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I was somehow homeless behind my father's old house. I am sad it isn't in the family anymore, but my dad has passed in waking life and we had to sell the house. So, I'm building a fire to stay warm. Last night I really did build a fire in our back yard.

I noticed the fire was almost out. I was about to blow on it when the new owners of the house started looking out of the house and then walking towards me.

I ducked down so they couldn't see me, but they kept coming. I started to growl like a dog or some kind of monster to get them to turn away, but it wasn't working.

Then all of a sudden I was in the house looking out the window the way they must have been looking at me. I saw the fire and realized why I got their attention.

--

There were two ladies. They were both really cute. One of them said to some guy, "You're not getting under this bra."

I realized I should just play it cool. I acted like I wasn't attracted to either of them and tried to look them in their eyes. Tried.

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I was in some kind of race inside of a gymnasium. It was like a marathon, but we had to run the distance in a small gym. People were cutting the corners because the room was small and it would be ridiculous to run in an actual square.

I wanted to run the full distance (and not cheat), so I tried to take the corners by running on the wall. Others took advantage by running past me on the inside. I thought that was kind of unfair.

It was very cramped. The room was only as big as a large garage. I ended up leaving the race, though I intended to rejoin it.

Outside I saw a big boned black lady name Yolanda. I don't know how I got to this point, but I grabbed her by the waste and pulled her into me twice. Then I decided to pull her in and thrust my pelvis into her rear. She was really soft.

She didn't seem to mind, but then she started acting as though I shouldn't have. I worked hard to get her attention and finally did. I mouthed the words, "Don't get me in trouble." She says, "OK."

Reading through a thread on the forum, I came up with a fairly interesting question: if we can be lucid or non-lucid in a dream, why are we usually non-lucid? Why is non-lucid the natural state of dreaming and not lucidity?

We go to sleep and hand over control to a different form of consciousness, our dream selves. These selves are much like our waking selves, except that they readily morph into imagined characters and take on our hypothetical situations like they were real (for the most part). They have fairly short attention spans and even shorter memories. From time to time, they get tired of a certain role or situation enough to become lucid, but generally they get easily fixated on just about anything and forget about the lucid option. In reality, they would be hopelessly comic, if not tragic, figures.

Sometimes beforehand we program our minds to create dream selves that desire lucidity, and will have that as a part of their character. These selves will perhaps periodically check something in their world to determine their status, and then upon realizing their state will become lucid, handing control back over to our conscious selves. Or at some subconscious level we will simply be expecting and used to lucid dream selves, and that is what it produces for us.

And yet, upon gaining control, we too easily lose it again, fading back into those dream characters, lost in our own creation.

So why do we do it this way? Why do we so easily hand ourselves over to fantasy? We could be perpetual gods in our dreams, yet instead we all too regularly decide/desire to be nothing more than simple characters, at the mercy of ourselves. Is there an innate desire to be a character and to lose yourself, only for a bit? We can still act a character out in a lucid state, but it would never be as complete.

Is there an innate need to lose yourself? Would perpetual lucidity drain us?

Or is it that we are just too used to it? Grew up with it, before we understood lucidity, before we even were able to understand the world around us, before we were even self aware, and now it's part of our expectations, part of our understanding of reality: our dreams will always tend towards non-lucidity; it takes lots of work and effort to become lucid regularly.

But could we, if we believed it enough, always tend towards lucidity? Is non-lucidity just a remnant of a feeble infant mind, or do we still gain something from it? Could we just ditch all the xILD methods and say, "I'm just going to always be lucid from now on"? Maybe we would need to first examine why it was we desired to be non-lucid in the first place. It should be possible. I call it the belief induced lucid dream (BILD).

Discuss

non dream - lucid - non lucid

After the last rather special dream, I decided to WBTB and attempt a WILD the next night.
I really wanted to see Yuya again, I kept thinking about her when I went to bed.

________

The WBTB alarm goes off and I try to WILD thinking about Yuya.
Unfortunately I fall asleep...

... I'm walking... just walking... aimlessly.
There is no path, there is no ground, I'm just walking.
I get a sudden burst of awareness and my vision sharpens.
Clouds turn into objects and I can see that I am on Teraluna.
I have a hard time focusing on my surroundings, I zone in and out a few times until I manage
to stabilize the dream.

I'm talking to Yuya. She know's im stressed in waking life, so she made me special tea that will help me relax.
When I drink it, it "tastes relaxing".
I talk to Yuya about my last dream, about hovering through a galaxy full of pulsating stars...

