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i was in my home town walking around in my back yard. i was trying to realize what i was doing outside. i went to my neighbors house and saw an older woman in bed sleeping so i left. i walked outside and there was a little girl just standing in the grass staring at me(she might have been the older woman's daughter). i stopped and we stared at each other. I started to feel more vivid and almost guilty(maybe for trespassing into her house). i realized i had to go to work so i ran across the street and entered an old rickety house, which resembles nothing of where i work. i opened the back door and saw some of my co-workers(trevor & others). i talked to them for a short while. then everyone stopped working and the building became my friend's(heather) house(although this building looks nothing like her house). it had the basement of where i went to pre-school(in the basement of a church), and 2 stories. there were 3 sets of stairs. i was looking around in drawers for something, but cant remember. i entered a small study room(looked abandoned with stacked boxes and an old desk) there was a very narrow door i peaked through and saw the hallway. i could hear my co-workers talking downstairs. i went to the bathroom and had to pee(luckily i did not piss in my bed). after i finished i was washing my hands in the sink(with no mirror to see myself) and something made me question whether i was dreaming or not. i did a RC(pinched my nose) and i couldnt breath which i thought was odd. i stopped and just started thinking because before my RC i was pretty confident i was dreaming, but then i just gave up and continued my non-lucid dreaming. i walked out of the bathroom and met a very attractive blond. she started flirting with me and lead me into her room, where "the obvious" happened. i woke up right after we finished.

i had around 6 dreams that night, but this was my last. i dont think i even did a RC in my others(i can only recall the last 2 dreams). this was the first time i tried a RC so im hoping the next time i go to sleep i will do another reality check. the past week ive been trying to WILD, WBTB, and DEILD. but this night i just wanted to get some sleep and wasnt trying any kind of method on purpose. i kept waking up because it was the time i usually wake up on my own and i have a sore throat which is very irritating. i was really surprised to see any progress on a night like this. my RCing is starting to become more of a habit.


my previous dream before this:

I had a false awakening. i was in my room, although it looked more narrow. there was a candle on my dresser very close to the wall. the wall started to catch on fire and the flames reached the ceiling. smoke was getting thicker, i started choking, and i passed out(probly had something to do with my soar throat). thats when i actually woke up and checked what time it was. then i went back to sleep and had my last dream.

side notes:
i was sick(soar throat)
i did NOT take any vitamin b6 supplements that day(i had taken b6[200mg] the previous 4 days)
i was not planning on being lucid this night
this was almost a DILD(never tried to DILD before)
reality checking is starting to become a stronger habit
im questioning my dreams

This was very vivid and a lot of fun. (btw I had more dreams before this but I was too lazy to write them down)

I was on a steep road near one of the churches in my city. I think there was a lot of water on the road so the road seemed almost like a waterfall. Also, for some strange reason I had transformed into a boy and there was a girl with me. I was calling her for something but she was taking too long so I started to go down the road myself, but once I was a few feet down the road I stopped to wait for her, or at least I tried to. I end up slipping down the road into a pool of water below. At first I held my breath but then I remembered that it was a dream so I could breathe underwater. The dream then felt very vivid and when I tried to breathe underwater I could feel the water going down my throat and in my nose, but after that I found that I could still breathe normally.

After I get out of the water I and the girl go into a house and go to sleep, or at least that’s what we were going to do. Somehow I got out of the house, turned back into a girl (I can’t remember how) and ended up at the shore of a lake. I saw people chasing after me so I ran into the water. I then suddenly gained complete lucidity and realized that I didn’t really have to worry about the people and that I could do whatever I wanted, so I start to waterbend the waves to perhaps slow down the people chasing me. Controlling the waves then reminded me of Burke's Element Challenge on Dream Views. I thought about perhaps attempting the challenge but I couldn’t remember all of the criteria so I decided not to, but then I remembered something that I had wanted to do for a while in my dreams, touch the clouds.

I then made up my mind that I was going to touch the clouds, but before I could try the people that had been chasing earlier captured me and brought me on their large boat. When I was on their boat they put some kind of vest thingy on me. They also had a rope somewhere that was supposed to be attached to the vest, but they seemed to have forgotten. After they put all the stuff on (at least that’s what they thought) they positioned me at the edge of one of the windows. They were going to push me out of the window with the rope attached to me, but I don’t know why. I was getting annoyed with the people because I wanted to fly away, but I guess my brain wasn’t working that well because I should have escaped earlier. Anyways, I told the people to hurry up so they pressed a button but it didn’t work and then they noticed that I wasn’t attached to the rope, but they had realized too late, for I had jumped out of the window without it.

