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All I had were some fragments of dreams tonight.

time : 1:40-2:26 AM
*probably be unreadable
I woke up and felt a strong vibration, and try separate bodyes by movement but it not work well and cause a pain . I try to found frequecni of vibration its something about 3,5hz.
In start of vibrations i hear some voices. Also try found if someone is connected to my /try to contact me --) noone. After i try some visualization but was not stable.Another vibration this time was better i try push left leg inside the bed it cause change of its position but still not get me form body ,add of hand visulization result in very strange "FA/dream" IM still on bed but in different position facing the wall and try to see my hand i get glimpse of hand but not stabilize appearence of wall change i see some strange texture on in . Shapes of texture change and create something like geometric patern my hand become mirrored few times and se 2 to 6 hand in diffrent angles .Try to stabilize the hand visulaly lead to another bizare mirror and geometric textures and hand angles i notice the texture look like portal/liquid and try to push hand to it by intention.This hlep and i get to new state i see a window of scene and try to influnce inside i get to this dream for some time but it was unstable .Wake up form his short LD and another vibrations.This time i try get back to previous LD by intention and try some movemnts of body.Movemnts not work but after a while i get to new dream it was similar like 1st LD but not the smae i was in my room and try like load dream scene /video on my PC littlerpoblem found right folder.I saw flat tV on other side of rooom with dream scene loaded on PC in try infulece it.I was able to influnce some things insice but image was small. I have idea to increase the size of TV , it was like use a mouse found border of TV in increase size of window by mouse movement. First try work and i try oher dimnesions but i have problem be precize and mouse cursor to the border of window/TV. Found better way found inco maximalize somewhere nad TV screen fill whole wall on other side of my room . Try to get in it work but i not hold a dream long .

Awakening in start felt absolutly real is impossible to say be fealing it was real of false.

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Information from the subconscious .Some basic logging of info was turn ON so i get some usefull infomation.


Dream tims and lenghts , LD chance

B-wakefulness (is not mesurment of lucidity but better than nothing)

Top picture -preception priority of senses
FP physical proprioreception
NP non-physical proprioreception 1
NP non-physical proprioreception 2
NV non-physical vision
NA non-physical audio
lower nuber higher priority

When i wrote info about dream times i notice strange thing 2 dreams in same time .
The awakening was false , FP not go to C-preception , but is was realively strong so some influnce to NP2 is possible.

1min start of false awakening red line NP2 is fealing of non-physical body in dream senery of my bed
NA some voices
1min 15s creation of second source NP1 for unknown reason ,it cretae body in slightly diffrent position
firts vibration and turn off of NA
1min 45s start of visulization NV (black line) and lowering of priority od second dream body NP1
2min 40s another vibration this time NP1 have some little advantage
3min turn off of NP2 dream body created in false awakening ,and strong NV
4min focus on NV in dream scene also increse of NA audio in scene
4min another vibration
5min 45s start of cecond LD string NV
7min 45s normal awakening

Picture nad bottom of page try to get better look to NP interaction vibration frequenci 1,8-3,7Hz its look like some Top-down modulated feedback in frequency of cognitive cycle.

Black: Non-dream
Blue: Non-lucid
Red: Lucid

Okay so I woke up around 2-3, I haven't done anything with lucid dreaming for a month or so, haven't even written any dreams down. This is mostly because my baby wakes up a lot during the night so I just find it too difficult at the moment.

When I woke up I didn't get up or anything, I was going to go straight back to sleep, but I noticed that for some reason I could feel myself slipping into a dream, then the vibrations started (for me, this seems to occur mostly around my jaw with the unpleasant feeling of grinding my teeth). Next thing I knew I was in a dream, lucid and in my bedroom, I got out of bed and saw some crazy vivid flashy colours coming from objects sitting on a chair that isn't usually there. I turn my head to the wall and think to stabilize, I also realize I'm floating about as if it was low-gravity. I try shouting 'stabilize!' a few times but I can't really talk, I wake up a few seconds after I got into the dream and turned the light to make sure it wasn't an FA. My gf woke up too, and she confirmed in the morning that I did indeed turn the light wasn't too happy about it though lol.

