lucid

After a dry spell for pretty much exactly 2 weeks I finally had a lucid, and a pretty long and awesome one as well.

The dream starts with me standing on some balcony, suddenly I have a very strong strange feeling in my mouth and some of my teeth are lose, a moment later when I was looking into the mirror most of my teeth came crumbling out and I was stressed out wondering what the hell was going on. But I did an RC, I couldn't breathe, or so I thought but I kept checking as hard as I could and in fact I could breathe, so I got lucid and forget and ignored the stuff about my teeth immediately.
I remembered how I was breathing through my pinched nose last time while I was underwater (Icy pit) and I had the strong desire to repeat that, I closed my eyes shortly and something strange filled me, I opened them and thought and said "Water!" with a strange intonation and the whole room immediately started to fill up really fast in front of my eyes. It also was an borderless change to an completely different building since I changed the location itself, still underwater of course I've been swimming around for a while and then decided to go to the surface to try flying out which worked without problems. I've been flying around this building (it seemed to be slightly underground, there were a lot of things floating around, even a bag of whales), and decided to try summoning a Spytfire (Spaceship from the X3 games) but because somehow I didn't do it instinctively and strong enough I only summoned a very basic chassis, I worried about wether I’d recall the shape correctly. I decided to exit the building, the windows which were up top led outside into a city apparently in the middle of spring. Then there’s a small gap, something about a shard of glass and showering on the street removed my lucidity for a moment but I regained it pretty fast (though unfortunately at this point I already forgot about the things I wanted to do outside). I tried advanced flying into the sky (which looked beautiful) but somehow it didn't work properly, I could only get a few meters and started to grab and hold something invisible, as I pulled down the sheets a big puppet like thing revealed itself and I kinda think it was responsible for the fact I couldn't fly (it also had a name, something with John). I just took it apart piece by piece and made some of the DCs around hostile with that. But even though I still couldn't fly properly I was far away from getting myself catched by a few normal DCs, so I went around a bit to find another place to fly but woke up then.

I think the real reason for me being unable to fly at the end of the dream was that the dream wasn’t stable enough anymore, if just I wouldn’t have forgotten to stabilize. Still this dream once again broke my records in terms of detail and length for lucids.

Black means non lucid
Orange means sem lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream character talking
Green means notes

Got it? Great! Now, you all know what to do. Enjoy!!!

Dream #1 The meeting.

Im in some corporate building wearing my suit, sitting at a round table with a bunch of different mixtures of people wearing suits. There was Natalia sitting next to me nodding her head, listening to this Asian man who looks like he was the leader of the group. He is talking about something to do with stocks goin up or down or something like that. I tell him, "Excuse me sir, can i run to the rest room for a sec"? Sure, but uh hurry back ok? We need to discuss our arrangments. Oh ok it will only take a second.

Bathroom break.

Im doin my business at the urinal. After i finish i wash my hands and look in the mirror. Hmm...my hair seems to be looking a bit different, mmm..its probaly nothing i say.

Im back at the meeting, and take my seat next to Natalia. I reach in my pocket and pull out my hawk coin totem. Rubbing it listening to the man talk. (Natalia talking) Don't you know what today is??? Mmm...not really. Wait a sec...what is today!? (everybody is staring at me) How did i get here? (The asian guy starts talking) If you do not know what today is then why you show up, hm? Look, continue on without me i got to take care of something. Natalia, c'mon lets go.

Dream #2 What now?

Im now walking with Natalia down a crowded street. What mission did we do last? Well, we took care of the biggest threat so far. But we gotta search for that breifcase with the valuble information, that will lead us to who's creating these false documents of your records. I got to find Roselyn. Who? Roselyn. I had a talk with her in my last dream, and told her i'd offer her the job. How do you know she's the right candidate? Trust me, she's good at what she does.

Dream #3 The casino.

Im asleep on a bus now, And wake up to the sound of the bus driver saying. "Hey, c'mon off the bus this is the last stop. I get off the bus and walk into this casino. Slot machines are going off, and people are at poker tables, playing roulette, black jack you name it. I go on to one of the slot machines and start playing on it. Hmm it takes quarters, ok. I reach in my pocket and pull out my hawk coin and look for some more change, and put my totem back in my pocket. (A failed missed reality check) I decide to get up and leave since im out of change, Im not using my totem in that slot machine.

(Dream switches)

Dream #4 The woman on the bus.

Asleep on the bus again. I wake up, This time next to a hispanic woman. (Hispanic woman talking) Excuse me sir, but did you mind going with me somewhere? I want to introduce you to someone. Uh..ok sure. (God i can be so naive and too nice at times) We get off the bus, and we are now walking down this urban community. (Looks rough out here) We walk past this house, and its these thuggish looking guys shooting dice on the porch. I nod at one of the guys, a few nod back. We now get to this house, feels familiar this house. Have i been here before?(Hispanic woman talking) Well here we are. Roselyn you here? (a girls voice) Yea im in my room. (Hispanic woman talking) come on out here, i got someone i'd like you to meet. (My heart is beating fast where have i heard that name before??? (The young lady walks out) (Roselyn talking) ah, so your stalking me now huh? (Hispanic woman talking) Now now Roselyn be nice. I foget what else the woman says but me and Roselyn sit at a table. So, she's your mom. Mmhmm. Why are you here? is it about something because i have something to do. Did you and me meet before? I get the strangest feeling that we met before. Its a small world who knows. Look, forgive me if i seem too foward but. Do you ever have really vivid dreams, sometimes so vivid that, you can't tell if your awake or asleep? Oh yea. I get dreams like that all the time. Do you keep a totem? No whats that? (I explain to her the nature of a totem and what it represents)

(Dream switches)

Final dream: The briefcase.

