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I am standing inside a large empty parking lot. To my right is a big pharmacy. Standing just inside is my arch-nemisis (I can't remember his name, so let's call him George). It is announced that The Narwhal Wars will start soon. The Narwhal Wars is an event where two teams (parking lot versus pharmacy) train narwhals to fly. The narwhals then fly around destroying random crap in pure epicness . My brother, my friend, and I are part of the parking lot team, and my arch-nemisis is part of the pharmacy team.
When the announcement happens, my friend (let's call him Joe) goes into the pharmacy to talk to George. But inside the pharmacy is a line that separates the two teams, and anyone who crosses the line gets a beating from the opposing team. I run in there to grab him, but he is already on the other side of the line!!! "What an idiot," I think. :snakehead:
But no one is beating him up. In fact, he is laughing and chatting with my arch-nemisis. But I can't cross the line, because I know that if I do, George would beat me up like crazy! So I head outside. It is announced that The Narwhal Wars will now commence. I would be participating, but now I had to worry about my stupid friend. I was suddenly really, really angry . So I run across the parking lot, avoiding any danger. I see my brother, standing beside his narwhal. He explains that it is hurt, so I decide it would be best to pat it's head. *pat, pat, pat*. The narwhal gives me a soft bite with its teeth. A soft bite of love.
Instead of being angry now, the narwhals love has filled me with a radiant confidence. Screw the line! I'm getting my friend back. I march on over to the pharmacy, cross the line, grab Joe, and cross the line again. George is furious, and comes over to my side to take Joe back. "OOO," I say. "Someone crossed the line!"
George is a (very) fat, short, white-haired man in a white t-shirt and grey/red shorts. He wears the same outfit as me.
Instead of punching him, I decide biting would do more damage. So I bite him. But he is very fat, so when I bite him, he is very squishy. Try biting your pillow. That's how it feels.
As I bit him, I knew I was doing some decent damage, and my rage turned into a sick, sadistic glee. George says, " Look at you! Biting a fat man's shoulder. That's just wrong." So I let him go, and look for Joe. But Joe has disappeared. "Fighting the War," I think.
A group of women beckons me over. They are talking about George! One of them even says she really likes him!!! Ewww!!!
When she says this, another woman says we should set her up. "You should go up to him and give him some cash," she says. "Boys really like money."
I think this is a perfect idea. I take out a bunch of styrofoam dollar bills from my pocket, and rifle through them. "Just remember, this wasn't my idea!" I say.
The dream ends...

We foster dogs. This morning I had a dream that my Aunt came to visit. For some reason or another, she brought two dogs and a cat. We had to let the dogs out in shifts, because they didn't all get along. We also, for some reason, were fostering a tiger. None of us were afraid of her, but we were afraid that she might injure the dogs. I was also worried because there are currently cases of big cats dieing in my area due to contracting canine distemper. I didn't want the tiger to get sick, and if it were sick, I didn't want it to spread the disease to our other dogs.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #127: Hagia Sophia

I'm touring a new school for my son "E" that's exclusively available to children who lucid dream. E is in his "level 2" class, and his teacher, a short, friendly, gray-haired lady is showing me around the room. It's a large classroom with basic carpeting and lots of little beds and sleeping nooks everywhere. All of the kids are running around, and I remark that if I had the opportunity to just sleep all the time for school, I'd definitely do it. It occurs to me that I might be dreaming right now... and it turns out that I am.

"I'm having a lucid dream right now," I tell the lady, and head for the exit door without waiting for a reply. I phase through the glass to find myself standing by a harbor in the early morning. There are two amphibious helicopters floating idly in the water, pontoons on their skids. I wonder whether this kind of helicopter really exists.

I remember that I want to find the Colosseum, so I start flying to get high above the water. I emerge from a light covering of fog that I hadn't even noticed, finding myself in a landscape of gently rolling hills that are covered with tightly packed buildings. I tell myself that the Colosseum is one of these buildings and that all I have to do is find it. I see a building that catches my eye, but instead of the Colosseum, it's Hagia Sophia.



"I know the Colosseum is here," I say, expecting it to glow (a trick I've used in the past.) "Show me where it is." A small site off to the side of Hagia Sophia starts to glow. It looks too small, but I fly toward it anyway. A sudden gust of wind starts pushing me in the opposite direction and turning me away from the glowing site. I decide that this wind is trying to carry me to the Colosseum so I won't get lost. It turns me all the way around so that I'm looking out over the endless ocean. I'm worried for a second that it's going to leave me facing out to sea, but it dutifully turns me around and starts moving me back toward Hagia Sophia and the glowing spot nearby.

