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Tried to WILD+WBTB last night. Woke up 2 times before my alarm could go off. The second time was about 10 minutes before my alarm was set to go off. I tried to WILD after that, but with only minor success. The transition was sort of reached, but I panicked out of excitement... I need to learn to relax, but I have figured out a way to help with this technique that may work for others.

In order to relax and focus, I was constantly saying to myself in my mind: "Focus. Dismiss the thoughts. Relax." over and over. Not in that order but whatever. I visualized the words as well, and it seemed to work pretty well up to the transition.

I'll try again tonight. Hopefully with this new knowledge, I'll have some luck.

I have a new car for about a month now. Here is one small lucid fragment from last night:

I am driving in my new car. It is clean and black inside. It smells very nice and I love being in it because it is so comfortable. I drive for no reason with no destination or goal, just for the fun of it, like I did so many times in the past days. The vegetation is rich and intensely green to my right side.

Suddenly there is a car coming from the right. I hit the brakes as hard as I can, because I have to give way for the other car. It is red and has advertising badges all over, also it looks like it has had some accidents before and there are dents on its door.

I suddenly get lucid! Still my foot is on the brake and it takes a long time before it stands still and it makes a very loud noise. I didn't hit the other car but it was very close. I investigate my surroundings, knowing that I am dreaming. Then everything fades and disappears slowly and finally I am left with NOTHING except the knowing that I am dreaming.

So now everything is black and I still know that this is a dream, but somehow there is no content whatsoever. It feels strange and unexpected, a little creepy too. Then the idea pops into my mind that I can just choose to wake up right now if I wanted to or I could keep on dreaming. I know in this moment that I have the complete freedom of choice. I remember that I had planned to have a LD when I went to bed and it worked! So I am excited about being lucid and I choose to keep on dreaming.

Then I hear voices from all sides, getting louder and louder. They become screams of fear and very loud.

I wake up with a very dry mouth. I think it's cool that I could just decide to have a LD that night.

were all after the purple meth crystal and tryna understand by not understand me that were after the blue meth crystal now the blue meth crystal shy away from the red as it shy the purple meth crystal just flicks in perfect symmtery now the blue meth crystal has many users so does teh green and teh purple understand me not by understanding me now the red crystals shy away like a sly depth septor to cancle out the jedi scum if there even more jedi to be subdue

I've gotten better at WILD, although it took... what... 4 years?

I've found I have much more control over the dream and don't run into the "stuck in the dark" issue that plagues my lucid dreams when I gain awareness during a dream.

I've been horrible about keeping a dream journal, and today I only remember my 2 WILD lucid dreams and not much else. Very lazy of me.

My favorite method for WILD is to explore a specific environment. I have two main fallbacks, two different "home bases". I know a lot of people really want to create a home base. It has been very difficult for me - I had no luck even managing to arrive in my home base for 2 solid years. I think part of it was that my "home" really wasn't a good one and didn't reflect my true personality or needs, and I had to spend a lot of time rearranging and rebuilding it in my head. I have two different ones right now, depending on what I want to accomplish. One is a whimsical home in what looks like the rainforest of the Pacific Northwest, perched on a cliff over the ocean. The other one is a fortress in a rugged landscape that looks a lot like the Grand Canyon, although much more mountainous.


LD #1: Woke up. Had to use the bathroom. Went back to bed.
Began my visualization of home #1... I was on the sandy beach below the cliff. I walked up and down the beach in my mind, focusing on all of the sensations that would go with it - the sound of the waves, the sound of the wind, the feel of the sand beneath my feet and even the slight whisper it made when I walked. How my footprints looked. The sky and horizon over the ocean, and the smell of salt on the breeze. Eventually, the sound of gulls over the water.

I looked back toward my house. There are steep stairs that lead up from the beach to the top of the cliff - they're made from the stones themselves. I walk across the beach to the steps and start climbing upward toward the house. The stones feel solid beneath my feet.

By the time I reach the top of the cliff, the dream has solidified into a lucid dream, although it still feels very fragile. I spend some time on the terrace at the top of the cliff looking out across the beach and ocean, and marvel at how beautiful it is.

I have a feeling that there are some friends nearby heading toward my house, so I move through the bedroom (which has a door leading to the terrace) and then the kitchen area. Things are fuzzy and I've made the mistake of not stabilizing very well because I'm anxious to greet my friends.

I open the front door. The rainforest outside is cool and misty. Wooden steps create a trail upward through the foliage. I can hear their voices in the distance, it sounds like two of them are arguing with each other.