Im in a car with a bunch of men in suits. We are loading up ammunition, and getting ready to exchange a briefcase. (Some guy who looks like robert downey jr. talking) Alright gentleman. Lets not make any mistakes here you got it? (We all nod our heads) We get out the car, and pull up to some warehouse to meet with some other guys to make an exchange for the briefcase. One guy is wearing a grey suit (looks possibly black or mixed) he walks up to us holding a briefcase. (Guy with briefcase talking) Alright at the same time, you open yours, then i open mine you got? (Im now holding a briefcase getting ready to make the exchange) Open yours first. (I open it) There was a note that said.. YOU LOSE!!! I toss the briefcase at him and grabbed the one he had. (Shots are now being fired) Im running now holding the briefcase, while shots are being fired in my direction. Im running down a back alley while two men are chasing me. i make a right turn and try to find a place to run in to and hide. I see a door, i say. "When i walk thru this door i will be at my current home". I open the door, and im at the basement of my home. I yell for Natalia to come out. She walks down the stairs. "Where in the world hell were you"? Don't yell at me! I had to take care of a few things, since i figured you were looking for that Roselyn girl. Well? Well what? Did you find her? No. But listen we got the briefcase now. Well, open it. (I open it) Looking thru files, and records. Wow, (i see peoples names, with numbers on it) Feeling the dream closing in on me, i get one last good look at the numbers and wake up.

Notes: Too many missed reality checks from this dream. I must've really been slacking bad that week. Oh well, i got lucid but...missed too many cues. One at the casino, the bus, and, of course, Roselyn. Sucks cause i really wanted to have a adventure with that dream character. Overall i really was pleased at myself to become lucid at the beginning of this dream, and toward the end of this dream. I had this dream after WBTB at, 5:30 and woke up at 8:15 I i did a mantra before bed about, wanting to become lucid in the dream. But needed to be specific about when i wanted to become lucid. This is why it is so important to train the subconscious mind thruout the day, and during WBTB. I find that if i don't do it, then i tend to go along with whatever is happening in my dreams.

I havent been on in a few days so these are my dreams from the past few nights.

• Werewolves at burgerking: I went to a fast food restaurant with my friends and the two girls that worked there turned into these dog human things.. not really a werewolf but close enough. (somehow i dissapeared and just watched the rest of it) They captured my friends and stuck them in a van and were about to eat them and i woke up before anything happened.
  
• Grandparents house with lesbians: For some reason i had a dream that i was attracted to women (which i am not). And i had two girls that wanted me. We were all hanging out at my grandparents house and things were a bit different. There were witches things and herbs everywhere and i saw one of my "girls" get possessed by some sort of cloaky shadow. Then, out of nowhere my friend dalian shows up and bring his entire family. Which was extremely awkward because dalian is african american and so is his whole family whilst mine is caucasion.
  
• Cuddling with my ex: I used to be dating a guy over the internet that i have never met in real life before and i havn't spoken to him in weeks. The other night i had a dream that me and Raine (yes that was his name) were together and we were cuddling on the couch and then i used his lap as a pillow. :/
  
• Exploring a barn: (partly lucid) I was exploring a barn that's pretty close to my house with some friends and i gained lucidity and started hovering. but shortly after i couldnt hold it and i woke up. too bad.

It's been awhile since I have posted on here. This is mostly to do with me having horrible recall lately. It's crazy how weeks of experience can be lost in only a matter of days due to bad recall! -_-' Anyway I thought I would at least show a little activity by posting a compilation of several dreams I've had since the last post. None of them are that profound but they are interesting enough for me to keep a record of.

1. I was driving to work and I get a call on my cell phone. The person on the other line asks for Anthony. In the dream I recall Anthony as being the employee who was the hiring manager for our store, so I assume the call is in reference to that. He tells me that he was available to come in for an interview at 2:20 and I tell him that's perfectly fine. When I show up to work I walk over the the DC Anthony and tell him about the call. I walk back to my desk to answer phone calls so they aren't forwarded to my manager. A male coworker is sitting next to me who is also answering calls for the store. He has the same brand cell phone I do but it's a different model. We began to discuss the differences between the two of them. As we are talking the phones completely vanish into thin air. I'm really confused and a little creeped out. The guy sitting next to me has a worried look on his face.
"Don't act scared, but look out the window behind me," he says.
I can see through the window beside us - it pretty much scales the entire wall. Up in the sky behind him I see a flying saucer. My heart starts pounding. I can only assume that our phones disappearing happened because of whatever was in the UFO. I don't know what to think other than they were attempting to break off our communications. The dream ends.

2. It was the evening of Halloween. I was at my old high school and I see a bonfire burning from across the street. I'm texting my sister Ashley - something about how I owe her some money. She meets me up and tells me the that the fire was some kind of religious protest against Halloween.

