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I decided on a whim to attempt DEILD as I went gack to sleep after waking up in the morning (I had today off) and I woke up in my room, except there was a poster on the wall. I was immediately lucid.

However, a big note hug from the ceilingnona piece of rope, just beyond my bedroom door. Apparently, I tried to buy a bomb to murder someone who had angered me, and the shopkeeper explained in the note that they had notified the police. For some reasons I forgot that I was in a dream and panicked as I tried to recall when I tried to buy a bomb, and then when I remembered I was in a dream, I simply woke up to escape my situation.

Last night, this was on april 27, not last night. It auto posted on 1st, because it had future task of the month spoilers which I didn't want to reveal till supposed to.

bed - 9:42 pm
GPC (600mgs) - 2:56 am
WBTB - 4 am
Galantamine (8mgs) - 4:43 am

Still heard my 5 am chime, fell asleep shortly after.
LD estimate - 20min long

5:47 am - Woke up from lucids on purpose, so I can write them down. Then went back to sleep, coz I wanted moar.

Didn't have any transitions at all. No head rush. No falling backwards, nothing. I just realized I'm dreaming and stood up.

1. HH - Insect
Oh lol ok, I guess I had a transition. As falling asleep, I hear a HUGE insect flying in the room. I try to move so hard, but can't at all. I realize how bad it must be for those, that see really scary things and can't move away, lol. I'm just waiting for it to get me, haha. But it doesn't.

2. Needles
There I realize I'm dreaming, and I find myself laying on the carpet in some unknown room. 2-3 kids are around me and sticking sowing needles in me. They spilled a bunch of them on the floor and I try to yell at them to pick them up.

I try to move away, but I can't move at all. I try to yell at them to stop, but I can't make a sound. I keep trying, and it almost feels like I can make some sounds from corner of my paralyzed mouth. I try to wiggle tips of my fingers, because I feel like those are moving. I finally roll away from them.

3. Flying in rain
Still in a same room, I hear how it started to rain outside. As I'm listening to it, it rains harder and harder. I'm starting to think that it's maybe happening IWL.

I remember I wanted to suggest this for a TOTM again, and how I loved doing it last time and it's my goal. So I phase through the wall to the outside and fly in the rain. It's awesome. I can feel cold drops hitting my whole body.

4. Empty rooms
At the beginning, while still in the house. I want to get out, as usually. But I decide to open the door to a room instead. I'm scared of what I'll find. But I tell myself why would I find something bad? It's all in my head. I open the white door in a white wall. The room behind it is white and empty. I open another door from this room, and same. White, and completely empty. Some kind of a wall feature under the window, but that's it. I'm kinda anxious to get out anyway, so I get out.

5. Persistent world, only not
I'm in a town. Walking towards a marketplace that's under a roof. I realize I already been there and change direction. I also realize that this is my persistent world. But I also realize, that it's not true, because I don't have it in my other dreams, or at least I don't remember it being there. But in my mind, I see the layout of the town.

6. TOTM - Put on glasses and describe how they change your vision. - fail
I remember this TOTM. I start looking for my glasses while walking through some rooms, but can't find them anywhere. Not even in my pocket.

7. TOTM - Make your phone ring, answer it and tell us who it is and what he wants. - fail
Same area, some kind of indoor marketplace. I remember the phone TOTM. I reach for my phone in my pants leg pocket and I know it's there, because it's always there. I search a bit and I find it between some papers. Same as it is IWL every day.

I think "ring, ring". But it doesn't. I look at the screen, and I see what looks like missed calls, because there are 3 callers. All start with lover case i. One is ijii⁶, rest are very similar.

8. TOTM - Put on glasses and describe how they change your vision. - success
As I'm walking by an opened door to some room, I see my glasses on a cabinet. I walk backwards, lol, to get back to the door, and there they are. I get in, pick them up and put them on. I'm standing by a grapefruit tree. Fruit is beautiful yellow, all sizes.

I look with glasses and I'm paying attention to difference in vision. Without glasses, I can see them very clearly and in great detail. With glasses, the image gets blurry. It surprises me. I lift the glasses up and down and keep comparing. Yup, blurry with glasses.

To make sure, I turn around and start looking at all kinds of pottery. Jugs, plates, cups. All ceramic, beautiful, white with blue flowers and design. I'm trying to see the difference, and again, image gets blurry with glasses. I'm like this can't be the only difference. So I notice how some blue's change into purple with glasses on.

