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[Half lucid dream in 3-4 episodes. First episode: monster attack. Second episode: Ex-girlfriend- attack. Third and Fourth episode: A pimp attacking my car and war-games turned bad ]

1. I'm walking through a mall. A lot of people are around. They are walking in every direction talking to other people etc. A typical day at the mall. I want to go to a cinema, which apparently is in the mall, although the place seems to be in one way very familiar, but in another very bizarre and strange. The place is mixed, it has features of at least three other places I know in real life: my favorite mall, my favorite cinema and the main railway station in my town.
I'm tired from walking and I take a rest before a public toilette. The place is strange, the roof is tilted, it looks like I'm standing on a hill. I sit down and there is this guy. He looks like stoner. He starts to talk to me:

- Hey you! How's it going.
- I don't know, I'm lost in this place.
- Aren't we all lost sometimes?

He giggles.

- No, you don't understand, I'm looking for the cinema. I want to watch ...
- The New Alien film?, he finished my sentence. Ah man, you know, those films are really special?. sometimes a bit awkward, but rather fun. Isn't it?
- True my pal, I said, especially this one scene where ...

Our conversation get's interrupted. People are screaming, running away. They shout repeatedly "He's back, he's back! ". I stand up and see that the mall is attacked by a gigantic monster. It's running through the lanes, it looks like a scorpion, a lion, a boar and a snake mixed together . Something hideous like that I've never seen in my whole life. It's black-green-ish and has sparkling red eyes. People run away from it but it devours one person after another.
Strangely enough I'm not that feared by the sight of the monster. I had a simple but clever idea to stop this mess as I realized that this might be a dream:
I closed my eyes. After all, when I can't see the monster, it isn't there and can't see me.

2. I open my eyes back again. I'm still in this mall. But this time, I'm in front of the cinema. I feel relieved that I saw a few friends of mine. We walked to the cashier. But the place is really crowed. I have to push the people aside. As i walk through the crowds I see HER. I'm really shocked about it, cause I didn't want to see HER. SHE is my ex-girlfriend, I haven't talked to since 3 months and haven't seen her since our break-up. I'm really irritated. Should I talk to HER or should I simply ignore HER? I recalled a conversation from last weekend that I had with my best friend. I said that I'm not angry anymore and that I'm totally cool about it, so cool, that I could survive such an awkward moment. I also recalled that I resisted every attempt from HER to get me back. But than I recalled that I haven't seen HER in waking life, but only in my dreams. So I feel really confident about it and start talking to her.

- Hey M. Hey M. !
She was looking away.
Some one else said HER name and pointed towards my direction. She turns around.

- Oh, hey, what ...? [SHE seemed surprised]
- Hey it's me! I want to talk to you!

She excuses herself and walks towards me. We go to a place with fewer peoples around and where there is less noise.

I see that SHE has lost enormously weight. SHE has a fine silhouette in waking life, but it seems that SHE only weighted half. Her arms were thin, her legs too, she looked really fragile.

- OMG, I said, what happened to you? You've lost so much weight!

I grabbed her arms. They were so thin that her too arms would have fitted in one of my hands.

- I know, SHE says, I did. People say that I'm a mess ever since I dumped you.
- You're lying and you know it, I say. You aren't really her, I'm just imaging you around. It's a dream. You aren't real.
- I'm not the problem, She answers, you don't let me go. This is your imagination world, not mine. Just simply let me go.
- But I did it!, I protest, I haven't see you around like ages. The memories about you are fading.
- But they come back, or don't they?, she rappels to my mind. You aren't over me for 100 percent.
- How could I?, I replied again.
I feel that I'm loosing the battle. I just want to dump her in my dream for the fifth time. To this day I resisted her attempts, or better said: I resisted to my deepest feelings in my subconscious. But this time it's really hard.
- Don't you remember all the promises I made? I told you that I would never let you go and you answered me that you would ever stand by my side. but you didn't!

My perspective changes to third person. I see how we are talking and talking. I can't hear what we are talking anymore. My view starts to fly, I see the talk from above. And suddenly one sentences got to my ears. "Take me back, it was my fault." It was the voice of HER. I've heard this sentences in nearly all my dreams, where she comes around . Instead of SHE kissing me and I getting upset and saying to her all the bad things she did to me, I kiss HER. I feel really guilty from my third perspective. I feel the kiss, it was cold, it didn't seem right. My other self and SHE went along together, I felt bad, so bad that I had the desire to throw up at both of them. BUT instead I disappeared through the ceiling.

[The next section contents sex, violence and bad language]


3 - 4.[SIZE=4] I'm driving a car through the night. I'm on the car park of the mall. I'm really upset about a thing I can't recall. a friend of mine sits on the passenger seat.

- Yo Yossarian, he said, don't drive that fast!
- Go fuck yourself, I say.

We are exiting the car park. I turn left to the exit lane. There is a traffic light where none should be. I brake and wait that it get's green. But it doesn't. The waiting is unbearable to me and I light a cigarette.

- Those bastards are going to kill me someday.

I open the window to my right. My friend starts coughing.
Suddenly two prostitutes run towards us.
- Oh shit!, my friend screams. Close the window, they are mistaking us for some clients. Drive backwards!

That's what I do. I drive backwards away from them. They seem really disappointed. Suddenly their pimp jumps up through a bush and starts demolishing the car with a baseball-bat.

- Oh noes, my friend laughs, Pimp-attack!
- that's not funny, the car was expensive

I don't remember what happens next but suddenly I'm in a room with a handful of soldiers

- My pals, the general said, today is victory day! As you know, we are going to win the annual war-games. This is the plan from today. You should ...