Somehow I become lucid. The dream scene changes a little bit and I am watching a man trying to escape a building near the bonfire. He's running around with a knife, stabbing and killing people in his effort to break out. Somehow I feel like I'm on his side. My sister and I follow him outside. I remember texting my sister about money and ask her if she still wants me fake dream money. She laughs and says no. Four benches in the courtyard outside catch fire. There are lots of people around celebrating the man's escape. Medieval gypsy music starts playing and we go to a bar and start drinking. The man who escaped stands on the bar and starts toasting to a few things. The only thing I can recall that he drinks to is "the end of celebacy" - which gives me the impression that it was against some sort of religious practice. I start dancing to the gypsy music because it sounds awesome - and it's the last thing I can hear after the dream fades off.

3. (This was the most recent I've had) I was at work at Best Buy and I saw these cars shaped like the best buy logo. In the dream they were "store pickup/delivery vehicles". I run up to my boss Shannon and tell her about them because I think they are very innovative. She tells me a girl named Jenni already told her about them. The dream starts fading and it triggers my lucidity.

I concentrate on pulling myself back into the dream. I get my footing and I'm back in the store - and in the back of the store which is particularly annoying since the last place i want to be in my dream is in my workplace. I begin walking toward the front. I keep trying to imagine going into a more interesting place. As I walk toward the front doors vines and plant life starts growing over the store walls and electronics. Strings of lights are hung around the place. Everything is much more pleasing and gets even better once I step outside. I see a vast grassy plain before me dotted with round tangled trees. The sky is a deep purple color and contrasts perfectly with the bright green trees and long blades of grass. It's drizzling a little but the sun is shining through the clouds causing everything to have a yellow glow around it. I feel extremely happy but the dream fades away again.

I have a FA and I am back in Best Buy lying on the floor. Two coworkers are staring down at me. One of them says "Woah, I want to do what you just did!"
Then I wake up for real...

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid
April 16, 2012:

I am walking up stairs to my bedroom. It is my old bedroom in my parents' house. I go into the bathroom with toothpaste and a toothbrush. I have a big glob of toothpaste in my mouth. I spit in the sink, but there is still thick stuff in my mouth. In the mirror I see green stuff in my teeth. I start to pull something long out from my mouth. I look in the mirror and say "I must be dreaming." It sounds muffled from the thing in my mouth.

The scene fades and I re-enter a new scene, in church. I know I am dreaming. I touch the walls with both hands. I find my girlfriend and another girl. I kiss them both on the lips and on the belly.

The scene fades again and I am in one of the small back classrooms with the brick walls. There are other people sitting in chairs around the room. We face someone in the center of the room who looks like Abed from Community. I tell myself that the class is part of a conspiracy.
Abed talks softly and I can't understand him. I say "What? Speak up!" He mumbles something again. My stomach growls and I know I am physically hungry. I hope it doesn't hinder my lucid dream.

Then I remember my first task to summon an object. I reach into my pocket and say I want a spoon. I feel nothing. I remember that I wanted to summon a fruit. Still, I feel nothing in my pocket.
I see apples placed around the room and wonder if that counts. I pick up one of the apples to feel it, then take a bite and toss it aside.
I reach into my pocket again and pull out the same apple, with the bite taken from it. I say "There's that fucking apple! But I'm not sure if this should count..."
I am referring to Mat87's Competition and whether I should whether I should get the points or not.

I walk outside, through the back door and start to fly a few feet off the ground. I remember my second task, element manipulation. I put my hands out and make the wind start blowing towards me. Then I change the direction of the wind to blow from behind me really hard.
The wind pushes me as I float in the air. I aim the wind at the ground so it pushes dirt and pebbles around. I stir up some dust into the air. I try to control the dirt directly, but it is not effective. There is gravel I try to make move, but it doesn't work either.

The dream fades and I go right back into it again. This time it is a bright sunny day. I remember my third task, advanced flying. I float into the air and notice some dark clouds. I consider controlling water, but continue with the flying.
I fly pretty fast down the gravel road, seeing the trees go by quickly as I pass them. Then I fly up. It is hard to get up very high at first. But then I watch the ground beneath me get further away and smaller until I can see the tops of trees and entire woods, or forests and lakes. I rub my hands together to stabilize so the dream doesn't end yet.
I see an earth-like world with continents and oceans, but it is also kind of alien and not shaped like earth. I start to see the round edge of the world. The sun is still bright.
Space is not dark or starry but white, and is getting brighter. Everything goes white and I wake up.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

I was at the top of a super huge canyon with the clouds below me. I could see a green valley and a river below the clouds. I felt no fear for being on the edge. I realized I was dreaming and jumped into the void. Instead of going down, I decided to go a bit higher and then I was pulled higher and higher, faster and faster. I left the atmosphere, I saw the Earth below, I kept moving faster and faster and I saw the solar system, the galaxy, more and more galaxies in the distance and ended up at (another?) solar system, face to face with a star.
I decided I wanted to see the interior of a star and I plunged into it. Its core looked like green magnetized ferrofluid.

