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03/21/14

6:30 am non-lucid

I had a dream that I couldn't find where I parked my car. I was at a school of some sort, though I'm not sure if it was my high school, university or a mix of the two. This is because at one point my high school classmates were in the dream. But I was me, from present day, and they were older too. The dream landscape is similar to the one from my dream about the high school reunion. Different from my past dreams about high school and different from my dreams about my university.

I was looking for my car with my girlfriend (no girlfriend in waking life). Or, boyfriend? At some point she became a girl. And I think at one point, she became my close friend from the dream about the farm. Despite having a girlfriend in the dream, I also had a husband (my husband from waking life). Someone once questioned (or I questioned myself), "What about my husband," and I replied that I'm still dating my husband too, like I haven't chosen between them yet. I've had dreams like this before in the past too. In which I have to choose between my husband and boyfriend/girlfriend, but haven't yet.

The path we go down to get to the car is snowy, and there are various snow filled parking lots around it. Some too filled with snow to park in.

Date: 3/21/2014 (Thu)
Total sleep: 7.5 hrs
Daytime Techniques: RC’s, Awareness, & Visualization
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Reviewing previous dreams, visualization, “Find your hands”, MILD
Recall Techniques: Mantras, visualization, “lucid anchor”
Fell Asleep: 9:30 pm
Dream 1 Title: I am Tarzan
Dream 1: I am in a large department store with my wife. The store is huge, like a super Walmart, but it has a 1970’s appearance that reminds me of the Worcester Fair (as store I was often in as a child). Jen is shopping for her trip to the Amazon jungle. She is in an isle picking up bright orange cans of spray on sun screen. The thought of the jungle triggers a false memory. I remember that I was raised by a female ape (just like Tarzan). I also recall that she used to sing a song to me. The words of that song are “I love you for breakfast, I love you for lunch, I love you for dinner, I love you a bunch.” We continue to shop. Jen is looking for some shorts and tops to take on the trip. I suddenly am afraid. I know there are dangerous animals in this place and they are going to try and kill me. My wife is now gone and I exit the building through a side door. I am now on Hope Ave. in Worcester. It looks very close to the way it does in real life; it is a long straight road with sidewalks on both sides. Also the street runs through a large cemetery on both sides. I am walking on the sidewalk when I see two rows of animals walking towards me. The first two animals are a large wolf (to my right) and a lioness (on my left). There are other animals behind them (I remember a gorilla and a bear, but not the rest). I know these animals want to kill me, but I am the lord of the jungle. I must make an example of some of these animals do demonstrate my strength and power. I jump to my right and slam my right shoulder into the wolf, knocking him down on to a grassy area. I immediately begin to rain blows down on his rib cage (just like an ape would do in a fight). With the wolf incapacitated I spin on the lioness. She is coming up behind me with her long yellowed teeth bared. I grab her face. I slide my fingers into her mouth, right hand on the top and left hand on the lower jaw. I begin to pull her mouth open. She struggles but I am too strong. The dream ends before I hear the snap of bone. I look at the clock, look away, and back again as a RC, 4:16 am, but I am definitely awake
Dream 2 Title: Practice Flying
