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nothing much this week. I was visiting family in MVC drank a lot of beer so it affected my recall.

No Jamie dreams... hm. Unusualy to have a whole week without a jamie dream but i'm not worried.

TV

Just a dream about a co worker. We are on a couch watching tv. She starts doing sexual things in front of me. Not sure f it's directed at me or not.. hm.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

Yesterday I told myself that I would have something big to tell my DJ today, and I knew that I would succeed and therefore I succeeded. I set an alarm 03:40 for WILD. I drink water and meditate for about eight minutes. I go back to sleep, laying in the corpse position. After about 30 minutes almost my whole body is gone, I can't feel it. I get a big vibration wave sideways that I have never experienced before and I think that this is the first time I will succeed with a WILD. I try to remain calm and not get excited, it works. After laying still in one hour I can't take it anymore. I look on my clock and it's 04:51. I do a RC just for good measure and go to my normal sleeping position. It takes a while but I fall asleep.

I'm laying on an open toilet, balancing with my quilt, doing a WILD. I feel my hands gripping a bikehandle and I'm happy because this is the first time I succeed with a WILD. I'm not entirely in the dream but after I while I see the road I'm riding on. It's next to the road by Stumholmen. I can't remain in the dream and I come back to laying on the open toilet. I wonder how the toilet can be so big. I'm actually laying on a toilet I think. My legs drop into the toilet water and I quickly raise them again. I wake up and realize that I WILDed in a dream into another dream and am pretty fascinated.

I'm in my bed and I'm pinching my nose, trying to breathe. I can breathe, then I raise from the bed. Haha, I outsmarted my brain's FA! I read about tips on what you can do in a dream about telekinesis and try it out. I lift the music stand in my room and it's moving exactly according to my will. I jump out of my window and fly to the left. I scream for a person I want to meet with but no one is seen. I go into a taxi and tell him to drive to this person. He asks where she lives and I tell him that he knows. After a long time we are there. I'm thinking that I wasted worth-while time going 5 minutes in a taxi and have to learn more time efficient methods. I ask the driver how much it costs but he doesn't know. I'm not sure I have any money but search in my pocket. I find many bills and just give him a 200 kronor bill (about 20 dollars). He doesn't know how much he is going to pay me back so I tell him to keep the change. I fly up to the persons balcony and we interact. I feel the dream fade. I'm in my bed and do my normal RC. Wow it was just another FA I think to myself, cool. I fly to the same person without the taxi because now I knew where I was going. My flying is not good and I'm having struggle with all the tall trees I'm flying into. I constantly have to run on the ground to get some power to lift from the ground. There is a big sculpture and a giant man is walking against me. I fly up to the sculpture in order to escape the giant but I'm too slow and get caught. I wake up and do a RC and realize it's a dream! I think it's funny how I have had three FA in a dream and go into the building next to me instead. There are some mirrors and I decide I want to test the teleportation through mirror skill. I try to enter the mirror but it won't let me pass. I look on my fingers and they are all distorted. First they are really small and fat. When I look on my fingers through the mirror there are several fingers growing into my fingers. I think about what the forum has said about this and I'm comforted. I look into the mirror again and notice that it's acting wrongly. It's like the mirror in front of me had the view of a mirror that would have been above me. I also notice how my reflection is not properly following my movements. I try to enter it again but fail. I wake up but I already kind of know it's a dream. I hear some Naruto music and my brother enters my room. I have a hard time trying to open my eyes. I rub my hands together for stabilization and I'm forcing my eyes open with my fingers. I walk to the window and I'm screaming for some persons and they appear outside my house to the right. I fly to them. We interact and I wake up, knowing that it's IRL. I do a RC anyhow just because I want it as a habit.

Possible recurring elements: Toilets, escaping

Notes: Now I have learned to always do RC when I wake up haha. What is wrong with my WILD, I don't know... Just have to practice more. I didn't meditate at the begining of the LD which is my current goal. I have to think more about it in order to remember it. I think I could fix my flying just by practicing a whole night. I have succeeded in flying to the coulds really fast in a LD a year ago. It would be cool to fix the mirror teleportation. It's hard to analyzie a LD I think. I think I was laying on the toilet in the dream because I thought about how the rats may pinch my butt when I sat on the toilet yesterday. There are so many things that I have made up in the dream. This is by far the longest LD I have ever had!

