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usually I see ships outside my house in the sky, probably cleaning up the city. here is a pic I took of it tonight. I tried connecting to them mentally to tell them about some places I think need healing in my city. Hopefully they got the message, maybe ill remmebr hanging out with them at some point


ate some spaghetti at around 730 pm, hopefully I wont succumb to any sex demons. If I eat too late I find I become more susceptible to such things. I dont think I will. Anyway ill be posting any dreams I have, going to sleep soon.

Also if youre on dreamviews you are most likely an ok soul who is jsut trying to learn more about life. However, if you are a negative entity who is making this planet worse by attacking people, get the fuck off of my page.

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Last Night I had 4 dreams that I can recall...

1. I was at a CAP meeting and it was all dark and scary looking. For some reason everyone was all emotional and hugging eachother as if some huge catastrophy had just occurred

2. I was at home and went for a walk in the middle of the night. This little dog came and scared the daylights out of me. THen this other absolutely huge dog followed it and started attacking me. Somehow my mp3 player turned into a .45 and I can remember loading the cartridges in as if it were a shotgun. Then I remember telling the dog to go away or I would let him have it.

3. I was in this Godzilla movie or something and I remember the monster came charging through town and I watched some peeps get stepped on and squished.

4. I was in a horror movie or something. I don't really remember anything about this one.

As you can see... some pretty dark dreams last night. Idk what it was all about, but I am in the mood for a video game dream or something fun. Here's to having another adventure tonight that is pure fun.

Sleep Time 11:00 p.m - 6:00 a.m

" A Swim"

I'm "swimming" in about a foot of water. So I'm mostly just splashing around. There is some sort of sea creature in the water with me. It was either a dolphin or shark, I don't remember.


Dream University

I'm in the high school that I sub at frequently but it's set up like a university. There are dreaming courses listed on all the doors. Even the bathrooms say "Dream Boys" and "Dream Girls".

-Fell asleep on the couch while reading. I conciously went through sleep paralysis and even had feelings that seemed like astral projection. I had my dream high type feeling. I thought that I was awake (not like I normally do passively in dreams). I went upstairs at one point and noticed that the door was opened. I felt my dream high very intensely and thought I had falled victim to some foul play of some sort. I stood outside and look off to the left where my car was ( it isnt normally there) and the scene surrounding the house was different sort of like I was atop a mountain or something. I went back in and walked back downstairs. I still felt high. I then thought maybe I was projecting or dreaming or something because things weren't right so I jumped and flew back over to my body. I saw it and was sucked back inside and awoke in the position I had passed out in with my textbook open on my chest. I was in extreme sleep paralysis and couldn't even open my eyes. I thought the tv was on but it wasnt and I could hear normal background chatter as if it were. I still felt my dream high and somehow managed to get up stairs where my dad and step were. The kitchen layout was off and my dad was sitting at the table cutting something and my step mom was working in the kitchen and unloading groceries. She seemed bitchy towards me and my dad said I was probably looking for some way to help. I couldnt even speak because my dream high was so intense and I was even trying to unsuccessfully. He tried to pass me a knife but I was trying to tell them I was fucked up from something and then I just slowly collapsed and saw their faces over my eyes as they slowly closed. I was back downstairs on the couch again. I could my dad coming down the stairs. I was groaning and mumbling and said ask my heart my true feelings (which is the only coherent statement I can recall saying). I could.nt hear my dad on the stairs but I saw a large dark figure next to me which I assumed to be him in the corner of my eye but I couldn't even turn my head to see if it was. Then I kind felt as if in an insane meditation again like my body was floating and falling all over the place constantly only all I could see was blackness in the back of my eyelids. I could hear like 3 songs at once all sum 41 but they played in a way that sounded good together (it sounded like the hell song, still waiting and in too deep). I even tried opening my eyes but couldn't do it. I just wanted to get up so I slunked and rolled over and was laying on the floor next to the couch and was still completley over taken by the unpleasent dream high feeling i get sometimes. I did at one point remember super man flying out of the downstairs porch but it didnt last long. I thought I was dreaming on the floor but when I actually did awake it was to my dad and step mom coming in the front door and I was still in my original position on the couch.

I would like to write a little article about the dangers of lucid dreaming and projection. Take only what you feel pertains to you in this article. On this earthly realm, there are beings who like to sabotage and hurt others, some unconsciously and some willingly hurt others, and at the same time themselves. Sometimes they set up various traps for you to get caught up in when you project, although most of us do have mechanisms to keep us safe. The ones who don't most likely won't learn to project or lucid dream. Think of it kind of like in the ocean when fish intuitively know when something is about to come up and eat them. They sense the water around them and if something moves that puts them in danger, they fucking jet the hell outta there. We all have this sense. It was improved in the agility of cats and other mammals and was dumbed down in the humans with all this shitty food evryone eats and poor practices of the mind but o verall we have this sense. Make sure to pay attention to it when you project and lucid dream.