I didn’t fall into the water. Instead of diving underwater I landed on top of it and walked on it a bit and sometimes just floated above it. After a while the water came to a river which was moving a bit fast so I flew high up and went over it. On the other side of the river was a long road. I remembered wanting to fly up and touch the clouds so I looked at the sky to try to find some nice clouds, but the clouds above me were all gray and ugly, but in the distance I could see some nice and fluffy clouds and a bit of the blue sky. I decided that I’d go to those clouds.

I’m quite a slow flier most of the time so I tried to do quick bursts of speed by slowing down and building up energy and then quickly propelling myself through the air like I did in a different dream, which worked a bit. After flying for a while I came to an area with a bunch of electricity wires and telephone wires. I was worried about colliding with the wires, but not because I was worried about being electrocuted. I was actually worried that I would get tangled in the wires and slow myself down, which is what ended up happening a few times.

I was now quite close to the clouds, but there were also a lot of obstacles now such as trees and the wires. Eventually I came to the end of the road but there was a wooden wall with a ceiling too, but there were holes on the sides so flew down to the left. When I flew down to the left I saw a creepy forest and there was a strange old lady there that said “This place is sacred you can’t go here” and she got super mad and it seemed like she was going to attack me, so I just said sorry and went the other way.

The place through the exit on the right was a beautiful glade with a little pool and waterfall, and it seems to me that it was the place that I had imagined and thought about sometimes before going to sleep. There was a bit of mist in the area and the clouds seemed to be lower here. I flew up to touch the fluffy white clouds and found that they didn’t actually feel how I thought a cloud was supposed to. The clouds actually felt kind of cushiony like cotton and not really cold or wet at all. I tried focusing my mind to make them feel more like a cloud, but then I changed my mind and instead flew on top of the cloud and lay there….Then I woke up.

I had a lucid dream the other day, and while i was dreaming i called my friend's name that was killed in a motorcycle wreck last year. I demanded that he show himself in the dream, and BAM! he showed up, it was really weird because i could hear him talking before he showed up, and it sounded like someone inhaling while they were talking...you know in reverse,[(Try to inhale and talk at the same time and that is what it sounded like)] but the speech was clear. I asked him how he was, and he said "It's all good, I'm in the round world now, and it's awesome". This is the first time i ever tried to contact someone who has died, i still don't know if i was just talking to myself, but it felt very real.....crazy shit, man.......crazy shit!

I am cooking in an old apartment. The food in the pot keeps melting away to almost nothing and I am concerned as I have a lot of people to feed. A male friend from years ago is in the apartment and I hear that he is telling people that he has slept with me. I am very angry about him telling people this. I am then sitting at a table and there are four of us including my father. I introduce one of the women at the table as my girlfriend and tell them that I am gay! I am then in a hallway and making out with my girlfriend sho is a different girl to the one at the table. (This one has long blond hair and the previous girl had short brown hair). I seem to be very attracted to her. I then go to another place which is like a big conference center/hotel and I meet my mother and father. We then go to a big indoor tennis court and the players are late (they are famous tennis players). They arrive together on the court in street clothes and give some excuse for being late. I am then in what looks like a dorm room and my husband is sleeping in a single bed I go over to him and kiss him and he remains sleeping. I go out to the hallway and a girl asks me how to use the washing machine although she is trying to use a vending machine as a washing machine. I show her a locked door and tell her she needs a key car and and the washing machine is inside the room.

Last night I had this dream about two different Caucasian girls from different city classes. One girl (Lola) was from a poor single-parent family. The other girl (Isadora) was from a rich family.

In Isadora's mansion for 3 months a Scarlet Hand (print) appearing everywhere. I first see it on Isadora's mom's vanity mirror. The adults are always having a "cow" when the print appears.

One day Lola broke her leg and her mom with some help from the Toronto FRESH AIR FUND sent Lola to camp. Isadora's mom sent Isadora to the same camp.

