non-lucid

2/25/14* Quick entry, mostly notes to self.

Recent dream signs: trips, stars, deceased father in law (he's back!), ex's family.
Trip dream sign continues but perhaps too vague to trigger DILD. Image incubation for Scarlett Johansson showed some likely residual results the last 2 evenings. My daytime practices, for the most part, have been lacking. I was thinking the other day how Scarlett looks like my ex-girlfriend's sister S who I haven't seen in 25 years and what do you know, I talk to some of the other siblings for the first time that I recall in a dream...the two younger brothers especially and explain why we parted ways among other things and woke up with some sadness. It is odd that the DCs brought up by this thinking/possible incubation were those that I dealt with the least: the two younger brothers and the other sister M. Last night I got sister S who looks the most like Scarlett. This got me questioning the scenario and what would you know, here you go old standby dream sign - my deceased father in law I catch out of the corner of my eye and know that I am dreaming. I also hear my ex-girlfriend's father's voice as if he is about to come around the corner but then I wake up needing to go to the bathroom...too much water I guess. Stars dream sign present 2 nights back but also seemed to be residue from seeing Winter's Tale movie where stars are an integral part of the characters...gotta read that book! Also interesting that night was that I went back into a fantasy Winter's Tale themed dream after awakening from the first one and going to the bathroom and it seemed to continue to some degree throughout the night (I was focused on sleeping and not journal entries, oh well). 110

[This is my first ever dream journal post, Iv decided to start doing them, the intention is just for dreams i find particularly interesting or vivid and of course to record and lucid dreams i have, though i am yet to master it]

Dream 1:
It was morning and i was just getting up for college in my dorm room. The light was off and my roommate was still sleeping as it was early enough, im guessing 7:30 or so. I heard a knock on our bedroom door and glanced at my roommate who had her eyes open. I answered the door and a tall girl accompanied by a boy with a camera was there, she explained that they were taking pictures for our student union newspaper. I was in a hurry since had limited time to get ready for getting my bus, luckily my roommate got up and went to do it. Our curtain was open and i saw my roommate out on the balcony posing for the camera, except it didnt look like my roommate at all. She came back in after a few minutes and the camera guy materialized next to us, he had one of those big fluffy microphones with him too and he told us a bit about it.

[This dream was interesting to since it the first i have had (that i can remember) thats been set in my college apartment. Most of the dreams i recall are set at home.]

Dream 1
Not lucid
around 7:30-830.


I foundmyself at work at a resturant I didnt recognize anybody there but I seemed to be buddies with one of the people and was telling them that I was getting off of my shift soon and that I was going to head down to the bar down the road and get a few drinks. they seemed to understand so I went to the bar and waited around. While i was there I saw an old boss of mine and he walked up and was like great job tonight Jon! you did well its great seeing you again. I looked at him confused but smiled and said ahh well thank you! we chatted for a bit but I dont recall about what time went on and I saw my coworker come in and started to talk to him. While i was talking to him I started to play with some Starwars toys but I became part of it. We were fighting me (a good guy) and something that looked like darth vader. We had our light sabers out and were swinging around and I jumped off onto the falcon and it pulled away. I could hear my coworker like oohhhhhhh Darth vader buddy your in trubble now! You cant fight him way over there but watch out for his speacial weapon. As he was saying that I made my lightsaber grow to a great lenght and i knocked darth vader off his ship. I walked around on the ship with my buddy and some droid kind of people began to attack and I felt this rush of energy go past me i just missed an ultimate move from LUX from the game League of legends. I thought What was that? Well if they can use that so can i..... So i looked ahead and saw some people and used my move as well almsot hitting my coworker. I then woke up.

Another attempt to try lucid dreaming was a total bust. Tried to get into a comfortable position to be in as less pain as possible and not hear my own wheezing and whistling from my chest. My doctor said that because I'm overweight it's putting pressure on the lungs, resulting in me wheezing and whistling when I'm in a relaxed mood. It certainly doesn't help when trying to sleep on top of the tinitus ringing in my ears and acid indigestion from having drank a fair amount of cola before going to bed, and unending pain in my arms and hands no matter what position I lay in.