Wish I had more time to type all this.
I've been having sleep paralysis more frequently now, so for the first time I didn't try to make myself wake up and I didn't just lie there during it. But, that's because I was just in a lucid dream that kind of propelled me from it.
(The order of these dreams kind of confuse me, so they might be a little off. I woke up in some way (into SP or into another dream) at least three times.

1st lucid: - realized I was lucid because I had the memory of literally just going to sleep. I made the place I was in (wooden, barrels, huge and cylinder-shaped with lots of bars across) expand upwards infinitely to test that I was lucid. Sometime later, thought I heard my alarm clock go off, heard a persistent beeping noise (and just realized now my alarm clock is a song anyway...I guess my conscious self didn't even realize that). I kind of woke up then, but then I looked around and realized...wow, i'm still in a dream. okay? This dream was in a worse setting. I could tell right off the bat that there weren't pleasant vibes. A guy with a gun, darkish room, don't recall other things rn...I was like oh shit what do I do? (throughout all these dreams this night everything seemed to move VERY quickly, it was so weird. it felt like it was moving much faster than earth events) so I tried to fly away in this quick-paced state, realized, oh whoop, can't do that, so I messed with the plot somehow, kinda hazy with details. I just thought to myself, okay "GOOD VIBES" all around and light started shining and I started gaining power/light? to somehow "defeat the bad guy." I don't really know.

SP: - Right when I did that is when my dream body seemed to rocket up into my physical body and enter an *intense* sleep paralysis mode. Time was still kind of moving quickly, although definitely slower than in the dream and in "normal" real-time, since SP always seems very real like you're wide awake. (maybe you are? idk, anyway)
So I didn't have thAT much time to think. I know once I entered SP and my body started shaking, my dream body propelled upwards out of my bed, toward the ceiling. Then the acceleration declined significantly and I had to "fight" with physical strength, it seemed, to keep moving up. I felt very uncomfortable during this state. I could feel my tongue pushing against the top of my retainer to try to "keep going up" or whatever happened. (During this i was aware that i didn't know exactly what to do, so i just went with that and didn't think much about it. it was pretty exciting!! which i guess is why the discomfort wasn't too bad) Then, I reached it! I went "high" enough so that I reached a dream!

2nd dream - fucking shit i wrote for 11 minutes, i only wanted to write for 5. fucking college essay. okay. -walked outside, bright sunny day green grass - thought to self "i need people" (i think, maybe not. it's hazy) - 2 tables - my age v. adults - torn between where to go/sit -black man glasses some type of atypical accent, leaning over speaking intensely to the table, saying, "ember was on a website, she was talking to a man with a (motions to his face) long beard... " -heard my name and that stuff, freaked the fuck out, woke up, was 4:20-ish (not long after i went to sleep), wrote down on phone

omg....wow i wrote some of it down already. could have just looked at that

okay, and initial thoughts after that were
woww so that's what it's like to LD from SP?? never thought it would happen that way! felt like my actual body left my bed! that was intense, etc. (although now that i've had more out of SP i know it doesn't always happen that way)

Pulling trees out of the ground, I magically turn them into boards and make a huge pile of them several hundred feet behind me. I plan to build a bunch of things, so I need lots of them. Still leaving some trees in the forest, I quickly gather more than I need just in case I get carried away with construction. Just moving my awareness around, I don't have a visible body, but still manage to physically interact with the world, and rip trees out of the ground just fine. It's easy to float to and fro as I do this.

December 14, 2014

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Where's Zukin?!

I was at Zukin's co-op, but it was actually my house back home. Apparently, everyone who lived there slept in a communal bedroom, which happened to be where my room is in the house IWL. The only guy in my master's program was my bed-mate (apparently everyone shared a king-size bed with someone else), but H and K were visiting, and took up too much space on the bed, so he had to sleep on the floor next to the bed.

At some point during the day, I was looking for Zukin. I looked everywhere for her, including at her bed and even in a random grocery store (that, now that I think of it, was a pool. Hahaha!). I got back to the co-op, and see some people watching a movie. I asked them if they know where Zukin is, and one of them says they saw her in the kitchen doing dishes. I went to the kitchen, which was located where the family room is IWL, and finally found her as she was coming out of the kitchen.

