false awakening

Dream - Lucid - AP

I remember having 3 dreams about Katherine last night, but I can only remember a bit of one.

I was with Katherine outside of this movie theater. It was kind of run down. I also remember being inside one of the theaters. Throughout the dream, Katherine was carrying a laptop with her. I also remember a man being with her. He looked older and kind of messy, with messy, shoulder-length dark brown hair and some facial hair.

I remember being in the bathroom with her. She was talking to me as I looked for a stall. I found one, and noticed that there were only 3 walls of the stall, and two toilets in it. I sat down on the toilet. I peed for a long time, still talking to Katherine through the door.

Then, a black girl about my age who was with a white girl walked up. The black girl walked into the stall, which wasn't hard, since there were only 3 walls. This made me think about a comment Rman made on one of my dreams, one I had about being walked in on in a stall. I quickly forgot, however. The black girl looked at me for a minute, and I looked back. I felt kind of intruded upon, but dismissed it since there were only 3 walls, afterall. She started to change her pad while talking to the white girl that was with her.

I then remember talking to Katherine as she was sitting down inside the bathroom. She was on her laptop. I remember wanting to get out of there; wanting to leave, but I tried to be patient. I remember Katherine saying something about someone "stealing something right in front of her face." I started to think about our falling out, and hoped she didn't bring that up, because I was in no mood to argue or fight.

I then remember seeing some theme park behind a building that we were at. The sky looked cloudy, like it might rain. I was surprised that there was a theme park there, and commented on it to Katherine. I also said something about me going to Universal Studios over spring break. She said "Yeah, there's a theme park here!", and then all the sudden we were going down this green water slide with her in front of me.

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I woke up in my bed, and had to use the bathroom. I was thinking about my dreams. I felt very awake, and I stretched as I entered the bathroom. I tried to turn on the light in the part of the bathroom where the toilet and shower are, and it wouldn't come on. "I bet the other one's out too...", I thought. Then, I tried the main light, where the sinks are. It wasn't working either. "Really?", I said. I still had to use the bathroom, so whatever.

I then tried turning on the light in my room so I could at least have a little light in the bathroom. Only one lightbulb flickered. It was very dim. I then turned on a second light in my room of a second fan that was there. The same thing happened as did with the first fan light. I remember thinking that this would be a good opportunity to try a WBTB, since I felt more awake, and I had been up longer than originally planned.

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I was at my old apartment. I was in Caitlin's room. She was with our other friend Katie. They were getting ready to go to a party. They asked me to go, and I told them no, I didn't want to. They left.

Then, I was with my friend, Leigh. I was at her house. She told me Caitlin was getting too crazy and drunk at these parties, saying that she was pulling "carnival tricks" or something, trying to pull her eyes out of socket and stuff like that, and going way too far with it; it was becoming very dangerous. I thought about seeing her do that in the past. She also said that it was mostly Caitlin, and Katie was actually not as bad about it.

Then, I asked Leigh if she had any weed. She pointed out a white and grey marbled stone-made pipe that was sitting on a dresser beside a picture frame. She said there was a little left in there. She mentioned something about our friend, Bret. I started to smoke the pipe.

Then, I was riding in the car with Leigh, smoking the pipe still. I looked down into it and noticed it was out; nothing but ashes left, though some looked like they were still burning slightly. I started to feel a little high. I thought about people possibly seeing me smoking in the car, but I didn't seem to care too much, though I tried to stay alert. I was talking to Leigh.

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I was on stage at my high school's auditorium. I was holding sheet music. I was a first act for some program we were performing. I was singing; rehearsing. The song started with F quarter notes and the words were "Teenie, Teenie" at the beginning. My choir teacher said something about me being intimidated or scared about going first. I honestly thought I would be too, but I didn't feel that bad. I was singing the music, and I sounded pretty good. "Teenie" sounded like a different word as I sang it though, because I was pronouncing it weird. I thought about performing for a crowd as opposed to an empty auditorium. I didn't feel very nervous about it, surprisingly (I get VERY nervous about this kind of thing in waking life).

Then, I remember sitting out in the auditorium, watching a group of 3 sing the next song.

Then, I remember being back up there again, and this time, we were singing to die. It was strange, it was like we were all sick, and we were going to end our lives. There was one alternative that she mentioned that I didn't like (can't remember what), so my teacher suggested another, and gave me a screwdriver I was supposed to sing into and it would rip my skin off as I sang, leaving nothing but bones. I wasn't ready to die yet! I didn't want to do this. I started singing into the weird screwdriver and reading my music. Nothing really happened. I remember seeing some eighth notes on the page.

Instead of killing myself, I decided I just needed to take my dirty clothes off. I started to walk away, taking off my dirty clothes until I was down to my underwear, which I also took off. I threw it all in my hamper.

7-3-06

I'm back.

I had a Lucid Dream while I was gone.

It wasn't particularly long, but it was an LD, nonetheless.

I was in the backyard of my old house and Philip was there, and he had these magic powers. One of the things he could do was to make things float. I remember I was on this bucket lid-- or something of that shape and size, and there was a rope attached and Philip was pulling me around the yard and I was floating behind him.

At some point I said to myself, "This is really odd. How can this be happening?" And at that moment I realized that I was dreaming.

I then said to Philip "Hey, I'm dreaming! Let's fly!"

And we took off up into the air and started flying straight up--super high. But then I realized that I was losing the dream. I could feel myself wake up. I was aware enough to know that I had just had a false awakening, but I lost lucidity at that point and went on to other now forgotten dreams.

