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I've just walked back into the McKittrick Hotel. It's the middle of the day, so the place is mostly closed, but there's a guy at the front desk who tells me the owner has died. I climb up a few flights of stairs and come to a room with an old glass bottle hanging on a rope from the doorknob, with a red liquid like blood inside. Hanging next to it there's a card with a series of about 10 questions about the purpose of your visit. One of the questions mentions Maximillian, and reading it, I realize that each question is a reference to a different riddle to solve or mission to carry out, each given by a different resident of the hotel. If a visitor has completed one of these riddles/missions but didn't have a chance to report back before the end of the night, the hotel will permit them to return during the day, to wrap up unfinished business.

When I become lucid I am at my childhood neighbor's place. But the inside of the house has transformed into a big hot-spring. Some friends are there. Not the one to whom the house belongs though. I try to convince my friends that we are all sharing a dream, inciting them to become lucid. That first scene alone was quite long but I don't remember all the details. Eventually I decided to try to fly, which is my favorite thing to do when lucid dreaming. By controlling my breathing I begin to float out of the water and up. The roof is gone, leaving a majestic starry sky. My friends are worried. I have it all under control I tell them. I could control my floating flight at will, swiftly falling and rising. I go up. The sky envelops me. Far away I can see the hot-spring. And then it multiplies like a kaleidoscope. It covers all my field of view. The ground folds upon itself and envelops me in a bubble. In its walls I see crazy psychedelic visuals. I am surrounded by the greatest light spectacle I've ever seen.
I wake up. Or maybe the dream continues for a little bit. There was a scene where I kissed a girl in the hot-spring room but I can't quite position it in time. Anyways. I wake up. But not really. I am still dreaming but it takes me a while to realize. I am shocked by the dream I just had so I quickly pick up my diary and start writing it. That dream version of the entry was much more detailed than this one. Everything was really clear in my memory. I could come back to almost every moment, which is odd because I usually have somewhat bad recollection. The memories are so fresh. But I know that they are going to fade away. I wish I had a more concrete proof of the existence of that dream. As that thought crossed my mind a crystal sphere comes out of my mouth. It is the dream, condensed, complete in all its extension. By touching the ball I experience the entirety of the dream as a simultaneous memory.
But then another ball comes out of my mouth. And this one too is a complete dream, only one I have not yet had. In this ball is the complete dream, and I also experience it simultaneously; timeless. Maybe I actually go through the dream and it is only my memory that which was compressed. But then another comes out, and another. I don't remember how many. And each of them was a complete dream. Adventures, movies, epic symphonies. Experienced in a flash. I could perceive the totality of each dream but I wasn't able to retain most of it.
I showed them to my father. I was so happy to have these solid physical memories of so many marvelous dreams.
Eventually what came out of my mouth was not the crystal globes but some kind of jade eggs, vessels, cylinders. The top part comes apart so they can be opened. And when they are they produce a strange sound. Deep, kind of like a whale's. But each is different. Me and my dad play around with these dream instruments. I think by that time I knew I was dreaming again. Eventually the dream lost stability and faded. I don't remember its ending.