She opened a large freezer, and pulled out a tray of sorts. It created a neat little workspace or something. She cracked two eggs onto the tray-thing. At first I am like wtf is she doing, but as I watch, the eggs sort of freeze hard on contact, and then bubble and fizz and start cooking. Apparently if you get eggs cold enough they jump right to cooking :D

Zukin and I go outside and head for a restaurant or arcade of some sort, and she is ahead of me. I say something, and she turns back toward me, and something behind me catches her eye. She ran past me and told me to follow her because she "suddenly remembered it was today."

I turn and see her running toward a tractor and find that there is a corn field. We get on the cart behind the tractor, to ride Charlie's Pumpkin Ride through the cornfield, but Zukin rolled off the tractor and fell through the ground. I reached through the ground to help her up, but she rolls off the cart and fell through the ground again. Then I woke up.



A is Starring in a Musical

After falling back asleep, I dreamt that I was part of a play in which my old good friend A was starring. Apparently she knew some old guys who were like family friends, and who were famous play writes. They really wanted her to star in this play. So she and one of the old men were front and center on stage, with lots of men in identical black outfits playing instruments behind them. They were singing and dancing, and A eventually pulled up a group of women in red. She would reach out into the "audience" for one of them, pull their hand, and they were all attached to strings and would fly to one of the men with instruments and dance with them. I had a bird's eye perspective on one of the girls going haywire and crashing out stage left.

Later in the play, A's character tragically dies, and after that I saw her in the bathroom vomiting. I asked if she was alright, and she said she was okay, but she got her clothes all dirty. I told her to stay there, and I ran to backstage and asked people if there were any spare clothes for her to wear. My dad was there, and apparently was in charge of hardware and equipment. He lead me to A's locker and helped me open it, but the dream faded before I had the chance to get the clothes.



Grassy Mountain Ridge

A beautiful fragment about riding a bike along a grassy mountain ridge. I went back and forth on a ridge, and then met up with some people near the top. We crawled through some bushes, and came to an elaborate gate blocked off with some weird scheme. We got past the blockade, and entered into a beautiful, grown-over ancient temple courtyard of some sort. There were four aqueducts that converged in this circular courtyard type place, but one of them was being diverted to a different area which we weren't able to reach. The rest of them powered and decorated the temple.



WHY ARE YOU SMILING?!

I was in a large maze-like house with some people. I kept switching POVs in this dream so I'm not really even quite sure what all was going on. Someone had been murdered, I know that. I was either Yukina, or her friend, or Shigure (Yukina and Shigure being the MCs of a manga) throughout the dream.

Basically, we were all in a house together because we were trying to protect Yukina, who was being suspected as the murderer. When I was her friend, I sometimes suspected her too, but when I was Shigure, I knew she was innocent. Yukina herself didn't know she was a suspect, though. We were trying to keep it from her or something.

I think the one who was murdered was a girl who had been in love with Yukina's childhood friend, or something, and because people thought Yukina loved him as well, she was a top suspect. But when I was Shigure, I knew something most of them didn't: she was actually in love with Shigure and they were dating secretly. Or something.

Anyways, there were lots of scenes flashing all over the place, some flashing multiple times at various points in the scene.

It was all very cinematic and kinda trippy. I'm surprised I am able to make any sense of it at all, but I just knew what was going on in the dream itself.

It turned out that another guy with us was actually the murderer. Apparently he was like SUPER obsessed with the school's basketball team. Yukina's childhood friend was a member of the team, and apparently this creepy obsessed guy had murdered any girls who had been in love with any of the key players, so that the players wouldn't be distracted by girls and be able to devote all their time to playing.

But the childhood friend had turned out to be in love with Yukina, and so the obsessed guy was going to kill her next, because she was the biggest threat to the team yet.

The scene in which I found this out was at the same time terrifying and just awkward, because I was Shigure in this scene (and yet had a POV of watching myself), and I was searching a sewer for some reason. The obsessed guy came up behind me and at first I'm all "oh sheesh you scared me there!" But then I spot the corner of a shirt underneath his sweater. "Wh-what is that shirt...?" I ask, putting the pieces slowly together as the obsessed guy slowly walks toward me with a grin. He takes off his sweater to reveal a team shirt from the basketball team, and I suddenly just knew exactly what had happened. It was just sort of... comical.

