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Dream
Lucid

Went to bed: 2:00 - 3:00 a.m.
Wakes: 9:13 a.m.
Final Wake-up: 10:22 a.m.

Last night I had stayed at a friends house, so obviously I didn't have my DJ on me. So this is the part where I can remember.

I'm in my room and all the furniture is arranged strangely, there's someone behind me yet I can't make out who it is, there's also someone in front of me, I know her from freshman year in high school. Somehow I just clicked and thought, "Wow, this is what it's like to dream..." as walked towards the freshman girl I snapped out of it for a second, don't know how or why but seconds later I felt the dream again. I wen't up to her and thought, "Fuck it, might as well" and felt her cat, and for the oddest reason, it was stabby (On the inside, it was like the feeling when you don't shave for a little and it gets prickly but inside). This freaks me out and I go for it again, the same feel. After this I was awakened by the thunder outside, I was writing down the story in my DJ and went back to sleep only to find that it was a false awakening and I wasn't even at home.

This happened a few years ago.

I was lying on something like a car top in a neighborhood next to a strange DC. I couldn't tell what it was because it just had long black hair and I couldn't see it's face. I didn't like being next to it so I rose up, kinda like I was flying. Then I rose to a second or a third story window and the light in the window turned off. Then all of a sudden I was caught up in a bed between the sheets in the air. I couldn't get out but when I finally did I think my vision might have blacked out and I think I might have been in another dream scene. What I saw next was I thought I was in a trailer park but everything's size seemed all out of proportion. I must have woke up after that because I don't remember anymore.

Everything seemed pretty lifelike except for the rules of the dream world.

This is a dream I had when I began lucid dreaming a long time ago but I don't know when. I think it was a 2 part dream or 2 dreams...

Anyway part 1 I dreamed I was in front of possibly my dream house. My mom was sitting on the porch. I was thinking about going inside the house but I guess I didn't have much interest. Now I wish I would have went inside the house to see what was there.

Part 2 I dreamed I was flying really fast and really high. But the dream seemed kinda cartoonish...

2/9/13 Bed 11:30pm. Didn't fall asleep until past 1am. Bad recall. Had to work late and had lots of coffee. It will be better tonight.

okay ! i really don't know why i still remeber this dream when
i was seven, when i went to bed, after i was watching santa caluse
1 and 2 with tim allen. i always wanted a twin sister i don't know why
. i dreamt that i had a sister that look like me but we werent realted
i told her whats your name and she said that her name is kateline model odo
lopez cruz, i just used my friends last name to my dreams i know is weird.
i ask her about her self , she told me that she has 1000 brothers and sister, i was like wow! thats alot,then after that she kept on bragging about how she is very talented.
like she can dance , sing and act and she is very talented. than after that she dissaperd and i went on my bed and i was floating on my bed and everything turned
black and i was scared and i saw a light beaming on me and i saw my self in this town and it was snowing and i saw this cute boy name charlie and he was 6 years older than me he was 12 and i was 7 years old, i got of from my bedand walk around the town and i remeber the sense the character's from the sanata clause movie with tim allen. i was so hyper. then after that i went to this mansion and i swa the smae girl in my other dream kateline . she was right she did have alot of brothers and sister. it was weird because none of them were the same some of them where black white brown yelow. she told me that her family adopted her and the rest of the kids here. those kids i saw where all my friends from my second grade class, and i saw my two sister and two brothers. and there where celebirty . then she told me that the north pole is in greta danger and she needed to stop it . so we flew to the north pole and i saw charile again. the place was busy, i saw elfs and santa clause him self tim allen, to be done

So, at first I was in the car with my family, and we were driving through a hobo town... This is not what you think. N residential houses in sight, all the buildings are run down and still working. Now I'm walking alone on the sidewalk and there are about a hundred people sitting/standing doing nothing...

There are two black guys in front of me. They're wearing sweatpants. One is wearing gray ones the other dark blue... They're wearing football Jerseys. They pass by a friend and,ask if he can lend any money. He says he only has sixth cents and gives it to them...

Now, I'm in a hotel lying on a bed. There are two guys o the bed with me, and we are clothed and everyone... They start saying the they each want to kiss me . but I realize my lips are dry, so I put on some Chapstick from my pocket. It's peppermint. I tell them so.

This is a corny dream... I only want to be with one of them...the next thing I know, I'm awake, since I was apparently asleep. The one I didn't want had his arms wrapped around me very tightly. I plucked him off and I notice my cat is clung to me also... I pull her off too.

I start to find the initial guy, but first I pass a few rooms wit other guys that wanted me too... No... I find him, and apparently I had done something wrong. He apparently doesn't want sex, and he doesn't want to lead me on.

But I say, "if someone has only half walked in their life, they will want to truly walk. But if you've never walked in your life, you'd be,fine with just half walking..."

