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I had a lot of dreams. Some of them were very short. However I realize that the short ones were perhaps very close to lucid, drifting between awake and sleep. I was lucid in a few.

D1 NSFW? Maybe don't read.
I was headed to Scarborough. I had went over to a friend's house and slept over. I slept on the left side of his bed. We played some video games upon awakening. He randomly decided to cut off his member though and he was pretty nonchalant about it. He goes to the dining area first. I check the room and it was still there, I inspect it and it appeared real. I leave the room to find him and his mom&grandma there. They were pretty calm about their (grand) child and what he did earlier. They just commented he could go to the hospital later to get it reattached. Lol. They were more worried about me and asked if I got a cold. I said I'm fine I been doing wim hof method in the snow and I'm indestructible. They then asked if I went to a clinic earlier and I recalled I did earlier in the dream. Apparently there was a fraud doctor or something spreading a virus around. And they told me to be careful.

Wake

Lucid
I was meeting up with my friend Lucy. She asked me to pick her up. I am driving up an intersection surrounded by apartments. Few of her friends were there too on the street. I pick her and her friends up and then turn left. There's a parking lot there and I am driving forward, I begin to lose control of the car. But I just felt like I, it's hard to explain. I felt like a little fear about losing the control of the car, but I felt my meditation practice kick in, and it began to calm my emotions. I thought "why am I scared?" so I let go of fear. And that question made me realize I was in a dream as I drove backwards.

Wake

I was an elementry student. In a train station. It was open instead of subway underground. I was being squeezed in the center of all the students.

Wake

(10+dreams here, hard to read)

Lucid sponge
I think I was underground. I saw a spongy thing that reminded me of SpongeBob, and I am lucid then wake.

Lucid
I was in a similar place to before underground and wet kind of like sewers but not smelly. More like dam filtration maybe. Some classmates are going skinhead (influenced by a skinhead character from a story, likely). The boys and girls begin to praise triangles and why they are so amazing. This humors me and my emotions make me lucid. I am looking at the classmates and ask them to make me omnilucid. They begin cheering now, "yay, now you're omnilucid!", hands raised upon the air. I am elated and jump too high and FA.

I am now in class. I remember I was dreaming so I'm trying really hard to dj. The class activity is disturbing my djing so I said screw it and began to dj, while people around me were talking about their family or how shitty the school was.

Wake

Dreaming about a bounty hunter. FA. Was dreaming about trying to dj, while in basketball court.

Awake

I was headed to a hospital to visit a friend or family. I get to the patient room. I am visiting the person but the patient behind me is going nuts. His eyes are rabid and bloodlusted. He goes into a frenzy and wrecks things around him. Everyone is the hospital is escaping and I do too. I think I saw a girl there who had no clue what was going on. So I grab her and take her away. We rode a roller coaster to get away from everything. Hopefully this Das not a zombie apocalypse. I get her to a safe place now and we go our separate ways. Now I'm headed underground again. Similar to the previous sewage or something. There were some people in a large cell, it was open and they were watching a tiny square TV. One of them was peculiar though. He was a watcher or something. Like a joker. One man approaches me for a money making offer. He wanted to steal the treasure that the joker was hiding and wanted me to help him. I agreed. The rogue steals the treasure from the joker and rides on a steel bar elevator. I grab ahold of the elevator while outside it so I could distract the joker a little. He's more of a marionette, automatically moving sort of. We get away safely though. It could only stay underground. The rogue is happy with what he got and offers me 33 bags of goods. He parts. 33 bags were a lot. It filled the whole street that was right beside a fenced lake. Detectives are suspicious of me.

Wake

I am back in the scene. The detectives wanted to test my knowledge. I was suppose to combine electronics together to form a new one. Just by pressing them together. I formed a couple but the material they gave me were not sufficient. They were trying to trick me I feel.

Wake

I was going around town. I think with the girl from the earlier hospital dream. We went around to public bath, electronics store(looked like future shop).. Etc. Went around the town twice, was before noon in the beginning and night time by the end.


Notes :

I think I missed noting a lot of dreams. I lost count, maybe 20-30. I dreamt and woke and dreamt and woke. Perhaps some were FA. Should have rc'ed. Might be a good thing as it's likely close to lucidity state.

I think what I should do is to once again meditate in my dream. Try to dedicate one whole dream to just meditating. I belive it will help me stabilize it more; meditation will likely relax me more and stop me from waking up as much.

