non-lucid

I am playing a video game that has become very popular called 'Tesser'. It starts off with a cut-scene where a character (who looks like Marcus) explains the dimensions. If you draw a dot, it exists in no dimensions. If you draw a second dot and connect them you make a line; that exists in one dimension. If you draw a second line and connect them, you make a square; that exists in two dimensions. If you draw a second square and connect them, that makes a cube; and it exists in three dimensions. If you draw a second cube, and connect them; you create a tesseract.
Now, the paper you are drawing your shapes on. Just as the paper you are drawing on looks two dimensional, if you look closely it is actually a little bit three dimensional. In the same way, three dimensional reality is a little bit fourth-dimensional. That is how the fictional company in the game was able to make a tesseract and travel to parallel dimensions.
In the game, you walk around a three-dimensional world, but everything is tinted a color. When you tesseract, the tint changes. So you have a Red,Yellow,Green,Cyan,Blue, and Magenta dimension. And they are all slightly different versions of the level, so you can say for instance come across a gap. In one dimension, it might be a wide, impassible gap, but in another dimension there might be a bridge across it.
But you will die if you tesseract yourself over-top a hazard or inside a wall. Also you can only move to dimensions close to you in color. For example, if you are in the green dimension, you can only move to the blue and the yellow dimensions.

I am watching an anime. It stars me, and is supposed to be about my ventures in lucid dreaming. I am in the woods with an old man and am carrying a shotgun. The old man is one of the sensei/master types and he his helping me hunt little demons that stop me from lucid dreaming. He says he has a surprise at the end.
We end up killing a very unsatisfying amount of lucid demons this time around. Just as we are getting ready to leave, he spots a demon owl. My character looks through the scope and sees a magnificent white creature roosting on a high branch.
"Are you sure that's a lucid demon?"
"Yes, now shoot it before it flies away!"
He fires, and then lowers the gun, and when he does Manei has taken the place of the owl. She feels for her chest and sees the blood pouring from it. She falls off of the branch and into a deep thicket.
My character screams "NOOO!!!"
He turns to the Sensei character who is smiling evily. As soon as he sees the evil smile he blows his head off with the shotgun at point blank, and then falls over and stars crying. There is one of those shots of the eyes that they give at emotional moments in animes.
A thick fog rolls in and all of the shots are upside down. Some of them have glitches, as if there are scratches on the CD or something. There is some music playing that is supposed to be sad but it sounds like a very distorted synth piece. It was at that point that I decided that I wanted to 'turn off' the anime, and that I hated it. But I couldn't.
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The scene of Manei being shot repeated over and over. I kept on trying to stop it.
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My character had gone to lucid dreaming "hell" for killing his dream guide. I became more aware that this was a dream and gained a degree of control over my character, I was able to interface with him, talk to him.
A demon approached me, that was supposed to be my character's torturer. He wore black robes, and looked a little like Darth Maul. His head hung at a 90 degree angle to one side. He put both hands on the side of his head and forced it upright, cracking his neck.
For some reason this scene repeated several times as well.
The demon readied his attack. He had these flaming bladed chains, four of them come out of his back. It reminded me of slenderman's tentacles.
"Don't take this from him, fight back!"
"I will!" He grunted.
The demon sent his chains but my character ran under them to melee range and fired off several rounds from his shotgun. It was completely ineffective. He dodged a couple of attacks with the chains, then started flying.
"I...I still have my powers!"
The fight became like a 2D sidescroller video game, and after a few minutes the dream faded.

The anime somehow ended with dream music as I was waking up. This was a rock soundtrack with a very talented and amazing singer. I forget the lyrics but they had to do with forgetting your past and moving on.

Black: Non-dream
Blue: Non-lucid
Red: Lucid

Didn't fall asleep until 2am, tried FILD and SSILD together but only had a brief moment of 'hmm is this a dream' which I was okay with, it was a pretty cool dream.