For a while sleep wasn't going to happen, I kept tossing and turning in bed and coughing, until suddenly I got into a very relaxed mood and felt I was going to drop asleep any minute. I began the slight finger movements, and my whole body started to tingle. I kept with it, keeping the mind clear as best I could. The whole thing must've lasted 20 seconds, maybe longer. Suddenly the body stopped tingling and it seemed like the room was getting bright as my vision was seeing white light that was getting brighter and brighter and my body felt a little like it was defying gravity. Did I make it I wondered. Already my question was answered, no I didn't. I could hear my husband snoring next to me, I could hear my breathing rattling, and the moment I raised a hand to pinch my nose I felt the stiff pain in the hand. I pinched my nose anyways, and definitely wasn't able to breathe through it. I had to settle for a standard dream again that night.

A few dreams came and went from my ever sleeping, waking and sleeping again pattern, despite that I'm on tablets that are supposed to have a sedative effect to prevent me from having disturbed sleep at night. The only one I could remember was that I was playing Final Fantasy 11. I was on my chocobo in Sauromuge Champaign with an alliance of people looking for HNMs. I was using a mod to tell me what monsters were around and was trying to find the new HNM that was there. I saw giant birds in the zone called Roc and shouted out excitedly "I found it, Roc!" "That's a normal monster now" said someone else. "Oh yeah, I forgot" I said as I saw yet another bird called Roc. I reached the area where the HNM spawned and saw lots of people in the area camping it. "I doubt we'll get this one, there's lots of people here, lots and lots of them" I said. "We'll try anyways" said another guy. "How do we get up there?" said another who used a person to person warp to arrive at my spot. "You'll have to go through Garlaige Citadel of the past and come out of that maw" I said, looking up at the maw above me on an unreachable ledge. Small baby elephants were spawning in the area and the other campers were killing them all. I was seeing new names appearing on my mod but I didn't recognise any of them. Any one of them could've been the HNM but I could barely see what else was going on besides small elephants and large birds being attacked by various people. The dream ended very shortly afterwards.

Morning of February 25, 2014. Tuesday.



I am in Cubitis, but there seems to be a division set at the eastern end of the carport that implies two different “worlds” or dimensions. It is an unusual scene. There is a repeating event where the living room, which is now some sort of (unknown) business office, fills up with water and drowns everyone and then dissipates. In fact, there is an unusual impression that this happens everywhere in the world around the same time (where all rooms in all buildings are suddenly filled with water) on a continuous basis. This is not related to any God or even to nature, I do not think; maybe some sort of impersonal universal cycle or an act of time itself. There is also a strange notion that mankind had never created or invented anything (or rather, this is how it is to be, little by little, upon each mass drowning and “reversal”); that technology does not exist, because people will not accept the experience of something in a dream (or of seeing a potential future) that they had not known in real life. I am not quite sure what the story is. Even the buildings look more primitive at one point. It is mainly some sort of cycle of man’s inventiveness being “reversed” and even the connection to the Source is being undone in most ways each time.

I later go into the backyard through the “gateway” implied by the east end of the carport. From that perspective, it is more like my real childhood family home in Florida and seemingly early afternoon.

I look up and notice large white egrets standing about on the roof of the carport. In the past, there were sometimes threatening implications with this type of bird (especially darker or larger herons) but these seem nonthreatening. It is likely mating season, as they are gathering in a group and seemingly doing “dances” for each other. Some of them are soon on the ground, as tall as I am, and I almost seem a token part of their group and rituals. I move about with the dancing egrets. There is a strange closeness and an almost sensual nature in the movements at some points. One bird even seems to be my beautiful wife for a time, in some sort of transparent harem-like outfit with sheer “wings” (somewhat cloak-like) pulled out from the side. A couple times I am clearly aware of how their wings are out and I am holding the wingtips as one would hold hands when moving in a circle or line. It seems very realistic rather than cartoon-like or artificial in any way.

There are eventually a couple more (unknown) people in the backyard. We go to the southeast corner of the yard and notice a few smaller birds and animals. There are a couple of skunks that are also sort of “dancing”, moving in somewhat of a zigzag pattern, remaining side-by-side. They are very small but with seemingly coarse fur and seemingly identical in appearance other than being indistinguishably male or female. We watch them for awhile. An old green arm chair is sitting at a random angle near the weedy area back from the train tracks. It may be a home to some of the animals. (In real life, a skunk lived under a refrigerator door in that area for a time).