Dream 1

I had patented a remote controller for phones and learned that some guy was infringing on my patent. I stalked him, he walked to the end of a dock and rested his hands on the railing as he looked out at the ocean. I snuck under the dock and saw that his shoe was sticking out over the edge by a few inches. So I cut a little hole in the bottom of his shoe and his money began to pour out, I held out a bag under it and bagan collecting the money.

2 ОС Друг-тень (Сентябрь 2011)

Я находился во сне у себя на дворе. Понял, что это сон. Рядом со мной был мой друг. Я стал думать, чтобы поделать. Подошёл к другу и попросил, чтобы он привёл меня к себе домой. Для этого я взял его за руку. Он повёл меня. Только почему-то заходить на его двор мы не стали, а пошли вокруг дома. Картинка сна стала блекнуть. Я подумал, что это не мой друг, и он хочет, чтобы у меня сон закончился. Друг стал постепенно походить на тень. Я схватил эту тень и сжёг на солнце. Картинка сна вернула свои свойства. Пошёл дальше вокруг дома. Картинка сна снова стала блекнуть. Я вспомнил, что читал: «для того чтобы продлить ОС надо посмотреть на свои руки». Я взглянул на них. От реальных рук они отличались тем, что на них было много линий. Мне стало больно руку, и я опустил их. Картинка сна улучшилась. Решил всё-таки дойти до дома друга. Мне надо было перейти дорогу, чтобы дойти до его подъезда. По дороге я прошёл нормально, но потом земля начала подниматься у меня из-под ног. Я попытался взлететь над ней, но ничего не вышло. Тогда я стал перепрыгивать с места на место и допрыгал до подъезда. Зайдя в подъезд, я сразу оказался на 2 этаже, где он живёт. Дверь в соседскую квартиру была открыта. Я позвонил в квартиру друга, и стал ждать, пока он откроет. В соседней квартире была девушка. Она увидела меня, и поманила к себе, чтобы я зашёл. Я не стал этого делать. Тогда она попыталась подойти ко мне и схватить. Я оттолкнул её. Тут друг открыл дверь, и я забежал в его квартиру, предварительно захлопнув дверь перед носом той соседки. На этом сон закончился, и я проснулся и почувствовал, что у меня болит рука. Было такое чувство, будто она вышла из своего тела и никак не может встать на своём месте. Точнее не рука, а сама ладонь минуты две-три, где то продолжалось такое ощущение, потом прошло.

Выводы:
1. Друг превратился в объёмную тень.
2. Сам друг со мной не разговаривал. Персонаж "соседка друга" тоже не разговаривала.
3. Картинка сна теряла свои качества, становилось нечёткой. Сумел возвратить чёткость с помощью
а) сжигания персонажа тени
б) Смотрения на руки.
4. На руках во сне было много линий. Почувствовал боль в руке. Продолжил ощущать боль и в реале, после просыпания. Скорее всего просто отлежал руку под подушкой.
5. Земля поднималась из-под ног и мешала идти.
6. Взлететь не получилось.
7. Зашёл в подъезд и сразу оказался на втором этаже
8. Агрессивное поведение соседки друга. В реале девушка мне не знакома.
9. Место действия: мой двор, соседний двор слева.
10. Примерное время нахождения в ОСе 5 минут.