There is a sign on one of the jugs. It says "msmgi's BBQ". I read it as Mismagius's BBQ, haha.

9. Hands - missing ring
I decide to see if I have my ring on. (Just before bed, I decided to put it back on IWL as soon as I get up in the morning, even if I lose more stones. I will replace them. But the ring has a special meaning to me and I I don't want to lose that.)

I lift my hands up. They look just like my real hands. Same shape, size, color. There is no ring, only an indent where it used to be. I reinforce my intent to put it back on in the morning.

10. Airplanes
I look at the skies through some window and opened doors. Some futuristic looking fighter planes are flying by on some late evening, dark stormy cloudy skies. I think (wish) they could be space ships, and I decide to go outside and fly with them. But I feel waking up and I decide to wake up and write down the dreams.

Oh yeah, before that, there was a dude leaning against a wall. I walk up to him and ask him if he wants to do it. He got surprised and is like "what, me"? I'm like yup. He didn't have a problem with that.

The first thing I remember is getting into cold water and then changing into dry clothes lego-city-style(I pressed ZL). [Next Scene: Lucid] I was in what appeared to be my garage, but I was able to see both doors. I flicked the open close switch several times, trying to open the doors. Then I remembered that they would not open unless I expected them to. So then I took 3 seconds to convince myself that the left garage door would open when I flicked the switch. When I flicked it, both doors opened conveniently. (Note: This is where I made the mistake of not remembering to stabilize the dream, even though everything already looked solid and complete when I looked around.) I walked outside, and I found a blue car with the hood up with a bunch of random tools/objects, bench with random stuff, trees all around, and a glove in some webs. Since I wanted to use the glove for something, I said, “I need some supplies,” and got a random object from the car instead of just pulling the glove out of the webs like I would in real life. So, I suddenly decided that I never required the glove in the first place.

Next, I wanted to shapeshift, but I thought that getting ‘super powers’ would assist in it. I said, “Can I have sup—okay, I wish I had super powers.” It did help quite a bit, I said slowly, “I wish I was a wolf.” (<-- I had been planning this since I was in the garage) I slowly morphed into a wolf. It didn’t complete so I will try again more slowly next time. Next, Dad came over and showed me a sculpture that induced fake memories. I said, “I wish I had a tail,” and suddenly, without warning, in no time flat, without me expecting it, the scene flips into a non-lucid dream where a crazy guy is transforming life forces (depicted by a 1-inch star) into alien bodies. The third time the guy attempted it, the classic cartoon fail happened—the star bounced on the metal floor and went into a slightly bigger alien body than what it was intended to go into. Then the guy said something, put an octagonal shape high on a tree, and I woke up.
Apparent Lucid Trigger: Garage
Time: 2-3 minutes

1/28/13 (L)x2 Value: 0 | Generic Lucid 1
-I went outside during the night, and looked into the sky. I wanted to fly, so I ran onto the street. Some boys came out of the bushes and it suddenly became daytime. Still trying to fly. Went down the street to try to fly, then woke up.
-I was in my room and became lucid, tried to shapeshift, and woke up.
Lucid Triggers: 10*, field*, c, digital clock

6/29/13 | Disaster Dream
Carter and Andy (Eureka) were in a strange, small town. Once random things started happening, such as the Majora’s Mask moon appearing over the town, everybody, including me, fled towards the barriers. They opened once we got there. Also, people were swimming in the lake that the barriers were placed over. |1st barrier: 69 mph wind; 2nd: 73 mph wind| Things started exploding.