I don't listened to his talking. All I can think about is when was the last time I got laid. And the creepy man standing in the corner of the room. He's bold has bad teeth, a beard and has crazy eyes. He's smiling. It's like he can read my filthily thoughts. I shake my head.

- Everything clear now?, the general says.
- Yes sir, the group answers.

We go outside, But I and a captain go to another direction.
- Hey private, he says, we are launching our sneak attack!
- So it is, I lied.
I don't know what he was talking about. The scenery changes. We are in a bunker.
- I'll take a piss, I say and go to the restroom.

After doing my duty, I washed my hands. My teeth start aching suddenly and i open my mouth and look into the mirror. I see that my teeth are in bad shape, one molar has a hole, another vanishes before my eyes. I spit three molars out. I'm not happy about that. I talk a paper towel to press it against my molars. I want to gout of the room, but the creepy man from before jumps out of nowhere and says:

- That's my towel.

And he takes it from me and vanishes again. Perplexed I go out with a fresh towel.

In the bunker again, the captain is to be found nowhere. The outside door opens and he comes back in. He has a black eye.

- What happened?, I asked bluffed.
- I had a fight with a filthily girl.
-Why? What did you do?
- I tried to rape her.
- You did what?
- You heard right. But she didn't want to.
- Does that even amazes you?
- Yes, I always get what I want.
- Are you nuts or something?, I objected. If you wanted sex, go check a prostitute, they are everywhere.
- But I wanted her.
- Did you never try to talk to girls first? That's the way I do it: you talk, you befriend and than you fuck.
- That's too complicated. I wanted her now!

I shake my head. What a bastard, I think. I go outside to look after her.

She has a wound on her neck, some scratches too. I help her and make her a bandage. She is very delighted of it. She looks nice.

- I heard you are filthy, is this true?, I asked her.
I can't believe that this is true.
- Yes, you're right. I'm a filthy whore. Everyone can have me, do dirty things and so on. Except the captain, he is a bastard. He doesn't know how to talk to a girl.
- Yes I know. By the way, I'm going to say something but please don't be upset. It's just a proposition, you can accept it or refute it. No bad tricks.
- Ok, she said, go on.
- Do you want to have sex with me? I'm feeling horny now.
- Why not, she said, that's the only thing good that will happen today.
- I bet it will be.

And so we started and the dream finally faded

Night: July 9th
Morning: July 10th
Bedtime: 11:53 PM
Waketime: 11:55 AM

Mantra: I remember my dreams

Start of night:

Woke up 8:48
Woke up 9:20

Vivid Dream:

This dream starts off with me in a car with a few other people (didn't look to see who it was), and my friends older brother. There was a huge party that night and I needed Mary and he just asked me if I wanted to buy off him, I said sure. We got to my house with his car oddly parked on the grass when there is an open driveway ,and I run in the house to make sure my parents aren't home. Of course, they have 10 friends over that I have never seen before. I make the buy, run up to my room, and put it in a suitcase wide in the open. I come back downstairs and the scene changes into some place in my house. As I'm ready to go to the party I go and grab the weed but it's not there, I look everywhere in my room and scramble through boxes and my toolkit where I keep things for my bike. There is no weed to be found -- can't remember what happened next but I remember the argument in my brothers room about what happened to my weed and tried to get him to give it back to me. He didn't seem as mad as usual when he catches someone in my family and he seemed to be joking around with me and makes me feel like an idiot for not hiding it well. I try and get him to sympathize with me about how much money I spent but he doesn't really care. --scene change -- Sitting on a bed at my friends house talking about how we're going to get alcohol for the party. It turns out, oddly enough, that a bottle of vodka in a dream is $1.1175. His parents walk in and I can tell they are going somewhere fancy because his dad has on an suit/tie but covered in a jacket. His mom has a dress on. His dad thinks we're leaving now, and he says that the time is 11:00. We say we're not leaving now, followed by his mom saying that we're going to be leaving much later, around 11:45. -- End of dream




End of night


Vividness: Highest I've ever had
Thoughts: Surprised I remembered this much. This wasn't even after I woke up. My brother came in for a minute conversation and I just lied in bed until one thought sparked me to remember the whole dream. It's still very fresh in my mind as I'm writing this. I made up for last night lol!!

I've been writing up my dreams on word on my computer when I wake up... This was last nights dream. The weirdest thing that I have to note about this was the extremely real sensations o.o;' And how it felt like I really was struggling to breathe... Bizarre x.x;

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I was in some sort of resort place, and it was almost like a caravan park of sorts. I was pregnant with twins, and I know that I was full term, but I kept walking up to people and rubbing it going, 'Look at my belly! Isn't it beautiful!' But something happenned, something was wrong with the babies; So I had to be rushed away in the car to some sort of hospital place but it wasn't really a hospital. I can't remember the faces clearly enough, but I do know when I was lying on the bed one woman kept telling me to push, but I didn't understand how I could do that. I sort of pointed at my belly, and tensed my muscles but nothing happenned and I became confused.. It looked like I was having to a c-section instead.

I wrestled with a nurse or something because they put one of those heart monitor stickers down my throat, or some food tube. At first it was horrible and I felt like I was going to choke but once it lodged itself properly I could breathe clear again and they put more heart monitor stickers on me and hooked me up to the machine. It kept track of three heartbeats, the two babies hearts were okay; but mines kept fluttering on and off. I felt my heart sort of jump a bit in the dream too. The dream changed before I actually gave birth but the memory of the other dream I had has faded, but I'm sure it had something to do with Daniel (My boyfriend).

