lucid

1. Playing in an arcade. I walked up to some deer hunting game or whatever, and some big bulky guys were around it. I put my quarters in and failed. My brother gave his quarters away.

2. Was in some sort of a fancy house. Then realized I was dreaming. Now, the thing is, I only realized it because I had had the exact same dream, then woke up, then had it again.

Anyways, I started running around, jumping really high (which is great fun, you should try it in your next lucid dream), and trying to levitate stuff. With no success.

So it lasted about 20 seconds or so. I've recently started going to the gym so I've been 'mirin myself a lot. Well I ended up doing it in my dreams and my body was colored weird, like vains were yellow and I had a red tint. So I knew something was wrong and pushed my finger through my hand, took a bit of effort but I got it. So it wasn't very vivid but I rubbed my hands and in a couple seconds it was fully blown vivid.
But here's where the weird part is that I have a question on, it was very hard to breathe in the dream, like I had just run a marathon and was struggling for air. Soon after I woke up.

What the fuck am I doing?
I'm feeling awkward... anxious? eerie. Yes, that's the right word, eerie. I feel overwhelmingly eerie.
I don't feel the way I'm supposed to feel, given that I might loose everything, and that is immensely irritating.
And then I had the glorious idea to take that orb, which I was told would inevitably lead to my death.
I'm confused as to why I have made that choice. It seemed obvious at the time, but I just don't understand.
Perhaps it was because I am desperate. Perhaps it was to put and end to this feeling of eeriness.
Or perhaps, deep down, I know what I'm doing. Maybe. Hopefully?
One thing is for certain. The decision I've made is final. There is no going back. There is only one path left to walk.
From now on there are no more choices to be made, and that is somewhat of a relief.



I arrive on the central platform in Riven on Teraluna, where everyone is waiting for me.
The city feels abandoned. The animals have gone. I don't like it. It doesn't feel like home right now.
It's nice to see the old gang together though, although I wish it was under different circumstances.
Yuya, Shinave, Silver... even Ifrit is here? That is unexpected.
Everyone is eagerly waiting for me to explain what is going to happen next.
What am I going to say?



But then all of a sudden, looking at everyone, I gain an immense burst of confidence.
Everyone has so much confidence in me. They trust me completely. They know that we stand no chance whatsoever to survive the battle that is ahead.
But they are smiling. Well, when I say everyone, I mean everyone besides Ifrit. Clearly he doesn't want to be here.
And saying that he would have any confidence in me whatsoever is ridiculous. He hates me.

I take a deep breath. What's the plan, now that I have the orb?
Yes... that's how we're going to do it...

"Silver... do you still practice sealing techniques."
"Yes. What do you have in mind?"
"How well could you seal off this area?"
"The entire platform?"
"Yes..."
"Hmmm..."

He thinks about it for a bit.

"If focus solely on that and noting else, I can give you an interdimensional seal covering the entire platform for a few minutes..."
"15, maybe 20?"

That is impressive. I never expected him to be able to do that much. Not with such a high level sealing technique.
This might work... sort of. It's all going to depend on me.

"Alright... I have a plan."

The magic words.

"The templars are all united in the same location, scanning for our auras."
"They know the rough location of Teraluna, but even though they are immensely far away, they have not come any closer."
"This leads me to assume that they have access to a gate, and they plan on dialing in once they have our location."

Silver points at the gate on the platform we're on.

"An ancient gate?"
"Yes."
"Indeed... I suppose they are capable of using the old network. And it's not like the cities barrier will provide much protection against them."
"Using the gates they also won't waste any energy to get here... What do you want to do? Block the gate?"

Heh.

"Quite the contrary."
"Oh?"

I see some slightly confused faces.

"We're going to send them an invitation. Show them right where we are, and open the gate ourselves."

Everyones eyes are opening widely.
And then I smile.
And then everyone else smiles.
Except for Ifrit of course.

"ARE YOU FUCKING INSANE?"

I ignore him.

"When I give you the sign Silver, seal off the entire platform for as long as possible."
"Yuya, Shinave, protect Silver. The seal must not be broken."

They nod.

"Ifrit... are you in or out?"

