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I was riding a roller coaster and decided that I was in a LD so I could do better than this. Flew around a bit. I started to wake up so I laid perfectly still and didn't open my eyes. I woke up in my basement laying on the stairs. I was lucid but I wasn't thinking straight. My mom was there and I didn't want her to know I was LDing. I could hardly move in this one and I felt myself melting into the stairs. The stairs started to stretch and twist and sunk down deep. It was like being on some really strange acid.

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[I]
The following entries were all during a nap from around 3:30pm to 6pm. Keep in mind that my first lucid dream was also during a nap, and in this one I remembered more dreams than I typically do in one night.[/I]

[B]Dream 1[/B]
Was talking with a friend who wanted to work for me (?) which is funny because I don't have a business of any sort. Somehow we got to talking about the Super Bowl and I told him that I couldn't care less about the Super Bowl. [I]Short dream[/I].

[B]Dream 2[/B]
Was going out to eat with my parents in a sort of mini-mall with three stores: one being the restaurant and the other two being a coffee shop and Barnes and Noble. My dad was going to reserve us a seat and asked my mom to get him a coffee while he did that, so I asked my mom if I could go get a book in the meantime. As a result of my lucid dream obsession lately, the book I had in mind was "Exploring Lucid Dreaming" by Steven LaBerge. [I]I'm planning on getting that in real life soon, but the last time I was in Barnes and Noble I didn't know about that book but was indeed looking for lucid dreaming books, which I couldn't find and was too embarrassed to ask a clerk about it, and all the search computers there are for just the clerks to use[/I]. Anyways, upon entering the section of the mall where the book store is, a clerk told me that they were closed, but I knew for some reason that she just said that, when I asked when they close at she said 8:15, it was 8:08 :shock:, should have been a cue that I was dreaming.

Anyways, I was going to go down the stairs into the main area, but it looked massive and I didn't want to happen what happened when [I]I went searching for lucid dreaming books in real life, getting odd looks entering the "Self Help" section, infested with only middle aged women.[/I] So instead I looked for computers to tell me what section the book was in, as this way I could get in, get my book, and get out quickly. I found a circle of computers, but they didn't have the usual Barnes and Noble search program they have all the computers on there, but instead it was just running a regular Windows OS (I think 2000, the one with the bottom menu gray). I didn't find my book so I nervously asked a clerk as I was running out of time. She directed me to the place and I found a different lucid dreaming book what was similar to what I was looking for.

I don't remember checking out my book at the register, but going back to the restaurant and looking down at the book in the see-through bag they give you, so I must have paid at some point :P. When I looked at the book, this time it was the Steven LaBerge book and not the one I had bought! This should have been a clear cut dream cue, just goes to show you how bad I am at this...

[B]Dream 3[/B]
My friend was asking me for his running shoes back [I](we're both on cross-country team and I borrowed his shoes on Thursday when he wasn't there because I forgot mine [irl][/I]), we were right next to my locker and I opened them up and gave them to him. He was then telling me about how he was upset that I did this because he needed them, and then I explained to him that he didn't need them because we didn't have practice Friday, Saturday, or Sunday, and it was Monday, so he wouldn't have ever needed them in between. He stopped arguing, as if he was just making sure I was paying attention or something.

[B]Dream 4[/B]
This dream was really odd, and I only remember parts of it which don't seem to fit together well. I was with a friend who isn't all that bright. We were in some sort of odd but mystical world that felt to be inhabited by evil presence of some sort. Anyways, there were these objects that we needed to break for some reason. One looked like a stone bowl, another two were like these plant pots made of cement that were sort of decorative, and the third was like a wooden palate that forklift things carry.

We tried two things, throwing them on the ground and hitting them with a hammer, but I deduced that because they were "shape-shifters" we needed to do both at once to break them, which worked to an extent but the timing was all off, which doesn't make any sense. All I remember was that the timing was off, but we were slowly breaking up one of the palates but couldn't entirely because the timing was off. Another odd but funny part was that as I was trying to break it, my not so bright friend was attempting to use slices of white bread to hold it together. Really odd.

Boy, do I have weird dreams, which also aren't very exciting. I wanted to nap because I had my first lucid the last time I napped around this time. Why is it that I dream more during naps? And why do they also seem more vivid? Just wish I could have another lucid.

My bags by my feet, elbows resting on the railing, I take in the breathtaking view of the canyon behind Chris' house for what I know will be the last time.