Task of the Month

I'm with some people in the basement of a big house and we have some work to do here. While we are working there's a big screen on the right and a movie of a snorkel trip is being played. I wonder why my grandfather and Franz happened to have this trip together as I see Franz floating with two black suitcases in his hand. My grandpa still sits on the boat and wears big, colored sunglasses and then jumps into the water. When I stand up I think that all this is kind of strange and make my RC by pluging my nose. Since I can breathe normally, I know that I'm dreaming, but to make sure I keep the nose pluged for a while.
Then I want to attack the target with my mobile phone and I think that I have put it outside on the cellar stairs. I rub my hands together to stabilize the dream. When I leave the room I see that the staircase is empty and I turn to a long chest of drawers behind me. Again, I try to convince myself that I have put my mobile phone here and this time I see an old little cell phone lying on the chest of drawers. It is not my current mobile phone but one that I had many years ago, it even has keys, but for the task I'll have for it it will suffice. I pick up and look at the mobile phone while concentrating and clarifying to myself once again that it is all a dream. Then I loudly command the mobile phone to ring and a second later the mobile phone actually rings. On the small screen a confused composition of letters and numbers is displayed, which makes no sense, but still I answer the call quickly to not waste my chance. I answer with a simple "yes" and a voice on the other side of the line welcomes me and asks how I am. First of all I want to find out who the man is and I ask "who is there". The voice says something as an answer which I can not understand and I say that I have bad reception and I did not understand. The next words I can clearly understand and the boy tells me his surname and adds that we where supposed to do a science project together back in the days. Now I remember and greet the boy with his first name, which has come back to me by now and then I ask him how he is. During the telephone call, I walk around the house and look around, most of the doors are locked and especially those that lead outside are blocked by heavy objects. I'm standing in front of the kitchen and my counterpart no longer responds. Surprised, I put the phone aside and see Lisa cleaning something in front of me in the kitchen. I go to her and ask her where the trash is, but then simply open the right flap under the sink and throw the cell phone into the garbage. The trash almost goes over and I have to push down forcefully.
I tell her that the trash is quite full and then look at her more closely, she is still a little girl and has hardly aged a day since I last saw her. Since I have fulfilled my goal now I am satisfied and look around the house. Again, I stabilize the dream by rubbing my hands together. I am once again fascinated how real everything looks and then go to a small baby that lies on a couch. I touch it on the arm and am fascinated by the sensation. As the baby almost loses his blanket, I pull it up again and wake it up inadvertently. While the baby cries, I go over to the other side to cover it, but it only cries for his mother. That is strange as the baby is way to young to talk. I see that the blanket is attached to the child with strange black belts. As I look to the left, I see Lisa standing there and she just looks at me, then I lose the dream and wake up.

Did a little mindfulness meditation before. Had a dream about zombies and whatever. Went to a restaurant to order some fish meal or whatever. I heard a loud beeping noise. I thought it was coming from my wallet so in front of the cashier I was hitting the wallet violently. The cashier told me the beeping probably meant my identity was stolen. Turns out it was my alarm clock.

Saturday night I had a dream I was looking at the floor but it was complete darkness. I could not see the object but knew it was a safety pin. That is all I remember. I woke up in the morning to find a large safety pin on my dresser that was not previously there. I have lived in this home for 10 months and have never seen one safety pin nor have had immediate access to one.

I have a roommate and checked with her and she had no idea how it got there. I am not sure what this means, if anything. Just find it strange.

Date of Dream: MON 1 MAY - 2017



Dream No. 105 - Stop Calling Me

Someone was attacking me, but I forgot who it was. And so I did the usual, I called out for WB but this time, she was really hard to get. I eventually saw two girls that had some swapped over features. One looked like WB but spoke like KM while the other one looked like KM but spoke like WB. I had a hard time identifying which one was actually WB. One by one, I closely examined them both and figured that it was the one that looked like KM because she did have a small adopted feature of WB's “fat lips”.

When I pointed out that I knew it was her, her features started to morph completely in to WB alone. I yelled out, “WB!” in relief and quickly hugged her but then as I started to hear some slight growls, I quickly let go. She then got angry at me and was almost yelling now, she said in a low, loud voice “stop calling me” and my answer was “but I'm about to die!” in a distressed tone. And then she left me and soon I discovered where she was actually going. She was going to Ms L to tell on me! And then for the rest of the dream, I had to find ways to hide from the attacker myself. That's all I can remember.



This has definitely got to be the real WB... Dreamy WB wouldn't act as brutal and she would have taken the attacker out in no time. It seems that when I call out for WB in a stressful situations, I want Dreamy WB but the probability of that is only a 50/50 chance. When it's a less stressful dream, I don't mind who comes.

Dreams from 30/4/2017

5.40- 7.10am
Weird office. A woman is trying to set permissions on a set of files. I slide in a folder from the side of the touchscreen. She tells me to press the red button. My arm is now stuck down to the side of me and refuses to move. I try clicking a button, pretending to be holding the mouse, but it doesn't seem to work. It is toggling something else on the screen - a record button.

The woman leans in, blocking the screen. I try putting on a pair of headphones and start hearing what sounds like a horror movie soundtrack.

Later on I carry some purple curtains through the office and put them down. Things seem off. It's a dream. I touch the walls to stabilise/RC. The walls are rough, painted brick.

