dream fragment

I cannot remember much detail of this dream. A new paragraph signifies me waking up, but still in the dream.

I'm with my boyfriend and I am eating something when I begin to choke. I grab my throat with my hands and try to gasp for air. I'm trying to signal him to help me, but he just stands and stares with a half-smile on his face. This isn't like him whatsoever, but I do not think of the fact that I am dreaming.

I wake up. I am in a strange house, but at the same time it feels familiar. I am surrounded by a handfull of strange people, but they feel familiar as well. The lighting of the dream is dark and eerie, and I have an uneasy feeling. (I forget a lot of what goes on at this point.)

I wake up. I am in the same house, waking up to a weird man who looks like he is a carnie. (I forget a lot of what goes on at this point.) Next thing I can remember, I am walking through a wooded, outdoors-looking hallway, but it's inside the house. I come upon a huge snake that is hissing at me. I panic, but I pick up the snake and throw it into a stream that is also inside the house.. I walk through a maze, which is ALSO a part of the house, and come back into the room in which I woke up. At this point, I'm starting to realize that something is off.

I wake up. I am in the same exact room as my awakening before, and I wake up from the same sleeping location (bed, couch, i can't really remember which specifically.) Something is very wrong, though. Someone is there and they are trying to attack. I get up, run through the same forested alleyway, but I run into the snake again. However, this time, the snakes body has split in two making it a snake with one head and two bodies. I pick the snake up once again and throw it. This time, it is much heavier and much longer. I run towards the maze, and jump inside of it. I am getting panicky for it's hard for me to find my way out. (The only way back into the house is through the maze.) I finally make it back into the house.

I wake up. This time, I know I'm dreaming. So I think to myself "I must do something different," so I do not get up. Instead, I cover myself up and try my best to wake myself up. I try yelling "wake up, Hannah, wake up" but to no avail. It is impossible for me to scream at this point. I begin kicking my legs when I realize that I feel trapped inside my blankets, like tightly wrapped up and tangled.

I wake up. I am in the same bed, but do not realize that I'm still in the dream. I think to myself "Oh finally. I'm awake. That was terrible."
But then I see the face of the man from the dream, and I quickly look around me to realize that I am still in the house from the dream, so I know I am still dreaming. I cover myself back up and try my best to remember where in real life I fell asleep- where, in reality, am I laying right now? Then I remember- I fell asleep at my boyfriends house, in his bed, beside him. So I begin to (try) to yell "Zack, Zack wake me up. Please, Zack, get me out of here. Help me. Wake me up." But my speech is so slow and warped, and it takes all of my energy to make sound.

I wake up, but for real this time. I am confused and disoriented, and for a few seconds I do not recognize the room around me, but later came to and realized that I am back in my boyfriends bed. I also realize I am sitting straight up, panting, and my head is absolutely spinning with a terrible headache. He is awake with his arms around me, which was most comforting. I felt like I had been asleep for ages, and that the dream lasted forever, but when I looked at the clock, I realize that I had only fallen asleep less than two hours ago.

I have been having MANY of these types of nightmares lately. Draining ones, where I wake up and literally feel like I have fought a battle. All of my dreams have been nightmares, lately, too.

Total Sleep time: 8+hrs

Dream recall method: Dr1- noted sentences; Dr2-Dr7 – none

Other: I was feeling very sleepy and tired; there are some gaps in my memory, some fragments re-emerged later.

After HI and falling asleep: I noticed something after briefly waking in the first hours of sleep; now all I am left with is the vague memory; was it dream talking again?

Dream1: We are waiting for the tram, most of my DC friends are dressed officially, but I wear some casual clothes. I am slightly worried about that, but they say “I wish I had your attitude towards life”, “Yeah, but sometimes I feel afraid from all those things I know”, I reply. [I wish I knew what I know, but perhaps it’s better I don’t]

Fragment2: I see the beach, initially I want to go for a swim, but the waves are quite big so I decide against it. My mom is also there.

Fragment3: Looking for a place to hide from two DC women. This is some kind of back stage for something like a theatre, I hope they won’t be looking for me there.

Fragment4: Some posts on DV.

Fragment5: We ran out of toilet paper.