The mood from the second part of the dream borders on bliss in contrast to the first part which seemed to relate that mankind “had nothing” or would never connect to the Source again to invent new products and such - even the idea of synthesis does not seem possible, as if the mind was only a cycle of repeating memory and nothing else - thus the human race cannot create, “solve”, or move forward in any way - which would eventually mean that even designing a new house would not be possible. There is a strange idea that the scene will repeat without the person having remembered being drowned each prior time (and seems to relate to the selective amnesia people develop with regards to supposed paranormal or unexplainable events). This may or may not be related to being “swamped” by paperwork and repeating the same (at least systematically) tasks each time in office work (except perhaps with less accuracy each time). However, there is also the idea that many people do not use their creative energies because of not truly believing they exist. The time period in the first section cannot be identified. It does not seem familiar at all.

25.02.2014

Molding Bread (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I made myself 3 open faced sandwiches (I guess that's what Americans would call it) for breakfast using bread from 2 different loafs. I grabbed one of the sandwiches to start eating it, when I noticed blue/greenish mold on it. I threw it away, disgusted.
For the other 2 sandwiches I had used different bread, so I figured they should be still good. I grabbed one of them to eat them but noticed that my fingertips had mold on them from holding the other one before. It was like powder and it was now all over the fresh bread. I was disgusted and angry and threw at all in the trash.

Journal Entry non-lucid #44 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: no meditation, I forgot. I was too sleepy from church.

Dream fragment 1, 10:50pm-4:58am."":
The moment I became emotional, felt my anger, was the moment I started remembering my dream. My dad was calling my name. I go to him and he tells me to wash the dishes. I don't wash the dishes normally so I got mad. As I walked next to the kitchen I see that a car parked diagonal to the street. I told him that he has to move his car. He replied and told me that is not his car. The color of the car changed from red which is my car to black. Then I thought the neighbors did that. The car started moving. They parked on my garage way. I got angry once again.

Dream fragment 2, 10:50pm-4:58am."":
I talked to my sister about how I should have been lucid in another dream, which I don't remember. I did a RC and I said to her that Jenifer Lopez was in my dream, but the image that came to me when I woke up and thought about her was not Jenifer Lopez but of the wife of George Lopez from his show.

Dream fragment 3, 5am-6:20am."":
At first I was driving my car then I made a turn signal to turn lanes, and looked back. I turn back around and I am now walking in the highway. Everybody walked as well. I saw a women maybe about 6"5 in front of me and my friend. She wore a little tutu. Her butt was visible and wow was it disgusting. Somebody bumped into her and she turned to my friend and told him that she will squish him. Her and another big fat guy walked away with each other. I thought I wish she lost weight it would be good for her and everybody else. I told him about how my uncle in law lost weight gradually and nobody noticed the change or the changes were insignificant. My friend said really then transformed into some skinny surfer.

Fragment
Something to do with racing these high tech hovering spaceship type vehicles through this junkyard track. The spaceships are really clean and symmetric in their design, starkly contrasting the junkyard. The spaceships have some really cool sci-fi designs. There are some high tech looking buildings on the horizon that look cool as well.

Fragment
Something going on in my math class. We got assigned some really weird type of work that involved matrices (grids of numbers). The problems were assigned in a strange way as well. In order to find out what the actual assignment was we had to solve the preliminary assignment. The answers to the preliminary assignment gave us the problem numbers to the actual assignment.
Something about the situation seemed fishy, so I decided to reality check. I did, and of course it worked. But then I immediately awoke.

Teeth Falling Out
I've had a lot of dental work done lately. Three teeth extracted. Big filling put in. Etc.
I was looking in the mirror and noticed that one of my teeth was feeling particularly loose/sore. (Also the inside of my mouth looked disgusting, all of my teeth were yellow and rotten.) I ended up pulling it out by accident. I got somewhat concerned because it was one of my front top teeth and everyone would notice.
Two more teeth on the bottom fell out. I was really concerned that I was just going to start spitting out teeth left and right. But then I started thinking... This is a common dream for people.I should reality check. I do reality check (nose pinch) and wake up AGIAN.

Long Dream: Weird Apocalypse
The dream began with me merely watching and not participating. It was in what appeared to be an underground base, a batcave type setup. I was given several shots of heroes suiting up, but they were never pictured. I only got to see hands/masks/boots etc and never got a clear idea who was actually suiting up. (Curse you "dream cinematography" if that's even a thing)
These characters ultimately end up getting into a jet. (This is a large black jet, like a B-52) One of them is a skeleton wearing a black robe. He appears to be the pilot. The other characters are in the shadow and I never get a clear look at them.
They throttle up and begin flying down a long narrow shaft. The jet appears to be having difficulty attaining lift, and (though it will occasionally attain flight for a moment) always returns to the runway. It seems as though the heroes are nearing the end of the runway shaft.
As they approach the end, the jet's wing gets caught on some large chains that throw it into a spin and badly damage one wing. The jet spins out of the runway tunnel into a large cavern. There is a passage in the ceiling for the jet to exit, but apparently during this crash landing it spirals downward.
At the bottom of the cavern is a beautifully built wooden city. It has an oriental styling to it and is painted red with gold decorations. The careening jet spirals down and destroys a considerable portion of the city.
The heroes get out, and the mayor/supervisor of the city (only appearing as a silhouette) comes and harasses the hero group for attempting to fly their jet and causing so much damage to the underground city, and states that he is forbidding them to every fly outside of the cave again.