3/8* Before going to bed I didn't have much hope for an LD after an exhausting 2 days of physical activity but it was looking up 5 hours in during my WBTB and I felt confident. Poor recall during the non-lucid portion of the night. Fragments: 1. something about getting galantamine as a prize or for free as a reward. 2. The sport I was playing last night. LD: I'm outside and the lighting changes markedly from brighter to darker. I look around thinking that's strange, it's night time. I look to the sky and there is a light source behind the clouds and just as my sc tries to explain that it was due to clouds passing over the moon I realize that I am dreaming! The change in lighting was just too stark. I'm in a back yard and go into the house looking for a DC. I had planned to go back to last month's TOTM before doing another current TOTM because I loved the concept. I asked a random female DC "Who is my true love?...give me their name please?" She responded "L" (spelled out first name hidden here for privacy). I immediately thought of my very first girlfriend, she had the same name "but I haven't thought about her in years and I broke up with her and I never thought of her as that special...could it be a different 'L' " I thought during the dream. I told myself that it was time to move on. I went out through the front door wondering where I was and found I was stepping onto the street in front of my childhood home. I start heading towards the creek but that reminded me of a childhood run-in with the neighborhood bully and I walked up to his door and busted down the door with telekinesis. I walk inside, find the neighborhood bully and knock him a round a bit. Hmm...twice lately I have committed violence in an LD which is unusual for me. Having had enough of that, I thought of a goal I had planned for my first step of the 3 step tasks for the xcompetition that combined well with one of my personal goals but it required me to be in my current waking life locale. I do a closed eye teleport and arrive in front of my current home. I immediately start to float/fly towards and over the high tree line nearby and it feels so wonderful. I momentarily consider visiting Girl Friday but decide to continue with my goal of flying to the city, above and around the city and then towards and over the coast. I start flying somewhat leisurely checking out some local landmarks before deciding I should pick up the pace and start flying very fast and arrive at the city. My vision has become a little less vivid and I fly up to the top of one of the tall buildings and look around. I probably could have spent some more time working on the vividness but I decide I may not have much time and continue with my plan to fly around the city in a big circle at super speed. I end up in the void before feeling myself returning to my bed awake. I try to re-enter the dream just in case, but it seems apparent that I am too awake after that nice LD. 115

Awareness work type: retracing my steps (&looking at myself from the outside)+RC/visualizing goals
Pre bed: review of recent dream signs: stars, tram/variation, my fam, ex's; cliff/grass/ocean/sand visualization
wbtb: around 4.5 hours, did same as pre-bed + SSILD

One notable thing about this dream was that I had it very close to the beginning of my sleep. Burke's MIT article gave me the idea to do a really determined MILD before bed and it certainly paid off here!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #191: Enjoy the Silence

I’m sitting in an airport terminal, waiting for a flight. A few seats over I spot Kurt Klimanski, a guy who did some lucid dreaming youtube videos several years ago. I think hey, great opportunity to talk about lucid dreaming with someone while I pass the time.

As I’m getting out of my seat to approach him, I notice the dreamlike way that I glide out of my chair and question whether I’m having a lucid dream right now. Hey, turns out that I am!

I move toward him but the chairs are all in my way. Mildly annoyed, I float past the chairs and land next to him. “Hey, the guy from the video, right?” I say. Kurt Klimanski looks up. “I’m actually having a lucid dream right now.”

“Oh, okay… cool, man,” he responds, bobbing his head up and down.

He starts talking about something LD-related but I feel myself slipping into the void. I grab for his hand but miss and wind up scrabbling at the carpet. He’s still talking, seemingly oblivious to how hard I’m trying to hang onto the scene. This goes on for a bit but eventually I fall into the void.

I’m relaxed here, though, and adopt a swimming motion to move silently through the darkness. I get the sense of motion and catch imagery that looks like I’m swimming past a series of huge, slowly turning pages in a book.

Then I’m pulled into a false awakening. It’s super realistic, but I have a strong sense that I’m still dreaming. I open my eyes and even feel the sensation of them opening, but I still know it’s all an illusion. I should still have my sleep mask on but I have relatively clear vision of the darkened room around me. Wife sleeps silently beside me.

I look up at the ceiling and see two large, projected circles filled with stars there. The two star circles slowly rotate in opposite directions. The effect is hypnotic and beautiful.

I watch for a good while, surprised that I’m able to maintain this much stillness without the dream falling apart. I almost feel like I’m getting away with something by just sitting here watching. I feel like my dreaming brain still believes that it has me fooled. I lay there for a while enjoying the experience until the dream ends. This time my eyes open to the pitch blackness of my sleep mask.

drempt i was at a theme park at my old job at AAP. we were going to do some valet event there but then a heavy downpour ensued and all the vallets said fuck it.

we went on a roller coaster and i had tried to climb inside the safety of the coaster car but instead i ended up hanging on the outside of the box the entire time. it was still fun.

jajeh and lots of other familiars were there and we ended up enjoying a nice time at the park except my dad was gonna come but then friends were leaving so i told him not to but it was weird idk if he got the messages

3. I’m inside grandma’s house. She tells me she’s made something to eat, and I’m disappointed because I was planning on going home for that, so I could watch what I eat.