Remembering the new TOTM bonus, I declare out loud that this room is in a tower of my mind. There will be an elevator behind me. Turning around there is now a door, but it leads to a bathroom. Another attempt and an elevator door appears. It is shut and there is no button to open it. I force my fingers into the tiny gap and prise it apart.

Several other DCs join me in the shiny, mirrored, stainless steel interior of the lift. There are only two buttons, up or down. One goes to press the up button. "No. We're going to the lowest level." I command him. He steps back. The doors do not close but the elevator starts to move down.

We pass through several different levels, including a scenic landscape and then others that are dark. Lower still. The lift stops at a scene of a construction site. Everyone steps out of the elevator and starts looking around. There are a few motorbikes riding around the half finished buildings and frames of others waiting to be built.

I start flying over/ through the frame of what will be a large building. Further away a biker stops and a white van pulls up, blocking him in. A bunch of guys jump out and try to lift the bike into the van. I land and run over to them. They yell at me not to interfere, drawing guns.

Fucking bike thieves... uncontrollable rage fills me. They try to shoot me. Easy to ignore. There is no pain, just anger. I grab the closest thief and throw him to the ground. Then I grab the motorbike, lift it with inhuman strength and throw it at another guy standing by the van. It crashes into him, pinning him to the ground.

The other thieves try to grab me and hold me down. My pulse is racing and I am losing control. Realising this, I make an attempt to fly away and calm down, but wake up instead.

7.30- 8.30am
Don't recall the non-lucid part. Felt like a really long dream.

Already lucid... I call down a bird that is flying in the sky. It looked small but when it lands on my head it is about the size of a cat! I transfer the bird to my hand. It is a large brown, fluffy, baby blackbird. It chirps at me and I move the bird to sit on my shoulder. (There is a baby blackbird with an injured wing in our back garden in RL. It will not fly. The neighbours' cat will probably kill it soon. Not much we can do.)

Then there is a section inside a building... I climb up large steps and phase out of a window.

Outside on the porch, a small helicopter is waiting. No pilot inside, so I climb in and take off. A woman climbs into the passenger side. It is rather cramped in here. We fly over a landscape filled with criss-crossing bridges with trains on them. There are other helicopters, some of them get very close to us. We narrowly avoid crashing with high speed trains. Finally I land in a street.

A car nearly crashes into us. I shove it away into a building using super strength like the last dream. The family from inside the car get out and start following me around. Kind annoying. I couldn't really think what to do, so started looking around for ideas. The woman following me is dark skinned and beautiful.

I start paying her some attention and kiss her, right in front of the guy who is presumably her husband. He doesn't seem to care. I ask her to perform a sexual act on me. At first there is a bit of communication error, but after some coaxing she gets the idea. However, it's not great. It is not long before I've lost interest.

After this I start thinking about what to do next and remember the bonus TOTM, that I completed in the previous lucid, but decide to have another try. The woman follows me into a building and we get into an elevator. We go down in the elevator for a long time. "Is this it?" I ask, seeing only darkness outside.
"This is only floor 16." Says a guy who just appeared in the elevator with us.

I want to keep the dream going, realising that this has been a long dream and the beginning is already forgotten. Finally we step out into a street filled with houses with sold signs outside. People are standing in a crowd in the street. The unknown male DC talks about them being nazis and jews, trying to "sort the whole thing out." I think how unlikely that is.

I start flying over the street and land in a market. They are selling a weird variety of stuff. One stall owner tells me they are all moving out, and need to get rid of things.

Didn't realize that it's almost the deadline in Eastern time. Let me write these out really quickly. I have been visiting my parents and also recovering from the effects of finals, so my sleep has been very deep lately. As a result, I haven't had lucidity these last few nights :/ Oh well. It's a work in progress and I can't give up, right? At least I have been sleeping 8 hours a night, which feels AMAZING. But tonight I will be getting around 7 because I have a super early plane flight.

Dreams from April 28-29:
- Some lady I know (can't remember who) was telling me that Britney Spears was in a romantic relationship with another woman. She was living the boring life of a housewife. I accidentally rubbed against her while I was flying (I have NO IDEA what this means, but it was in my note about my dream that I wrote in the middle of the night), and I realized the lady (Britney Spears' significant other) was actually the lady I was talking to.

- I had to take a test in band for some reason (my band class doesn't have tests). It was really hard because the pictures and the notes kept changing. Normally this would've clued me in to the fact that I was dreaming, but my sleep was too deep.