"But why are they all living in this underground city?"

The dream continues like a movie, and gives me a back story. It states that this is set in a post-apocalyptic world (and that is why everyone is living underground.) and that the surface world is occupied mostly by monsters and bandit clans.
The view moves to the surface and states that this is the time during the apocalypse. (So we have gone back in time) I am in a large city environment. The ground is broken into large chunks that are shifting around, (Think 2012 the movie) people are running and screaming. Cars are on fire. (I particularly remember this one white car that had a burning tire and fell into a large crevasse in the earth.)
I see that the people are indeed running from something. There is what looks like a bandit clan attacking in the city. They have these large catapults mounted on the backs of pickup trucks. The catapults throw garbage cans filled with explosives. The narrator continues by explaining that the reason the ground is breaking and shifting is because the bandits actually planted most of their explosives underground.
The bandits were important to the story in some way, some extremist religious group. Also connected to the jet flying heroes in the cave somehow.
At this point I was taken out of viewing mode and actually able to move and control my actions. I quickly ran away from the current location. As I escaped the city, I took note that the chaos and destruction seemed to die down. I also took note that in walking only a couple city blocks, the city gradated from a dense urban center with skyscrapers and office buildings to single family homes. There were a few other dream characters with me.
I eventually got to the edge of the city and continued walking. There was a very strange building at the edge of the city. A female dream character exclaims its historical significance to the city. Probably easier to draw it for you than describe what it looked like.

I know. It's a masterpiece. My dream journal Photoshop drawings are like fine art.
Anyways, I am still being followed by these other dream characters when I find out that this place, despite having historical significance has recently been refitted into a water park. I then learn that not long after the water park was installed, the buildings' foundation shifted permanently damaging it and completely ruining the water park.
I feel compelled to go ahead of the other dream characters and go inside. The water is still running down the water slides and I actually climb up one of the water slides to the top part of the structure. (This took awhile.)
I arrive on what appears to be the top floor. This portion of the building was supposedly original and not a part of this weird water park. There is a beautiful bedroom. Also something about this place feels strangely familiar. (This huge cobblestone obelisk with a windmill and water park is certainly not familiar to me.)
The dreams narrator is still there and explains to me that this was once my home, and that is why it feels so familiar to me. I then make my way across the boardwalk. I take a moment to look down. About 8 stories below me there is a swimming pool.
I continue on and find a door in the wall. It looks like it should lead outside, but rather leads into another bedroom. The narrator explains that this is in fact my bedroom. (Never seen the place before in my life).
I'm feeling artsy today, here's another picture.

You know I have to say, I like dream journaling along with these little pictures.

The narrator then tells me that I must prevent the apocalypse from happening. The dream scene changes to my living room.
The narrator tells me that it is my mission to prevent zombies from eating my dead hamster charlie. (I do not, nor have I ever had a hamster named charlie. Or a hamster at all for that matter.) [DREAM LOGIC] Apparently eating the hamster will grant the zombies some form of magical powers and render them unbeatable. The dead hamster appears to glow with an angelic aura [/DREAM LOGIC]
I don't have any weapons, but somehow I know discipline of martial arts. I also feel really tired, but my newly found martial arts abilities are the only weapon I have to prevent the zombies from eating the hamster. But, because of my tired lethargic state, this is very difficult to do. I eventually just give up and step aside while a particularly chunky zombie moves in and eats the hamster.
But in the biggest let down since two layer one lucid dreams in the same night, eating the hamster doesn't turn the zombies into unstoppable monsters, but turns them back human. (If that's the case, then I would have just started out to begin with.) Also, after I allow this zombie to eat the hamster, all the other zombies die.
So the zombie turns back into a human. But now the human form of this dream character wants to fight me. He begins attempting to demonstrate martial arts moves, but he isn't as competent as me. We start fighting.
Now (in RL, and by extension in my dreams.) I am a very small, thin person and therefore am not very useful in a fight, but compared to this guy and his weak hits, I like a superhero. (Maybe that's a bad comparison, the dream did inexplicably grant me martial arts abilities.)
Anyways I start fighting this guy, and I felt much less tired and lethargic than I did fighting the zombies. And even though his punches hurt about as much as a light breeze, he's a lot tougher than the zombies. I eventually used my unexplained martial arts to kick him in the face. His nose started bleeding and he was crying. He began going upstairs.
All of the sudden, I felt sympathy for this character that I had just beaten. (Well he attacked me first.) I told him that I was sorry, and that he shouldn't go around picking fights with people that can beat him up. (You shouldn't go around picking fights period.) He's crying because he says that i am a cheater.
I feel really bad for this character, but then begin to realize that the whole situation is a dream and... you guessed it.