While eating, grandma tells me about a dinosaur that was spotted. Me and Rane talk about how we used to see them more when we were younger.

We’re riding in a car down a road, looking out at the woods for signs of the dinosaur. We see a field of black goats, and I say that the dinosaur must not be there because the goats were okay. I say it must have gone off into the woods.

We drive into a town full of houses that look like they were made of cheap kid’s furniture. I say that it seems a shame to waste a whole town [just because the people in it before were forced out for doing something wrong]. Rane reminds me that it’s being used for ‘this’ now.

She seems to be looking for a specific house, mumbling under her breath. She stops and opens a part on one light-colored house. Inside are two envelopes. I think they’re old mail left from when the people left and she’s looking for supplies. This is a dystopia, after all.

She takes one and starts opening it, and I ask if I can open the other, to which she replies that I can.

In her package, there was a bag full of jewelry and things. They were a few heart shaped pieces.

-Jump-

I’m in a central building there, talking to a little creature (reminds me of Boota from Gurren Lagann – without the glasses of course!). He’s talking to me about what I need to do to get signed up there to store things. Apparently everyone already has a basic account, but you have to make it official by signing a form.

I look around and see relics from before the apocalypse. There are some anime things and even a few ‘gifs’. I contemplate about the less conventional things, like yaoi, what about people who like those things, but then shrug and realize they still have the internet.

We hear someone come in, and I bend down to look under this metal block. I see someone wearing a skirt or dress and assume it’s a woman. The creature seems to know her, and he runs up my body. I instinctively clutch him and he hides against my body. He doesn’t seem afraid though.

Inspiration: Maybe from watching Helix? And I got a package in the mail recently, and Rane gets things sometimes.

4. Duplicating socks, one was a homemade pair by mom. I thought that duplicated items weren’t as effective as the originals, but seeing the results, I thought it was a really cool idea.

5. I woke up and all the thoughts of my dreams I’d had were scrambling around my head. I had my iPod Touch, opened up Notes and pressed the + sign. I started making a word-list of things I could remember. One word was ‘eggs’.

…I woke up for real, confused, and realized I’d had a false awakening. And had no idea what the eggs part was about.

Notes: The FA is a great sign! I’m so focused on recall when I first wake up, I only do an RC after I’ve got it all straight in my head. I guess I can only wait and see how it develops from here.

Also, turning to lie on my back instead of sitting up worked well for making sure I got the dreams in my palace, because I can’t get to sleep on my back. After that I just had to keep my thoughts from wandering off so I could focus on putting the dreams in.

1. Me thinking that all the fish wouldn’t be able to fit in the room/box.

Inspiration: Me making a new dream palace. In the dream, the image of the fish in it came to mind. Maybe because I was looking for a water Pokemon to put in the water area in Twinleaf Town.

2. In a park-type area, Sarah from Helix was riding a bike around but then is being surrounded by monsters, but Alan comes in to save her.

Inspiration: Watched a new episode of Helix last night just before I laid down. The surroundings reminded me of Pokemon Platinum, which is one of my memory palaces.

Dream 1:

I was on an island resort with my father. I went for a run through the tropical forest outside and there were people from my high school running there too. I tried to avoid the people I didn't want to talk to. I remember that it was quite beautiful though; there was mist rising up from the ground, light pouring through the cracks in the trees, lush plant-life everywhere. The trail was a giant circle, I thought that was pretty weird and that there had to be more to the island than this giant circle. I grew tired of running and decided to go back inside the resort.

The inside was now a giant, circular, track of lockers, high school style. There were also vending machines for weed. They said it was legal on their island now, to attract tourists. The owner of the island was some angry little woman that barely reached my waist. She got angry at the manager of the resort for making it legal because professional sports athletes wouldn't be allowed to go there now. Dream kept getting weirder.