Another good piece of information to know is that you are a multifaceted being with pieces of yourself mostly likely in other places while yo uare here right now reading this. Make sure you keep yourself and the other parts of yourself safe when you prject. You'll notice sometimes when you "suddenly and unexpectantly" wake up in a dream, lucid, you'll be somewhere you've never seen before. You probably switched your awareness to another aspect of your being existing in a different place. When you leave that awareness and wake up, that dream or place continues. That place is not separate though and is affected by multitudes of other dimensional existences, including your life here on earth.

Here is an example of how you can be sabotaged: There are beings who like to make a copy of your spirit or projection and do stuff with those copies. To the unaware, they will most likely dontknow hat happened. But to the aware ( hopefully you) you should know that if ever does happen, you should use your mental and spiritual powers to make sure your projection stays intact and isn't damaged. Your imagination is key here to your protection. Most people won't deal with these beings though, but if you do/have, you'll know intuitively who it was if you are sensitive enough. Also know that the more you awaken, depending on where you live and what you've been exposed to throughout yourlife, the more you will be suppressed by seemingly outside forces. The two most dangerous forms of attacks, from what I have experiences, are psychic/mental attacks, where people try to throw you or an aspect of yourself you are not aware of into a dense state where your awareness drops and the second is by sexually attacking you. When you share a sexual experience with someone or something, they get access to your goodies, so to speak. So don't sleep with people who you feel will hurt you in that way and be careful when masturbating. DOnt masturbate to stupid thinks like tentacle porn ( I have when I was young and it was an incredibly stupid thing to do) and dont masturbate to people on the internet. Porn in genral is a good way to have yourself infested with a whole bunch of spiders, negative feelings, and life force drainging, so dont do it. If you really want to masturbate, do it creatively, something that comes from your higher self.l. Or just find someone who is a good compliment to yourself. Sex is not a purely physical thing, it is about sharing energy, so dont give your energy to vampire sucking douchebags! Also most people on earth are vampires so yea just be careful about that shit.

So anyway, when you have nightmares and stuff, pay attention to what it is that occured. It could be anything from a premontion of something that could happen (if it is this, try to figure out what the deam can be alluding to. Premonitions occur because the foundational energy grids work like mathematics and you must realize our lifes are incredibly predictable when all everyone does is stick to doing the same things every day (school, work, party) even if you plan on moving to another state or place, your choice could be very predictible and thereby a warning can be sense in dreamtime and meditative states. when yo uwork out the calculations of current energy patterns+plus your past life and current life energy patterns+ the enrgy patterns of family and other variables it = your most likely predictable choice which could be negative if it clashes with another energy pattern (Ie: choosing an airplane flight when 6 months before someone decided to bomb the airplane you happened to go on. of course you would have to take into account whether that person will be caught.) it's all very intricate but major things can usualyl be sense by yourself in dream times states hence preomitions. ) to an aspect of yourself that needs a perception change in order to heal. We all carry parts of ourselves that need healing if we want to become more lucid in our lives and dreams. So be careful out there!

I'm gonna go ahead and start a dream journal/ blog to start making sense of what is going on in my dreams. I have some interesting dreams but dangerous as well so whatever we'll see what happens. To start this off, to whoever reads this, apparently some aspect or part of me was sucked into some kind of black hole of confusion thanks to tendency of an evil friend I used to have to not watch his own creations. (samwe went for me apprently, i was only 17 years old) so many of my dreams messages and symbols might come in a confused manner.What I mean is I think that maybe what I am saying in my mind when I say it is actually based off of a confused basis which would make no sense to an outside observer, at least a part of me is like that. Anyways the words still come out ok when I type so i can use this as a tool to help me find what exactly happened. Also, a diffrent aspect of me apparently was captured by some kind of insane sex monster with tentancles, which I reall dont know how to deal with at this point. And becasue of that sex demons are constantly trying to steal my life force at night and sometimes during the day. This seems to be amplified when I'm around people with similar demons ( which is ALOT of people). Also! this demon is prevalent in people's weird misfigured eye pieces.

Anyway last night , from what I remember at this point was me being at my uncle david's house in california, or some kind of projection of it. It was like a house of my david's house combined with another one of my relative's house in california. A lot of family was there, my mom, me, my current boyfriend, my sister, my cousin. I dont remember what we were doing, apparentyl just having fun talking and what not. There were other people there I don't know, presumably my uncle's previous sex partners. We were there and at one point, I went into another room cause I had to go pee. I remeber trying to go pee but people kept coming into the room and I would have to wait for them to leave. At one point I tried peeing in a trashcan and stopped myself cause I thought that was weird. Also some kind of bug/fairy being brushed against my face but I blew it away with a stream of air because I had been falling asleep to mosquitoes flyin around and I mistook it for that. It could ahve been a regular bug but it feels a little more significant then that. Away I went back to the room with everyone else and jokingly threw a pillow at my mom's current boyfriend's face who looiked like he was sleeping. When he woke up he had like multiple eyes it was really weird. I feel if that fairy was infact a fairy, it was telling me not to throw a pillow at his face. But I did so w/e thats in the past now. I do have some form of resentment for my mom's boyfriend. He isn't a mean guy or anything, probably just the typical Kid dpoesnt like new boyfriend kind of stuff but also I feel he has some deep seated issues which might hurt my mom.