I also wanted to experiment with loctus.

Overall I'm happy that I'm improving.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening


There is a new Bond movie, within the Daniel Craig 007 universe, but only with secondary characters. Judi Dench is M again which I love but I am so disappointed that Daniel Craig is not in the movie that I curse it.

With Zilla in some deserted place that looks like under a bridge with hideouts. We are supposedly passing by quickly and discreetly, trying to stay safe in an unsafe area, but we spot a couple of bad looking fellas taking an interest in us. She decides we go around them instead of heading straight, to confuse them. But in the meantime we lose sight of them and she says in panic that they are after us. She locks herself in one of a couple little rooms or compartments that exist under this bridge. She didn't say a word but I think she expects me to hide in the next one. But the other one's door is stuck and I just entrap myself there. The two men just appear behind me and they make dirty comments and look at me with bad intentions. I tell them they have to fight me first. Only one fights me, as they think he alone can take me down, but soon I am kicking him hard on the ground. I have steel reinforced boots so he is in deep pain. Then the other guy threatens me with death and he calls out for a whole bunch of guys as back ups. They manage to restrain me and make me their prisoner to torture me a bit psychologically before killing me. One of them is actually a nice guy but kinda stupid and the others take advantage of them. I am trying to bond with him to see if he helps me. One day there is a big kerfuffle between them and I have one chance to run away, but a Chinese dude spots me reaching for the door and tries to kill me with darts. I defend myself with something I use as shield, but I still get hit by a few and feel the pain. I jump a window and realize I was on a train. I find myself at a railroad passage where lots of cops and locals are gathered because people are protesting a construction company destroying some riverbed nearby. They are wrecking a natural protected ecosystem with the support of the municipality and people are outraged. I mingle with them but anyway, the train with the bad guys is long gone.

Had a couple of very short lds.

Ninja
The first dream was hard to recall. I'd actually forgot what the dream was about but luckily I had noted it on dj. But the last few words were hard to read. I was a little ninja in some wooden mansion. Perhaps it's the same place from previous ninja dream.

Wooden apartment
I was in an apartment the walls were dark wood. There was also a little girl the. She stood out.


Wbtb

Visualized square had a couple of very vivid hypnogogics. The problem was that I needed to pee very badly. That was too bad since I had ld from similar hypnogogics. But I was definitely sure I was very close to ld.

Hypnos+dream
I was reading a comic.

I was in a restaurant. My parents had been there. They were tipping the waiter and I decided to add 2 dimes.

Volume key not working for phone something.


Computer lab lucid
I was in front of a computer and became lucid. But immediately awoke.

Warehouse, black haired girl
I was laying down in a warehouse looking up at the ceiling. It was white and textured like asphalt and it had blue writings on it. My surroundings transforms into a gymasium. My dad crouching to my right. A young guy comes out from the door on the left side. He asks if we are OK. The location changes. They are gone. I realized I am in a dream since it was sudden. I realize my emotions are getting excited and the dream is vibrating, so I focus on relaxing. I get up. I see a little girl with black hair standing away from me at the end of the gym. Bad vibes. Decided to get away. I jump up high and through the ceiling.

Wake

Monorail gym
I'm inside a gym inside a monorail (or kind like the thing you ride to the top of ski hill) at the top of the gym. There were a guy and girl flirting to the left. I am looking forward now and its a basketball court. I am playing with a laser and it's my eyes that are shooting lasers. The lasers remind me what I was doing earlier, visualizing square. and Im lucid.

Wake up as the rail gets to the end


Notes:
My initial dreams recall was bad. I'm really sure it's because I was dehydrated from eating too salty of foods. It gave me a slight headache. After wbtb I drank water and ate and things seemed clearer, although short still got lucid.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

Vacationing with some family members in a resort. My late uncle Zé and my aunt invite me to a walk at some waterfalls in a mountain. But it is really cold and I argue that it is better to stay by the fireplace and there is an indoor heated pool I really want to try, So I stay there, But I don't relax because I am attacked by Chinese assassins, One of them is a genetically enhanced clone of another one. I still beat her. Then some other dude attacks me, but I knock him down and he bleeds badly from his head. I feel compassion and concern for him and offer to help him. He is conscious and gets up. Refuses my help and says he has a place nearby where he can get medical help. I still walk with him until this place. Basically we get to a checkpoint where hundreds of people try to get in, but it is not into a nice place. It is actually the underworld where criminals and outcasts go to. He goes straight to the gate guards and they allow him in immediately.