Two of my friends appear at the top of the steps and start heading downward... I can still hear the others arguing with each other, although they're still out of sight somewhere further up the trail.

All of this is very distracting. The dream is too thin at this point, and it fades. I wake up.

LD #2:
I wake up naturally. It's early morning... light outside, but earlier than I'd like to get out of bed. I don't really remember the dreams I just had.

I lie back and begin another visualization; this time, I'm exploring the fortress. The fortress is a very new idea, interesting and a bit more grim. I wander around through some nondescript rooms... I haven't really developed the place much... and eventually become lucid in an area with ugly lemon yellow walls that really don't look very fortressy. I'm sort of irritated since I'd rather be somewhere more fitting for what I'd like, and more interesting. The hall I'm going down twists and turns but doesn't lead anywhere, and I'm becoming more irritated.

I run across a woman wearing a very old-fashioned maid outfit (not like a sexy French maid, think a traditional English maid) but she's very... zombielike. I think I said something to her, and she replied in a monotone. Her eyes were white and milky-looking. I don't like her and don't want to deal with zombies, so I destroy her (with a thought, she basically becomes a blood spatter across the walls and floor).

I run across one of the dream characters who'd normally inhabit this fort (he's a general) but everything is foggy so I don't recall any specifics about him... I need to work on him a little more... and complain about the zombie. He tells me that he and another dream character zombified all of the inhabitants and servants in the fortress when they took it over, so they wouldn't have to deal with any opposition by them but the fortress was kept running and in pretty decent repair. He doesn't care much about convenience and upkeep for himself - he doesn't need that stuff - but the way he sees it, it's more convenient for me. It's sort of evil and disturbing, but it IS something I'd expect that character to do, and he does have a good point.

This wasn't something I came up with myself... I was a little surprised by it, actually. I still don't really like the zombies, but I don't want to argue with that particular dream character very much - he's very stubborn - so I let the zombie thing slide.

As I head toward the main door that leads outside of the fortress, the dream falls apart and I wake up.

bedtime a bit late, but natural waking at 08:30 on schedule

didn't record earlier dreams, mostly lost. Felt a bit bad that recall wasn't great at earlier waking. Better recall later. Short late "waking" LD to end the night.

later waking had good detail, vivid/present dreams, middle dream mostly forgotten

1. +(f, unsure) flying an airplane?

2. + crazy basketball [ds]
Playing basketball. Guys are making lots of long 3-pointers at the beginning of the game. During a free throw one guy comes up from the back and makes an amazing high shot that zips through the hoop so fast and and such a funny angle that no one is sure if it is actually a basket or not. Slow motion replay shows that it is. Taking the ball out from out of bounds.

I'm trying to make layups with folded up towels. This is a layup class. I'm standing RIGHT THERE under the basket but none of my shots gets even close. This is frustrating. At one point I use two hands and the "ball" (wadded up towel) goes farther but still doesn't score.

3. +(f) dog
Leaving house with wife and others, the dog starts whining loudly, wife says something like "man up." I'm annoyed by this. I go to the dog (German Shepard looking) and try to put on its collar, which is in two semi circles with round things on each end of the arc. I try to put the leash on to the collar ring and finally get it in place.

4. + uneven pavement SUV
I'm riding in a big SUV in the front passenger seat. (The driver is a guy who IWL our building is having problems with). We're bouncing over uneven pavement. The car's suspension has reached a bouncing frequency that makes the front wheels hop up just at the right time to get over the large uneven sections in the street which are bound with metal on the edges. I say "good job" for avoiding the bumps. I "remember" that on another street parallel to us there is another crack and talk about it. I can't remember the name of the street, I know it is located by turning left then right. I say "what's the name of that street that leads to A. hill?" A guy (in the back of the car?) answers "Crawdad Street(?)". The crack on that street also needs to be avoided.

5. + military presence, wedding/funerals

Standing outside urban environment, we're heading to the church to get married(us? kids?). Other groups are also heading to the church for funerals. A large group with a lot of caskets are approaching, individual men are carrying each casket. Are the caskets empty? That must be heavy. We should hurry, where's my wife? If they get to the church ahead of us we may have to wait all through the funeral service before the wedding. It's bad luck to be married at the same time a funeral service is going on.

There are military helicopters flying just past the fence which is made of poles. The tail section of one helicopter I notice is gradually approaching the fence where it can/will get caught. It does get caught and the helicopter goes down on its side. I have a feeling we should rush the cockpit while we can.

To the right down the street a big company of soldiers runs up. They're wearing red uniforms. I think it's pretty funny that this huge force was sent to deal with us, we're just standing around waiting for the church, ooooh, how scary we are!