I woke up fora bit after my mom's boyfriend (harvey) had those weird multiple eye things. I thought about it for a while and thought maybe that dream was connected to a different dream I had before but didn't/ don't have enough awareness right now to know for sure. Anyway I went back to sleep. I had a dream about my friend marco playing league of legends. He was saying something but I didnt understand. The scene actually started from the same area where i was before. The scene gradually got more intense, some kind of being was being fought off by good guys. I got really aware when some kind of intense energy wave was given off by this evil guy and knocked everyone down, including me. I was on the ground when someone who looked like this guy from league of legends but really tall, almost giant sized. He came with a wooden looking sword, executed someone in front of me on the fground with his sword at the neck and then came towards me. I felt like I was fainting but when he got close I found a sword next to me and put it in front of the wooden blade dflecting it from my neck. Everything went black and then I came back to awareness with the kassadin guy's sword snapping from the pressure and he fell down on the floor. I took my time to strike, leaped towards his neck, and cut his head off with my sword. i tried stabbing it but aprrently I had to actualyl slice the head off.


After that the main evil guy in the middle got up from being knocked down and started to attack again. We circled around him waiting to see what would happen. There were multiple fighters. I went around in front of him. He saw me and formed some kind of dimensional shield around his arm to shield himself fro mattacks. I had no weapon but decided to act as a decoy so my teammates could attack him. So I jump onto his shield while he tried to charge at me. I go some kind of dagger and stabbed him in the throat while my teammates got this really nice sharp but glorious looking spears and stabbed him fro mthe sides, around 3 people were holding each spear. He fell. Everyone gathered him into some kind of box and prepared a ritual to send him back to the source of all energy. Me or whoever I was percieving said " don't worry, you will be back, in some kind of form or another, blah blah blah.....judt kidding, I dont want to be an sshole, you'll be back though so dont worry." to the dead body in the coffin llooking thing, it contained the guy's power. He was in there apparently unconscious. The guys poured some kind of lquid on his face designed to help the body feel good as it is passed back into the source. When they did, he started smiling in euphoria. It was like he knew he was about to die but he was too weak to do anything, but also too delirious from the liquid to even think. Somebody asked me to help them hold the case up while he did some kind of ritual over the body. Apparently he tried to shake or something because his body flipped in the case and we almost dropped the coffin but it stayed held up. Then while I was helping holding the coffin I woke up. I felt decent, kind of strange. Decided not to go back to sleep. Went outside and meditated on balancing the two sides of my body. I did this by realizing the simple nature of this universe using sacred geomtry principles. When yo uare gorwing in your mother's fetuas, the first thing to be formed is your heart. From here, your tongue forms next, and then the rest of your body. In this fashion , I could see how my body, after millions of yeras of evolution through various water states and then finally coming onto land, (with the help of some et's) was formed from the designed of a space matrix which includes the various directions originating from the heart center. Fro mthe heart to your head. Heart to the base of your spine, Heart to the space in front of you and behind you, this is how yo uare connected to this specific matrix. If yo uwant to learn more about this I recommend meditating shapes in your mind's eye and what they reveal to you, and reading up on malchiezideck sacred geomtry books. Anyways ill be updating this blog, journal whenever I feel I should, thanks for reading.

This means normal dream
This means lucid dream
This means I'm loosing my lucidity
This means non-dream notes
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Okay, so it started out as me walking into the house, (my grandma's actually), and my mom was sitting on the loveseat talking to my boyfriend on videochat on my old phone. While I didn't think it odd that my mom was there though she no longer lives with me, or that my phone doesn't have a video camera or internet, or that my BF would be conversing with my mom at all, I accepted it. I was in my swimsuit and it was a bright summer outside as my sisters played in our nonexistant pool. My hair was fluffy though, and longer than it is in real life, so I must not have been swimming. Anyway my mom hands the phone to me and my BF and I start to talk like we do any other day, me playing around with the camera angles and making myself look upside down.

Then, my Bf's sister and her two little kids interrupted our conversation by barging in and the littlest kid blowing a party streamer in my bf's face. He looked annoyed and proceeded to chase his sister out of the room, leaving the two kids. I looked around awkwardly, suddenly realizing that I was in his room and not at my house. His laptop was still sitting on his desk (very odd, he NEVER uses a desk) and the skype window was open, but I was not there. His room was largely devoid furiture, with blue walls, white trim and light hardwood floors. There was the desk, a closet and an air mattress. Thinking back, it seems to resemble a cross between my sister's old room and my dad's new room, only cross sectioned into a new home. Looking down, I was still alone with my Bf's wide-eyed niece and nephew. So, I decided to play with them like I do most kids of their age, I pretended to be a dog. They enjoyed seeing me barking and walking on all fours, play bowing for them to throw balls for me that I brought back by nudging with my knuckles, unwilling to put anything in my mouth touched by a toddler. When my BF and his sister returned they seemed unconcerned by my presence. I stood up and when I looked to the web camera on the open laptop I was transparent and outlined by a black dotted line. Then, my color started to fill in and everyone else started to acknowledge me.