This was one of the most amazing if not the most amazing dream I have had to date bar none. It was unmatched in terms of clarity, although it was not the longest, it was the most continuous, without time gap in the story. Although I was not lucid the duration of the dream, according to my ld mentor I was indeed lucid, albeit very small bit of lucidity. I was conscious the entire duration of the dream and not one moment of it was skipped and I managed to deild back into it after I woke up once.


The beginning part is hazy, I was conscious and everything was clear as daisy but it was difficult to remember since there were so many events happening before I could wake up.


I was in high school or something that was similar but it was not the one where I antedated it was much more cheerful and bright in contrast to the dim dungeon-like one I had the pleasure of attending. The dream was very quite long. How it felt real time was 2-3 days. I remember this was after a wbtb.

*I recalled now that I was exploring the school, the right side of the school had a graveyard and that was where I'd met the Russian mobster. I remember it was dark outside, it looked like 7-9pm.

The earlier part of the dream I spent running away. I had gotten mixed up with a guy from the Russian gang and he was out to get me. I was getting away and going deeper into the high school building but it slowly morphed into something else. It became a science research lab, sort of. It was an extra-self improvement building where people could pay to have their physical body or mental skills etc edited for a fee. I found a friend, Mary from high school there. She was more beautiful than I ever remembered. I adored the natural beauty, unblemished by excessive makeup that plague us right now. Regardless, she was now a movie star and played the heroine of a movie. I had seen the movie earlier in my dream and she had professed her love to me. Asked her about it, and she told me it was a lie, but I Knew better. I leave her behind and I am proceeding deeper into the science center with 2 guys. Owe are riding on a device that's like a water park ride. But it was not a watermark. It was just segregating people based on their predisposition or so. One of the guy went down into the hole to right right. The other to the left. I circled around and went to the one that was left and behind me. I went under the tunnel, down and way under. Until I reached a mind-reprogramming center . They would “edit” your mind with electrical signals or pulses to the brain to unlock hidden potential of the human mind. Like hyper-intelligence or ESP. All the people laid back on a recliner made up entirely of metal wires, the wires were 1/3 inch thick, perhaps they ere metal to better conduct electric inputs. We rode the recliners and proceeded forward.


It was amazing experience. They opened up things within us. It was akin to the matrix where Neo had learned random Knowledge sort of thing. I was buzzing with amazing energy, vibrating. The experience ended however,and the staff told us to leave to the right. This was a trial program and not the full course brain reprogramming. Those of us who were on the trial were lead down to a large area. We needed to walk forward to leave the place. However it was some sort of government agency that would brainwash you to make you forget about the experience here. Only the VIP could keep the abilities. I pretended to be brainwashed and proceeded. I saw my subconscious before me, being objectified. One that stood out especially was narcissism, she was a medallion with a woman's face carved unto it. The more I let go of my mind into wandering, the bigger she got. I relaxed as per my meditation practices and stabilized everything. I proceeded to the right side, there was an exit for us and there was a holographic neck& torso imagery of a human body. There were a couple of them and each one had an arrow or a road point you towards it. They were offering body-modification programs, hormone replacements, hormone-enhancements, etc to those who would pay. There was the issue about something bad I did years back. The AI interface of the place told me that I'd suffer 72-hours of mental slowness.


I awake. The body enhancement thing were futuristic and perhaps sci-fi was realistic... I decided to go back into the dream.


I am once again back into the chair. I see a couple of people in front of me sitting in the wired recliner and they were compartmentalized and put to sleep. Those were their sleeping quarters. I got up to leave. I was actually interested in the body modification thing from earlier. For me, they had described a path of body mod/transfer that only a select few could attain. So I went to the staff lady at the special area to ask her about it. There were a couple of others about 5 of them interested in the same thing. She showed us and told us these were the most amazing bodies that you could transfer or modify your body into if you wished... She asked me which one I wanted...


I said “I want the most beautiful and the strongest body"


She replied, “So you would want the First Sun”


I was curious. I was so intrigued and wanted to know what the first sun was. Was it an actual body referred by a code name? As in a human body, or was it a planetary body? I was very bewildered and excited about the idea of becoming/experiencing a planetary body in a dream,or if this was a human body I was indeed interested in it likewise. She was directing me towards the secret backroom. The First Sun, I was so excited to see/experience/become it.