We see Lola w/crutches waiting for the bus to camp outside her aparment building. She than gets on the bus (with help from the bus driver). She thinks about her dad and is mad at him for leaving her and her mom.

Issy comes on board and asks Lola if she could sit beside her. They talk about stuff. Than Izzy mentions about the Scarlet Hand appearing in her family's mansion. That really got Lola's attenion and it seems like they are both fans of mysteries.

When they got to camp they were concidently put in the same cabin. They kept talking as they put on their swimwear to go swimming in the lake. (I guess that Lola's leg "magically" healed?) and they still talked when they were swimming in the lake (the one above the other kind of swimming). The dream ended when all the campers left the lake.

Had 2 recalls yesterday, dont remember them now, i waited too long. But i remember the second one had to do with a shark chasing me.

Also 2 recalls today, ill post the first one separately..

Second dream, right before i woke up around noon,
I was making cupcakes for an important event, although i am completely unaware about that they were for. It felt like a wedding or classy event, because they were vanilla and we were using white icing. I remember pouring the badder into the cupcake pans, and all of a sudden my mother pops up and pulls my arm so that i end up pouring the last half of the badder into one regular cake pan. Saying, "Only half the people will want your silly cupcakes." I was mad when i woke up. Then i realized i didnt get to eat a cupcake while i was asleep,

Date: Aug.25/26
Time: Approximately 7:05 am

Description: This is another non-lucid dream. It is only one dream, and it is only in fragments. I can't no matter how hard I try, remember much of anything. Even feelings are scarce. But nonetheless here it is.

Dream: I am walking down a street and see somebody that I recognize (not a friend or anybody I know, it was a feeling of just going along with whatever the plot was). We have a place where we hang out. In this place, a water pipe is broken, but it still seems to work. This person I am with brings over a couple of girls to the house. One of these girls is more official than the other in their relationship to the guy. They both like each other too. This guy ends up wanting the official girl over the other women. I invite a couple of guys to this house we are at. DJ comes over and we mess with the computer, trying to lay down beats in FL studio. I pick up the headphones I use and give them to DJ. I end up back on the street walking the opposite way I was in the beginning of the dream.

I am so excited that it hasnt even been a week and I have had my second lucid dream!

I started in a house like a country style house, very nice and detailed. It had a lot of mirrors and things and all I remember from this point is that I was walking frantically back and forth and I had went to the back room and turned around and walked into the hallway. Then I stopped in front of a mirror and looked at myself. I was a old man. Then it hit me that I was in a dream! The feeling of it changing from non lucid to lucid was amazing I can feel the change in my brain. I then turned back into myself and felt myself coming out of the dream. Then I spun around right quick and everything was great. Spinning for me is the best which I found out from my first lucid dream. I put my hands up and concentrated on them but i did that just in case lol. Well then I ran down the hall and I think i felt myself coming out again and I spun around while running. Then there was a glas door leading outside and I went outside and there was a tree. Well I told myself I wanted to be in a city after I woke up from my last lucid dream so I was walking in a circle around this tree and I wanted a door to appear. Then the branched hung really low so as I was walking the door appeared from a low hanging branch (hard to explain) I then saw something through the door but it wasnt the city scape I wanted. I began to think about the city scape and walk around it one more time. Then I looked through it again and i still didnt see what I wanted but i walked through anyway (The door didnt have a door door... it was just the frame) When I walked through I saw a cartoony style landscape and purple trees and wierd odd things I cant really remember. Then I looked to my right and saw my city scape but it was alll cartoony and there was futuristic style cars and flying cars and like 4 or 5 levels of sidewalks floating. Then I concertrated on the grass I was standing on. It was really cartoony and fake looking. I nelt down and looked at it and it was all pixlelated and weird looking. I was disappointed cause I was expecting a realistic landscape. Then I woke up unfortunately. Oh another thing I felt my dream really unstable... I cant describe the feeling I felt I knew I was lucid and at the vurge of waking up but I wasnt sure how to get in my dream completely without that feeling. I could feel myself breathing and things it was such a odd feeling. Yet again I felt myself laying in bed yet I was standing in my dream.

I'm coming back. It's time to build some dream recall.

My fragments for the night:


1. I'm in a competition of some sort, with a person about my age. They seem like a worthy opponent, and we're dashing around somewhere.