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new dream
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I do not remember how I got there or why, but me and my boyfriend were apparently in the wedding ceremony for some friend or relative of one of our families. The groom was wearing a superman costume and the wife, a tan indian woman, was in a muddy wedding gown. The entire wedding ceremony was on a large staircase and it was not bad by superman standards.

My bf pulled me aside and started to yell at me, I yelled at him back and we were just plain mad for some reason. I told him that he couldn't be mad at me because I loved him and I had even had a dream about him just an hour ago (a reference to my dream previous). He said something along the lines of "well, you sure as hell weren't fucking me in that dream. now were you?" and we both bitterly continued to be our parts in the ceremony.
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it is to my conclusion that the last dream is my fear of ever getting to the point of marring my boyfriend because I am asexual and he is heterosexual. I could never give him what he needs, no matter how much I love him.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids


Betime 9:30P-5:00A
3MG Melatonin, 300MG B6 SSILD at begining

Fell asleep fast during SSILD no dreams recalled until after WBTB

WBTB @ 3AM, SSILD I woke naturally just before WBTB alarm. I only got up to pee and straight back to bed. I did only a few rounds of SSILD before I passed out again. So sleepy.

#91 Brief DILD in Japan

I am in Japan in a Christian church. I feel like it is Catholic. I am sitting among a hundred or so blonde haired little girls. I have my own blonde haired daughters next to me. all the girls are playing brass instruments. I don't remember the song but they play it flawlessly. I can't understand why none of them are Japanese. After they stop I get up and walk to the back and see the pastor standing there next to a small end table with candles. I notice he is wearing a grey suit and black tie. He looks a little like my own pastor in real life. I have a fake and brief memory of him coming to a haunted house and casting out evil spirits. Instead of talking about that, I mention that none of the girls look Japanese. He begins to laugh and reply to that but, at that moment, I look down and notice I am holding my son in his car seat. I carelessly tilt him forward and he falls out and hits the floor hard. I quickly pick him up and hold him close. He is not crying but I look him over anyway.
My wife touches his head and says "He has a knot."
"Nah.", I say. "He is fine."

I am now outside walking to my car with my daughters trailing behind me. It is night time and I see kids playing with a squirrel under a street lamp. For a second I think that I forgot my son inside. I pause and start to think and retrace my steps but, first I focus on my hand. There, now I can feel the car seat handle. I look and there it is.

I walk around the passenger side and glance at my rear tire. I see that it is going flat. I look at the door to open it then look back at the tire. It had now fallen off and the axle is completely broke. It look like pipe threads at the end. At first I am completely pissed and begin to freak out but I realize something and pause and stare at the door again. I tell myself that I can just use dream control. If I believe, it will be fixed. I know I am dreaming at this point but I don't verbalize it yet.

I look back at the wheel and it is fixed but the tire is still low on air. I smile. I make an inflating gesture with my hands and let out a whoosh of air with my mouth. I say, "There. Fixed." I don't bother to verify it I just know. I forget about the kids now and walk around the driver side of the car. I finally say it, "I am dreaming.", and smile. I know that the dream has been getting progressively darker but I don't fight it. I want to continue the plot and see where it takes me. I realize that I was about to do some sight seeing in Japan and I really want to drive to downtown of whatever Japanese city I was in. As I reach for the door handle of the car, I instantly wake up. I feel really tired and I forget to try DEILD.

Naked Between snooze alarm dream

I am running around the house trying to get dressed for work. My wife is up and about and she has some friend of hers over. I say something to her and she replies something and walks into the kids room. I continue to try to find some clothes but I am in the living room. I look down and realize that I have been completely naked the entire time. I don't get embarrassed. I just wonder why I am not at all modest any more. I am amused by this and start to walk into the room where my wife and friend went into. I have no sexual feelings about it at all. I just think it will be funny to streak in front of them. The alarm wakes me up.

I am in my dream house or some version of it.
Mom and I are going somewhere.
She's waiting for me outside.
I need one last thing before I go.
I head upstairs.
I hear a voice saying "Mary is up there."
I know instantly that they mean upstairs in the dark room.
I am outside using my dream body to bounce up and survey the windows of the upstairs.
Looking for a sign of Mary.
I'm scared that I'll see something.
The top room in dream house, I have only maybe reached once.
I know that this is what they mean.
She is in the room that is very difficult to reach.
A room in my dream home that I've thought about many times.
The tower.
Is Mary in the tower?
I am upstairs (not the top) and I need to get down to my mother.
There is a wonky staircase with three to four long, straight, skinny poles jutting out as some kind of banister.
My mom is holding the ends of the poles down so I can slide my way downstairs.
I tell her to be careful.

[Tuesday, October 30th, 2012]

I was disguised into a group of thugs and baddies or just unfamiliar druggies. We sat in their red van as they talked
about a type of drug they smoked and grew. It was a red root or weed kind of plant that would grow anywhere. We
sat and talked for awhile, and then I decided I needed to use the bathroom. I got out of the car walked down the
plaza street until I arrived at a bathroom.