Silence.
He draws a fire portal behind himself and turns away.
Shinave is clearly disappointed by these actions.

"You're going to run away?"

Considering that he's one of the ancient gods, that was very offensive.
But clearly he doesn't give a fuck about my opinion. I am no god. I am a lesser being.
He would have killed me long ago would it not be for Shinave to have urged him not to do so.

"Should you survive this day due to some miracle, know that I will end you."
"For what? Trying to save Teraluna while you run away?"
"It's all your fault. EVERYTHING is your fault."

Shinave intervenes. "It isn't."
He hates it. All gods should always side with him. After all he was the leader of the council of gods.
Which interestingly did actually fall apart because of me. That was my fault. In my defense though, it was beyond corrupt.

"At least I'm not hiding in the godly realm while the fate of Teraluna is decided."

His eyebrows twitch in anger and he leaves through his portal. He doesn't want to hear any more of it.

"I'm not sure what I was expecting, bringing him here."
"It was worth a try."

"So, when do we do this?" Yuya asks.
"As soon as everyone is ready. I have taken some actions that have kind of decreased the time we have left to deal with this."
"Good. Let's end this once and for all."

She smiles.
Yes. The time is now. I can feel it.
I nod at silver and he begins to prepare the seal.
He cuts into his left hand with a dagger, and draws some sort of incantation on the floor using his blood.
He then puts a bandage on it and sits down in a meditative pose.
Finally, he gives me a nod. He's ready.
Seven spheres of water appear around Yuya, who gives me the same nod.
And so does Shinave.
I summon my katana and wear it on my back, since I will no longer be able to summon it once the seal is up.
Show time.

After many weeks of having to hide my aura, I can finally power it up again.
I let the energy flow through my body freely. It feels so good. So refreshing.
I immediately sense the auras of all 12 Templars locking onto us.
Teraluna is found.

Non Dream
Dream
Lucid

As I'm trying to go back to sleep I randomly hear that loud ringing in my ears that lets me know I'm on my way to a lucid dream. I know I'm in the dream when I could see the room with my eyes closed. I got up from bed and started swimming around the house, trying to transform into a dolphin. After seeing I wasn't making any progress at all, I gave up, went outside of my house and jumped up to fly and explore. I flew to a hilly neighborhood. A middle aged woman flagged me down. She wanted to know what was the difference in seasonings at different Applebees (where I work). I woke up before I could come up with an answer.

I think I have to take baby steps with this transformation thing. Also, I should stick with passive control rather than active control, which I'm not very good at.

I had a dream this morning about an old friend, Rinda, who passed away not long ago. I ran into her in what looked like a giant hotel like something a convention would be held at. She reminded me of how she believed in reincarnation and was now done with somewhat of a "cooling period" and was ready to be reborn. Because I'm a lucid dreamer, she asked for my help going around and passing along her final goodbyes. I would hold her hand as we passed through a door, which would take us into a dream of the people she was imagining. I sort of just hung back, keeping the door open, and let her have her moments before we left that room and did it all over again. We must have gone through every door in that building. When it was all said and done, I got a big hug and she said something to the effect of "well, enough waiting around, I'm off to my next adventure" before walking out the front door into the light.

This was another really short lucid.

I was on top of a building with a bag of money, but I was thinking in my head, "What if someone had a bag of money and--." It was a stereo typical,drawn, two-dimensional bag with a money sign on it." The bag was drawn.

Then I saw The Greatest American Hero on top of the building with me, but his hair was a little flat, and he looked a little gay, so I called him the Gayest American Hero, and realized I was dreaming. Realizing I was dreaming, I thought I would trick The Gayest American Hero. I "fell" off the building with my bag of money, but I fell a foot and then hovered, while the Gayest American Hero flew down expecting me to fall.

I then flew back up, but typical of me, at the top of the building, I needed to help myself with physical force.

~

I had another dream where I saw an old woman who was so old that her skin was gone and she had a layer of clear skin. Her eyes were big like eyes from a sponge bob cartoon.

I had a ball with gell and little hard, clear tear-drop shaped plasticy things. I squeezed the ball and one of the plastic things came out and landed on the old lady's leg. She was a bit disturbed, so I apologized and pulled it off of her a bit embarrassed with myself.