I went outside to this enormous beach area that had scattered palm trees and groups of people doing fun little events. I decided to go flying by using a parachute. I strapped it on and the wind took me up into the air like I was a kite. I had to navigate to channels of wind to stay up so that I could explore more of the island. After going on a little bit of a flying island adventure I decided I was done and I went back to the resort. I suddenly had an enormous pike in my hands, naturally I gutted it and prepared fillets, not sure why. Then these kids from my high school appeared and wanted me to take them flying too. Didn't work as well because they added too much weight. They started to get upset that they weren't going very high. I looked to the shore and saw giant 20 foot waves coming in and thought, ooooo that looks like good wind. Sure enough it sent us soaring. I looked to the shore again and saw these 100 foot walls of water coming towards us. I became lucid and tried to fly away from the island but the parachute and these 2 DCs were weighing me down. Black clouds began creeping along the island's ground. I could hear thunder. I woke up.

Dream 2:

I was at my parents' house, talking to my parents when I noticed that my dad was black. I became lucid and asked him, "Why are you black in this dream, dad?" He said something about having revitiligo, I thought it was hilarious in the dream. I woke up and thought, what the hell was that about.

Fragment 1:

On another island with my family and a witch. I don't remember most of the beginning of the dream. I just remember that there were these snakes biting me, hanging onto my skin and that reminded me of another dream I had earlier this month. They made a popping noise when I would pull them off, sometimes their bodies would come off and their heads would stay. It hurt. That made me lucid and I sought out the witch as my family left.

It was nighttime and the moon lit up the island with a blueish hue. The witch was at a cliff edge, staring longingly towards the ocean. I asked her to teach me her powers. She just kept staring for a minute and then looked at me and said that I could control those snakes if they appeared again. She made several snakes appear and told me to control them now, stop them from biting me. I made them fight each other but then I noticed the witch was holding a cute little kitten and the snakes started to attack me. She made them disappear and I realized that I lose control if i lose focus. I feel like she taught me a couple more things but I can't remember them. I followed her around for awhile and eventually asked her if it was possible to stop mutations. She told me that it was impossible, that no magic could do such a thing. I felt a little bit disheartened at her response. She gave me a big hug and told me not to worry, that I was only at the beginning of this journey. I woke up feeling a lot better.

Pre Bed Supps: 250mg Valerian 30 mins prior, 100 mg 5htp at bed. Bed @ 1115

WBTB: 4am Supps: 3mg G, 250 C, 250 Valerian and .5 mel

Routine: Got up and took my Valerian right away to keep me rather calm and hopefully keep me on the sleepy side. Read some old DJ entries and went back to bed 25 minutes later, right before I layed down I took other supps.

Had one non lucid prior to WBTB and didn't have too hard of a time getting back to sleep.

Woke with this around 530 or so but didn't record till around 8 or 9.

I was downstairs in an inside/outside living area. I was lying in a bed and we were either really cleaning up or moving out of our house. My wife was upstairs throwing a bunch of stuff out of a window like papers and whatnot. I told her that it would probably make more sense if the bagged it up there so she didn't have to pick it up twice. She didn't really care for my comments. I layed down in bed to go to sleep with lucidity on my mine (this was in the dream), I woke again (FA) and there was a dog on my head. I ended up laying on the dog and trying to get back to sleep again, still thinking of lucidity. I put my head near the side of the bed and it kept sinking down further and further never ending. I thought that I might be in a dream at this point. I tried to open my eyes but it was very difficult, I could open them a bit but they would clamp back shut. After alot of struggling I got them to stay open but they were fluttering a bit. I fought a bit more and finally got them to stay open. I did a RC with my hand and brought it up to my face but couldn't see it. I tried again and again I couldn't see it. It was like I knew it was there and I should be able to see it but it just wasn't there. I rolled out of bed (didn't even get stuck in the covers this time) and was finally able to see my hands. They looked normal. Oh well, back to bed. I turned to get back in bed and it was now a tan couch now. I checked my hand again and really looked and noticed some awkwardness about them, then I saw the wavyness and the shrinking and growing of the fingers.