WHOA. I remember a dream before this. I came to this same bathroom, when I told my Mom I needed to use it
before. I walked into the bathroom and flushed the toilet water it since it was yellow already. I sat down on it,
went pee, but couldn't go number 2. So I flushed the toilet and left. The room was a comfortable, out-of-sight
bathroom with Hawaiian tropical theme. I walked back outside, the whole ISLAND plaza was island themed.
There was a bay of water to the left, close to where the drug van was parked, and the sunset reflected a beautiful
orange and maroon just perfectly off the water.

I walked back up to the van, and got in and began to excuse myself. They told me to look at the plant one more
time before I left. It was growing underneath the passengers seat. I leaned down and put my face close, and... sure
enough, a red sprout was sitting in the middle, right underneath her seat. I instantly began to thieve.

I saw a stem that looked weak and dry, like it would crack off. I distracted the two people in the front seat.
"So this is it?" I bent the stem back and forth, in hopes that I could snap it off. "You guys just started growing this,
didn't you?"

They answered that I was right. I picked a piece off and grasped it tightly in my palm.
"Alright guys, I really am sorry. I'm not feeling so hot, I'm gonna head out now." I really did have to go to the
bathroom again still.

I opened the door and said my politries, then shut it behind me.
"Phew, I did it." I thought silently as I snuck off into the everdarkening evening.

I passed into an enclosed grassy area- it kind of reminds me of a flag pole area at the entrance to a school or hotel,
but with highwalls to surround it. The path of brick or stone cut right through the grass to the other side. I
continued casually, but slowed down when I saw a perfectly good SD card. Then another. And another. I stopped.
"Whoa." I looped around, still trying to remain casual looking. I picked up an SD card, and all of the ones I found.
Then I noticed there was more than just memory sticks. There's DS games, Gameboy games, Nintendo 64 games!

All kinds of cartridges! Scattered across the grassy yard. I got excited and began to pick them up into a stack.
"HEY!" A large tomboyish female called me out. She must have had blonde hair and a cap to cover it- because I
get that impression. "What are you doing?"

In a second, I told the truth, which is unusual for a circumstance like this.
"I found a bunch of video game cartridges on the ground! I mainly just want the Gameboy ones, but you can take
some if you find something you like too." It felt nice to share. I DIDN'T need all of these, anyways.
She stared at me with an annoyed inquisitive gaze... then it lightened.

"Okay!" She was suddenly friendly and full of love.
We bent down and worked together, sorting through all of them, stacking them in piles.
I would check hers to see if she found anything I liked, and likewise.
I liked her. (It's too bad I didn't ask for a name.)

<My dream faded as I woke up.>
<I rolled over and went back to sleep.>

I'm now inside the Hotel that was to my immediate right in the previous dream, after walking into that grassy
entrance. I'm not sure how, but I was a fighter. A bunch happened that I don't remember. But I do remember the
current circumstances I was thrown into. I had a Master who was helping me to stop the summoning of an evil
God. We could see him, but he was powerless to harm us yet. He wore what looked like a red samurai mask. An
evil idiot villian and his short alien-looking psychic sidekick were summoning him. My Master was keeping him at
bay.

I had a staff in my hand and I got impatient. I charged my staff and pointed the end at the evil God and a blue
light sparked out and glowed. It pushed the evil God away but then he smiled at me. My Master intervened and
told me to be patient. I knew it was a powerful attack, but why didn't it banish him? He was REALLY powerful.

Just then, the evil idiot villain emerged from the bathroom and told his sidekick,
"Don't worry. When we win, I'll give you levatation powers."
"That fucking idiot." I let out. The evil villain turned his head so fast and was in my face. He shouted and screamed
and spit and seemed like he was going insane. His face went dark red and he looked like he was in pain almost.

The evil God grinned, as if he had a chance to strike, THROUGH him.
"CALM DOWN." I grabbed his head in my hands. "Look at me! Caaaalm dooowwn."
"It's oookaaaayy. It's okay." His face resembled my best friend Nathan. I hugged him.

<My dream faded and I woke up.>
(I'll also add that I had to go to the bathroom REALLY bad when I woke up. xD Explains why I had to keep using it in my dreams.)

Oct 30th '12:
I remember only one dream from last night, it started with me walking alone in the woods as I encounter an open field with a small hill in the middle.
I start walking around the hill, making it seem to grow untill it casts a shadow so big it covers me entirely.
Then around the endless corner a figure comes up to me and asks if I've seen what's on top of this hill I shake my head to say no and now curious to find out walk up the hill.
Now I can still feel the hill growing in height but it doesn't slow me down though as if the hill is growing under me and not above.
On top of the hill I see 7 young women sitting in a row behind each other, as if they're in a boat but there's no boat here.
Like the man I am I carefully examine every one of them, checking them out. All of them fine specimen all of them have beautifull hair that glows in the sunlight.
I also remember there were some trees.
But as soon as I complete the check up on the girls they stand up and music starts playing.