I completed a few milestones today, as well as having some vivid dreams. I was kind of dissapointed at first but I just kept going back to sleep. I've realized after tonight the less tired you are when you go to sleep the better chance you have of having a lucid dream.

Awake [COLOR="#4B0082"]Dream[/COLOR] [COLOR="#DAA520"]lucid[/COLOR]

I went to sleep around 2 AM, I had a horrible dinner which might have had something to do with it. I didn't even really have a dinner except eat a bunch of seven-layer-dip and a chicken wing right before bed.

Sleep: 2:30
Wake: 6:30
Sleep: 6:40

1. [COLOR="#4B0082"] I was in some sort of gymnasium where Obama was giving a speech. It was like a basketball court and then there was a smaller court right next to it so from a birds eye view it looked like a square next to a rectangle.
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[COLOR="#4B0082"] On all sides of the room there were bleachers and they were all full and Obama was on the far end of the square in the room giving a speech. I was next to my cousin Russell and some lady with a baby next to him. After Obama stopped speaking they put on a movie for everyone to watch. Inbetween the speech and the movie the woman with the baby started walking on top of this tall row with her baby and there was like at least an 8 foot drop. The movie we were watching had someone's kid being taken away by child services and I started yelling yea we got someone with the same baby problems over here and I pointed to the woman walking with her baby on the high beam thing. I kept yelling jokes about it and she kept trying to hide her baby, but still kept walking on the beam. Pretty soon her baby was taken away and I was the only one who was clapping as it was happening. Sounds cruel but would you rather have a dead baby? Sometimes I feel like the only person in the room who knows the true consequences of things.
After that the movie kept playing and the next thing I know is somehow I met a guy and a girl on the way back to the cars and my dad was about to leave but he wanted to get "that movie with the rock in it" lol. So for some reason I remember all this is happening at our River house for some reason (my dad owns a river house we have 3 hours away from our normal house) Except in the "dream river house" it's a lot sunnier and theres a lot more bushes and trees and such. And I try to go in the house through this futuristic white truck thats owned by the guards, no real trouble for going in it but it looks suspicious. I realize I can't get through the truck so I go around to the place where the speech was taking place. Two of the guards pass by me (they are soldiers from some african country) and start talking about checking up on the display case, which apparently was in the back of the truck. I walk back to the auditorium building and in the dream it was blank but somehow I'm supposed to know it was a beach on that side, but now that I look back it was just white on that side lol. There were bushes and two wooden beams over a gap where it dropped to a beach down below that you had to walk over. Once I got back to the building the entrance room looked like it belonged to a church, and I met the Jogger guy and the girl I had met before. They asked me what I was up to and I guess I didn't remember what I said before because I said I was going to go watch Lord of the Rings. The guy asked me if I was going to where it was filmed or either asked me where it was filmed, dont remember. But I was saying no it's not around here it's all the way in New Zealand. The dream ended a few seconds after I was imagining on a map my location on the earth, and then like on google earth there was a blue line zigzagging and zooming all the way to New Zealand.
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After this I stayed perfectly still when I woke up, Which is a landmark success lol. However the DEILD did not work as intended.

This was around the time I woke up at 6:30, and I was feeling like SH*T. Because if you read at the beginning what I had for dinner. I had a bit of a stomach ache, drank some water which only made me feel worse. I went outside my room and did some general cleaning for 10 minutes then went back to sleep.

woke up at around 9:30 and nothing happened.. decided I had nothing better to do, even though I was fully awake I concentrated on going back to sleep.

2. [COLOR="#4B0082"]In this dream something happened that made me go on a road trip, can not remember no matter how hard I try. I was driving in my car on the road and the GPS turned onto some back country road, I had to slow down a lot to drive around all the giant rocks on the road, and I realized I didn't have the lights on so I turned on the lights, the lights inside the car worked but the headlights weren't working. Either way I saw the rocks in the moonlight/starlight anyways and at one point it felt like a childs toy car and I just grabbed the sides and picked it up over the rock. Then I thought about how crazy this was and I was like "wait a minute"[/COLOR] [COLOR="#DAA520"]I performed my first ever RC (:banana:yay!!:banana:) and my hands went through each other and I realized I was dreaming. I looked around and everything, even though it wasn't daytime, was still in vivid detail and it felt so real. It felt so much like real life it was that hard to tell the difference. I looked to the side and there was a bigger street and a jeep wrangler drove by and its headlights were shining through the snow into a thick forest/jungle straight ahead of me. I tried to fly but I couldn't get off the ground. Then I realized my dream was fading and I tried to stabilize by rubbing my hands together but it was too late and I woke up.[/COLOR]

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This dream was extremely vivid. Sensory awareness really does the trick

My eyes are closed and I feel like I am in the fetal position. I roll out of that position and head to the bathroom. The bathroom door closes on me. Words appear. "Create a psi ball" it says. I put my hands closer together and without effort I begin to feel a powerful force in between my hands but I don't see the psi ball at all. Maybe I am more of a tactile person than visual?

The instructions change and now say "throw the psi ball at the door" I do so and the door beings to start to collapse on its self like its being sucked up by a mini, invisible black hole. The instructions say "don't get caught in it" so I take a few steps away from the psi ball. Suddenly I am in an elevator with my friend Zach. He tells me he is lucid. I also say that I am lucid and feel very aware that I am here.But I wasn't lucid, this is once again one of those fake lucid dreams but it was very vivid!