Lucidity: 9/10 (maybe better!)
Vividness: 9/10
Length: ~20-25 Min. (longest since 4/15/11)

When I was about to do something as soon as I became lucid I remembered how to make my lucid longer. So I did that. Then after I rubbed my hands, felt the ground, and smelled the air. I started to feel and notice a lot more things just like the tutorial said it would. So I started off small and started playing around lightly. I saw my shadow and saw that it was going crazy so I gained control of it and made my shadow how it is supposed to be. Then I just walked around for a while. Then I was in my house and was still lucid. I was trying to think of multiple reasons of why I was dreaming. I noticed that I had two of the same video cards and the box for it which I haven't seen in years. Then my brother, or somebody, wanted me to do something and then left. I immediately left after he did. Then all of a sudden it became kinda like a story. I killed someone, on accident, and I had to do something for them. I was in a hospital and the doctor asked me how she died. I was about to tell him when my friend dragged me out of the room. He was kinda mad. The only way I could possibly help the person I killed was to Lucid Dream. So this is my longest lucid ever. I had a team and I need them in order to complete my task. It was Kaleb, Ramone, and some other people that I didn't realize. So I found a bunch of glass that looked like it was from Minecraft so I broke it and jumped down. When I got down, almost immediately, some guy showed up and pointed at the sky and said "look, look at the stars! See how there glowing and bright? Their doing the burial of your body." It was a wonderful experience to experience something like that, especially in a lucid. I felt like I had died, and was on my quest to heaven. I asked him "do we have a time limit?" He said "yes." We had to finish the quest before our bodies died. Then he showed me a demonstration of how we were lucid dreaming this long. He was controlling our bodies, making them do what they would do if we were awake. Then he said "now, let's do something fun!" He pointed at the sky and made the scenery behind him completely change. We were to find some objects to help us on our quest. All I wanted to do was sell them rather than use them. But my friends kept me from doing that. Then it was kinda like Halo and I was running around with Halo-like weapons shooting skinny blue aliens and such. I felt like I was on computer. I was in a house and then I saw Sara so I thought "as always, I will end this lucid dream with some lucid sex." Then a timer showed up and said 19:19.19 minutes or something, I was like "cool, a timer. Now it will make it easier to find out how long I've been dreaming!" Then I woke up and remembered my very vivid and lucid adventure.

Well they say there's a first for everything, and last night I actually achieved lucidity before 4AM (which is unheard of in my case). My memory was rather vague upon waking. I recall it being longer than my average lucid, but I only remember it from a certain point onwards.

Anyway:

Lucid = orange

It's day time, and I'm walking past the Westlands Airfield bit (it would be classed as an alley-way if there were buildings either side of me, instead of fencing). When I emerge, there's no cars. I'm standing on the road with the intentions of fulfilling one of my goals, which is to find a computer and use it to tap into my memories, and I knew there would be one at my house, which I wasn't too far from. (I read somewhere here that somebody had been able to do that via google in a lucid).
To get there quicker/more chance of staying lucid, I call for my dream guide. I then see a heavily armoured DC with a single horn on his head, coming towards me in the distance. Again, it was a completely different person, and the fact he looked awesome was almost too good to be true. I approached him and asked if he was my dream guide. He nodded, and then corresponded to my wishes before, turning himself into an armoured rhino with me riding on top, taking me to my house.
I don't remember how long I had been lucid at this point, but I do remember thinking before/after calling for my guide that this lucid had lasted considerably longer than usual, and I was having absolutely no difficulty seeing, talking, or anything, like I sometimes do - everything was perfectly clear.
When we arrive at my home I thank him, and then ask if there's any way he could bestow better memory upon me, so that I could record all of my lucid upon waking. He said he couldn't do this, and instead left me a parting gift: A duplicate of my bike with a few extra lights on the front, which were extremely powerful. I can't remember the reason why he did this, but it obviously had some use to me.
He then dissipated before my eyes, leaving me standing on my own with 2 bikes.

I thought I had woken up at this point, somehow going into a dream state on my way home (and sleepwalking). It seemed kind of strange, that concept I mean, and I decided to do a reality check just to make sure. I held my nose shut, and found I could still breathe through it. For some annoying reason, I took this as a sign that I was awake and didn't register the fact I had just succeeded with a reality check. I also thought that this extra bike was some miracle, as a dream remnant had stayed with me, even upon 'waking', although I was worried about how I would explain this phenomenon to my parents, and that they would think I had stolen it or something.
I then proceeded to put both in the garage. For a second I hesitated and figured I should dump the other bike off somewhere else to avoid suspicion, but then I dismissed that and just put them both in. I then hear motorbikes and see Mike & Wilson coming down the drive. It's night time now and I want to get some work done before I go to bed, so I have to tell them to come back another day.

Note: The next bits are fragments from before I was lucid, still in the same dream, I think.

I'm at school in the upper school hall and some guy is starting on me for no reason. I confront him fully, but he just hits me a few times. I don't give a damn as it doesn't hurt and continue to tell him how pathetic he is for doing this, since I've done NOTHING to him.

I'm running out of the upper school hall, not out of fear, but because I want to do something elsewhere. I'm kind of paranoid that people will mistake that for me running away from him, however.

I've got some long nose thing which I'm gonna use to take the piss outta this guy who started on me. Then some of his cronies (they're quite big) are about to come out the door, so I need to find a place to hide. My friend Niall is just about to go into the toilet at this point, so I figure that's the best place to go. However, the cronies try to get in (unaware that I'm there) so I quickly lock the door and hide in the disabled bit at the back of the room, hoping that Niall will then make an exit and they won't know the difference.

I'm on my bike about to leave the premises and go home. I need to go uphill though some people. They're kicking a ball around and it flies past me. I stop and try to kick it back but it goes the wrong way.

This next bit is from my last dream, some hours later:

I'm in some random place with a large group of people. We're hunting a type of something (I think), or just trying to defend ourselves from an attack. We all have guns. People in the group keep getting attacked by ravenous wolves, losing limbs as a result. It almost happens to me at one point; I'm out of ammo and one is charging towards me, about to strike. Somebody yells ''Kick it in the face as hard as you can, you've got nothing to lose!'' so I try. I can't move, I think I'm done for. Then somebody jumps in front of me and takes the hit, losing his leg.

Later on the group gather up. I ask if anybody has any ammo, and somebody hands me more than 2 times the amount I need. I'm seriously grateful and load my gun, putting the rest of it into the bag. My friend Ash then says ''Well, I'm gonna stick with you then!''

I had a long dream tonight, and I was lucid in it too.