Now I must note I was experiencing this dream in a first person view but now the "camera" zooms out so it can see the following scene.
Yes, scene because what follows is a Fred Astaire-esque dance scene as if I were watching a movie I see myself dancing with all the ladies present. Without me noticing it though the group changed from 7 women to 6 at the beginning of the dance 3 at the middle of it and after the final I let the last one go and ended up alone again.
This didn't stop me from continueing my dance do.
Although the dance changed, it went from jazzy 50's 60's moves to a more, let's say, experimental type of dancing.
The music also changed to a more hard and violent sound.
I started to really let myself go, just moving al frustrations out of my body untill I came to rest.
In the distance further up the hill (aparently the hill grew in size again during my rage-dance) I suddenly spot one of those arbours.
From this point on the dream became very over the top. The whole situation became chaotic, the violent sounds were now defineable as a Linkin Park song, and while I was inside the arbour it became more and more crowded, then I noticed one of the bandmembers of Linkin Park joining everyone in the arbour.
After that all I remember is more noise, more crowd, and animals walking down alongside the hill.
The last thing I remember was throwing a chair at some pitchblack elephants.

I remember something about Scotland Yard, and watching something in a third person perspective. I'm pretty sure I'm going to have REM rebound because I really didn't get much sleep last night.

All in all a fun morning though! There were alot of mini lucids, and it's been hours so I'll try to recall best I can.

Woke up at 5:30am then went back to sleep almost right away. Woke up at 6:45am, then fell back to sleep around 8am I think. The first lucid was when I woke up (I think?), and was just lying on my back with my eyes open. Then I felt vibrations. I thought that it was weird that I felt them while my eyes were opened, so I decided I was already dreaming so I got up. When I did, a corner of the blankets were stuck to my face and I had to pry it off lol. I thought about the pumpkin head task again, but I was ambivalent. The last time didn't go so well and I didn't even really want to do it. But it was either that one or the frankenstein one and I didn't feel like doing that one either lol. So I made up my mind and just marched into the bathroom. I looked at my reflection, then got up real close and looked at my eyeballs, the pupils morphed all weird. I stuck just my head through the mirror then pulled it back out. This time was the most effortless mirror push. Instead of liquid, it felt like cool air. Somehow the mirror moved the features of my face down to the bottom 1/3 of my face, if that makes sense. So I stuck it back in the mirror, then out again, and it was back to normal. Which gave me an idea. I wondered if I stuck my head in the mirror, and pulled with my hands at the same time, my head might stay in the mirror and become detached. So I tried it, and what resulted was really bizzare: I pulled back out of the mirror, and my head was still attached, but it had completely deflated and was just hanging down off my neck like a popped balloon. I couldn't see this fact, because I was blind the second I came out of the mirror. I felt it with my hands. That was far enough for one dream, so I stuck my upper body back into the mirror, then pulled back out. Still blind, but I could feel my head back in place. And it wasn't true blindness, because I could see the bathroom light behind closed eyelids. I even pointed my face up toward the light, and it became brighter. So I pryed my lids open with my fingers and I could see again. Fucking weird. Then I woke up.

I was still on my back, so I just closed my eyes and I went immediately into a dream. My mattress slid off the bed with me still on it. Then what could be best described as a magic carpet ride started. The mattress went right through the wall, and it traveled down the road, went up windy mountain roads, and eventually took off into the sky. As I was soaring through the clouds, I felt like I might fall off, so I grabbed onto the edge as hard as I could. I knew I was dreaming this whole time, I just didn't feel like falling. I'm turning into such a chicken in my LDs. It's way past time to mentally detach from my physical body in these dreams. Anyway, I think I woke up shortly after feeling like I might fall.

I fell back to sleep and went straight into a dream where I was at work. I was immediately lucid, because I remembered that I had just woken from a dream like 4 seconds ago and had closed my eyes to go back to sleep. This DEILD stuff is cool and weird. I decided I wanted to try to find Scott from the last LD, because I didn't get to do much with him. I found him in the frozen aisle, where I usually see him irl if not at the bakery. I said "Hey Scott, wanna make out?" He was wearing a motorcycle helmut. He walked up to me and lifted the visor, ready to kiss. I said "You gotta take that thing off man." He said he didn't want to because it made him look cool, but then he took it off anyway. He pressed me up against one of the freezer doors and we made out for a while. Then I woke up.

I went right back to sleep, and immediately found myself in my parents' livingroom, again recognizing that I was dreaming because I was JUST lying in my bed trying to go back to sleep. No furniture though. I remember I was kinda horny from making out with Scott in that last dream, and I couldn't think of anything else to do. It was really bright outside, otherwise I might have been inspired to find a graveyard and attempt the other advanced TOTM. I thought "naaaah" and waited for someone to show up. 2 cable guys came to the door, and I asked them to strip down and get on the floor. They said no. Then a 3rd guy showed up, looked like a phone repairman. He obliged me. I turned male and the rest of that story will stay in my brain. I don't remember waking up from that one, so I either went nonlucid or just blacked out I dunno.