"I want to show you something... come here..."

She sits on the ground and makes me a sign to sit in front of her.
As I sit down I feel very light headed, but also very relaxed, probably because of the tea.
Yuya takes a meditative pose and I mimic it.
I'm sitting right in front of her, facing her.
We both close our eyes and start linking our thoughts.

"Let go of your thoughts... let go of everything... I will guide you..."

Her thoughts become mine and my thoughts become hers.
Our consciousness start merging together.
With Yuya's help, I manage to free my mind of all thoughts and let go of all the muscles in my body.
My dream body is slowly falling into a state of perfect calm, like it is turning itself off.

I can feel Yuya's body touching mine, but I know we're sitting apart from each other.
Yet it feels like we are embracing each other.
After some time I realize that it is our minds that are embracing, not our bodies.
I feel my body completely turning off, it is slowly letting go of my "spirit" (I call it spirit, I don't know what else to call it... my mind? my consciousness? my soul?)
As my body turns off I completely loose perception not only of my surroundings but also of my emotions...

... I can see again, but it feels different from seeing. I am now a small cloud of pulsating energy, and so is Yuya.
I decide to call this form "spirit".
Yuya is very pure and blue, there are fine crystalline strings emitting from her center.
I am green and orange a complex, complicated, "worried" but gentle mix of colors.
My strings move around more nervously than her's.
Our spirits are touching, and we start moving into a direction.

I start seeing an infinite amount of other spirits, forming a spiral galaxy of energy.
I see many kinds of spirits. The spirit of a small bush of grass, the spirit of a tree, the spirit of a bird, and the spirits of many other beings.
They are all beautiful in their own way.
I understand that what I am seeing is the essence of life, it is what drives us, it is why we live...
We keep floating along some sort of path, our spirits are linked, we decide directions as one.

After some time our spirits detach, and I feel my dream body forming around me again.
I open my eyes and I am sitting on a huge green leaf. I am very small, and the plant the leaf belongs to is very big, it can easily carry my weight.
Yuya appears next to me, smiling like she always does.
I don't ask her any questions because there are none to ask.
What I saw is beyond my level of understanding, yet because our consciousness was merged, I caught a glimpse of it.

I am still in an extremely relaxed state and I don't feel like talking or doing anything at all for that matter.
We just sit on this leaf, enjoying the feeling of not thinking at all...


Notes:
I am not a spiritual person, but I do believe that we all have some sort of spirit or soul, depending on what you want to call it.
It doesn't make sense to me that our consciousness consists of only a neural network.
I'm not sure where those extremely relaxing dreams are coming from.
Maybe I'm longing for this relaxed state because I am stressed in waking life?

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I'm not sure sure at which point I started dreaming, or if I dreamed all of it, and when exactly I was lucid.
So I'll go ahead and mark things with colors like I experienced them.
In other words if I thought I was awake I'll mark it as if I was, even though I don't really know.
I have never taken any mind altering drugs, I wonder if it's anything like this...

_______

I wake up in bed... I still feel very tired.
The room is very dark and I lately leave the shutters just slightly open so I can see if it's already day when I wake up.
I assume it's still night and I want to continue sleeping.
I notice I haven't moved yet and I don't seem to sense my body.
The thought of WILD'ing crosses my mind.
It's been quite some time since I've attempted to WILD, so why not.

Right as I try to relax, the little colors I see become somewhat bright and start changing.
This was fast? I never get HI this fast, this is weird.
I realize I'm floating over my bed. Am I already dreaming?
Was I having a false awakening? I never get visuals like this when I'm dreaming though.
As my room lights up I realize that I am floating in some sort of tunnel. The room is no longer there.
I'm gently descending this tunnel of colorful clouds and lights.
I suppose I'm actually falling, but I'm falling so slowly that I'm not worried.
I actually enjoy it quite a bit, it's very relaxing.

I can hear ambient music. (something like this)


I try to focus on a color cloud. It is clearly changing it's color all the time, but I can't actually see it changing.
It changes colors right in front of my eyes, but I don't see the change, I only realize it has changed.
This has me perplexed for quite some time. Am I really dreaming? or can you actually have HI this strong?

After some time I am floating in my room again, except it's lit now. The spotlights in my room are on but they
have different colored bulbs in them.
Somehow my room looks much bigger than it is in waking life, but somehow everything is still the same size.
I don't understand how this is possible and hover over to my desk.

