lucid

California highways are really beautiful, but not when you feel like you're being followed while trying to get back to your home.

I pulled off the main highway to resolve some issue, perhaps read my map...I'm not certain, but the men in the white pickup that pulled up behind me seemed very threatening. He glared at me over the steering wheel as if he was daring me to make a strange move.

The passenger was the more malevelent-looking of the two. A long bald head appeared around the corner of the windshield and smiled a toothy grin, yellowed teeth filling his face like a diseased jack-o-lantern.

"All we want is the pills! Give us the drugs and we'll let you live!"

I was reluctant to give up the pills as I knew they were expensive and important. I reached into my pocket and pulled out several foil blister-packs, each containing four pills of the medicine the evel man wanted. I suspected they were for pain but I never saw their name.

"All of them!" He seemed very impatient as he said this.

I walked over to him and handed the pills over, all but two.

"Let me keep just these two! They're important, at least let me keep these!" I implored him.

He nodded in an allowing way and I pocketed the pills, relief flooding over me, and I turned back towards my car for the walk back.

I found the gravelly road I was on appeared to be covered with broken glass, large pieces littering the entire area. I can't imagine how I didn't notice that before. One step told me I could never walk back safely so I decided to float/swim back to the car pushing myself with my hands.

The shard of glass sticking out of my finger and the painful sensation brought me to lucidity and I examined the orangish-brown glass in my finger before pulling it out. I stared at the mark and it sealed immediately.

Knowing I couldn't propel myself with my hands or feet because of the glass I instead chose to float my way back, a hovering figure sitting cross-legged in the car. The feeling was pretty cool knowing I could float so easily, and I made it back to the car safely.

Something happened after that but I don't recall it well enough to describe.

This was an interesting little LD where I pulled off Basic Task of the Month. The woman in the restaurant was a very intriguing dream character. Much sharper than the typical DC. Who was she?

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #72: The Wish

I'm in an elevator talking to some guy from Brazil. I suddenly realize that I'm going somewhere with Wife but she's not in the elevator. The doors are open, so I step outside the elevator, thinking that she must have fallen behind. Instead of Wife, I see my friend SA heading toward the elevator and become lucid when I remember that SA moved to Seattle a few years ago. I also remember the fact that I intended to have a lucid dream.

"Hey!" I say to SA as she hurries by and steps into the elevator. "Oh hey!" she responds, giving me a quick wave just before the elevator doors close.

I'm in a long marble hallway. I rub my hands together and say, "I am having a really stable lucid dream." I feel confident and I remember the Tasks of the Month that I wanted to try. At the end of the hallway is a restaurant and when I enter it, I'm greeted by a tall Indonesian-looking man who's about 20. "Can I help you, sir?" He seems friendly enough, but somehow he strikes me as dull-witted.

I'm about to perform the "wish" Task of the Month ("Tell a dream character that he/she may have 1 wish granted.") But I have this sense that the DC I'm speaking to is just an "extra" in the dream and that I'll get a more meaningful answer from someone else. I tell him to "Take me to the most amazing woman in the restaurant." (This sounds shallow, and in large part it was -- I thought it'd be more fun to grant an attractive woman a wish than some dude. But the important subtext of my request was that I wanted to speak with an interesting, highly intelligent DC.)

"Right this way," he says, without missing a beat. I follow him to a table with a window overlooking the city. The woman seated at the table is a short, very attractive Asian woman who looks like she's about 25. She's seated at the table with four men in suits, also Asian, who looks more like bodyguards than boyfriends. Even though she's easily the smallest person at the table, her presence is by far the most commanding. As I approach, the men inch subtly but protectively toward her.

The woman casually waves her left hand and says, "It's fine." The men settle back into their seats, the aggressive tension subsiding. She looks at me, cocks her head to the left and simply says, "Hello."

Through the window behind them, I see a downtown skyline backlit by the sunset. I somehow feel like this is her city. I'm not intimidated by her, but I am impressed by her. I may be the king in this world, but she's somebody important too. A crime boss? The city's mayor?

"I can grant you one wish," I say. "You tell me what you want and I'll do it."

Without hesitating, she says, "Can you grant me a kiss from any DC that I want?" (Yes, she said "DC"!)

"Definitely. I can do that."

"Okay," she says. "I want a kiss from Brad Pitt." She says it like a challenge.

The straightforwardness of the request amuses me. I nod, extending my hand to the right to try the "handshake" summoning trick that I used to summon Xanous a few dreams back. I imagine that Brad Pitt is standing just a bit off to the side and is now reaching forward to shake my hand. There's just a slight pause and then something slithers into my hand that feels like a cold, wriggling fish. It feels disgusting and I hope that Brad Pitt just has a really weak handshake.

