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Happy Skies

I am molesting a woman but she quickly puts me in my place. Then I see my wife bent over.
I press against her and say,"How much?"
She laughs and replys, "$100 and you can do whatever you like."
I get handsy with her and ask, "How about $50?"
She says, "For that you get a panty ride."
She is in just panties and a t-shirt and gives me a lap dance. I close my eyes in the dream and it feels amazing.

I suddenly open my eyes because the shock of it. (It is a false awakening) I want to go to bathroom and change but its like the dream the other day. There are people sleeping in odd places. I see my nephew asleep in the bathtub.
I realize am in a trailor house so I go to the other end. I see my dad asleep in a bed. I go to the bathroom. I start to change and I see red carpet in the bathroom. Something about this gives me a horrible memory and a bad aweful feeling. I think something like this is the house where that bad thing happened. I start to shake and feel scared(I honestly have no clue what that was about) But the feeling quickly passes. And I go about my bussiness.

As I walk out I see his eyes are open. He is just starting at the wall. I know he sees me but he doesn't move. I think maybe he is just half asleep still. Then, I hear him say something rude (can't remember what he said) I stop and look at him but just then my dad walks in. My dad tells my dad, "You stop that. What he does is perfectly natural and we all do it!"
I don't want this so I tell my dad, "Pleeeeease just let it go. Please."
(The man looked like my dad but didn't sound like my dad at all. He almost sounded feminine and flamboyant. Plus my dad talking to my dad... Whuuuuut?)

We walk outside. I look around and another trailer in front of us with a faded deck. I see mountains in the distance and a clear blue sky and I see a nebula thing in the day sky. Almost like that sky in Asgard in the Thor movie. I see a line of planets there to. They look brownish and dark with almost a grainy texture. There are very large ones and very smalls one. The large ones have what look like moons. The colors are bland. Mostly browns and yellows. I see a few stars in it though. I see texture and great detail. I stop and feel confused. I think how awesome the sight is.

Then, in a flash, I think, "wait something is odd. Something unnatural. This is not normal. I am dreaming!!!!!" I just know that I am dreaming. I don't even bother with RC. (Like I said before, if I have the mind to question, I just know)

I tell my dad. "Dad! We are dreaming!" As I begin to float I laugh and giggle breathlessly. I feel so giddy. I am so happy because I have been trying so hard lately.
The guy posing as my dad blows air out and looks scared. I think for a moment how I have had it in the back of my mind to find a dream guide. This guy may be the one. I let it go for now. I notice that I am touching the ground again
I say, "No really! We are dreaming."
I take his hand and use my other hand to push of the railing on the deck. We float up together a few meters. He is smiling and laughing quietly. I now know he believes me. I am out of breath with excitement. The entire scene is so vivid and so awesome. The sky is clear. I see the mountains in the distance. The summer grass below us is brown in spots. The air feels cool. I feel great peace.

I look back at the planets in the sky. They are very vivid pictures. Still there. I think how it looks like a text book. I study it so that I can remember the thing that made me lucid this time. I think, "Yes, strange things in the sky. Of course, that is a very old dream sign of mine."
Then suddenly I remember TOTM but before I could do anything every thing fades to black and I am back in my recliner with my eyes closed wishing it had not ended so soon.

Time would be around 3:40AM.

Woke up, tired as fuck, didn't try to lucid Lost consciousness, but then felt the 'hag'. Started squeezing my body, but never had any trouble breathing. The pressure points shifted and then became a pumping action like you-know-what Couldn't sleep, something inside me snapped. The bitch left, I plopped into a dream.

Greenish flash at first. I'm non-lucid. I see four people in the hall, I'm in my bedroom. Family of four, including me. Tadaa, I'm spontaneously (low) lucid.

I suddenly notice a weird looking man sitting on the floor near the open door into the dining hall. His face keeps changing. At first I was convinced he was a demon, my thoughts affected dream similarly. Quickly revised my view of the fellow, he became a tramp. I walked out the door...

...onto the road?! Outside my house. Flying comes naturally now. I superjump onto a corridor above (neighbour's house). Dream feels shaky.

I try stabilizing by interaction. I squat for a while, on cold tiles. Everything around me seems cold. I run my hands along a washing-machine sort of thing with grooves and inlay work. Vision improved slightly, yellow lights were turned on.

I 'bump into' B and S. They try to dissuade me from something. I cleverly 'distract' B,(wearing a black shirt with green/white/grey stripes) who walks off.