I try WBTB. This time I tell myself, I would be less sleepy and more concentrated. I spend some time in bed awake, concentrating on my body and some sounds from the neighbors, then I quickly transition into the dream.

Dream6[Low Quality Lucid]: I find myself in a familiar room, something like my boyfriend is also there. I know that I am dreaming and I do not bother to RC. I am absolutely passive, just being in the room, I feel as if I am drunk, so heavy. I am sitting on a chair doing absolutely nothing, noticing my behaviour and somewhat annoyed of this but also so tired. This DC is sitting next to me. I take some time to examine him, he looks a lot like my boyfriend, yet I know that’s not him. I find him rather unpleasant. Everything is so stable, and I feel as if I have been sitting there forever, exchanging some random thoughts with this fake bf. I tell him that this is a dream, and he repeats a few times “lucid dreaming”, that’s the only thing that amuses me. I don’t like being there at all…

Dream7, DEILD: I awake for a short while, rather unconscious, open my eyes, rollover and then I enter the dream again. I am thinking “Oh, I DEILDed”, but I really did not mean to do that. I find it strange that I am still there. I feel so tired. I finally remember that what I want to do is change the scene, just imagine a scene, I remind myself. Nope, does not work. Then I see some kind of a poster with some beach and palms and try to concentrate on it… The dream does not fade...memory gap, I think I fall into unconsciousness again...



Dream8: I am with my parents, in some a tourist village near the sea. I want to buy something, so we are looking for the right store. Then I check what money I have with me, I have stamps, which are some kind of certificate serving as money? By the time we get to the store, all the shops are closed. I don’t care that much, but my parents are disappointed that I couldn’t buy anything.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1:

I was attempting WILD and the room was different, but it was normal for my dream self, after attempt i managed to randomly recall a fragment, which is most likely from previous dream, then i went through some rooms and different clocks were showing different time, later some family members decided to help me with WILDing for some reason and as i closed i saw moderator panel of some forum.

Recalled fragment: Some grey/rusty indoors area.

Nap #2:

I was apparently some character from The Simpsons and i was eating alot of candies.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was watching dino crisis 2 let's play.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was browsing dreamviews, there was some thread about how false awakenings affect dream recall and also i was apparently posting that 'I just had a lucid dream'(?).

I vaguely remember a total of five different dreams. One involved going to the dentist, but I don't remember anything more about that.
Another takes place in a mansion. I'm not quite sure what, but we are investigating something (again, not sure who 'we' is). Perhaps the murder of a middle-aged/old woman, with short dark grey hair, who seems to feature in this dream. There is also a place we go to think about information we've gained while in the mansion or surrounding grounds; it is a grey, mottled place with no horizons, set with a number of portal-like occurrences, which are either pale salmony pink or light blue (could be either. Don't remember which). When we enter any of the portals, we are taken back to the mansion.
A third dream takes place in a jungle or forest, with a rushing pale blue river. There are groups of people, none of whom I know, and I am put in a group with them. We all receive 'skills' which appear as pale dotted markings on black spheres/circles. Now we have to cross the river/work our way up it (don't remember which - something to do with the river) but to do so, we have to choose new groups. Nobody wants me in their group. This may be because my allotted skill is useless, or because I don't particularly want to join in. I end up in a team because someone whose 'skill' appeared as a pink scorpion engraved on a black sphere grudgingly allowed me in.
In the morning, after I wake up, the only dream I remember at first is the investigation dream (I guess that was the dream I had woken up from), but I rapidly forget parts of it, such as what we were investigating. I spend a moment trying to remember parts of it, with a limited degree of success, and decide I need to write it down quickly. However, I don't, and without realising it, fall asleep again, in which I dream that I have written down my dream. Sadly, by the time I wake up again, I forget even more of the dream, although I can now remember the rough theme of the dentist dream. Now I really need to write it down, but fall asleep again (did I ever wake up from the first dream which I write down my dreams in? Perhaps it was a false awakening). Again, I dream I have written down my dreams and begin to sketch the woman from the mansion one. I wake up for the third time, pick up my notebook, do a reality check and write down my dreams. Half way through, I remember the jungle dream. Later, when my mother is making me a coffee, I remember another dream. I remember the details of this one;
My friend D has brought in cakes and sweets to sell at charities week in the auditorium. I don't buy anything until later, when there are two plastic bags full left. D's stall is set up near the front of the hall, about level with the speaking podium, and comprises of one blue table which is longer than those in real life. I check the bags and see in the one on the right side a box of cakes and ask to buy them. 'You can't buy the whole box' says D. I say that I want to, or something like that, and later, we walk from the auditorium of my current school to the year six classroom of my primary school. Here, we sit on a desk in the room which we weren't in in year six and I ask D how much she wants for the box of cakes. She says £3.75, and I'm not sure I want to pay that much. I have my handbag and have been holding about four pounds ninety in change in my hand for a while now. D leaves. I open the box (which is light blue) of cakes and look at them (I still remember the layout), eventually deciding I don't want them all after all. Instead, I decide to buy a pain au chocolat and put dibs on the éclair when D comes back. Dream ends before she does.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1(fragment):

