non-lucid

Date: Apr 23
Sleep Length: 7h
Techniques: DILD
Dream Summary:
(1) I'm in class, sitting next to li, I'm getting along with her extraordinarily good, her laughter looks stupid though, I can remember seeing her face which means it was fairly vivid, the teacher said she doesn't know what the bell sounds like, and I exchanged with some student (AG) sheets/candy, the sheets were from a test and he failed
(2) at home, I look at my scars on my shoulder and I'm angry coz it doesn't heal faster, I'm in front of a cupboard, changing my plasters, then I'm in the living room and my mothr tries to call the grandparents (with a wrong number). Then they're suddenly there because I was thinking of them (I guess), and when I tried to find their number in my address book they saw stuff they weren't supposed to see. then my mother showed me a "report" in front of my room. It was folded like a letter, apparently it was for raspberry syrup and it was written in black capitals. She told me this is what a report is supposed to look like. I assume the words were gibberish
(3) I was with (LR) and we went through an underpass and met a bunch of girls who were going to a party or something. we knew some of them, those I didn't know resembled other people I know (which made me think "Something isn't right", but sadly I didn't go lucid)
(4) I was kinda watching a movie but I was also somehow part of it. We were in the forest (family) and we were playing around and we got to a pond. when we went there the second time it was suddenly kinda blurred and strange and I thought it was because of a nuke or some weird bomb. I was looking for my family (thought they died, strangely emotion was indifferent/curious), I found my siblings playing on a meadow and looking through a hole in a rock, on the other side was a red light which looked like fire. The meadow was cold, the grass was bluish, it looked like an autumn day/dusk
Vividness (1-15), Awareness (1-10): 6/5
Emotions: don't remember
Tags: in class, next to li, teacher: bell, AG: exchange sheets, candy;; at home, scars, number from grandparents, report (syrup, capslock, folded like a letter);; underpass, group of girls, party, almost lucid;; movie, lake, atomic bomb

I remember becoming aware for a few seconds in one of my dreams.
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I was in a huge cafeteria and with a lot of people. Some dude wanted to fight me but I don't remember what happened I was then taking a dump in a bathroom that I think was very dirty
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I went underwater into a beautiful reef that was enclosed on all sides. I saw 2 little fish-like things. One with 1 fin and another with 2 fins. The one I wanted to talk to was the one with 2. We swam around jellyfish and I warned the fish with 2 fins, who was a girl, not totouch the tentacles, only the caps of the jellyfish. The jellyfish were floating upwards and created a beautiful square wall with their tentacles. I took my phone out and took a picture of the jellyfish wall. The fish with 2 fins then turned into a mermaid and we kept talking and even took pictures together.
I was then on some bed in an apartment and the mermaid had grown legs. She started giving my apparent roommate a massage and I was mad because she was mine but not really because I never asked her out. I was still jelly. She left and she suddenly turned into Christa and would talk all retarded. I got disgusted and left to some karate place where the teacher/instructor was testing us on how to make origami out of popcorn bags. I didn't know what I was doing but Chenn from drill helped me while the professor wasn't looking.

I had infiltrated Joe Carroll's cult and the entire group had just lost their home. So we went off looking for a new place to live. We came across this giant ranch-community that looked abandoned. It had high stone walls and a wooden gate. I remember thinking that it looked like a castle and that most castles were actually made of wood and then painted to look like stone. But this was actually stone, probably expensive and difficult to build. Joe, leading the group, declared that this would be our new home and he walked in through the gates first. Immediately these people from another cult walked out of the many houses. They were pissed and started attacking us. We had a long battle. I hacked the crazed cult members to pieces with my sword and most of the people in my cult just threw stones, I don't know why. I felt like I had killed dozens by the time it got dark and we all went to rest for the night.

The next day there was a no-man's land between the area of the ranch we had claimed and the opposing cult's area. I decided to be nice and assassinate the other cult's leader to help Joe Carroll out, even though I was only pretending to be a part of his cult. So I turned ninja and jumped over the railing of this bridge that was now separating our two areas. This was a secret route to get there and it was almost like something that little kids play in with the tubes and the slides and shit. But it was enormous, adult sized. I ran through the tubes and would do front flips into a landing roll to minimize the noise I made. I was so ninja that I had slipped past at least 8 guards simultaneously and they saw/heard nothing.