I try summoning a dragon. S takes offense, starts poking me and walking around real fast. Can't do much.
I wake up.

To this masterpiece of a red demon leering at me from my computer chair. I was scared(y the fak i go heel nao!!1! also pls dont do smthing nasty mr. redguy)

Slowly, I summoned the balls to fight. The thing just sat there, watching me. Horns flashing pink and red. Had a real big adrenaline rush (and a mini heart attack ). Then suddenly, I was alone. (I think this was a false awakening, but the clock read 5:00AM and it was damn near time to get up. note, im almost sure, since I can't see read the time in real life when its dark )

So I will myself back into normal sleep. An episode of squeezing paralysis was repulsed by white shield thingy I imagined. The end.

pps: this has got me interested in astral projection

Ok so last night was REALLY bad in terms of my sleep schedule. It is kind of embarassing to say but this is what happened...

So it is about 8:30 and I am just about to go have my nightly milk, OJ, apple juice,a dn banana. Right when I go to turn off the monitor though, a Steam notification pops up. One of my friends just got on and wanted to talk. So I get on Steam and start talking to him. In my head I keep thinking.. Ok, just one more message and then I am going to go start my nightly routine. Well, basically this 'one more message' ended up going on for 3 more hours! So ya, it was about midnight by the time I finally went to bed. *major facepalm*

In terms of sleep, I was really tired and went to sleep fast. For some reason whenever I am super tired no amount of binaural beats can wake me up so I just slept right through the whole night and didn't wake up and start the alarm or anything. So ya... bad night last night.

So TONIGHT however... I am back in the swing of things and getting ready to head off to dreamland. SO EXCITED FOR THE NEXT LUCID!

See ya!

8:30 - Banana, OJ, Grape Juice, Milk - Go out and shoot hoops
9:30 - Get back and get ready for bed
10:30 - Vitamins and go to bed with binaural beats
3:30 - Wake up, record dreams, start alarm
Get up at 8:00


Last night the alarm didn't give me any false awakenings.

I have listened to the gateway experience for so many time so I remember every single word that he say.
So I can actually lay still with closed eyes for 40 minutes without much effort.

I am not saying this to brag, I am just trying to bust the most motivating myth of all when it comes to lucid dreaming.

[B]Is it possible to lucid dream without prior non-aware sleep?[/B]

I think I am near an answer, because on the last days attempts I have kept laying still after those 40 minutes, but I usually give up 20 minutes after that. So in summary one hour! Around that time I am still aware of my body, but I have seen some blue light pattern behind my closed eyelids, so something is happening.

Anyway if I just can endure 30 minutes more I have been laying still for 1 hour and 30 minutes which is about when in theory the first REM-cycle should start. Don't ask me how I maintain awareness because I honestly don't know.
The downside with this experiment is that if you give up, you will not be able to fall asleep again... :roll:
And... that while doing this time feels soooo slow. So you have to just lay there and think:
"If I move I will not only fail and get frustrated I will also not be able to fall asleep! So I have to endure".

This is torture guys but I have to find the truth about this myth and not to mention it's always nice with a lucid dream :shadewink:

I'll tell you the result tomorrow. Wish me good luck!

Ps. Let's just hope that my REM cycle doesn't start 120 minutes in... But in that case I'll just have to wait some more. :shock:

1) Zombies In The Watermelon Patch
I mostly got fragments and nonsense like HI. One thing I do remember is fighting zombies out of a Watermelon patch.

It is important to note that this dream was intentional. I watched Shaun of the Dead and decided it would be cool to have a zombie dream. So I set my intent on dreaming about zombies. Now I need to apply that to becoming lucid.

I found this site only after researching my own lucid dreams.
I have narcolepsy and have often experienced sleep paralysis. I do not often recall dreams. Every night for days now though, I dream, and those dreams have become very lucid of their own accord; I just can not imagine wanting this to happen. I think the only good that could ever come of such dreaming is if I could get a camcorder in my head, the music videos that followed would be pretty darn amazing!

9:00 - Apple juice, OJ, Milk, Apple. Went outside and shot hoops.
10:00 - Get ready for bed
10:45 - Vitamins with glass of H2O
11:00 - Go to bed with binaural beats
3:30 - Woke up, recorded dreams, and started the alarm
Had a false awakening during this time
8:00 - Get up

False awakening...
Well, I am really excited about this because the alarm gave me another false awakening. The only upsetting part is that I didn't do the reality check despite training myself to do so. The false awakening didn't go exactly as planned so I kind of missed my cue to do the RC. Besides that though, I am really happy that this alarm is giving me more false awakenings. I truly belive this alarm is going to get me having a lot of lucid's once I start realizing when I am in a false awakening, and when I am actually awake.