I take a can of coke from it because I want to know what it tastes like.
But the can is very weird. It seems way too small, but upon closer investigation it isn't.
I cannot tell if it's a normal size or a tiny can. I can't understand why I cannot distinguish this.
I wonder if this is what tripping feels like? A friend once told me he couldn't tell sizes apart when he was doing some sort of drug.

The lid of my laptop opens up by itself and it goes out of standby.
I am presented with the Visual Studio project I was working on last night.
I was working on a physics engine and needed to add support for air resistance into it, but I was too tired and went to sleep.
I don't understand why this was so hard...

I go to wikipedia and copy paste the equation for drag straight into my code.
The equation appears and the program starts on my second monitor.
I can see the numbers in the equation changing as stuff moves around in the game.
I need to test if it feels realistic, so naturally, I climb into my monitor to see if the falling physics are correct.

I'm falling down yet again, I'm in the game, but I can still see the monitor with the equation as well.
I see both things at the same time.
Whilst I am falling with my first body, I correct an error in the formula with my second body which is still in front of the pc.
I feel the corrections take effect with my in-game body and understand that everything is correct now.

I hit some key that does something and my bodies merge again and I'm back in my room.
The color clouds are back, but I can still see my bed.
But I can't see myself in it which surprises me. I was assuming to find myself sleeping in it.
I go closer and see a pulsating light where I'm supposed to be.
It's beautiful. I go closer and it turns into a galaxy.

I am now floating through this galaxy of colorful stars. I am relaxed... I feel at peace...

March 16, 2011
Lucid Dream 199: World in Ruins
Series: Mind of a Gamer, Episode 2
around 12:30pm
DILD

Category - Action/Exploration


Me and a two others (a male pilot and a female) were in a small plane, flying over a deserted/destroyed city. The plane was almost the exact same one from Resident Evil: Code Veronica. We were looking through the windows down to the streets and could see massive amounts of zombies littering the streets. Suddenly, an alarm went off within the plane. The pilot yelled at me and the girl to go check out the back of the plane. I already knew what was waiting for us back there, so I told the girl to stay with the pilot. I open the door and walked into the large storage area. The back of the plane was open and I saw a shadowy figure in the corner. It stepped out and as I suspected, it was the Tyrant.

It sprinted toward me and I dove out of the way. Tyrant was slashing the corner of the plane to pieces with the giant claw on his arm. I began looking for the switch that ejects equipment from the room, but noticed that the Tyrant had been hacking it to pieces the whole time. I thought, "That isn't supposed to happen. How am I going to knock this big bastard out of the plane now?" I continued to dodge his attacks, but he got closer and closer until he sliced a huge tear in my arm. I looked at it and could see the bone in my arm. There was a gash in the bone as well. I started to look around the room in a semi-panic, trying to find something I could use. I heard the pilot calling "mayday" from the front of the plane. He then said, he was going to try and crash land on top of a building. I decided there was only one way to deal with the Tyrant.

I position myself right in front of the opening to the back of the plane. The tyrant lunged at me with his giant claw. I jump-turned, so the claw missed, but his shoulder connected with me and we both fell out of the plane. When I jumped, I had brought my knees to my chest and placed my feet against the tyrants shoulder. I grabbed hold around his head with my hands and held on tight as we fell from the plane. I saw the edge of the building that the pilot was crash landing on, so I released my grip and kicked off the Tyrant as hard as I could. I stretched out and managed to grab the edge of the building. I watched the Tyrant fall hundreds of feet to a splattering death as I hung on the side of the building. My plan had worked perfectly.

I pulled myself to the top of the building and saw the plane bounce off the roof and then back into the air. It circled around and I noticed that the bastards were leaving me. I turned around to observe my surroundings and saw a skylight. I looked down through the skylight and saw hundreds of zombies rushing up the stairs that lead to the roof. I returned to my "hanging on the side of the building" position and pulled myself up to watch what happened. The zombies busted through the door and began searching the rooftop. I noticed a couple of them were taller and were holding huge machetes. I turned and looked behind me. It was a long way down and the city was destroyed. There were fires scattered throughout and smoke pouring out of several locations. It was dusk and the sun was starting to descend below the horizon. I noticed a harbor nearby and thought, "I could just fly over to the harbor wait it out on the water." I was borderline lucid for a while, but this is when I fully became aware.