Dream One (Fragment): I am in a school gym, lining up in a line and trying to figure out an excuse not to participate

Dream Two: This dream starts out with me being outside a small old house. It's a small house, and pretty old and run down. It might even be a trailer that's falling apart. There are woods behind it, and a gravel drive way with an old squarish blue grey car from the early 90s in the drive. I have a couple of friends hanging out near the woods, and I walk over towards them to say hey. They're talking, but I can't really find any point to jump in on the conversation, so for a while I'm just half listening half looking around and feeling uncomfortable because I don't know this place very well. My friends decide to go inside for a bit, and I start to follow them inside. on the way inside I gravitate towards my friend Chas and decide to just hoover near her because I'm sure she's just as uncomfortable in the group as I am, and we can sort of be each other's moral support. There are pictures on the walls, and I recognize a child in some of the pictures as being a cute guy I sort of know, but not really. We'll call him W. It soon becomes clear through conversation that this house belongs to W's grandmother. We walk through a living room, across a short hall and into a kitchen. The grandmother is there, a short lady in her late 50s to early 60s with graying blond hair (or maybe it's dyed blond and was grey) She smiles bigly at me, and shakes my hand and introduces herself to me. I smile back and try to be as nice and sweet as I can, even though I'm really uncomfortable with strangers touching me. Then I start feeling a bit claustrophobic because there are so many of us in this tiny kitchen. The grandmother seems to be aware of my discomfort and tells me that we should go sit in the living room where there's more room. She never lets go of my hand after she shakes it, instead she holds it and leads me back to the living room. In the hall, she stops for a moment to open a door to a room where W is playing a video game, and tells him that he should join us in the living room. He declines, and I am reminded that W doesn't really talk to me much. Some days he acts like he's happy to talk to me, others like he doesn't care to even acknowledge my presence. In the living room I sit down on a couch, and the grandmother lets go of my hand when I am seated and sits in another chair across from me. My friend Chas has apparently followed us, and she sits down to my right on the couch as well. We start chatting about the pictures on the walls, and the grandmother starts telling us about them. It's then that I realize she also has a couple pictures of me when I was little on the walls. I point them out, and ask her why she has them. She looks at me with teary eyes and tells me that my mother gave them to her. I ask her why my mom would give a complete stranger pictures of me, and she starts crying. She tells me that she is my real biological grandmother, and that while my family wouldn't let her and my other blood relatives on that side of the family see me, they at least sent them pictures so they could see how I grew up. I can't think of any other possible explanation for these pictures being in her possession, but this one seems so far fetched I start questioning her. I ask her why I didn't know about her, and why my family wouldn't let them see me, and she tells me that it's because my family wanted me to fit in with them, and if I knew I only half belonged there I would never feel like I fit in. I reason this is somewhat true, because even thinking I belonged to both sides of my family, I've always been a black sheep in the family. So then I ask why W has never said anything to me, because if he's her grandson and I'm her granddaughter that would make us cousins. She explains that he holds a bit of a grudge against me for never choosing to be part of this family, even though I didn't know I belonged. Everything seems so overwhelming suddenly. I start crying, there's a whole family I didn't know I had, and a lot of the social anxiety I have with these friends because W and I don't get along swimmingly suddenly seems to make sense. I feel like it's not fair, because I've tried so hard to be nothing but nice and friendly and fun, and its like W wants to be friends one moment, and couldn't care less the next. Seeing as how these friends are always bringing him up when we hang out, I feel like that tension causes problems in those friendships as well because I can't carry in on those conversations. I wonder if this is why I never fit in with my dads family, because I'm not really family at all, or is it my mothers family that I don't belong in? And why wouldn't they tell me when it became apparent that I still didn't fit in so that I couldn't find the place where I do? My friend Chas hugs me, and starts whispering to me that it's ok. Then she asks me why I am crying, how does this make me feel? and it's only then that I realize omg, this guy I thought was cute is my cousin! Yuck! then I start giggling, and I tell them I'm ok, but really I'm mostly making myself laugh because I don't want to deal with it all at once. Chas says I need some fresh air, and helps me outside where I can breathe and get away for a bit. Outside it's a bit chilly, but not cold. I gaze at the woods for a bit, and just let my mind wander as I take in the fresh air and feel the wind and just let my senses and surroundings take me in. After a short bit, I'm ready to go back inside, and Chas and I head back in. Everyone is in the kitchen again, and the grandmother jumps out of her seat the moment she seems us, and she asks me if I would mind being inducted into their family. I'm confused for a moment, asking her if I misunderstood about being a relative, and she says no, that I am a member of the family, but that she wants me to join in on their magical bond as well. I agree to, happy to not only find a family, but to also find more open minded people as my own family doesn't much care for pagan life or any aspects of it. She calls W into the room, and tells him that I'm finally going to join their circle, and unlike earlier in the dream, he suddenly seems really happy about it. He tells us he'll be right back, and rushes back to the room he had been playing games in before. Then I notice my friends are all filing into the living room and the grandmother is pulling a kitchen chair into the middle of the hallway. She tells me to have a seat, but when I start to turn around and sit in it, she tells me to straddle the chair because I will need the back to lay my head on. I do as she says, and W comes back into the hall with a small bucket full of water. Grandma has another chair now, and she's siting it so that it is touching the chair I am sitting in, and when W sits down in the other chair he is behind me, with a leg on each side of my chair. He tells me to relax, and that he's going to dip my hair in the water. I feel a bit uncomfortable at first, but I love water, and when he pulls my head back gently, the moment my hair enters the water I feel a thousand times more calm. He gently cups water over my head, and gets even the hair next to my scalp that won't reach in the bucket wet, then wrings the extra water out and sets the bucket down. He then tilts me forwards and tells me to lay my head against the chair back, and I do so. He places his thumbs on either side of my neck, and gently starts to massage up my neck, and then to my scalp. At this point he tells me that I am relaxed, and that he's going to hypnotize me and ask me a few questions. I suddenly panic, what if I say something stupid? Worse, what if I admit I found him cute while I'm hypnotized?! They wouldn't want me in the family if they knew I thought a cousin was cute, even if I didn't know he was my cousin when I formed that opinion! I start to turn my head and tell him no, but I'm so groggy my head feels super heavy and I can only partially turn. I see his face, and he smiles as he reaches forwards and turns my head back around and helps me settle it back on my arms, "Shhhhh. It's ok, trust me. " and then I feel like I'm falling asleep. but I keep blinking groggily, like I'm half awake and half asleep. I catch little bits of what he's asking and what I'm saying, but I can't make sense of it because I'm so sleepy. I'm so comfortable and relaxed, I just want to sleep there forever. Suddenly I am more aware in the dream and think I've woken up. W is still behind me, but now he's leaned against my back with his arms around me and he's telling me that it's ok, he's going to move me to a bed now where I can sleep. I ask what happened and what I said, and he smiles mischievously and tells me we'll talk about that later. His strong arms pull me gently to my feet, but he holds me against him so I'm more leaning on him that standing on my own legs. He helps me walk to the room where he was playing video games earlier, and there's a double bed there with tall bannisters and a patchwork quilt. He lifts me and places me on the bed, and I'm so tired and groggy I can barely move to thank him. He brushes my hair away from my face, and then he starts to pet my hair and speak soothingly again. I go back through that phase where I am too tired to understand what he's saying, I'm just so comfortable and relaxed I want to stay curled up there with him petting my hair for eternity. Then I start to waken in the dream world again, and he's not there anymore. instead my husband is next to the bed, and he's angry but he's trying to cover it with a mask of concern. He's asking me if I am hurting, and I tell him no why would I be? He takes my arm and shows me several welts that are crisscrossing on the bottom of it. He tells me that they did this to me, and when he tried to stop them they said I had consented and I would be ok because they wouldn't hurt me. I look at the welts, and they look like they WOULD have hurt, but they don't and I don't even remember getting them, so I tell him it's ok, I'm not really hurt. I was passed out when the actual pain would have occurred and I don't feel anything now. The skin wasn't broken, so the welts would fade in a couple hours and it'd be like they never happened. He seems unhappy, and he tells me I need to go home, but I don't want to go home, and I tell him as much. He looks like he's about to cry, but then W walks in and smiles. I close my eyes feeling suddenly like even if my husband is there, I don't have to stress, because if I don't want to go home or if I don't want him around, I will have help enforcing my will. Then I wake up for real, but when I do, I am in sleep paralysis, only without any old hag syndrome, instead I'm frozen in a state of pure bliss I don't know how long I was in that state, but when I finally found my body moving and twitching awake, I felt like I'd gotten way more sleep than I did. I went back to sleep though, in hopes of continuing the dream. I didn't, and when I woke up I was double tired, lol.