I hear a sliding glass door open and close behind me, but ignore it until I hear a voice. "Do you mind if I smoke out here?"

Annoyed slightly by the interruption, I quip back without turning around "If I say yes, will that actually stop you from smoking, or will you just move further down and pretend the smoke can't possibly bother me from there?"

Turning around now to watch Brad's reaction, I give him my best stone cold gaze.

Brad gives a surprised laugh, holding up both his hands in protest, one hand grasping onto a pack of Marlboros and one of those cheap plastic gas station lighters. "Okay then, I guess you want to be alone.." muttering under his breath ".,jeez."

I smile slightly now, leaning back against the railing "No really, it's just a question. I'm interested. If I said that I minded, would you really go back inside?"

He looks at me perplexed, not sure if he should tell me the truth. "I probably would just not smoke, considering I was just using it as an excuse to talk to you more."

"Ah," I falter now, looking away from his eyes and turning back around to face the canyon, wondering why he would bother wanting to talk to me. "Well you can smoke if you want."

Brad takes this as an invitation, and steps up next to me. He has already put the cigarettes and lighter back in his pocket. "So you're leaving, huh?"

I nod awkwardly, I never like to talk about my travels, because it always leads to a lie. "Yep, just waiting on the cab. he said he was about ten minutes out"

Brad nods back, trying his hardest to make eye contact with me, and finally succeeding. "Where to?"

I shrug and half sigh, knowing this is where the lie comes in. I had made plans a few hours before to rent out the entire Turtle Inn resort in Belize. I needed to feel alone to deal with the issue of losing Chris, my only friend and confidante that has come close to knowing the "real me" after all these years. I still hadn't bought the plane ticket though, I decided to wait until I got to the airport for that. So I wasn't completely lying to him.

Instead of all that, I reply "I don't know. I usually figure that out when I get to the airport."

Brad raises an eyebrow. "Really."

More awkward nodding "Really. It's the best way to travel. No expectations, no strings, no plans."

"And you do this all alone?" his eyes search mine questioningly, and I mistake the look for pity.

Defensively, I reply "Yes, I always go alone."

I can hear the cab roll up the driveway and he honks twice.

"That's my cue." I mutter as I scoop up my bags and start walking towards the driveway. "Bye."

Brad looks at my back wistfully as I walk away "Huh" he says to himself, still trying to figure me out. "See you later!" He calls out to me.

I put a hand up and wave without turning around, thinking "Yeah right"

"LAX please.." as I hand the cabbie my duffel bag and he closes the door behind me. As we drive away, I don't look behind me.

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[I]After recording dreams for around two weeks, even though I was too lazy to record every one, I finally had my first lucid dream[/I]. I was in a bathroom filled with very creepy looking men, not paying attention to me, but just normally moving about the room. I spotted one that I remembered from a previous dream ([I]I think I have a lot of short little dreams because whenever I wake up from one I always remember some aspect of it being from some earlier dream I have no recollection of but that aspect, usually people.[/I]) Think this guy was a sex offender on the loose or something. I then spotted my mother weaving through the room who had also heard the news about this guy so she was searching around the city for bathrooms in case I was there :P. She's always told me to never go to the bathroom alone, haha

Anyways, I can't remember what the conversation was, but eventually I got to saying "Wait, we're lucid, lets go catch this guy and turn him in, we won't get hurt because its a dream!" [I]However, this is unimportant as this wasn't actually a lucid action, probably just the result of me thinking about lucid dreaming before sleeping.[/I]

After agreeing, we were in a car driving fast and about to go down this sloped road which turned into a T, so if we kept going straight we would hit the buildings. [COLOR="green"]Suddenly, I realized I was lucid, not too sure of the trigger, but I did. Instantly, I wanted to test if I could control anything so I thought "Fly" and I sort of jumped out of the car through the roof and then it got weird. Everything turned into super slow-mo, so I was sort of levitating upwards slowly. My ears started ringing, I could feel the hairs on the back of my neck rising in my bed, and my heart was racing.

A creepy looking guy in one of those hats that cover your face was staring at me from the road as I was levitating, and all the hectic from the last paragraph was continuing. Those two combined really made me nervous and scared, I wanted to have a calm, cool lucid dream, so I tried to change the scene. I closed my eyes in attempt of doing this, but when I opened them[/COLOR] I saw the dreadful clock in my room.