I kicked off the wall and began flying around the city. I noticed there was a large ship in the harbor and I knew it was Arcadia (the ship from the newest RE movie). I pondered exploring it, but decided to swoop through the city again before exploring the ship. I turned around and headed back for the city. This time, I flew much lower through the city. I felt up and down my legs for my gun holder and pulled out a pistol. I decided I would perform some fly-by shootings on the zombies below. I pulled the trigger of the gun and found out it was a fully automatic pistol. I thought to myself, "It must be a 'metal storm' pistol." After thinking this, the pistol started firing at an unbelievable rate. I began obliterating the zombies below. Their bodies were being torn to shreds by the "god-like" fire rate of the pistol. As I flew threw the city killing hundreds of zombies, I was amazed at how stable the dream was while all of this was going on.

I flew back to the harbor which was now much smaller than before (looked like a large pond), Arcadia had now turned into a small jungle boat with a straw roof. I figured I would fly down and check it out. As I landed the dream became unstable and I managed to save it with a few stabilization RCs. I walked through the doorway and saw the boat was unoccupied. There was a mini-store inside complete with a beer cooler and everything. The dream became unstable again and I felt it slipping away. I immediately prepared to DEILD...

Series Details
With the dream series, "Mind of a Gamer," the gaming world and the dreaming world collide to produce a lucid paradise. Read as I take video game scenarios to the next level. Stay tuned for more entries to the series!

2nights ago...

I was at a carnival, and instead of being clowns and balloons, there were whores and prostitutes and intresting things. I left because I was part of the "show". I was driving and there were one of the prostitutes in the back. She was eating something. I woke up.

1)With ma nan's kitchen with a bunsen burner and somethin exploded and all the dishes became dirty. Then walking with my nan looking for some car and walking round a building site in Russiaaa.
2)Talking with ma schools headmaster
3) In a survey choosing what hand lotions are the best??

Fixing Alarm
I'm trying to fix an alarm (looks like a smoke detector, I have the idea it's from "school"). I just need to change the battery, so to be sure that I don't accidentally mess something else up, I'm removing everything from the alarm that has to do with numbers. This removal extends to things outside the alarm as well: I turn off the radio because it either mentions numbers on the air/has a frequency made up of numbers, and I delete e-mails with numbers in their subject lines. (One email I delete is about some sort of evangelical Christian organization; it was forwarded to me by an aunt/uncle with the note "Adam, we were going to delete this email but then we noticed the view count on it". Apparently I had somehow already looked at this email 20+ times, and they somehow knew about this before sending it?) The battery in the alarm is protected by a panel with a grille that I think can be unscrewed to be taken off. I touch the grille with my hand but realize my fingers are wet, and draw my hand back nervously. I wake up at this point, so I actually raise my right hand into the air in waking life. My fingers are numb.

Indigo Girls in Dead Forest (fragment)
Amy Ray and Emily Saliers are dead (although they look perfectly normal) and have to figure out a way out of a dead forest maze - this is done by collecting giant body parts (eye, skeletal hand, vagina??) and using them as tools?

Obama Nukes Russia: The Roguelike
There's a wacky Japanese TV show that is somehow inspired by Yasutaka Nakata (who appears in the 3rd episode). At the end of each episode audiences combine a couple of items to make a new item; then, in the subsequent episode, they use the item they made in the last episode to make something else, and the pattern continues. There are three episodes and then the series goes off the air for 6 months, but eventually it comes back. I am in a grocery store and am using a kiosk in one of the aisles to assemble a montage of the first six shows. I put a whole bunch of clips together, then add some text in Impact font, promoting it as a great comedy. (Fragment here about meeting a yelling old woman in the store, something to do with her cart?)

Episode 12 (the last one) rolls around, and I am in the store with several Japanese people waiting for it to start. Suddenly (and I know this is going to happen about 5 seconds before it actually does) Barack Obama walks out from the neighboring aisle, smiling. Everyone is shocked, whispering his name amongst themselves; no one seems to have any idea how they should conduct themselves. Obama stands in front of the people and kneels on the floor ... or at least he tries to. His legs are very stiff, like he can barely bend at the knees. Eventually he ends up thudding to the floor, one leg at a time, into a kneeling position. In a halting voice, he explains that he has let down the "flower of the Japanese people" by allowing the U.S. to be vastly outclassed in terms of nuclear power (the impression is that the U.S. will be annihilated shortly because of this?). There is an ASCII (roguelike) view of the situation, which somehow illustrates the predicament.

