lucid

Lots of dreams last night. I had a bad argument with a good friend. I was really depressed, at a big Mexican meal very late, had a cup of coffee later than usual, and I cycled for the first time in a long time, so what triggered my lucids? I have absolutely no idea.

A kid needed a blood transfusion after an accident. I picked him up, put him on the hospital bed, and stayed holding him even though his father was right there.

This scene kind-of alternated with a scene of a plane crash. I viewed this in 3rd person. A black guy inside was having heart trouble. The plane ended up in the water and it is up to everyone's chest. The black guy held his chest and said, "I shouldn't have come." (Ya think?)

#66

I was starting a company with my friend M. S. A hot brunette was working for us. We were all sitting around. M. told the girl to turn on the T.V. just so he could tell her what to do. I told M. to then tell her to come sit in my lap.

It didn't work out exactly as I wanted, but eventually, I figured out I was dreaming. I looked at my hand to be sure--six fingers. I was so happy. I started making out with her and feeling her tits. She was delicious. I decided to lick her ass, so I told M. to come over and he could make out with her. I had her for a little, but soon woke up.

#67

A knight was riding a horse along the bank of the ocean or something. The water was like 50 feet below or something. The knight was riding along and I got it in my mind that his armor was purple, and that he was the Purple Knight.

I was afraid he would fall in the water. Instead, he kept riding approaching a crowd. At this point, I focused on the crowd. I ended up in a room with several people, and I realized I was dreaming again. I looked at my hand and counted six, so I took a girl and started to eat her.

I quickly found someone else though. She was dirty blonde and had bigger tits. Her skin was smooth and soft, her lips were deep pink to light red, but natural. I made out with her and felt her up. I soon woke up again though.

It was early afternoon when I woke up. My rough night left me restless in the morning so I kept waking up, but going back to sleep. This gave me the opportunity to lucid.

Date: 2 July

Pre bed: SJW, 100mg B6, 1 p.oil capsule

Total sleep time: 8 hrs

Early LD (+2hrs after falling asleep): Unfortunately, I don't remember much as I feel asleep after the LD (even though I thought about it briefly) then woke up some time after that to visit the restroom therefore managed to put some key words. Obviously a very exciting to me LD, somewhere outdoors like a yard with lots of DCs and had something to do with TOTM.

WBTB: p.oil capsule and some latte. I was very sleepy and did not spend the necessary time out of bed, I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow. I have very little recall of the dreams that followed too.

Dreams: related to classmates again. Back to school for some event.

OBE/FA/LD: Just before final wake and I guess after some dream I can't remember, I end up in the void. I concentrate on my hearing and notice sounds that most likely come from outside. As I do that I end up in my room. There is some confusion because the part of the bed and room that I see totally looks like my room and everything is very clear. I start some maneuvering to fall asleep/ld?, change the scene, move my dream body while having no idea which body is moving after all. After these dream body movements, I fall on the floor with some bedsheets. While the fall is not physical, I am still slightly confused and think that I may really have fallen down, so continue with my efforts to project somewhere else. Then I notice a toy of mine is on the floor as well, but it is transparent and there's two of it, so that finally works as a plausible RC, but before I could react, I wake up for real and of course I very suspiciously look around and RC.

Comment: Yeah, I definitely prefer those types of WILDs/DILDs where you just enter a dream somewhere else. These in my bed/which body is it type of situations are just so confusing. Also I should increase time out of bed during WBTB even if this means some insomnia, because I have been sleeping so deep lately that recall and LDs suffer. Well, at least I get some nice sleep.

Comment: A bit behind with updating

Date: 30 June

Pre bed: 3mg mel

WBTB: Some latte

Total sleep time: appr. 6 1/2 hrs

Early dream1: I am posting to our conversation in DV

Dream Fragment2: There is an old apple pudding that I try to throw away in the sink but the apples won't dissolve.