Then I was Yukina's friend and Shigure alternating, both of them running through the house to find Yukina. But she is not in her room, and when we get outside, I think I am ME for once, and I realize we were in my Oma's house all along. I see my family waving an ambulance away, and they're all smiling for some reason. I yell, "WHY ARE YOU SMILING?!" And they said that Yukina-chan would be alright. They were grateful for some guy named Arthur who had sent her to the hospital because she would have died. But it was all part of the obsessed guy's plot and now she was in even more danger than before. I shoved "Arthur" down and shouted something about it not being his dicision to make whether she goes to the hospital or not. Then I woke up.

I was laying down in bed, trying to WILD into a dream for an afternoon nap. I had noticed a couple times before, that I had fallen asleep and was actually laying in bed in a dream. I felt like I had woken up immediately after I noticed. I decided to try to do a noseplug RC based on that, even though I was certain that I was just in bed, awake.
Air went straight through my covered nose holes. Lucid!

I was really excited but I couldn't see anything because the world was pitch black, I thought about experiencing the dream as a blind person and what that might be like. While the world was still shrouded in darkness, I felt my way to the door and tried to phase through the wall. Didn't work. I tried visualizing what it would look like and suddenly my visualization became the world and there was light. I was even more excited now because I knew that this was going to be a good dream!

I yelled out across the barren streets, "Dreamer! Where are you? If you want to come with me on this adventure then you need to get here now".

She appeared, walking down the street, pushing a stroller with a baby inside it. I think that her hair was brown in this dream. She casually moseyed on towards me, in no apparent rush, while I put my hands to the ground and decided to make a base portal pad to try my new teleportation technique. The ground sunk in a little bit and had the appearance of a vortex.

I looked at Dreamer, who was then only a couple meters away from me, and I motioned for her to get over here. She sat down on her bum and started to act like a small child, she said, "I Don't WAAAANNA...", as she made a pouty face. I motioned again for her to hurry up and she threw her baby at me, which sort of bounced across the ground. I said to her, "Now that wasn't very nice."

Then I raised my hands so that my palms were facing her and I sent loving energy that I was sure would make her all grown up. Then I motioned for her to get up and join me one last time. She stood up and walked over to me. We stood over the vortex and held each other close while it charged up. I asked her if she could see where we were going. She nodded and said, "Mm. Yeah! Neverland." I remembered the advice that Dreamer had given me IWL about successful teleportation and I started to feel where I was going, instead of just visualizing it. The vortex/teleportation pad made a charging up sound like vrooooovrooovrooovroovroovrovrovrooooo that got quicker and quicker until it made a Zap noise and we changed locations. We were in a dark room that was filled with bunk beds. I looked around and there were these young kids that were wearing baggy clothes. They looked like a bunch of young ruffians and they were all staring intently at us. One of them asked us, "What are you doing here?"

I told him that we were just visiting and we wanted to hang out with them, for fun! I started to walk around the room to explore the surroundings a little bit and I noticed that Dreamer had turned into a little girl that was wearing a purple dress. I considered trying to make her into an adult again, but I had other things to worry about.

I found one guy in the room that looked a bit older, like he was in his 30's. He was sleeping on a metal slab and I tried to wake him up, but I couldn't. I hear this woman cry out, "Oh Jack...why won't you wake up". I turned around and asked who she was. She ignored me. I asked her, "Wendy, I presume?" She was very distraught so I didn't bother her.

I proclaimed loudly to the entire room, "Who's in charge around here and where is Peter Pan?" This young looking kid with black hair walked forward and said, "I'm Peter pan!" He was wearing tight pants with a hoody. He told me that I should follow him and that we were going to go on an adventure. I followed him outside and he grabbed my hand then took off into the sky, flying. I sort of fell out of my body and had a new body. He was carrying my old body into the sky with him. I Yelled out to him, "WAiiiiiiiiiit", while trying to keep up by flying towards him. He slowed down and took my hand. Oh, and I was totally carrying Dreamer in my arms at this point because she was like a little living doll that looked like a small child. She was pretty heavy too, I thought about letting Peter Pan hold her but I didn't.