A young Russian guy named Vinny speaks up. In a loud, brash voice that somehow morphs into a thick Boston accent (but only for certain words, like "car") he explains, using the ASCII grid, how Obama can maneuver himself around the board and extricate himself from danger. This is done in 12 moves, a number which is pointed out, like it's an achievement. Vinny is clearly very proud of himself and asks that the maneuver be named after him if Obama ends up using it. Obama thanks him; after a few seconds of thought, he says he will name the maneuver "the Luvie." He follows Vinny's steps, but I notice that they are subtly altered; somehow he is following Vinny's route but also managing to pick up several nukes as he goes. Eventually Obama reaches the staircase out and escapes from danger.

At this point the scene shifts fully into ASCII. The store is gone; the scene is now inside a Russian nuclear shelter. Obama has departed and Vinny is pleased with his suggestion, still very confident that Obama will use it. He decides to go above ground; he knows that doing this will leave him unprotected, but he doesn't expect a nuclear strike to actually happen, so he thinks it won't matter. Outside the shelter, there is a forest; right by the entrance to the shelter is a wolf. Vinny has sex with the wolf; shortly afterward, Obama nukes Russia and possibly several other countries. Because he's outside of the shelter, Vinny is the only Russian casualty of the nuclear strike.

So I woke up from my afternoon nap and... this is what I remember from my dream.
I was in a room with some people 2 of them I had my attention on (these 2 were evil) , everyone else I couldn't really see their faces..
I just knew there were lots of people around... One of the characters in my dream his face took shape of a demon ,
His face floated in fire and then got a bunch of holes in it, his eyes were hollow and black... his smile was really sinister..
For some reason I felt attraction to this "creature" and I got close to him trying to touch him...
This other Demon got angry at me , I got really scared by his presence... his energy alone was very powerful.
I looked at him a Demon dressed in black robes... He was very tall, veryyyyyyy huge... kind of like a juggernaut.
He was upset with me for paying attention to his minion who I was trying to show compassion to...
He thought I was trying to change him from evil to good, which made him want to punish me for that.
I remember him shoving me into a pool in the shape of a square that was filled with lard, I was isolated in the corner of this pool...
I started freaking out, but I don't remember ever crying....
All of a sudden I'm back with this minion , talking to him asking him, "Why?" But it's like we were having a conversation
with out moving our mouths... telepathically. I don't remember his response to the question, I think my dream ended or I just don't recall the rest...,
I then...woke up (in real life)
That's all I remember.

Technique: DILD
Dream Control: 8
Dream Length: moderate
Recall: Above spotty
Vividness: good

I was about to get on some weird ride that was starwars related. I noticed everyone around me were old friends of mine, from Jr. High...heck they even looked like 12 and 13 year old versions of themselves. The ride connected to the track that was over our heads so our feet would be dangling, and there was a small glass screen in front of us. There was an announcer saying we had to destroy all of the enemies, and then slowly the view increased, and it was like full screen.

After that I found myself on the school bus with those same kids. I sorta knew I was lucid, but I was just playing along. I asked Kim was she going on the next upcoming field trip, and she said no.

I remember something else where I was in a movie theater, and smoke kept rising up. I looked down and someone had left their ash tray there. I kicked it out of the way, and one of the dc's got a little upset (I don't know when this happened....maybe at the begining)

I found myself on the roof of a mansion. Two stories down there was a pool that was on fire. I thought to myself "my brain would never give me something that I couldn't handle". I jumped down and that actually solidified my lucidity, because the scene changes kept making me snap out of it. I saw my friend J at the pool, and said "oh man, do I have to fight you"? He had his shirt off, and was looking jacked up. He said "no, you did that in 01, I got someone else for you". This woman came out of no where. Pool was looking normal again, as she approached, ready to fight. "I have to fight her?", "yes". I got into a southpaw stance, and waited on her. She threw her right hand, and I grabbed it with my left cushioning the blow as it hit me in the stomach. At the same time, my right cross rocked her head. She did the same thing, and so did I. I knew I was hurting her more than she was hurting me, so I started throwing combos with every blow, and just absorbing her body blow. I was starting to get tired, and she did this thing....it almost looked like she was downloading something off the matrix.