LUCID: I didn't study anything like I said I was and just walked over to the side of the room with some cabinets and a refrigerator. I was in a basement of a house, not huge just a single large room and a small bathroom off to the side. I went into the refrigerator since I wanted to try some more food and opened it. On the bottom I saw a can of peanut butter. I grabbed it and took off the lid and got some with my finger from inside the top ring of the container. It wasn't bad actually, tasted nutty at least. I just tasted didn't chew or swallow. I then decided to find some dog biscuits to do the task from last month. I went into one cabinet which had pots and pans. Then I told myself they were in this cabinet and opened a top one and there were a bunch of different bagged items. I went through a few of them not recognizing dog treats and then again I thought they are here in the back. I grabbed a yellow bag and tried to read it but couldn't make anything out. I knew they were either cat or dog treats. This will do. I opened it up and got a handful out. They were shaped as animals, kind of looked like the animal crackers but they had the color of a salami type meat. Pink with some of the white specks riddled through them. I dropped a couple on the floor for the dogs that were by me and then popped one in my mouth. It tasted meaty, nothing amazing or gross, just there really. I then began picking up the mess that I made, wrappers on the counter. I thought this was funny that I was cleaning up and it didn't matter but I kept doing it anyways. I tossed it all in the trashcan in the bathroom. I saw a window and thought to go out it but wanted to find some people to do the St Patties day TOTM on so stayed inside. I did however want to jump through the ceiling to get upstairs. I remember I pictured in my head this failing and it did. I jumped up and went through some of the ceiling tiles and came back down with broken tiles around me. Stairs it is. I headed for the stairs on the other side of the room and started climbing them. I was about half way up when I heard my daughter and wife talking about me liking frosting. Happily I replied "I do like frosting" and before I got to the door to go to the upstairs I woke up.

I was pretty excited I had this lucid that lasted probably 5 to 10 minutes after my previous 5 or 6 have been less than 10 seconds.

I've had trouble sleeping the past 2 nights and I think that is part of my problem. It's mostly because I'm somewhat sick I do believe.

But I really haven't been able to remember my dreams the past 2 nights. I remember having dreams, I just can't quite remember what they were.

There's a lot of stuff I don't remember, but there were two distinct settings. One was in a cave where I was raising Minecraft Creepers. Kind of. I remember that the baby creeper was only a head of the mob. I fended off monsters to keep it from exploding. At one point, I had a ton of them, and people adopted them. I still had some left over, and not all of them were creepers, I think. One was white, I think that might've been the one I was defending.

Then there was a two floor, both rectangular room. The first floor was the cafeteria, I think, and the second just had ledges at the walls of the room for people to walk on. I remember a bed was on this floor, it was white.

I grabbed lunch, but someone had took my chair while I was gone. I looked around for a stool, and that's all I can remember.

3 hertz and random body positions after I strike my alarm. The ten mintes seem to go by in less than a second. I have to constantly hit it.

After driving through a city which has Pepsi signs everywhere. I think pepsiman had less pepsi than this highway. I just closed my eyes to avoid it. Ventually my randim thoughts led me to ld wishing I could have one andone begins. I phase out of the car I was in and run down the highway to see someone with a color changing shirt. So when I pinch her for the totm she says "now which arm do I cut off?"

That was not expected. I just leave. At the end, I thought I should have told her 'both' so there could be an unconscios body and I could reference a brawl machinima.

AS I walk into A Parking lot, I slow down time so I can control myself better. I then do a front flip over a fence and atop a car to fall atop some bushes. After I do that I go to the other end where I meet a totally subconscious me.

I only feel questions I don't remember, and I only feel responses.

After some other stuff I finally make it to my house where it is really dark and I let my subc feeling make it light. It didn't turn out the best, but flukes always happen, no? Making sure all of this is remembered. I stop right here and don't deild.

Earlier that night I had this weird challange filled with lava that looked very minecrafty. Just kill everyone else. I survived for a long time. Also I remember a bubble that was held inside a stadium.

so I set my alarm to wake me up after 5 hours of sleep, but when it went off my approach towards dream recall was Utter Ambivalence, so I just went back to sleep. Man it's hard to care when you've just woken up. And the thought of squinting at the screen and trying to type was painful, so ... what do I do about that? >:U
Anyway, morning now, let's see

Dream (1): $$$ for ??
The earliest dream I had was about being in a mall with my boyfriend, and him letting me spend somewhat ridiculous amounts of money on something at one of those stall shop things. I'm not sure what it was; maybe it was ice cream. Maybe it was buying entrance into a video game? He trusted me to the point where he'd wander off and let me pay for both our whatever-it-was's (plane tickets?).