If you think about it, that makes perfect sense!

So he accepts it, and were back in his room. We each pull a pillow over and out it under a table. I lay down, but we hear the door open, and a black guy peers in at us. Apparently the guardian or something...

So, in the room there are a bunch of small blow up balls at the side... So we start throwing them to each other, as if we weren't about to do something.

I start cracking up at the ball, mostly to get the guy to believe we weren't just doing something. At one point, one of the balls says, '30,60,90* (degrees), and I laugh at that. This is a genuine laugh... They join in, he leaves, and before we do anything, I wake up... In a strange position. Grr...

Dream
Lucid
Semi-Lucid

This was something I wasn't originally going to post because of the sort of "content" that was in it.
However it has an example of something that kind of bothers me in dreams.
That is Semi-Lucidity.
You see, sometimes I have dreams where my desires and will are so strong that they manifest themselves as dream control, either active or passive.
However, though I may have powerful dream control, and though I know there are no consequences to my actions,
in the end, I have no idea that I'm dreaming.
This happens to me a lot more then full fledged lucidity does, actually knowing that I'm dreaming and knowing what that means, in a sense.
However here's my predicament.
When I'm semi-lucid, I have much more dream control than I do when I'm actually lucid.
This leads to a lot of frustration in my lucid dreams.
The reason for this, I think, is that because I don't know that I'm dreaming in semi-lucid dreams, I think everything around me is actually happening,
which means my expectations are really strong.
I don't think that I'm having a lucid dream, I think that I have miraculously developed super powers in the waking world.
Where as when I'm lucid, things are a bit different.
I think it's because that I'm so aware that diminishes my abilities.
Or maybe it's because of the laws of the specific dream realm, or maybe it's because I don't expect to succeed enough, or maybe, hell I don't know.
Well enough rambling, on to the actual dream.

February 3rd 2013

I'm in the living room of my grandma's apartment.
I'm with someone else though.
I'm not entirely sure how she got there, or who she is, but frankly I don't even care.
Details and questions aren't buzzing around in my head, I'm being completely driven by will.
Without even thinking about it, I use my telekinesis to grab onto her.
I kind of feel like a puppeteer, using by powers to manipulate her movements.
Though I'm doing this all with physical force, not through any means of actual mind control.
I try and make her perform certain actions, testing just how powerful I am.
I can tell I'm not exerting that much of my strength, I don't want to injure her or anything.
Though through me flow malicious intent.
I feel like a super villain, making the damsel in distress dance against her will.
(It's kind of scary in hindsight, in this dream I really was evil)
Finally my amusement of the situation begins to fade and I grow bored.
Suddenly a thought crosses my mind.

"Wait, why is this woman here? Am I holding her against her will?"

I take a look into her eyes.
They're fearful, and they resent me.

"Hmm, how did things get to this?" I wonder.

Now I feel disgusted with myself. Have I really fallen to stoop this low.
I let go of the woman and forget about her, she then disappears.
I decide to go play some video games to get my mind off the situation.

Dream 1(fragments):

There were scene where some people in the room were saying that they were rich, but then person they were talking to says that they are still not as rich as batman, and kills them. Later on two women were trying to save dolls(?) of people that were killed and the only way out was to crawl through narrow tunnel with walls made of literally crap...( )

Dream 2:

I was playing some Minecraft with LV and PN. We have thinked up some rules, so the game would go more like PvP deathmatch game. We started on playform high in air and jumped down in random directions, there were no falling damage apparently. The starting area was snowy forest of sorts, we started rushing to get weapons as soon as possible. I was playing pretty aggressive and started attacking almost immediately with bare fists, it didn't went as well at first, but soon i was able to defeat LV who just crafted iron sword.
After that i started the hunt, killing everything and racking up the score, iron sword was quite more powerful than how it is in Minecraft IWL. At some point PN tried to ambush me with stone sword, but i was faster. LV tried getting TNT from endermen(they apparently were dropping some instead of ender perls they drop in game IWL), but i killed them both and got TNT myself. Also i apparently had portable alchemical table from equivalent exchange mod, so i tied getting more TNT through it from random junk i had in inventory, but it was not enough. Soon dream ended, i guess i won by score.

NON LUCID
*Feeling sorry for people stuck in the ghetto.
*Serious talk about mothers and vajradhara.
*Attacked at the vietnamese temple.

I completed a few milestones today, as well as having some vivid dreams. I was kind of dissapointed at first but I just kept going back to sleep. I've realized after tonight the less tired you are when you go to sleep the better chance you have of having a lucid dream.

Awake [COLOR="#4B0082"]Dream[/COLOR] [COLOR="#DAA520"]lucid[/COLOR]

I went to sleep around 2 AM, I had a horrible dinner which might have had something to do with it. I didn't even really have a dinner except eat a bunch of seven-layer-dip and a chicken wing right before bed.