The wind carries me all the way to the spot, and it's nothing more than a tiny plaza with a small raised platform of stone. I land, and when I examine the platform I find a small button with what looks like a glowing, golden bear's paw on it. Okay, hopefully this button will take me there. I press the button, and my vision is covered by a pop-up message like something from a video game.

The message contains two lines of text and I feel really intimidated at the thought of having to remember it. I try to lock the words in place but I feel like every word I'm not looking at is trying to change. Keeping them all steady feels like playing Whac-A-Mole and it's dawning on me that I should stop obsessing about this. As best I can remember the message says: "Use 4 parts of Vendarite to increase strength"

I'm not sure what this means, but I figure that in a lucid dream I can be as strong as I want to be (and have as much "Vendarite" as I like, for that matter), and will the message to close. I feel like something is happening to the plaza and that it's shifting in some way, but the dream soon ends.

July 28th 2013- Last night I had a pretty action filled dream. I was in my ASP group and most of my friends were there, like Connor and Hudson and Paige and Erika, and then I think we were all outside when I heard there was going to be a storm coming. I looked out over the lake (We were staying at a school but not East Lynn) and I saw a black cloud which I remember I kept calling a "Beautiful black cloud" and I knew that one would bring a tornado. So I went inside to pack and instead of our group leaders from ASP the only adults there were my camp counselors from Camp Webb. Some of them were different animals too, mainly mice (probably because I have quite a few mice at home :3) So then I think it was Connor, Hudson and I went out to save the dogs, but the only one there was Red. So we grabbed Red and were ready to go back to the safe spot in the basement of the school but we couldn't get in without swimming. We swam in the river and were outrunning the tornado at this point. I had Red's paw in one hand and was swimming with the other, and Connor and Hudson were also swimming in the same way. I think we said so we wouldn't get sucked up by the tornado. Then we got to a special part of the river where apparently another entrance to the school's basement was located and the tornado was right behind us, so we all linked hands and dove under the water. I didn't believe the entrance could be there so I kept my eyes open until I saw a light at the bottom of the lake. We swam into the school and were suddenly in the basement. I ended up finding an even lower part than we were in and I told one of the leaders who was actually a group leader not a camp counselor but I can't remember who it was , and they said we didn't need to because the building was 12 stories high even though they were taking off the roof. And sure enough I looked outside and there were construction crews taking the roof off right before the tornado hit. And then when the tornado actually hit us, everyones ears were popping and it was hard to breath because of the pressure it created. but no one got hurt and I also saved all of my most treasured stuffed animals and baby pillow. The end :3

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #126: Mad Dog

I'm sitting in my childhood bedroom on my old bed. I look out the window and some thug-looking guy in a tank top is standing outside by a parked car, loafing around with a somewhat overweight girlfriend. As I'm trying to figure out what's going on, I unintentionally make eye contact with the guy and he starts mad dogging me. I quickly look away but out of my peripheral vision, I see him walking aggressively toward my room. Great, what's he want?

The guy reaches behind his back and draws a revolver from the waistband of his pants. I dive out of the room into the hallway as a gunshot blows through my window. I'm surprised by how soft the sound is. I think that it's so quiet that nobody might hear it. Will anyone even hear it and call the police? I duck into the bathroom, waiting there for a bit before baaaarely peeking my head around the corner to look out through the office window down the hall. But the guy is there, too, and fires immediately.

I scramble to the back of the house into my parents' bedroom, but I see the guy circling around to the back yard. I can't believe how hard he is to shake, and I realize that this is all a dream.

Relaxed now, I head back to the front of the house, walking through the hallways, through the den to the front door. I phase through the front door out into the street to find the car (and my assailant) gone. I'm trying to remember my goals but absolutely nothing is coming to me. I don't remember the Colosseum, I don't remember my intention to summon NewArtemis, nothing. I think that I'm supposed to be working on Advanced Task of the Month and that it has something to do with California. (Totally wrong.)

I decide to explore, hoping it'll come to me. I fly up into the air for a while, soaring over my old neighborhood. I fly over a creek at one point, but I don't get to explore very long before the dream ends.

Dream recall from today's nap.