Dream3 Irritating Kitten: I am on the street where we live and there is a grey kitten that catches my attention. We play for a while but as I leave it starts to behave like a crazy cat, always coming back to me faster and faster. Its claws and little teeth are sharp, I want to get rid of it. Finally, I toss it aside and as it lands on the other side of the street, it turns into a dead rat, with its insides open. I have concerns of what will people think about hygiene, having a dead animal on the street, but then some guys come pick it up.

WBTB: I was initially worried that I am not wakeful enough, so headed for the latte. It was not the best morning to do so as there were lots of distractions and I ended up very nervous, struggling to fall asleep for an hour and a half.

Falling asleep/LD: I can't even remember where, it was a dream forming around me but I woke

Falling asleep/LD: I appear walking down the street of my hometown. Some people are passing by, I try to hold on to a big tall guy but the dream slips away and I wake up.

WILD (Nyx style): I find myself in some room with soft light, as the dream forms. For some reason, I attempt to control the dream by using a touchpad screen? I stop doing this and look around. The dream is unstable and I try to engage whoever is around. There are three-four DCs and I immediately recognize my parents there. The memory of quickly phasing through the walls comes to mind but I dismiss it, then run through some tasks that I remember and decide to ask the DCs there including my parents how to find Xanous. Unfortunately, these DCs are totally dumb, so I get almost no reaction from them, no matter how many times I ask. They go to sleep on the few beds that are in the center of the room. The dream is still unstable (possibly because I am super wakeful), so I start jumping on the bed (white bed sheets) to engage myself a bit more. I find it quite pleasant and I don't have to worry about breaking anything. I am bounce-walking now, trying to stabilize this way, as I notice the instability is still here to an extent. Then as I am jumping in front of a wooden desk, my leg hits some small item on the floor and it even hurts a bit. I find this strange.

Finally, I calm down, look around the room and ponder my next action. The light in the room is very soft and pleasant, as if coming from a lamp. Lots of the furniture that I barely notice is wooden. I remember three wooden doors on the two walls in front of me. They are all closed. Initially, I decide to stay in the room and explore it, but then the door in front of me is open. It is dark but I think of playing a bit, open the door with TK, nice! I go forward, now there is light in the room. As I am slowly and carefully moving forward, I notice that there are windows showing the reflection. Very interested to check it out, I concentrate on it and worryingly see someone else's reflection there. So behind the door as I am entering is another DC that obviously corresponds to this reflection and she just...well I just didn't expect her to be there, so got a bit scared.

I fully enter this new room and look at the DC in front of me. At this point the dream is super stable and vivid. I carefully examine her looks and try to memorize as much detail as possible.Ok, I now try to talk to her, but as she replies there is no sound. I continue asking her questions but can't understand anything, just that she answers "no" about something and she moves her head in negation. My speaking is more like thoughts and without sound, but she understands me. I truly start to believe that I have crossed into another multiverse and that this is the cause of our inability to communicate. I ask her if it is because of energy? Does she see me at all? Her mother comes around as well,I continue questioning them - do they see me, or can they only hear me? I realize that I am spending way too much time and concentration on this apparently useless conversation, and orientate myself in the room so that I can report in what kind of room I was. It is a kitchen, no, a dinning room. There is a large table with some chairs.

My attention is caught by another reflection in the window. It is day outside. I am curious to see how I look so move closer and notice a white T-shirt with some red flowers on it, find the clothes interesting. These DCs are all around me still in another section of the room, now that might have been the kitchen. Going through tasks again. Ok, let's do "lucidity DC" just in case. I don't believe I will see these DCs ever again, but I still tell them that if they ever dream of me and see me they have to tell me it's a dream, etc. Since the dream is quite stable, I once again I think I might try to find Xanous. I ask the DCs to help me find him, pause for a moment and listen. There is no single sound in this dream. They are still trying to interact with me, saying something but in vain. The mother holds a roll of blue paper in her hands and I come up with the idea that they write down whatever they want to say. They take too long and as I wait doing nothing, the dream dissolves. I do a lousy DEILD attempt then impatiently wake myself up.

Maybe I should have been more persistent with my attempt to go back there but I was way too awake and overexcited.