I got to the community square and it looked how I imagine a medieval town would look with a well in the center, cobblestone everywhere, thatch roofed houses, a couple stray chickens acting crazy all clucking and throwing feathers everywhere. I dressed up in their clothing to blend in and made my way to the cult leader's home. I slipped in the back door and hid in the shadows, waiting for the guards to leave. When he was alone I walked up to him and he didn't even act scared. What a cocky bitch, he just stared at me with contempt. I calmly walked up to him and slit his throat open, making sure to cut extra deep near the arteries until I saw blood squirt. I felt a sharp pain in my arm at the same time I cut him. I looked down and I was bleeding all over, he had cut open my brachial artery and I was losing blood really fast. I ran away while creating a tourniquet for my arm, to slow the bleeding. Then the dream got boring, I just went back and Joe Carroll was all happy and he announced some nonsense about how cool he is to his cult. Then I woke up.

I was in one of my old friend's house that I haven't spoken to since I was a sophomore in high school. We were hanging our in her room, and she pulls out a folder. She said, "I was cleaning my room, and for some reason I have [another friend's name]'s school folder from when she was younger."

I grabbed at it for inspection. Sure enough it had my friend's name written in the fancy way that she did it. "Oh that's cool," I said. "Maybe I should call her up and tell her that you have it."

My friend agreed, so I took out my phone and called my other friend. By this time, the folder had changed to a short, but I paid that no mind in the dream. My friend answered, I told her and we laughed. She said she'd be over soon so she could get it.

I didn't have time for her to come over because just then I was sucked out of my friend's room and into a Mario World kind of shindig. That was crazy, so I woke up before I had to defeat a baby Lakitu who didn't have his cloud yet.

Things that stand out

• People I don't talk to anymore
• An object completely changing
• Teleporting to another world

I woke up this morning around 6, not recalling any dreams from last night. I decided to try the WILD technique for the first time, but I failed haha.

I don't quite remember where the dream started, but I know I was at my grandma's house... except it didn't look like her house at all. It was in the city and had two stories (in actuality it's only a one story in the middle of the country). She announced to me that the cake was done, and it was time for us to decorate it.

I asked, "Who is the cake for?" Since I didn't recall it to be anyone's birthday that was ultra important.

"Chris," she replied.

I gave her a strange look, but she gave me an excuse like it was my grandpa's brother's son's son, and in the dream it made sense to me, so I went along with it, but told her I didn't know how to decorate a guy's cake. She looked sad at that, so I changed my mind and helped her, saying that she'd have to do most of it.


So the scene changes, and we're at Chris's school which was my old elementary (at least in the dream, it didn't look the same save a few teachers). He's a kid about 6 or 7 years old. Tonight they're coincidentally having an assembly on his birthday, so we're going to celebrate his birthday there. We go inside the school, and it fades to black.

Things that stand out:

• Grandma's house wasn't the same
• I didn't know a Chris that's a kid
• My elementary school wasn't the same

*Kind of mad at myself with this one. There were three things that could've made me realize I was in a dream, but I failed!

Date: Apr 22
Sleep Length: 4.5h - (WBTB) - 6h (= 10.5h)
Techniques: DILD + WBTB
I also wrote down what happened to me that day, which is said to help dream recall
Dream Summary:
(1) I was dreaming about my piano classes and my piano teacher. I arrived in the classroom and there was a bunch of other musicians, but I don't like music groups, so I just sneaked away. I'm not sure if this is part of the same dream, but I was also having a rehearsal with 2-3 of my friends for some sing and dance show. We did some weird group dance and we weren't bad, but we were bad when the audience was watching.
(2) I was in the bathtub, and basically just thinking about stuff. I was thinking about posters I've seen on the streets. They seem to have been about fetishes, like japanese domina, bdsm and stuff like that. Probably because my father who's been in japan has seen such things
(3) I tried to remember this dream, but I was afraid I'd forget dream (1) then. I remember a fragment about a hill, and someone has been acting like a slut. There were rumors or we were talking behind her back, idk, in any case it felt like an american high school movie
(4) I was meeting a friend of mine (V), IWL he has a plane, in my dream I had a plane, and he kinda borrowed it. It was a small plane, but I loved it. For some reason there was a pixel mario drawn onto the door. I wasn't actually dreaming it, but I imagined using that plane to go skydiving. For some reason I checked his steam account (what a deep dream sign) and noticed he played lots of pokemon recently... go figure
Vividness (1-15), Awareness (1-10), Length (min): 3/2/30
Emotions: mostly indifferent
Tags: piano, teacher, group musicians, stage;; bathtub (morning), fetish (posters);; hill, slut;; plane, skydiving V, games