2 LD Friend-shadow (September 2011)

I was in a dream in my yard. I realized that this is a dream. My friend was next to me. I began to think to do it. I went up to a friend and asked him to bring me to his home. To do this, I took his hand. He led me. Only for some reason we did not go into his yard, but went around the house. The picture of dream began to fade. I thought that this was not my friend, and he wants my dream to end. A friend began to gradually look like a shadow. I grabbed this shadow and burned in the sun. The picture of dream regained its properties. I went further around the house. The dream picture began to fade again. I remembered that I read: "in order to extend the LD you need to look at your own hands." I looked at them. They differed from real hands in that there were many lines on them. My arm hurt and I lowered them. The picture of dream has improved. I decided to get to a friend’s house. I had to cross the road to get to his porch. I walked normally along the road, but then the ground began to rise from under my feet. I tried to fly over her, but nothing came of it. Then I began to jump from place to place and jumped to the entrance. Entering the porch, I immediately found myself on the 2nd floor where he lives. The door to the neighboring apartment was open. I called my friend’s apartment and waited for him to open. There was a girl in the next apartment. She saw me, and beckoned to me to come. I did not do that. Then she tried to come up to me and grab. I pushed her away. Then a friend opened the door, and I ran into his apartment, previously slamming the door in front of the nose of that neighbor. This ended the dream, and I woke up and felt that my arm hurts. It felt like she had come out of her body and could not stand in her place. More precisely, not a hand, but the palm itself for two or three minutes, where such a feeling continued, then it passed.

Findings:
1. A friend has turned into a volumetric shadow.
2. The friend himself did not talk to me. The character "friend of the neighbor" also did not speak.
3. The picture of dream was losing its quality, becoming fuzzy. Managed to restore clarity with
a) character burning shadow
b) Hand looks.
4. On hands in a dream there were many lines. I felt pain in my hand. I continued to feel pain in real life, after waking up. Most likely I just laid his hand under the pillow.
5. The earth rose from under the feet and prevented walking.
6. Take off did not work.
7. I went into the staircase and immediately appeared on the second floor
8. Aggressive behavior of a neighbor of a friend. In real life, the girl is not familiar to me.
9. Location: my yard, the neighboring yard on the left.
10. The approximate time spent in the LD 5 minutes.

Bed time routine: screens off at 10, in bed by 10:30. Drank honey and MCT oil mixture with tea brewed from Calea Z, mugwort, damiana, bobinsana, blue lotus. No galantamine or DreamLeaf supplements this time (wanted to see how the herbs alone afffected me). Mindfulness meditation just before sleep.

I'm in a house with some strangers in an unfamiliar city. Someone was coming for us,but right as they arrived I slipped out, walking right by them and acting natural. They come for me, and I cannot escape. They threaten me, I don't know why. I wake up, 1:55 AM
I am with my sisters, Lisa and Tina. They are taking me somewhere, even though I am tired. I sleep in the backseat of the car. We arrive at a swimming pool, they jump in without me. I jump in next, but I jump too far and am above the concrete on the other side; I float back to the center, and am not falling into the water, so I push from the ceiling into the pool. When I climb out, there are other people in the pool, and I'm self concious of the way they look at my scars. I remember I had my tattoos in this dream.
I tell Tina that the gravity above the pool wasn't working right, and that I had to check to make sure this was in fact real. I look at my hands. OH! LOOK HOW MANY FINGERS! This is in fact, a dream! Tina doesn't seem excited by this revelation. I tell Lisa, she thinks I'm being weird. "Thats why the gravity didn't work! And thats why YOU (Lisa) aren't pregnant right now! None of this is real! My right eye closes, and the dream starts going dim. I ask Tina to lead me back to the car because I can't see. On the way to the car, my vision is replaced with a 3DS screen map, showing my location and movement. I try to explain this to my uninterested sister as we step into the car. Except now its a train car, its WWII era, many men and women sit in the car with us. Everything is so vivid. To my right, a very young and handsome Steve Rogers orders some food from the lady with the trolly. He turns to me and smiles. I know dream are all about expectations, so I try very hard to believe that he will kiss me. The dream fades and I wake up. 5:54 am.
Back in the dream, I immediately look at my hands. Too many fingers. I'm at the pool again, but as I leave it is now a restaraunt.I am old, and make a scene so that we will get kicked out. I lose lucidity as I follow the dream plot. We leave and are now shopping for shirts. I have to pick something for my husband, he is helpless. Also younger. I am now myself, in line to buy a shirt. A young boy is in line ahead of me, trying to use a credit card. The cashier asks for ID, and he shows her a picture of an ID on a tablet. She asks again if this is really his card. He admits its a joke, but she pushes a button and an alarm goes off. We are now waiting for the police. The people behind me are crowding, and I ask them to back off. An attractive girl with turquise braces and several tattoos apologizes. I compliment her tats, we have a conversation about them. I tell her I love the little peace sign she has, that I want something similar, that I want it to be a reminder for me to Smile and Breathe. I wake up (6:55), and draw the peace sign on my hand. I've been trying to figure out what symbol to use for this reminder, and the dream has just given me the perfect idea.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I'm about to fall asleep and I see a very detailed picture for just a fragment of time. It was an open risifrutti with a spoon in it. I couldn't have made that picture up myself I think. I think that I might succed in seeing some more pictures or HI since I haven't had any memorable experiences yet. There are waves of white coming sideway over my closed eyes after some time and my left arm is getting some big sensations, alsmost like itches all over my arm but more dull, but nothing spectacular.