6. + crazy racquetball
Playing on a somewhat dark court against a lot of guys. I'm serving and scoring points. I alter my service location between the left and right back corners. I'm serving standing on the right of the service area and serving towards the left back corner, score, count (it seems my score is a bit low for how long I've been here winning points), then I quickly step to the left side of the service box and serve towards the back right corner which completely takes them by surprise and they don't even go for it. One serve/shot comes back off the back wall fast and they can't catch up to it, another point for me. One one point I score by a corner shot against the left front corner.

Another guy comes in to play against me. "Another one?" I say? I think the court is getting really crowded.

There is a woman wearing glasses sitting down on a chair on the right front area of the court beyond the service box. I'm annoyed by this. I tell her she's in the way, and that she could get hurt. "The ball moves at 200mph and your'e not wearing safety glasses." I think I may be exaggerating but on some shots the ball could go really fast, if you put a speed gun on it to measure it it may be closer to 100 mph. She and I get into an argument. "Well you're not wearing safety goggles either!" she says. "Yeah but <something>" I say, I'm getting really angry and she's backing out of the court. She says "I'm a journalist and I'm going to write a story about you" (and your behavior). When she's gone I'm in the service box and start justifying myself to a guy playing. "She did not respond to reason in the beginning, <so things got out of hand>". I'm a bit concerned about the article she's going to write is going to present me in a bad light and people will think poorly of me, even though they don't have the whole story.

(wake and recall dreams?)

7. + LD#139
I'm outdoors in an urban environment. I had to go get something at my car. I start jogging back to the racquetball game. I feel very light on my feet, like I've lost weight. I feel the rub of the jeans on my legs every time I raise them up to jog another step forwards. I think I'll need to change into my shorts back at the court, I hope my racquet is still there.

Up ahead I see girls in uniforms entering a University. School is in session again. They look nice. I do a nose pinch to see if I'm dreaming ["If I were dreaming right now…."], and I am! I debate where I should go. On the one hand I'd really like to play racquetball lucid, I've been looking forwards to that for a long time, I should keep heading back to the courts. On the other hand: girls! I decide to follow the crowd in the right door. There is one girl with long blond hair right in front of me and I go up to her and face her and start talking to her. I ask her what year she is. The dream fades and I'm awake.

Analysis/commentary/misses
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2. fairly reliable DS. I've played basketball with wadded up towels for balls before in dreams. Can't make a simple shot over and over again.

3. this was a longer dream, forgot a lot of it

4. poor memory and reaching for something I think I should know it is a fairly reliable dream sign, need to catch these.

5. lots of odd things here. "How odd is this?" should catch this. Especially the huge company of soldiers running up to our group.

6. Major dream sign, I will catch this one day and play lucid racquetball!

7. Happy that pretty girls got me lucid fairly quickly . Unfortunately, no stabilization, and I should have grabbed the girl and taken her to go play racquetball instead of just standing there staring at her hoping the dream doesn't end which of course made it end. Goals! Narrate! Lucid Lab!

Yesterday IWL I started working on being aware of my path, location, and *how I'm moving*. I paid attention to my legs and the feel of my legs walking, looking down to see them and my feet. I paid attention to changes of direction, location transitions, and transitions in the material the ground is made of. This "feel of my legs inside my jeans" in the dream may have come from that!

Setting:
The scene is an open, craggy desert mountain region not unlike that of Pakistan or other mountainous desert regions. My POV is on one side of a 40-foot wide crack in the ground, while on the other side there lay a green catwalk hanging over the canyon, and behind it sat a large water-tank looking thing. Many details were forgotten by the time I wrote the dream down, sadly.

[Plot begins; POV above canyon]:
Terrorists had tried to attack the industrial area by going through the canyon, which proved futile for many -- considering they had been quickly dispatched by US military personnel. However, one still lied, half buried in the sand, struggling to keep breathing.

[POV across canyon from the water tank]:
At this point, Obama (in a suit and white hard hat) walks out from the left of the water tank with an entourage of construction workers and military officers. He's asking questions and observing the area, prospecting.

[POV in canyon]:
The man suffering in the canyon grabs his M9 pistol, and points it backwards towards his head. He shouts in Arabic twice, and begins to pull the trigger. Suddenly, some coiled garden hose came into his reach and he grabbed on. It pulls him out of the sand at which point he gets a clear view of Obama. He took the shot, and killed Obama.

[Change setting to looking at TV video of assassination]:
I feel sad, and begin to wonder what Biden will do with the presidency. I discuss this with myself for ~3 minutes.