2. I'm playing starcraft 2.

Another one. Three. In a row. Three in a row. Wow. I cant believe it. It took me 24 DAYS to reach a total of 3 Lds and now I get three IN A FREAKIN ROW. I dont know what im doing, but im doing something right and im gonna keep doing it.

Dream 1: I am Cleveland (Family guy) who escapes from Lois who is trying to kill him. Something about his breakup with Loretta (his wife).

DILD: The beginning is weird, since im not quite sure how I got lucid in the first place. This time it wasnt me that though about checking; I think it was a song on the radio that said something like: This is a dream. Its all a dream. Stuff like that. But where was that situated in time and space? No idea. Only now I do tons of shit. I talk with my first DC (mom) and tell her: You know this is a dream, right? She seems interested so I even show her how to do a reality check.
Here's the plotline for this dream: Nothing happens! Nothing! No event with DCs whatsoever. Just me trying to fly like a beheaded chicken. Along with other stuff. I even tried Loafs technique, which failed too. Damn. I jumped really high, tried from different heights, backflip again. Next time (tonight )I will try: Swimming, taking a pill to give me the ability to fly, giant magnet. I am starting to think im trying too much to fly. Like the more I fail the more it looks like a huge task. I may take a break of flying and try other, maybe easier things tonight. Like stretching my arm, skin, tongue and other body parts. After all, im good at turning a wall in Jello, which is pretty hard. If I can make pills appear in my pocket, it will trigger a placebo effect which will hopefully help me achieve my goals. After all, that same effect helped me get 3 DILDs in a row, a fourth one tonight So im not doubting its power!

Awoke at 7:03 and almost forgot to jot down my memories. Had two dream fragments and one very vivid, non-lucid dream.

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Fragment 1:

I was on the ground in front of a very large forklift. For some reason I had the intent to hang onto the forks while someone raised them, and throw an object off. I grabbed ahold of the forks, holding the object on the other side of the forks, but I couldn't see the object and had no idea what it was. The forks started raising, and so did I as I was hanging on to them. The forks kept going higher and higher until they stopped when I was at least 100 yards off the ground. I attempted to throw the object (still couldn't see it) and slipped, falling off the forks. I managed to catch the end of the fork with my foot, swinging back around and grabbing ahold again.

**On a side note, does anyone else have dreams where they can't see an object or a person's face? This happens to me frequently, where I'll be looking right at someone, yet I cannot see their face.

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Fragment 2:

I was in a hangar with my immediate and extended family, and they were about to go on a plane ride. Everyone was in various places in a small airplaine, the kind that is normally used for skydiving. I was hugging people and saying goodbye, getting ready for my 8-hour drive home. My mother offered to take me there in the plane so I wouldn't have to drive. I said "But how am I going to get my car home?" to which she replied "Good point."

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Full dream, VERY vivid, but not lucid:

I was sitting in class and it was "bring a friend day". I brought my cousin. The room was lab-like and very familiar. There was only 3 people in class, us two and a geeky yet cute girl. Our lab was to take an item with a few bearings and other moving parts and figure out a way to reduce the force required to turn it to a certain level. My cousin was reading through the lab instructions and we couldn't figure it out (which is weird because he is an engineer at NASA), when the girl comes up, silently puts an elaborate solution down on the table involving batteries, motors, capacitors, and all kinds of other stuff and turns it on. She then gave us a snotty look and silently walked out of the room. Someone barged in the classroom and told the professor they needed to see him now. He was in his late 20's, and was very visibly nervous when this happened.

A woman came in and told my cousin and I to go see "Kim."

Me: "Kim who?"
Woman: --long pause-- "uhh... Filipe"
Me: "Where?"
Woman: "Anywhere the F*** away from here!!!"

She was visibly annoyed at my lack of immediate compliance which made me want to defy her, but I eventually left the classroom with my cousin. He waited while I went to the bathroom. I ran into the professor in the bathroom and asked him what that was all about. He nervously said "I can't believe they're doing this s*** again"

Upon walking out of the bathroom my cousin was still sitting on a chair, and all of a sudden I saw some of my friends. We started walking toward an event of some sort, and it turned out to be some kid's birthday party. My one friend started singing "happy birthday" and had everyone convinced it was my birthday instead of the kid's, despite my protests. The real birthday kid goes "Yay now he gets all the birthday kisses instead of me!"

Then I woke up.