Note: I'm happy about my dream recall quantity. 2 dreams per awakening. Odd detail: when I woke up for WBTB, I remembered 3 dreams and wrote tags down. When I woke up in the morning I didn't remember anything about dream (4). When I wrote down the other dreams, I started to remember more details about dream (1) and suddenly recalled dream (4)

Dream
Notes

In my first dream, I was defending against some monsters with turrets and towers, like the game Sanctum 2. My girlfriend woke me up while I was dreaming this.
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In my other dream, I was on a plane flying across the sky. The pilot was saying something about the sunset which was very pretty. Suddenly, we see Russian and American ships shooting civilian boats on the water. The boats turn out to be pirates and the plane turns into a ship and we sail past them. We keep sailing at a pretty fast speed and see a lot of cars sailing the ocean two parallel lines. The ship turns into a car and I'm with my aunt, who is driving, my grandma in the passenger seat, and Andrea to the seat on my right. We're still in the ocean and suddenly we see more pirates. Some of them are unarmed and I don't know why they're getting shot at. Someone says there's civilians being held captive in their boats but I say "Then that's less of a reason to shoot them." Some pirates then shoot a missile at an American ship and I expect it to cause some major damage because it looks like it's going to hit a weakspot but nothing happens to the American ship. We arrive on land and I know we're in Venezuela. We're speeding through the road and a right light comes up. I yell at my aunt about the light and she says she's not gonna stop. We keep going and a car almost crashes into us. The car suddenly appears and we come to a stop. A woman gets out with an iron stick and hits my aunt with it. I get out of the car and get behind the woman, pick her up, and slam her to the ground. I was trying a different move but this one did the job just fine. I get back in the car and tell her to speed off and hurry. We pass a lot of cars and hills and we start arriving where we're going. I see these floating naga-like creatures and ask if they're truly real.

This is when I started using Vitamin B-6

I was in a college campus and people were teaching about lucid dreaming. I thought the main guy was a fluke so I wouldn't pay attention to him and I'd just do parkour. TSgt Gonzales was there and we were talking about something. After, I took the fluke's journal and read it. It had horrible handwriting and it was stupidly written and had stupid formatting. I saw a guy in a wheelchair take my journal and I stole it back. Someone saw when I did that and I opened it and showed him my name in the journal. It also had Nathan's name.

I was in Albuquerque when my car broke down so I did parkour trying to get out of the city. The sun was setting and I walked a lot. Suddenly I made it to the top of a very tall building. I was scared on the way up because the railings were unstable and there was bobwire blocking parts of it. Some guy from the prison in Santa Fe was there and I tried telling him that I worked at a prison but he was pretty stupid and didn't know what I was trying to say. Some guy appeared with his car on the roof and he fell with it into the highway. Another guy also fell. Me and the C/O walked away after some cops showed up and we came to an elevator. I was asking which was the best way to get back. There were 2 elevators and I picked the one with some teenagers because they were headed the same way I was. I teleported and was watching a murder show about some guy that killed some kid. I was on a bed and the guy turned into Desirae and I was begging her not to tickle me. The dream slowly started turning into a nightmare but I woke up.
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I dreamt I was with my family and I had a daughter. She had peed under the table while I was eating and I asked people to take her to the bathroom for me. Everyone said no, that it's my responsibility. I got mad and took her to the bathroom. I put her on the toilet and turned around to wash my hands. I said to myself "This family has no fucking respect." When I turned around again, my daughter was gone. I looked all around the bathroom and even stuck my hand in the toilet, thinking she had fallen in.