This was yesterday morning. I woke up around 4 am from a lucid nightmare. In it, my husband Adam and me were at a place getting the car fixed, but the mechanic shop was not a 'shop' it was a huge dumping site, excavated land, recently emptied of trash, people were walking around scrounging for the last usable pieces of trash they could find, they were wearing zipped up haz-mat suits and wearing goggled facial masks as if they were walking in a place unsuitable to breathe in, but the air was fine. I remember 4 people dressed like that. They were spraying something on the ground. I was near the car and talking to Rosa, an internet friend of mine, and Adam was outside. Rosa touched my arm and told me "Adam is dead, I think he's been killed." I fly to the dump site, land and i'm next to his body, hes laying on his back, looking asleep and peaceful, but clearly dead, hes got no pulse and hes not breathing. The 4 masked/suited people look at me and i look at them, no words are exchanged but they know that i know they had sprayed toxic fumes and Adam breathed it in.

Dream changes and I am transporting adams body in a casket, by hearse-bus (a huge bus built just to haul a funeral casket in reality this does not exist im sure), to somewhere up north for burial. im meeting his dad. im at some school building, sitting on the steps just outside of the building, and then Adam (who is dead in the casket on the bus which is parked near by) walks up to me and sits down beside me, and we talk, as we normally would if he were alive and well. we talk about what needs to be done, our happiness and thankfulness for life together, how we wanted more time, and how he hopes i am ready to live life without him, but he also says that he is still there, and always will be. suddenly i run to the casket inside the bus and open it and there on adams chest are 3 black feathers, like from a raven/blackbird. i pick them up and run back to where adam is still waiting for me at the steps, and show them to him, and say 'Look. These are the gifts you gave me.' he said 'yes. i hope you keep them.'

backs story - Adam is in reality, struggling to stay alive. he's been deathly ill for months, and has had multiple strokes since February of this year, which have left him partially blind, unable to use the left side of his body, agoraphobic, and unable to track time/think clearly. he was saved and baptised in may of this year, so i wonder if the death in the dream was of his old life before Christ.

the blackbird feathers.... 'Blackbird' was the first song he taught me to sing, the first one we performed live as a duet, and the first one he taught me how to play on the guitar.

i also have to wonder about the 4 suited hazmat people who 'killed him'. see, back in may, right after he was baptized, i dreamed of 4 demons who had been cast out of Adam, i posted this in my journal its titled "Will never forget this one!". i wonder if they attacked him, or this was simply to make us aware that they are still close by. in the first dream, they were all highly charismatic, enchanting musicians, just like Adam. they were trying to get MY attention, to get adam to come back, because adam was either unable to sense them/ignoring them. in this dream, they were hidden behind masks, in essence, attacking him unseen.

after his stroke, adam could no longer play or sing - after a lifetime of being a musical genius, songwriter, stage performer and recording artist. he mourned the loss of that more than anything else. i remember the woman who did the baptising (another musician, bless her), praying over him asking God to heal him of his afflictions, release him from his addictions, and if God saw it fit for adam to ever be able to pick up his guitar and play again and sing, that God would use him for His work in whatever way God deemed fit. its taken 4 months, but adam is finally able to use his left hand well enough to chord the guitar for a few minutes each day before the pain of using that hand becomes too much,and the strength in his voice is coming back slowly as well. he had another small stroke a few days ago, and since then his right hand (the good one) wont stop shaking, and the left one feels numb. its another healing process, another reminder of why he and i both need to be strong, together and as individuals. he blew me away two days ago when he asked me to google the lyrics to Amazing Grace, a song that until he came to know Jesus just 6 weeks ago he never thought much about. and he belted that song out, with all his strength. his voice that was left withered and cracked after the stroke, sounded like crystal, resounding such healing energy.

I spoke to Rosa about the dream, and she said that she believes that north is the direction in which healing comes from. She also said she believes the blackbird feathers are healing, as is any combination of the number 3. She's Metis (NA).