I awake and open my eyes.








Notes: I did wild kind of, the square visualization. MILD + SW.

Morning of September 13, 2019. Friday.

Dream #: 19,261-01. Reading time (optimized): 1 min.



I enter an instinctually motivated dreaming experience of watching a train in Brisbane in the late morning (anticipation of vestibular modulation). Several unknown people are present. Instead of boarding it, I continue to stand in the area and watch it leave.

I decide I may get the train after all and manage to catch up when it makes a stop. The setting is now rural, and the train seems to have become a ramshackle shed. Welding sparks from an unseen welder scatter from beyond the other side of one corner to the right (neural synchrony).

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This dream stems from the same process as “Typewriter Train.” I was flying over a train that screeched and suddenly stopped. The front of the train was a giant black 1940s typewriter (potential cognitive arousal). The train had run out of track and dug slightly into the ground.

Another version of the same process occurred in “Helicopter Digger.” While a friend and I were fishing, a helicopter came down, and its rotor blades dug into the ground.

The first dream’s last scene is consciousness initiation and emerging from the dream state (neural synchrony in waking point modulation as emerging sparks as analogous with fire, lightning, and electricity).

The second dream is vestibular modulation transitioning to potential cognitive arousal, but with the association of needing physicality to relay information (typewriter). (The mind and body must connect to wake and move.)

The third dream is vestibular modulation transitioning to the anticipation (or desire) of returning to slow-wave sleep.

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February 2019

It´s a day and I am walking with parents of my girlfriend and some other two guys to a table nearby small lake. There are four chairs and I am taking the chair on one side and they are sitting on the other side in front of me. One of those who I didn´t know told me "You are the only one who can make it" I thought they are talking about being fully present in the moment and so I tried to really focus and suddenly everything around started to look so real just like these letters seem to be real to you and I felt amazing "I will heal you I will heal you all!" I said loudly..

H.

Morning of March 5, 2019. Tuesday.

Dream #: 19,069-04. Reading time (optimized): 1 min.



I stand in the early afternoon in an unknown location directly facing the propeller of a small white airplane. The propeller moves a short distance counterclockwise, but then it seems like it had not. I try to determine if it had by concentrating on the scene. I do not see a pilot, as the windows reflect blue sky and white clouds with a gray hue.

I consider the essence of a slipstream, though mainly, since childhood, my modulation of the imaginary physicality of dreaming has been about balance or hovering to sustain and vivify a dream. I know there would have to be no imagined physical contact (despite ordinary wall mediation using phasing). I feel a sense of movement, but wake.

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“Beautiful Sparkling Tornadoes” from this date was about phasing and slipstreams as well. It is the principal factor of dream entry and egress. (That dream had a fictitious author who wrote about unknown creatures coming through the slipstream to “threaten humanity,” though there was no threat to me.) I can assume (at an esoteric level) that a tornado is a primary vehicle of enigmatic space (when it models the virtual Merkaba), yet which I have modulated even in childhood with one of my favorite dreams of spinning a merry-go-round to counteract an oncoming tornado.

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dream type: liminal modulation of imaginary physicality, supraliminal imaginary slipstream (virtual Merkaba)

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Induction, dreaming, and waking processes stem from the same dynamics regardless of any personification or preconscious simulacrum. There is no vestibular system personification here, only me.

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2019, 09-12

Regular Dream - Video Game / Semi-lucid - Lucid Dream - Notes

Dark Tower: Algul Siento

I am in Thunderclap from the Dark Tower books. Roland, Eddie, Jake, and Susanna are all gathered in preparation for their assault on Algul Siento, which is where the breakers are being held while they work on breaking one of the remaining beams supporting the Dark Tower. I tell Roland that I can use a song to remove the brainwashing on the breakers, increasing the chances of them helping. Roland says no, that may help after but for now he didn't want the breakers helping, it would make it too hard to determine who the enemies are. Right now there are only a few people on our side, and anyone else coming at them with a weapon could be assumed to be an enemy. I agree to go along with that plan.

As we are talking I see MoSh arrive. He looks at me and says that Algul Siento has some serious giant spider problems, but don't worry about it... giant spider went squish. I am wondering if he means Mordred. If Mordred is dead that’s one fewer problems to deal with. I ask MoSh what happened with the giant spider but Roland says the horn will blow soon, signaling the change in shifts. He says we have to be in position by then. It seems MoSh and I don’t have a part in the plan since no one knew that we would be there, so we decide that MoSh and I will just do whatever we can to cause as much chaos among the guards, Can-Toi, and Taheen that we can. And try to keep the breakers safe.