I wake up.

Side notes: Most dreamers would be disappointed if all their LD went like this. But to me this is exciting, I've had a get-lucid-and-wake-up every night for four days now. And last night, I just had three. This is exciting because it means that I'm right on the brink, just a little more effort and experimentation, and maybe I can have full-length lucid dreams this frequently.
This is also the first time I've EVER gotten lucid three times in one night.

I had called in to work but went in to pick up the recruiting paperwork. I was in a pretty happy mood. Dale was in the Level 2 control and so were a few other people. The prison was running extremely short and they were struggling to figure out who to pull and where. We were bullshitting on the radio and someone said to cut it out. People started getting to the Level 2 in their cars and parked them wherever. As I stepped back inside, I noticed my reflection on the glass door. I had spiky hair and was wearing a dark blue sweater vest and a lighter blue shirt underneath. I also had some jeans on and my aviators. I looked pretty normal and happy. I took off my aviators but put them back on again. I went in and Kristy's grampa told me good job and that I made it a long way. C. Sanchez was also there but she didn't look as attractive as she does in the waking world. Her apparent brother was there also. Music started playing and I did a dance to it. I went back into the control and decided to work and help out. I would need an hour to go home and change. I called the Level 3 and Romo answered. When I asked if she had anything at the Level 2, she said yes. I told her I'd work and she told me I'd have to call the prison in Grants to get paid. I walked down the hall towards North Housing and was following a crowd of many people. There were people wearing Military ACUs and there were also civilians and babies. Suddenly there was an emergency and the atmosphere changed. The area outside had flooded and there was a shark in the water. It was dawn and people were attempting to leave. I get on a cheap watercraft and try to leave, tempting the shark on the way out. I notice a cop car parked in the distance. The shark gets annoyed with my actions and dives. Suddenly, more sharks appear and circle the watercraft. I reach the shore and group up with a few people. The sharks emerge and start attacking us. They could walk! They kill 3 of the people in the group and the girl that's left and I run towards a trailer home. The people in the trailer have massive guns and fend off some sharks. By this time, it's night and the area is not as flooded. The younger guy gets yelled at for handling his missile launcher the wrong way. I go inside and some more sharks start attacking. The young guy exits the trailer and blows himself to bits with the missile launcher. I run to pick up the missle launcher and press the small button. My ear gets an agonizing pain from my eardrum being ruptured by the noise of the missiles but I manage to kill some sharks. I grab the button with my right hand and shoot the sharks. My ear doesn't hurt as bad from that shot.

I remembered this dream a lot better a few hours ago but I had work to do in the morning :'(

I was going to a party thrown by a very wealthy family.

The inside was filled with men in black and white tuxedos and women in dresses worth thousands of dollars and jewelry worth far more. The hostess treated my friend like she had known him forever but when she looked at me, I believe she said that I looked homeless or something. She made me go down to their basement which was a spa, stocked with several copper bathtubs and a lady that worked there.

The lady in the basement spa made me get into a bathtub that was just filled with warm water first and then a second bathtub that was filled with some special blend of herbs. The hostess' husband and son were also down there and they took a bath too. The husband was pretty nice. I remember he had a big smile on his face and he was constantly smoking a cigar. But the son was a little asshole. The hostess' daughter came down and started hanging out with us. After awhile we ended up doing naughty things together (myself and the daughter).

All of a sudden it's morning and their son has decided he hates his parents and the wealth and he wants to go live somewhere else. So he throws me a set of keys and I'm thinking, sweet a fancy new car! But no, it was the key to his portable washing machine (lol what?). I asked him if I could take his ps3 and he said, "no way!"

I took it anyways.