Type: regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

I was in a convention center with pretty high ceilings; it actually looked like an art gallery. The floors were yellow cream tile, the walls white, and the lighting was coming from many light bulbs in circular encasements right in the ceiling.

There were two floors to this building: the main floor, and the basement. The main floor was of the layout described above, but the basement was mostly shiny beige-painted concrete, and had a much lower ceiling, only around ten feet from the ground. I was taking an escalator down to the basement, and while I was standing there, going down, I was going over some sort of plan. "Build" is the only word I can remember, but it definitely wasn't anything bad.

On the way down I saw Gilbert Huph (Mr. Incredible's boss) sitting on the escalator rail, going up, while I was going downwards. He looked at me and said, "did you just say bomb"? I didn't, so I spent a few moments saying "no" and trying to convince him. Ultimately he just laughed, hopped off the escalator at the end, and walked away.

I am following Randy on a trail through a rocky mountainous place. It looks barren but beautiful. We have some friendly conversation. The trail has something like a railroad made of rock not steel. We get to the end and he rides a rock rail car back and leaves me to walk. I felt betrayed.

I don't remember much. I wake up or it think I wake up. I have a sense of a retreating visitor. I see my room exactly as it should be but the light seems to be on. I am looking at the floor. There are the clothes I left. Something else is there but before I focus on it I see a bright yellow dotted line trailing out of my room and down the hallway. It quickly fades away like it was chasing after the visitor. The room grows dark as it should be. I am now awake fully. I am halfway sitting up. I say, "no!" I takes me awhile to refocus and understand that I had been dreaming. I see the clothes and the dog asleep on the floor. All this happened in a fraction of a second.

26-08-10 Pre DVA: Something about milk cartons hanging from trees, they were cold and delicious.

post DVA. M playing up to have sex, really having it with K/Random guy. I get invited to a party through someone else. We are hunting 4 specific monsters that makes their victims go insane by presenting themselves as hallucinations. When M completely rejects my approach, first by saying my left hand is disgusting and cold she gets really mean and says she will only spend her last time with someone remotely good looking like K and the guy from the party. The searches for the monsters is really thorough, Sam and Dean Winchester are also there. We are hunting the day after the party, when I see the first apparition appear I am amazed at how she just appears, there is a slight electrical buzzy sound to the scenario as well. After we are done hunting the guy that have invited to the party needs a towel I go get one, and he tells me he owes me an apology for being a dick, especially since some random guy he met a couple of years back is quicker to help out than his friends. “No sweat” I say “No really” he goes on “Never a chore” I finish the argument. On my way home I am in a bus and I notice that the weather is really bad, in fact it is so bad that a tornado is on the horizon, there are huge electrical storms (Wait, hang on a minute wasn't there something I was supposed to do if I saw an electrical storm?) I knock the thought in order to capture the tornado on a picture. It is too late we are practically under it now. The bus starts shaking and some glass break, I am remarkably calm for this and go to the middle of the floor on the second floor and lye down between the seats protecting my head. We spin around the booming thunder is ear sundering. We get past and I look around outside the windows that the tornado has cause quite the damage. There are some small dogs involved in the dream and before I go on the bus the guy that threw the party befriends me on facebook, He does some odd moves and changes status all the time, in the end he is abandoning the ship by sending 2 green dragons/wyrms out over a waterfall and a 3rd creature is close by to create the black whole that will destroy the entire landscape (this seems like a computer game).