As far back as I can remember, my friend and I were at a camp ground, carrying huge axes. I believe we were waiting to play hide and go seek. After I have a false awakening, I am at the bottom of this hill. I suddenly become lucid, and I yell out "I'm Dreaming!" I clearly remember hearing like my name or a bell ring in my mind when I became lucid. Everything started to turn kinda clearer, but it was still kinda blurry. I became calm, and yelled increase lucidity. Everything got clearer, and then I grounded myself in the dream, by rubbing, licking, and smelling my hands. My friend quickly told me that we were about to miss the bus. I told him to jump on, and we started flying towards the bus. We made it there, and on the bus, I decided I wanted to teleport somewhere. I imagined transporting to this place, and suddenly this very strange interface came up. It had little monsters on my screen, and then I pointed to a place on the map. I then went there. I appeared at this apartment building, and I started walking in. Now, everything started getting blurry and I tried to get it back to normal. Everything got clear again, but then I woke up.

The first thing I remember is being in a small park located in a city that looked vaguely reminiscent of New York. For some reason I am fighting off this blonde haired woman who is attempting to assassinate me for reasons unbeknownst to me. However, in the middle of out scuffle I realize that this entire entire experience is just a dream. I quickly calm myself from the initial adrenaline rush and begin rubbing my hands together to both stabilize and increase the vividness of the dream. It works a little bit, but not as much as I would have liked it too.

After a bit more stabilization, I want to find my bearings when I see a door off to my right. I decide to enter it because I am intrigued as to where it might take me. I pass through the door and now find myself in a house that looks like a mish-mash of both my current living quarters and my previous home that I lived in as a child. I could tell it was sunset here, unlike the previous setting which was midday, and the sky was a very deep shade of orange. Deeper and more vibrant than any sunsets I have seen in real life.

I slowly began exploring the house I noticed it had no artificial light sources of it's own, meaning the only available light came from the sun's rays shining through the house's windows. This made for a very strange, though beautiful lighting effect. I continued exploring the house when I came upon a hall way. I became curious to see how sensitive my sense of touch was in this dream, so I began dragging my hand across the wall as I walked down the hallway. The wall felt almost exactly like it would in real life, my sense of touch was extremely accurate. I finished testing my sense of touch for the moment as I came upon a room at the end of the hall way. It looked like my parent's room from my current house, however it was backwards from it actually was. The lighting in this room was also beautiful as the room had one large window that let the orange sunlight pour into the room.

I admired the room for a little bit then decided to explore more of the house. After exploring some more I stumbled upon a room that looked my kitchen from a house I lived in many years ago. However, all of the chairs and tables were missing one or two of their left legs which made them lean over or tilt to the left. After observing the area for awhile I realized the dream was fading. I began rubbing my hands together to stabilize the dream and it worked. However, scared I would lose the dream I didn't actually stop rubbing my hands together after the stabilization was complete. I began exploring again when suddenly I felt something sticky between my hands. I stated investigating my hands but I didn't find anything that might have caused this sticky sensation.

I decided to not to investigate the matter any more thoroughly and instead decided to continue my exploration. I began wandering around for awhile until I came upon the exit to the house. I decided to take my leave from the house and stepped outside onto a balcony/porch of sorts. The roof of this porch was very low lying (just a few inches taller than me) and there was a small wooden railing surrounding the balcony to prevent any accidental falls. As I looked around I saw the beautiful sunset in the distance off to my left and a baseball field directly in front of me, just a few yards away.

There were 2 dream characters playing on the field and a crowd of people watching them. I jumped over the railing and approached the field to get a better look. After spectating the players for awhile I wanted to explore the dream world further. However, the my path was blocked by the baseball field and I didn't want to take the chance of across the field and getting hit in the head by a baseball. So I decided instead to walk around the baseball field, however, by the time I reached the first base I woke up.

So, in the dream, I actually started out lucid and with a full understanding that I was dreaming. I remember fighting for control to stay in the realization, even screaming at the other dream AI that this was all a dream. I was in a comic book store trying to do what I usually do in lucid dreams; Basically play Battlefield 4 in a dreamscape environment. However, this time when I tried to control the dream, I couldn't do it and was suddenly being carried out of the store and to what looked like a classroom by two girls.