I am in a room in school, alone. It is a common room, with a television and lots of books on shelves in it. I take off my heavy clothes and sit down on the sofa, put a blanket on me and start watching TV. First there is a commercial about Karstadt and FR, he acts as if he was very famous. He has long, black hair. Then there is a program about wrestling, but the fighters are jumping around on a trampolin-like field, and trying to hit each other. I start wondering about my situation, and I decide to stop watching TV, put my clothes back on and tidy up the room, I would be in trouble if someone saw me like this. Inthe process of tiding up, a few of my old friends from school (I think it were JS and KD) came in and told me that the room is clean enough now. A bit later, PT comes in and starts to change his clothes. I see him naked, and notice that he has a second pair of genitals placed in the middle of his chest. First I am shocked by the weirdness of this. Then, I start thinking: "Well, he would be able to satisfy two women at the same time like this. But wait, it wouldn't be possible to shake his chest like a waist, so his ability is kinda limited. But what if he lies down on the ground?..." PT has finished changing clothes already, and settles down in the room. I go outside and meet my brother, I ask him about PT's situation. He tells me that it is a rare kind of cancer, but it isn't harmful. I walk back to the room, and ask PT about the disease. He says I should not worry about it.
I say he shoudn't worry about it either, because we are in a dream. He gets what I am saying, but cannot quite believe it. I try a Kamehameha, but it doesn't work. Then I try to demonstrate my Ganondorf-style hovering, but it doesn't work either. The dream is very vivid. I try to push my left index finder through my right palm, but feel like waking up in the process.
PT and my wake up in the common room. It has too beds now, but it is still the same room in school. I ask him if he was in the dream with me. He says yes, but adds that he cannot remember anything, he only has the general feeling that something happened. My excitementfalls a bit, because I was about to tell him that this proves shared dreaming. We decide to go back to sleep.
I feel that I am in the same dream again. PT is with me. We are still in the room, it is a bit brighter now because sunlight is entering through the windows. The dream is even more vivid, the books on the shelves all have diferent colors, most of them are blue, green or red. A big table is in the middle of the room, NG and JT are sitting on chairs beside it. But first I talk to PT: "We are back." He responds "Suddenly I remember everything." I take a seat at the table and start talking to the two girls. "This is a dream" I say, NG is shocked at first and starts wondering, JT is kinda indifferent to it. I try to prove it to them by pushing my left index finger through the table, but I fail at first. After pushing it succesfully through my palm, I try again and manage to do it with some effort. The area where my finger enters the table is now liquid, but the table manages to hold its shape. I can move my finger around and draw lines, and cause waves. JT snaps and yells "Wow, look what he's doing!" I draw a smile in front of NG, which throws her out of thoughts too. "Everyone knows now" is my thought, and I leave them alone. I am amazed by the vividness of the dream, and even more amazed by the length. I realize that the awakening with PT was a dream too. I wonder what time it is in real life, I remember when I woke up last. My mistake, I feel the sensation of being in bed and feel like waking up.
Me and PT wake up again in the room. Now PT is really uptight and takes out his laptop. He checks the internet connection, he has none. I get his flow of thoughts, he thinks that this shared dreaming needs a medium which is able to connect on long distances. "Shared dreaming doesn't work like that, don't bother investigating."

Never was lucid this long, felt like 20 minutes. The whole dream felt like it was an hour, and I know there is more I don't remember before the TV part. I still cannot remember a single word that was said, only the general idea of the sentence. Also, it is really hard to ignore physical laws when the dream is too vivid and the setting is too normal.

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Leo and I we're reading books about zietgiest. We were looking at houses to move into. We found a kinda nice one. It was big but kind of old. I was talking to a group of people saying if you don't love your body when you die you die for good. I talk for a while about how I loved my body and how I loved everyone else. I was half naked. The zietgiest books were a little creepy. The covers looked like they were meant to be for Halloween and were animated. I was on the phone with Leo and we were talking about how excited we were to move in. The realtor came in and said this house was only 11k we thought about buying the place. I saw the master bathroom and was freaked out there was something wrong. I knew that the woman who owned the house died in that bathroom. It looked nice, but had weird energy. I looked around and was scared. I saw a messed up kitchen and walked faster. I was lost in the house going in circles. I saw a ghost and screamed on the phone to leo as I ran. The ghost looked like Kara. It would catch up to me and I would scream harder. It was kind of funny in a way because it would make a funny face Kara makes. Kind of like it was trying to be scary in a funny way. It was chasing me but also looked like it was running away. It fell and twisted its head. I laughed and said you idiot now your dead and we both laughed.

I was walking baron and he found another pug the he made friends with on the street. They we're playing for a while when I saw the lady had another dog. It was super black and scary looking. I touched it and it tried to bite me. I was Trying to get baren to leave but the dog would chase us and try to bite us. I woke up in my old apartment and went out of the room. I broke a lamp. Baron kept trying to eat glass and it was pissing me off. I got the vacuum and tried to vacuum it all up. It wouldn't work very well. I had to throw the glass in the garbage.


Everything was weird when I woke up. My table was moved and there was a large truck outside my driveway. I walked to the bathroom and kara was putting on makeup. I went downstairs and Adam was playing with trains and my mom was making dinner. Why is it dark already? I went upstairs and I saw kids stealing shit from the truck. I got my green laser and started shining it at them. They ran away up a hill and I kept trying to get it in their eyes. There was a group of people in my front yard and I hit them with the laser. They stopped and started looking for me. I was hidden behind my curtains and was sure they couldn't see me. They gave up looking and started to leave. I was safe. A knock on my door made me think I wasn't safe. I opened the door and a black looking man with dreadlocks was there. He worked at the gym and had a logo on his shirt. It looked like he was trying to hit me and I was holding his arms down but he was too strong. I tried to be nice and asked him what the problem was. He said I hit him in the eye with the laser and he was pissed. I told him the story and he kind of understood, but told me to never use my lasers again. He knew I had a giant blue one because hes been watching it at night. He knows they are cool and he has one too. I agreed and he left. I quickly ran upstairs to shine it on him as he was leaving. I thought the table looked so weird because it was positioned differently and knew I was dreaming. I was rubbing my hands together for most of this and woke up several times. I went to Kara and asked if she was the real Kara. She kept responding with stupid answers and I quickly knew it wasn't her. I woke. I reentered by saying 1 im dreaming. 2 im dreaming 3 im dreaming until I sort of just knew I was back in. I did nose rcs to confirm im dreaming. It looked 100% vivid, real, and complete. I wanted to have sex so I spend a while looking for a girl. I went outside then inside then upstairs and found a hot girl laying in my bed. I knew if I played I would probably wake up. Also, she wasn't as vivid as everything else. A voice told me its because I created her out of my mind and I have never seen her before so she wouldn't be as strong an image. I left her and woke anyway. I was waiting and then I was back in the dream. This time I went downstairs and tried to make a portal. I couldn't. I've gotten worse at portals for some reason. I tried to get that magnetic feeling in my finger, but nothing. Adam was laughing at me calling me a noob. I gave up and went outside. It looked 100% like my neighborhood. It was sunny out. I made it cloudy for some reason, probably just to try and see if I could. My powers were weak. I woke. I reentered and Leo was there. I wanted to show him how I could shoot a laser and couldn't. I asked if I could borrow some of his power and he gave me some. I was beginning to shoot it and failed again. I woke. I was getting annoyed that I couldn't do shit. I went back outside and ran super speed for a while. That I could do. I woke. Michael was calling me on my phone and I was annoyed because I was trying to DEILD. My phone picked up by itself and Michael was trying to talk to me. I ignored it and went back inside the dream. I fucked around for a little longer and then remembered I wanted my dream guide. I went outside and said I want to find my dream guide. Everything changed I heard a loud noise and was instantly teleported I think to another planet. The shift was weird. Its like reality was washing away to another location. I never left earth before even when I tried. I was so shocked. Everything was red. There wore volcanoes and it all looked hot. The sky was either black or red I can't remember. Looked like something almost prehistoric. I know I've been here before. It was so familiar. It was 100% vivid and I somehow knew my dream guide lives here. I was excited. I woke. I couldn't get back in. I felt the true shift of waking up.
EDIT: I remember jumping around in joy spinning in circles really fast. I remembered that spinning could change a scene so I stopped. Nothing happened.