Sleep: 2:30
Wake: 6:30
Sleep: 6:40

1. [COLOR="#4B0082"] I was in some sort of gymnasium where Obama was giving a speech. It was like a basketball court and then there was a smaller court right next to it so from a birds eye view it looked like a square next to a rectangle.
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[COLOR="#4B0082"] On all sides of the room there were bleachers and they were all full and Obama was on the far end of the square in the room giving a speech. I was next to my cousin Russell and some lady with a baby next to him. After Obama stopped speaking they put on a movie for everyone to watch. Inbetween the speech and the movie the woman with the baby started walking on top of this tall row with her baby and there was like at least an 8 foot drop. The movie we were watching had someone's kid being taken away by child services and I started yelling yea we got someone with the same baby problems over here and I pointed to the woman walking with her baby on the high beam thing. I kept yelling jokes about it and she kept trying to hide her baby, but still kept walking on the beam. Pretty soon her baby was taken away and I was the only one who was clapping as it was happening. Sounds cruel but would you rather have a dead baby? Sometimes I feel like the only person in the room who knows the true consequences of things.
After that the movie kept playing and the next thing I know is somehow I met a guy and a girl on the way back to the cars and my dad was about to leave but he wanted to get "that movie with the rock in it" lol. So for some reason I remember all this is happening at our River house for some reason (my dad owns a river house we have 3 hours away from our normal house) Except in the "dream river house" it's a lot sunnier and theres a lot more bushes and trees and such. And I try to go in the house through this futuristic white truck thats owned by the guards, no real trouble for going in it but it looks suspicious. I realize I can't get through the truck so I go around to the place where the speech was taking place. Two of the guards pass by me (they are soldiers from some african country) and start talking about checking up on the display case, which apparently was in the back of the truck. I walk back to the auditorium building and in the dream it was blank but somehow I'm supposed to know it was a beach on that side, but now that I look back it was just white on that side lol. There were bushes and two wooden beams over a gap where it dropped to a beach down below that you had to walk over. Once I got back to the building the entrance room looked like it belonged to a church, and I met the Jogger guy and the girl I had met before. They asked me what I was up to and I guess I didn't remember what I said before because I said I was going to go watch Lord of the Rings. The guy asked me if I was going to where it was filmed or either asked me where it was filmed, dont remember. But I was saying no it's not around here it's all the way in New Zealand. The dream ended a few seconds after I was imagining on a map my location on the earth, and then like on google earth there was a blue line zigzagging and zooming all the way to New Zealand.
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After this I stayed perfectly still when I woke up, Which is a landmark success lol. However the DEILD did not work as intended.

This was around the time I woke up at 6:30, and I was feeling like SH*T. Because if you read at the beginning what I had for dinner. I had a bit of a stomach ache, drank some water which only made me feel worse. I went outside my room and did some general cleaning for 10 minutes then went back to sleep.

woke up at around 9:30 and nothing happened.. decided I had nothing better to do, even though I was fully awake I concentrated on going back to sleep.

2. [COLOR="#4B0082"]In this dream something happened that made me go on a road trip, can not remember no matter how hard I try. I was driving in my car on the road and the GPS turned onto some back country road, I had to slow down a lot to drive around all the giant rocks on the road, and I realized I didn't have the lights on so I turned on the lights, the lights inside the car worked but the headlights weren't working. Either way I saw the rocks in the moonlight/starlight anyways and at one point it felt like a childs toy car and I just grabbed the sides and picked it up over the rock. Then I thought about how crazy this was and I was like "wait a minute"[/COLOR] [COLOR="#DAA520"]I performed my first ever RC (:banana:yay!!:banana:) and my hands went through each other and I realized I was dreaming. I looked around and everything, even though it wasn't daytime, was still in vivid detail and it felt so real. It felt so much like real life it was that hard to tell the difference. I looked to the side and there was a bigger street and a jeep wrangler drove by and its headlights were shining through the snow into a thick forest/jungle straight ahead of me. I tried to fly but I couldn't get off the ground. Then I realized my dream was fading and I tried to stabilize by rubbing my hands together but it was too late and I woke up.[/COLOR]

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I was working on a top secret project I can't talk about here, trying to create a visualization loop that would carry over into sleep. But I didn't notice I fell asleep. I had experienced some strange sensations in my back previous to falling asleep.

Light Hands
Recall: 10/10
Sleep: Good
Sleep Position: Unknown

I'm laying in bed, doing my visualization mantra, when I hear Elvis Costello's "When the smoke gets in your eyes" start to play. I figure I left a cassette playing. I then imagine myself playing a punk rock versions of the song.

The song ends, there is silence in my room once again, when I feel an odd sensation in my hand. I figure will focus on it and try to amplify the sensation. I do, and notice a soft light being emitted from my hand. I pull the blankets over my head for pure darkness to make sure I'm not mistaking an outside light source for my light hand.