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I was a member of the Manchester United squad (soccer team) and was practicing with them. Instead of being in the training center, we were running back and forth on a road next to the training center. Apparently the team needed to make changes to how things were run, because new rules were being implemented, and the manager (coach) was telling us funny stories about the past, in a reminiscent way. I woke up in the middle of this, short dream.

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Dream 1
Started off with me talking about lucid dreaming with my cousin Les, who was preparing to give a speech at this banquet hall we were at, that or he already had given one. Then I remember receiving odd texts from someone I beleive we decided was the Devil (lol), but I can't remember what was said.

Then we were in a bus moving fast, but I can't remember the transition into the bus, may have been a separate dream. Noticed that we were in the top layer of a double decker bus in which the top layer was horizontally across the other bus, but crossed at the back making a T shape, but remember thinking this was odd because there was nothing holding the busses together. Was getting flashed scenes of a SUV of people travelling fast, presumably trying to catch up to our bus, and they were on the phone with someone who wanted them to go faster. I think I deduced that this was the devil, whom I was texting earlier.

Was talking with a friend about the weirdness of the bus, who told me it was just a new kind of bus, although I still found it odd as the lanes were still the same width. Eventually SUV caught up with us and I now realized that my cousin was still with us. The man in the SUV was moving out of the sun roof with a knife, planning to kill my cousin with it by jumping through the open window at him. My cousin pulled out a skinny looking pistol, if that makes any sense. Turned in a weird fashion and shot him, and I woke up.

Dream 2
I was at school, about to open my locker which was at a different location than it usually is. A very tan old guy came up to me and told me that my dad did a job for him (my dad works with cars) and asked me if I could get something from my dad for him. I agreed and he then asked me how I was doing. I realized I was opening the wrong locker and I moved over to another one and the code worked on that one. He kept talking, telling me a bunch of weird sounding business tidbits, like that the "middle market is falling out" and that we need to "get back to the local polish market", and I woke up while he was still talking.

I recorded this dream and the others in a few entries that follow this one on paper, but I'm not putting them online here.

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First recorded dream in my notebook.

I was in my room playing video games with my one friend named John along with another person I can't remember. The room was cramped and I went to turn on the lights because of this :P, even more odd that the lights were already on until I arrived at the light switch. The lights would not turn on, so I went outside to the hallway to try the lights there because it might be that the power was off. In the hallway were a bunch of bed frames, without mattresses, or baby cribs, not too sure. In the corner of my eye, I could see a man who I remembered from an earlier dream walking into our house down on the first floor (I was on the balcony hallway). He was wearing all turquoise clothing for some reason, and from the earlier dream I think I deduced that he was harmless but, known for wandering people's houses. I started screaming at him to leave, but he would not respond nor leave, I woke up as I was screaming.

Tigress and I are in a bar in California with animal heads on the walls. We are getting shitfaced drunk.

We are talking about how stupid dreams are, and we hate having? what?

Are we reallly drunk?

I wake up in bed in my old house in Massachusetts.

Nate? Is that you? No, it's MoSh. Uh... Raven and Tigress walk in.

Then we are suddenly on the Moon.

Weird.

I am moving into a new apartment with my family. There are other people living there, a man and his adult son. The son ,whose name is David, is a few years younger than me and attending college. After moving in, I go out onto a walkway that faces a courtyard in the middle of the building. The courtyard is completely filled with water, and it is very deep. The walkway has no guardrails. As I walk, I see my daughter heading for the edge, before I have time to react, David pulls her from the edge. After securing her inside, David and I continue to walk. Suddenly, he pins me to the wall. He leans in to kiss me. I shrug out from under him. "Don't be silly," I say. "I'm married."
"So what if you are?" he answers.
"I love my husband." I look at him with sad eyes. I hate hurting people.
He stops and looks at me. "If I were more fit, had abs and stuff, would you want me?"
I sigh. "If I were single, I'd give you a chance, but anything that might be between us is not worth losing him over. I really do love him."
I continue to walk. As I walk past an open closet. David backs me into it and closes the door. He pins me again and starts to kiss my neck. I push him off of me. "You just don't get it, do you?" I look at him angrily, my eyes demanding an answer.
He looks defeated. "I'm sorry. I'll stop."
I try to open the door, but it is locked. I bang on the door and scream, but nobody seems to hear. I decide that nobody is coming, so I sit on the floor next to the door. I see a figure drawn on the door (I don't remember what it was) and markers in a case affixed below it. I begin to color in the figure. I am almost done when the door opens. It is my husband. I throw my arms around him, glad to see him and glad to be saved. He pulls me aside. "Did he do anything to you?"
I glance at David, naked defeat in his eyes. "No, it was an accident," I answer.
After we all leave the room, I pull David aside. "I'm sorry I had to hurt you," I tell him. "If I had met you first, maybe there could have been something between us, but I love him. I can't lose him."