Job Interview Lady

I went to apply for a job. I drove into a dirt parking lot. I was going a bit fast and was a little out of control; at the same time, I maneuvered obstacles quite in control.

I fine lady was going to interview me. As we introduce ourselves, I see I am not dressed right. My shirt is wrinkled and the buttons are not buttoned correctly, but she is OK with me, and I just tried to act like I'm the kind of guy she'd want working at the company.

A guy comes up and he is not as happy with me. All of a sudden we are in the lobby of a building. It is a large lobby with off-white marble flooring. There is glass all along the walls. It was a very clean look.

The man sees my belt which is not my dress belt. It is the style with two holes instead of one. The man doesn't like it. He asks if it is the name brand of a brand of sun glasses. If it were from that manufacturer, it would be a cheap and inappropriate style of belt.

I was again very self-conscious about my dress and started trying to tuck in my shirt better and try to tidy up my disheveled look.


This delicious woman takes me around a corner and she seems very personable to me, so I feel like everything will be OK. Then she was going to leave with the guy, maybe her boss. As they were leaving, I see little craft eyes on the floor. There were two, then four, then 6.

I wanted to pick them up to show initiative, but then there were like 100 of the little eyes. I started trying to sweep them up with my hands, but static electricity is making them stick to the floor. I decided I needed a brook.

Someone else starts sweeping them up with their hands, but I'm going to get a broom. A lady, acknowledging it was ridiculous, told me I had to go down the elevator to get to the broom closet to get the broom.

Then I see this lady again. I see her more vividly now. She trips to the floor and I'm looking at her face. She was so-o-o cute. She had short, brown hair. It fell loosely below her ears. She had a classic look but modern at the same time.

She was wearing a skirt, but then she only had see-through stockings. I looked and could kind of see her vag area, but I helped her up quickly. I felt very close to her, so I pulled her in and she gave me a kiss.

I couldn't believe I was with this woman. I walked away with my hand over my mouth in disbelief. Her friends told her to look at my reaction, and I knew it, but I couldn't stop. I was beside myself.

Great dream.