We were flying up towards the stars when this really cocky and beefy looking DC came out of nowhere and hit Peter Pan so hard that Peter disappeared entirely. I floated down to the ground, set Dreamer down nearby, and said to him, "WTF Man, I was going to go on an adventure with Peter Pan and you totally ruined it". He just looked at me with a cocky grin and said, "What a waste of time, I was going to destroy the whole lot of them soon enough anyways."

I didn't like this DC at all so I punched him really hard in the face and he smirked at me, as though it didn't effect him at all. I started punching him at super speed, 10 punches a second with each hand. He kind of laughed about it. I started to get a little bothered so I used my ridiculous strength to punch him so hard that he fell onto the concrete. I got on top of him and preceded to punch him with such force that he sunk deep into the pavement and all of his bones were liquified. I felt kind of bad about being so violent towards someone, even if he was a total dick. I looked back at Dreamer and she looked normal again, but with brown hair. Then I woke up.

#390 - WILD - Time unknown

Since I missed the past two weekends, I decided to do a quick WBTB at 1AM with the usual Galantamine. I reminded myself why I choose to do this only on a weekend. I really don't seem to get the quality sleep I need and there is never enough time to hit those longer late morning LDs. At least I had some interesting experiences however brief.

I lay down and focus on body sensations. I feel surprised when I begin to feel the early onset of the transition. Getting this feeling this quickly seems to get me way too excited and it ruins. This time I was pretty chill and focused on relaxing deeper. Well, I say it was quick, but now that I think about it, I am not sure whether I dosed off for a bit or not. It was a WILD regardless.

When I get a bit deeper into the vibrations, I fumble my way out of bed. I am blind so I try opening my eyes I but seem to be able to see the bed room from the perspective of laying down. The room looks a bit too bright so I am not sure if this was my physical eyes or not. I really need to test exactly whats happening at this stage with the eyes.

Outside, I try to peer into the darkness or the back of my eyelids in order to see in the dream but nothing is working for me. I end up crawling in the street, feeling the asphalt with my hands for stability. I hear a dog's painful yelp in the distance and the sound morphs into something like a siren from an emergency vehicle. The street is pulled away from me and my fingers drag on the rough surface for brief moment. I feel my self hurling backward my bedroom. I wake up.

I go straight into DEILD and enter vibrations quickly. The only problem is I now notice that my chin is tucked too close to my chest and I am having a hard time breathing. I try to ignore it, but I can't. I break concentration and adjust. Now I have to pee.

I don't bother starting up the DJ because I am afraid the light will rouse me too much. I get comfortable and start over.

#391 - WILD - 2:22AM

After a short time, I notice vibrations and a scene has formed. Kelly from work is talking about football and I am resting in a recliner. I look around and see dog doing funny tricks. A doberman looks decidedly human. I find it humorous but I feel detached. I wonder if the dream is stable enough to move as I get up and move forward. I walk past the dogs into a kitchen area. There is a back door open to a screen door. A familiar woman is at the sink doing dishes. I hear her say, "He's up and moving."
I go outside to a summer day in the country. There are some trees, an open pasture, and hills in the distance. A red checker table cloth catches my peripheral but I ignore it. The scene is beautiful, but dull and non vivid.

I recall my goal to renter my Star Wars dream from the night before but this time with theatrical music. As I blind summon a lightsaber, the dream goes dark. I spin the thing about and see a glowing red blade streak against the void. Unfortunately, the dream fades quickly and I wake up.

I have some other dreams, but frustratingly, they are non lucid.

It's lunch time at work and I want to eat out. l am in the parking lot of the University campus in town and I can't find my car anywhere. I begin to panic and cry that this is the worst lunch experience ever. :lol;

I am with someone in a building but it's all a scam. I can't find the flash light, but another woman knows things that other can't. She tells me exactly where to find it. I dismiss the other woman and follow this one. She tells me she also knows where my car is.

I have a negative experience where my parents show up in the middle of the night/early morning and let themselves in. They want to see my son and loudly call his name. I hiss at them that he is asleep. I argue with my dad over religion and call him a few choice words. I tell him religion ruined my life. I wake feeling bad about the dream.