- Souls or spirits coming to me for help or helping me, and/or trying to take advantage of me or invade me

- Terror, anxiety, and/or rushing

- Tidal waves and tornadoes

- Being stalked with murderous intent

- People and animals from my past

- Spiritual bliss / channeling / meditating / healing / overwhelming beauty and a feeling of my heart opening

-Extraordinarily (somewhat glowing) vibrant colors, especially in nature and spiritual symbols (usually when experiencing that blissful feeling, sometimes when interacting with souls or spirits)

I imagine these will change since I haven’t kept records of a lot of my dreams and these are somewhat based on the dreams that were significant enough to me to remember.

(And hi everyone, I'm new here.)

While I was driving to my cousins house, I saw huge ziplock bags of weed everywhere on the street! I was suddenly with my younger boy cousin and he was saying how we should take one. We saw ahead that there were some police cars and hazardous waste signs that taped off the end of the street. I turned my car around and yelled at him to grab one bag. He got out of the car, grabbed a bag and hopped back in. The cops didn't see us so we drove off and went back to his apartment. His sister was home and we told her about the incident.

My younger guy cousin immediately ran into the bathroom, grabbed a handful of the weed and began smoking it rapidly. I told him to calm down but he didn't listen. He started taking handfuls and shoving it in his mouth and eating it. I think he ate half the bag. I looked really ill/sick all of a sudden. He turned really pale and went to go lie down on the bed in the living room. The smoke was still in the air but I didn't inhale it. My girl cousin ran into the bathroom and starting talking about how high her brother was and she unconsciously inhaled the smoke that was still in the air.

After a few minutes my guy cousin started to gag and cough up blood everywhere. It looked like he was searching for the bag of weed but I put it in the bathroom so he couldn't reach it. He smoked way too much so he couldn't really get up but he was still coughing up a lot of blood. Then he started spilling blood from every orifice of his body and I was so scared I didn't know what to do. I decided to confiscate the weed but when I went in the bathroom his sister was in the same state as him but she was functional because she didn't intake as much. It looked like she wanted to kill me and she got up to attack. I was so scared I knew I had to leave but for some reason I felt the urge to gather my belongings before I left. I snatched the remaining bag of weed and was looking for my shoes and keys and my bag. She was walking towards me but really slow. I grabbed my keys and put on my shoes and was going to grab my bag but when I turned around she was right next to me. I screamed and ran out the door. I ran to where I parked my car but she suddenly started running after me, fast. I tried opening my car but you know sometimes when things just don't go as quickly as you want it to or you can't move as fast as you want? Yeah, well that was happening and she was getting closer and I thought I was going to die so I tried to wake myself up by telling myself I need to wake up NOW.. and I did. But only for a brief moment. I fell back asleep and went back into the same dream except this time, I did my reality check thing where I try breathing with my nose and mouth shut, and I became some what lucid. I wasn't 100% lucid because I couldn't control everything as I pleased but I did make her disappear and I spun around in circles and when I stopped I was in my living room.

There was a random man and a woman in my living room and they were crouching over one of my cats. He was opening him with his knife and made a long incision across his stomach. I screamed at him to stop, and that he was killing my cat so he began suturing the cut.
It was as if I was in one level deeper into my dreams because things were really blurred and mixed together. All of a sudden the woman let out my cats and dogs and they were running around. I have 3 cats and 1 dog but there were two extra (a small kitten and a puppy). I have never seen them before but apparently they were mine. She informed me that I forgot about the cat and left her in the cage for the past year and she was almost dead from starvation. She was really skinny and frail and they took her away. The small puppy was really bloated and round. According to the woman I forgot about these two and neglected them all this time. I couldn't believe it because I would never do such a thing but I did. I was holding the puppy in my bedroom while sitting on my bed and I closed my eyes and started to cry. But when I opened them I was suddenly in another place.

In this dream everything is really disconnected. I was at my high school trying to get my schedule from the office in one moment, and frantically searching for my class the next. Then I was in the cafeteria trying to buy some bread but they wouldn't sell it to newcomers. Then I was suddenly talking to my friend on the phone from a hotel room and asked him what he was doing. He said he was going to meet his 4 guy friends and I could come if I felt like it.
I was pulling up my leggings and when I looked around I was standing in the middle of a vast field. It was raining with grey skies. Across the distance I saw the sea but there was a storm. Someone came and was standing near me. I couldn't recognize who or what he was because he was extremely blurry.

I found myself outside a shopping mall with my girl friends. We were all around 12 years old. We were playing a game similar to tag. One person would run and the other had to tag them in a certain amount of time or they lost. I was chasing one of my friends but she was extremely fast and I couldn't catch her at first. But I had more endurance so when she slowed down I barely caught up with her and tagged her. We gathered the remaining winners that were down to three; me, my friend and the friend I tagged. We had to do a three way tag kind of thing.
But before we started I found myself walking alongside the beach coastline. I passed a tree that had my ex first love stuck to it upside down wearing a swim trunk similar to my current boyfriend's swim trunk but his was longer, like pants.