There is something weird going on and i am doing some internet search after it i felt that i am dreaming and then some voice said something, then it faded. i wake up and get back to nap and there's something going on about technology, then i am in my room again and i realize that i am dreaming again, fade out again wake up back to nap, then there's some kind of special forces mission going on, then i am back at my room, browsing some forum and posting something about dragons, then i decide to post some joke because it's a dream and then i realize it, then i am suddenly back in the bed again with dream eyes closed, i see some image of the sky and it summons some emotion feeling and then some female voice says "leave me alone", then i prepare to get up and open dream eyes and dream fades out.

Thoughts of a friend who I haven't spoken with frequently for almost ten years come to mind. I later went into a home of someone who was not there and I was in the bedroom, A telephone comes to mind and leaving a note as to who I was and why I was there. It wasn't to steal anything and whoever it was, May have come home while I was in there.

Perhaps also I was searching for my friend's house earlier; I do know which town she lives in and which street, But not the exact location and I imagine the street is not directly connected with the main road.

Later, My Father woke me up by calling me and I fell back asleep and dreamed I was driving a car (And I think it was my 80s Caprice Classic) And I hit another car in front of McDonald's and there was a traffic light there which isn't there in waking life. My car was then facing backwards and a police car was at the intersection.

There are some deep (And "Above") Ones here this morning. I do hope you accept them as what they are, For that is what I posted them for.

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Earliest dream I recall now:

I went into the kitchen of my house and the gas stove was on quite heavily, Blowing flames out the front and I didn't turn it off but scooted past it so I'd not be burned. The water-boiling kettle may have been on too. I then went into the basement and my Father said something about a support to the building or that it was removed. Part of the floor had fallen through into the basement and there were no stairs to the second floor in the hallway now; There was a way to get into the first-floor hallway from the basement as well as the second floor, Though. I went to the second floor and there was no stairway to the third floor so my workshops were inaccessible along with the heavy tools.

Notes:

The basement seemed bigger than it is in waking life.

The house as a whole was still standing but it desperately needed repaired.

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Second dream:

I do hope this is OK to post here. I was on a **** site, Sitting at my computer with the curtain open and a thought which was "Perhaps I should close the curtain" came up and I was about to M--------e with a sock - I seriously did not realize I was asleep, Things seemed so real - And then I thought "God said none of that!" And I woke up. (This is the turning point.)

Then, I fell back asleep and the third "Dream" Happened. I'm not so convinced it's actually a dream now.

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So, I was in the "Office" room (On the second floor) and my car was there along with my dog. Later, I went into the hallway and my dog was there too, Laying on a box that may have had CDs in it. We went downstairs and my grandmother was in the kitchen - She died in late June 2012, For you readers who weren't aware - And she asked if I missed her and I said yes then she started talking to me about some things and they're not all recalled now. My Father was also in the kitchen but in hindsight he may have looked younger in the dream. My Mother was also there in the dining room at first (Which was not as clean as it could become - It was cluttered.) and Grandmother said something about Mother's van windshield fogging up and also of "Bad Bacteria" and things that look like food which are actually people. For some reason I then saw hot dogs and not sausages. She turned into my mother later and I think talked some more and I saw some deep green bananas on the kitchen counter and one had a "Medicinal" Sticker on it.

My dog was in the kitchen too and at this point I must admit I was somewhat "Lucid" Yet somewhat not "Lucid". It was as if my vision was not fogged up so much and I could see but I didn't go and start "Controlling the world around me".

Anyway, I went outside or was outside and there was a tall fence around the house. I wonder if I put it there? Anyway, I looked out around and I saw green plants and plains in a lot of places around the house and I said, "There's green everywhere!". As I looked around, I noticed that the house of my next-door-neighbor wasn't there and I was rather sad about that and I looked off into the distance but I don't think another neighbor was there either - And he goes to the same local Church that I've attended, I note - Then, I saw the equivalent of the main road that goes through the town I live in. Some people were going around in white clothes and I thought I'd wave to them and did but I don't think anyone saw me.

Then, I saw a little kid - He may have been about four or five - Standing on the fence in a corner and I thought I'd talk to him. I don't think I did but then a lot of other kids started climbing over the fence and onto it from both sides of it and I looked to see if I could recognize anyone that I recalled off the top of my head, But I didn't. Then, I was a bit confused as someone stuck my fingers in her mouth - And somewhere at about this point, A short-haired girl talked to me and I also looked towards the house and saw some people by a door, One who was sitting - And I don't know where I got a hat from but apparently someone took it off me. I then got off the fence and on the ground and someone took off a sandal I was wearing and my foot may have touched the dead leaves on the ground and I woke up.