In this dream I was driving a semi-truck down a wet gravel road. The cab’s side, marker lights were getting covered with dirt, so I pulled over to wipe them off. As I was standing on the passenger side step, above the fuel tank, I noticed my reflection in the passenger door window. I was shocked at how young I looked, and how red my lips were. It seemed like I was wearing lip stick, and that in itself I found very odd indeed. This should have tipped me off that I was dreaming, but it didn’t, so I continued on with cleaning my marker lights.

Suddenly I felt a kiss on my left cheek, and saw my daughter in the reflection off the window. I looked behind me quickly to see her, but she wasn’t there. I looked back at the reflection in the window, and she was there. Then she kissed me again on my left cheek! I said her name, and then looked back, but she still wasn’t there. I was so surprised by this that I immediately woke

LUCID - WBTB/WILD - 6AM
*It starts with me in SP which I don't mind for the most part, I am pretty use to it. Then I have the thought what if someone touches me from the astral plane. Then I feel two hands wrap around my feet which freaks me completely. I try to wake my self up, then everything appears as if I have awakened. I think maybe I'm still dreaming better check. I do a nose pinch RC and yes I am still dreaming. Still freaked out from the previous experience with all the fear I had present in my mind, I imagine the worst case scenario. Someone then gets up from my sofa in my living room, which I can see from my position laying in bed, and approaches me with a knife in hand. They stand over me and raise there hands as if they were about to stab me, then I wake up. Nightmarish lucids rarely happen to me but when they do they suck badly.

I've hidden a human girl in my room, and I'm trying to distract my "sister" so the human will have a chance to escape. It's not difficult - we don't get along at all, so it's easy to pick a fight. We both look and act like and possibly really are teenagers. I walk away from her, giving the impression that I want her to leave me alone, knowing that's the easiest way to make sure she'll follow me. Looking for a drink, I walk into a room where my "sister's" left a human girl lying semi-conscious on the floor. I hate her parties - I hate living here in general; it's like living in a frat house. That's part of why I want to help that human escape - I know she's been investigating us but I don't care, I really, really dislike these people. I haven't been here long, maybe a week, and I'm hoping my "father" will decide to move again soon. I pick up a nearly-empty bottle, take a drink - alcohol. I spit it out and pick up another bottle. I ask the semi-conscious girl, hey, is this my sister's drink? She doesn't answer me, and I wasn't really expecting her to. I drink it anyway. Yes, this one's my "sister's." I hate the taste of bottled blood, but it's what I'm used to. Keeping the bottle, I walk outside.

The yard out back is huge, and ends in a fence with barbed and electric wires running along the top. As I'm walking along the edge of that fence, I come across a padlocked gate. It opens directly onto a dirt road, and on the other side of the road there's another gate - no locks on this one - opening onto a trail leading into the woods. There's something intensely familiar about this - it bothers me. I have the feeling I've seen this a long time ago, like some childhood memory. I say something about this to my "sister," but she doesn't see why that would bother me. As I'm trying to explain the odd feeling, I'm distracted by a sound from the other side of the fence, way off to our right.

On the side of the fence opening directly onto the woods, there's two people who look like hikers trying to climb the fence and look inside. They're talking to each other cheerfully, wondering what they've come across and what the barbed wire's for - to keep something out or in? It's to keep you out, I tell him as I lean over the wires, grab him and smash his head against the wooden part of the fence. It's to keep them out for their own protection, otherwise this happens. My "sister" has taken the woman he was with. Then I hear voices from the woods - they weren't alone. While my "sister's" still busy with hers, I jump over the fence and run down the other three hikers. I find myself humming as I do so - when I've finished, I realize I'm thinking of the tune as an old drinking song from the 1800s. That's odd - I wasn't alive then, where do I know that song from? I have a vague impression of enjoying myself while singing that song in a situation much like this. I look at the hiker I'm still holding, and I think, just a little while ago I was having a conversation with someone killing a rabbit, and I'd said that it wasn't the death I objected to, it was the attitude behind it, the lack of respect. What a hypocrite I am.