Don't know what happened next because my mind became all fuzzy. Maybe I woke up. I don't remember at all.
(...)
I was on earth, at some large white and squarish architecture condominium with terraces on the first floor connecting all rooms/apartments and stairs from each one going down to the street. It was an arid place but there was a lake right in font of the building. I was surprised that I had just woken up with the sun rising and it seemed like the sun was setting already. I went outside on the terrace and other people where looking at the sky, also surprised with the extremely short day we just had. When the sun set, there was a bright full moon in the sky, which looked almost like a second sun and there was another really bright object near it in the sky. So, it didn't become entirely dark night. The sky was grey and there was a dim light. We didn't know if it was day or night anymore.
I decided to walk around when all of a sudden a meteor shower hit the earth. People were running in all directions to take cover. I was zigzagging to avoid the meteors falling everywhere and I felt a strange radiation "in the air" which I felt was making me sick. The condominium was too distant already so I decided to keep going in the direction of a mountain nearby. There as a village and I had hopes that there were caves on the rocky hill where I could be safer. But the villagers, who were also running in all directions and also being hit by the meteors, told me there were no caves I could reach on time, so I was invited by some to hid on a cave, below a storehouse. I accepted. We were maybe 10 people and the place was spacious and it even had some food stored in the cool, dry environment. It was carved on the rocky bed of the mountain, so it was quite safe. There was only a slit near the ground level (and ceiling of the cave), through which I could see the outside. There was also a heavy wooden door opening to a very small chapel with a shrine to a saint. I waited there.
(...)
In a community rebuilding its way of life. I was assigned to partner with a guy whom I found very attractive and I considered him to be my companion, although he seemed awfully distant. Someone brought us a girl who looked very sick with cancer (maybe victim of the meteor radiation?) so we could introduce her to the tasks that were our responsibility, so she could help us as much as she could. She looked at him with lusty eyes and although I felt sorry for her condition, I felt angry that she would even consider seducing him - I mean, she looked really bad, like an old wrinkled bald lady... But he was very nice to her and I decided to give her a break. She could be dying any day, she had the right to feel hopeful about something. He was guiding her and I followed them around, just listening. I had a box with figs and I was eating them with pleasure. Then I lost them from sight and for some time I looked around for them. I found them by the river. She was bent over and he was f*cking her from behind. I was shocked and disgusted! I felt like going there and make a scandal, but good sense won and I decided to pretend I hadn't seen anything. I didn't understand and I didn't care. I left them alone and went back into the village.
On my arrival, I saw everybody running away, saying I had forgotten to lock the corral and a bull was on the loose. The bull was enormous and was pissed off.
I saw him coming in my direction and followed some people into a garage. I just had time to shut the metal doors behind me, but the bull invested against it with all its strength and the doors didn't hold on for too long. Just enough time for people to get inside the cars and jeeps that were on the garage. When the bull finally broke in, the driver of our jeep drove fast throught the door. We were packed like tuna inside the jeep.

Well it starts of with just my first girlfriend and I. She was a cute blond and on the short side. We were at her place watching movies on the couch. We were mainly just snuggling together for awhile. She got tired though and fell to sleep next to me to my left. She had her feet on my left leg, and I really wasn't paying attention to the TV anymore. Her apartment had a half-wall that separated the living room from the kitchen, you could go around either side. As I walked around through there, another girl comes in the front door. She is a pretty blond as well, although a bit taller and thinner than my girlfriend sleeping on the couch. She starts coming on to me and we make our way back to the couch. I feel like I am cheating on my first girlfriend with this new girl, especially since she is still sleeping on the couch next to us. We are touching each other and it feels so wonderfull. It doesn't bother me too much, because I'm aware that this is just a dream, and I just let the dream play out by itself since I'd probably would have gone here anyway if I went lucid.

After a little while, my first girlfriend wakes up. She really isn't upset about me and this new girl, but she does get off the couch. She heads to her kitchen and gets a drink, when she comes back she starts telling me that this new girl is not right for me. As she goes on I start to realize it too, there is something wrong about this new girl. The new girl I'm with, although she is having fun, really has no emotional connection with me. She reveals herself and we actually see that she has evil intentions. She wants to do something bad to me as she is on top of me holding me down. I didn't have to throw her off of me though, because she started dissolving and became invisible. But I could tell she was still there somehow. When she was going invisible though, a guy appeared by the entrance. He was evil as well and was somehow connected to the evil girl I was making out with. He took on an appearance of a co-worker in real life. He had an indignant look to him, and once the girl dissolved completely he scowled and left out the door. Good riddance! I was back alone with my first girlfriend and everything was ok now. She was saying something like: that is like scattering grass seed and the birds come and eat it unless you cover it up. I could tell she was refering to a parable of Jesus here when she said that.

Both of the girls in my dream are familiar looking to me, and closely resemble real college girls I used to know. Oh I think the evil one kinda looked like a Heather I knew in college.

My dream transitions to an outdoor setting where some guy is mowing the lawn, he is obviously a gardener/groundskeeper. It is a big yard, with a house, a barn, a couple sheds, and even a crock well covered with boards. The grass he is mowing is really lush, nice and green. The whole scenery in general is just really vivid. The barn and sheds, although they are old, are nicely painted and stand out well. I'm talking to this guy a bit, just small talk I think, nothing memorable. Anyway I walk around the yard a bit, then come over to the side where my car is at the end of the driveway. Its a long driveway, but I see I won't be able to get out because hay bales are on the driveway blocking the exit. There are tools scattered about as well, the whole area is a mess. I start cleaning up a bit, and move a hay bale, but then I think why am I bothering with this? There is a neat power tool there so I pick it up and start cutting through some wood, part of an unfinished fence I see. After I had my fun with it, I see this tool is actually a multi-tool that can transform into almost any tool you need, neat. The saw part pops off and becomes a drill instead I see as I take it back to the tool box.

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream character talking
Purple means possible shared dream person
Green means notes

You know the drill. As always, enjoy!