[Plot ends; wake up]

Note:
- Before dreaming, I hadn't had my usual glass of water before bed...
- This dream resulted in a hormonal high for the rest of the day. Now, whenever I think of it, the same feeling comes back. Rather pleasant, really.

[Fragment; not related to plot]:
I'm floating up above a massive desert town. Kinda like a Las Vegas but slightly more dusty and fake looking. For once I'm actually kinda flying, but it's not like I am physically up there; it's more that the "camera" of the dream is in the sky. It was really cool up there.

[Plot begins; change setting to below]:
I'm in some sort of academic tour of a seemingly historical area with my "social studies class". We're in a small building (pictured below):

Anyways, we were on our way through (doing a gallery walk) while a class from another school was on their way out the way we came. There was an artifact we were supposed to be looking at, but the only artifact I saw was a girl.

She was Asian (reminiscent of someone I used to know), and rather beautiful. But what surprised me more was that she noticed me and shot me a smile from across the room; I did the same. As we walked by each other, we both said "hi" simultaneously. I felt pretty good

[Plot continues; change setting to my house]:
It's night time. I walk out onto my porch where my mom is chilling out, playing games on her iPad. Dad guns it up the driveway in an old (like 30 years old) beat-up red Chrysler coupe with groceries, and stops magically at the top of the driveway. He's looking a bit crazy-eyed.

At this moment, I get a call. I answer, and I hear this:
"Hi! I'm Ki, the girl you saw at camp today. I looked through the directories and databases to find your number, but I just wanted to tell you about myself! I grew up in [censored for privacy], too! --"
She proceeds to tell me a bit about her singing, and she proceeds to sing a couple rock songs, and was astoundingly good at it! She then hung up. Feelin' pretty good

My mom checked my email and discovered that Ki had written an email to me as well, and proceeded to give me an all-knowing "you've got yourself a girlfriend" glance.

[Plot ends; setting doesn't change]:
My parents task me with bringing our car to the neighbors and parking it. I asked Dad to move my car out of the way, and he proceeded to show me his collection of random crap he had stuffed in my car (like in the headliner and the vents). This collection included broken Joker figures wrapped in paper towels and Dim Sum posters...

[Wake up]

I literally haven't updated in 2 years. Wow. I'm going to try Lucid Dreaming once again, now that I no longer have school to worry about. So I have a few recent dreams I'd like to go through first... I don't remember too many details of course, but it's better than writing nothing. It's also better than writing each one separately, given how short they are.

1. I was in some sort of small warehouse room being held at gunpoint by some dude in a trench coat. For some reason, we swapped jackets, but he forgot he left another gun in his, so I took it out and shot him dead.

2. Multiple violent dreams of being in fights with random people.

3. Many dreams lately about spending time with my sort of gf. (Long story, don't ask.) Probably having these because I miss her a lot.

4. In my school looking for gf constantly, she turns a corner as I'm running towards her and she's gone completely. I spend the rest of the dream frantically searching for her.

5. A bunch of different dreams involving my old houses I used to live in, talking to my parents about various things.

That's all I remember recently.

I'll continue to update regularly from now on. It's good to be back!

Night #12:

My recall has been awful this last week; I don’t remember becoming lucid for any of these lucid fragments, so I’ll only count them as one DILD.

I was in some strange room and I remembered that I wanted to transform into a dragon. I got down on all fours and felt wings grow from my back and I felt a tail grow from my bum. I imagined myself being green and scaly until I was a pretty little dragon. I took off flying.

I was running down a street at night and I started to run super-fast, until my legs left the ground and I started to float. I remember seeing streetlamps lighting up my path. I summoned Zeus’ lightning bolt in my hands and threw it off into the distance.

I was in a dark room made of wood and I was trying to summon fire in my hands. I snapped my fingers and a small flame appeared on my thumb. I made it grow and then started throwing fireballs and unleashing a steady stream of flames all around me.

I was hanging out with an alien that was wearing tacky early 90’s clothing. I remember that he had green skin and that he was holding an iPhone. I started to control his actions with my mind.


Night #13:

DILD #1:
I was at a supermarket with Dreamer, just looking around. I became lucid when a fish bit my arm, but I made sure that it didn’t hurt at all. I then summoned peas for some reason.

DILD #2:
This one was later in the night. I was fishing with my mom on a tropical beach. There were fish that were hanging out right near the shore and I basically just stuck my hook into the water for half a second and pulled out a huge fish. I tried to think about what I was supposed to do next, and I figured that I was supposed to cook it and eat it. I felt awful just thinking about that.