Dream 1 - Pedal Plane
So I meet a stranger, he has these blue overalls on. We team up, he's extremely bad-ass, got a cold demeanor about him but is on a quest to do good. He gets into bad ass 'ranger' clothing, like Aragorn or something out of Lord of the Rings... We go on a short-lived adventure to save the kingdom or something, but on our way we find out something changed and we can't do anything anymore. We're in typical New Zealand bushy scenery the whole time, travelling alongside a small stream. The stranger is back in his blue overalls again, and walks away down the stream, I shout out "I'll just stick with you for a while until I find out where I'm going next" since we no longer had any reason to stay teamed up. He says "Fine with me", and sounds subtly happy about it but doesn't show it. I grab my stuff and run to catch up with him, the stream we've been travelling along has grown bigger by now. A couple of people are canoeing up it, the stranger says he'll handle it and proceeds to talk to them. One of the people is the spitting image of a friend, M, and the other is a random girl who is apparently nutty... They converse and M mentions that the way ahead is blocked my a massive boulder landslide about 100 metres high. There is a plane he mentions that is man-powered by a pedal bike too. I spot it stuck in a tree, he said he would have used it had it been possible to get it down and to a decent launching area. I just go for it, I hop on and start pedalling like crazy, the planes propellers rotate like crazy and the plane manages to get off the tree, and over a cliff beneath it. I fall down and jump off the plane, I grab a super-flexible branch on a tall tree that's at the bottom of the cliff, it flexes down all the way to the ground and I land softly. Dayum.
I turn around to see an expansive green grassy field, to my left is a car park. I look up and the bike from the plane is plummeting downwards, it has a pole beneath it that was attached to the plane and impales car. <-- my expression. I know somehow that this is the car of the nutty girl! I hear a scream from the hills above, I just turn around and bolt onto the fields. To my right I see her sprinting out of the bushes and chasing after me just shouting random stuff about beating me up (I found this funny in the dream, like I could talk her down and joke to her about it innocently being an accident or something ). The dream ends here.

I cement as much of the dream to memory, then push it to the back of my mind and start trying SSILD and FILD. I got a bit confused of how I was meant to do this, was I meant to do it at the same time? I ended up giving up on the FILD pretty quickly as I just got confused, but managed a few cycles of SSILD.

Dream 2 - Flying Boat
I'm outside at my home (dream sign), bouncing on trampolines. There's three of them, each is slightly different, two are next to each other at the bottom of the slope in our backyard next to the apple tree, the other is slightly lower and is halfway beneath the trampoline I'm jumping on. I think I might have been doing back flips? Not sure. Anyways. I look up and spot a flying boat, this absolutely blows me away. It's so vivid and clear, it's coming out of a cloud and it's red and huge (like a cargo crate transporter boat). I think to myself how odd and amazing it is, and how there's no way that it could be real... Sadly I didn't get lucid. I notice the boat start to tilt, it's falling. I sprint off the trampoline and up the stairs to the deck. I turn around and see the huge boat crash into the ground. The impact created huge tidal waves of water that swelled and crashed over the trees and surrounded my house. Suddenly it's like we're in the middle of ocean during a storm, it's raining, windy, and now the sky is dark and overcast with flashes of lightning. I spot a wayward yellow boat float upside my house (which has somewhat turned into a boat, there is deck beneath the deck I was on now too). My dad shouts something about tying up the boat, I bolt down the stairs and grab a hook attached to some rope. I seem to fiddle around as if my right hand just became stupid or something, it's pretty much slapping the hook onto a rung but just bouncing off and I can't figure out why. I turn it around and try it again, it works. Yay. My dad says 'well done' or something and the dream ends.

Non-Dream Dream

Dream 1:

I gave my big presentation to the department on my project I. There were lots of questions about the role of STATs in my project.

Dream 2:

There is a huge outdoor party with a lot of people from my work. I jokingly offer to serve my boss RL some food. He thinks I am serious and I spend the rest of the night serving him and AC food and drinks like a waiter. I serve kung pao chicken and several mixed drinks. This was a long and very important dream. Unfortunately I only wrote down a couple of words thinking that I would remember it all in detail. I didn't...