I'm with my little cousin David. We are hanging out and watching a serie. I'm not sure but I think I was in the action of an episode we were watching for some time. I know that it was a really long dream and I'm frustrated I can't remember more.

Possible recurring elements: My cousins, TV

Notes: I only slept three hours three nights ago so I had to stabilize my sleep scheme and havn't written since. I'm starting small with this little dream but tomorrow I will have much more to write! I also read Sageous WILD Session 1: Mental Prep Part A and did some reverse RC yesterday. I noticed that I always moved my tounge when I repeated my mantra a week ago and thought that it might disturb my WILD because you are supposed to relax your whole body. I have trained to think without moving my tounge since and I'm really getting better. I tried seing the text instead of moving my tounge but it's really hard. Is it just me having troubles with my tounge?

10 августа 2011
Проснулся ночью. После сна некоторое время не мог заснуть. Вспомнил про метод прерываемого сна. Подумал, что теперь смогу увидеть ОС. Итак, я заснул.
Нахожусь в какой-то комнате. Темно. Рядом висит автомобильное зеркало. Мельком увидел своё отражение, и понял, что я во сне. Решил осмотреть своё отражение, чтобы узнать отличаюсь ли я во сне от своего реального облика. Рассматриваю и думаю: "Да нет, вроде не отличаюсь. Только под правым глазом пятно какое-то". Когда проснулся, понял, что отражение всё равно чем-то отличалось. Далее я отодрал это зеркало, и поставил себе цель вернуться в предыдущий сон, точнее к людям того сна.
Оказался на улице. Мне кто-то сказал, что нужные мне люди находятся в доме, в квартире. Я зашёл в дом. Поднимаюсь по ступенькам – тупик. Выше ещё ступеньки есть. Перелез туда – опять тупик. «Да, наяву такую архитектуру не построить». Пришлось подниматься по перилам, для того чтобы перепрыгнуть на верхние ступеньки. Вылез на площадку. На площадке было две квартиры. В одной была открыта дверь. Зашёл туда. Вижу стул. А на стуле свою одежду: шорты и футболка. Оказывается я голый. Одел их. Зеркало в моих руках изменило форму – стало круглым, и чуть больше ладони. Непонятно каким образом я его держал.
Увидел в комнате мамину одежду. Стал искать маму. Зашёл в другую комнату. Там было темно. Сама комната превратилась в мою спальню. Я посмотрел в зеркало, перед тем, как выйти из комнаты. Увидел в отражении маму. Развернулся – никого нет. Попытался нащупать руками то место, где стояла мама – пусто.
Выхожу в зал. За дверью у стенки вижу свою маму. Решил проверить её на зеркало. Но вместо того, чтобы смотреть через отражение, навёл зеркальной стороной на неё. Понял свою ошибку. Посмотрел в отражение. Увидел вместо мамы человекообразное тело. На самом теле была огромная непропорциональная голова в форме сердца с большими красными глазами. Заметив, что её разоблачили, она пошла на меня. Я как то сверху накрыл её зеркалом. Получился этакий зеркальный колпак, из которого она не смогла выбраться. После этого проснулся.