I have a distinct memory of fumbling with the dollar bills, much to the annoyance of the cashier, and pulling out $20's and $5's only for it to be the wrong amount of money. And okay there was definitely something about buying ice cream and toppings and junk, though I get the impression that buying things like this kept happening and was really the entire feature of the dream.

There was also something else about buying something nearby and seeing an adorable kid kinda standing around, but I can't remember what was said or anything.

Dream (2): Airplanes are P Gr8
Then the next dream I had was a bit more complicated and detailed. A frenemy of mine was messaging me talking about how he was in an airplane going somewhere, and I looked out the window to see two enooormous airplanes (SO COOL), a white one coming in for landing and a black one taking off with the frenemy inside. They were so close that I could easily see this frenemy through his window, wearing some snazzy red and white Beats headphones and looking down at his phone. Neat.

Next thing I knew I was on that plane, and my brother was there, yay. Or maybe there was a short transition in between where my brother and I were buying tickets? But I believe we were on the same plane as said frenemy, and it may have had to do with entering a game, or flying to where a game competition was.

But that detail didn't matter because next thing the plane was being forced to make an emergency landing. What I remember is that the pilot started to mention it or the plane started to dip down, and I looked out the front window somehow and realized we were apparently going to touch down on a highway. Part of my mind was like "hm I'm not scared by this hohoho" even though the pilot was clearly experiencing some stretched nerves, but hey, he was the guy who had to land right and maybe not crush any of the various cars or cause an enormous accident. It didn't feel like we were going particularly fast so I think that's why I wasn't worried. Slightly nervous, maybe, but not scared.

Anyway he managed to land on a clear stretch of the highway, though now we were slightly tilted because one of the wheels was on an elevated median of some sort, and he couldn't slow down because we were on a highway, and cars were behind us. So the airplane taxi'd and here my brain apparently lost interest because it didn't try to explain how we got an enormous airplane from the highway to a department store parking lot. But we did, because that was a fairly logical thing to have happen next. It just sort of happened.

So next thing we were out of the plane and in the department store, and now my mom was there and perhaps also my sister. My mom had the idea of signing us up for Judo, so we wandered over to the Judo section of the store where some students were fighting on a too-small carpet. Really each student pair was constantly in danger of walloping another nearby, but apparently it didn't matter.

So as soon as it became clear that I might actually sign up, my first concern (and non-concern) was that I would start using Judo to release my aggressions. But at the same time I was pretty stinking excited to be able to unleash my dormant rage~ but it seemed like the sort of thing that wouldn't be strictly allowed or ethical. Like maybe I'd get in trouble with the teacher or something. So of course the sign-up form reflected this; I got a piece of paper with three questions or so on it, one of which was something like "why do you want to sign up?" with a box underneath for a one-word answer, and I had to decide whether I was going to put "aggression" down like a toolbox. But that's where the dream ended so we'll never know.

I'm still not lucid but to be fair the only techniques I've been using are random reality checks and lazy WBTB's. Spring Break's coming up >:3

Three dreams in one night:

- A friend and I are watching a new TV series starring Berta from 2 1/2 Men, who is a barkeeper. She has to keep watch over an aggressive dog. The dog chases her and bites her leg. She gets loose and runs in the bath. But the door is only a saloon swing door and she tries to hold it shut with her hands. The dog bites off one of her fingers and tries to open the door. Suddenly my parents arrive in the entrance hall and the dog calms down.

- I'm having sex with my ex-girlfriend. We take a brake and she reads a magazine about sex toys. I wonder why we suddenly have sex and decide to check my wrist watch. It shows around 4:45 am. She says that she only got up ten minutes ago. I ask her what time it was then, but she answers that she doesn't remember. I conclude that I'm dreaming and decide to just continue having sex. But the dream ends a few seconds afterwards.

- I am in a zoo and want to meet my parents. I take a bus to their place when i realize that I should have gotten off the bus earlier. I get off and walk back. At a bakery I buy two tacos and an entry card for the zoo. Then my grandma appears and tells me that when I was younger we took videos when we went to that zoo. I suddenly see one of these videos where I am in front of a monkey cage and the monkeys are wearing weird masks.