Dream
I am with my younger brother watching a movie at the cinema. We decide to rip holes in the big screen just for fun and quickly leave the cinema. However, my brother has to take a poo so he goes back inside. I am waiting for him outside on the stairs in front of the entrance. Some security guard is putting up security lint to secure the area. He gives me a quick glance. At a certain moment I decide to leave the area without raising suspicion. This makes me very conspicious and I run into some bushes and climb a few fences. I end up very high in a tree. My branch breaks and I am down again.


MILD + 5-7 DEILDS
I am lying in bed in total darkness. I do a nose-plug RC and become lucid. I feel very heavy so I decide to jump out of bed with a lot of force, I have no idea if this worked.

I am lying in bed without being able to see. I decide to spin around to change my dream. I am floating in bed and and started spinning horizontally. It didn't really work and I became a little dizzy.

I got up out of bed but couldn't see anything because I was wearing a sleeping mask (I was also wearing a sleeping mask in real life that night). I tried to get it off, however, when I took one sleeping mask off, there were a few others underneath. I tried closing my eyes and not opening them untill I got my mask off, but it didn't work. I tried this a few times.

I tried the above again.

I am still unable to see. I feel around for some scissors and cut the elastic bands of several of my sleeping masks (I can feel that I am wearing multiple masks). Naturally, this didn't work. I was getting really annoyed now and decided to try some magic. I said: "Simsalabim" and tapped on my mask. No effect..

I decided to force control because this dream didn't make any sense. I knew I wasn't wearing a mask in the dream world and visualised seeing my room in front of me. This started to work and after another DEILD I was able to see again.

My next dreams took place at my university. I decided to do some lucid experiments. I read a letter that said something about a certain room number before turning to gibberish. I looked for the right room, which was a bit tricky because sometimes the rooms would skip a few numbers so I had to go back and forth. I found the room and took a seat. I drank some wine which tasted nice.

Again, I've been through a little dryspell latey; I had lots of tiny lucids the last three days but last night got better (~25 min).

Lucidity: 8/10
Control: 7/10
Vivacity: 8/10

I got lucid and we entered a guy's dream, with my sister. We will never actually get out of it, but in his dream he acts like we did. He and his wife (whose dream we apparently entered too) draw us as the ghost in Ben10 (I used to watch the show when I was ten or so). We talk a while, and they say that they're sorry that they messed the drawing up.
The dream begins to fade, but I rub my hands together, and after minutes making sure the dream won't go, I try to say "I'm gonna have a long, awesome lucid" but I do it in French and I can't translate fast enough and recite on of my induction mantra: "In my next dream, I'll get lucid". I try again but the sentence really sounds bad. Meh nevermind.
I rub a hand on a small cafe table, feels so real... We' re in a cafe-bar, with the two guys whose dream I "entered". We're in the bottom of a boat, we can see the water behind the windows. The two other guys are still asking if it's okey that they messed up the drawing. I decide to walk around, and after evaluating the dream's stability, I decide that I shouldn't try anything crazy... but I don't stabilize the dream. I walk around a lil' more and after giving up on finding an exit I go ahead an have "fun time" for a bit.
When I walk back to the table, I realize that I'm actually a really hot girl. The woman who drew me tells me I'd better hide my boobs. She means to help me stay in the dream, she know I'm trying to stop having sex in a lucid. I do so, transforming back into me. The dream fades, and after rubbing my hands like a mad man I decide to get out of here. I start spinning on myself... and Wake up.
I failed to DEILD, apparently my sleepy time was over because I couldn't fall back asleep.

July 22, 2013, Monday

I was running down the road west with some kids. It's in my hometown. It was twilight, right before dawn, but with no sun rays yet. We flight up to the skies. The sun began to rise.

We started to feather fall, and some of the kids were already on the ground. I flapped my hands harder to go up higher. I saw the municipal building, I kept flying up, up higher than the trees.

I passed by a tree house on a really tall tree. I knocked on the door, but then kept flying past it. I looked at the fields of my hometown below. I floated down and landed.

This lucid must of been about after 4 hours sleep, in one of my early REM cycles. It wasn't very vivid and it is pretty hard to recall.