I think I will stay with MoSh, but I see he has already gone off towards Algul Siento. I try to catch up with him but a couple of guards with guns get in my way. One of them has the head of a rat, the other looks to be human. The human says he doesn’t recognize me, the rat says he’s sure I’m not one of the breakers. I tell them I’m not a breaker, I’m a fus’er. They look confused, the human asks what a fus’er is. I say I’m glad he asked… FUS-RO-DAH! With a sound like thunder the two guards are thrown backwards and they slam into an electric fence, getting electrocution added to the fus’ing. I change my right arm into an Alex Mercer blade and cut through the three electric fences that surround Algul Siento.

Now the chaos begins. The horn sounds, signaling the changing of the shift. There are explosions from opposite sides of the small settlement. There is the sound of gunfire and someone is sending out a telepathic message to go South with your hands up and you won’t be hurt. I ignore that message, putting up a block so I won’t have to hear it so loud. I have my Alex Mercer blade formed, so I put it to use as some of the Taheen guards are going past me towards the sound of the gunfire. I don’t have a clear memory of the fight, but when it is ending I see the warden of this prison camp, Pimli Prentiss, lying on the ground, wounded. I see Susanna and Eddie celebrating. Then I see Pimli Prentiss raising a gun. This is where he shoots Eddie! I go and step on the hand raising the gun before he can lift it. I say he’s not going to shoot Eddie this time before using my Alex Mercer blade to remove his head.

I watch Susanna and Eddie embracing for a bit more and then I hear Sheemie running through the streets yelling at the top of his lungs that the beam says thank you, the beam says it’s not too late, all may still be well! This seems to have made Sheemie unbelievably happy. I see he is limping. I go to him and ask if he is hurt. He says his foot hurts a little, but not too bad, and the beam says thank you, all may yet be well! I tell him I want to look at his foot. He says there’s no need, but I insist. He takes off his slipper and I see a nasty cut on his foot. I focus healing energy on that injury, I remember in the book it became infected and Sheemie died from it. Now he won’t be dying from that at least. I wonder where MoSh has gone to. I look around for him for a bit but then I wake up.

I accidentally dragged the window and refreshed after writing the whole thing on phone. Gah! Just gonna write a few words.

Game event, pro friend, me bad. Karaoke mediocre. Nice bathroom, forced sex.

Left event. 2 attendants. I strip naked. Manager called. Divert manager with money making scheme. Drive away on black suv.

Scary mansion

Apartment. Kidnap? Old mansion. Thin girl naked. Dismembered lower body. Girl 5 days to live. Finding the culprit.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

At some city with a river and I do my daily travels with a little boat across it. I also use the boat as a tobogan on certain land areas. One day there is a competition for urban tobogan sliding and I rush to participate, but it is only guys and they mock me and bully me. But I join anyway.
Then there is some vice police that is annoying everybody, because typically this event is associated with a flourishing prostitution parallel business. The cops look at me sideways because women here usually are hookers and also I am half-naked because of my sports outfit which is a bit like a swimsuit.

At the university, about to have an History exam, but I am in the Biology department gathering stuff I have been leaving there. It's 5 minutes for the exam, but I want to leave everything neatly packed in boxes to pick them up later. I check the time and call a friend to ask for the room where the exam will be. She says it is 5 pm and the exam finished hours ago. I say it's impossible because 5 mins ago was about to be 2 pm.
I'm freaking out about my time lapse. I spill a cup of coffee that's on a table over another girl that is apparently taking a nap on a chair. She wakes up, I tell her about the exam and she tells me not to worry because all exams were delayed to next week and my friend was probably trolling me.

I notice that the cyst I have on my back is soft and squishy so I squeeze it. It moves down and stops at my hip. It drips really smelly gook when I touch it, so I go look for a bathroom. I can't find one and for some reason I end up on the street and realize I am fully naked now. The cyst now looks like the cocoon from where "the" Alien comes out and starts to open. A jelly gook with jelly eggs starts oozing. I squeeze to get it all out and also start spewing mushrooms, starfishes and octopuses. Then, closer to the end, tree leaves also come out and then it empties. I feel extremely light and I can't care less about being naked on the street.