I ask Zach "so are you going to remember this?" he says "sure I will." The dream scene changes and I am on a bus now. I see both my friends Chris and Zach sitting next to each other. The I sit next to a messy man eating some blue stuff. Some of it got on my hands. I look at his grey shirt and it is pretty dirty.It looks like he doesn't mind his shirt getting dirty so I say "can I wipe this on your shirt?" He says "no i'll beat your ass!" I say "I do not think you are an asshole, enlighten me" he mumbles something. I ask for him to repeat it, this time putting my ear close to his mouth "will you let the dog go to school?" I ask "it depends on what type of school your talking about, you mean a dog school right?" he smiles and tells me I am correct and vanishes.

The dream changes to me and Chris talking. "Did Zach tell you he saw me in the dream?" Chris says "No he hasn't told me anything, I mean he hasn't told us about himself to us." The dream ends with me going into detail of the 'dream' me and Zach supposedly shared and while in the middle of explaining I wake up.

Lucid dream - Monday 10-09-2012 - "Seventeen" - Looking for my bag at a trainstation

it must've lasted for about 5-10 minutes, as I remember being awake and staring at the alarm clock, thinking to myself that I had to get up soon.

Sadly, I wasn't able to remember any of the important questions I wanted to ask DCs, but I did end up with an interesting reply.

Regular = black
Lucid = blue

I was with a few friends, and we were riding the train to get to a city (Århus).
We got off the train, walked up to a cafeteria and got something to eat - afterwards we went towards the exit.
On the way there, we went past some toilets, I figure they all had to go, since they were gone for the remainder of the dream.
I put down my bag, but after a while of waiting I decided to go on and wait near the exit.


After a few minutes of walking, I noticed that I had forgotten my bag - which seemingly surprised me into becoming lucid.
I figured I'd try my hand at summoning - I held out my hands and 'wished' for the bag to appear. A bag came flying into my hands, one very similar to
my old school-bag, but the colors were slightly off. I gave it another shot, but with the same results.
I went towards an open indoor-plaza, where I saw two men searching through luggage - figuring my bag might be amongst them, I started
picking bags up and slinging them around through telekinesis, until I spotted a DC. (Not sure why I didn't consider talking to the luggage-men)
She was an employee at what appeared to be an info-booth, I went up to her and figured I'd talk to her (It's been my goal for long to talk to a DC).

"Excuse me? Miss?" She looked at me.
Suddenly I got the idea of asking her a rather strange question, hoping for an interesting reply.
"What is the name of this dream?"
She replied "Seventeen" - which kind of caught me by surprised...
"Huh..? Seventeen? How can that be true, what kind of system(naming convention) is that?" I was quite confused at her answer. >_<
"Well, you didn't ask me anything personal" She replied in a sort of cheeky voice, hinting that she didn't HAVE to tell me the truth if it wasn't something personal.
I thought to myself, alright then!
"What color are your panties?" Not sure why that was the first 'personal question' that popped into mind, but yea...
She replied "Purple" - needless to say, I didn't actually check...

I turned around, where I spooted two girls, they looked kind of similar but for some reason one of them stood out to me as being really pretty.
I went towards them and as I approached, one of them turned around to leave (It didn't seem related to the fact that I was moving towards them).
I hurried over there and grabbed her arm, turned her around and said "Hi" - she seemed sort of startled, but she replied with a "Hi" nonetheless.
After I turned her around, I couldn't think of anything to say, so I ended up staring at her for a while, then let her go and said
"I'll just go grab my bag, if you're still around when I get back..." - I didn't have time to finish my sentence, as she was already leaving towards the exit.
I turned to the other girl (The really pretty one), who had just been watching curiously and said "I guess I had that coming..." and smiled.
She laughed.

I then went back to the luggagecart, checked through some of the bags and in the back I found one that looked exactly like mine.
I was a bit surprised, since it wasn't the bag I had 'thought of' when I tried summoning it - I looked at it for a while.
At that point, my alarmclock rang.

Funny 'coincidence' - though it might be overthinking it - the whole 'plaza scene' was kind of airport-like, and it just so happens that I was 17 the first time I went to an airport/took a flight somewhere.

I am in a place that reminds me of a desert but its pleasantly warm and there is some plant life about.

I'm with one girl but there are many people about, we get our picture taken.
We are all waiting on a ride back to somewhere.

Suddenly a large elephant comes up, rumbling along. I am extremely excited as soon as I see him. He is yellow and greenish hue. Very warm spirit I can feel.

He lowers for us all to climb atop him, Im in this line moving along then on him. at first he starts gliding along Im not sure how. Then when we get away from the streets and start trekking towards a more forestry area.
He lifts up and the motion you expect to have while riding a elephant takes places. I am ecstatic.

Now I'm seeing from a higher view in the sky, The elephant has this mante ray flowy skin that is rippling in his movement like scales, sorta looks like he is gliding but I can see his legs from underneath. He is going up this cliff bouncing a long. its jungle and mountainy like.

Every time he jumps to and from a spot the previous spots crumbles from where his feet were. Not completely disintegrating but falling to a lower plane.

I remember seeing a small giraffe like creature at some point as well, before I got on the elephant.