Monday 4/21/14

Lastnight bed 9:15pm - 7:45am

Woke up at 11pm with these dreams:

1)
I'm between tracks at the train station. Standing by a black, matte, old fashioned but somewhat modern looking locomotive. It's 4 times bigger than normal locomotive. It's imposant. It belongs to me. I step accross the tracks to the left and I see another train coming and I know I'm gonna make it on time. I duck under another train that's not moving. I emerge by another huge black matte locomotive. It's not moving, but it's about to pull out. I run alongside looking for a door. I find one and hop on board.

The whole train has only sleeper wagons. I wonder how it would be like to sleep in one compartment with 8 strangers. I decide to walk through the train to find out.

I walk through a compartment that is large and has about 20 people in it. Some are sitting at the desk playing cards. I walk to another door and step over a boy in grey sweater and I apologise to him for him having to move so I can exit. He said no problem, that's what happens when you sit by the door.

2)
I'm hovering over a steep street, that looks like a river that overflowed it's banks. There is a fast rushing water coming down the hill. Otherwise it's a normal street with cars and buildings.

I see a car on the top, with a driver frantically waving at me. I think he is worried I'm gonna drown or he is gonna hit me.

Another car is coming buy and my presence makes hem change direction, so he doesn't hit an innocent bystander, but he crashes and kills only self. I understand he was suicidal.

4/13, 4/19, 4/21

4/13/14* 1225+ 2? 620 while trying to wild I have an FA where I am writing an interesting line from my previous dream in my bedside dream journal and my wife pinches me in the butt as if to say what are you doing writing again in the middle of the night? After a moment I realize it is a false awakening (didn't count this one in my LD count as I think I quickly fell asleep in the FA) and later when I do wake up I remember it and I remember most of the line I was trying to write down because I was repeating it in my head during the false awakening . It was like one of those guys (I forget what you call them the guy is there to lure you in at a circus sideshow) and he was saying "step right up, come right in, come one come all. Ladies and gentleman, boys and girls of all ages behold the magnificent Ruska something something tuska?"...some kind of ryhme that I found to be funny and I did not want to forget. Then on to remembering my dream after the false awakening that led to a dild...

My wife, my nephew & I are at some shopping mall and we are getting ready to head back home and I tease my nephew who seemed ready to go saying it will only take about 4.5 hours to get home. (Funny 4.5 hours just like my favorite wake back to bed time.) I turn around through the parking lot trying to go out a different way but suddenly I see an image of my side door to the garage and realize that is strange since we're not home yet could this be a dream? I'm confused for a moment. I told my wife that she better drive home and I will fly home in case this is some kind of vision of a break in that is really happening (doh!) and then I say wait a minute...fly...of course yes I am dreaming and I fly. I am back at home, most like waking life home and I tell myself to forget about the broken door since I am dreaming. I hear a woman singing lightly like she was following along with a song on the radio and I float/fly up over the fence and I do not see her in
the side yard. I look up and see an open window and float up there to the second story and inside I see a man with his two young sons in a bedroom and I think of the prank task of the month and I say hey to one of the kids and duck out of sight like I am leaving but then I pop back up and scare the boy. I then go on to a lot of fun first calling the wife in to the room simply calling out hey wife come here and she even answers something like yes honey and comes into the room...at this point the father and kids disappear and I summon additional people doing additional fun games with them but not really pranks and I summon two more sets of people until the room was full with a lot of people. I may break down the details later in my dream journal...but it is a little embarrassing...nothing new I guess for my dream journal. (Ok so it basically was creating an orgy scene but the first time I just said let's bring over a bunch of the couple's friends. The
attractiveness of the friends was not too good so for the 2nd set I said all of your beautiful friends and have them undress. It was still a mixed group of beautiful and not so beautiful people laying all over each other. I would say there were 20 or more people in the room. As I am looking at my creation still floating outside the open window. Before the orgy scene I had the wife undress. She was a little over weight but had very nice large breasts.) 133