The hostess came down and was furious that I had slept with her daughter and she let me know that she called the police. I raced upstairs with this portable washing machine and a box filled with ps3 stuff. My friend was up there and we went outside. The police were waiting and they were really nice. I repeated the end of the dream a 2nd time just for fun and in the 2nd version I decided to stay on the rich peoples' lawn to see if the police would mess with me and they ended up tasing me.

I dreamt that I was watching a movie. I was watching Ender's Game. There was a huge spaceship next to a planet. It was a Bugger planet. The planet seemed to be getting destroyed and so was the ship. The ship ordered an evacuation and pods started evacuating the ship. The ship released a massive nuclear bomb and everything was destroyed except the pods evacuating. The pods landed on a planet and the people started to survive. They then found out that they landed on a Bugger world and were terrified. They started fighting and after, I was watching a flash game. I was supposed to control Ender in a side scroller. The other guy next to my character was T. Harrell. I couldn't control my character and was mad because I lost the perks and upgrades I had.

Iv'e had a couple of dreams when i was much younger about my mother injecting me with something with a syringe.

Dream 1.
We were at my great-grandmothers and there were a bunch of family members of mine there. I couldn't find my mom anywhere. So i go to look in the bedroom, i find my mom and my grandma doing something and i couldn't see what they were doing. My mom looks over her shoulder, she says "hahaha" and starts coming after me. In the front room, i fall down or i got tripped by someone, she injects me with something. I started screaming and pounding on the floor and looked up at everyone and nobody did anything but look at me. and that was it.

Dream 2.
It was me, my boyfriend (at the time), and my mom.
We were at this abandoned broken down house. There was stuff everywhere! My boyfriend was in one of the bedrooms. My mom was in the kitchen area. I went to go see what she was doing and she chased after me with a syringe in her hand. I actually made it to the bedroom where my boyfriend was. I got the door closed on her and my boyfriend tried putting furniture in front of the door to keep her out. It went quiet... Here she comes through another door! She tackles me to the floor and injects me with whatever she had. I cried and rolled around, felt helpless. The end.

Both dreams happened when i was about 16. My mom has always been my best friend and i hate needles!!

24.02.2014

Anger and Disappointment (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wasn't sure wether to post this or not. In fact I wasn't even sure whether to write it down in my personal DreamJournal or not...

(The dream had a bunch of other sequences before this, but I don't remember them)
I went outside, climbed on some building with a ladder to examine something and found my father and some other guy probably the same age as me hanging from that same building. I guess they were climbing around. I know they were hanging there intentionally.
My father said something and I suddenly was filled with rage shouting at him and eventually hit his hands so he fell down.
I left, still having a very aggressive argument with him.

I entered a room that looked like the living room from the apartment I grew up in. A bunch of people were there minding their own business. I was angry and sad and sat down on a couch.
Then my father arrived. He was holding something in his hand, which I knew was something extremely expensive. Appearently he got this for me and planned on giving it to me later as a surprise present.
While he walked towards me and put the thing onto the table next to me he calmly said: "You know, it's been pretty expensive since you live here." And then "Congratulations for being born...".
I felt the disappointment in his voice and started crying. I woke up crying and couldn't stop until several minutes later.

I seldom experienced so much emotions in a dream. Enough to transfer to the waking life...
Yes, I have a rather bad relationship to my father and we had a lot of horrible fights. And yes I'm currently living with my parents and I know I'm kind of a burden. That's probably why it hit me so hard.
What I didn't know at the thime (I actually just found out about it minutes before I wrote this down) my father actually bought something expensive as a surprise present for me I wasn't supposed to know about yet... WTF.
This was probably the most depressing dream I ever had. Fuck, I hate this dream so much.

Today i dreamt i was on the sitting room in my house, i was looking under the glass of the table, situated in the middle of the sitting room.
I found a fairy tail game for PS4. and i thought to myself "Vitor will like this." i smiled then an image of aeriagames site came on my head.
and i saw fairy tail on their site.


Dream elements:

-In my home
-sitting room (of my home)
-Fairy tail

Technique used: ----------

hours slept: 7 hours

Today i dreamt i was on the sitting room in my house, i was looking under the glass of the table, situated in the middle of the sitting room.
I found a fairy tail game for PS4. and i thought to myself "Vitor will like this." i smiled then an image of aeriagames site came on my head.
and i saw fairy tail on their site.


Dream elements:

-In my home
-sitting room (of my home)
-Fairy tail

Technique used: ----------

hours slept: 7 hours