Выводы:
1. Осознался с помощью техники прерванного сна.
2. Зеркало - признак сна. Висело не понять на чём. Изменяло форму. Отражение немного отличалось. Зеркальный колпак на персонаже.
3. Лестница - признак сна. Невозможная в реале архитектура.
4. Одежда - признак сна. В начале сна был одетым. Потом оказался голым. Заново оделся.
5. Персонаж мамы превратился в существо в форме сердца.
6. Место действия: мой дом.
7. Примерное время нахождения в ОСе 5 минут.

August 10, 2011

Woke up at night. After sleep, I could not fall asleep for some time. I remembered about the method of interrupted sleep. I thought that now I can see the LD. So, I fell asleep.
I am in a room. Dark. Nearby is a car mirror. I caught a glimpse of my reflection, and realized that I was in a dream. I decided to examine my reflection in order to find out if I am different in a dream from my real appearance. I consider and think: “No, I don’t seem to be different. Only under the right eye there is some kind of stain.” When I woke up, I realized that the reflection was somehow different. Then I tore off this mirror, and set myself the goal of returning to the previous dream, or rather to the people of that dream.
I appeared on the street. Someone told me that the people I need are in the house, in the apartment. I went into the house. Climbing the stairs - a dead end. There are still steps above. Climbed there - again a dead end. “Yes, it’s impossible to build such an architecture.” I had to climb the railing in order to jump to the upper steps. Crawled out to the site. There were two apartments on the site. One door was open. I went there. I see a chair. And on the chair his clothes: shorts and a T-shirt. It turns out I'm naked. I put them on. The mirror in my hands changed shape - it became round, and a little more than a palm. It is unclear how I held him.
I saw my mother’s clothes in the room. I began to look for mom. I went into another room. It was dark there. The room itself turned into my bedroom. I looked in the mirror before leaving the room. I saw my mother in reflection. Turned around - no one. I tried to feel with my hands the place where my mother stood - empty.
I go out into the hall. Behind the door by the wall I see my mother. I decided to check it on the mirror. But instead of looking through the reflection, I directed the mirror side at her. I understood my mistake. I looked in reflection. I saw a humanoid body instead of my mother. On the body itself was a huge disproportionate heart-shaped head with large red eyes. Noticing that she was exposed, she went to me. Somehow I covered her with a mirror from above. The result was a sort of mirror cover from which she could not get out. After that I woke up.

Findings:
1. Confessed using the technique of interrupted sleep.(dream).
2. A mirror is a sign of sleep. Hanging did not understand what. Changed shape. The reflection was a little different. Mirror cap on the character.
3. Stairs - a sign of sleep. Impossible architecture in real life.
4. Clothing is a sign of sleep. At the beginning of sleep was dressed. Then I was naked. Dressed again.
5. Mom’s character has become a heart-shaped creature.
6. Location: my home.
7. The approximate time spent in the OS 5 minutes.

I am hanging out with co-workers and getting to know somebody who’s apparently just been hired. Her name is Marie, and she’s from Canada. In addition to working here, she’s a grad student working on a music degree, which she's now almost done with. She's currently working on the composition that will be her thesis. She shows it to me – via some sort of electronic device, I think.

The music is notated on manuscript paper, but instead of the usual note shapes, there are little horizontal rectangles that stretch out for as long as the note is held, rather like a midi display. The inside of each rectangle is patterned in ways that indicate something about the music. I hear it in my head as I read, with the patterns calling up images and connotations in relation to it.

The first bar begins with two long Gs an octave apart played by instruments in the violin family – I don’t identify them explicitly in the dream, but given that it’s written in the bass clef, almost certainly cellos. The rectangles contain the patterns signifying darkness and light. The impression this makes is hard to describe. Poignant, maybe – a suggestion of a cavernous space vast enough to hold them both at once. It continues, but I can’t remember the part after that so well.

16.5.20

du, dudududu, dududududuuuu dududu dudududuuu du du du du du,

du dudududu dudududu, dududududu, dududu, dududu, dududu du dudududu, dududududu

dudududu dudududu dududu dududu dududu dududu dudududu dududu!

du, dudududu du du dududu dududududu dududududu, du, dududu dududududu, du, dududu, dudududu du, I love this part, dudududu dududu du dudududu dududu dudu!

dududu, dududu dudu du, du, dududu dududu dudududu dudu dudu! Du, dududududu, dududududu du ~~

hey what a nice place

*candles blown out*

GAHHHH ITS SO CREEPY

"just kidding"

WTF

Black men pray for something so I bless the rains down in Africa. Except in Chinese style.