In the classroom, the teacher told me that I had been asleep for about 4 hours so far (Which actually wasn't true.) and I told him that I was having problems controlling my dreams. He told me that if I eat a piece of cheese before I go to bed, I could control my dreams better.

I responded by closing my eyes and trying to concentrate on the dream I wanted to have, and when I closed my eyes I actually saw darkness. When I opened my eyes I was still in the same room only everyone else was running away and one of the dream AI's said that he saw the kind of dreams I had and was laughing.

I then got really freaked out and tried really hard to force myself to wake up and actually did wake up.

Often i dream of giant waves coming towards me in different scenarios and i am always frightened, afraid i will die this way, but miraculously I always seem to end up unharmed and looking back on the scene of destruction the wave left in its wake. Sometimes i get swept up in the wave and it carries me to a safe place up high, and sometimes i am able to move out of the way altogether before it crashes. Usually these dreams occur on a beach.

However a few nights ago i dreamt that i was taking a friend to look at a new house she was wanting to move into and it was disappointing for her as it was quite dilapidated. When we left the house we parted ways and i drove back home in my new car, and on the drive i encountered rapidly rising waters and i could see a giant wave coming my way. Upon feeling the usual fear i experience I decided to make my car rise above the waters and ride the wave, which not only eliminated the fear but made me feel safer and somewhat exhilarated! the dream ended here and i woke up feeling great!

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

Candy:
I find myself in a room full of candy, I went around inspecting it. Then i sat down and ate some. However, i looked over and noticed a black man sitting in a chair. I instantly thought "Oops, this guy must think i'm either stupid or a thief that isn't aware at all". I talk to the guy and i find out he's part of a group that films porn videos and that he thinks my presence in this room must mean i want to join. I thought " Oh geez, no i don't want to join". But the guy like forces me to get up and follow him to the club room.

However, there i find a group of some friends i don't normally talk to. The expressions on their face were like "what the hell is he doing here?" And i'm thinking in my head "calm down! i can explain, i promise!". But i soon find out that they actually don't film porn at all and it's actually a casual group that meets occasional, but still, i don't want any part of it. The group sits down in some chairs and starts chatting and etc.

There's some room behind me and some glass windows behind the free space, i looked over there and i see two mechs fighting inside the room, one mech is completely dominated by the other but before i can see who piloted the winning mech. I see a van with C.C ( from code geass) in it. I instantly jump up and run outside to see what she's up to, she's apparently talking on skype and fixing pizzas in ovens inside the van.

I went back inside and looked back at the place where the mechs fought, i saw the lady who piloted it, but then this other lady caught my gaze, she gave me a freaking terribly angry look and i just smiled and slowly ran out of the building xD.

Samurai fight:
My friend is on some bridge fighting a samurai with a katana. He's my friend but in this dream ,he plays the role of my brother. Eventually, my brother wins and he gets experience points for beating him.

Lucid #9:
I remember becoming lucid in my living room. I think it had something to do with one of my dream characters talking about it. Either way, the DC walks out into my garage, but as i follow him , i remember to root myself in the dream and gain some awareness so i look at my hands and one hand has 4 fingers, great, but the other has 5 fingers. I wake up as i attempt to grab a pot of soup but i sort of fail to grab it because i'm not used to using a hand with 5 fingers and a thumb.

Governors mansion and the arcade:
Me and my dad are some mansion that apparently the governor owns. We stop and look around and as we do, my sister comes up and she brings the governor with her, she's dating him. I decide i didn't want to sit there and hang with them, so i went down to where my friend works and we go to some arcade. Everything is overpriced though so i walk over to a pit with a lot of food in it and press a button which lights the whole pit on fire and starts cooking all the food. I eventually stop it and grab a piece of bread, i then start shaping it into coins so i can play games for free hehe. But it takes too long so i just eat it.

Lawn Mower:
I bought a lawn mower and i'm driving my dads truck but my truck is in the middle of the road and my lawn mower is sitting out on the side. I decide i should move the truck first so i do and as i come back to pick up the mower, some one has stolen it, great D:

I will often, for my amusement, approach my LD's with a couple of different personas that put me in different places regarding my environment and my interaction with the characters. Inspired by KingYoshi and (in a way) a TV Show I've been watching recently (The Tudors) I decided to make myself the King of my dream world.