26-10-08 I was in a very tall building, I came in and went to the lifts, all of a sudden there is a really strong smell of cannabis. I wonder why this is and I look at the floor and next to the lift is a backpack and right on the floor there is a small plastic bag with some weed in it. I pick it up and head for the lifts, I have to wait a bit and I keep pushing the button. As I enter the lift, there are two lifts right next to each other I see another backpack which makes me think that there are more than one person and that they will be coming back for their weed: I go up, I am amazed to find that I don't quite remember what floor I live on but something tells me it must be the 44th, I remember it as being 4th but the numbers don't go that low (!). I go to the very top and as I travel I keep dropping lower and lower numbers, sort of remembering where I am going. I realise that the lift will be stopping at multiple floors, which scares me because I want to keep the weed and if I run into the guys I will have to give it back to them due to my moral code. Almost at the top the lift comes to a hold and the two lifts merge into one, which at the time doesn't seem strange at all. I go out and decided to take the stairs down to where I am supposed to live. When I get to the floor all of a sudden I realise I don't live there any more “thats right I moved in with Drew” I laugh to myself. I then go to a bathroom that for some reason has holes in the floors all the way down to the main floor. I start easy enough by jumping from one sink to another, but it gets progressively more challenging at one point I have to sit down in order to hang from the sink as the drop from standing position is too big. I feel intense fear as there is almost no room to sit down compared to the other drops. I decide to step into the sink (as opposed to on the table next to it) to get a better foothold to get to the hanging by the arms position, I am successful. I drop down and am now naked (dream sign missed) but I quickly find a towel to wrap around my waist. I go towards the lobby I believe I am in the showers associated with the gym of the building. As I go out I realise the lights are out and the gym must be closing as I go through a set of glass doors I see the keys are still in the door and I quickly think that with those keys I have access to the entire building. I leave them in the door, it isn't my style, and a short while later a manager of the building comes out, look at me and says “Ah another one of those” not sure I entirely understand what she means I just say “yeah” and smile. No reason to make her suspicious about my doing in the bathroom and how I got there. I carry on and in the lobby there is a man, played by the same character that play Zacharia in Supernatural, who starts yabbing on about the quality of the gym. I decided to tell him the truth about my adventure in there after commenting “Very high to the ceiling”. He explains that he admires that and let me go.

As I walk I see a woman talking to an older woman, she tells her “no matter what you are going to die in that accident, not even he can help you” she looks at me and I am now a character played by Hoit (spelling) from true blood. I get a really strong sensation of deja vu, I have seen this before. A car is going to loose control and crash through the window killing the woman. I pay little attention to it and carry on. As I walk the scene starts playing out and I see the woman has tried to get out of the building quickly. She sees the car and tries to run back, but her and a crowd of people are held back by two police officers. As the car approaches it kills the crowd, but I am thinking to myself constantly “lie down” as it will make the car fly over her (sort of spiderman style) and she does so averting death. I rush to her shouting commands to people to call an ambulance. The woman is still conscious and I tell her not to move as she might be injured she moves around a little and hugs me, I fully embrace it although I try not squeezing her too much in case something will get broken.

There is a shift I am now back to my old self and I walk into a place where my parents, Kaiser and two older friends of mine (don't know them IRL) are. My friends are talking about getting some hash, and I say I have some from earlier although it is weed and I don't have a lot, I have no intentions of smoking it due to the paranoia I tend to feel when smoking cannabis in a crowd of people so they can have it. As I pull it out of my pocket and backpack simultaneously (!) it goes everywhere and I realise it wasn't a plastic bag, but rather a transparent smoking maker. I apologise and start scouring through my backpack and to my amazement there is loads of weed on long sticks in there not even in a bag. My friends get excited and Kaiser asks if I bought it when Ronja and I went to Amsterdam, I explain that only Ronja brought some back and in no way near that quantity, the truth is I have no idea about how it got there, not even a false memory. My parents somehow note that we might have to have a chat about my interests, but I ignore it and finally realise that I shouldn't let my choices be influenced by them. I pass out the dope and starts bagging it. We start a conversation about the woman situation and how Kaisers dad had an important role to play as the writer (prophet more like) of the setting, and there is some debate whether he was actually a consultant or the writer. I decide that he was the writer, although he sometimes does consultancy (as he does IRL).

I am walking across the street of the building, where previously a scene with the woman from the accident with a guy that worships her has played out. There is supposed to be something between the two, but nothing yet. As I walk across the street I have a strong feeling she will be there and I am dying to see her again. I walk in and she is in therapy with a shrink and the guy from before. The main part of the conversation seems to be between the guy and the therapist and the woman is by the side on a chair in morning robes. I walk over to her and she smiles fantastically to me when she sees me. She has to be reminded that it was I who helped her after the accident (for some reason I am now me, not someone else). We talk and joke a lot, we hug, and through the entire exchange I keep stroking her on the outside of her upper legs. At a point the therapist and the other guy looks over and the therapist tells me that her patients are supposed to rest and be protected. The woman looks at her “he is cool” and returns her attention to me. Are you happy I ask, she looks at me does a joke about how she just needs to sort something painful out in her upper back, hugs me and then says “there, perfectly happy”.