There is a field with an underground system of bunkers that are joined together. At some points in the field low drum-like exit points jut out of the ground with a slit in them to serve as observation posts as well. At some point a few people escape from the bunkers (which are being invaded) and take shelter at an old hotel that feels like it belongs in a WW2 movie.

To china

I was supposed to go to China in this dream. I was to take a flight in a day or two. I'd first be taking the subways to the airport, then take the plane. But for some reason I'd stopped somewhere near downtown at a relative or an acquaintance's home to stop by overnight. I slept over at their house on the second floor bedroom but I was worried because I'd forgotten my cellphone. My mom was apparently going there on an earlier flight but how was I suppose to contact her now? I thought oh well, it'd work out somehow and went to bed. I hanged out with my friend Jack while at the house after.

-I feel like this was a couple of different memory events fused together into an abomination.

Supermarket Sashimi

I was at a supermarket. Shopping for groceries. While my family were looking at vegetables, I found the seafood section at the back. I grabbed ahold of a lobster and wanted to eat it as sashimi. I sliced off it's head and had a taste. It was salty and sweet - tasted like how I remembered. I looked away for a moment and the staff had taken away my lobster. I was slightly mad since I'd already paid for it and I only got one bite out of it.

-White floors, pretty clean supermarket. Maybe it was a chinese supermarket.*

-again it was a couple of old memories pieced together


WBTB

2 spiders, bikini, a little lucid

I found myself atop my bed laying down. It was my familiar bedroom and everything appeared normal. I got out of the bed and something got my attention. There was a spider on the ground to the right so I tried to abolish it. I think it got away. I headed to the bathroom and everything still appeared like my bedroom. But once when I was inside my bathroom I wasn't sure - I just felt like this was a dream. I stepped outside the bathroom door and tried to poke right finger through my left hand. It didn't work. I thought maybe I was wrong but I was 70% sure that I was dreaming. I found the drawer and it was at the same spot. There was a baby blue swim-wear there and I decided to try it on.

FA

I am in the bedroom again and I find the spider again. I try to get it and it got away again. I did another reality check here since I felt like it was a dream. Finger through hand again and it didn't work, but I didn't trust the RC- I was pretty sure it was a dream. Before I could scrutinize the environment any further I'd heard my dad's voice. I found him in one of the living halls and we spoke a little. He appeared so real so I think I lost lucidity around there.


not a Ukulele, fun diner music, castout

I was in a diner of a small town. It had nice wooden floors and tables to go along with them.I was seated towards the end of the diner where apparently a bunch of regulars were. A couple of them apepared to be musicians of a band and my attention was drawn to the string instrument that one of them had. It was small, like an ukulele but not really a ukulele. Google search showed me that it appeared to be similar to a instrument called a jiple. One of them saw me eyeing the instrument and told me to give it a try so I did.

It was a skinny ukulele shaped instrument. lie this < >==< (=( ) )> , but it wasn't an ukuele.

At first I tried playing it like a ukulele but it didn't sound right. But I let go of trying to play it like an uke and it began to sound better. I sang, not perfect but it was alright, getting better. I noticed a tiny crowd around me for some reason by the time I stopped singing and playing. They gave me the ok to keep playing so I did. This time I tried playing a song by Ricky Martin. I couldn't get the chords or make it sound how I wanted it to but I just let it be, and let the sounds and my fingers play what they wanted to play. And gradually I began to find my rhythm and I sang.

I sang, feeling the music until I found my sound. And before you know it the crowd got larger and they surrounded my nearby area. I saw and looked at the girl in front of me she had a dirty blonde hair with brown eyes, then I turned a little to the right and saw a a brown haired guy, he had long wavy hair and I think he was one of the musicians from earlier. I was just casually noticing the crowd around me as I sang and enjoyed my time, feeling alive. I had finished another song.

To the right side of the diner, or maybe it was a pub rather, people were talking about some Japanese tourists that were visiting this city. This city appeared to be the country side of North America, wouldn't be surprised to find cowboys here. Anyways I did not notice them since they were way to the right of the place, and my back was behind them while I sang. One of them had come and requested me to sing again. I was delighted and of course agreed. But I wanted to find another instrument though, and what do you know, his companions had brought along an instrument. I went over to their table to the right and took the string instrument. It looked like a ukulele so I tried playing it, but alas it was a different instrument yet again. This one was peculiar in that it had a partition between the middle of the four strings. But it sounded ok. And I told them I'd sing a song of my own for them. And so I did. Time flew by.