I was in some building in the tropics, I'm not really sure why or what was in it but I know we angered the (very dangerous) people inside and were trying to escape. At this point I wasn't really the leader, just a part of this small squad we were in. I opened the door to leave the building and these guys jumped out of the bushes with machine guns. My squad opened fire and somehow managed to get out, but I didn't react fast enough so I got driven back into the building. Unfortunately I didn't have a gun, but I did have a couch cushion that could stop bullets. However, eventually they cornered me and I gave up. I said
"Theres no way I'm going to win just make it quick and shoot me in the head".
Then I started shaking all over because I was legitimately scared of dying. He raised his gun. I turned towards him and shouted,
"FUCK THIS SHIT I'M NOT DYING LIKE A BITCH".
While I was saying that he started laughing and quickly unloaded 5 bullets into my chest, but I stumbled towards him, knocked him over, and ripped off the front half of his head with my teeth. At the same time my squad came back and took out the other guys.
I'm not sure what happened between there and the next part but this squad was now a platoon, and we were on the beach doing something military. Or maybe we were stranded. I don't know, because this part was a bit fuzzy. I was also the leader of the platoon. For some reason a guy went psycho and turned most of the platoon against me; it was kind of like Lord Of The Flies. Only this time, I shot him and they were all somehow freed from his spell. I had called in backup from the U.S. Navy awhile back, and when I saw a few ships in the distance I thought it was them. Until they started bombarding the beach. It was the Danish Navy and for some reason they wanted to kill us. What they didn't know was that we also had several ships with very high firepower. I think it was like 2 destroyers, a submarine, and some other stuff. Anyways, we boarded our ships and began to leave the bay we were in (we were headed for the Danish fleet). Then we realized it was not the Danish fleet that was bombarding us but a castle they had built on a small island. They had artillery on the ramparts. We went to the island and were working out ways to breach the wall when I woke up.

We were in a kind of park and we played the sparrowhawk game(?). I was running really fast to win, but my parents called me and asked me to take care of the horses. After that, i was in a playground. In the center of the playground, there was a huge wood castle, you know, the ones with slides. There also were a boy (I don't know who it was, he was blond and tall). So, we slide and I woke up. It was not really easy for me to fall asleep again, but when I did, I was coming back from the bakery that is next to my school, and I was going in science class, like I do every tuesday. Everything seemed to be normal : I met my crush and said "hi" and the bell rang. I was late, so I ran and, when I get into class, it started to rain in the whole school and I put on a swimming cap. I can't remember what happened after that...

Blue-Non Lucid
Green-Lucid
Purple-Semi Lucid


1st Dream

Don't recall much but I remember seeing Dawn in a room. Than going to a place where I saw anime characters. There was a guy wearing a kimono with light blue hair and I told him to fight me. He agreed to fight but than I tried using charm to defeat him and I won the battle. Than....something else happened that I completely forgot about. I'll write it down if I remember later on.


Second dream


I was upstairs with my cousin and decided to go downstairs to see what I could find in my younger brother's room. Sadly, my other cousin and brother was there playing video games. I was hoping for another dream character so I left the room. When out of no where a walking zombie hand came down the stairs. I felt like fighting with it but out of no where a guy came and started biting on my neck. I pushed him back and ran to the room where the zombie hand was to see what moves I could try on it. To my surprise though the angle of the dream changed and the hand appeared to be bigger and higher above me. I left the room after that and the dream changed. I was now in a video game with my brothers shooting teddy bears. Felt exactly like "Conquer's bad fur day." I didn't want to play a game so violent though so I quit. The next thing I know I ended up in a park feeding angry bloody puppys who were tearing up the meat I gave them. However, three of them bit me so I told my dad. But he wasn't really my dad and I was now a little boy or pre teen. The man shouted at me to be a man and hit me after i told him. So I shouted back at him and he hit me with a broom stick. I ran after that and said I was going to tell mom when suddenly I noticed a cool liquid falling from my head. The dad shot some febreeze at me after that and made fun of me.The scene changed after that and I was running in a house from the abusive man. As I ran i told another man who i felt was my father to protect me.But as the other fired a missile they looked like they were being entertained by my fears. When I saw that the chase ended I sat down in a chair and a boy sat on my lap. I felt like he was my BF so i hugged him but than said I was going to break up with him cause I feel like there's something missing. The sister got mad at me but I left her to her madness so i could catch the bus to the other country. When i got out my mom and grandma were sitting in a park and talking about stuff so i joined them before i left than woke up.

Morning of October 24, 2014. Friday.

Dream #: 17,476-04. Reading time (optimized): 1 min.