Future wife (Fragments)

I was in a house, with this fat girl. She was my girlfriend or wife and all of my family was there. We were really close on a bed and were having sex. We woke up in the morning and my family was still there. We were often close.

Cop outside

Me and my friend Rex were in a house that I've never been in before. It had an up and downstairs to it and seemed to be very block like. I noticed when I looked out one of the windows that there was a cop sitting in a car with his lights on right outside our house. He looked at me and didn't seem happy. I knew we had alcohol and weed in the house and this scared me. For some reason I found out that he would come in and search the house soon. I told Rex and we went and grabbed the stuff. I suggested putting it in the attic, but we decided that it would be better to put it somewhere outside. We went out the opposite door of where the policeman was. We walked down a sidewalk, to another house and put it in the houses bushes. When we were walking back a guy came up to us and told us to take it away from his house so he didn't get in trouble. We apologized to him and he seemed okay with it. We never ended up going back.

Model ship

I was outside on the beach making a model ship. It was actually really big but I was putting it together with my hands. They were huge block pieces and I was fitting it together to make a long landing craft. I stepped back from it and there was sand all around, where there used to be ocean. The ship had sucked up all of the water when I made it. Sand even lined the sides of the ship. I knocked some off and it uncovered a really bright green design.

Later, somebody came and said that I had put it together wrong. This guy had been a jerk to me earlier. He was taking it apart, not like blocks, but piece by piece, tearing clunks of wood off of it and pieces of plastic. He said that it wasn't supposed to be as long. I went to the top of the boat to look at what he was doing. He had made it half the length as it was. There were lots of people carrying parts of the boat and rebuilding. He made a dome with an entrance that waves were coming into. The top of the boat now seemed to be on the same level as the ocean had been. He then started to be pretty nice to me and explained how it worked. He said that every couple of waves that would enter, would spin around the dome. Waves came in and rapidly spun around hitting me. It was pretty fun, like a ride at a water park. It did it another time and I jumped into the wave. It wasn't as strong as I thought it would be.

06.02.2011

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

There were various zones. I didn´t like the one with dark monsters because they were disgusting. (I think the zones had something to do with the magic the gathering colours). [Blank]

Because of aliens Earth was the last planet with humans alive and because the sun was getting bigger humans were becoming more like parasites of the planet. I saw some people in a building get grabbed by vines and thrown down into the inferno bellow. [Blanck]

Grandpa simpson was a harpie, a member of an organization from both nations that just wanted to end hostilities. Then we were at a dinner and people were seated in round tables. On the tables closest to us everyone was nude, on the far away tables they were clothed. My borther told my father that some of them appeared on TV, and he mentioned Richard Dawkins. I started to explain to my father who Richard Dawkns was and his selfish gene theory.

Hehehe. Spent the night at my grandma's and had a kind of funny dream. I was at my friend Wesley's house and we were looking out the window at his mom's car. Somehow I had attached fireworks to the bottom of it and they were starting to go off. The car was flying all over the place and crashing into the ground amidst a bunch of explosions of color. His mom walked in and I yanked the shade down over the window. She walked around for a minute or so, making coffee or something, and then came over to the window. She put the shade up and looked outside.
"MY CAR!!!" she cried. It was lying on its side, partially melted, in a smoldering crater.
I just said, "Oh, my. How did that happen?" while Wesley tried not to laugh.

There was another dream, but I forgot it as soon as I started typing this. I'll probably remember it in a few minutes.

No lucids last night but I remember three distinctly different dreams.

The first one involved me being given a verrry nice new car. I remember driving it from a holiday spot back home because I'd forgotten something. There was another car full of some old friends who were trying to keep up, they did surprisingly well until I got used to the car. I remember the view of my journey being similar to a sat nav at one point as it was birds eye view and I saw a dotted red line due to the fact we were going under a mountain through a tunnel. Tried some risky manouvres which nearly got me run over by a lorry. I ended up at my friend Brad's house and I remember admiring the car from the window. I was faintly worried about whether or not I'd locked it because I've done this in RL recently. Important dream sign could be that the logo for the car was an "s" for Saab, which is not their actual logo.