She told me she got enough information she needed to fight me, and pretty much went into overdrive. My punches didn't have as much effect, but I didn't let her land a single one after that. I switched up my entire style, and became more offensive. After a few combos, it was obvious that they were having effect again, and the dream ended.

20.03.2011

undercover in my old dream school (lucid for a sec or two) (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am supposed to go undercover in my old school as a student even though I have been out of school for quite some time.
The school is not a school I have been to in real life but one that I have dreamed about before.

I arrive at a train station that is one before the last of the line. The school is close to the end station, but I had to leave the train before that. The walk to the last train station is one I remember well from other dreams. I had to get off on a roof-less platform and move forward to its end. Then I have to follow the path along the tracks.
A couple of women walks in the opposite direction - they seem to be mother and daughter. The daughter carried a red backpack with a red rain cover. They don't hurry even though the train is about to leave.

I walk along a road with a few houses behind the end station. One of the houses has a big courtyard with cars on it and a kid playing there. A young man drives slowly in a compact car from the courtyard. I recognise it as a house where a former school mate once lived. I wonder if she still lives here.

I reach the school nearly an hour before the lessons start, but I have to get organised, signed in and receive a schedule. I don't have any information about the school days ahead of me. I feel some trepidation and a bit conspicious. As I enter the building I see a glass box that looks like the teachers lounge. I recognise one of the women there, as I had met her before (in another dream) I have the feeling that she is the initiator of my undercover assignment. She doesn't acknowledge me or talks to me... doesn't seem to recognise me.
Before approaching the glass box I want to put away all the stuff I have in my hands. I set my backpack on a close-by bench and try to sort it all out.
Suddenly, Nancy greets me. She is still a student at school even though she was in school with me years ago. She doesn't seem to think it strange. She says that I am a bit early for my first lesson - music. She likes my sweater and trousers, but asks if it is not a bit dressy for school. Well, I will adjust over time.

I decide that I have procrastinated long enough and approach the glass box. Suddenly, lots of students want to go through the doors near the glass box. I join the queue thinking that they all have to do something at the teachers lounge. But instead the stream carries me through the doors outside to another building. Listening to conversations around me I realise that the new destination houses the cafeteria and class rooms. Since I don't know my schedule this is not really helpful. I leave with a couple of others to enter through another door. To our left there is an open door through which I can see an observation lounge and beyond that a huge swimming pool. It is white tiled with a few coloured tiles for decoration. The entire pool area looks very new and highly sophisticated. My companions see the same room and observe that the teacher and the others haven't arrived yet - so the class seems to be off.

I realise I am still on the wrong track and hurry back to the first building. I have to run as my time is running out. Only a few students can be seen in the corridors and the entrance hall. I approach the counter at the glass box - I talk to the woman there. She seems very nice at first as I tell her that I start school today. I ask her for my schedule. She needs a _VB card so I can sign in at one of the terminals. After I tell her that I don't possess such a card she wants a WerVB card, which I also don't possess. She gets really impatient with me wanting to know how I studied before without these cards. What to say - I don't even know what these cards are for, I have been away from school too long for that. She stomps away to get something.

Looking around I see waiting rooms with comfy chairs along the walls and journal racks on one wall. The people in them don't look like students or teachers.

I do some snooping around (this part is a blurr) - Suddenly I see a black screen with the layout of the building on it. Some circles indicate the people moving around the building. These circles are white. I observe one circle in particular that moves around the building without to be stopped or hindered by the others. It moves much more than all the others.
Suddenly, I become aware of two other circles that bumped into each other and changed colour (red/green) and they stay in one place "a couple has been found"
--> FLASH: I see two teachers who go to bed together to cuddle and sleep, but they leave their clothes on.

Then I am back in the entrance hall. The employees seem to know that I found something. I like most of them by now and want some answers to the question "why".
I talk to one of the teachers (the woman from the couple). We are outside the entrance talking softly. A dog is sitting at our feet. I confront her with my finding - that money indicated for international projects (hotels, hospitals and schools) that don't exist.
She wants to explain everything but needs some materials for this. So we enter the school again. I walk ahead towards one of the waiting rooms. She walks towards the teachers lounge followed by the dog. As I watch the dog transforms into the man (of the couple).
I know now that this is a dream... I walk into the waiting room and since this is a dream I am going to force her to give me all the answers I need.

Suddenly, the room changes to a prop of a talk show or something like that - with lots of red and black couches.