See ya!

These dream fragments are not especially interesting. The monster was boring and cartoonish, but there were a few interesting elements. Once again it featured a realistic looking apartment complex.

Dream#1: I was with my GF in a wooded area. I remember she was driving some kind of Jeep. She backed out of a parking spot without looking and we narrowly avoided colliding with a black SUV driven by an older woman. I tell her: "Always look in the rear-view mirror while in reverse." I was annoyed we almost got hit but I dropped it. [She doesn't have a car in waking life --or this may have been forgotten.]

At some point shortly after this, I tell her I forgot something in my room. I don't recall what this was but I remember being worried about going to my room alone. I ran up several flights of stairs without feeling any tiredness. It felt exhilarating. I lived in a apartment complex and my room looked a bit dark. I recall grabbing a square wooden plaque, painted red, with a square gold engraved plate. Which I might have considered my cell phone?? --Things go hazy here.

In the same outdoor setting as the above fragment my GF, and we are walking down a wooded road. There are some sandy banks along the side of the roads and we are barefoot like we are heading to the beach. Oozing down the road up ahead, and heading towards us, is a beige slimy mass a little like the blob with ugly mouths and knobs that looked nose-like.

We run up the sandbars to get out of the way, and the thing changes directions to follow us. I started kicking sand onto it. It didn't seem threatened by heavy amounts of sand in its mouths and that made me start to feel nervous about being barefoot...

Dream#2: I was at a sporting event at a local gym. Not something I have done since Jr. High. I was laying on a table against the wall of the gym. (Laying on table like beds is officially a motif.) The place was packed, I don't recall what sport was being played but I recall yellow uniforms and lots of courts filled with different games. I noticed my best friend Joe making his way towards me around the crowds. I didn't react until he was about 20ft away then I jumped up to greet him.

At first things were cool. Then my GF showed him a puppy we had with us and he acted like he was going to step on it and crush it under his foot. I was outraged and lashed out. I grabbed him hard by the shirt and jacket and told him: he had no right to harm a puppy because he was in a bad mood about life. [He actually loves animals.]

Well, last night was one of those nights where nothing good really happened. But, here's how it went...

8:45 - OJ, Apple juice, milk, apple (ran out of bananas)
9:00 - Shot hoops and went for run
10:00 - HUGE THUNDERSTORM starts up so the whole house is still up watching the weather
11:00 - Storm still raging, takin gout the power and stuff
11:30 - Ya, still going
11:45 - Vitamins and glass of water
12:00 Storm finally stops and the power comes back on. I update my dream journal and go to bed with binaural beats
8:00 Wake up

Well, last night I can't really recall many dreams. I think it is because my earbuds fell out early on and the beats weren't on. Those help me tremendously. I also didn't wake up last night and turn the alarm on for the same reason. And, I have been told that at about 3:00 the storm came back with some thunder. not enough to wake me up apparently, but enough to disturb any deep sleep w/ dreams. So ya, last night wasn't too great but I am DETERMINED to get this alarm working and have some more lucids.

See ya!

Well, unfortunately I was out of town AGAIN yesterday, and just got back a little bit ago, hence the late entry. I keep having to go on all these little trips that are really screwing up my sleep schedule and I am not able to consistently expirement with the alarm or work on any techniques. I think I may have gone backwards a little bit in terms of how close I am coming to success with having another lucid dream. Man, I am so excited for the next one cause now I have it worked out what I'm going to do. Just need a good solid week where I can get in my normal routine again.

Right now I am working on reality checks at key points of the day. The main ones I am working on are whenever I wake up, there is a big scenery shift (going outside / inside), or I go through a doorway. Also I am working on using this alarm. So far I have been able to wake up and turn it on each night I have had a chance to use it except for once. It has also been really good about actually waking me up each time like it is supposed to. The first couple of nights I used it, i had false awakenings like crazy. As soon as I had trained myself to do an RC whenever I wake up though, it seems like my brain is just playing a mean trick on me and the alarm hasn't given me a false awakening since. So that is pretty much all I am waiting on at this point. i think though that if I don't have another lucid soon I am going to look into some other techniques but right now I am really hoping to get this alarm working.