Dream 2: After I woke up from Dream 1 I lay in bed for 10 to 15 min remembering the dream. I then remind myself that “in my dream I will see my hands and realize I am dreaming.” At some point I doze off. I am in a bedroom, standing in the middle of the room. I notice it is day time and it feels like summer. I can see sunlight coming in the windows and it is reflecting off of the light colored hardwood floor. I walk out of the door into the living room. I realize I am in the old house where I used to live with my wife several years ago. But the room size and shape is not the same, there is no furniture, and our bedroom was on the second floor. Jen is looking out of the large front windows. I walk over and look out as well. The scene looks nothing like real life. I am looking out onto a city street. A sidewalk runs right in front of the window. There are brick buildings across the street. Right then a silver PT Cruiser comes speeding down the street from my left, swerves onto the sidewalk and speeds past my window. I think “Oh my God, that idiot is going to kill someone.” I must do something! I run to the kitchen door and out onto the sidewalk. I begin to sprint and realize I have super speed. I must be running over 50 miles per hour because I am catching up to the speeding car. The car swerves to the left, off the sidewalk, across the street and down a side road. I think to myself, “This is an opportunity to practice my flying!” I jump forward, superman style, and begin to zoom down the side street. I see the car about 100 yards down the road, stopped. The driver is now on a motorcycle (wearing a black leather jacket, blue jeans, and a black helmet with a reflective face shield.) I jet after him as he speeds away. I am willing myself to go faster as he goes right down another side street between brick buildings. I pursue, but have to slow down so I don’t hit any buildings. The guy rides up a cement ramp and into a building. I follow. I am now flying down a hallway. The building is old and the walls are made of cement. I fly up a set of stairs, through an open doorway, and into a long wide hallway with large openings to my right. It reminds me of a parking garage, but the hallway is not wide enough for cars to park. I can see a rundown city (many old brick buildings) through the openings. Suddenly I hear the motorcycle behind me. Somehow the guy has tricked me. I roll over (while still flying) onto my back and see the guy riding toward me. I begin to fly backward, with my feet in front of me, toward the guy. As we close the distance I slam my feet into his helmet. I don’t see him wipe out, but I can hear the bike crash onto the pavement. I wake up.
Awake: 5:10 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) Dream 1 = 6; Dream 2 = 7
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) Dream 1 = 5; Dream 2 = 9
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) Dream 1 = 8 minutes; Dream 2 = 2-3 minutes
Emotions: Dream 1 = Fear, then anger; Dream 2 = anger, confident/powerful
Dream Signs: I am Tarzan, in a place that reminds me of my past, fighting wild animals and winning, wild animals in Worcester, back in my old house, a car driving on the sidewalk, running at super speed, flying, knowing that I need to practice my flying
Notes: I did not take any magnesium last night. I did take 500 mg of Chorine and 250 mg of B-5. I am so glad I had decent dream recall last night. When I woke up form Dream 1, I almost fell right back to sleep. Then I realized I need to remember the dream. It took a while to trace the dream backward from the end. I know there was more but couldn’t seem to extract it from my mind. The second dream was awesome. I had some slight idea that I was dreaming, but I was not lucid. But lucid or not it feels great to fly. I awoke feeling energized. I also think I was very close to lucidity which is a good sign that achieving lucidity in the future is going to become easier. I started the “Find my hands” technique last night. For some reason this technique appeals to me. I really believe I will have greater success using it. I am going to stick with it every night for a few weeks and see how it goes. Note: I did see my hands in both dreams (when I was beating the wolf in the first; and when I was flying, with my hands out in front of me, in the second.)