Ok so I just got done eating my breakfast when it had occured to me I didn't meditate at all yesterday :/ So I decided that I do it on a fairly full stomach. The session itself was eh, I was getting the usual pressures and tingling in my head but it I would lose track of what I was doing entirely and would start messing around with thoughts. (Probably the full stomach)

I end the session and get up from the floor, I feel tired like I could take a nap so I decided to. I lay down and decided to kinda meditate myself into a nap. Now, I'm not sure the time span of all this, seemed to be about maybe 10 minutes for the whole process. But as I'm laying there for my nap and I start getting the pressures in my head I begin to feel tingles in my legs and torso area. This is pretty new, usually it just stays around the head.

Then the whistle sound came, I read up on a lot of this and have some accidental experiences with it so I just let it go and let it be. Really trying to accept anything and everything that happened. The whistle got louder and the pressures in my head got more intense, it felt like my jaws were clenched really tight and that my legs were moving really haphazardly, even though I myself was staying still. The whole process was pretty uncomfortable to be honest. Like extremely uncomfortable.

But I kept with it and let it all happen. Before I knew it I was shot out of my room. I didn't see anything, I didn't even open my eyes, but I just felt it. I got thrown out of my room, part of me wanted to get up right there but something told me to wait just it out for just a little bit longer. It would totally be worth it.

I came to a "stop" eventually and I knew it was time to get up. I knew because I didn't even have to act out the getting up, I just thought "get up" and I rose to my feet. I tried to open my eyes but only one eye would open. What I saw was my room, but darker, like night time dark. My bed wasn't where it usually was, nor did I even get to look at myself. Instead of swiveling my head around to look at my room more I was concentrated on trying to get my stupid right eye to open. Then it popped in my head that I'm sleeping on the right side of my face, and with that thought, everything went black and when I opened my eyes again I was back in my room I dunno if me sleeping on my face had anything to do with the eye thing but Woooooww that was sooo koool lol. I literally went somewhere else entirely and it took almost no time at all! Stabilization might be a problem for a while, I got really excited lol. But this was a great experience

Dude! That was awesome! To bed ~11pm. Dance studio at a school too small. Older male teacher dancing next to student hip hop style calls up one of his older students a taller Hispanic guy...maybe has already graduated.

He dances impressively. They asked us to leave for the private part of the class and I go down the stairs and then up a different set of stairs and there are some guys playing pool.

I head back down the stairs. The way I'm running back down the stairs or the cute female I see when I get down the stairs gets me thinking about dreams. She goes out the door with some other people with me exiting also. It is nice and sunny and another very similar female goes in through the door and is heading back up the stairs towards where that dance studio was, but now this is all more like a hardware store with multi levels but narrow. I get the idea that I can fly to catch up to her more quickly and fully realize that I'm dreaming. I lose track of her but a cute...no, make that beautiful, sexy petite blonde, Russian perhaps,

is walking up and we seem instantly attracted to each other and we start going at it. Surprisingly the dream starts to fade but I hold on to it thinking about my theory of why my romantic / sexual dreams tend to keep going and how I think it's all about the tactile contact but I also remember to not become overly focused on one thing and to not focus/worry about time in dream and I tell myself "I got this!" I start rubbing her back and all over quite enthusiastically and after a while the store starts coming back into view and we have some passionate kisses and more. Her body is silky smooth! She has straddled me while I'm leaning against the counter off and on, at times just holding her off of the ground...the dream does not create the sensation of any significant weight and it is effortless to hold her up while active. The counter is somewhat egg shaped and is in the middle of this main room, laying between the entrance and the stairs.

The narrow store continues down beyond the stairs on this ground floor. There are DC's all around us but none of them are paying attention. There's a cute girl behind the counter working the cash registers but not helping anyone at the moment so I call out "hey everyone" several times and eventually raise my voice on the fourth time and she looked right at me with a smile surprisingly. She also looked like she was attracted to me and I said you see what's going on here? She just smiled again. Her eyes we're beautiful brown and seem to sparkle a little bit. She was a brunette... Dark brown hair a little over shoulder length.