19/06/2013 - DILD

I was in my kitchen with my mom talking about something I don't recall and I did a RC for no apparent reason, counting my fingers mindfully looking at my hands I had half fingers "This can't be, is this really a dream?", I RC'ed a couple more times, somehow I was having a hard time accepting I was dreaming, I don't know why but my guess is because it was an habit RC and not a surge of awareness or questioning of reality.

Eventually I accepted the most welcomed fact, went to my backyard and jumped to the top of a big green wall which is sort of not there (iwl). I decided to stabilize and enhance the dream so I started looking for visual detail around me, the dream was already vivid so I'm not sure if this really added to it but where before I didn't have sun at all now I was still standing in the shadow but the sun illuminated an area directly in front of me.

I remembered my current goal at the time, to have the queen of my dreamverse present herself to me (such bs).

I let out a passionate and euphoric shout into the air "Your king is back! May the queen of my dream world please step foward!" As I was finishing that sentence I expected to hear cheers from a crowd all around me while some sort of competition was to take place and, I think I closed my eyes somewhere in the sentence (or the scenario turned 180º with black in between).

The crowd did make a lot of noise (mainly females) and suddenly I was sitting in the central top row of a place like this:



The biggest contrasts with the image is that there was nothing in the field (but a big central screen hanging from above) and, it was a smaller arena. In the screen I saw the image of a martial artist girl wearing a kimono and throwing a big kick in the air. When she appeared I also heard a male voice announce "The first contestant is a judoka from Japan (bla bla bla)". So they are going to fight, sweet. I immediately just stretched my arm to the side and was expecting to manifest someone bringing me some popcorn to snack while I watch some of the action before acting myself, when... my alarm went off and I obviously woke up.

01/07/2013 - DILD (DF)

My memory is very fuzzy regarding the details of this piece of fun because I didn't record it immediately due to the nasty back pains that have been bothering me from dawn to dusk for a couple of days. It just got way better today.

I was in some busy street and it occurred me to do a reality check and I was lucid. I remember aimlessly but nicely spending some time jumping from place to place in the scenario before deciding to have a go at some fine Miss in the middle of the street. I can't exactly remember how she looked like but I know she was very fine, then... I saw some other one I liked and got her on top of a small structure in a central place. We made out and all the action was very good sensually, very vivid and also felt quite dirty in the middle of a dream busy street.

While we were having fun, just to our side, down in the ground was Bruna (a middle school classmate I had who was fairly attractive but I didn't care much for her most of time, wonder why she was there) talking to another person, so I thought "hey why not?". She aged normally btw.

So I was going to pick her up when I realized she was not only talking but making out with a girl that was just my type. Dark black hair, snow white skin, glasses and beautifully shaped curves. I thought it might as well be more exciting to steal the lady away from Bruna. I come down to pick her up and as I do she wraps her legs around my waist and we go up there and have some really good fun.

Somewhere between all this playing with the ladies I remember trying and enhancing the dream which certainly happened, this was nothing but intense.

I also had some interesting non-SP HH chat but this is way too long already. Certainly more to come, see you next time.

Today I had 2 LDs. Started with a DILD and a dog biting my hand while I was trying to stabilize so I woke up. Went back to sleep and did a WILD practically right away. I flew up a bit and my awareness changed so I knew I was lucid. I tried opening my eyes or something and I woke up and fell asleep again.

This is sweet as I haven't had a LD for a long time, or 2 LDs in 1 night for that matter. Took me from 06/13/2013 to 07/01/2013. Which is pretty dang good for me.