The feeling fades, and I decide I'd better try that again. I concentrate, feel the weird sensation in my hand again, see the soft light again, then suddenly this tiny point of light appears below the palm of my hand. It's kind of vibrating, and making a high pitched buzzing noise, almost like a small insect. In the light being emitted, I notice a tiny little fruit fly crawling on the inside of my blanket.

I recognize that the appearance of this fruit fly is a dream like occurrence, due to me focusing on the tiny light with insect like qualities. But I'm more interested in holding my focus to create the little buzzing light. I play around with focusing my attention to create the light hands for awhile, and don't even notice that I've actually woken up.

Took me awhile to realize it was a dream. My first clue was the cassette player, which I haven't had in years, then I realized it occurred in the house I grew up in, not where I currently live. I was semi lucid there for a bit, but didn't do anything with it, was more interested in the dream

I find these two old arcade game machines that play various N64 games. My friend and I play this frogger-like game and some other game that I'm very nostalgic about. Later, I'm in the old west and I'm shooting bad guys left and right. When my gun runs out of batteries, I have to go to the store to get more. I walk through the jewelry isle where there are lots of interesting textures, and then a guy comes and picks something out and he says that this is probably what I need/was looking for. He hands it to me and at first I think it's a hair piece, and then I realize that this gold, jewel-studded object is glasses. I put them back on the shelf and find the bullets. Later, I'm in a room with this old lady who is telling me and my friends something, though I can't remember what. They are singing a chameleon circuit song but they can't remember it very well, so I start singing along but I end up missing stuff. There are kittens on a plate there, and I pet them. At some point I watch this movie that is sort of like Rise of the Guardians, and it was really bad, but at the end it said that Valve Software was used to make the movie, and I was pretty excited about that.

At some point I'm either Jack Frost from "Rise of the Guardians" or I remind myself of Jack Frost. My friends and I are in this field that catches on fire, and they all run away safely except for me and one friend, and I struggle with the fire and I can't use my ice-powers with all the fire around, and I get out, and then I try to help my friend get out, but suddenly I'm invisible and incorporeal, so all I can do is follow her and talk to her. At some point there is some sort of evil that I'm trying to get away from, and I climb this tree higher and higher and higher, and I expect myself to fall at any moment. The tree has an 'alive' quality about it.

At some point I'm in some sort of petstore, and at the time I'd had these two baby reptiles that I had been chewing in my mouth like bubble gum. One was a baby alligator, and the other was something I either don't remember or never knew. It had been about three days since I started chewing them, and they'd obviously died the day I did. I just left them in my mouth anyway for the next three days. So finally at this petstore, I see some reptiles that I forgot to take care of that are dead, dried up, and horrifying in their tanks. I remember about the little ones in my mouth, and I take them out. They are equally dead, dried up, and horrifying. I try to pretend that I'm not horrified, but my friend next to me expresses it outright. We leave that area and I see the dinosaurs tank with these little reptiles that all resemble dinosaurs for sale. One of them is this T-Rex-like animal that has red on it. I want it, but my friend says not to buy it.

I was in some kind of shop. I didn't see the shopkeeper's face but I recognised a classmate in there, whom I started talking to. I also noticed a lot of cellphones (which interested me), of which a lot were on discount. I went to check them out and I saw a phone that interested me. Before I could grab it, someone was slightly faster and took it before me. I didn't even care for some reason, and just wandered around more.

What i recall from when i woke up ~15 hours ago, didn't had time to write down earlier due to having problems installing new OS.

Dream 1(fragments):

I recall being unable to exit some sort of car and being late for some sort of event.

Dream 2:

I and some another person were on some adventure/mission that according to dream had something to do with game called Far Cry and we had to reach some sort of base. We were crossing some mountain area and often were using map to choose the path. At some point we heard some noise and person was saying something about mutants. Eventually one choice leaded us to the dead end. There were some black monster things and some really tall dudes attacking us but i easily destroyed them all by forming a circle with my thumb and index finger and then aiming at them. Person looked rather surprised and then we went back. Dream skips.
Me and person are in some tavern and there are two other people, we are talking about something. Suddenly some blue tiny flying flat transparent sheet thing appears and starts attacking me. Dream ends shortly.

I'm watching the Shaytards from Youtube at Costco but some how I'm with them walking around with them and such. The father decides to push the shopping cart with his youngest child rocktard in it to the front of the store. He gives the cart a shove and just lets the cart go. Some how the cart swiftly turns to the right and ends up slowly stopping by this checkout counter. I found this very amusing and then me and the shaytards decided it would be a good idea to troll the whole store by dancing in isles and picking random items throughout the store acting like we wanted the item and then placing the item back and laughing. I found this amusing too.