Normal | Dream | Lucid Dream

Same routine, screens off at 10, mindful bed time routine including taking melotonin, raw honey and MCT oil drink, and mindfulness meditation on Headspace (Free year for the unemployed!). I made a dream plan, slept on my right side (which actually helps!) and by 11 I was already asleep.

I'm with Ivy, hanging out. We settle in to watch a movie and I lay my head on her lap, she strokes my hair. I kiss her softly, her lips grazing mine felt very real. Dream fades.
I'm in my apartment, doing something in my bedroom. My waterbottle was scewered by something and is leaking water. I take it to the kitchen to pour the water in the sink. The sink is full of dirty water. I drink from my bottle, the water is dirty. I think thats not right, so I do a RC. This is a dream! I announce CLARITY a few times until I'm satisfied with the sharpness of the dream. I walk around my apartment, knowing I had a plan to fly tonight. I see my cat Elton trying to get my attention and following me; this is the first time I've ever seen him in a dream but I ignore him, worried he might do something freaky if I pay too much attention to him.
I visualized a beautiful dreamscape that night before going to sleep, so I try to close and open my bedroom door to lead me there. I try a few times but the door keeps opening to my room instead. The dream starts to fade but I stop what I'm doing, and restabilize by rubbing my hands together and looking around me. I try the door a few more times and still nothing.
I wake up in bed, Elton wakes up next to me. He's very energetic and excited considering its 3:30, and cuddles me and starts purring, and I wonder if he was really there in the dream with me. I take my usual supplements (galantamine, red DreamLeaf pill). I decided to try Niacin as I saw it listen on DV and had some on hand. WHAT A MISTAKE. Before I'm able to fall asleep, I'm already burning and itching all over. My remaining sleep is troubled.
I'm in my apartment, I get up, go to the freezer for icepacks. I lay back in bed with icepacks all over my body to relieve the INTENSE BURNING AND ITCHING I feel all over.
Another dream, I check on Google how long a Niacin flush lasts.
Last dream, three teenagers are sitting along a fence in the sun. They took Niacin, like they were doing drugs together. The girl in the middle is freaking out because of how hot and itchy she is. Me too, girl. Me too.
I wake up at 6am, can't sleep any longer. Niacin was a terrible idea. Since my only LD came before I took my supplements, I'll try only honey and MCT oil tonight and see what my results are like.
Also, what do you call it when you LD but you're in your apartment and it feels like real life? OBE? Astral Projection? False Awakening? This has happened before, and leads to some very boring LDs.

I’m coming home to Mom’s after having left Melissa’s. Ryan’s car is backed into the driveway and I see him out front. I think I get mad and yell at him, causing an altercation. I’m still in my car and he is on foot, so I start driving after him. He sprints away, which I find funny, but I am genuinely trying to hit him. I think he is now gone and I am on foot and picking up some things he has left by a mailbox. Now, I’m in the house and at the table with Mom and some unknown dirty blond girl probably a few years older than me. I can tell that her personality is not all that attractive and somewhat prude and priggish. I think they’re discussing legal matters regarding the situation and I can’t tell if they’re on my side or his.




I am going to a Flowing Tide with the family. It seems to be in a room off of the main area of a casino or something. When we get in, the place is empty. I notice a sign saying that they open at 7 and at 8. I guess we’ve just missed the 7 o’clock cutoff, but a female server lets us hang out while she cleans. This room has all of the tables and chairs pushed against the walls. I notice all the crumbs on them and on the dark carpet. One of the staff hesitates for a moment, looking it over, looking exhausted. We’re now sitting, and Sage is here. We’ve both ordered beer. Mine is a pint of something autumnal? that is really not all that great. Sage’s is a bomber of a dark/strong beer. I try it, needing two hands to lift the dark bottle, and it is good. It is bitter, but that seems to be the point, and I end up wishing I got this instead. The family is going on a hike after this, but Makayla and I have gone to the wrong spot. The correct spot was right above the Flowing Tide, but we went a little ways away (I think I drove). There is something about Makayla still wanting to do this hike and me just picking her up later. I’m trying to stick to the plan/just go with the flow, and this just seems like an inconvenience.