Dream #1 Walking down the highway.

Im walking down a highway on the sidewalk, a bunch of cars are passing me by. I noticed a billboard with a list of movies. (i forgot the list of movies that were listed)

Dream #2 Paper or plastic?

Im now in a supermarket,with this elderly russian man. He looked to be in his 40's or 50's. I was helping him shop for things such as Pickles, eggs, bread, milk, and prunes. The casier looks at us and says...paper or plastic? Plastic (i say)

Dream #3 Dream cue from the Hawk.

Im riding a motorcycle (don't have one in real life) holding a yellow flag racing against other people. (im guessing we had to set the flag down at some random location) I hear a high pitch whistle and look up at the sky, ITS A HAWK! I stop in the middle of the road and i noticed, im all alone. I look up at this sign, posted on a billboard it read...(FOR LET HE WHO HAS EYES SEE, AND LET HE WHO HAS EARS HEAR. MY CALL WILL AWAKEN THE HEARTS OF THOSE WHO SEEK THE TRUTH) Hmm..I reach in my pocket and pull out my totem. I look around how did i get here? what did i do a hour ago??? Ah, im asleep in my bed right now! Im rubbing my totem, the dream snaps in focus. Im focused, i put it back in my pocket and decide its time to have some fun.

Having fun with mirrors.

I take my finger, and make a mirror in the air in front of me. i turn around for 5 seconds and say when i turn around, i expect to see my female subconscious self. When i turned back around, it was a huge square shaped mirror. I noticed that i am no longer a male, but i am now in fact, my female counterpart. I am still my complexion, caramel skin, i have long curly hair, full lips, a slight slant to my eyes, my eyes are bigger and more of a hazel colour. With C cup breast and a bit of a curvy waist, i am now wearing a pink dress and black strappy sandals, a toe ring with a french pedicure on my feet. I look very beautiful i say to myself. I now summon a purse to put my totem inside, just in case i need to stabilize the dream a bit more. I dive thru the mirror and end up at some bar.

Dream #4 Heads or tails? Pick one.

I walk into a bar. This bikerman looks at me, i give him a dirty look. I walk up to the bar ask for a glass of wine. I spot my cousin drinking at the bar, i get up and walk over to him. Mind if i join you? Sure. Whats your name? (I try and change the subject) Don't you know who i am? Uh...nope sorry you don't look familiar. I tell him, what if i told you that with one flip of a coin, i can snap your mind into a different world. I would say you been drinking a lil bit too much of that wine baby. (I reach in my purse) I pull out my hawk coin totem. Heads? or tails? (i ask him) Lol tellin you girl that alcohol getting to yo head. I will say this one more time. Heads? or tails? Aight aight i'll play along. Heads. I flip it in the air and catch it, then look at it and show him. It landed tails. Hey wait a min...why am i in a bar? Come with me. ( i take my glass of wine with me) I take him in the mens bathroom. I sat my purse on the sink. Do you know why we are in here? Uh...no. Why are we in here? Because it is time for you to go to sleep. Huh? I slipped something in your drink while you were looking at my coin. In exactly 1 min, you will be passed out. and when you wake back up, i will explain it to you in another form got it? Wha what? WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME!? Relax. you about to go into a different layer with me. (He passes out on the floor) I look in my purse and take this white pill and drink my wine. I look in my purse to find my celphone and set my beethoven music to go off in 60 mins I set it on the bathroom sink and fall backwards to the floor.

Dream #4 A dream within a dream.

I now wake up in my 2nd home. I look around for my cousin r. R, you in here??? I walk into the bathroom and say alright when i stick my arm thru this mirror, im gonna pull out my cousin r. I take my right arm and stick it thru the mirror and pull my cousin thru it. I just had a dream that some girl with curly hair was talking to me at a bar, and..showed you this? (I hold the coin up) Yea, just like that. Wait min..how did i just get here? Because i pulled you here, and this is still a dream by the way. Whoa whoa whoa, what do you mean still a dream? Like i said your still dreaming. Na man, thats impossible! Tell me then, why are we standing here at my old house then, instead of my current house hm? I i..i don't know. C'mon, its time for your 1st lesson. Here (i hand him my totem) Look at it. Now when you wake up in the real world, im gonna test you to see if you will remember how it looked. Stare at it until It is imprinted in you brain. Yo, im dreaming!? I nod my head. Relax though..because you are getting overly excited. I can't believe im dreaming!!! (He starts fading away) I knew that was gonna happen. (I fall backwards)

Final dream: Your just a projection of my subconscious.

I wake up in the previous dream on the bathroom floor. I get up and notice, im my female projection of myself. I project back into my normal self and grab my celphone and notice i have 5 mins of lucid dreamtime remaining. I exit the bathroom and talk to random dream characters about their abilities One young boy says he can manipulate the weather. This one man said he can eat 500 slices of pizza. I then notice a interesting looking young lady who was attractive. I asked her what her abilities were, and that if she showed me something interesting, i would hire her for my next dream job. We were in a gas station, she was looking for some chips. I said you can do anything just make it unique ok? She nods. Oh, so your not much of a talker i see. well, what if i told you that your just a projection of my subconscious. I don't care. You mean you don't mind being created by me? No not at all. In fact im I want the job watch this. She begins telepathically moving everything around in the store. Not bad, not bad. (i say) Alright let me ask you a question. Ahem, whats the easiest way for me to become lucid in dreams? Pay attention to your surroundings. Oh and also try a start re entering your old homes, so you can remember how you got there in the 1st place too. And aslo if someone wants to fight you, that should increase your lucidity more. Thanx. Whats your name? Roselyn.