I start looking around the store for other things to remember and one was a product labeled UTW I think it was. I think about how interesting it is how thee store came back into focus well I wasn't really paying attention too much more focused on the sensations and interaction...in touch with my partner in the dream. It was more like well I can see everything again though perhaps a little blurry at first. I use the word blurry but that's not really the best way to describe it. Nothing is really blurred but all the details have not caught up when I first notice the store coming back into view. Anyway we continue to have sex for quite a while kissing some more and I am just thrilled at how realistic everything feels especially the sensation of her tongue in my mouth and my tongue in her mouth along with...you know. Eventually I feel myself back in bed smiling ear to ear. Not only was it an exhilarating LD but it came on a night when I told myself to go straight back to sleep after any awakenings due to my game today and wanting to make sure I get a full night's sleep. My wife did wake me up a little bit just before she left for her day and that may have helped me become lucid as I became a little more awake than I planned to be. This was another right before getting up for the day lucid when I'm normally a little more spaced out. Wake 7:40am Maybe 10 minutes being lucid. #253


Pretty good sleep schedule, day work: RRC, meditating on dreams after wife woke me later morning ~6:40am to aid quicker back to sleep blocking out thoughts of waking life.


Earlier friend of M from 45 minutes north leans against me on couch watching movie on TV. M looks but brushes it off.

I had this dream around 2001, but I love it.

I dreamed I was the ambassador to Japan, but I plotted against them, and a chemical attack I had planned caused me to mutate into Godzilla. After a brief bout of terrorizing Japan, I was captured, put in very very large handcuffs, and put on trial for war crimes. I was allowed to pick my attorney based on the number of questions they'd allow me to ask during the trial. Where I am a giant fire breathing lizard. I pick the one that'd allow me to ask the most questions at 23. She was a short plump woman with a positive attitude. The trial was brief and I never even bothered to use the allotted questions. I was, of course, found guilty and sent to prison.
The prison itself was a mall. Each cell was where a shop would normally be, but the walkways, fountains, escalators, all remained in place. I was seen off by my parents, my dad was flying a giant toy airplane, and shot a giant toy missile at me, which bounced harmlessly off my... snout? I was place in a cell and suddenly I wasn't Godzilla anymore, but I had wings and a tail, like the dragon transformation from Breath of Fire IV. I was in a cell with a friend of mine, but we were given free time in the yard. We met a female prisoner who also had wings, however she gave them up to a cruel guard in an act of kindness that somehow made him nicer. Our time outside the cells was practically spent in open air. We spent it planning our escape. We walked around to an area resembling a construction zone and waited to ambush passersby for the things we needed for our escape. After letting several people pass by the girl struck an old lady daintily in the back of her head and took her pocket watch while she was unconcious. I know we were all in prison, but this act surprised and shocked me with its audacity. We enacted our escape and ended up in a donut shop at night. The police began pursuit and we got in a taxi who was fully complicit in our escape. He was trying to shake off the police, and the last thing I remember before waking was him saying were a distorted lyrics of the Billy Idol song Dancing With Myself, "Let me sink another shrink (referring to police somehow), cause it'll give me time to think." I woke up with my alarm playing that song on the radio.

Morning of December 16, 2014. Tuesday.

Dream #: 17,529-02. Reading time: 46 sec. Readability score: 60.



I am with my family in an undefined environment, though perceived as indoors. After a short time, I have a false memory of having been in the recent act of setting up something from a special book that is similar to a popup book, though far more complex and with expansion potential (which is not physically feasible - though there are “tricks” that are vaguely similar, such as the “newspaper tree”, “stepping through a card”, and the “polyhedral ball of cards”). I open the book on a table of a lower height.

Two hollow paper cylinders are able to be pulled up from one page (left side of book spread), which seem to imply the legs of a tyrannosaurus. Other paper parts are able to expand out to signify parts of the skeletal system as well as the muscular system. The detail is quite defined and vivid with the subtle impression of Chinese paper lanterns (though again, quite complex and with multiple parts).

There are a few other structures relating to prehistoric scenes that are present. Even though I am not lucid, my focus and ability to “complete” the expansion of these complex paper structures seems “perfect”, with no typical dream distortion of any kind. Even the thinness of the paper does not seem an issue, the shapes remaining as they should.

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