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Notes:

- Have you ever woken up and felt as if your vision was cloudy compared to how it was in a dream? I have, And this last dream is similar. With what my Grandmother told me in mind, Possessions also have people's hands tied in with them so how many people do you have "Invited in your room" Now through connections with stuff?

- And years ago I thought that the whole "Heaven and Hell" Thing has something to do with dreams. And, Even in July of last year after my Grandmother had died I'd been having dreams of her and was surprised and relieved that she wasn't dead.

- I changed the title from "My house is a wreck" to "My house was a wreck" on December 14 2013

David Walliams is a comedian in the UK and has appeared on shows like the X Factor for you people who don't know him.


I was on a school trip, in my group was my friend Ryan, this Romanian kid called Darius, and I'm pretty sure there was also a girl but I can't remember.
I can't remember the actual trip itself but we met David Walliams and we went to his hotel/apartment. He was with another person and it might of been Alan Carr but I'm not sure now. We went inside, we sat down and for some reason, David took my shoe and would not give it back, it was strange. We slept over the night and in the morning, David and (Alan)? came downstairs and shown me some boxers, I checked to see if I was wearing mine and thankfully I was (coming to think about it in the morning that sounds like David is a bit of pedophile in this dream). I said to him I already had boxers on and they both laughed. So we left David to go back home from the trip. Strangely the pupils had to get the regular bus. I was in line to get on and this guy for some reason scanned his pound coin, but he dropped it without realising, I thought of taking it but didnt in the end. I went upstairs and there was my friend Sam, with some other people in my year, he started saying he had ADHD but then he changed it to LADH or something, (may have to be doing some research to see if that is real). In my dream I did search it up on the computer I had with me. It came up with something completely different. Finally the bus stopped and out the window I saw a friend I used to go primary school with. I got off the bus but the bus driver closed the door on everyone else and they all got angry, the dream ends with my fellow year 9 classmate called Kevin putting his middle finger up at me, I don't like him much, so I just smile at him as the bus drives away.

Tell me what you guys think about this dream and do you know anything about the thing my friend Sam was talking about LADHD or something?

This might have been a kidnapper dream, or anyway bad guy(s). I don't think I was myself, and I don't think my kids were in it or anyone else I know. I remember an ominous moving structure up on a high rise. It looked kind of like melted plastic, a bit like a huge chain, with large enough holes to put a person in or a body. And it mad moving up and down. I had the impression the bad guy was about to put someone in it. And I wondered whether the melted plastic used to be people.

I was happily dreaming when I am pulled into a field of gold very lucid. The being from my last entry is there as a female again. She takes my hands. What the hell is it with grabbing my hands? She looks into my eyes and in an imploring tone asks, "Do you know the Emerald Prince?"
If you want to know why this freaked me out just read my prior DJ entry. She repeats it zand is grasping my hands. I freak. I leave the astral as fast as I can.

note: got woken up after only a few hours of sleep when I needed about 3 times as much.

07/26/13 Holy F$#@ this was weird. I did not intend on going astral tonight, but the craziest stuff happened anyways. Am I reaching out with out realizing it or getting pulled in? Here it goes, my recall fails at a couple places.