Pizza delivery guy
I am walking towards my house when I notice there's this dude following me. This scares me, and as soon as I reach the edge of my property, I take a sharp turn into the garden. And God forbid, he follows!
I consider my escape routes when he is suddenly too close, next to me. I look at him, and he has fair skin and blonde hair. He turns to me too, with a grin.
"So you're also going this way?" He says to me in a friendly way. At first I am confused, but it fades as I notice the pizza box he's carrying.
"Yes," I think I say "So you're the pizza delivery guy?" We don't ever order pizza, but in my dream I don't question this. Or why he is walking through my yard.
We enter my house. My mother welcomes him and takes the pizza. To my suprise, he follows us into the dining room and grabs himself a small, white plate from a stack on the table. He then proceeds to sit down next to me as if it was the most normal thing in the world.
My family and I start eating the pizza, but the pizza delivery guy still has an empty plate. As I don't think this is polite, I pick of some of the topping of my pizza, 1/4 slice of cucumber and a salad leaf to be precise, and place it in front of him.
"Thank you for serving me." He says gratefully.
"Do you know Simen?" I say (Simen is a friend)
"No."
"You look like him." He seems older than my friend, but he has the same round face and child-like, warm eyes.

This is where my memory ends.

The abandoned post
My friend, Wendy, takes me and another one of my friends, Jenny, into an abandoned war post. The colours in the dream are very dark and grey-ish. There is still a war going on. Dolls are spread out on the floor. Wendy instructs me and Jenny where to hide when the nuclear bombs hit. She tells us leather will protect our skin, but wood will burn. I understand that the people who used to live here are dead - that the only thing that remains of their bodies is the heavy dust I am breathing in.
When we have settled, Wendy tells us that she had a relationship with an officer. She then talks about how one of her ovaries are clogged, and therefore it is very unlikely for her to get pregnant. She calims she is sterile, but I know she's lying, because somehow, I knew she once had an abortion. Then, I begin accusing her of things and promoting safe sex, without realizing the absurdness of the entire situation.
The dream then takes me into the past and I see her great grandmother, who also claims she is unable to have children. The great grandma is flirting with an officer. I then notice the red band around on of the arms of his jacked, and realize what this means..

The dream ends. All names are changed. ..

In the next dream I am accused of theft and vandalism by a person who is ripping off my friend. No reason to go into detail.

Note: Can't help but notice similarity between the War Post-dream and this: Deadly doll - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

Fragment 1: someone wanted to know whether two people could simultaneously do a certain thing on database, and the answer was yes.

Fragment 2: I had some sort of marks on my arm, and my husband asked "how did you get those burns?", and I explained those were not burns but skretches

23:18 bedtime. Yay!

00:00 Friday 2014-03-21 competition #17 night #14 LDs #27, #28, FA fight with an orc

04:37

5) scene over the ocean high on a cliff/hill by a house. I'm just standing there observing. There is a little house to the left in front of me. There is a planter there on the ground near me to the front and left. I look at this planter and think about it. There is a table at the end of a ramp also in front of me, I think this is for the house owner since I "know" he's in a wheelchair. You can't see the ocean (out to the front and right) because of the fog. I know my brother-in-law has told me about this spot and recommends climbing down the path to the ocean that is to the front and right of me.. There is also a road off to the left through the trees.

6) I'm outside old college house, I see NI friend there, there's a row of computers, 80's style PCs, I'm looking for mine but can't see it. NI is using a computer. I think I have returned to the house after a long absence but my room should still be available.

7) Keeper of the amber. I'm in a room with big huge slugs of amber. I know that we can forge these slugs of amber into powerful swords. I imagine that we can also imprints the names of people allowed to use these swords on to a stone. People knock at the door trying to come in, only the people on our team are let in, I'm guarding the door.

8) bizarre star paths in the sky. There were lines of stars in the skies following paths, and you could follow them walking underneath. The stars were moving along these paths, it was very beautiful.

Takes a little while to get back to sleep, perhaps the dark chocolate bar in the afternoon was kicking in to nudge me alert. It may have helped with the lucid: (!)

05:18 LD #27

9) I'm in my parent's bedroom of my childhood home, it's dark night, vision is grainy/faint in the room. I'm sitting in a recliner chair next to the bed, my younger son at a younger age is lying in the bed. I'm looking at him in the bed, his eyes are creepy/wrong and watching me, it's hard to tell in the dark for sure, then I think he's not looking at me. He's holding something in his hand, I take it out of his hands, it's a little box, I open it, I see on the left side under the lid his passport and the rest is a bunch of his favorite small toys, I give the box back to him. I say "that's OK." His eyes are looking at me and they're really creepy, I'm kind of freaked out, I do a nose pinch and I'm lucid. I'm a bit surprised but not very much, I forget my "son" and feel no fear. I'm downstairs now walking from the dining room to the living room. My vision feels clouded. I recalled a technique of imaging veils in front your eyes and pulling them away, I do this and I see the veils and I easily pull them aside resulting in super HD clarity. I'm in the well-lit living room, I'm amazed at the clarity. I see books on a bookshelf and I can clearly see the writing on their spines: different colors of text. I wonder how realistic things will feel: I reach and look down and inspect "the equipment" and yep, things look and feel realistic. I don't read them (and not sure if they're letters or not) but I could have they were so clear. I go out on the deck, it's night still outside, and take off flying over the trees. I sense my wife has come out on the deck behind me and I don't want her to see me, so I urge myself to fly faster to get into the cover of the trees, "come on! faster!". I keep flying and remember my goal of really wanting to see myself flying, and look down and see trees and houses with lights on passing underneath me. Then I "wake up"

