar to n airport security sort of place. We know that Rabbit is likely after us, so we hurry through the security area and I manage to get through a side curtain/door to the warehouse area. The others follow and we find ourselves sneaking through the warehouse, past workers and guards, until we reach a square panel in the floor; the entrance to the fountain. The four corners of the panel have a sort of straw plug in them keeping it down, so my brother and I set to work removing them with Allen keys. I slowly manage to tease out the first corner, and quickly settle two others, but my brother has screwed up his side and I try to take over and salvage it. We get the feeling that Rabbit is on his way, and we need to act as fast as possible. The dream dissolves from there (I don't know if we managed to get the panel open )

I am sure I had some other dream fragments but it has been a while since I woke up an can barely remember them. I think it had something to do with Physics and my dad, some secret of the universe.

I literally JUST remembered that I did have a sort of lengthy dream last night, and it was long enough in general to have its own entry, so here we go.

I appear to be at a night time pool party outside of an expensive looking house. Only it doesn't really seem like a party. There aren't many people there, and there's no music or anything. But there were a bunch of lights aimed at the pool and I remembered coming out of the house and going near the pool but then I remembered I left my swimming trunks in the house so I had to go back in and get them. Once I was back out, I avoided swimming in the pool. In real life of course, it isn't that I can't swim, it's just that I don't like to. So even in the dream I refused to do it. It was almost pitch black outside, and there were like maybe 5 other random people that seemed around my age, but I didn't recognize them.

That's all I really remember about this one. I'm going to try and write down dreams here as soon as I wake up, so I won't forget them at all. Even if it's just for a few hours.

I'm on a lake. In the lake, there's a small island; there's an enormous tree whose roots cover almost the entire island; at the base of the tree, there's a standing mirror, silver in color this time; and in front of the mirror, there are two steel bars. There's a steel vine covered in thorns that's wrapped around the bars in an arch, serving as a lock. I unwind the thorny vine and remove it. The mirror's open now.

Traveling through the basement of a ruined mansion, where the walls have crumbled so much there's a sense of open air and greenery, there's a painting of Joan of Arc commissioned by the woman who used to own this estate, and I'm pleased to see she had it painted so that Joan resembles the commissioner herself. This would be considered disrespectful, which is why it was hidden away in the basement.

I'm in an open, airy, bright library where some event is going on, some new release that's drawn in a lot of upper class, scholarly types. It's interrupted by a woman who's some kind of monster I'm familiar with, delivering a hostile message to me and leaving again. She frightened most of the people into backing away. I'm thinking, although these things are hostile and my automatic reaction to them is equally hostile, they only exist because of my "tainted blood," which was what originally created her kind, generations back; thinking about that, there's a shift in attitude, I start to pity them. They're essentially my responsibility, though they're not aware of it.

Nothing really happened last night that I can remember. Maybe a few small dreams that weren't memorable enough at all to write here. Tiny fragments of things I'm not able to recall.

Maybe I'll get something better tonight.

We're at a multi-level restaurant, where you have to take a lift to get to your table. Each table has its own little balcony area, but there aren't any railings to keep guests and servers hemmed in. You just have to balance!

I'm having trouble with the lift. Our table is on one of the middle levels, but the lift wants to go to the very top or the very bottom. Eventually, I wait until the lift gets close to our level, and then jump—

My hands grasp at a chair that's bolted down on the level above (or below?) ours, and my feet kick out at the air until they find purchase on the scaffolding. I'm upside-down, and I climb steadily back to our table. I'm glad that my husband is sitting down at the table already, because he can keep the whole thing weighted down as I throw it off balance.

9.5.15

Night off, so this is during sleeping at night.

Nightmare #1
Shouldn't have happened, because I was not sleeping on my back flat. But on 3 pillows as I was trying to WILD.

So, they sent me to my grammas house. After we all knew she is already dead. I was suppose to stay there by myself over night, knowing that she will be haunting there.

I almost came to conclusion that I don't have to do it, because I can just say NO.

#2
I'm with another guy, who is a coroner. There is a young female trainee who we sent out to collect a body. She calls us to ask how in the hell she is suppose to put a rigid, curled up body into a straight bag. I'm standing outside, but I see her with the body of a young woman curled up, as if sleeping. She is in white tank top and some undervear.
This is all happening near the train station and we need to hurry because train is coming or leaving and we are in the way.

So the coroner goes to her and shows her. Now there is a neat "pod" type of a container, neatly wrapped in plastic, with body on the underside, so it's not visible. I'm helping the trainee to lift it up and put it someplace. While I'm touching it, I know it's sanitary, but I can still feel the body with tips of my fingers.

After that's done, I feel so bad. Incredibly bad. Like I did something I never ever ever wanted to do. And now I was kinda forced to do it, but I know I stil had a choice not to. Same as in my first nightmare. I had a choice not to do something I didn't want to do, but felt pressured to do it. Then I kicked myself for it.