Dream 1

I am in a dark room, I relaise that its a lucid dream. I don't know why, I just did. I do the nose plug make sure I can definitely breathe and then think of goals. I think, actually no I need to stabilize first. I am in the corner of the room facing the wall looking at my hands. Its dark there is a weird glow round them, I notice how my little finger on my left hand bends across the palm, I focus try to look at wrinkles any detail. I shout hesitantly incase I woke anyone in RL 'CLARITY NOW!' I carry on looking for about 10 more seconds. I look up, everything is clear but I wake.

Dream 2

I was on my street, about 5 houses away from my house on someones front lawn. I was with my brother sister mum dad. I had £50 on me, 2 £20 pound notes and a £10. I went to pull something out my pocket and dropped all of it. The 10 and 20 were by my feet and the other 20 had gone flying up the street. I pick up the 10 and 20 and run and get the other. I worry that my mum and dad may have seen me almost lose the 20. Anyway I run back and sit on this deck chair. I lean right back on it and in the house across the street the curtains weren't closed but the lights were off, I see 3 people, 2 of them were men sitting in two separate chairs facing away from the window and in the middle was an old woman in some night time dress thing. She just stared there looking out the window not moving, it was pretty spooky. I sat back upright and couldn't see her. I tell my brother to get on the chair and look at them. I don't actually see him get in the chair but when I asked him about it he said "Yeah! That's well weird!" I then go to my nan's house, she lives on the same street as me, I knock on the door and my mum answers, she lives there in this dream. I walk into the room and she is having a serious conversation so I leave.

I am then at a shopping center, I have lots and lots of money on me. Apparently its hug an arm less person outside this center but everytime you hug one you have to give them 3 euros. I felt really sorry for them in the dream. I seen someone from my school, he had a cast on his arm and his other arm was fine. He classed as an armless person so I gave him 3 euros. The next person was actually armless, she was blonde and I went and gave her 3 euros. She started crying, I didn't feel sad but tears were flying out my eyes, I wasn't crying but my eyes were pouring tears. She gives me a hug and has arms when she hugs me but when she let go she had no arms again. I'm with my friends and my eyes are pouring out water more than tears and I trying to wipe them away. We decide to go through a shop, halfway in we leave through the fire exit. My friend says they know where some shops are which no one knows about. We walk out and see and ice cream shop. It was all mint ice cream. My favorite! "YAY! ICE CREAM" I shout. Then wake up.

This is my first lucid dream without any supplements, so this is a HUGE milestone.


Something had happened which had killed me, and I suddenly realized I was dreaming. I went inside a house which exploded as soon as I went inside. I went to another house which windows broke as I got close. I saw someone in there, and I had to tell them that I was dead, and they had to find out who killed me.

The guy was in a panic and about to leave, but then I told him to stop. He started to run down the street but I easily kept up. I forgot what I had been saying to him, but he calmed down. I proceeded to explain how I died and how he as to find out who. (I still knew I was dreaming, I just wanted to have some fun.)

After I told him, I decided to leave and stabilize the dream a little bit. I remembered the advanced task, and decided to try it. I was pretty doubtful but I did it the way CL did and held me hand out, saying something along the lines of "Hello Mr. President." I felt a hand grab mine and I looked back. The first thing I did was laugh cause I was lodging onto an arm coming out of a 15 foot pitch black Obama's calf. I had trouble keeping up with him cause he had a big stride, so I shrunk him (the first time I've ever done anything like that). He soon was the size he should be, and the color. I went in front of him and he for some reason had garbled Obama speech. I pulled my fist back and slammed it into his face. I tried to punch him a lot more but the dream started to glitch up and wouldn't let me. He reacted by making a small little "Hmph" noise and looking like he was about to cry.

Record skip.

I was on my families patio and I had a big toy recurve bow, i decided to try and spawn a quiver in my hand but the dream suddenly became unstable and I just saw a quiver floating in my FOV. I prepped myself for a DEILD but I had a false awakening into another dream.