I am in a dream-rendered alternate version of Cubitis, likely in 1974. The school bus has stopped at the next-door neighbor’s house. Instead of getting on it, I walk northeast and end up in a jungle. (The area was mostly cow pastures and orange groves in reality.)

I fly to evade black and dark green giant snakes that follow me as I go back around on a meandering semicircular journey, mostly southwest. I get the impression at times as I am nearing a regional barrier between two worlds that the snakes can swim through the air. The scenario resets to repeat at least three times. Each time, I am also eventually able to focus and wave my hand to cause the snakes to fall back and stay in their territory.

There is something about letters being sent to the wrong people, though that is straightened out (not by conventional means but dream state mental processing that resolves it). Zsuzsanna is here in Cubitis, the distant past and present mixed in the typical erroneous composite.

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(There are times when I was able to correlate snakes with stomach discomfort or the state of the digestive system. There are associations with human intestines because of similar shape and their coiling.)

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Eluding the flying snakes while I am in flight could stem from my subliminal anticipation of the back spasm I experience in specific states of sleep. I can control them at times, though not typically. Their cause stems from a distinct awareness of liminal space.

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I go to bed at 10:30. I wake just after midnight as a sleepwalking child tries to climb over the baby gate. For a minute, I really wonder whether I'm dreaming and do an RC, but it turns out it's real. I return to bed and wake at 4:45. At first, I had no recall at all, but eventually these two popped in. I feel like there was a lot more I couldn't recall.


Breathing test
I'm in a fairly small room with three other guys. I've just finished telling a story. I've been holding Stormlight, so I don't need to breathe, but I lost a lot of it during my story. The real reason I'm here is to test whether I can hold my breath for a certain period of time. One of the other guys is undertaking the same test, and the other two people are our testers. I've almost reached the goal time, but because of the lost Stormlight I'm starting to feel the need to breathe. I look through some large cabinets behind me, since I could have sworn there was a canister of Stormlight in one of them, but the cabinets are nearly empty and I can't find any. I'm really starting to run out of air, and it's only a few seconds before I'm going to have to breathe again. The other guy taking the test with me gave up a long time ago and has been breathing normal air for a while now.


High school music competition
I'm driving through the parking lot of a high school at night. Most of the cars are gone, though there's a handful parked in a bunch near the school. A bunch of school buses are parked at a fourty-five degree angle from the school, looking like they want to be able to pull away quickly once loaded.

Now I'm inside walking through a large hallway. The auditorium is coming up on my left, and I know I need to get something from inside it, near the right side of the stage. As I reach the doors and look inside I see that it's not empty - this must be where the people with the cars have gone. The floor in there is really steep, much steeper than a normal auditorium. Down at the front I see Jake sitting behind a piano on the left of the stage. A couple dozen people are sitting on the front row, and I assume they're the judges of some kind of competition. A couple of students are walking around handing papers out to the judges. I realize Jake was the last person to play in the competition, and the judges are about to figure out the final results.

Fragment: Frozen's Elsa is standing by the side of a road dressing up as different things. An older lady is with her and is pushing her to do better.


I've never even seen Frozen; and seriously, what is it with all these high school dreams? I never went to a normal high school, and I don't know anyone in high school, but I've had a high school dream for days in a row now. I guess it's time to focus on it as an important dreamsign ... I return to bed at 5 and wake with my wife's alarm at 6:30.

Dream - Lucid

I was at work. Everything seemed quite dark. It was very early in the morning. I was working with this guy that came from another department to learn the bakery IWL. I was filling all these drawers that filled up this tall cabinet-looking thing with things we would need for the day. I was trying to go fast because I had a certain amount of time to be finished with it.

I then had to take a break. I went and laid down in a bed for my break. I think I was talking to the guy who was still working as I was falling asleep.

I looked at the clock to check the time, and break was about over. I got out of the bed and continued what I was doing. I then had to go do something else, so the other guy had to take over.
"You know what to do, right?" I asked.
He nodded a yes in response. I hoped he wasn't insulted by my question. I then "remembered" that he did that all the time, so of course he knew how.

I woke up and it was weird; I didn't feel like I had fallen asleep at all. It was only an hour or so later than when I went to bed. I was burning up, so I turned the heat down and went back to sleep.