I remember that one of the project was supposed to be located in India.
My location switches to India. I observe (movie-like) a camel driver and his animal. He gets a call to get a customer. He starts to move to the reqested location. The camel is in poor condition. It walks only on three legs - with the right hindquarter slightly crippled.
Seemingly feeling my pity he says that the camel just pretends, so it wouldn't have to work.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID NIGHTLY ADVENTURE

Good morning! That was one sucky night's worth of sleep. I had one of the freakiest nightly adventures ever which was kinda cool. Also to you who don't know what they are, here's a short briefing:

Nightly Adventure: I guess it's me sleepwalking, only I'm awake. I wake up and have hallucinations and act out. Sometimes I wake up right away and see whatever is there, sometimes I wake up while in the middle of it all. I usually scream out loud to the intruder, throw something at him/her/it or run up away from danger which is in my bed. Have done countless retarded things during the years. I usually start to snap out of it gradually after ten or so seconds.

22.10: Sleep

23.55: Nightly Adventure
*I wake up and I will die! The entire side of my room is going to fall down on me so I jump out of bed and run to my kitchen. I stay there for twenty seconds while hyperventilating and listening to my heartbeat which is beating away like a drum. What's happening? Is this real? "Monica?!" I say out loud. "Yeah...?" she replies from bed. I slowly relax and is shaking by the time I go back to bed.

02.00: Fragments
*I'm with a very hot chick clad all in black. We're at some kind of pawn shop. "I'll take a condom" I tell the guy in the booth. I smile to the girl. "Wait, I'll take three" I tell him and grab the condoms. The girl jumps me and starts dryhumping me on the spot. It feels good! Maybe a little bit too good... I don't want to waste this on a dryhump, but too late! I walk away and just walk around aimlessly in some corridors. Oh, another dream I don't wake up from after having an orgasm, cool!

*I'm fishing with my brother Morgan. We're fishing for a very long time actually, and we get several sea bass. I manage to throw into the sea weed all the time. "Soon I've fished up half the lake's worth of grass" I tell him and throw the green slime back along with my worm.

05.10: Guitars
I'm with an entire school it seems. We're walking in a subway and I cut in line. I'm holding a black and white guitar and cover it up so that no one accidentaly breaks it. I spot an old classmate; Mathias, he's got a guitar aswell. I head up the stairs ahead of everyone and end up on a large square. I can see neon signs all around me and I figure they must be some kind of clubs. A bunch of people show up and I recognise them all. They're holding guitars aswell and we all sit down on a couple of benches after joking around a while. Victor's got an amazing instrument.



It's a guitar, bass and drum in one! It's divided in sections of a few centimeters each, with different symbols all around. You can spin a section and if you tap it, a sound comes out. He starts running his fingers all around it, spinning several "wheels" at once, hammering away with his hands. I can hear which song he's playing; "Disturbed - Indestructible". He gives up after hitting the wrong ones. "It's too damn hard" he tells us, I think it sounded awesome.

Jonas has an old guitar instead of an electric one which the rest of us has. He starts playing on it and I pluck away on my own. I remember looking at slash112's video of him playing something and I try to repeat it. It sounds okay.


05.10: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 4 hours

Supplements: None

That's it! I had a VERY hard time sleeping last night and I didn't get much sleep at all in the end. Hopefully I will tonight, but a tiny lucid and a cool dream never fails to make my spirits rise!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

A group of people, including myself, have stumbled upon a heavily guarded government secret. As a result, we are all on the run from the law. Secret agents in gas masks are hunting us down. We break into stores for food and supplies.

I can't remember much more of this dream, just that the government secret that we discovered had something to do with chemicals being sprayed into the sky.

Also I remember listening to the Pixies in the dream.

started out as some sort of cartoonish battle. Then turned into real people. 2 vs 2. My partner was also the same person I was against even though I didn't realize it until just now. partner :dan, opposition: dan+oogie. Game begins dan and I get separated then I see dan and oogie coming at me. I use my hands like guns and make sound effects and I guess that freaked them out. They hopped into the back of a step truck filled with salad greens and drove off.

I gave chase and somehow kept up with them. I hopped an average size fence in a single leap and made my way into the back of the car. I somehow managed to subdue both of them even though they were struggling. Then suddenly I have a bunch of people coming to my aid who are amazed I did what I did single-handedly. I was a hero.

Had a false awakening and played out the whole day. Got called to work early 11-2 then come at my normal time 3-12. Don't remember anything to far out happening. Very boring.