Okay. I want to share this dream. I had it approximately in. May 2011. In this dream I actually have birth - the first & only time I dreampt this. I remembered the dream SO well! I submitted it to another DA site who never responded, but I hour an initial email back saying they received my submission. I kept that email, that contained a copy of my dream submission, all this time. Here goes: (mind you, this was 2 yrs ago)
Ok. I had a dream that I was in labor. I dont recall anybody specifically being present while in labor except for nameless hospital staff. But there was an old woman in the bed with me. I was side lying and she was like, spooning me, in an effort to help with the labor/delivery. It was definitely an awkward feeling for me, but it didnt seem grossly inappropriate for her to be there. I dont know who thiswoman was. I delivered a boy and i was soooo happy. I said, " I finally have a Christopher!" I was trying to figure how i could put my grandfathers name, Harvey, somewhere in there. See, my grandfather has 21 great-grandchildren, but passed before he could even see the first one. after a while, i felt pressure "down there" and i thought i had to "go", but it was another child - a girl! (Mind you, the old womans still there)She was smaller than the boy, but both were healthy. The best adjective i can use for the way i felt was bewildered. But i accepted the situation and was just as happy. I accepted both as mine, but not that they were twins. I was trying to figure out how i got "with child and delivered so soon after giving birth to the boy". I know in the real world it would be obvious, but this was a dream. I did eventually accept that I had had twins. I sent a mobile pic to my sister and she said, " now that's best news i've heard for a while". I also could not figure out what to name the girl.The old woman just kind of disapeared out of the dream after i had the girl. Never knew her name, never saw her face, she really never said a word. On a personal note, I have 7 children; 4 boys, 3 girls. No twins, no miscarriages and my tubes are tied. What stands out to me in this dream was how happy I was.

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Being in labor, although painful, was always a time of great expectation for me. Excited. I was blessed to have had good labors/deliveries with all of my children. There was noone in the dream except the old lady and my sister. I dont know who the old lady was. I am black and for some reason I know the old woman was black. While i have a great respect for all elders, it runs deep for older african-american women. I love the wisdom that they have to offer. The spooning was really uncomfortable for me. I am a modest person and there was no room between our bodies, but for some reason i knew her being there was somehow beneficial. Somehow i also know she had on a blue dress. I like blue, but green is my favorite color. I have a very natural, easy connection with my boys. Which is why i was so ecstatic when the boy was born. I love my girls, who are 12, 9 & 5 however, girls are a little more complicated and i've had to learn how to relate to them. My sister.....im the oldest, she's the 2nd oldest. She comes off like a bear, but i know her better than anyone, and she's very sensitive and craves attention/approval. i'm very protective of her. I also have to let her know when she's going too far left (as she often does) yet in a passive way because that's my nature and that's the way i have to handle things with her.(she's a scorpio, im a taurus and things have the potential to get uuuuugly) She still doesnt realize that she's not as fierce as she thinks she is. We are close. I forgot to mention my step-father who my mother divorced 21 yrs ago, but he was the only dad i knew for 10 years. We had an awful relationship, i could not stand him. But now that im older i understand things a little better, and realize he did the best HE could do. He had a small part in the dream. I went to him to find out how i could have had the girl sooo soon after the boy, when i was still in denial that i'd actually had twins. There was nothing significant about the hospital room i was in, no bad vibes, no good vibes. I was comfortable though. The name Christopher is just a name i always wanted to name one of my boys, but never got to. It's also a male version of my name, Christiana. My grandfather died when i was 16. I'm a nurse and have seen alot of arthritis but he had the WORST ARTHRITIS that i've ever seen. But he was never idle. He traveled, drove hisself to church. He was a good man, but i think like made him a little bitter. His temper could be explosive, this was only every blue moon and he was never abusive. We didnt have a close relationship, but I knew he loved me. When i think of him, i feel kind of sad. I kind of feel life dealt him a bad hand. He was very intelligent and wanted to go to college. But his step-mother wouldnt let him stay home rent free while he went to school. He couldnt afford that and pay for school so he joined the Army. He served in at least 2 wars, including 2 tours in vietnam. They believed it was the agent orange that caused the arthritis. My grandmother was not the most loving, understanding person.....very hard to live with if you ask me. And on and on, but he never felt sorry for himself. His perseverence stands out to me. i'm indifferent to the idea of twins......