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I was in this area, I believe it was a basement, that had these small cages filled with, what I called, "chinchillas", though they looked more like small white mice. There was also one with white cats in it. The chinchillas and the cats were all different sizes; some were big, others were quite small.

I saw that a medium-sized chinchilla had escaped. I went to scoop her up to put her back in the cage. She bit my palm pretty hard, and it hurt! I carried her over the the cages regardless. I then noticed how small the cages really were; they were small and narrow, and the chinchillas were shoved in there so crowded up. There were two cage doors that would slide open and closed, one on each side of the cage. The chinchillas in the cage were trying to escape by sliding the doors open. I put the one back that I had gotten back inside the cage. The others kept trying to escape. I didn't blame them, but I didn't want them to die out there either. I thought about using different primary colored wooden building blocks (ones I had when I was young IWL) to build on some more room. I laid down a few blocks for a foundation when I noticed that another had escaped, this time a much smaller one. I couldn't find where she went, but then, I saw that a medium-sized white cat had also escaped. She was stretching, as cats do. I hoped that the cat didn't eat the chinchilla.

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I was getting up for work. I was in my room in the house I grew up in. Ugh so early...

I was then at work. I wasn't quite sure what I was supposed to be helping with. Shannon was there, this other woman, a tall, kind of fat Indian woman, was also there; she was also supposed to be a manager. Christian was there as well, an assistant manager from another store. There were also a couple of regular employees there as well. I knew there was this new thing where I was supposed to move these racks over to this certain area for the managers to transport to another store via driving this weird, short truck. I moved the things that needed to be moved.

I then realized I really needed to pee. There was a bathroom "stall" that looked like the tall racks, only hollow on the inside with a toilet. You could see right into the stall. Ugh...I really needed to go. I made sure no one was paying attention, and I went into the stall. It was very small and cramped, and I could see outside (it was like looking through open blinds). I then saw Christian was there. I quickly pulled up my pants and exited the stall so he wouldn't see. I talked to him for a bit. He was about to drive one of those weird trucks. I had a nervous feeling while talking to him (he is actually pretty attractive IWL [yes I know I'm married; I have no intentions of getting with him], and I can tell he finds me attractive too). He then got in his short little truck and started to drive away. I waved, and another man in another similar looking truck that looked like it had a green interstate sign for the side of the truck waved back. I waved again as Christian's truck went by.

Then, Shannon and the Indian woman pulled up slowly in their truck, very close to me, then drove away. The Indian woman looked at me as they went.

I then wanted to try to pee again. There was this box next to the rack/bathroom stall that looked a little bigger than the rack/stall. I had a feeling you were supposed to push it in there when you wanted to use the bathroom, because then, no one could see you. Someone had already done that, I think it was Nicky. They were in the now covered stall. I still had to pee.

Fragment: Something to do with Jack Black. He is in this really bad comedy partially centered around lucid dreaming.

Spoiler for slightly sexy:

There was some dream where I was watching some kind of really bad porn story. The story was about a boy and a girl who are good friends in school, and you think that they are going to be together, but then it turns out that the boy is gay and the girl is lesbian.
Later on in life, you see they both have partners, and for some reason they decide to have this foursome sex thing. The boy has become really skinny and unattractive, and his partner is very fat and his whole body is covered with acne. The female is also very unattractive. I remember them showing her nude, she looks like a really skinny guy with a vagina.
But that's not the weird part. I am actually the second female. I looked at myself in the mirror (the room had this big floor-to-ceiling mirror). and (Not bragging or anything; these were pretty low standards) I was by far the most attractive person there.
I was also kind of skinny, but had more figure and muscle than anyone but the fat guy, and had some breast (at least an A-cup). I recall having wide hips and huge, strong legs, and short black hair with a blue streak in it. I thought that I was some kind of runner or cyclist or something.
Anyways, I wasn't lucid, but I knew this was NOT what I wanted. I started to leave and the door was locked. Then the skinny boy tried to grab me and put me in the bed. I overpowered him and pushed him into the mirror, that broke and blood went everywhere.
Then the fat guy grabbed me from behind. He put me onto the bed and got on top of me. He had this really weird short fat penis that wasn't gonna fit. I prepared to kick him in it when...