It's been a while since I had a WILD and this one had by far the most violent transition I've experienced yet. Kinda cool!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #124: The Rodeo

I've been awake a while post-WBTB and I feel anxious "Am I ever gonna sleep?" thoughts creeping in. I roll to my side, relax my mind, and try to focus on hypnagogia while counting backward in a style like "100... I'm dreaming... 99... I'm dreaming..." Around the low 90s, I feel something like a thump in my head and then a loud crackle of electricity, followed by the sensation of shaking. My WILD transitions are usually very low-profile, so this surprises me. The whole thing is jolting but more exciting than unpleasant. I try to stay relaxed, prepared for the possibility of more weirdness.

Now everything is dark and I hear voices whispering in my ear. It's a bit creepy, but I know that this is normal and that I'm probably beginning to dream. I imagine myself oozing out of bed OBE-style. My body stretches like a piece of rubber, my feet meet the floor, and I'm standing in my bedroom. I'm wearing my orange-tinted safety glasses instead of my sleep mask, so it's really, really obvious that this is a dream.

Everything is dark, jumpy, and unstable. My body is moving too quickly and I keep crashing into things. I look at myself in the mirror and I can make out the shape of a man but visual quality is so low that I can't see much beyond that. I drift into the master bathroom and run straight into the counter. Then I float back to the master bedroom, going too far and wind up standing right over Wife. I reach down and touch her hip and shoulder and try to get myself anchored, but when she stirs I feel bad thinking about her DC waking up to see a creepy ghost looming over her.

The whole scene feels only half-painted. Okay, let's just get out of here. I run for the window. The shutters are closed, but I dive through, phasing into the void and then immediately rubbing my hands together to keep things stable. I kneel down and touch the floor, which feels like it's covered with dirty industrial carpet. I try to shift this toward being the sand of the Colosseum's floor, and as I keep touching it, it starts to feel more and more like a really dirty carpet. Hoping this is close enough, I start to imagine the arena all around me.

Now I can see my hands brushing over patterned, dimly illuminated carpet. The lighting is poor, and without thinking I look up to see that I'm inside a dark, empty stadium. I can't tell where the light's coming from but just at the edge of the light, I can vaguely make out empty stands. I remember podcasting about low light and I try to use my own advice of imagining how bright it is, but can't find any light source. I look hopelessly up at the ceiling, feeling embarrassed that I can't even make my own suggestion work.

Okay, next idea, also from the podcast: quit worrying about it. I jump up and start flying around the stadium, looking for people in the stands. There -- a group of 3 or 4 about halfway up. I keep circling, spotting more and more people. And as I look for them, the light in the scene grows to accomodate my expectations. After doing this for a while, there's a healthy crowd gathered in the stands and the scene is well-lit. Happy with this change, I land to find workers scurrying back and forth on the stadium floor preparing it for some kind of event. Everyone's in Western wear, and when I check, the crowd is too! It looks like they're putting on a rodeo in this stadium.

An announcer, a man in his late 40s with a bushy mustache and a cowboy hat, is under the spotlight and speaking into a microphone to warm up the crowd. I forget what he says, but they think he's great, and they cheer wildly at his words. I approach him and he holds the microphone up to me. "Uh," I say. "I want to turn this into the Colosseum."

He replies into the microphone, warmly but firmly: "No can do, boss." The crowd applauds. I think about forcing the change anyway, but I feel overwhelmed by the scope of the task. I just can't seem to build up the confidence that I need. I wander out through an exit hall, leaving the rodeo behind me.

I'm outside now and it's night. I walk through a narrow street, emerging near a restaurant patio. I'm close to the ocean. I see the water and I can hear the sound of the surf. Nearby a woman talking on her cellphone glances up at me, gives me a nod of acknowledgement, and walks away, still talking. I walk along the oceanside road for a little while, coming to a shopping center. A dark-haired woman in her late 20s approaches me. "Hi!" she says. I notice that she has a somewhat upturned nose. I also notice that I'm finding her very cute.

"I'm looking for the Colosseum," I tell her. "Can you show me where it is?"

"Oh, I'm really sorry! I have no idea where that is."