...and my alarm is going off. It's not my alarm ringtone but I don't catch that. I get up from bed in a white room (dream sign, common in FAs), my wife and I are captives, I'm thinking about how to save us, I ask her for some advice and she makes a snide remark about solving problems myself, I then see an Orc in the room with us he's holding a long but kind of dull-looking sword. I engage with him, I have no weapons, I avoid the blade and close in and manage to twist the blade out of its hands and I stab the orc, my wife is impressed. I then go to the next room, there is an orange large evil orc/caterpillar/snake thing there with a little head on top of a long neck, I run at it and make a two-handed overhead strong blow with the sword with intention to decapitate / smash its head but my sword bounces right off.

This raises an alarm, the beasts are gathering, I head outside and I pass by an area where there are lots of human captives, I see them and they are very cartoony-looking, like hasty/rough drawings of cavemen with scraggly beards. Then I'm at some sort of bus station with the beginnings of a resistance, about 8 young strong men are gathered, and more come to our group, I name them as they arrive. I think we've avoided discovery because of all the activity at the bus station with lots of prisoners. They're all lifelike at this point.

Takes a while to get back to sleep

07:08 LD #28

10) I get lucid walking down the steps from my childhood home's garage down to the back porch. I stop on the stairs, feel like I have to "hold" the dream, I rub my hands, and recite my name and state that I'm dreaming competitively (nod to StephL for this idea). But I "can't hold it" and the dream fades.

07:40 alarm for breakfast duty. No one's actually getting up today, eat breakfast myself and head back to bed for some more dreaming and to make up for the extra awake time.

08:30 (?) back to sleep

Daydreaming, looks like I got an incubation effect given the next dream. Finally got a handle on myself and forced myself to head for relaxation, and eventually slept.

10:49

1)

Spoiler for sexy time, somewhat explicit:

lots of sex going on, giving and receiving oral. Hot girl comes up to car, I'm in the driver seat, she speaks to me from passenger side window, she was looking for me, I couldn't understand/hear what she was saying so I keep asking her to repeat it, it's like "I wanted...<something something> but you left". I said come here and I'll <epithet involving consumption and felines> for 15 seconds." She was a little hesitant (she was in a hurry?). Then she's in the car and naked and I grab her lower parts and dive in and get to work she is moaning. Earlier I was in a room and a hot girl was on her knees in front of me, I was giving directions but she wasn't always following.

2) buying a gift at a gift store, the guy asks all kinds of questions, I"m not sure why he's asking them so I answer. It turns out the questions were so he could engrave the answers on the pressent, but because of this misunderstanding of the questions and their purpose the present was engraved with the wrong name of the recipient and the wrong information, I'm quite puzzled as to how this could have happened.

3) I'm lying outside in a sort of tall tent outdoors, daytime. My dad is talking to some guy he called a "communist hippy freak." We're in some sort of park, but the hippy dude is part of a project to plant vegetables/food in public places, we're trying to figure out what his plan is, when they get enough food growing in public they will send some sort of signal and the people will arise and be free.

F1) And older woman is walking looking for an older man for romantic actions and finds him.

F2) Weird face masks, one young boy has a mask and a wasp is walking across his upper lip giving his mask some sort of power. Another boy is highlighting his eyebrow and sewing some thread into his skin on the eyebrow as a decoration. Then I'm swimming up the sidewalk outside my adult home and come upon a big wasp floating in the water and think it's 'dream residue' from the boy's face mask, and splash it off to the bushes.