I stared at the fish flopping around on the ground with a hook in its stomach. I became lucid and made the fish vanish in a puff of smoke. I then summoned peas, beans, carrots, and some other vegetables in my hands for making vegetable soup instead.

Really weird how similar the dreams were with the fish and the peas.

Night #14:

I did SSILD then chanted a mantra about remembering dreams before falling asleep, I think it helped a lot with my recall.

WILD #1:
I had been trying to WILD for ages and I finally started to drift off the sleep. Dreamer had gotten up a few minutes earlier and was coming back into the room. The sound woke me up enough to hold onto my awareness while my body fell back asleep almost immediately. I could hear Dreamer asking me a question about dreams.

I did an epiglottis block RC, then a nose plug. I talked to the Dreamer DC for a minute, telling her how naughty she was for trying to trick me into thinking I was still awake. I slowly got out of bed then wandered down the hall towards the front door. I phased through the door but then it opened of its own accord after I had moved through it. I felt like I couldn’t see, as though I was wearing blindfolds. I imagined that I actually was wearing blindfolds and I reached to my face to try to take them off, wouldn’t work. Everything was very dark but I could tell it was sunny outside. I closed my eyes and teleported, hoping that would fix it.

I ended up in a garage with workout equipment. The floor was made of cement and it was very cold on my bare feet. I walked over to an exercise machine and suddenly my vision got locked into place. I began flying and flailing my body around, but my vision wouldn’t change. I tried to relax because I knew that panicking wouldn’t help. I summoned a staff in my hands, but both the staff and my hands were transparent. I waved the staff around, it looked like it was made out of air or water.

The scene that I was stuck looking at slowly changed into being my bedside table and I could feel my eyes open. I closed them but I could feel my waking life body already.

WILD #2:
I had been trying to fall back asleep for about 10-20 minutes, when I heard Dreamer’s voice again. She was talking about the conversation we had before (in my other WILD). I was onto her tricks this time and I said to her, “You’re not going to fool me, I know that you’re not really Dreamer, speak again sweet angel!”
She started talking more. I did an epiglottis block, then a nose plug RC. I got up and out of bed then ran out the back door this time. It was night time and I could see the moon in the sky. I tried to take off flying but I only got up a little way in the air before I started floating back down. I tried jumping up to make myself fly, wouldn’t work. I went back inside where I saw my dad about to use the toilet. Dreamer was there too, sitting in the kitchen. I woke up.

WILD #3:
The dream started in the bedroom, and I did some RCs to make sure I was in the dream. I got out of bed again and walked into the kitchen. I saw my dad in the toilet, butt naked while peeing. I poked his cheek (not the one on his face ). Then walked back into the kitchen where I saw Dreamer. I waved my hand in her face and said, “You’re coming to the bedroom with me, right Dreamer?”

She turned around and started walking towards the bedroom. I followed her. I altered my body slightly and then hung out with Dreamer for awhile before waking up.

WILD #4:
I did a nose plug, then got up and walked through the wall but I kind of got stuck on it and had to wriggle my body through. It was sunny outside. I tried to think of any tasks that I wanted to do, but I woke up.

DILD:
I was hanging out with Dreamer outside my parents’ house. It was a cold day and there was snow everywhere. She turned into my sister and insisted that she be allowed to drive this car. I became lucid and got into the passenger seat, then teleported to the driver seat, swapping with my sister. There were a couple other dream characters that were hanging out in the back. There was also no roof on this car!

I started driving and then immediately took off flying in the car. The windshield was covered in snow, so I turned on the windshield wipers and they worked! The snow was promptly removed and I could see. I started to fly super-fast across the landscape, but telephone poles/wires appeared all over the place. I tried to navigate through them but they were everywhere. Eventually one got caught on my neck, but I made sure that my body couldn’t be hurt. I then phased through it and it went right through me and the rest of the car. I started focusing on making them disappear until there were only one or two, but I couldn’t get rid of them all completely, so I decided to just land the car. It was sunny outside now. An old man came up to us and started asking us questions about how we were able to fly a car. I woke up.

+ I'm driving in a town and see up ahead a (wagon?) with soaking wet guys and girls, like high school students, (narrator?) commends them for completing the task and sticking with it after others have left.

I'm driving by a house and look at it there are people mulling around the front, I wonder if this is the Halloween party I want to go to.

I pull up in front of a house with a Halloween party going on. There's a girl on my lap, sort of vague/hazy.