I FA'd. I was at college and started walking to class. For some reason my dad showed up and he started talking about Ebola. I didn't want to hear it, so I had to change the subject. But the only thing I could think of was the porn dream. So I told him about it and he listened intently, as if he was enjoying it.
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This somehow led to lucid flying above campus. I wish I remembered more than flying and hoping that my dream would know what the rooftops of the campus buildings looked like.

I woke up around 5:00am and wanted to 'go back'. This is happening more and more frequently.

I was having some dream where my roommate had been replaced by an old lady, and I had to take care of her because she had memory loss and forgot her pills and what not.
At least she was not grumpy.
Anyways, she has to take her pills every day, and today we have to go get refills for her. She also has to do her 'hearing' everyday that has something to do with her hearing aid and projecting a frequency that helps her to hear better.
But my favorite thing to do is help her with her fruit smoothie that she drinks twice a day. She gets her fruit through the government and gets this big basket of fresh fruit everyday, more than enough for her smoothies.
So I decided to be healthy and start drinking the smoothies with her. I have this juicer/smoothie maker in my room, and when you put the fruit in, a game comes up like fruit ninja. You have to slice the fruit for it to be added to your smoothie. I ended up getting a bunch of mangoes and kiwis in mine.
There was some aspect to it like the smoothie could be used as rocket fuel. I had this tiny prototype rocket engine attached to the bottom of my smoothie.
I somehow find myself at this exhibition where this native tribe is visiting from a far-away land and showing off rare herbs and spices. The lady that I am taking care of wants those added to her smoothie. I find this other lady (who was really just an older version of Manei, guess she wanted me taking her seriously in this dream.) She asks me to come over and do something.
She has a small garden with all of the herbs in it, but there is a pathway running diagonal through it. The garden is like a sandbox, about 3ft by 3ft, and the soil in it is kind of sandy.
Anyways, she tells me to look down, take two steps and then stop. I take two steps and walk nearly to the other side of the garden. She then somehow shifts me back to the opposite corner and asks me to take two more steps. I follow. This repeats two or three more times. I look up and we are now on a beach.
She changes to her original age and smiles at me. I do a nose pinch, but strangely, the airflow is 'glitching' on and off. I feel like it is starting and stopping very quickly. Nevertheless I become lucid.
Manei is sitting in the lotus position, and I recognize the beach we are on; the one from my first LD that we used to return to often. It is nighttime and the beach is moonlit.
"It's time you learned about nature. Everything in nature is connected, though it's hard to look and see the connections. Take this garden for example."
I look back at the remnants of the Herb garden from the transition. All of the plants are uprooted and ruined. I sit down in front of it. Somehow I decide that I want to make the plants regrow and repair themselves with my mind. I start to focus on the sand and a strong wind comes in blowing all of this dry sand over the plants. Then a bunch of new sprouts came up.
"Good, now move over there. You're going to use your energy to create a plant from scratch now. Visualize the sand grains as full of life, like each one is a seed."
For some reason I partially sink into the sand. I focus in on the ground in front of me and try to picture a plant growing. Nothing seems to be happening. I start to get disheartened. Just as I do, I see a bump in the sand and a little sprout comes out. I send my energy to it and it grows into a bushy fern-like plant.
"You see, this is what the Buddha was talking about. Everyone has a connection to nature!"
Er... I might not be the most up-to-date on Buddhist scriptures, but isn't he all about inner peace of mind and finding oneself and all that?
Regardless, she stops talking. I decide to test the 'connection to nature' aspect of this. And somehow, I get from my 'connection to nature' to 'Let's practice waterbending!'. I look out at the ocean, and the waves rolling into the coast. I hold out my hands in front of me, palms down and try to picture the waves stopping.
Slowly, all of the waves come to a stop and the ocean is a mirror surface. I see the moon and stars reflecting on it. So beautiful. I then release my grip and run into the water.
I begin moving with the flow of the waves, that come back small at first, and then big. I feel like I am waterbending, but this feels a little more... (oh for heaven's sake) natural. I try to move with the flow of the waves using them to increase my motions rather than fight them. I try to make one of the waves splash Manei and it works. She chases me into the water and tries bending back at me. We are about to get into an all out, for-fun waterbending fight (Because dream guides can have fun too, you know.) when she gets the "oh, sh*t" look and tells me to run.
I turn around, back out over the sea, and see a tsunami rolling in. Nope, nope! We don't run. I turn and face the wave as it swells into a white-cap and prepares to crash right on me. I hold up both my arms crossed and split the wave down either side. Both sides pass me harmlessly. This feels more like the original water bending, more forceful and less flow-ish. But it's all I can do at this point.
The gap in the wave continues to widen and Manei passes through the gap as well. I turn back to see her standing on the shore. The wave crashes on either side of her but doesn't dare go near her. I turn around and see another, larger tsunami rolling in. I realize this is becoming one of those 'drowning' dreams that I used to have as a kid. There's no sense in fighting it any longer.
I send a telepathic shout to Manei saying "Get the heck out of here, I'm gonna wake up." I look to the shore and she becomes blurry and fades away. I turn and face the wave, that is barreling in at impossible speeds. I start thinking that I should wake up, and manage to do so right before the wave hits me.