- I was no longer first on the waiting list for Technical Communication. Someone had changed the time, professor, and waiting list -- I was like 4th or 5th instead of 1st (which I am in the waking world). I was livid.

April 29th-30th:
- A tornado occurred from different types of winds meeting.
- I talked to one of my friends about the programming lab we were working on, and how long it took for me to code portions of it.

...And that's it. 5 dream fragments = 2.5 points.

I am laying in bed. Time to leave. I jump on my bed a little, doing back flips until the dream hardens. I then jump through the roof. Bounce off of a cloud toward Heijo Palace remains. I didn't realize that this isn't called a castle by Japanese, but I think it still counts.


I am planning on jumping up to the top the castle where my own Dragon will be at, but as I land on the grounds, I see that the dragon is much bigger than last time I saw him. I still don't have a name for him.
"You left me!" He screams. He is still blue, but more shinny than before. all of his scales are extended with long clear crystals, probably a normal part of his life. Still young, just a big freaking dragon tho.
"I didn't have enough ability before to take care of you." I reply, flying towards his face "I knew you would be strong enough to handle yourself. You aren't my pet. You are part of this world."

I jump onto his back. Flying through the sky toward Osaka. I create a vortex inside a cloud ahead, teleporting us to a copy of the real world and out of Zödra. Over the mountain. I head towards Osaka Castle.

He sets the bottom ablaze and continues to spread the fire all around the base. I motion for him to back up and create a quick barrier around the castle, then I create another one around a much bigger area, forcing all of the oxygen from the bigger one directly towards the flame, causing the entire castle to burst into flames even more. Then the oxygen ran out and there was just a heap of ash on the rocks. I use the barrier and incinerate the inside, the molecules all losing their connections to each other and no two connected atoms inside after it is done.

Day 1: wbtb 4:30 am

Game (Full nld)

Just me playing a game. Started I was watching TV of it and then I was inside. I was far in the game going through a big abandoned building killing zombies. I tried to escape through a route on a large beam but ended up dying.

I went through the memory card on my console and knew I had a saved game from beyond what I was just playing. For a while i couldn't find it. But i did and remarked to Asuka that I finally found it. I loaded the game, and now I was in a large field. My avatar had a yellow hat that didn't fit with the rest of the outfit so I went to find a brown hat in the menu. No brown hat so I setled on a black one. Went on flaying in a field but then came to a house fighting Zombies.

Day 2: wbtb 2:30 AM

Bjork's Inner World.

I remember being in a garage with Data and Asuka. Data was messing around with a weird mechanical box. He was explaining that dreams of famous people are protected by high security dream algorithms making it hard for any dreamer to just stumble into a Celeb's dreams. He said this would just be a test and we weren't going to go to my desired target's dreamscape but someone else's. I wasn't sure what he was talking about and I asked who. He said that it was a surprise and that Asuka had come up with the idea of whom. He turned a dial and...

I was suddenly alone on a cold beach with no sand but small pebble rocks. I may have heard singing in the distance but wasn't sure exactly where it was coming from. A small piece of paper blew against me and I picked it up and unraveled it. I read some words that didn't make sense. The writing was grey and hard to read. Then a single word showed up in blue ink: Bjork.

Suddenly I found myself in a nice house. Bjork was there and she was shivering. I talked with her a bit but can't recall what was said. She would go to a window and close it. And a few seconds later it or another window was open again. There was some guy running around opening the windows. Everytime he did that another more colorful version of Bjork would emerge from her body and yell at the man in a language I couldn't understand and then disappear back into her body.

The conversation was warm and kind. We kept walking and eventually I went after the man opening the windows and told him to stop it because It was clearly making Bjork cold. He said he was trying to help her. I argued that it wasn't helping her and just pissing her off. The other version of Bjork ran out of her and chased the man away and she was screaming. Bjork just smiled at that and we kept walking towards a living room. I was staring at her because sometimes she seemed so young and other times looked a lot older. She was wrapped in a white shawl and i said, "Bjork, Bjork... " and she turned to me. "She's so loud," i said. Alluding the Bjork that had run out of her, "But YOU, You're so quiet." The last part I was whispering. I was referencing one of her songs of course. She smiled in a, "that was cheesy but I'm going to let him get away with it." manner.

"I know," she said and smiled devilishly. I wondered if this was really her. Every second that ticked made the dream so much more vivid. We leaned against one another and found a couch. We embraced there and started kissing. It felt so real. I was too excited and woke up.