I am in a bathtub with two men and two women around my age, all unfamiliar, all nude. I don’t think there is any water in the tub, and it’s also just big enough for us all. There seems to be some kind of glass partition around the tub, and the tub seems to be in a bar?room where there are other people. I think we can see out but they can’t see in. I am touching one of the men now; his penis is thick but very short, not sticking up very far past his patch of pubic hair. I seem to be mostly pulling on the skin, and I don’t think it feels that good for him. I touch the other now; his penis is a bit larger and I think I do a better job. Now, a new blond and slightly pudgy girl is here (and I think the others are gone). I’m still naked as she coats my flaccid penis in some black liquid and then sucks it off. I don’t think I like her or this.




I’m in bed with Melissa and we’re talking. She asks what kind of science? I like, and I tell her dreams, music, and space.

Brittney is looking to rent a house with me since I think I have expressed that I’m looking. She’s wasted no time, and we are pulling up at the house. This house looks more like a school building it is so large. There are two separate buildings, the smaller of which we are parking directly in front of. The main building is off to the left a bit. I think this one in front of the ~4 parking spaces must be a guest house. Both are of a darker brown wood, angular and modern but not gaudy. From this parking spot I can see up into a space in the main building. It looks like a giant pool room. The walls are an antique looking white stone and vast; the ceiling is thirty or so feet high. The far wall has a large mirror that reflects a chandelier. I am taken with it and take a quick picture. We now go inside to tour the place. There is a middle aged black lady wearing some kind of headwrap who has 1-2 boys and is still currently living here. This house has an absurd amount of rooms, but they are all decorated modestly. It is almost an odd juxtaposition to the opulence of the house itself. I begin looking at rooms more thoroughly. I notice a few bathtubs. One room has a circular nook and tub with currently drawn curtains, which I like. It seems this entire room is just for the bathtub. There is an area that looks like a hallway, except it dead ends at a wall with a small, square window.it is inclined at 10 degrees or so, yet there is a long, dark wood dining table. Intrigued at this, I pull a chair out to envision how this would or wouldn’t work. I notice the lady watching me down at the other end and become self conscious, but she’s probably thinking it’s good that I’m involved/invested. I know that she is going to bed soon (even though I think it’s only around 9pm) so I quickly look at one more room (a bedroom with a walk-in closet and tub - almost like Dad’s) and we leave. I think the plan is for it to be me, Melissa, Brittney, Carlos, and Kestlie, so the rent will be manageable.




I’m on what looks like an apartment balcony with Laynie and I think Melissa and Laynie’s mom. Laynie’s baby is here too, only about six inches tall and playing around on Laynie’s shoulder. Laynie is completely topless, which strikes no one as odd, if we even really notice. The kid goes to give me a high five and I raise my hand to where she can’t possibly reach, then bring it to rest on Laynie’s shoulder because it is the closest thing. I think for a second we both thought I almost set it on her breast and both make a jokingly relieved face.




I’m up on a rocky outcropping on a hill, right at the crest of where a small river/stream becomes a sort of flume. It seems natural, but I think there are three different channels of stone. There are two other men here, somewhat older than me and Asian, I think. We are finding certain stones to send down the flume. These stones are tan and somewhat translucent (kind of a tan quartz) and they float. I’m breaking them off a larger section of stone, I think having more trouble finding the right ones than they are. I think they float down to a town and then do something. It seems dark out.

I am in my bed at Mom’s. I am going to sleep or have been sleeping. I think Ryan lives here. He comes in here, and it is so dark that I barely see him but rather sense him. He exudes malevolent sarcasm as he says something to taunt me. He then leans over and kisses my arm, his lips sickeningly wet. Smiling as he thinks he’s won, he leaves with another remark. Now I think it is the next day. I am going to covertly find some boxes, pack my things, and leave within the day.