4/19* ~1130 230? 5? 620-7late wbtb/nap light oatmeal. I am attempting to wild and I eventually get vibrations and I stay patient. It turns into a false awakening waking up on a couch at the top of the stairs in a house most like my current one. My son is sitting next to me on the couch. I can hear someone downstairs and I can see from my spot on the couch a woman down below although her face is just out of view. She is wearing black tights with a floral print. At first I wonder if it is "A" from up north but then I figured out it is and/or willed her to be "B" when she was in her 20's. This frisky thinking seemed to dematerialize my clothes which felt awkward for a moment with my son next to me but it's a dream I remind myself. As I am considering my next move, I lose the dream. WILDs..sometimes too fragile for me! 134

4/21* 11-1130 half awake. Set intention to wake at 4.5 hours and close! ~3:47 for wbtb, 6 wake from LD. Apple juice before bed. Nice and vivid NLDs before my DEILD. Clear, feeling the sun on my skin and the heat in the air, "knowing" it was midday around noon at a golf course with wife in golf attire. Later I think I had my 2nd case of true SP. It led to a DEILD! I was awoken by something and felt like I was being held down, but after trying to move and not being able to, I realized the situation and stayed calm and turned it positive! I have felt heaviness several times before but usually recognize the feeling before attempting to struggle so some of those may have been different. I started imagining a beautiful woman was on top of me and sure enough, very nice! She is also the same nationality as my wife. We have full blown realistic feeling sex in a large hotel room bed, apparently continuing the travelling/vacation theme from earlier. She eventually walks out of the
room satisfied and another gorgeous woman walks in with sound equipment and wiring wearing one piece jumpsuit with a tool belt and she asks me if my ahem is under those sheets where I am still completely naked. She is also the same nationality as my wife and she uses a term in their language for my ahem. I say yes and she takes a look. I actually plan on leaving the room and was telling her that I just finished up with the woman that just left and may be spent. She remarks that it doesn't look that way, you look ready. I say you are right, why not. We have full blown realistic sex also. I can't get over the realism and her sexiness. Wake around 6 smiling big. Some more late dreams with my typical (but not always) late morning fogginess. 135

A woman has another woman tied to a tree, and is spreading caviar on her face to attract animals to eat her. She's interrupted by some panic among the people she's working with. People are transforming into creatures - from what they're shouting, I have the impression that it's mostly insects, but when I switch to first person, the only transformation I actually see is a bird emerging from a woman's shoulder and flying away. Mostly I just see panicked people running away.

I'm leaving too, with several others, at a calmer pace. I look down at my bare feet, and notice that the girl whose body I'm possessing has decorated her toenails in Satanic symbols - not just painting them, but actually growing them into horn-like shapes. I comment on this to one of the people I'm walking with, although I'm careful to phrase it as if I'm the real owner of this body, not something possessing her.

Still in that body, I'm at a club with a woman named Pepper. I'm wearing sunglasses - it's night, but I need them to protect myself from the electric lights. I'll take them off when we're outside. We're leaving, waiting by a coat check or something similar, when we're approached by two men, one of them hitting on Pepper, the other hanging back. At first I'm irritated, but then I remember that I'm using a female body at the moment, and I realize the other guy is playing wingman. I'm amused. Since Pepper seems interested enough, we all leave together.

We briefly stop by my IRL house, and when I look in a mirror, I see my IRL self, although my reflection isn't mirroring my actions. Pepper calls for me to hurry up, calling the name of the girl whose body I'm possessing for the first time - Julie. Outside, it's dawn, the clouds are starting to change colors, so I put my sunglasses back on. There's a large car parked outside - wingman's in the driver's seat, Pepper and the other guy are in the back. I get into the passenger seat.

We drive past several rundown-looking houses, and the guy in the back seat asks me if they're haunted, this being my neighborhood. I say sure, a house that looks like that has to have a few ghosts around. I'm not being serious, just humoring him. He goes on and on about the dead, and he's beginning to irritate me - he's attempting to show off his knowledge, but it's not particularly impressive. He says that he can speak to the dead more easily than others because he still has all his canine teeth - I have an image of one tooth behind another, like adult teeth behind baby teeth, though he's an adult. He says they make a point of telling you that they're dead. And he asks me something about dead and dreams - I didn't catch most of the question, too much background noise, but I assumed he was asking me if I'd ever been visited by the dead in my dreams. I say, sure - I may not know much about talking to dead people, but dreams I can do.