I was walking down a sidewalk at an unknown location. It was fairly sunny, but I did not pay much attention to the sky. While walking, I looked at a fence and other nearby objects that had graffiti on them. On the fence was a long line of strange letters that gradually got smaller and went towards the ground. Eventually it was written in marker or something on the ground and went into a nearby alley I believe. While continuing my walk, I could faintly hear what sounded like someone yelling my name out. I did not pay much attention at first, but being curious, I took a peak through a fence with a missing section. On the other side, was a fenced off area with barb wire and guards. Within that area was a cage with someone in it. Apparently I knew him or he knew me, but as I got close, guards were walking closer, so I took off. Hearing the yells for help again, I returned to try to help, but could not do much. It was here the dream scene changed and next thing I remember is that I was playing a video game of the dream I had. Needing help, I attempted to get Travis to download through the Steam client, without much results. The scene now was at my Grandmothers house. Not too much happened until the dream took another direction.

It was a family dinner. Everyone plus a few other people I did not know was there. I recall I was playing with some sort of sleeping mask/headband thing that I had over my eyes for some reason. And in the guest room there were these 4 or 5 old ladies talking amongst themselves. Looking through the headband at them, the looked like horrible bloodied zombie/vampire/witch beings. Taking off the headband, they looked like normal people. They took noticed of my horrified face, and recall them saying, "He knows." Not good. I bolt out of the hallway and into the kitchen where my grandmother was helping make dinner. Noticing I was not being chased, I attempted to get my grandmother to see who they really were. Resisting of course, as typical of dream characters, I finally managed to get her to see who they were. Things were not looking good as I now see this guy approaching me. He was not at all tall, but seeing what he looked like, made up for that easily. This one had green, puss infected skin that almost seemed to glow, and worst of all fast. Thinking quick, I managed to strike him in the face before he could bite me and get me infected. ( I had not previously known this, but somehow made sense as more people were turning into them.) Escaping to the kitchen, I found to my horror that everyone there was one of them. Even my own younger brother who leaped at me attempting to sink his fangs into me. Fortunately, I was the main character with awesome reflexes, and managed to know him out before damage was done. Though, this just seemed to stir up the hornets nest in a way. one after another they ran towards me, armed with nothing more than a large kitchen knife. I managed to kill a few before finding out that some sort of insect had caused all of this. With the dream loosing clarity and sense of reason, I somehow managed to free all of the important family members, and everything returned to normal.

The last dream I had was one of those stupid nude dreams. I think it took place some time after the events of the last dream. I was at a very large apartment complex with a pool that seemed to run through the entire place. Lazy river style. And I was nude for some reason with a generic pool floaty. Floating around, I took notice of several women around. Dang, and a lot of them were ugly looking and could see them whisper between themselves. Seeing some kids swim by, I noticed one of them had my stolen swimming shorts. Stealing it back, I reacquired my glorious leggings and continued to seek out my family. It was here my ordeals finally ended as I wake around 10 am.

Hmm, interesting. Well at least my recall is increasing again...

These dreams were extremely vivid this time. I was really amazed by how vivid. I remembered every single detail of the dreams right when I woke up, but gradually forgot most detail until writing some key notes.

This vividness perhaps has to do with getting very close to successfully WILDing at bedtime before the dreams. My heart started beating really fast when I was this close, and I couldn't calm it down, so I decided to stop and ask at the forums the next day and went to sleep naturally, and TA-DA! Super vivid dreams, much more than I've had in a long while.

It kinda sucks that I happened to fall asleep in the middle of the night in a not as good as super happy mood because that would've been really great, being that these dreams were super vivid. But no, both or all of them were kind of that awkward helpless and self-conscious doing stupid things feeling I sometimes get in social situations when I'm not feeling super happy and confident like I want to.

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I am in Art Class with Mr. Gamble in the print-making room (not in the room where you paint and print and apply acid, but the other room where you draw mostly). The room is full of students, some of them are standing up, some are sitting down, some are sitting down on impractical objects. I am sitting down on the table near the center, but slightly close to the rack in the corner of the room. I am swinging my legs around, minding my own business, doing nothing, just sitting there and observing or daydreaming a little bit. Lauren, Liz, and Bruce are nowhere to be found thank goodness for me in my waking reality looking back.

Mr. Gamble asks me about something, an assignment that I need to get done, this part of the dream probably associated with my anxiety IWL about completing the pop-up art. I apologize to him and say I'll get it in for sure on time. I begged god not to let him over-talk like usual. Thankfully, after asking me about that thing he walks away. I think he tells something to the class but I wasn't listening. Then I think he walks out the door.

Ms. Taylor is now in the classroom. Then I watch my brother come into the classroom. He has some friends waiting outside the door, the same and more friends as in the dream I had the previous night. He asks Ms. Taylor is he could go out to the food places down the street, as if Ms. Taylor was our mom. I don't question this at all. All I could think about at this point is coming with him. Ms. Taylor says "Yeah, go ahead." I say I will go with them. Then Josef leaves out the door not even noticing me there. I am hesitant to follow them now because it would be weird. Ms. Taylor says "well, go?." I feel rushed and embarrassed, and angry at Ms. Taylor for being angry at me. I run out the door to the hallway and I look down the hall towards staircase A. I see my brother walking back and from a distance, holding a pizza form or box or something, he tells Ms. Taylor that there's a group pizza thing and asks if he could buy it for him and his friends. She says yes, and he starts running back towards staircase A, into the distance. I wasn't able to ask him if I could go with him, and for that I feel frustrated and bad. He didn't notice me standing there speechless and waiting to speak at all! It's like I wasn't even there the whole time! Well I don't think that, I'm really just having vague 'forever alone' thoughts and feelings come to me. I impulsively follow him. Everyone is wearing light winter coats. It is snowing very lightly, and there is snow about a foot and a half deep on the other side of the drive in road of the school on the side toward the park, while the snow in the main grass area in the middle is also either about a foot deep, deeper, or lightly buried that you can see some grass. As I am walking toward my brother leaving the school and starting up to the middle area, I am playing with my cellphone, and it makes a loud noise that I don't even recall now from reading my notes. Then I am playing with some kind of thin chord from my cellphone that could be a part of a headphone. I trip and fall into the snow as I cross the drive in road toward the park, and hide in the snow, for the first time noticing and watching my brother play snowball fight. I then notice that the sliding part of the cellphone and the thin chord has submersed into ice cold snow, and am worried that it will break. I somehow check if it still works. Then I continue watching my brother. I feel left out, and want to reach out to him but he is so far away, and if I did, it would be awkward and embarrassing.