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im a black female, 38 yrs old. married for 13 yrs., 7 children aged: 20, 18, 14, 13, 12, 9, 5. I am a true taurus. Most ppl would say that im quiet. I've also heard that i'm a sweet person. Some adjectives that have been used to describe me: weird, unique, different, withdrawn, sweet, insightful, fair . Some have told me that i'm very intelligent, while others have outright told me that i was slow...go figure. Oh, and stubborn....that's a constant. I dont see myself as "sweet", but I know that i have more compassion than the average person. I think i'm of average intelligence and I am slow to understand, but it's my determination to understand and do well that makes others think that I'm "smart". I am insightful, I've always looked deeper. I dont understand shallow thinkers.....why think at all??? I am definitely fair, nothing I hate more than an unbalanced scale. I am not stubborn. I LOVE beautiful things, be it people, clothing, home decor, sunsets, jewelry, mountain ranges, trees, pictures. I LOVE comfort, I LOVE my kids. Much of my interest lies in my spiritual growth. I like to learn about medical advances, different medical conditions, medical discoveries. Things about the universe, any information about the cosmos. And history, especially black history, mainly because you don't get very good information in school. Right now i'm trying to balance working, raising respectful children with standards and a marriage. I could always do better, but things are okay. Some times I feel as though things are balancing on a cliff and could just fall through at any time. I have realized that I no longer know how to loosen up and have fun, but I think staying afloat financially and raising these children, among other things, are too crucial of issues to "loosen" up. My dream is to have a business of my own, dont know what kind. Been looking at a cleaning business or personal care home. I want this because I could schedule my work around my family needs and make good money doing it. I know I can do it, but at the same time I'm lacking confidence in myself (if that makes any sense) & in how well the business might do-- as well as start up money.

This is my first time posting, but I had a Lucid Dream only one time and what i remember was nothing short of weird.
I was reading a Stephen King book before i went to sleep, and it was getting pretty gruesome. I decide its late and begin to fall asleep. Now i remember my dreams often as I have kept a dream journal. Yet just as i was starting to dream I realized i was dreaming. This made me open up my eyes and what i saw threw me off. I saw the room i was staying but it looked different, and as i was looking around I kept thinking "WOW i did it im Lucid". Yet as i looked about the room I saw the room as if my eyes were made of glass and had cracks through them with no point of origin. I then got excited and stayed in my bed and was trying to think about something to do. My mind immediately went to the gruesome death i just read about. "No! i thought and tried to think of the next thing, which was Zombies at the time. Before i could think of something else I felt this groggy sound behind me and then i hear almost breathing but choking. I knew I could feel a zombie right behind me just waiting for me to turn around. So instead of turning around i closed my eyes even harder and desperately tried to think of this girl i really liked.
Then i woke up completely and turned around to see no zombie, i believe i scared myself awake.
Ever since this has happened i haven't been able to LD again, but i do have vived dreams and i'm starting to do reality checks all the time.
Was wondering if anyone had any helpful tips to become Lucid again and what i should do for a real awesome experience.

I was sitting here, bored and drowsy, so I decided to try doing an FILD. I lied down and started slightly flexing my index & middle fingers like you're supposed to. Not long after, I felt sorta weightless. It felt as though I or the bed were spinning in space. I tried a few RCs by trying to breathe through my nose whilst I pinched it shut. I was awake each time, but I'm sure I was on the verge of an LD. I even tried calling out my crush's name to see if she would appear. It all felt very strange.

First thing I remember, is suddenly becoming lucid out of no where. However, I didn't say aloud "I'm dreaming or I'm lucid", so I was unable to control anything. I was on a school bus in the pouring rain, and I was texting a class mate about a girl that I have not seen in a while. My uncle and cousin were waiting for me as I got off the bus. My friend and I are about to go on a plane, but we needed chocolate. I offered him the Milk Duds that I had in my pocket, but he refused. We arrive at a gas station which is based off a real life one, and go inside. In the gas stations, there are parrots, animals, and all sorts of things. My friend didn't have his drivers license, which he needed to buy the chocolate, so I bought it for him with my license. I saw my whole cousin's family one the plane we were on, and then the dream ended.