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A doctor took out the remaining lump behind my head. Miracle worker, they called him. He used something like a thermometer which sucked out the fat, which looked dark and greasy. However, when I touched behind my head, there's still a lump, almost no different than a week or so after the surgery.

as with most of my lucid dreams i just realized i was dreaming with no reality checks whatsoever

in the dream i couldn't open my eyes because if i did the dream went blurry and i would go into sleep paralysis and i would change positions and be back in my bed, so i kept my eyes closed (i could still see) and went outside where there was patches of snow on the ground. after looking outside i went back in my house and was jumping around my living room trying to fly to convince my DC family i was dreaming but at the same time they was trying to convince me i wasn't, then i remembered how can i see if my eyes are closed which convinced them. i then remembered some tasks i was reading about
1. look in a mirror (unfortunately not this months)
2. ride a sea turtle (i think it was one of the tasks of the year)
so i chose to look in the mirror and seen that i had no eyes and looked different ( i had short hair and no facial hair whereas in real life i have long hair and stubble) so i opened my eyes and eyes grew on my face in the mirror and then my face started morphing. i then remembered sivasons advice of looking at my hand (to help dream vividness and control?) as i was looking at my hand and the details kept on becoming clearer and then blurry and then they morphed into the surface texture of a golf ball.
i then asked my subconscious to show my something brilliant and i woke up.

In my dream, discovered some sort of suspicious button on my skin on my lower belly that would require me to go to the hospital and get it operated. My husband called 911, but our of some reason chose not to get an ambulance. We did not have a car in my dream. We tried to get to a bus, but failed out of some reason. Turned out we lived in either too small a town to hail a cab, or the cabs were too busy to stop. At some point my husband could no longer keep walking with me, and the dream did not explain why. As I continued walking, a young man started bothering me, "Where are you going?" He first asked. me "To the hospital." Him: "I bet you are like a hypochondriac, and there is nothing wrong with you." Me: "Well if you must know, we discovered, I have some growth here, and it will need to be removed." Him: "Why did you not call 911?" me "My husband did but decided not to get an ambulance out of some reason. him: "Cheap bastard." Then the young man attacked me. It was a tickle attack. He was tickling me so hard, I could not go on. My phone rang. It was my husband. Me: "Help. I am being attacked." Him with concern in his voice "Where are you?" That's when the dream started to fade, though I remember thinking I should call 911.

Excerpt #1 from my personal Dream Journal.
DATE: 7/29/2013
TIME OF OCCURRENCE: Between 5:30 and 6:30 A.M.

I awoke after about four hours of sleep. Got myself a quick snack, relieved myself and got a quick drink of soda. That only took about fifteen minutes. Returning to bed, I almost immediately went into Sleep Paralysis. The weird thing is, I transitioned from SP to a Lucid Dream, a false awakening and finally an OBE. Each time though, I exited the SP by forcing myself out of the right side of my body and was floating around my room. The LD wasn't vivid enough but I did try to go somewhere (leave my room and house) unfortunately I hardly succeeded. I couldn't picture the person I was trying to meet up with very well for some reason nor find him/her. The OBE was the creepiest part of the whole experience. As soon as I forced myself out of my side I was floating again but my eyes stayed closed because there was an apparition which I believed to be a demon. It was blocking the path out of my room to my LD, so I flew directly into it in a fight once I had gained enough courage to do so. That was the end of the experiences for the night/early morning.

Dream was about swing dancing. A big swing dance, I think in Bloomington. An exchange, a workshop maybe. Not at the Union. Christain was there. Ended up in cafeteria of my grade school. Jazz band. We danced to live music from them. I think I sang.Someone was teaching basic dance moves. I was having trouble with one of them. Was very frustrating. I was very irritable in this dream. I lied to someone. TOld them I didn't have a phone. 'Cause I didn't want to have to deal with them, talk to them. Felt really bad about that. I don't know how to get out of a lie. Someone offered me some kind of gum. It was maybe spicy or shocking or something. I turned it down.

Later in a video game. But actually *in* the video game. But I knew it was a video game. That's promising, that's like a dream. That's like knowing you're in a dream almost. I even remember regenerating. It was an FPS. I didn't want to shoot anything. I wanted to take pictures for some reason. But I tried to hit the "take pictures" button and it just ended up shooting. I don't know how it had a take pictures button given that I was actually *in* it. Like virtual reality, but more like a dream.

Several people sitting around having dinner. Candles. Took the wicks out of all the candles so I could melt them down and make big candles. Dragonfly or something hiding on the wall. Hiding in the wallpaper pattern from something. From a bird? A monkey? Some kind of animal. There was a parrot. These few creatures ended up chasing each other around flying through the room. Yeah I was really irritable in this dream and I don't know why.