Then I wake up.

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This next dream I only clearly remember the part with Liz eating a butterfly. The rest is a very foggy memory of being on a bus with some awkward moments among friends that I blame on myself.

I'm not sure if we were also on a bus at this part or not, but it appeared to be a dark, small or hidden, location. I am there with Lauren and Liz. Liz is sitting on a bench or some higher seat above me and Lauren, and Lauren and I are looking slightly up at her. I don't see Lauren face very often in this fragment. Both of our eyes are focused on just Liz. I actually remembered completely clearly every single word and a phrase that stood out, that Liz said to us, and our responses. We are talking about butterflies for some reason. Liz says she hates butterflies, and starts eating one. We see her eating one, but it's like a thought form imagination that we each share or something, because none of us think she is actually eating a butterfly. The butterfly looked a little foggy as well. Then, to tease us even more, Liz uses a Harry Potter wand she had laid out beside her and casts and quick spell to manifest a real butterfly. It was a very large butterfly - noticing after waking up from the dream - but none of us questioned the size, we all knew it was real. She slowly starts eating the butterfly, tearing off the wing material from it's stems, one area by one. My and Laurens' reactions to this include super sad partially fake crying, yelling, "NO!!"'s, "STOP IT"'s, and EWW's. I am feeling very sad seeing this happen. In the end, she tore off 3 sections of the left wing. We were all so sad. The butterfly was very beautiful and very still while this was going on. It looked like a monarch, but was blue.

Observation: I seem to unknowingly control the situation in the dream by having hopes about something and worries about something. Ie: With Mr. Gamble, he rarely ever stop talking in real life, but in this dream I really wanted him to not talk so much as he does, and somehow felt like I had a bit of control over this by commanding it in my mind, and it worked! Maybe if I learn to notice these control coincidences and increased law of attraction in dreams, I will be able to recognize I can control things much more easily and thus have a lucid dream.

Well, it all started in my middle school. Everyone was all scared because of a guy in a purple cape (who abducted my sister) was chasing after us. Me and my friend from middle school were running away from him together. When we were in a large hallway on the 1st floor where the lockers are, (It was so crowded that the guy in the purple cape didn't see us), my friend told me to go back home to get swimming trunks (i dont know why):confused: but anyway, i decided to go back home to get them, but i was hoping that he was gonna be ok. So, i opened a window and flew in the direction to go home. While flying, i had a weird sensation that i was dreaming. So, i landed at an intersection where the Marlboro Public Library was and the 3 roads connecting Route 520 and Wyncrest RD. I then realized that i was dreaming and got pretty excited, but i didn't wake up. Everything looked SOOO CLEAR!!! :dreaming: i tried to shoot a Kamehameha (from DBZ) at a nearby tree, but it didn't shoot out so well. it shot out as a little ball with a tail at the end. So then, i found another nearby tree and used Telikenesis to move it back and forth. i just moved my hand back and forth and the tree branches moved too. i then chrunched up my fingers and the tree branches crunched up tight and destroyed itself!!! :evil: But then i remembered my friend back at the middle shcool and tryed to rush home, but i woke up. After waking up, i was so excited that i had my 1st LD! I wrote everything down and my excitement lasted me the whole morning!

This is my first entry and i just want to say that ive had many crazy lucid dreams and i never really wrote them down but this will bring an end to all that.

I started out by trying to do a WILD but got frustrated and knocked out. I ended up having vivid normal dreams and at a point i became lucid for a short amount of time.

Over Drafting in my dreams too!!

I remeber being in a house with my sister during some party she was
having.. there was food n junk food all over the house. We had gone
shopping earlier and we got a lot of junk food and the total was like
300 . Her husband suggested that I help pay for the food, I said sure
and. Was planing to pay 60 because I only had 150 in my pocket. Next
thing I know we r in the car going home and then we are at her house
and the party is almost over. I go up to her with the 60 and she says
its cool I payed half of it with your debt card. I was stunned because
I didn't have money in the bank because I took it out and she said she
would write me a check so. I wouldn't over draft

I own at Call of Duty

The next thing I remember was running around shooting people. Well it
was like I was in a free for all in call of duty. I had a sniper and I
was killing people left and right. Sometimes id shoot them but id
miss. I was tied for first place with 48 kills and I needed a few more
to seal the deal. But I couldn't get that last kill and ended up third
place. Next thing I know

Arms Deal gone wrong

I was in a truck with some people driving towards another truck. Well
I think I was just a point of consciousness witnessing the events.
Anyways was in the truck that was full of armed people. It seems as
though the people around me were selling weapons to the other guys
which where muslim characters. Then we where at the stage for the big
presentation the main seller was in the crowd with the arabs. And
there was 2 girls and one buff guy on stage. The buff guy was showing
off and throwing the guns to the girls and fliping them the main sales
man said for an extra fee he could show them how to do the tricks.