My house have turned into a huge castle. I was inside it with my siblings. The living room has changed into throne room, and my brother was a king. He told me that I must leave, being banned by him from his kingdom. When going out of the house, the trapdoor to the attic opened, and someone jumped down, landing in front of me. It was a young female. She had red hair and she was wearing a blue dress. Looking at her face I saw that she is a vampire. I immediately ran back into throne room, and told everyone about the vampire. The king immediately ran after the vampire. I followed him outside. Everything got a film grain and browny shades. I saw my brother running after sister, and thought "Back in time?". I opened the doors to castle and went inside.

Suddenly I found myself in a city. It was a warm summer noon. I was in an alley surrounded by tall buildings. It was leading to train station. I recalled that I was in that city before. It was a city from dream "Siege", which I have visited at the date 2015-08-23. I have attained lucidity. I made a successful nose plug RC, and ran towards the train station. It was place near the sea. Having no idea what should I do, I decided to finally learn flying. As I started to fly, I had a weird feeling. It was like I felt gravity working upon my body. I thought about a good way to fly, and I've got an idea. Position of my legs was controlling the height of my fly. When I had the legs straight, I was flying forward, slowly loosing height. When I lowered my legs, I was flying up, and when I bended my knees I was flying down. I was also flopping my hands like a brid does with it's wings. I made a few barrel rolls, flips and other evolutions. The dream slowly started to fade away, and I have waked up.

Sleeping: August 29th 2015, 10 PM (UTC +7)
Awake: August 30th 2015, 7 AM (UTC +7)

Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening

What could be worst? Illogical dream that isn't last one before I wake up. (Thanks, Aqua's dreams are quite logical.) My recall is like... "lol, nope.", and I can be frustrated enough if I can't recall this great dream. I haven't had something random like this in a while. This one's completely made from imagination. I can't remember chronological sorting well.

After long hours of working with my friends in school in the evening, we left to our place. I didn't know where they were going, but I had to find a place to sit on. My closest friend decided to follow me. We went to a pavilion on the corner of road intersection, inside school, waiting for our parents. (We're supposed to wait outside, but oh well.) I picked up my phone, checked the time and it said 17:11. (5:11 PM) Soon, my friend left, walked out of school.

I continued sitting there, wondering why I was even doing this. An old car came in front. Someone went out, placed a bag nearby and told me to take care of it. I was confused, but nodded. He got in his car. Nothing happened afterwards, he disappeared completely. It was already night, felt like midnight to be exact. I didn't understand why my dad wasn't here yet, but I still did nothing. Soon, I walked off to a restroom. Things were dark and scary. Nevertheless, I felt brave enough for it.

After I came out, I walked out of the school through front doors. Time flew fast while I was walking, it turned into noon. Now, the whole city looked much better than before. Things looked lively. Crowded. I crossed the road to another side. Standing in front of a building having no idea what to do. I picked up my phone and checked the time. It showed somewhere around 10 PM (22:xx). I realized I was dreaming, so I'd rather explore the dream. I turned behind me, saw the building's door lifted up. There was a basement staircase inside, so I just walked in. I was then in the food court of a shopping mall. Wandering around as I noticed I dreamt about this place few months ago.

After few minutes, I ended up sitting down. Things went as usual. A waiter came, I ordered some. There were a group of people running down the stairs to my place. I ignored them and just played a game on my phone. As soon as I picked my phone up, I remembered what I was doing. It was just a few seconds for myself to lose lucidity. Situation went bad. Those people started messing with this dining area. They punched/shot several people. I was still calm. Let out a sigh and walked away.

I woke up as soon as I stood up in my dream. Recalled this dream. Also, I was able to recall some more fragments stuck in my mind. One being myself playing an old game I used to play when I was 8-9. However, I had to use username "AquaBlitz12" as my "AquaBlitz11" was used. This was a real life case though. Someone, assumably from Terraria server I was moderating on, took my name. My real life decision was never to get back on this game again. (I'm serious about my name though. ) Another one being some bomb incidents. No more than these for recalls.