Black: Non-dream
Blue: Non-lucid
Red: Lucid

Tried SSILD again last night, set my alarm for 3:25am. I rolled around in bed a while trying to coax myself to get up, 20 minutes later I did.

Dream 1 - River, rain, and a cave
I'm inside a cave, the ground has dryish dirt on it, it's pretty dark inside because there isn't a light source and it's a rainy day outside. I walk to the exit and look outside, the entrance is blocked by a flowing shallow river (knee-thigh deep). I apparently decided I wanted to leave the cave, and headed into the river which had rounded rocks on the bottom, making it hard to wade through. The river only spanned a short 10 metres wide. I looked back down the river and at the cave behind me too, the cave I was in was apart of a large rocky wall, it looked almost unnaturally hollowed out. I managed to cover about 8/10th of the river and was about to reach the riverbank but woke up.

Dream 2 - In my robe at the mall
Me and my close friend D are at the shopping mall walking around. I suddenly realize I'm in my robe! I head to a nearby store and buy a blue shirt, some shorts, and a red unbuttoned flannel shirt. For some reason this dissatisfies me, and I tell my friend D to go on without me while I go get some 'cool' clothes. I head off to a different clothing store, this one has nice wooden floors and tall wooden shelves, the shop is quite big. I see to my left a bunch of shirts on sale, but they look like they're for kids, so I go further into the shop and keep searching. I either forgot the rest or woke up.

2 exams are over and I got 2 weeks to go until my next one, I started doing RCs again today and will be firing up my determination too

Morning of October 24, 2014. Friday.



This is the third vivid dream in a row where I had eventual unlimited control of the dream yet was not lucid at all, just in control of the dream’s scenario while expressing endless “ability”.

My family and I are living back in the old large Barolin Street house (which was moved in reality - and my family was actually endangered by people throwing rocks at the assumed empty place a few times and we also had visits from wayward backpackers looking for an empty free place to sleep, all due to a misleading large sign nailed on our fence). Over time, in my dream, two male workers show up in the backyard and are apparently there to refurbish the place. My wife and children are not home when they begin their work. One male talks to me from the roof of the shed for a short time on two occasions.

As time passes, I realize they are destroying parts of the house, including the back closed porch, before they intend to rebuild much of it. I did not realize that this was the plan - it is very imposing and potentially dangerous. I am also aware that we still have all our possessions in the house and I think about how annoying it would be should I have to dig through the remains of the soon-to-be demolished house to find everything. They have a wrecking crane in the backyard and at one point, I run into the house as it smashes much of the back of the house but I am not directly threatened, though parts of the ceiling fall farther back behind me. In fact, the younger male has to run out of the way at times as well.

I go back to where the two men are. They seem somewhat cheerful, but I grow more and more annoyed. I angrily “order” them to replace the roof and fix what they have damaged, as I have decided that this will not be happening. They look at me curiously and I make cursing comments about the mental stability of the property owner. One male is more burly than the other, their ages seeming around thirty-something and twenty-something. He starts making rather absurd anti-family (and anti-relationship) comments - as if two people in a relationship and with a family and children is “wrong”. He then complains about me getting unemployment money, which is incorrect (though it does not dawn on me in-dream for some reason), as I have not gotten unemployment or any similar payments, including once in America when I was injured and the plant manager changed the details to the company’s benefit (a typical farce which I did not contest).