Hmm..Roselyn. Ok, you got the job! (Right here i here my beethoven alarm goin off) I wake up and record the dream.

Notes: Did wbtb at 5:30 am. I did my reality check with my totem for about 15 mins and headed back to bed. I woke from this dream at 7:45 am. could not fall back asleep cause of a job i had at that time. had to be there at 9:30 am. Oh and my cousin ended up remembering a dream of being in a bathroom with a woman with curly hair. hehe wonder if he knows that was me. Shapeshifted as her that whole time. Ah, me and my dreaming abilities.

Ah! Finally some time to catalog the last few nights dreams. I stayed up working and fell asleep in my street clothes I was in and out of consciousness for the earlier dreams, trying to gather the resolve to get up and actually get ready for bed. However it never came, :3_ so some parts are difficult to order correctly and there was a persisting sense of disorientation throughout. It's long but if you read nothing else of this, please read dreams 5 and 6 and comment on what you think.

April 13th, 2012

Dream 1:

I'm outside in this open park-like area [on the outskirts of a forest]. My dad and [apparently] one of my friend's dad {idr who} is there. It's day time [maybe sunny(?)] and the flat ground of the clearing is covered in short, light-green grass. Fully leaved trees are scattered about the area, their shade forming pools around their trunks {so I guess it was around noon}. I look around on the ground and see these navy-blue berries (slightly smaller and rounder than actual blue berries) pepper the the grass a few feet away from me. I'm bare foot and for some reason in a bit of discomfort from what I feel below my feet. It's feels like a multitude of small pointed things, similar to walking on a pile of twigs. I survey the earth more immediately around me. There are a few small twigs here and there but none directly underneath me. I then wonder if fire ants are the cause and again check the ground, this time with more care and alarm. A few black ants, a shade close to the navy-blue of the berries, march unorganized a few feet away. Now I'm really confused..



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Dream 2:

I'm in a car with my brother and a younger light-brown haired girl {I might know her in real life, but again I'm uncertain}. I'm on the passenger side. We pull over to the right side curb and stop at the girl's mail box. I reach my right hand out through the window and open the box for her. The head of the mailbox is the traditional half cylinder shape but its inside is anything but one would call traditional. It's a full panel of numbered buttons. She recites a long string of numbers for me to enter, "[628...--]", but I tell her to wait and that it's probably best if I weren't the one doing this because I don't want to set of her house's security alarm. She agrees. [We pull into drive way (?)}..

Day [3]:

{This dream's the fuzziest} This woman suggests to her boyfriend/husband that they should go "to their cabin in the woods". This Immediately triggers a connection to the recent, and very much unoriginal, movie title "The Cabin in the Woods" {I saw a brief glimpse of the trailer on youtube I believe}. It's vague but I know afterward the couple, and whatever company they bring, inevitably are chased down by psychos who torture/kill them etc. {essentially was just like "The Strangers", creepy masks, fall setting and everything}...





Dream [4]:

{This is another hazy part. I'm not quite sure, but I was an observer most of this} There are these people probably between 19 and their early 20s.They're looking to make a Paranormal Activity 4. Apparently, in all the movies prior in this series, the cast actually died as a result of the paranormal activity they tried to record on film. Of course at this point I'm thinking: "Okay now folks,..people DIED doing this and despite knowing this information..you do it anyway???" {I feel like if that really happened in RL, people would do what these guys were trying to anyway. Oh, humanity, common sense is no longer common } A young woman in the group tells one of the guys "that graveyard actually is haunted", as if it were local, and then continues to tell enthusiastically some experience she had there. This comment then makes me think back to a show I recently watched on psychics. A teenage boy said that he always sees this shadow man whenever he walks by a certain local graveyard and it makes his stomach hurt immensely..

Dream 5:

{Pretty sure this was a direct result of the last dream..} I'm in a living room similar to that of my old house. I'm sitting on the off-white carpet [with my legs folded under me]. My brother and our close friend, M, [and maybe another one of my best mates] are there sitting on either one of the couches or on the floor as well. My family's old, short wooden coffee table is to my left. It's half boxed in by our old love seat, long couch and single-seater couch just as they were in my prior home except the table is pushed out further away from the couches and closer to the TV. A fluffy husky-looking puppy is in the room with us. His fur is black and white. [I was just petting/playing with him] before all of a sudden the puppy starts acting strange, as if terrified, ducking under the table onto its bottom panel. He turns over on his back and starts seizing and whimpering, showing his white chest and curled white paws. I know something we can't see has a hold of him. Something dark and paranormal. I'm unsure of what to do, it's just so awful. I reach out for him saying, "It's alright, buddy..", but he jerks away, off the corner of the under panel and onto the carpet. He continues to squirm side to side crying. M and my brother are talking in urgent words, their voices overlapping in the chaos. I look behind me to see a large flat screen TV. It's displaying an all white back ground with some text in the middle of it, like a TV show title. I pay no attention to this because I'm focusing on what looks like blacker-than-night smoke, drifting out of screen view at the top right corner. I turn back to my companions and say "[I think] it's leaving". It seems whatever was attacking the dog released its grip. The small creature remains on his back but appears to be recovering. I, however, feel this overwhelmingly powerful and dark presence (very difficult to describe). I feel something start in my chest that forces its way upwards until it reaches my mouth in less than a second. I rock forward emitting resonating and blood scream. {It felt like what I can only describe as insanity..}