Related dreams

• Pre-Journal Entry - Unknown Date - Death Game

Black: non-dream
Blue: non-lucid
Red: lucid

Dream 1 - Skating on water
I recall skateboarding around (I don't skate at all IRL) a platform of concrete stairs by the coast with a couple of people. The sky's filled with dark rain clouds and I see some viking-like boats by the nearby shore. I forgot most of what happened until eventually me and a friend come back to this area. We're in a hurry to stop one of the viking boats floating away. The sky is pouring down as I bolt down the stairs towards the shore, I spot a skateboard left by one of the people I had been skating with earlier (I believe his name is TK or TJ). I spot TK still skating around, he sees me snatch up one of his boards and follows to see what we're up to. I jump onto the board and bolt towards the shore. I'm still going forward even as I reach the water, which my board just absolutely glides across from the momentum of the speed I had build up reaching there. I see another board in the water and do a trick onto it.. But it failed and I kind of just slip and continue on with the whole waterboarding thing. In my head I think to myself that it's okay because my friend behind me will need a board to keep up with me on. We reach the ship and just start like.. Doing something? I don't know... We did something and everything was okay. I remember saying something like "oh no, I can see the gorilla, he's nearby so we have to hurry". Behind the boat maybe 50m away was a silverback gorilla just casually walking around. But now I noticed the sea level was rising so we head off. I should probably describe the shore a bit better, there are lots of rocky outcrops in the area which poke out of the water, it's a smooth red-brown hard rock too. We head over to some of these rocks following someone who seemed to know the way. What we end up doing is akin to some serious rock-climbing on slippery surfaces. We climb around the rocky area, I distinctly remember how detailed and vivid the place was. It was pretty incredible. I remember the pools of water rippling as the rain hit the surface. But at some point I saw that the gorilla was climbing with us at the back of the group (the guy in the front was some buff dude who reminded me of a martial arts master, then it was me, and behind me was my friend who was a bit slower. At the very back was the gorilla). I felt and saw the hand of the gorilla as I realized it was getting closer, but I ended up waking.

Dream 2 - Lucid in Waiwera
I remember just walking down a wooden walkway, my feeling was that I was in Waiwera. The walkway wasn't long (about 15m in front of me it ended), to the right of which there was a white beach house with a blue roof. To the left were a couple palm trees, beyond which was a mudflat during low tide. Ahead of me I saw my old friend Aaron, I don't know what was going on but in my head I keep thinking that he was on a tricycle but I just can't seem to remember it. Anyways...
As I was walking I just knew that it was a dream. I had the option to continue in the dream state or become aware and take control. I decided to take control and pushed my mind into an aware state, it felt like a struggle but the transition was interesting. I then proceeded to walk around, looked at my hands, clapped to solidify the lucidity and then walked again. I then tripped up and ended up in a crab like stance, trying to hold onto the dream... I then woke up pretty amazed I got lucid (since I haven't been able to recall any dreams over the past few days).

I was a boy and I had a brother. His name was Wes. Somehow we had joined a cult like group. It was evil. The pentagram was everywhere, being carved into people’s skin. It was dark and there were evil ogres everywhere. There were some male humans, they looked depressed and malnourished. There were rows of human heads, there was a hand with the fingers cut off nailed to the wall. Wes and I sat down trying to go unnoticed. We wanted out. I knew our father wouldn’t want us there. All this was Wes’s idea and he was realizing just how bad it was. I somehow got us out. Our father was an ogre, but of a nicer kind. At this point I was just an observer. The father was driving a van and Wes was sitting in the back. The other brother was out chopping weeds. He called for Wes but Wes didn’t want to go. The father said, “Maybe you’re more like me than you realize.” The father realized that he did belong in the cult, just not with his other brother. The father is a diplomat for the cult. He goes there and talks in front of the others on a podium in the day time. He’s trying to advocate for the women’s rights. They have an equal right to kill and torture. Some of them start complaining that his sons haven’t been contributing.

I’m on a boat in the day time. I’m going out with a group and several other boats for commercial fishing. The water is clear and a captain is explaining stuff to us. He explains that when the rudders break he has to call an expert who knows what he’s talking about. The boats start going and one almost collides with a couple of people on a raft, which the captain is annoyed about. On our boat the captain sees a note from one of the crew members that they had an appointment and won’t be on the boat until later in the day. That simply means they got left behind for good. We go to clean out their room and there are a lot of protein shakes of a specific brand. It’s chocolate milk flavored. It’s supposed to last for 15 years and we all discuss how gross that is. There’s a room filled with animals. There’s a little poodle and several cats and kittens. We have fun playing with the animals and petting them. We set up a little area for the cats to keep them from escaping and give them access to food and water. At some point I jump off the boat and I keep going down, down, down. I never stop going down until I start forcing myself up. I’m worried about my ears. My ear drum is perforated in real life and I’m not supposed to get water in my ears. I realize I can breathe, albeit I still feel oxygen depleted and I realize that I’m sleeping so it doesn’t matter. But I start to worry that I can still get water in them while I sleep.

D driving me somewhere and my mom posting Instagram pictures of her 3 yorkies lined up.

Sarah’s son plays games like chitty chitty bang bang and has a british accent. Hailey occupies my old room at my mom’s house and I tell her to get dressed by throwing two shirts at her. “Oops, that one was supposed to be underwear.” She’s laying in the bed and I need her for something. I’m shopping for astrological books online and they’re all hundreds of dollars. I decide to go with the cheapest version, which is paperback. The amazon fire version was cheapest at $70 but I don’t have a fire. Then I realize the “cheap” paperback is way overpriced anyways so I don’t buy any at all. I want to see a show about a certain historical site turned into a museum but that’s also expensive. I go for the cheapest show which is in a small, curtained dressing room. The guy is doing some illusory tricks but he’s not very good at them. I steal his wallet, tip him $5 from it, and leave. I start feeling bad and turn around to return it. I feel like Nicki Minaj or something. I realize that D and I have more money than him anyway so there’s no point in stealing. I’m very resistant to returning it, though.