Spoiler for explicit sexual stuff:

I'm in the driver's seat and she's sitting on top of me (facing away?) I start kissing and licking her leg, she doesn't complain so I reach for her pants button. I unbutton her pants and in one smooth motion I pull down her pants, she lies back sideways with her back/head on the passenger seat, and I lean down and begin oral on her. She says "oh yeah, eat my <epithet>!" I'm going at it and I look at her face, it is a very accurate rendition of ex-gf SB including hair color. In my peripheral vision I notice the (high school kids?) from the party are climbing up on the hood of the car and looking in the windshield. I say (in a sexy way, not concerned), "do you like it that they're watching me eat your <epithet>?!".

Apparently, however, she does not like it, because she sits up and seems shocked/mortified. I'm miffed and decide to start the car and back out / start driving. She opens the door and gets out. She is now a different unknown girl, long dark hair, quite pretty, there seems to be a contact sheet of images floating around the windshield and her image is also there. I command her "get back into the car!" but she shakes her head and doesn't get in. I get angry and drive away in a huff.

WBTB. Long BTS. I feel myself slooooowly sinking deeper into sleep, but it's really slow and with many thoughts arising that I need to continually let go and focus on relaxation. Finally "call in the nukes" and turn on to my stomach (position of last resort), and fall asleep.

+ I'm at the base of a tree so tall it's upper branches are shrouded in darkness. For a long while I'm just looking up the length of its branchless trunk, straining to see any upper branches but up high there is only darkness and shadow. There is a woman and her daughter there too, the girl is sitting near me, maybe leaning a bit on me. I ask the name of the tree, the woman answers "a red <something>." I say in a foreign language, "it's very tall."

My back is to the tree and my wife is there, I want to go to the glacier, but in the dream I can't remember this word, I ask her "what's that place <with snow, in foreign language> called?", she refuses to tell, since she doesn't want to go there. I ask her several times and get frustrated both that I can't remember the term [glacier], and that she's not telling me this word.

+(f) walking along a shoreline, seeing people swimming / bobbing in the fairly large waves [gee it only took almost 3 weeks at a seaside resort location to get one of these]

+ (LD#138) I'm in a store/gym, I'm walking and stepping my way among some stuff on the ground, I feel funny/dizzy like I'm losing my balance, I suspect, despite feeling *completely awake*, pretty much lucid now, nose pinch confirms. The people around me mostly vanish, there's one clear DC in front of me, I reach for it, and take each one of its hands in mine, we're facing each other and looking into each other's eyes. I start to transform it into a girl of my desire, saying "You look a lot like <xyz>". But I stop myself. I think of TOTM. I try to remember my chant/cheer and come up with "fart bus." Fart is easy/fast so I decide to do that, there are people still around me. So I stand up tall, stick my butt way out behind me and push a bit, but get no sensation or sound, but regardless I stand up and jump up and down and shout out "It was me! It was me!" Satisfied that I completed the task, I grab my DC again, and tell it

Spoiler for sexual stuff:

"you like to [give BJs], don't you?!" It's sort of a "living stick person" with no features at this point. It's short so I kneel down and position my face to kiss it and think of some BJ action starting

but then I wake up.

Okay, so first I was in a zombie apocalypse, and I realized there was a good zombie. I realized I was safe from him. Then I somehow found a witch's house and drove the witch away. I remember that there was a sock that if I put it on my right foot, it would signal someone or something. I had a false memory that I had been there before, and looked under a rug to see a trapdoor to the basement. I wanted to go down there, but I didn't wanna fall. I looked to the right to see a little play area. There were a lot of rooms and to get to the next room, you had to complete a task. When I got to the room, I realized the room was now at Disneyworld. At some point I became lucid, but I don't remember when.. The rooms vaguely reminded me of the horror movie Cube. I saw my friend Irie, who's a lot shorter than me, but I made her taller than me (idk why). I made it to the top room (after some science experiments XD) and tried to imagine there was a nice penthouse on top of the rooms. I tried to break the ceiling Minecraft style but I got an error saying I couldn't. I decided to go on a couple of rides. Then I had a couple of false awakenings and did a reality check with both of them, but didn't have any control. but then I woke up for real.

Range: July 25th 2015 - August 24th 2015

It has been a month since my attempts to LD already. So, I guess I should summarize my progress for the my lovely first month. This way, I can finally drop my dream notes from my phone to my PC; clearing out space to start better formatted notes. I can also keep track of missed dream journals here to work on it. Let's get straight into it, I guess.