Dream 6:

[I wake, walk out of my room] and then slowly make my way down the hallway, dazed and still a bit disturbed. I then hear something from my right. It's a scream. It's human but unearthly. It sounds like several screams in one echoing cry. It startles me. I then hear a second scream, putting me in a state of sheer terror. I think "Oh no!! I must have fully awakened my psychic abilities and now I'm going to see dead people and life is gonna suck and--
but wait, what if I didn't wake up? What it I'm dreaming? I'm totally dreaming!". As I grab the stair case banister post and sling shot myself around to the top of the steps, I look up at the mirror directly across from me in the hall way. I think I see myself in it, but in the confused panic I can't make much sense of the blurry, dark grey figure in it. Everything's a shade of grey, not black and white, but as if it's daytime and what little light shining in from outside comes through insidiously dark storm clouds. All I can think now is "Get outside. Just get outside. Get to the front door!". I rush down the flight of stairs and fling the front door open. [Quickly closing the door behind me], I'm looking down when I take my first step onto the porch and ,at which point, I promptly close my eyes and think "Make it Fall. Wait, no! Summer!". I accidentally open my eyes as I'm rushing down the porch steps. I see grey skies and grass melancholy with patches of dead earth. I quickly close my eyes again and in a last ditch effort think "Blue skies! Happy!" but nothing changes.
I then see a mini-van in the driveway. My brother's in the driver seat. I see one of my best childhood friends, Marry, {whom I haven't talked to in years unfortunately} sitting in the back on the passenger side. My new train of logic at this point: "if my brother can't see me, then I'm dreaming. If he can, I'm awake and I'm suddenly hearing dead people". I go up to the drive side window. I wave my arms and scream his name several times, but he seems to be looking through me. He then, however, greets me as if he'd been spacing out momentarily and I let out a dramatic, "NOOOOooOOoOo!!", almost dropping to my knees {this makes me doubt my lucidity}. I then see Mary get out of the sliding door of the van and when she walks its front to the side I'm on, she's suddenly my friend M from Dream 4. I'm beyond confused and disorientated...

girls from my school offended me so much, that I decided to hit one of them in the face. But the power of my hand was so low, that I couldn't attack. I thought that it can't be so, stop fighting and decided to make RC. Count fingers - six And false awaking without awareness

I'm not sure how many days I've missed.. I think just one.. but x-x I couldn't recall any dreams that day anyway. Last night I had a lucid dream about mmorpg's because I've been playing one a lot lately. It was also about my mom and this one boy. And porn :/ I guess it started out from me watching porn, playing Aion, and skyping with this boy all at the same time.. and my mom came into my room and asked to use my computer. I freaked out and threw the computer in the air and made it turn into a giant green mayan-pyramid looking thing.. then there were a few more of those rising out of the ground and up like Lion King's SCARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR moment under the full moon with the hyenas.. Aha, and my mom was running after me because she figured out I was watching porn. We did that for what seemed like FOUR hours! And we were dressed like little mushroom things (I was craving mushrooms that night) We hopped and ran through jungles, space ships, Xbox Kinect adventures, and black holes. IT WAS SO COOL ^_________^ I guess I wasn't lucid in the beginning but the "4 hours" made me realize it was probably a dream because I was tired (like the wine dream). The first bit was probably because I was afraid my parents were going to talk to me about my masturbating habits. Because it's "haram" in the religion my family follows O.o and I was surprisingly too embarrassed to not give a shit if they knew.. I was worrieddd :c but then it turned out to be a hella load of fun. And that's how today turned out too. My parents were having fun and stuff today :] with the entire family. These dreams really do have an impact.

It started with a FA from a dream I do not remember. At the start of the FA I remember being really mad thinking it was almost time to get up from my nap but I still did not remember my dreams nor did I have a lucid dream.

I remember telling myself over and over as I was falling asleep in the FA that I wanted to have a lucid dream. When I fell asleep (in the dream) I remember stumbling through a gray fog type of thing still saying I wanted a lucid dream. It is a few minutes later when I find myself in the hallway that I do a RC. I do the nose pinch RC and can breath but I have started backing it up with another RC. For the backup check I look at the clock on the stove. It was all zeros then another number I do not remember.

I get really excited as this is my first lucid in a long while. I remember my first step task to eat something. At first I do not want to try this task because last time I ate something I tried to eat my pillow in real life lol. But thinking it cannot be as bad as sucking on a drool spot again I reach into the pan on the stove with potatoes in it. I grabbed up a small one and bit down. To my surprise it tasted like a cooked potato although the taste was a bit muted. I then grabbed a carrot off the counter and ate that. It tasted like a cooked carrot that was cooked with a roast. It was very good.

Having completed that task I deiced to go outside to explore. I get to the front door and remember the summoning task and deiced to see if I can summon someone to me. I really try to summon this person to be on the other side of the door but when I open it no one is there. I am not really surprised, but I am mad. I take a few stapes outside and deiced I will try to call this person on the phone and demand they show up. I walk back into the house grab the phone. As soon as I grab the phone I start to hear numbers being said in a kind of demonic raspy whisper. I know it is coming from the phone but I am not startled by this. I try to remember the numbers as they are said over and over again.