I am having a basic LD that involves 3 girls who are supposed to be real life versions of friends I have on DV. The idea is that some how we have got together in Boise for a dream retreat or some form of DV picnic (what ever). I think it was Gab, MelanieB, and OphiliaBlue. I was really only semi-lucid, kind of knowing it was a dream but not bothering to act or interfere. I just was kind of watching. The DV girls were all pretty and looked random, not like profile pictures, just random DCs who represented these ladies. I think they all had accepted free lodging during the conference at a big house my dad used to own. Gab and Melanie wander off and seemed irritated, then the scene shifted and I was in the hall supposing it was bedtime. Still a bit lucid I 'knew' in the next room I would find a luxurious comfy bed. I did. I really was unconcerned about doing anything. Just summoning the pictured bed was all the control I had yet used. I knew it would be soft and covered with silk or sateen. It was and I sat on it.
Suddenly something shifted and the dream took on a new feel. I saw that a closet had something moving in it. It turned out to be 3 young female children each playing on their own shelf in the closet. They had that weird feel actual entities have that are astral and not normal DCs. I decided to become fully lucid as this was weird and curious. Were these supposed to represent the 3 DCs from before? I was uncomfortable around these 3 giggling entities. They were not likely actually kids, but who knows. Just a little to creepy. I went back out into the hall.
An entity who was now in the form of the OphiliaBlue DC ran up to me and seized my hands. This seemed entity like, but I was still not sure. I had not tried to go astral. The DC?entity? started earnestly proclaiming that she knew I was a good man and powerful. I realized it had my hands pretty firmly. I went down the stairs and into the yard. It kept a grip on one hand like a scared child. I decided to just go look around and drag it with me for now. Ahead of us was a man coming our way and the DC said "help me, they are after me." I tried to just fly up and over the guy. He looked creepy and angry. I told her to fly, but she was almost a dead weight. I ended up dragging her up with great effort.
I was wondering what was going on. Flying takes great effort in some astral realms as they have imposed gravity to increase the livability of the place. I could fly ok but the DC?entity? could not. The DC also had real weight. I wondered for a moment if there was any chance I actually was dealing with OphiliaBlue and perhaps she is not real good at flight? No, that seemed far fetched. It is far more likely this astral entity just assumed a form I would feel sympathy for. Another man was trying to get at her and shouted something like "why are you helping it escape?" I could not pull the weight up any more, so I repulsed him with a force like projection.
Right or wrong, I decided this was in no way Ophilia and that I was pretty freaked out. I am trying desperately not to get in any more trouble in the big astral city as so often results from my confusion and recklessness. I also had a feeling this may not be that realm at all. The guys seemed scary and creepy, and I in no way trusted the think that had firmly latched itself to me. If this was the big city, I may be helping someone evade authorities, and if it was another realm then I have no clue how dangerous the inhabitants are. Time to shake this thing off and freakin bail!
I jerked my hand free and started flying fast, then really fast as fast as I could. Not a good sign. Gravity here was far less then the big city. This was looking more and more like I accidently AP'd to the wrong place or that the thing that grabbed me acted like my dream guides and pulled me there. Screw this. Run. I was moving fast like an airplane and eventually found a new section that looked busy and had beings moving busily around. I landed and walked around. No one here looked dangerous at first. they barely took notice of me. I just explored and did random LD stuff for a few minutes.
I decided as I had a long running highly vivid LD going to try and do some of the goal suggested to me in my Help with advanced tasks thread. I scanned my brain trying to remember a task. I came up with the one about experience an alternate version of your life. I had chosen to see a life where I had children. I figured I may be in a creepy astral city that is new to me, and perhaps not very savory, but why not try a goal and take advantage of the high level of stability the city provided. I went up a stair case but was sure a creepy fat guy was following me. I just hurried away and though I lost him.
How to go about this? I tried just walking up to a DC and asking for help. I approached an entity that was female and said I would like help seeing a version of my life with children. The entity caused hair to completely obscure her face, but did talk back. She was confused at first but then agreed to help. She asked me to go with her. At this point the dream took on a ghost of Christmas past kind of theme. With her showing me scenes and us talking about it.
She showed me a red faced version of me in business attire and an over coat. I looked stressed and hateful. I was clearly very overworked and unhappy with life. This version of me started ranting about income taxes and how one could never get ahead. Then she showed me how I met the mother of my children. I was living in a big city and a starving kitten was eating maggots. The DC of me was taking care of the sick kitten and met a woman. Then a whole fast montage that I have trouble recalling took place showing parts of the life in which I raised a child. It was a pretty little girl. I think a divorce and a lot of bad feeling were in there and a separation I which I lost contact with the child. I actually got caught up in the emotional side of this and felt intense joy and sorrow at some points. Suddenly the montage part ended with the alternate me laying drunken in the road. A pretty woman about 20 who was my daughter was trying to help me up. I suddenly was inside the DC me. I got up off the ground and she helped me to the side of the road. Her husband or boyfriend showed up in a 4 door sedan and she got in. I supposed this was the end of the task and the experience. I decided to see what would happen if I actively took part. I got in the back seat. I could tell right away that this was now just the entity who had helped me see all this, and she looked concerned that I was planning on following her or bothering her. I told her I would just get out on the next corner. It was in front of a large market.
I walked into the market and took a minute to notice just how crazy vivid and life like everything was. Now this seemed friendly and like the big city on the astral. Maybe I was safe. Perhaps I am just getting powerful enough to handle flight a little better. At least no one seemed to be following me or anything creepy. I saw weird shapes as part of a display. I was unsure what the objects were. They made me think of another advanced task I had planned on. The one where I would come upon a pyramid at least as big as a truck, use TK to lift it and stand it on its tip, and then spin it like a top. I decided to just ask one of the entities where the pyramid was and see what happened. Either they would assume I meant some pyramid they knew about and direct me, my subconscious would create an answer, or they would just be irritated at me talking nonsense.
I asked the first entity to come near me "how do I get to the pyramid?" He replied "What are you talking about?" I repeated myself. He finally looked like he understood and replied "I think I know what you mean. Go down this road until you pass the station and take the first left."
I left the market and walked down the road. I saw something ahead that must be the station and a side road. I figured I did not need to walk all the way down there. I just floated up and looked where that road should lead. Ahead was a large temple complex that looked like Mayan step pyramids. I flew over to it. In the astral realms you can not really effect structures, but you can impose an illusion of dream material over any visuals. I imposed my own visuals here. I pictured this stuff, and from my dream perspective saw the results as follows. I used TK and ripped the largest pyramid from the ground. I then caused it to flip over. The graphics broke up a tiny bit and could have been smoother, but they held together and still looked like a giant pyramid rotating in air. Just a little glitch in the rendering. I set it point down and used TK to spin it. OK, that was anti-climactic. I now saw the correct pyramid as it really exists there and flew up to the top of it. I was sure that counted as completing the task, but maybe I should try to complete it with a smooth sided pyramid as that was my original idea. I could also try to keep the glitchiness out of the visuals. I looked down at a near by step pyramid and attempted to change the visuals. It became malleable to my intent and I started to squish the steps into a flat sided shape. Something grabbed my eye and I saw that an entity that looked like an older man was running up the steps towards me. he was very intense. I tried to figure out what he wanted, and he seized both my hands in his. He stated something so similar to the woman before, and the feeling of pleading was so much like before that I was sure this was the same creature. He kept saying things like this "I know you are an honorable man, I know you will do what is right, you are so powerful, I know you are honorable" I was 100% sure it was the same creature, I am not actually sure some off the astral races have a concept of male vs female. Maybe some can be both, or maybe my mind imposed an image that I could relate to on input I was trying to take in. Or, perhaps this creature picked a form it thought I would protect and failing to get my protection as a pretty woman, had decided to try an aged venerable man.
All of a sudden 3 creepy men are running up the pyramid towards us, and surround us. They yell that I have no business preventing them from capturing him. I yell back that they need to give me a chance to hear what he has to say. They create a box around us, but I am not too worried about that. If it is like other boxes entities have thrown up, I know they can be phased through. they circle us and one rushes forward to grab him. I use a force like push and repel him. Now they are pissed and look ghoulish and dangerous. I yell one more time "let me hear what he has to say!"
I half think these may be the legitimate law enforcement here and I do not want any trouble. I look at him and he just uses a pleading tone and repeats the same stuff about "honorable man" and so on. I say "if you can not make it more clear than that, let me be." He will not let go of my hands, and the three guys look ready to get very serious. I decide to shift out of the astral and duck for the cover of my own waking life. I force myself awake.
I was experiencing a true real world adrenalin rush and as I sat in my chair trying to recover I had vibrations or chills pulsing up my spine for 3 or 4 minutes. Dur~45 min.