Then I was backstage with the buff guy and one of my friends. I was
there as in my body. We started talking about guns and I was talking
about the sniper rifle I was using earlier and the buff guy knew what
I was talking about and he took one out. We comparied it to the m16
because of the fire rate and my friend was amazed

Then there was something about the main seller trying to have sex with
on of the girls on stage and she was like evil or something. One guy
boned her and ended up being decapitated. Its a blur

Barbecue at Turks

The next thing I remember was that I was in a unfamilar house they
were having a barbecue but I was inside with the owner. He looked like
turk from the show scrubs but he was kinda mixed with one of my
cousins that was kinda weird. He was funny and kept making me laugh.
He then started talking about how the new chappelle show season 5 was
out and how he wanted to get it to complete his collection. I like
chappelle so I stayed with him untill we got it and I wanted to look
through his collection and instead of it beeing dvds they were like
dvd player controlers he had them in bags and told me not to mess them
um or else! Next thing I knew I was out side and wanted to wash my
hands so I walked to the back yard. There was a sponge bob soap
dispenser on top of a car on the trunk and there was these two little
white kids that didn't belong there. There was a van on the street
nearby and their father was standing doing something while his kids
where in the yard.. I grabbed some soap and then the 2 kids (one.
Small girl and a slightly older boy) said that we didn't know how to
take care of spongebob and after I got the soap they wanted some too
so I gave them some and they followed me further into the back untill
we got to the faucet outside for the water hose I turned it on and
started washing my hands. the water was hitting the ground and making
mud and then one of the kids told me look at the kitties! So I look
and there were 2 kitties going through the mud as if looking for
something. The boy said they are hungry and I suggested that they
might be looking for worms to eat. And I told the kids if they knew
cats and dogs eat bugs for the protein. They said ewww.. then they
started washing their hands and the little boy got wet because the
girl couldn't turn off the faucet I scream righty tighty and she
finally closed it. Then right on cue their father comes to us and
starts screaming about how they are gonna be sick because they got wet
and so forth. Then he told me in a sarcastic voice nice barbecue but
where are all the americans. That was a reference to me and the people
there because we r hispanics. And I said we are americans and started
saying stuff about how he was racist but just as I was gonna say other
things I had alot of gum in my mouth and couldn't get it out I
started becoming lucid and woke up instantly

this dream occurred 2 nights in a row a few weeks ago...the first night it was clear enough for me to make out...the second it was more lucid...i would appreciate if anyone has insight on what it could mean...it includes my ex boyfriend who i love very much...we were suppose to get back together in dec 2010..the last things he said to me were i love you and yes i want you here with me...we havent talked since..he wont talk to me and tell me what is goin on....i moved away from him in oct 2010...i woke up shaking and in tears from this dream...


i was here at the house with my kids..just an average day...got a knock at the door..it was my ex boyfriend..i was surprised since we hadnt talked in a while..we talked and it turned into an argument...(unclear of conversation)...i asked him to leave and he did...i went about my business and a couple hours passed..got another knock...i was worried it was him again...to my surprise it was 2 state troopers...i invited them in...they said they got my address from some papers in his car..my ex boyfriend had been in a car accident and was the hospital in icu...i called his mom and let her know and she said the reason he had come up here to me was to come get me and take me back with him...i rushed to the hospital...my husband had to investigate the crash site...he told me there were several things in the car that were mine...letters and a snoopy plush toy (i had given it to my ex the day i left)...his mom finally arrived and wanted to get him back to phoenix...the drs' said not until he is stable...she couldnt stay long cos of work..no one else from his family could come up...i stayed by his side night and day...

Back to my end of the world dreams last night.

This was all perfectly vivid.

Dream starts in a supermarket. It is not the typical sort, this one is on the first floor of a four story building. The layout of the first floor is simple, it is a perfect square and all the isles are lined up one by one with the registers all up in the front. I am in isle with the canned vegetables with my (dream) boyfriend. There is a young woman with blonde hair holding her baby, who is probably around a year old. She is farther back in the isle. Then there is an older woman by herself shopping and she is near my boyfriend and I.

The whole time we have been shopping I have been extremely on edge and trying to hide it. I feel sweaty and cold. Finally I turn to my boyfriend and try to explain to him that something is wrong. He is pretending to listen but I know he isn't paying much attention to what I am saying. I start grabbing cans of food and stuffing them in my purse. This grabs his attention. He wants to know what I am doing and I am panicking, trying to tell him that we need to get everyone upstairs (somehow I have a good idea of the building layout). I am starting to raise my voice and the older woman shopping stops and stares at me. I start trying to convince her, too. My boyfriend tells her something about taking me home and he starts trying to calm me down.

I run up to the front of the store at start shouting at people that something bad is going to happen and that we've all got to get upstairs. They look at me like I'm crazy, of course. I'm shaking uncontrollably and its all quite scary. What I am telling everyone catches the attention of the blonde woman with the baby. She wants to know more and comes closer. Then someone from outside of the store runs in and starts shouting something about water, and finally people are listening.

I have no idea if we are near the ocean or not but we can see a huge wave coming over the freeway far in the distance. It comes closer rather quickly and I get some people to listen to me and start heading for the stairs. It all happens in a rush: the waves crash in the windows, the lights go out in the staircase, and most of us are screaming. I'm trying to usher everyone upstairs.