The second dream involved myself and another guy in iron man style suits (recurring theme?). I have written down something about stealing his drink which I do not recall but I do remember that a part of his suit was missing, I saw his flashback where he had detached this part from his suit and it robotically killed another man.

The final dream I recall involved me going to see Derren Brown live. I missed a very important dreamsign here as I remember being worried I wouldn't get in as I thought the tickets (which I own in RL) weren't for until June, not February as the dream suggested. When we arrived the interior was actually a theatre from my hometown, despite the fact the rest of the dream was in Bournemouth. I distinctly remember seeing that Derren had a black badge which said W.I.L.D's - 999. He then sat with me in the audience instead of performing and we had a conversation about lucid dreaming. I'm kicking myself now for not using that opportunity to RC. I also distinctly remember him wearing a grey jumper instead of his usual smart suit.

Hello, everyone! My second Semi-Lucid Dream starts here: It started with me on a sidewalk, walking down it. I became Semi-Lucid and climbed over the fence that was by the sidewalk and into a small area with trees. I started to try to climb the the telephone cable, you know, the ones that have a yellow wrapping over it? yeah... I stopped after a minute and went back to the sidewalk I was on earlier. Suddenly, a creepy man looked at me with a smile and then tried to kill me... yeah... weird Semi-Lucid Dream, right? I ran to the nearest store, put my hat on, and acted casual. Unfortunately, that wasn't enough to lose his tail. So I ran into the store when I was going to call for help but he teleported right in front of me. I woke up and the Dream ended. The End

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING

22:00

Helping out
Someone wants me to save someone else from something, but I clarify we’re just in a dream, so no point to stress out. This person cries. I promise to help.

0:00

Feeling two bodies simultaneously
I was falling asleep, but then something strange happened: I felt I was lying on my bed, but although I know my BF was lying by my side, I could not feel him, so I stretched my hand out to reach him. At first I felt nothing, but then I felt his knee. He moaned and asked “what?”, I say it was nothing, but I was in such a state in between sleep and vigil, that I felt myself dissociating from my body: I felt simultaneously my “real” body on my bed and I felt myself floating above the bed on a dream or astral body. I made some sound like “wooow” and he moaned to me “are you ok?”. I was hardly able to speak or even hear my own voice by then, but I kinda moaned back “wow, I have two bodies!”, then he replied something like “you’re sleepy”, I laughed exhilarated and fell completely into the “dream body”.
[in the morning I asked him about this and he doesn’t recall it happening. It might be that it was all a dream from the beginning, that the conversation we had was already a dream or that he simply forgot.]

Chemtrails
Already disconnected from my waking body, I watch hypnagogic imagery. I got caught on some image where I was looking through a window to the sky. Although everything I see around is dark and undefined, the night sky outside is very clearly defined and I see an airplane passing low and leaving a large trail. When the airplane comes back and leaves another trail, I am sure he is leaving chemtrails. I know I am not awake but I am also not sure that I’m dreaming. I go through a short blackout and then I find myself outside on the street under that sky. My mother is with me. We look at the trails and I tell her we should go inside because it might be some nasty chemical. She is very worried. I pinch my arm to do a RC, I confirm I’m not awake, so I don’t feel so worried.
I turn back and face a large residence. We’re on the back yard. I talk to some DCs who seem to be college students. I go inside.

LDers secretariat
I meet my BF on some room, but he is very agitated and leaves right after. He goes down some stairs to the front door. I go after him but I halt on the corridor, because I see 3 doors all with signs on the door saying ”Lucid dreamers” or "lucid dreams". One is closed, the other is open and there's some guy inside but he is busy talking to someone, so I enter the last one. There’s a lady there, but she says I’ll have to come back later because she is on her break. I see she has a badge with her name, so I ask her if I can check her name once more, just so I can recall who she is on waking up. She is in a hurry and with very little patience, but she turns to me once more before closing the door and I read: Eliza Dias.