I looked at him and smirked, because I knew I was doing so much better without him.


Then I woke up.

I remember most of my dreams, I'm not sure whether I should think of it as something grateful or unlucky.

I've been practicing the art of lucid dreaming for the past month now. I've been having intense hypnagogia/sleep paralysis because of it. Every time I experience hypnagogia it's always so stressful for me. Before I become hypnagogic I always have a dream that I am just living my daily life when suddenly something goes wrong; For instance: I try turning on the lights in my room but they won't turn on and the room becomes dark, or in worst cases once I saw my brother hanging from the bathroom ceiling with blood everywhere, or suddenly I am talking to my friend and her skin starts melting, or once I opened my closet door and inside was pitch black and I heard some demonic voices yelling at me so I got annoyed and yelled back saying "f*ck you, you're hella annoying" and flipped him off (but then what ever it was got really angry and screamed at me). Anyways, after something goes wrong I go into sleep paralysis/hypnagogia. It gets pretty intense and scary sometimes but now I'm just really annoyed.

I realized after studying about lucid dreaming, dreaming and sleep paralysis, that it is nothing but a dream and now when I have nightmares I am able to control the bad situations and even the unsettling events that occur in my dream before sleep paralysis.
So yeah, if any of you have sleep paralysis/hypnagogia don't be afraid! You are just merely asleep and your mind shut itself off from your voluntary muscles so you don't hurt yourself while you move about in your dream. But you are still able to move your fingers and toes, so if you ever want to wake up just keep wiggling your fingers and toes and your mind will realize that you are conscious and you will wake up. Or try taking deep breaths because doing so will trigger your mind to realize you are not sleeping because your breathing patterns are different from your sleep breathing patterns!

Anyways, on to my first lucid dream..

I've been trying to make a habit of checking whether I was dreaming or not even in reality so that I might habitually do it in my dreams as well. What I do is, I plug my nose and shut my mouth and take a deep breath. Obviously in real life that is not physically possible, but I read somewhere that when you do it in your dreams, you can breathe even though both of your airways are shut. I've read that doing this in your dream state would induce one to become lucid. So after much practice, I had my first lucid dream about 2 weeks ago.

I was standing in the middle of an empty road and I did my reality check and what do you know! I became conscious that I was dreaming! Since it was my first time I became so excited I started telling everyone around me that I was dreaming (apparently this is normal for newbie lucid dreamers). I found it so spectacular that I could finally be lucid. I ran around and went up to random people (for some reason i dream of people I've never met before) and told them I was dreaming and that they were merely made up people in my mind. After calming down (thank goodness I didn't wake up), I walked in front of a white honda civic. I wanted to test my ability to control time. So I exclaimed to the man inside of the car to come out and shoot me with a gun. He looked at me kinda funny and didn't respond. I told him again that I was dreaming and that I needed to test time control so he HAD to come out and shoot me with a gun. He shrugged and came out of the car. I was so excited. He pointed the gun at me and shot.
It was amazing, at first it seemed like the bullet was coming at me at lightning speed, but only for a second. I then managed to slow the bullet down into ultra slow motion. I tried to pinch the bullet in between my fingers but failed. I told him to shoot at me again and the same thing happened. I did it a couple more times but with no success. Kinda bummed out I walked away and thought about what else I should do in my dream. I started to make my own music/beat and had it playing all over the entire city as if the music was coming from the sky! It was a pretty damn good beat too, I told myself to try and remember it when I wake up.
As I was walking down the street listening to my music, I created a cannabis store so I could experiment to see if I could get high in my dream. They had weed with a transparent-like rainbow glow to it. I took a few hits and continued walking down the street. I felt buzzed but not high.
I ran out in the middle of the street (there were no cars) and spun around 3 times to see if I would land in another dimension. Mission failed, and I slowly felt the dream falling apart. I tried focusing on my hands but ended up leaving my current dream.
All of a sudden I was in my bed. Everything was really bright. I did my reality check again and immediately became lucid.
I wanted to see if I could control having sex in my dreams.
I thought of my boyfriend and he appeared but looked different. He seemed much skinner than he is now and he did not seem too happy to see me. He wasn't intimate at all and was being cold and blunt. I was sad at first but realized he was only a projection and just a shade of my real boyfriend.

Then I woke up.

2-22-11

Lucid Dream:

There was a lot building up to this dream. So I will jsut share some of it in note form:

Robert waking me up, taking the car. Daniel writing on the ceiling. Monica and Robert going away. Eating ice cream with Tanya. At preschool with Celia, care gone with purse, camera and cell phone in it. Jeff brought it back.

In fast food place ordering food with Mom, Celia, Jeff and I. I had this one year old baby with me that was talking like she was about 5 years old. The baby couldn't decide what to order, then had to go to the bathroom. I took the baby in the bathroom. I went into a stall. To my surprise the toilet was huge (about the size of a queen bed) and in it was a tiny baby swimming around.


This did not trigger lucidity.


I went to another stall. In that toilet was another baby swimming.


This did not trigger lucidity.


Every toilet in the restroom had a baby in it-- except one that was over flowing with poop and another that had a toilet that didn't quite seem attached and was tilted to the side.


This also did not trigger lucidity.


I saw that there were many mothers standing around in the bathroom. I found out that this group of mothers had brought their babies here so they could practice swimming. I felt angry that they took up all the clean toilets. The baby in my arms was complaining that she really had to go now. I felt frustrated. I told her to go in her diaper since she was wearing one. She didn't want to do that, so I finally held her over the tilted toilet and let her go. The pee ran over the side and onto the floor next to one of the toilets with the babies. I felt it served that mother right to taking up the good toilet. I had to go to. So I also went and my pee ran over onto the floor too.

Then my mom came in the bathroom and needed to go. I told her about the babies. She went over to one of the moms and started talking to her. I stood there and stood there and waited and got bored. So I started doing that thing where I fall backwards until I almost hit the floor then I bounce right back up into standing position.