Bjork again (Frag)

Asuka was leading me down a hallway and saying that Bjork was in my inner world and waiting for me. I was groggy and confused. I saw Bjork sitting on a couch and she reached out to me but I woke again.

Basement fight (full nld)

I just remember I was in some sort of house with some bad people inside. I wandered into a basement and the bad people were on the steps. I Started punching one guy with glasses, but that didn't work. I had something like a flame thrower that wasn't lit. and I started spraying everybody with gas right in the face. The guys backed down the steps a bit in pain. I didn't know how to light the flame thrower. The guy with glasses pulled out a match and handed it to me. Um okay so he was okay with me lighting him and everyone else on fire? That didn't make sense, was he trying to light me on fire as well? I didn't trust it. I threw down the match book and ran back upstairs.
Some other stuff happened but forget it now.

Third night: wbtb 5:30 am

Trump (frag)

Just an image of Trump pushing a wheelbarrow uphill filled with large lime stone rocks. He got tired so he began trying to eat one of the large rocks...

Motel (full nld)

I was in a weird small town out in the countryside. I went into a motel office and paid for a cheap room. The place was three floors and all the doors were from an inside hallway. I went and looked into each and every single room and found that they ALL were empty. Every room was the same. I did this for half an hour. then I left and started walking in a green field.

Fight (Full nld)

I was back at that town with my brother? and some other people. Some weird mech guy attacked me and I had two swords. I was using them for shields to bloc his attacks.

Much of the fight was sped up until a part where I landed on my back. The had three arms with whirring blades at the ends of his hands or where his hands should be. I stabbed through the center of what looked like steel blades. Nothing happened at first but I penetrated the first blade then second and third. Each time blood would spatter from where I stabbed him. He eventually got impaled all the way through my swords. I remember thinking it was strange how metal could bleed... I got up and threw the swords aside and when I looked at them they were chinese double broad swords. I thought it should have been impossible to kill the guy with these swords...

I got back to the group and we walked away talking about the fight.

Some themes I noticed from last week...

1. Lots of family present in my dreams.
2. Items I was stressing out about (relationship and work wise) were present. At one point I dreamed about money, and I think I symbolickly walked away from it as a way to show that it shouldn't dominate my life.
3. Dreaming a lot about PA and my past.

Went lucid once.

4/23 - Grandma’s house. Pop pop was alive, aunts and cousins were there. Child who could be mine was there. Watched movie.

4/24 - Went Lucid! Underground at CBP. Did mantra and counted fingers. Sort of could control my dream. May have lost lucidity. Ferris wheel. Harness that went over shoulders. Harness wasn’t working but able to stay in it. Then dreamed I was at work training. Man came in who was withdrawn from position.

4/25 - Vivid dream. At casino with cousin for night out. Wearing a purple dress with white flowers. Tank top style with inch straps with black cardigan that I actually own. Heels but changed into black flat pointy shoes. Walked around with cousin then by myself. Saw Stan from Golden Girls and said that I looked beautiful. Casino was like combo of PA and Vegas. Outside then my dad and girlfriend showed up. Wearing a salmon colored sweater and kissed me and said hi. Had another dream about a movie starring me. Movie had to do with me going back in time to change my past to change my future. Was able to reverse bullying in elementary school.

4/26 - Dreamed about art competition at work going on. Romy (guy from my previous company that I had a friends with benefits relationship with) came to work for the warehouse I currently work for. He was there doing the forklift test. Waved and said hi and talked. Told boss and colleague that I used to work with him, but don’t go into details about how we know each other. Told them he is a hard worker but crazy. Haven’t thought about him in a while.

4/27 - My boyfriend and I split up. Lived in a diff’t shore town, like combo of LBI and Philly. We went to a cobblestone restaurant. Argued, and there was another person present, like my ex’s brother. Going back and forth about breaking up. Both said I don’t know why I’m still with you. Shur Save. Back home (time table in dream makes no sense). Sitting on hill near grandma’s house and could see house. Got 2 Farmer’s Ice Teas and tried to get chicken sandwich out of vending machine. There was a lot of money near vending machine. Didn’t take money. Thought we could get back together if I didn’t take it. “Bible quotes” Men can drink and women shouldn’t. Said that I’ wouldn’t quit drinking, and that he was acting like my ex boyfriend’s brother. Dreamed about church (like Russian Orthodox) Went on adventure and talked to priest about Catholic journey.