Well, I am really tired so I'm going to bed. Really hope this timer gives me another false awakening because I think i am trained now to take that and turn it into a lucid dream!! Wish me luck.

See ya!

When Robert Monroe designed his WAVE CD:s he wanted to let the people learn by their own sensations and instincts so they could learn to naturally expand their consciousness to higher energy systems.

The majority of people who have been using the Gateway experience, including me, started using it to learn to get OOBES.
And to do so I thought I just needed to lay there listen to the tapes and the rest would take care of itself.
Oh boy how stupid can on man be?

I read the Frequent Asked Questions Section and found this:

Q: I’m currently working with the Discovery album. What if I can’t get out of my body on tape
#5 („Exploration, Sleep”)? Should I continue with tape #5 until I do, or after a reasonable time
move on to the next tape?

A: Not everyone will have a conscious out-of-body experience
(OBE). It takes a lot of practice for most, and , many of us have hidden fears that hold us back.
Also, if you try too hard for an OBE, the intense effort can become the very distraction that
holds you back. Be nonchalant about OBEs. They are just a small part of our program of
personal exploration and learning to expand consciousness. As long as you’re thoroughly
familiar with tape #5, by all means go on to the next tape.

So I realize now that OOBE is just a bonus and not as great as the true purpose of the gateway experience is.
"if you try too hard for an OBE, the intense effort can become the very distraction that holds you back."
which is exactly what I have been doing.

So now I did one attempt where I didn't aimed for an OOBE or any sensations of the sort, and instead of just laying there and listen I daydreamed at the same time. When he said go to your Energy Conversion box, instead of thinking about what I wanted to put in it and some dull imagination of me closing it, I imagined that I was standing in a Mayan temple and let my subconscious fill in the rest. I started thinking about a pirate chest and voila that worked as my new conversion box, and I continued to be active in my non-physical space this way and I managed to stay aware through the whole CD which is about 40 minutes, without moving and without the annoying swallowing reflex or coughing.
AND my body was completely numb when I tried to get out of bed, so this was Focus 10: Mind Awake Body Asleep.

I am going to use my DreamJournal as a place to write about my future attempts.

Now I am moving on to the Advanced Focus 10 CD.

I hope this was helpful for Gateway Experience users :)

... imagined my (yet unmet) Physics professor explain some stuff on a green board. Looked like two solenoids.

Also remember scaling over short walls and fences in what seemed like a (dark-red) tunnel with a few of my classmates.

Not lucid for above.

Was scared shitless by a ghost-like humanoid (irrational? thats me ) walking menacingly towards me. Didn't enter/stabilize the dream (very low lucidity) Now I wish I had :\ I plan to incubate this and kick some butt.

Read somewhere 'round here that precogs which seem 'useless' might be a Spirit nudging us towards attaining a fourth sense. I've had a lot of those and I like the sound of it!

Not much to report as I was visiting family the last couple days and just didn't sleep enough to dream. I'm actually writing from my phone right now, lol. I had a nap today and dreamed:

I'm walking by an outdoor shower, and there's someone inside that I feel an intense loathing for (but I never saw who) I tie something to the showerhouse that I know will call down a dangerous and volitile being that wwill hurt this person. I run fast away hoping that I can escape before it shows up incase it attacks whever is around not the intended target. I find myslf walking in circles thinking I'm going straight and keep ending up at the shower house. Then a beingof white light tells me I need to run before it gets me and leads me home. The being is male, and I think it was vesta but if so its the first time he's appeared in such a form. He never scolded me for summoning a bad entity to hurt someone either, and I felt terrible about it upon waking at the dream house my neighbors are loud when I walk outside to help my husband carry in groceries. The neighbors turn out to be my moms friend in scotland and his family. When I woke up for real, I had a message from him on facebook. It was the first I've gotten from him in months so that was an awesome coincidence! Unless of course, you don't believe in coincidences

9:00 - Apple juice, OJ, Banana, milk
9:30 - Shoot hoops
11:00 - Vitamins with glass of water
11:30 - Fell asleep but forgot binaural beats


Wel I guess thig goes to show that the binaural beats really are helpful in making sure I wake up after a REM cycle. I forgot to turn 'em on last night and didn't wake up once. Wel, that I can remember anyways. This means that I also didn't get to use the alarm last night. Overall though, I had some vivid dreams but man... I am so excited for another lucid!!!!!!!

See ya!