...

I was back in the diner, from where I sat earlier. There were a group of oldsters there. They were mostly the old men that were regulars of this pub/diner, there were a few younger people too. The dream plot tells me some time had passed. According to one of the young man with black spiky hair there, someone had secretly uploaded a video of me from earlier and I was exploding on youtube. There were some random people trying to find where I lived and how their quiet little town was now full of annoying foreigners. They all looked at me with stern eyes.

A gramps in front of me, slightly to the left with short, white hair and tan, wanted me to go away. He eyes said,

"you're famous now so go away."

All of their eyes said the same thing... Meanwhile the guy from earlier had mockingly said,

"everything you touch is turning into liquid gold."

I was crushed. I was sad because I knew what he meant by that. A meaning akin to king Midas, only begetting loneliness by his touch of gold. But I I wanted to speak up. So I turned my sadness into irritation and replied

"and what's wrong with that?"

But I didn't want to hide my true feelings and decided to open up my heart to speak how I really felt.

"I just came here to hang out with you guys... I missed you all and I... Love you. I love you all."

I started tearing up and slowly began to sob. A quiet rainstorm was I. They began to change their expressions and their eyes had now expressed a kinder tone. It was all a facade; they were pretending to hate me to get me to move on from the small town... So that I could see the world.

I awake, the mailman rang the doorbell a soon after


Notes:
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Shape of diner

l l\
l m l
l J l
l l \ \ \ \ Entrance
l O l
L ]
\ \
m- where the musicians sat
J - where the Japanese tourists sat
O - where the oldsters sat
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I feel like the 2 dreams before the WBTB might have been NREM dreams. Not sure why but it had that feeling. It was just less clear and events appeared to skip more often.

I know the RC failed because I had a seed of a doubt in my heart that it wasn't going to work. The finger through the hand is just a bad RC for me since I have previous negative experiences with it. However it was the one I could think of at that moment so that was what I did. Probably another RC would have worked during that period or would've worked also if I had repeated the RC a couple of times.

I just tried to relax more during wbtb than before. I think relaxation is pretty important.

I think I'm getting better.

*I believe that maybe if I were to close my eyes right as I try to push my finger through it might make it easier that that RC. Part of me may be queasy about the exact moment of pushing it through. Next time I will do that if I do that RC again.

Initially I forgot what I had dreamt at but I did recall a little.

VR village
I remember dreaming about VR stuff. A very-very old fashioned village and their villagers were experimenting with Virtual reality. Their roads were brown wet dirt and they wore brown colored clothes too, likely leather and plant materials. They were progressing technologically at rocket speed. Dream influenced by my interest in VR lately.

Thin Cavity
I found myself in the kitchen. Looked like the home kitchen with the familiar white flooring but the counter top was white too. Perhaps could have gotten lucid had I been more aware. But I was distracted - one of my teeth was cavity ridden and was falling off. The teeth had become so worn out it was thin like the scoop of a spoon and it was falling out. I found my mom there so I began to talk to her. Could be my interest in diy tooth powder or falling out of teeth could indicate changes in life.


Cliff, Old Giant

I was high up above. Not flying but I was on a cliff or mountain. The cliff was white not from the snow - it was not cold. Instead the cliff rocks were very jagged and bleached satin white by the intense sunlight. The cliff reminded me of Icarus, or perhaps the bright sunlight did so. It also reminded me of Prometheus, perhaps it was where he was punished. I felt like I was trapped in this area and proceeded to escape. Maybe I was Prometheus here.

( I may have escaped once during this part of the dream, and came back atop of the cliff again. I may have been just going around causing trouble during this period here)

I looked down the small cliff. There was an old man there. He carried white hair in somewhere between short-medium length along with a medium length beard to go along with it. He stood tall in a strong posture and he was built - massive muscles like an Olympian. He reminded me of Greek Olympian, since he covered himself in a white toga. There was something else about him. He was HUGE. He stood below the cliff and his head had reached nearly where I stood. He was the giant spoken of in myths and fairy tales. It was apparent that he was also the guardian of this place. I was under captive or was in a sort of "time out" because I've been behaving badly. And I'd escaped once already.