The dream begins with me and a lot of students in this type of choir for Dr. Wolf. We go up on stage and start singing this song and he gets all into it and is dancing on the stage. I kinda joke around during the whole thing. Then I sit down and some kid comes up to me with a lighter just like my Germany lighter I accuse him of stealing mine but then find mine looks a little different in my pocket. Then I go outside to meet nate who tells me about a place we can get free beer. I look on my phone, relieved to still have it but it is 4am so I tell him I am going home. He stumbles around and then brings his luggage over this fence.

I'm trying to use the following lucid induction video:



The video uses isochronic tones. The first part is meant to lull you into a deep sleep withthe isochronic version of delta binaural beats, eventually transitioning into a theta frequency. About 65 min. in, voices start saying, "This is a dream," "Perform a reality check," etc.

My first time around, I think lost conciousness for a moment, then started hearing noises. I remember hearing a dog barking, a door slamming, and footsteps. I performed a reality check, but I was fully concious. I'm unsure whether these sounds were part of the video (unlikely), hallucinations, or real noises. I think the third is most likely because a.) I was only about 12 min. into the video and b.) I live in an apartment complex where most people have dogs.

I've attempted this multiple times tonight. I think the problem is that the video is too short. I can't fall asleep quickly enough. If anyone has links to longer videos (on YouTube) that have worked for you, let me know.

Dream Fragment 1: I'm holding onto a man. Both of my hands are gripping one of his arms very tightly. He doesn't seem to mind. We are in a very crowded area. It's filled with people laughing, drinking and dancing. I let go of his arm and he places his hand on the small of my back, leading me away from the crowd. I feel happy.

Dream Fragment 2: I'm in Grandma and Grandpa's R.V., sitting at the table. Julie and I sit on opposite sides, talking about whatever. A guy, who I both know and don't know, Walks up to the table with a plate of food. He looks at Julie and then he looks at me. He smiles big and tells me to move over. I move a bit and he sits next to me. We share his plate of food.

Thomas (my older brother) owed LilWayne drug money. He didn't have enough especially when Lil'Wayne decided it was like 100,000.

We got out of there and Thomas accused me of not caring enough to help.

7/28/13

Last night bed 10:30 - 5 am 7am-12pm

Shortly after falling asleep last night, I woke startled and I was so sure I'm dreaming. Counted my left hand's fingers, normal number. I was thinking "please, let they be normal on the other one too". I was so freaked out.

I was awake, but the feeling lingered. Thank god for RCs.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

My sister had a party last night. As a result, i was woken up at various times through the night which really interrupted my logging but i was able to log the last dream before my final awakening.

GTA Deathmatch Explorer:
The dream starts off with me and some friends playing an adventure game with a setting that resembles cube world. I'm looking at a map. On the map are locations and the locations light up when you discover them. So as i look at the map, i plan which place i want to clear on my map next. I pick and as i start to travel, the setting changes to GTA. I'm now crossing a large stone dam. I get to the other side but i was forced to kill some cops as they would have discovered me otherwise. After i kill them, more cops show up and i make my way back up and across the dam. I notice that i still have 1 star no matter how far out i go, which means i must have really built up a bad reputation.

As the dream continues, i join an online deathmatch game. It's starts off with me driving a fast car into a building, luckily, i jump out but find myself on the roof of a house. The setting was a neighborhood by the way. As i'm on the roof, i find a rifle and start shooting the other players. I get a lot of points for this. Eventually, the game restarts and i climb back on to the building but this time, i take the other rifle that was on the roof. I start using it, it's not as effective as the other rifle. I make my way down and start shooting from ground level. The neighborhood slowly turns into a land of fire as various buildings catch fire. At one point, i killed a reptilian.

After that, i remember doing some combat at my dojo. Soon after, the game ends and i did decently. I ranked up to like rank 5. After that, my friends and i decided to play something else. As we were leaving the game, we noticed some people who were like rank 20 which was pretty high.

Strategic defense:
I was inside some real time strategy game and the setting was my farm. I was going through a tutorial. It had some elements of sins of a solar empire in which there were rocks on my farm and i could build mines on them that would produce copper. The rocks were as small as a bowl but i that didn't stop me from building a mine on it. I also managed to build dome shields to guard the mines.

... I was in some place I don't know. Probably a school.
These two girls are following me. Each one carries a hand bag. I left a room and turn to a big corridor. I'm getting a strange feeling.
They keep stalking me. I turn and one of them comes towards me like she wants to give me her bag and asks: "Are you Telmo?"
My heart is racing!!
I felt being pulled down. Like I was in the middle of a spiral. There's this deep guttural roar. So weird.

The dream stops.
I'm in my bed. I open my eyes and try to move. I can't.
The roar continues and there's this black silhouette in front of me.
I was trying so hard to move.
It lasted just a few seconds until I finally managed to move.
The thing is... I wasn't scared. I was somehow aware of all the stuff I've been reading about SP. And didn't gave it much thought.
I was trying to move because I thought I was in a middle of a WILD attempt and it was time I try and leave my body for my FIRST! Lucid dream.
I seems my mind is going all in at night. My recall is also improving every day but I'm still unable to get Lucid.