I'm sitting in Grandma's dining room. Grandma is walking around, passing out and serving things. Grandpa and her are bickering about the wrong hamburger buns being bought, though it doesn't matter because we aren't having hamburgers. As they continue to bicker, I look across the table, from where I'm sitting, at Hannibal. He's sitting quietly with an amused look on his face, watching Grandma and Grandpa. While he watches them, I watch him. I like to look at him. He's very beautiful. My eyes move to his perfectly tailored, midnight blue, three-piece suit. It makes me think I'm under-dressed in my simple t-shirt and jeans. I look back up to his face and notice his eyes on mine. He wears a small, fond smile and I can't help but smile right back, so happy to have his smile directed at me. In an instant, Grandma and Grandpa disappear and a small, disc-like device appears on the table between Hannibal and I. He picks it up and hands it to me. I take it. "This is the only way to find me," he says. "Throw it to the ground and it will give you my address." he watches me as I study the device, rolling it around in my hands. I look back up at him and throw it to the ground. It lights up red and starts beeping. Suddenly we are standing side by side on a balcony over-looking the ocean. There is no artificial light, so the night sky can be seen perfectly. "We'll be alright," Hannibal says, taking my hand in his.

I'm in a classroom full of fish tanks. I notice that each tank has something wrong. Too dirty. Not enough water. They all have one fish in them. I try to help them, but all the fish die. A boy shows up and hands me a blue color pencil. He says I need it more than he does. I thank him and hold the pencil close.