We get to the top floor and it's just a dark, dusty space. There are nine of us, including the woman with the baby. The older woman didn't make it. I'm crying because I know everyone has died and I tried but nobody listened. We spend several days upstairs and eventually venture down to the second floor, finding it to no longer under water. The same goes for the first floor.

When I walk outside the ground is covered (and I mean covered) in small, green bugs. They look like worms. They're all puffy from soaking up the water. They're trying to climb up my legs and there literally isn't one place they haven't covered completely. We all run back upstairs. I really don't like bugs.

We spend more time there and I am convinced that we should stay, because I think it is important that nobody find us. My boyfriend is the one who decides he will go look around, for help or whatever.

We stay there for some time and eventually the bugs start to go away. When my boyfriend finally returns he is not the same. I don't know what happens in between, but I am out in a field near the supermarket, looking for the others. I am crying because I have lost them, and it felt like my responsibility to be looking after everyone. My boyfriend knocks me to the ground and starts sticking paper-clips (the ends of them, anyway) into my stomach. It really hurt in the dream.

I woke up scratching at my stomach. I wish more of my dreams were pleasant.

Had an amazing nights sleep last night, feeling so refreshed this morning. I fell asleep quite quickly and then found myself naturally waking so took the opportunity to wild. Once again I didn't quite make it to LD but I got to the point where I felt I was at least somewhat disconnected from my body. This happened on 4 separate attempts which all ended in failed reality checks, by the 3rd and 4th attempts I felt much calmer and didn't panic as much - seems like I'm making progress on WILDing quicker than I expected.

In the middle of the night I may have had a slight LD, but I only think this because I remember waking up and trying to tell myself to write down the dream as it was important/exceptional. Unfortunately I have no recollection of this now so if I did LD/work out the meaning of life it's lost on me now.

I woke up at 1130 and decided to give myself more of a lie in (more willing to do this now that I have potential to LD!) and this resulted in me having a very vivid but non lucid dream. It started off at home and it was my girlfriend Emily's birthday, she stayed over at my house but I found out in the morning that she snuck out the night before to go clubbing with two male friends. I get very angry at them all, one of the men is called Nathan who is wearing a brown trench coat. He reminds me of Arnold Schwarznegger in the expendables somewhat.
I go round the corner with a friend (possibly Izaac) and approach the local curry house, they beckon us inside saying that they have free food for him. However when we get inside the dream changes somewhat and the meal is for emily who is at home. I offer to make tea for everybody and whilst I'm doing so Emily turns up. I'm struggling to make the tea and her presence angers me until I give up. Next thing I know we're outside a sweet stall in London where I'm eyeing some blue sweets. I consider stealing them until a fish shaped waffle is placed on the shelf to the side of me where I can just about reach it (imagine being at the short end of a bar). I dismiss this idea as I'm scared of getting caught and instead search the counter in front of me which is made up of 2 overlapping shelves. Searching only results in me getting chewing gum on my hands. The next thing I know somebody grabs me "inappropriately" and I spin around to see who did it, my bad mood from earlier still hasn't worn off. I realise that it is another girl from the group and am actually quite flattered so direct my anger instead towards two young catholic students (according to the folders they were carrying). I shout to everyone that they're not as innocent as everybody thinks they are, and that they are in fact sluts. The teacher is rightly outraged at my abuse to school children but I am pleased as it hides who really did it.

Then I woke up.

Then I realised that my girlfriend is actually an amazing girl and that I can't wait to see her later today.

EDIT: Note to self: Need to look out for major geographical changes as a dreamsign. I dreamt I was at my house, not the halls of residence where I actually am. Opening doors led to hugely different places. Also Emily claimed to have snuck out through the windows which would realistically result in her just sitting on the roof.

I don't know which factor it was this time that helped me remember my dream. I made a few changes this time. I woke up to a gentle alarm at 1am and again at 5am. I had one planned for 3am but I guess I didn't set it, or I turned it off in my sleep (I do that sometimes ).
Also this time I drank some Mugwort tea before bed, and chose to leave out the brainwave and subliminal message apps, sleeping au natural so to speak.

Dream 1 - Fragment

I don't remember this one really, just a vague recollection of living in something similar to the Jersey Shore house () and feeling really overwhelmed with the drama. I remember a distinct feeling of being sick of trying to take care of all of the people in the house.

Dream 2 - Much more interesting - My Indian Wedding on the Día de los Muertos

I have the feeling that this dream was quite long, but I only clearly remember the end of it.
I have dark skin, eyes and hair, which feels a bit strange to me as in life I am quite pale. In my head I reconcile with the fact that I am Indian and then think nothing more of it.

There is another woman with me, a fairly young, yet older than me, professional whom I know to be a plastic surgeon. She is mentoring me, training me to be as brilliant as she is, or at least I get the feeling she is headhunting me to do a fellowship with her.
I seem to have fallen out of favour with her scientific mind because of my faith in some Catholic type religion. At this point I become aware of the surrounding environment and "feel" of the place I am in. It's close to what I have seen on documentaries for the Mexican Day of the Dead. I notice there are red rose petals everywhere too - in the air and all over the ground. I feel like I am in some sort of temple room. I feel like this is a wedding, more specifically, my wedding.

We are purifying me for the holy sacrament, I am fully dressed and draped in beautiful fabrics, cleansed. The professional woman comes to me and kneels beside me, moving the red cards that are scattered there on that specific spot on the floor. I know those red cards are there to represent evil. I sense her disapproval, but I am surprised that she quotes some scripture to me. She purifies herself and then tells me that she plans to adopt me so that I may avoid immigration issues when I come to study with her in Canada.
Then the sound of my alarm.