I grabbed a small boulder nearby, and threw it at him. It hit him squarely on the top of his head, slightly to the right and he was unphased and still looking at me. His stupidly unwavering smiling face got me irritated though so I grabbed ahold of a much larger boulder, the larges I could find and threw it at him again.

*gonk* it hit him right in the head again. Hoping that I could knock him unconscious and escape while he'd be out. Yet he stood still, looking right at me. The old giant kept looking at me and told me to "stop going around causing troubles."

I was semi-lucid again earlier, almost! But he seemed kind of an ok guy, and besides I felt bad for throwing bounders at him. Feeling "What's the worst that can happen in a dream?" kind of yet not fully lucid. So I listened to the old man's pleas and decided what the heck, and jumped down the cliff to go to where he wanted me to go. I thought he was going to direct me to a jail cell but I was facing a dark corridor now and I saw a bedroom through the door in front of me. I was getting a rapey vibe from the old man really. But in all honesty, probably just a trauma surfacing in the dream. And I was immediately teleported into a large bedroom.

The bedroom was very white, color wise. It was very square shaped instead of rectangle and the King sized bed that took up about 1/5 - 1/6th of the room. There was a small white chair there, round, so maybe a sofa chair; not comfortable enough to be a sofa but it was a round/square sitting apparatus like a sofa. There was a round and short coffee table beside the chair. The curtains, or the shutters rather, were closed and the room was rather dark, yet the sheer whiteness of everything in the room just reflected the leaking light from the curtains all over and made it feel not that dark. I was in trouble though.

I randomly began to feel vibrations from my nether regions for some reason. It had an orgasmic feeling but not really. Hard to describe. Just heat/vibration, slight pleasure. The vibration felt familiar but it was different. I don't know but somehow felt like I was welled up with power. It made me lucid, although very briefly. I decided to wake up since this was feeling uncomfortable. Stupid I know, but I am getting better. Next time I will remember to recall a dream goal or meditate.

So I awoke on top of a comfy bed. I was orgasming on the bed from the residual sensation from the dream. Maybe the most comfortable bed and sheets ever - like mellow white silk gently caressing my body while I was flipping out.

Yet I awoke again and realized it was FA.

*I realize now that this dream was very white, almost everything was white colored.

Notes

Progress = Good. Just gotta believe.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

I have a friend who is a hacker or whatever and he has done amazing things. I am part of his activist group. He is being searched for by the authorities, but he leaves in a really strange place. A 10 sq mt glass house on top of a storage room, in a park, by the side of a kindergarten. One day I come by to tell him they might have found him and tell him to at least shut all his curtains. I help him out and just then, a van with 3 suspicious people stop by the kindergarten. A lady is driving and the two dudes wear shirts with the kindergarten logo, but they carry metal suitcases and enter through some backdoor to a service area. Clearly they are here to spy on him. I tell him he needs to leave asap as they are just gathering info to send in a SWAT team or something, if it isn't already positioned. His front door doesn't even close properly. I ask him for some alternative exit and he opens a trapdoor to the storage beneath and from there, there is a back door they provably don't know about because it is invisible from the outside. Then we make a quick run to some trucks stopped a few meters away. But they already had some big guys surveying the area who spot us and come after us. They were taken by surprise, so we have a head start. We split and I enter a warehouse. More agents come and one lady surprises me with a taser. But I grab something like a metal lid from a shelf and protect myself from her shot. Then manage to go around her and snatch the taser from her. She struggles a bit but I manage to get it and hit her with it. Then another guy comes and is also tasered. Then another. I run away. There is some sort of heavy metal festival on the park outside. I run to the crowd but I don't mingle so well with the people which is mostly wearing black and covered in tattoos. There is a lesbian film festival going on at a building, after some food stands and I blend better with the ladies there, but they still spot me. I mingle with the crowd of the metal festival again and head to closer to the main stage, where there is more chaos. Then a bunch of people in black faux leather surround me and tell me to lay low and I understand they want to help. They effectively make a human shield hiding me from my chasers. They safely escort me like this to a safe place at the periphery of this festival and take me to meet some old lady with grey hair that looks a bit like Judy Dench, at some corridor of a service area of a building. She tells me they are going to help and that they will come to take me soon to a safe place, but for now they must release me again in he world. She asks me to stay inconspicuous for a few days. I ask what about my friends and she tells me not to worry because they are also taking care of it. Then they tell me to cross the door and go back out and I find myself in a hotel lobby.