Though he is a bit bigger and more muscular than me, I still manage to punch him twice in quick succession and knock him back over what is left of the back steps. I tell him that I will do it. I wave my hands and focus on what I want and the damage to the house starts to reverse. The previously destroyed extended back roof and its foundation starts to join together and it goes back up, all the pieces floating in midair and eventually aligning in a stronger form than before. Parts of the exterior walls come back together and go back up to restore the structure, yet also improve it. I walk under the restored roof, looking up, seeing that it is more heavy and complex than before, with steel brackets. It is still joining together at this point as I walk under it, but I do not feel at risk as I had in similar in-dream scenarios in the past, even though it would crush me if it fell.

The older male (still lying on his back but now recovering) looks at me in awe and frustration and says something like, “You mean you just sit here in this house with your family when you can just wave your hands and do anything you want?" I am not sure how to respond (this may be a play on how my supposed intelligence stays "invisible” to the majority - though the “invisibility” seems to work “automatically” as well - though I am still not sure of the “Source”), but I do not want them back at any point. Marrying my beautiful dream girl and having a family, after all, was what I wanted in reality since earliest memory. Looking at the two stunned men, I do not know what else I could possibly want…except to be away from infantile mainstream philosophy and the infinitely irritating dominant culture.

Non-Dream Dream

Dream 1: My friend AC posts a long message on facebook trashing TA's projects at work.

Dream 2: I got a new turbo sports car.

I go to bed at 11:45 with my wife's alarm set for 6:30. At 3:30 I'm woken by noises from one of my children.

Factions at high school
I'm at a high school. Kids at the school are divided into five factions, each of which have their own section of the school. The walls and floor of each faction's area are color-coded (some nice pastel colors) to make it easy to know who belongs where. Some factions are friendly with other factions and allow each other in their territories; otherwise kids in one faction have to stay out of the areas belonging to their rivals.

I try to get into one cafeteria but am denied access. Now I'm in another one watching the kids go through the buffet line. Part of me is surprised at how short it is: just two or three thin tables end-to-end. I expected something much longer. I watch as one kid seems to be hunting for mustard. Watching him, I realize that while the kids are moving slowly, they never stop: if they want something, they have to get it as they pass it or miss out. Now I'm in the line, about two thirds of the way down. I'm nearing some scalloped potatoes and decide they look good. As I'm about to get some, a kid on the other side of the table from me takes its serving spoon (metal handle, red silicone spoon) to use on another dish. I'm moving past the potatoes, and I still don't have them, and the utensil is gone, so I quickly whip out my own fork (metal) and scoop some onto my plate. At the very end of the tables I see plates full of dessert, and I'm surprised to see that today's dessert is cheese sticks.


I feel there's more to the dream, but that's all I can remember. I quickly return to sleep and wake with my wife's alarm. Again, I feel that there's a big dream that's *almost* within reach, but I can't get it started

23.10.2014

Futuristic bike with quartz tech (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was at a car dealer and I was about to buy a car, but for some reason, they did not have my car available so they lend me a bike to ride meanwhile. The bike had two pedals like if it was a car, and also it had the regular handles all bikes have. The bike was all black and it had a huge engine.







I drove all to some other place and I was talking with a friend and showing him my bike. I realized that it was futuristic and it had several screens, about four or five:







My friend told me that the bike was equipped with some high tech stuff, most of it was banned and I could get in trouble if busted, but the bike itself could conceal everything and no one would notice it. I told him to teach me about the features it had, seems he appear to be knowledgeable. He pullwed a quartz chip and showed it to me:



He mentioned that I could hack into any electronic device with the chip and then, placed it back inside my bike, behind one of the screens. I was pretty amazing to what my bike could do and wondered if I had to pay for it or it was a free compensation from the delay from the dealer. I definitely did not want to part from it, so I took another drive.

As I was driving, I had a huge time getting there. The bike did not accelerate properly and there was a lot of traffic on my way home. I realized that there were eldery people playing cards, sitting in front of several tables that were in the middle of the road.