Wingman calls my attention away, asking for directions - left or right here? It's not even really a fork in the road, the road we're on just curves right and another road splits away, but I guess it might look confusing if you're not used to it; I tell him to bear right. The guy in the backseat offers me and Pepper beers from a cooler, and asks if we find him creepy, with all that talk about dead people. I say no, the talk about dead people's fine, it's the way you talk about getting me and Pepper to drink that's creepy. Pepper agrees, but she's laughing about it. I was only half joking. Even the wingman agrees - the guy's phrasing is odd, as if he's trying to get us incapacitated. We hit a bump in the road and he spills some of his own beer on the upholstery; I tell him he better clean that up, although I'm not at all sure who owns this car. I'm certain it's not him.

00:00 Monday 2014-04-21

in my lucid hideout. Glorious black of no city lights, utter silence around. Heaven. Just a bit chilly though.

00:43 bedtime

got lazy. Had a number of fun & wacky dreams and just kept building up their memories in my head from waking to waking instead of recording. I successfully kept them all until the last waking of the day when they almost all promptly vanished except the last one. Grrr!

09:59

+ interrupted a couple making out/doing it. Stuck my body into the action, directed the girl down to my (ahem) and she performed some brief oral.

(barely remembered the above...just had a strange nagging feeling: "Wait a minute, didn't I get a blowjob last night?")

+ sliding down the hills to the city below

+ swimming?

+ food / pizza?

+ I'm an assistant teacher to a class of kids. I'm goofing off all the time with other assistants. There's a girl with a ton of tattoos, and some other guys with me, we're singing and joking and ignoring the class. The principal (short man) and asst. principal (short woman) enter the class and chastise us. "Have you been teaching classical mechanics?" he asks? I avoid the question because the answer is obviously, "no." We get in trouble. I'm anguished about this because I think I've wasted a great opportunity, now how will I ever get another recommendation? I'm so concerned, I'm fiddling nervously with a telescoping antennae like from a walkie-talkie, extending it and collapsing it over and over again.

Then one of the assistants comes in saying "the <something> guy [a DC from earlier in the dream] is starting a band!" We whoop in excitement, I run giddily down a hallway, including sliding down a steep ramp, into the audition area where that guy is. I say I play the <my instrument> and can play chords and do some fingerpicking on guitar." I want to say I can play trumpet too (I can't ), just not very well. We're on a small stage getting ready for the audition. I can't find a music stand that works, I'm trying to pull one up but the stands are all on the floor. I look over the shoulder of the band-starting-guy at some sheet music propped up on a piano. I sing an ascending scale saying something funny "la-la-la-la-la-LA-LA COCOA PUFFS!" everyone cracks up. I'm cracking up too, except I find suddenly my mouth is full of food, I'm trying to tell people not to make me laugh so much because I may choke.

We're sudden in custody in a large building in some company, we're still in trouble from the school. There are a lot of people there. I say "friends don't turn friends over to custody at Cocoa-Puffs" [meaning the company that makes Cocoa-Puffs].

well yea so heres how it went i was with cody for a little while. and cody and i were in some movie theater. afterwards we were with this big group ofm y sisters friends going to cochella. it was kin golden gate park though. i think we saw like one artist which was kind of a triipy show. no it was really tripppy. they sang one song and all the while they had this kinda fucked up horor themse show going on as a light show of images icant even begin to describe. anyway ii was responsible for controlling the imgaesl]]

aftwer ward i heard tennis was guna be there and i got all excited but had to save face in front of the cool kids and act like oo i shudnt like tennis...

finally we were at some band and one of the head ladies gave a hand job to the band membr

Ordering or buying food for a difficult group of kids, including a vegetarian, someone on a kosher diet, a kid who wanted pizza with "peppermint, peppers, white meat, no or little sauce."