As I am trying to remember the numbers the dream starts to fade and I wake. At first I could remember the first five numbers, but I could not write them down before forgetting them.

I think I had a layer zero lucid, very dark mood, very fragmented, I think I remember putting my hand through my palm, but I never really realized I was dreaming. So I was just walking around with this black haired girl and skateboarding, and there was a design inside the wheel that I've seen before. Then I saw a picture of Bart Simpson painted on a garagedoor?? DAFUQ?

Swimming in the Stars

I am exploring some big building. I think my brother has an office in this building. Apparently, the place is being remodeled, because everything is torn up and looks kind of delapidated. I think that this is a bit odd, because ordinarily the building seems modern. I do a nose pinch reality check just in case.

At first, I seem to be unable to breathe, but after I try a bit longer I find that I actually can. I realize that I am dreaming. I immediately forget about the plot of the dream, and decide to jump out the window. The window is closed, and I smash through the glass. Kind of fun. I try to fly, but lately I have been overthinking "how" to fly, instead of just doing it like I used to do. I glide down to the street below. I appear to be in a city, much like that of the dream/computer game I am building. I look up into the sky, and the tops of the buildings, and realize that all I need to do in order to fly is to just let myself float. I bounce up a bit, and look above me.

I see the stars in the sky, and feel the same urge I had in the last LD to fly into the stars. It is like a big pool in the sky, inviting me. This time, I fly upwards, into the night sky. Instead of flying any particular direction, I just go up. This part is a bit hard to explain, but I realize that I can float in the sky, almost like I am in orbit in space. I can see the city below me, a lovely skyling against the sky. There is just a little bit of color in the sky, as though the sun had set a while ago. I let myself just drift in this state, which is almost like I would imagine someone high on drugs would be. I find a beautiful, peaceful, almost euphoric feeling in doing absolutely nothing except float like this. The world appears to float below me like the Earth turning beneath an astronaut, and I watch, wrapped up in this feeling. It's like another world in and of itself.

I was at a daycare of sorts. We kept having many recesses in which we were all supposed to play outside together. I was being strange though, and kept stealing plates from the kitchen. I would take them outside and eat them.

After chewing on pottery for a few minutes, I decided to take a nap. I laid on the grass and rested against the brick wall. Several groups of students walked past me before I managed to fall asleep.

I awoke in a dark cellar. I was in the cellar of the daycare now. I walked back up to the front lawn where the other children were playing.

Something seemed off, so I did a reality check. Indeed, I was dreaming. And of course, at that moment, everything seemed to heighten in clarity.

I had no lucid goals though. I wasn't sure what to do in this dream.

For a moment, I stood there on the street with nothing to do.

I flew up into the air and into the clouds. They were so beautiful and defined, full of life even though they were inanimate.

But no, I had done this before.

I flew back to the ground and landed on the sidewalk, still wondering how I should spend this dream.

And then it came to me. How would my dream respond if I asked for transcendence?

"Take me higher," I whispered.

Instantly, without my doing, I rose into the air.

Everything morphed around me. Not into anything new, but into hyper clarity...that's not even the right word. Everything surrounding me became a kaleidoscope pattern, but yet nothing changed at all.

"Higher" I whispered.

This soundtrack began to play and I began to move forward:



I can't exactly describe how I felt. It was similar to that of tripping - but more intense.

I was moving forward without my doing. The street ahead of me was coming towards me.

I was about to fly straight through a billboard, but I wasn't afraid. I simply passed right through.

"Higher," I whispered.

Everything began to move faster. I zoomed out of the city and in the process left my body behind.

My consciousness was now flying warp speed through the Earth (que really fucking epic music).

I was flying so fast through country roads, wilderness paths, and scenic highways that I could only perceive them as the rapid progression of pictures. A billion pictures flew past my eyes per second.

"Take me higher," I dared.

I surpassed the warp speed that I was already traveling and my consciousness was risen into the universe.

In front of me was a massive black hole. It was beautiful.



Holy shit.

And I was flying towards it at warp speed.

Could I go any higher than this?

I felt my consciousness being ripped apart as I reached the singularity.

"Higher," I whispered, at the last moment possible.

The last thing I saw was a tear in either the fabric of the universe, or the fabric that held my mind together. Or both. It pulsated orange.

I woke up in my bed at my parent's house. I felt heavy.

But this still felt like a dream.

I got up out of bed to write this in my journal. The time on the clock kept changing. I had known it all along - I was still dreaming. Yet, I was very paranoid about forgetting the last dream that had just occurred.

I ran up the stairs. My mother was washing dishes.

"What are you doing?" She asked.

That was a really good question. What was I going to do now? I felt like nothing could surpass what had just happened, and I didn't want to forget it either.

"Maybe I'm just going to sit on the porch and enjoy nature or something," I asked.

"You have a lot you need to do, you shouldn't be wasting your time right now," she scorned.

"It's a dream," I flat out told her.

"One of these days you're just going to lose it," she warned.

I rolled my eyes and ignored her and proceeded to the porch.

There was a white rose growing against the warped siding. I sat down beside it. I could feel its warmth.

I wanted to experience again what happened earlier, but every time I tried I got a blazing headache. I decided to just let it be, and woke up for real.



I just reread through that again and I have to admit that my description of that dream does not do it any justice whatsoever...