I feel discouraged and stuck. I tell her about my Colosseum goal and she nods along with my explanation. I no longer know what my plans are for this dream. Somehow I wind up telling her that I want to kiss her, she says go ahead, and so I do. As I'm kissing her (eyes open, dream stabilization style), I see three younger girls ranging from maybe 8-14 or so watching us with expressions ranging from horror to mild amusement. I notice that these three have her same upturned nose. Are they her little sisters? Her kids? Feeling embarrassed and a little confused, I pull away. "Bye!" she says brightly, and the four of them wander off together.

I continue through the shopping center, coming to a slightly darker hallway with shops on each side and a planter with a large palm tree in the middle of it. I hear Indian music coming from somewhere down the hallway, and as I walk toward the music, the dream ends.

Date: July 24, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB with WILD
Total Sleep Time: 8-9 hours

Dream #1

Well, I went to bed extremely sleepy, so sleepy, I broke a record by going to bed before midnight! I kept waking up in the middle of night, I guess because I went to bed so early, I kept thinking it was time to get up. I would use the bathroom and every time I would get back to bed, I would say my mantra and try my best to stay awake. Sometimes, I would go to sleep, but I would be back up in a couple of hours doing the same thing all over again. (that's just how my body works, I naturally wake up in the middle of night). Well, by the third time, in the middle of a dream, I felt my vibrations and I became lucid. I was in what looked like a hotel and I was talking to someone at the front desk. I couldn't get over how the person didn't really look like a human to me (and I can't explain what he looked like either). Somehow, my super lucid senses kicked in and I heard a voice in my head say, "Stop staring and hug the damn thing...NOW!" I flew over that counter and wrapped my arms around that 'thing' and held on for dear life! After what seemed a few minutes, I let go (I guess I thought if I didn't hold on long enough the thing would vanish or evaporate). I was so scared, but I had to wait for the reaction, so I just stood there ready to be vaporized or punched in the face by that thing, but instead, it just smiled at me. I lost lucidity soon after that, but when I woke up, I wrote down the little bit I retained and laid back down trying to see if I could continue, but I think the excitement messed that up for me. I was so excited! I don't know where that voice came from that told me to hug that thing, but THANK YOU!

Dream #2

I laid back down and repeated my mantra and went back to sleep and had a non-lucid, but it was very vivid. I was in an elevator and it kept going up and down without stopping. The other DC in the elevator told me that it must be broken and soon I began to freak out. I suffer from extreme motion sickness in WL, so I guess this followed me into my dream world, so I felt my stomach start to bubble and boil..I was getting ready to hurl. The DC started moving around trying to push the buttons on the elevator and calling for help and finally, the elevator stopped. When the doors of the elevator opened, I fell out the doors like a puddle of liquid and the other DCs just stepped over me to go on their merry way. I felt like I was still in a hotel because I went up to my room and I found several people sleeping as I tried to tell them what had just happened to me. They didn't want to hear it because they were asleep and one of them told me to shut up and go to sleep! So...that is exactly what I tried to do...until I saw a live turtle stuck to my shirt !

So this dream was really nice..
ofcourse i had antoher dreams but somehow i remember my childhood and wanted to live it again.. so i teleprted to my old childhood house in nicosia (cyprus)
i got lucid abit..
i went out and first place i walked it was the shop market where was a old man , it was fun.. but shop was bigger and another guy isntead of old man..
i bought some stuff snacs etc to go to the best net cafe and to a priest that i wasvisiting when i was young
before i go i asked the guy in shop
what happen to "giannakis?" that old man
he told me he got short time left
i asked he can hear etc? yes ..
ok tell him hi from me spartakos and my family.
he ok..
then after sometime i walked out and was ready to go to the priest..
but i couldnt walk i was excited i tihnk and it was hard to control
so i woke up slwly.

meh

Fragment the first:
Don't remember much. Only that it was pleasant and that I got plenty of deep sleep.

Fragment the second:
Not so great. Involved an intercourse related injury. Became lucid near the end and tried to travel back in time to prevent said injury, woke up instead.

Fragment the third:
Involved lots of scorpions. I'm generally good at staying asleep through nightmare scenarios, but when a scorpion gets in your hair, it tends to activate the lower portions of your brain which cause a complete freak out. Shrugged off the first three without a problem. The fourth was too much and jolted me awake.