I did this several times before I really noticed what I was doing. I thought, "Hmmm...this is something that I can only do in dreams. Why can I suddenly do it in real life?" I wondered for a moment. Then I decided that it wouldn't hurt to give flying a try. If this was real life like I thought it was nothing would happen. But if it were a dream then I would be lucid and wouldn't that be grand since it has been so long since I have had a good lucid dream.

I leaned a bit and was suddenly hovering horizonally. I finally was sure I was dreaming so I flew out of the bathoom. I was now in a large room that was set up with tables with food. I flew over a table that had a big plate of chocolate raspberry cake. I grabbed a piece and stuffed it into my mouth and started to fly off again. But it tasted so good I swooped down again and grabbed the whole plate of cake and started shoving in piece after piece into my mouth.

When it was gone I decided that I really needed to do something else really useful with my dream, like fly to the Moon. So I flew outside. I could see a park with dead or dormant trees in it. I flew to the trees. I decided I wanted to experiment and see if I could fly through one of the tree's trunks. But as I flew to the tree I decided to just break off a dead branch instead.


But at that point I was horrified by seeing a man standing in the air in front of me. His skin was tinted green and his black hair came up to points like devil horns. He reached out and grabbed me. I was so started and terrified that I gasped "Go...go....."



Then I had the weirdest briefest false awakening. I had a glimpse of being in a bank. This scary man was just a bank manager. I had fallen aleep at his desk and he was shaking me awake. But at that instant I awoke to me real bed. It took me a moment to understand what I had just gone through.

[This is a catchup post. This dream is from the night of April 8-9, 2011.]

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

I'm in my current bedroom. I have my mom's purse, and I'm on my way to take it out to the living room and put it on the cedar chest, where it goes. I think I must have just woken up normally, so as I walk to the living room, I'm thinking something like, If this is the real world, then that's fine. But if this is a dream...

By the time I get out into the living room, I've figured out that it is a dream. No specific trigger or dream sign tells me this; I just recognize the feel of the world around me, and what it feels like to be in a dream. I set my mom's purse down on the floor next to the cedar chest and turn to walk out the front door. As I move my hand away from the purse after letting go, I can see that no part of the purse or its strap is touching my hand, and yet I feel resistance on my hand, as if the strap were caught on my wrist. I realize, I can't just carelessly set it down and walk away, like in the real world. I have to think that I'm setting it down. My mind is controlling everything, and I didn't think about wanting to put it down, so it feels like I still have it. So I consciously think about letting go of the purse, and the feeling of the strap goes away.

I turn my attention to the front door. The main door is open, but the screen door is closed. It's a beautiful, sunny day outside. "This screen door..." I say to myself. I decide to take this opportunity to work on my goal of becoming intangible and walking through things. I concentrate on the ideas that door is not solid when I will it not to be, because this is a dream, and I am able to pass through it, and start walking through it. It works! I get part of the way through it, but I'm so pleased to find that it's working that it takes some of my concentration away from those ideas, which immediately causes the door to become solid again. I end up with the door stuck around the middle of my body. The door is now parallel to the ground, and my body is sticking through the hole I've created in the middle of the door. I can feel the ends of the metal wires poking me in the stomach and back. I feel very silly.

I give up on that for now and decide to just go flying again, since I know I'm good at that and it's fun. I turn back toward the interior of the house, take a step inside, and kick off the floor with my ankles, like always. I launch myself toward the ceiling and find I can easily stay up there, flying just under it in a lazy arc. I laugh out loud, feeling contented, pleased with myself, and so happy to be back in another lucid dream.

[Dreamskip.] My mom and I are riding on a train through our old town. The train runs along Church Street, which is lined with very large, elaborate church buildings in a variety of different architectural styles. [In real life, that street only has one, fairly small church building on it.] Some of the churches are still open, but others are empty and closed, and still others are now being used for other purposes. One of them is now a Ralphs grocery store. My mom says something about how our church is still open, even though several of these are closed.

The train comes to a stop. I say, “Isn't this our stop?” [I think I was still aware that I was dreaming throughout all this, but it completely didn't occur to me to do anything other than follow along with the dream plot.] We get off the train and walk through the high-ceilinged train station until we get to the entrance of a bird exhibit. The exhibit consists of a series of crooked, jointed tubes through which visitors have to climb upwards. There are chains hanging down from the ceiling of the tube near the entrance. There are windows in the tubes so that you can see out into the birds' habitat.

I start climbing up into the tubes. There is a guy climbing in front of me. There are lots of small handles attached to the walls in convenient locations for climbers to grab on to. As I climb, I notice that one of my hands [my right, I think] is partially numb. My ring and pinky fingers, especially, feel like they've fallen asleep. This makes it more difficult to get a solid grip on the handles with that hand, so I have to rely more on my left hand and arm.

[Dreamskip.] I'm now in this shop/museum exhibit place. I see a procession of people leave the room through one exit, including Willy Wonka as portrayed by Gene Wilder. I turn back to the interior of the shop, and see that my mom is at the checkout counter, buying something. There are several other people gathered around it. I ask an employee standing in the middle of the shop for directions to the exit. She makes a sarcastic reference to flying to get there. I reply, “Besides that.” She gives me directions to another exit. I follow her directions into another room of the shop. [At some point during this sequence, I don't remember when,] I see a page with lines from a musical written on it.

[Dreamskip.] I'm flying through an area where there are a whole bunch of big rectangular swimming pools, each with giant humanoid robots designed to look like sports players standing at either end of the pool.

[Dreamskip.] I'm flying up into space, flying backward and watching the view of the Earth below me. I go up high enough that I can see the entire round Earth at once. Then I decide to start going back down again. As I do so, I pass through a field of light-brown, rocky asteroids that surround the Earth. I see the ground getting closer and closer as I descend. I'm heading toward the center of North America.

I end up someplace in Kansas. I find myself in a large room with a bunch of other young women, all of whom are wearing old-fashioned green-and-white dresses with aprons. I tie a green cloth around my waist in an attempt to blend in with the crowd. A white pattern appears on the cloth as I watch.

The group of young women walks out of the room, and I go with them. The room proves to be underground; we exit it and go outside by walking up a sloping tunnel into the sunlight. When we get outside, I see that we're in a very well-done historical theme park with a richly detailed environment. I decide to start flying again, and I fly over the theme park, admiring the view of it from up high.