F3) some friends and their kids are playing video games in a house, they have to earn their time in the video game room.

4) I'm entering a store looking for a hardware store that has been taken over by some oppressive company. I go in and someone tells me this has happened. I turn to the right and enter that area, a store within a store. I look around and think this is not want I want. I leave then go back and say the heck with it if they're evil I need to buy <something>

In the far corner of the store my mom and dad are doing something. My dad is installing some new room there and carrying walls/windows.

Me my sister and my parents were in a zombie infected world. We built up camp in a park that overviewed a pond. The days were pretty short and our house was built out of Minecraft blocks. The walls were wooden blocks, the floor cobblestone, and the ceiling cobblestone. Since the beginning of the dream i remember seeing a figure in a black leather jacket and he always had his hood up. His head seemed very big under the hood and he was always dragging an axe around. Whenever I pointed him out he seemed to turn around and slowly walk away and my parents were too slow. Our biggest problem was finding food so I told my sister and she agreed. There was a surplus of deer in the park for i don't know why we didn't just hunt the deer. I then changed my mind because I noticed that the deer might be infected. Above the park was a huge parking lot and towering over the lot was many old, falling apart apartment buildings. One day the hooded black figure stood above the lot looking down on our little minecraft set up. I pointed him out and my parents seemed to not care at all about it yet me and my sister did. I said screw them and I started to running and on the grass was a baseball bat. I picked it up and bolted uo the small incline towards the lot. When i got up into the lot the sky was very dark and the setting was very Walking Dead like. The figure saw me and turned around as if he didn't notice. I didn't recognize a face at all in fact i don't think there was one. From there time seemed to fast foreword to where i was a couple of feet away from what seemed to be a barbecue that was perched up on top of a stand. Yet, this barbecue had a body that was lying on top of the stand. I looked around to make sure there was no zombies around and started whacking the figure on the top and the sides as hard as i can. I constantly checked my back and i seemed to do this constantly until a police car rolls up and a man with black hair wearing a blue nyc police officer uniform and he ask's what happened. I don't remember what i said exactly but he sort of just picked up the "head" threw it on the ground, took out a very small bottle of gasoline i supposed and a very intricate lighter that was white with some sort of black/blue design on the front. He took the gasoline and lighter and made a flamethrower with it and he started torching the head of the figure. He ended his torching and we both turned to each other and smiled. He bowed down quite oddly and i took my hand and ruffled his hair. I remember the feeling of awkwardness in the dream. Time seemed to pass to where the cop car was facing the other way down the lot and my sister and i stood on the walkway. A black woman police officer sat in the cruiser looking up at us. The sky was a sort of sunset haze which felt quite good under the circumstances we were in. My sister asked what the time was and i looked at my watch and it was all weird numbers. The watch was the same one i have IWL, all black g shock. My watch read 22 something something something. Then the woman says, "thats wrong. Mine reads 2 some thing." Time seems to fast forward and we're running through the lot when i ask my sister why we don't just hunt the deer. I said the word Venison several times in my head. We made our way down into the park and we were running to the set up. I had my new Nike Freetrainers on and i felt like I was running 200 mph. I thought about all the little rubber pegs on the bottom of the shoe and i seemed to pick up speed. My legs felt like nothing and i thought that i could just run forever. We came close to the camp and i jumped on top of it and wondered wether i made any noise. My sister turned to me with a look of surprise and says, "that makes no noise!". I nod my head and move inside where my parents were laying down on the floor with their backs against the wall. They seemed to be watching TV somehow. It's just about night now and i stepped over my dad, put my back against the unevern wall and my dad asked for a pillow so i handed him a block lol. Then my mom woke me up.