Dream One:

Mr. T, my PE teacher not the mohawk dude, and I were in a forest. Tall trees, giant hill, and many vines decending from the tree tops. For some reason, Mr. T and I decided to go up the hill. After we made it to the top, he started acting strange. I asked him what's going on and he just looked at me. Then I woke up.
Mysterious right? The way he turned his head was just his head and nothing else, no other body movement was involved.

Dream Two:

This dream is the same as the first dream, except in the beginning, I'm driving the car and Mr. T is no where to be found. I look behind me in the trunk and I see a burnt creature, bald, red flaky skin, evil eyes, and a smoker's voice. Oddly enough, I felt that this was Mr. T. I asked him "What are you doing?" and he lifted a drum-like object, faced the top surface towards me, and forming at the top of the surface was a small hole in the center of the object.When the hole opened, he said "Your turn to burn." And gasoline poured out of the hole and into our supposed camping supplies. I jumped out of the car and watched the car go over the same hill from earlier. Fianlly when the car hit the otherside of the hill, a fiery boom was created and as it exploded, I woke up.
At this point I figured these dreams were separate, aside from the scenary, but that was the last thing I remember from the other dream. However, I then had a third dream.

Dream Three:

This dream is kinda like a prequel to all the other dreams. It started out with me, my sister, friends, and my friend's parents. But we're in a locker room waiting for the parents. These weird robot things came in and started wreaking havoc and I decided to do something about it. I grabbed a little yellow one, like a pencil, and threw it out the door, hugged a fat one and it ran away, then the rest just ran out on their own. The parents came in and began a short conversation with us:
Parents: Okay, are you all ready to go?
Me: *Confused* Where are we going?
Mom: To Yellowstone National Park or Lake Mead
Me: For how long?
Dad: Probably until the 10th of August.
We were already half way to YNP when I thought "Oh no, I've got tennis practice this week!" which is true, I've got it all 5 week days and I didn't want to miss anything. It was too late and I guess in my dream it was already the 9th of August. We then signed ourselves in and as we did I saw Mr. T and his wife signing in as well. I thought, "What is he doing here?" and again, he looked at me, but this time I started hearing this loud ringing noise, kind of like on Slenderman, and I felt heavy and slow. After the dream faded out, I finally woke up.

Maybe it's got something to do with my thinking process? Or maybe they were separate dreams, and I just dont remember the first dream as much as I do with the 2nd and 3rd.
My dreams came in an anti-chronological order. Do they all have something in common? And what did Mr. T meant by "Your turn to burn."? Who knows, once I get this dreaming technique down, I'll ask him why the next time he tells me this.

I DEILD. As I entered the dream I see my mom is sleeping though I know irl she is at work. I go upstairs and some weird things happen after I did a RC. As soon as I did a RC. The carpet that my foot was under started to move. Not only that but the carpet got stuck under my feet and it was really irritating. Next odd thing was that this strange "fuzz" starts impairing my vision and I couldn't get it off. (My dream control is just bad) I just decide to just close my dream eyes. I then try to move but then I somehow prick my finger on something. I felt a sharp pain in my right index finger. I then just decided to just force my self awake. I shake my dream body and in a few moments I am awake, I decide to try to DEILD again. After going through the vibrations and whatnot I enter the dream. This time the fuzz that impaired my vision was there again and my bedsheets "stuck" on to me, like wrapped its self around me. At this point I had no desire to be lucid and lost lucidity at that point. The dream goes in a different direction and is about me convincing my mom about how a dog has rabies or something.

Not much of recall today, ended up easily falling back to sleep when trying to recall and sleeping schedule got a bit broken again, need to fix it.

There was some game with story about some kids and their parents, MSPA-style. There were various locations including some blue maze that everyone was going through, in maze there was some talk.
Then there was some snowy mountain area, through which they were getting using some huge snowmobile/tank hybrids, then on the top they talked to a dragon who was hiding in human form and who tells them some kind of truth about the world. They then moved through few locations and ended up at some kind of farm place, where they met parents again and talked to them.
Kids went on through more locations, getting some kind of special powers and then reaching some army base. Officer here tried to get them to drink various alcohol drinks and almost succeed, but GWG appeared out of nowhere and started posting some crazy stuff and walls of texts, distracting everyone, and then made portal archway and disappeared through it. One of kids with most special powers realizes something and moves through portal as well, others follow him. They end up getting teleported just barely few meters away from the archway and dragon, that's hiding in human form, facepalms while watching for them.
Soon they reach some city, with red on white color theme. More cutscenes start and kids's parents end up spontaneously exploding, then some witch appears to be behind everything and the final fight starts in one of the buildings, which ends up being really gimmicky with various challenges.