[Fragment – not sure where in the sequence this was, but I remember dreaming it.] I'm in the ocean, with waves moving around me. The waves are washing me up on to a shore. I think, Oh, crap. Is this the shore of my own subconscious? [I don't remember what came next, though.]

[The next thing I remember,] I find myself back at the area with the pools and the giant robots, still flying. I fly up in front of a robot who looks like a giant football player. He throws a football to me, and I try to catch it, but miss. He says something like, “That would have been complete for 10 yards!” I answer in a smart-alecky tone, “Yeah, it would have been complete... if my feet were on the ground!”

[Dreamskip.] I'm now in an airplane hangar, still flying. The hangar has very large windows that can't be opened. I decide to try to fly through them. I succeed.

“Holy s***! I did it!” I exclaim aloud. I've finally successfully gone through a solid object without leaving a hole in it! I'm very excited and pleased.

I fly around a bit more outside. I see that the hangar is one of many like it, all painted tan on the outside and all built in a big, dusty lot.

I woke up to discover that I'd fallen asleep with my forearms still resting against my ribcage, thus cutting off most of the circulation to my right hand and forearm. I realized that in the dream, when I had been climbing and noticed that one of my hands felt partially numb, it must have been because of the sense data coming through from my real body.

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Side notes:

Wow! This was a really long, elaborate lucid. The dreams that I remember probably lasted a total of between 15 and 30 minutes. I accomplished this via two means:
- setting a WBTB alarm for about 6 hours after I'd gone to bed and staying up for about 5 minutes, reading entries in my paper DJ
- MILDing for longer and with more tenacity than I have been lately, using phrases that included "I will have a lucid dream tonight," "When I'm dreaming, I realize that I'm dreaming," and "I bring awareness and clarity into my dreams."

When I woke up and was recalling my dreams, I made a connection that I hadn't made while I was dreaming: I've passed partway into mirrors in dreams on two separate occasions before. I always know that they're going to be intangible to me, and they always are. Mental techniques and expectations similar to the ones that have allowed me to pass through mirrors should also allow me to pass through other solid things, like walls. In fact, going through the screen door worked similarly: I knew that it would be intangible to me, at least when I first set out to go through it. In the future, I just need to sustain that thought/belief/knowledge for long enough to get all the way through the object.

So I'll set the scene first. I found DV online and instantly got interested in LDing. I read about mantra's and how powerful they can be to get yourself to do something. Before falling asleep I repeated, "I will have intense, vivid dreams, and remember them in the morning", around 50 times. I don't remember the last time I said it to be honest because I was repeating it over and over in my head. But after falling asleep around 11PM, I had a dream, recorded it, fell back asleep around 5:45, and had another one which was interrupted by my alarm clock, but I was able to slip back in I think. So here we go...

Dream 1: I wake up at 5:15 AM
I’m in a dorm room playing drinking games. I’m with B and a bunch of random people that I can’t remember. B is wearing a white/beige sundress. The drinking game is a card game. I look at my cards and I have 2 or 3 random cards, although I can’t remember what they are. I look down again and I now have X-Men cards and they are unusable so I ask for a few more cards to replace mine. I get new cards and notice that some of the girls are playing their own game, B included. Although B is playing, she’s looking at me. No one else seems to notice this but us and she spreads her legs and lets me see downstairs. She’s not wearing underwear. She does this on and off until she decides to play her game. I notice a poster on the wall and I teleport.

I still see the poster but am totally oblivious to the world around me. The poster is a Meshugga poster for their CD Obzen. It also has a write up on the band on the left side of the poster. I read the write up and learn that all the members are heavy drug users. I pay no mind to that and suddenly are teleported on stage at a rock concert. I am playing guitar in front of roughly 300 people. When I teleport, it’s right at the end of a song. My friend SS is there and yells to me and says, “Hey Tom, check this out!!” I look over and realize that he’s playing Sanitarium by Metallica. I play the heavy part, and a chorus, and start the first solo. As I get to the one high note on the first part of the solo, I get really nervous, my hands start shaking uncontrollably, and I say I’m done. After this I wake up, record my dream and try to resume sleeping.

Dream 2: I wake up at 6:20 and fall back asleep.
This dream happened with periods of waking up. First I seem to be in a house that I’ve never been in before. It’s in a rural forested area. I’m with someone who I’ve never met before but seem to know very well by our conversations. Although I can’t remember exactly what was said, I remember them to be very light, happy, and playful. After walking downstairs, I realize I’m not happy with the front door and I either remove it, or it disappears. The other person suggests using the upstairs door. The house then moves like an elevator. The porch I’m standing on stays very still but the house moves downward. The second floor door is now in front of me and I’m also not happy with it. It’s covered in flowers and is pink. Also the door looks pretty beat up and flimsy.

I walk towards the back of the house and mention, “What’s the point of an amusement park in your back yard, if you can’t even use it.” I take a couple of steps through the yard which is not covered with grass. It seems to be more of a forest floor and covered with 4 leaf clovers. I walk forward and teleport to the top of a waterslide hub. There are around 8-10 slides at the top of this platform. I’m still there with the unknown person and she/he goes down and I’m left alone. I look around for a while and realize that I lost my spot in line. Now there are many children in my way and I can’t go down. I look away and am teleported again.

Now, I’m inside a bar and there are numerous fish tanks built into the walls and the trim around the ceiling. The fish tanks are not usual fish tanks. They are very round and cylindrical around the trim and are block like in the middle of the walls. I’m with my brother and we’re talking about random stuff. I mention to him that there is a turtle inside one of the tanks in the trim. He looks over, it goes through one of the corners and is blocked out of view for a second. I look again and it’s a turtle from Super Mario Brothers. I don’t see this as weird and suddenly it seems as though my brother is playing Super Mario Brothers and gets 7 1ups at the end of the level.

I wake up and my brother and his friend Fisher are there and they are playing Super Mario Brothers. It looks like the second one, but I’m not entirely sure. Since I think I’m awake, I realize that I had a crazy dream. I grab my notebook and pen and start to write down my dream. I can’t remember what I wrote down. I look at what I’m writing and I’m writing in red ink, although I clearly remember having a black pen when I wrote my earlier dream down. I think nothing of it and think I grabbed a different pen. As I’m writing, the pen and the text that I wrote start changing colors. They are in unison and rotate through all the colors of the rainbow like a fiber optic Christmas tree. I think nothing of this and am impressed with myself that I bought such a cool pen. As I’m writing I wake up for real.