I was in the field, brown ground, i was the leader of the warrior squad, there was semi-ruined building that we decided to use for camping, but soon, we were attacked by enemy warriors. We were battling them at our best, but they kept coming. I saw an enemy leader while overlooking the terrain, i sent some of my warriors to deal with him, but they failed. I had to deal with this by myself, but before i went there one of warriors was saying that i should not go for enemy leader. I ignored him and soon was about to attack enemy leader, but it was a trap, leader somehow paralyzed me and then dream ended.

Nap #2(fragment):

I was in some futuristic city and there was facility i was visiting. There was some blue humanoid, that i was calling 'Curdy', and he was operating machine that was making curd. He told me recipe and there was some kind of secret ingredient, then i went to home. There was cutscene happening back at the facility, Curdy went missing and there was dude that was mostly bald and he was in cyan suit. Then cutscene ended and i was back at home, i was trying to eat potato but was very hard to eat, then dream ended.

Nap #3:

I woke up in my bed and i had to move some stuff around room< then i realized that i forgot to take off headphones, i took them off and binaural beats are still playing, so i am dreaming, dream is somewhat unstable so i rub hands on my way to balcony door. Then i slam the door open and fly outside, i feel the wings and i fly around pretty quickly. Shortly the dreamscape changes and goes weird, like two perspectives are overlapping, some parts of it are normal and some parts moving around with my field of view. After i fly over some street it goes back to normal and i decide to attempt transformation into a dragon again. There's not much of result though, my hands only got a bit bigger. I fly through some kind of temple ruins and suddenly my room appears right in front and before i can do anything i crash into the wall in the room. Dad comes into the room(i think my awareness decreased after this transportation...) and we talk about bunch of things that i barely recall, i recall something was about transformation. Then dream fades out and i woke up.

Dream 1(fragment):

I recall some kind of outdoor area.

Dream 2:

I was at home playing some video game and making slow progress through it, then i went to sleep but was having trouble falling asleep because family was watching some movies in my room for whatever reason. Apparently alot of time passed and there was pile of used tires in the room, i went outside.
I was searching some information around the streets, and after a while i went back to home, as i got home everything turned into something looking like a level from Deathtrap Dungeon and had to do a bunch of long jumps.
Then i was back at home but it was weirdly designed and there was more jumping to do, but i couldn't jump anymore and had to find alternate way around. Soon the dream ended.

I'm chatting lucidly with a male DC that seems to be almost otherworldly. He appears human but there's something more to him that I perceive as futuristic and knowledgeable.
My surroundings are unimportant and appear to be contained within some misty cave, dark and foreboding, secretive, the kind of place where stuff like this happens.
The man is dressed in white clothing and is holding a box to his chest, about 12 inches on a side and perhaps 7 inches thick. It appears to be internally illuminated and glows a light green color, though it is not transparent.
The man explains to me that if I place my hand on the box then the patterns my hand makes will determine the kind of lucid dream I have. This isn't hand-reading technology but in fact responds to various patterns, and it's these patterns that control all kinds of dreaming.
I place my hand on the box and the scenery around me shifts to a brilliant blue view of the ocean from cliffs. I flex my hand and it changes again to scenes from past dreams, odd-looking skies and places that don't exist.
I want to step into one of these scenes but everything gets fuzzy and I wake up, needing to pee. :(

Before bed: I was trying to re-program my dream body, for 5-10 mins I imagined sending energy and setting the intent for my dream body to become aware when it had the upper hand (i.e. when I was dreaming)

Result: I am not sure if it was because of this, it actually took me quite a long time to fall asleep, because every time I would drift off, my body would react, for ex. my leg would twitch (I think this is a hypnic jerk?), so I would awaken. Or just as the HI dreamlets began to form, I would realize it and wake up, then go to the restroom, then I would awaken too much. Perhaps my intending was working, but I probably should have used this suggestion technique in WBTB and not when falling asleep initially.