Non-lucid Dream #56 Dream,(Comments)
Background: I rekindled my interest for meditating and meditate for 15 min. I had the hardest time but I stuck with it. I did nothing else special. I noticed that mindfulness meditation increases dream recall because of the heighten state of self awareness. When I wake up I normally don't recognize that I have awoken. I just lay there thinking to myself either about the dream or other stuff. But after meditation before going to be I start recognizing when I wake up. I also believe the better one gets at meditation the shorter the awareness from sleep to awakening, maybe even before awakening. What I mean is right when you awaken you will become aware of it or before you awaken you might become Lucid.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:20pm-1:07am" Awareness is Everything":
-I was walking around in a garden completely unaware. I started gaining awareness, I looked around me I see flowers, I smell and feel the air across my face. I see the sun. I turn and I see my father. Although I didn't realize it at the time I was in my school. He started talking to me, he said, "Awareness is everything, awareness is the teacher, all you need is awareness everything else follows". I was surprised to hear that from my father. I asked him, "Do you think I could learn about God by becoming aware of nature?" He simply replied in a calm voice, "no". I was shocked after he mentioned that sentence about awareness. He continued, "The only way to know God is through Jesus Christ". I thought oh this is my typical dad. He said, "you could know his creation but not him", I said, "Yeah that is what I meant to say". Then we started walking down the stairs, I saw the sun as we were about to start going down the stairs. I awoken shortly after.


Reflection (thoughts): I thought about this dream for quite some time.
I got out of it the following:
-Without awareness any task will be done incorrectly or results may not be as expected.
-It, awareness, teaches for those that listen and pay attention.
And from it I have now tried to increase my awareness, and dedicate my time to love meditation for it increases awareness. And the part with the response of my dad was just years of talking about the same subjects that we never agreed upon.

I have lost my interest in posting all my dreams to dreamviews. There are some benefits, such as editing writing as much as I want but having two DJ is hard to keep up with and can be draining. I have decided to put up only dreams which I think are interesting or I any LD. Hopefully I have lots of LD to make me active

Dream
Notes

I was part of the walking dead (the telltale games one) and playing as a main character. We were walking next to a river and then stumbled upon a forest. Clementine was given some fruit and after she ate it she felt dizzy and passed out. When she woke up, she cloned herself or something and was grown and blonde but the young Clementine was still there. We then saw some natives. They talked to us and showed their numbers. We started arguing and their leader said "we outnumber you" I told him "You're still no match for our ranged weapons!" He showed me a blowpipe and said the same. Something happened and I yelled "Open fire! Kill them all, they'd do the same to us!" As I said that, my group opened fire and I dashed for cover. I brought up my gun and started shooting. We shot at men, women, and children. They surrendered and viewed us as gods. I started swimming in a pond and was suddenly with my uncle and Nona Rita watching a TV. The TV was playing everything that just happened, as if we were watching it.
We were in water and it looked like we were inside something. I went to the room behind us where there was a kitchen and then further back a cave with water and wooden planks and a big rock in the middle. I remember noticing the planks made the area look like a smugglers den from Assassins Creed: Black Flag and I saw possible parkour moves on it. I told myself I would do them if I didn't have the fractured foot (which I do in the waking world). I swam around the cave but then the water started to taste gross like if it had small rocks or sand or dust. This bothered me so I got on the rock and suddenly found out that the rock was made of plastic and was hollow! I was mad and returned to my uncle telling him what I found. He went back with me and we found a trap door where water would come in. The trap door was at the bottom of the cave and water would rise up when opened. I went to a room across from the cave and TV and grabbed a flashlight and my multitool. I noticed I was wearing my Nike workout shorts and put the multitool in my left pocket. The flashlight had been on for a while so the light wasn't as bright so I asked for batteries. Nona Rita and Santino both got a lot of batteries and they gave them to me. I put in 3 batteries, ate a piece of a battery, and then went to the cave. Me and my uncle then opened the trap door, pushed a crate down, and then pulled it up, allowing fresh water to enter the cave. I was happy and could feel the freshness of the water as it came in. Outside the trap door I think was an ocean.

It's still weird how the trap door would be on the bottom part of the cave instead of the side or top.