It all started on July 25th 2015, around 7 PM while I was researching Five Nights at Freddy's 4's game data, mechanics and theories. Things went well until I stumbled upon this post on Reddit. That was interesting evidence piece to support theory that player you're playing is dreaming. I quickly went on and started googling dream clocks to make sure it was right. There I got it! I stumbled upon a blog about LD, read over them on how clocks can be used to induce a lucid dream. I thought I was about to end there, but all the spared reading spirits came. I middle-clicked (open in new tab) every single linked keyword as I read through, and I got into all of them. This became a chain, as each page led me to more. That was it. As much as how I would be addicted to reading wikis, I couldn't help myself out in this case also. I finally got interested in it, and there went my first night!

First night went as a mixture of technique. I decided to go for WILD when I was drifting to sleep, and if it failed I would do DILD instead. Of course, I was RCing like crazy throughout the day (not really, it was night) as fail safe. However, with my lack of detailed knowledge, it just failed. I was actually awake in my bed longer than usual (as far as I could remember; I might be dreaming already, who knows?) with thoughts about lucid dreaming. That eventually led me into a scene I visualized up for my unique attempt of WILD. It just felt like walking into darkness with some weird, hypnagogic lights. It was long until there, I fell asleep unconsciously. (yay! failure!) I woke up with a fragment stuck in my mind. I didn't usually have good recall rate before that. It was... erm... a dream per month or something that came up from long 12 hours sleep. They weren't fragments also. This night was different, that got me interested even more. I woke up at 5:50 AM, much earlier than usual, as it was weekend. I continued my sleep at 6 AM, awake at 8 AM with no dream recalled.

I noticed changes in my personality for the next day. At least, I felt better than usual. Couldn't explain, but it was euphoric-like state. My family did mention that I somehow sleep-talked, couldn't understand scrambled speech though. Quite something for me to freak out. Actually, I had been thinking about possibility of sleep-talk during the nights as I did, many times. For the second night, I just slept as usual with mild obsession to LD. Recalled a fragment which I wasn't sure if it was my visualization or actually dream fragment; it came up with other random thoughts before I drifted off. Same went for another nights. Except that I did WILD (probably I just did it without actual intention) on my nap in July 31st 2015 , probably due to some shaky environment that kept me a bit awake. I wasn't sure if it was actual dream or it was just all the visualization held in my mind, just like my lucidity on August 21st. It was quite random though, and I did some (possible) dream controls. I woke up in same, euphoric-like state, of course. Still, I didn't feel to fine calling this a lucid dream yet as I couldn't confirm it on how I felt.

I registered my account on Dreamviews in July 31st 2015, late night of that nap day. Finally being able to step in community and such the next day. I eventually decided going on intro class and DILD class of this great place; finally having a place to share whatever I was trying. Dreams do have to stick together as fogelbise said.

Since August 6th 2015, my dream recall started being a great thing (at least for me). It was a long dream each night, or even more due to natural awakenings noticed. Though, there were suddenly huge downfalls whenever I had to sleep like... 2 AM or something. It ruined my dream recalls for a day or two, before regaining them over nights. Sad news is it happened quite often with my works. Anyways, it wasn't too much of a problem since I could always try.

After almost a month of attempts, my works finally paid off. August 21st 2015, I finally have a lucid dream. At least I could be surer than that random day nap mentioned above. Tried some dream controls on dream characters summoning, and it went well. Probably because how it felt like just a visualization, I could feel it happening instantly. Anything could be read on my dream journals, intro workbook and DILD workbook. Down here would be short list to link to dream journals and such. Actually, I'm going to use this to keep track on dreams I haven't written down.

• July 25th 2015 - A fragment
• July 26th 2015 - A fragment
• July 27th 2015 - False awakening
• July 28th 2015 - A fragment
• July 29th 2015 - No dreams recalled
• July 30th 2015 - No dreams recalled
• July 31st 2015
  - Worthwhile Nap
  - No dreams recalled
• August 1st 2015 - A dream recalled
• August 2nd 2015 - A dream recalled
• August 3rd 2015 - No dreams recalled
• August 4th 2015 - No dreams recalled
• August 5th 2015 - A fragment
• August 6th 2015 - Life Hacker
• August 7th 2015 - No dreams recalled
• August 8th 2015 - Fabricated World
• August 9th 2015 - No dreams recalled
• August 10th 2015
  - A fragment (one sentence dream thread)
  - False awakening (DILD workbook)
• August 11th 2015 - A fragment
• August 12th 2015 - Let the system go nuts! (1 +1f)
• August 13th 2015 - How to risk your life for nothing
• August 14th 2015 - A fragment (DILD workbook thread)
• August 15th 2015 - #Procrastinate4Life
• August 16th 2015 - No dreams recalled (Slept at 3:30 AM of August 17th 2015)
• August 17th 2015 - No dreams recalled
• August 18th 2015 - Two fragments
• August 19th 2015 - No dreams recalled
• August 20th 2015 - No dreams recalled
• August 21st 2015 - Lovely School
• August 22nd 2015 - Another boring day for games
• August 23rd 2015 - Nonsensical Question
• August 24th 2015 - School. Again (2)

That's all. Long summary for myself to write and read on. I'll compile all the dream fragments I noted here whenever I'm able to. Whether ways, happy dreaming, oneironauts!