Dream1: Two of my best school friends were playing a kind of game, where each would listen to a song, then share some secret thoughts they had. In the dream I know there are maybe 11 or 12 songs, I remember a certain song, but it does not belong to this album. I cannot remember the last two songs, so my friend goes online to find out which those songs are.

Dream2: Politics again. I see the mayor having an affair with some popular all-night-long party woman, there is also a video of this. I contemplate a lot whether to tell my mom, who supports the mayor, about this whole story. I finally decide to invite her over and show her the video, which shows the two kissing. My mom does not believe any of it and still strongly supports the mayor. What is more, it turns out that she has managed to book a seat and take part in some kind of conference with her favourite politicians.

Dream3: I am looking at photo of one of my favourite teachers, then a former classmate appears next to me, she tells me something. On my other side another classmate2 (DS) appears. Now, I am looking at some jewellery made from semi-precious stones. As I am looking at the jewellery, classmate2 tells me that some kind of pink type of stone is the best.[not sure if such a stone exists IRL], it looks like a mix between rose quartz and jasper. She then tells me that she has some kind of dagger/wand made from that stone and some more info about it.



At that moment I remember that we already have had this conversation in a dream, and I tell her that I had a dream about that. She then replies me that she remembers the dream too. Wow! I go out on the street and begin to tell the story to myself, as if I just awoke and will be writing this in my dream journal. Instead, I begin writing this story on the pavement…

Obviously someone I do not want to meet will soon arrive there, and my friend recommends that I leave the place now. I try to stop a taxi, but it is not a taxi actually, some white old Mercedes with some people and lots of junk in it. I jump on it, trying to use it as a ride to the next station. I get off and fly past some Chinese fast food stall and pick up some chicken skewers, they fly away without paying.



I reach our first home, I am on the street. I look and see my mom there, I don’t want her to know that I am here, so I hide behind a tree. I am waiting but it starts to rain and my tablet is wet, but it is water resistant, and this is a dream so that’s why nothing happens to it. [Really!] I put it in my backpack.

Fragment4: It was during the night and we were in some pub like place. It was 2:30 am and all the shops closed, but the pub was still open. We are outside, I look back at this actually unpleasant place and say to my friends from school “Even though this is a terrible place and we do ourselves so much harm here, I actually love it!”….

Only one fragment, unfortunately.

Dream (fragment): I was at my school, apparently with no shirt. I went to my locker and grabbed it.

Seeing the man fixing the fence in my garden today made me recall last night's dream.

I climb a stepladder and recall it being incredibly wobbly. There was also another stepladder, which I only view, and wonder how such an article can be so unstable. It is mid-dark blue and gunmetal grey in colour, somehow crude looking, with chipped paint.

Dream recall from non-lucid naps.

I recall a room with brown colored walls and floor.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was in the city and i was searching for something.

Dream 2(fragment):

There was some kind of competitive game about waking up on dreamviews, i didn't managed to win but i tried...

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was in some kind of white city with dense white fog.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was playing Far Cry mod, which added stuff from Syphon Filter into it, there was hard level that started as fight with a tank, and i had only .45 and there was another tank that i could use, but i didn't because of enemy's tank. I ambushed a few enemies that were trying to flank me and got their HK5, then enemy tank was going around, but by that, tank left a passage that it was guarding, so i just went there. There were a bunch of enemies stuck in the wall helplessly, so i shot them and got their ammo, which were mostly different kinds of shotguns, but i was able to carry only one of them for some reason.

I remember building a use case diagram in UML notation, and it included:

Death with extensions for Died of Natural Causes, Murder, and Suicide.