So many lucid signs I could have taken, but I only learned about LD yesterday. Hopefully I'll have some more luck tonight and the rest of the week.

Lucid = orange

Background info: Previous to this I had had a dream where I was in my old school again. I don't remember too much of it but the last thing I was doing was flying around the lower school playground showing off to a younger friend of mine, and messing around with 'fly boxes' as we called them, which were basically those things you hold on to and they lift you in the air. Then I woke up during this.

I'm not sure what happened next. I either did a WILD or achieved a DEILD. Basically as I was going back to sleep I got those memory impression things (I was conscious, too) which happen when you're drifting off, although one of them suddenly turned consistent (if you get what I mean) and I found I was in a dream and not trying to go to sleep any more.

I'm back in the same place I was before, only everybody has gone and I'm alone standing on top of room 26 in the lower school playground. I crouch down quite surprised at the fact I just managed whatever it was I just did and start taking in note of what I can to ground my lucidity, e.g. what I can see around me, what the floor and my hands feel like, what I can hear around me, etc.
When I think I'm planted firmly enough into the dream I decide what I'm going to do. I was flying around last time so I decide I'm going to go down that road this time, and remember I wanted to go to the Moon at some point. There was something about where I was that I didn't like, as well. I think it was a noise. It made me feel a little scared but I just dismissed it and continued with my intentions. I then jumped up and found myself hovering in the air and then tried to get higher by flapping my arms but it was a little hard to move them. I then recalled that anything can be done purely by will, so I took note of that fact and didn't worry about my arms in case I woke up or something and just willed myself up, and sure enough, I started soaring into the air very fast until I found myself looking down on planet Earth with the Moon in sight.

At this point I found it harder to proceed and was starting to slip back into the Earth, but I just dismissed that and willed myself harder to go forward, and I was then speeding towards the Moon.
Upon entry, it was rather strange, as I was descending through darkness and a forest of trees. I kind of felt uncomfortable here, as I was in an alien place to me in which I could barely see, but I just reassured myself it would be fine as I was only dreaming.
When I finally landed, the first thing I saw were dozens of strange looking giraffes just wandering about. I heard a voice too, which said something like ''Now you can claim your own (can't remember the name)'' but basically these Giraffes weren't actually Giraffes but something else. My surroundings were rather swamp like, sort of like Dagobah in Star Wars but more lit up, and there were more creatures roaming past me as well, including various dinosaurs such as raptors and t-rex's.
After a while I decided I didn't like this place and wanted to go back to Earth, so I started flying up. On the way I was joined by a couple of huge flying dinosaurs which unnerved me and I tried to get past them as quick as possible. However, things didn't go to plan and one of them decided to swallow me whole.

I then 'woke up', although it was actually a false awakening. I didn't register that though and lost lucidity.

The next dream(s) are just random bits I can remember which happened afterwards:

I'm at my older sister Leah's house (although it's not actually her house, but a random one). She's set up some DOOM style game for me and a couple of others. There's also loads of food darted about which we're free to eat as much of as we'd like. We all have pistols, and our job is to take out the boss in the kitchen or something (which I think was a cat). I recall trying to find a better gun, e.g the shotgun, all the way through but I had no luck. The end result was that we couldn't defeat the boss.

I'm on an awesome looking motorbike randomly on a motorway with no recollection as to how I obtained the bike and how I got there in the first place, where I am, and where I'm going. I'm not really too worried though, because I have a hearthstone in my bag which is stationed at Leah's house.
Note: A hearthstone is an item in World of Warcraft which teleports you to your 'home' which you set yourself.
With that in mind I just set off on where the road is going to take me on this amazing bike going really fast. It was a little sketchy because I don't know how to drive but that wasn't too much of a problem. After a long stretch of road and a roundabout the bike started packing up a bit so I was looking for a place to turn in, and found one. Open entering, I saw a group of youth from church and my younger sister Tabitha was with them. They were just standing/sitting around outside a large door, all dressed smartly. It looked like a wedding was going on and I assumed it was for Becky. I pull over still with all the abnormality of what's happened to me in my mind and ask Sarah if I'm dreaming or not. She tells me I am, which surprises me, and I don't fully believe her. I ask her again. She gives me the same answer. Then my friend Ben comes out of the blue and I ask him the same question; he says I'm not. At this point I'm really confused and do 2 reality checks. Both indicate that I'm not dreaming, so I assume he's right (I'm such a dickwad, seriously ).
So yeah, I then ask him about the bike and tell him how I randomly obtained it and that I'm scared I might have stolen it from somebody. He then tells me ''Don't worry, Sam. I bought it for you.''
Note: Ben was always giving me stuff during school, he was an awesome friend.
We then get into conversation about it and I wake up during the midst of it.

This is my very first DILD.

I'm in a field with a couple other people. This field is so lush and green it's almost criminal. We are all lined up side by side dressed in Hogwarts uniforms awaiting for our wands. I get mine and notice that it's actually a Cheetos so I say to myself, "I must be dreaming." I pinch my nose and realize I'm still breathing. The excitement that comes over me is surreal, my heart begins to pound out of my chest and immediately the scene begins to change. Now I'm falling, free falling through this clear blue sky. I try to calm myself but all of a sudden I see the ground beneath me getting closer and closer. I close my eyes, preparing for the hit but when I open them, I'm in my bed, in my room. Being a bit disappointed that I woke up, I count the fingers on my hand and counted way too many so again I say to myself, "I must be dreaming." The scene looks so realistic, I'm afraid to do anything. After about a minute, I get up and head towards the living room and begin jumping, higher and higher until my Dad stops me and asks what I'm doing. When he asked that question I begin thinking again it's all real. I apologize to him and return to bed. I wake up again, thinking this time it must be for real. I get ready and head out for school. I meet some of my friends on the way and I'm telling them about my lucid dream when out of nowhere a bright orange and green striped cat walks across the street. I remember telling them that this is not normal and begin doing a RC. They start laughing and reassured me that this is in fact normal and I'm definitely not dreaming. Since my RC failed I believed them. That's when my alarm clock woke me up for real. Now I'm a believer.