Students protest
I walk to the stairs and I pass by some window that I open to see what’s going on down there after all. The police are taking some kid in custody. His colleagues are protesting. I fly down to meet them and I ask what’s going on. They say the police came with a list of names and is taking away one by one. They say they did some demonstration days before and they are coming for them. Others don’t agree it is because of that and say a smaller group of protesters invaded a bank to stage some action there and the cops are only taking them. Meanwhile the police comes back and starts calling for more names. The kids form a block together, not allowing the cops to take them. I join them for support.

3:00

Bus ride
I enter a bus and it is my friend M. Silva who is the driver. I had just bought a ticket at a counter at the bus stop but now I’m having troubles finding it. She says it’s ok, but I must sit on the seat across from her and talk with her. I was followed by friends – Zilla and others – who want me to sit with them on the back but I tell them to go without me. Don’t recall what happened in detail, but either she or some other lady who sat by my side freaks me out, because through her ears I can see the inside of her head, which has a big fire raging. I run to some seat somewhere in the middle of the bus, which now seems like some conference room. My seat has a board over it full of pens and pencils and I have to organize them all before I take the seat. Then I see my friends in the back who signal me to go meat them. I go. Outside is raining and my clothes are all wet. They hand me over something to wear. I change. I wear something apparently too sexy with large boots. Someone comments I shouldn’t wear those improper clothes, but I say I have nothing else and won’t keep the wet clothes on.

5:00

University
Walking around some university, wearing a white robe, like that of doctors. I feel like I’m studying medicine there and I’m looking for a colleague because I’m worried about a paper we should have worked on. I pass by some open and circular room which is like a small projection room. All is dark, but I see people sitting on the seats as if waiting for something. I turn the lights on and the projector which plays a movie. They thank me. I spot some guy I have a crush on but he doesn’t say a word. Instead, some geeky guy I don’t like, grabs my arm to thank me and asks me for a kiss. I shake him off and say no. I run to the restroom. When I see myself in the mirror, I look awfully tired. I put some make up on, but I exaggerate and then have to take it off. I go out and bump into the girl I was looking for. It’s Mónica M. I tell her I’m worried because I didn’t do anything on that paper and neither she did say anything to me on that. She smiles and says “Hey, we’ve finished our courses already. Forget about the paper.” I suddenly recall it’s true, I have my degree for years. I become lucid.

Trying to rip the dream fabric
Dream fades and I end up on some place on the countryside where medieval dressed people seem to be building up a fair or a tournament site. There is a very high podium where two big guys are holding down some black guy and telling him he can choose either to be decapitated or thrown down that podium. He thinks the fall might give him some chance of survival so he chooses it. But it’s not going to happen yet, they are still rehearsing for the big date. I notice the black guy is some known comedian, so I guess this is all just a movie set and not a real thing. I walk down a road and at some point some people pass by me running because someone stepped over some beehive and the whole colony is after them and now after me, because they brought it in my direction. But I feel no stings, because I am still ware I’m dreaming. I am bored, I jump really high over some rice paddy fields and then decide to rise in the air. From up above I try to rip apart the dream fabric. I wish to get out of the imagery but not end in the blackness. Instead I wish to go to the luminous state of mind, free from imagery, where I can meditate free from distractions. But it doesn’t work. The best I can achieve is opening with my hands a little gap on the scenery from where a brief flash of light irradiates. I give up and decide to just plunge in the rice paddies, visualizing the light, hoping to meet it.

Slaughterhouse
I go through the blackness and suffer brief SP vibrations and sounds (a long time since it happened), then I find myself on a belt of a slaughterhouse, among dead bodies of cows, heading to a giant saw. I know it’s a dream, but still the idea of being cut in half creeps me out so I jump out of the belt. There are parts of animals everywhere, blood splattered on the walls, the image is horrendous, but I try to keep calm. I make a prayer for those beings and recall the light once more. Some light invades this dark creepy room through some slits on the walls.

The Light
Dream fades again and I go through SP one more time. I hear a Bollywood song playing in my head and I feel gentle vibrations throughout my entire body, rising from my feet to my head. It ends with vibrations on my 3rd eye. I hold on and find myself on a very luminous landscape. Below I see grass and trees, but above the trees there’s only a very bright, radiant white light pervading everything. I wish there was only the light, so I rise up in the air, to leave the ground behind and be totally immerse in the light, with no images to distract me. I imagine myself sitting on a lotus flower in mid air. But once there’s only light in all space, my mind starts to drift and I am dragged once more into SP. Then my BF moved and woke me up.

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