I had forgotten about this dream when I woke up and I was sad that I didn't have any lucid dreams, but then I remembered it after trying to remember my dreams for a few minutes! I was sure glad that I did, this one was pretty fun even though I went a bit crazy for a minute, beating up a poor, innocent dream character. I wonder how many lucid dreams I completely forget about having.

I was hanging out at an old school arcade, and it was quite popular! Very unusual for arcades these days, the last few I've seen were like ghost towns.
I felt like I was in the 90's again, there were kids everywhere playing games and the atmosphere was very exciting and full of positive energy.

I saw a girl that I used to have a crush on when I was 13. I wanted to buy these peanut butter cups because I remembered (falsely) in the dream that she used to love them. I tried to buy a bag from the cashier guy there and he said it would cost $95 AUD!
I tried to haggle a little bit with him and a group of about ten DCs joined me, including my childhood crush. The guy caved into the pressure and cut the price in half, but he most certainly wasn't very happy about it. He demanded that I should take another item on top of the candy as well, quite odd. I took a small gray comb that was sitting on the table and gave him money. He didn't give me the candy, instead he tore up a couple $20 notes and threw them on the counter for me, while counting in $20 increments as though he was giving me change.

I pointed at his face and called him a dick, so he reached beneath the counter, pulled out a gun, and pointed it at my face. I looked at him and said, "Are you serious? You can't hurt me in my own dream."

He shot me a couple times and it didn't bother me at all. I was afraid that he was going to hurt my childhood crush though, so I slowed down time. I could see his bullets moving through the air, creating ripples in their wake.

I got up next to them and calmly watched them float by me. I pulled a couple out of the air and dropped them on the floor. He kept firing though, and he was trying to hit my crush. The bullets started moving faster too.

I kept swiping them to the side so that they flew into the walls or into arcade games. Two of the bullets got past me though and went into the girl's leg and stomach. I made the bullets come out with my mind and then held my hand over her body to heal her. The guy did it now. I didn't want to hurt him before that point, but hurting that DC made me go a little bit dark.

I punched the next bullet that he shot and it went zooming past his head, then I ran up to him at super speed and kicked him straight in the nuts. His face started to slowly get distorted from the pain.
I then punched him square in the nose and it sent ripples all throughout his body, emanating from the impact point. The force of the blow knocked him downwards into the ground slightly. Woke up.

so im playing kingdom hearts wen a heartless throws a galic gun at me i was like what in the world is going on

kingdom hearts and dbz i was so plane like i was in a astral plane of both games where the organziation was tryns making lab monkeys to do a capsule like drug system where your as strong as you percieve as the capsule you take this take me to the medicine i do i got sum drugs that i take wen i play both games and wwen im in a astral world of both games wen the drugs where off and wen i sober up im still in the game of both games like im not a hollywood agent tryna make your life a living hell by giving you wrong scrpits to go to im a monkey who strong enough to get out the entrapment world where someone tryna trapped you in me being a lab monkey i got out jus in time where organzation 14 would try to enslave you high school what im talking about most of these people not even there real age they be grown as shit in there 20 playing an lollygagging around as the stupid stuff you see on tv so that why i imprision myself in the gameworld of kingdom hearts and dbz

So That's it , I'm starting this dream journal so I can record my experiments, dreams, lucid dreams, and such happenings. Lets hope this time something meaning full will happen and not only unrealistc stuff, such as people spinning on still ballons, mass suicide, and any other meaning of horrible.

For a beginning I'll write a few of my latest experiments.

In the latest dream this morning I fought a guy with two fists, I couldnt hit him untill I also grew two fists on each hand, and from now I was even able to counter his moves. Weird .

In the latest lucid dream, I had a sloppy wild btw, I tried to stabilize with focusing on body, eyes ,sensation and dream enviroment,
Things got quite vivid, but moments after, the colours got more intense, and bright, and the whole room was in dimensional waves , and the painting of earth that hangs on the wall, there was the milky way on it instead and it started to come out in a 3D formation. And thats how the dream ended.