I turn to look at what I've got and see that I've somehow latched onto the elbow of a woman that was walking by. I let go of her elbow and she walks away, seemingly oblivious to what just happened. I wonder why her elbow was so gross.

When I look back at the table, I see a couple of black spots forming in my vision. I laugh off my failure, saying, "Don't worry, I've still got this!"

The black spots are growing now, partially obscuring my view of the attractive young Brad Pitt fan / mayoress.. "Careful," she says. I think that I ought to be prepping for DEILD but I also feel like I'm close to success and want to try to sneak this one in. As the black spots grow, I have this overwhelming sensation that the reason the room is darkening is that my eyes are closed. The urge to open my eyes gets the best of me and my real eyes open.

It's getting worse...

03.03.2013

Disturbing Sleep Paralyis (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I become lucid as I'm driving down the road, though it's a pretty low level. I feel as though it is important to drive to my mom's house, as that's where I was headed before becomming lucid.

I get distracted, and slide into sleep paralysis. At first, it is normal SP. I lie there, not really caring about anything. It feels nice and somewhat relaxing. But as I slide deeper into it, the vibrations become disturbingly intense, to the point that I feel like I am convulsing on the bed. Not for the first time, I question whether or not I'm having a seizure.

I focus on my breathing, trying to make it as fast and abnormal as possible to jar myself awake. I seem to have good control over this, but it is not helping matters any. My eyes are open; I am lying on my back with my head tilted just enough to the right to see my clock. 7:59. I remember Alex, my roommate, saying that she is going to get up at 8:00 to do some homework (We are both taking naps at this time). I hope she will get up soon so it will wake me up.

Desperately, I try to call out to her. It seems as if I'm actually able to do this (though I later find out it is all a hallucination.) "Alex!" I call out in a dry, raspy voice. "Alex!" I see her sit up in bed. She looks at me in confusion.

"Wake me up," I plead. It is a struggle to get the words out.

"What?" she asks. I think that it probably sounds weird of me to ask her to wake me up.

"I can't move," I moan.

She gets out of bed and makes her way towards me, but she stops in the middle of the room. I am worrying that I'll scare her by jolting awake when she touches me. I then worry that I might not wake up at all, and I'll be stuck like this forever. I notice she's not coming any closer, and I wish she'd hurry up.

After a moment, I jolt awake for real. I think that I'm still looking at Alex, but I soon realize that I've been seeing her poster across the room the whole time. She is still in bed asleep.

Not sure what's with all these perverse dreams I've been having. I never used to have any at all. But oh well, can't complain.

02.23.2013

Zombie Cataclypse (Lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I accidentally set off Wal-Mart's alarm system as I'm examining some RuneScape merchandice. All of my friends run away, leaving me as security shows up. "No big deal," I think. "Not like I stole anything." They search me and obviously don't find any stolen merchandice. However, they say they're going to have to hold me overnight. "You can't do that!" I exclaim. They tell me that they can.

When they're distracted, I take off running and leave the store. They follow after me and actually start shooting at me! Alarmed, I make my way to the back of the property where their delivery trucks are. As I'm running, I notice that my mom is tied up in the back of one of the trucks. She tells me that she got busted for shoplifting.

I free her and we run away.

*time lapse*

Some strange things have happened that I don't remember. I am now trapped in a creepy mansion with two people I've been travelling with. I'm sitting at a table with one of them, a girl who is crying to me that the guy we're with has cheated on her. She says she still wants to be with him, but she can't just let him get away with cheating. "Well, why don't you cheat on him? Then it'll be even," I tell her.

"I can't just sleep with some random person to get back at him," she cries.

"It doesn't have to be a random person," I say with a smirk. "I mean, I'm always available." She looks as though she's considering it, so I slide closer and kiss her. We then stand up and I lead her into a back room. Sadly, some people in the mansion burst in and interrupt us, so we're once again on the run.

I spontaneously become lucid and decide that I am bored with the dream. I don't want to be in this mansion anymore. So I phase through the nearest window and somehow end up in my grandma's neighborhood.

After rubbing my hands together to stabilize the dream, I begin to walk happily down the street, singing to myself and just goofing off, enjoying being lucid under normal circumstances after so long. As I continue down the road, I notice that the doors to each house are open, and I can see the families inside. One little girl notices me singing and dancing. She laughs and walks out of her house towards me.

The whole neighborhood soon follows suit. Families flock out of their houses and follow me down the road. They are all smiling, laughing, and sharing in my happiness. I am in excellent spirits.... until I turn around and find out that all of the people have suddenly become zombies!

I stop for a moment, stunned at the abrupt change in mood. Of course, this would happen. When do I ever have non-threatening DC's in my lucids?

Since I had not been suspicious of the initial crowd of people, they are already too close for me to simply run away. Three of them are already trying to grab a hold of me, and I've fallen to the ground! I kick them as hard as I can in the head; they fall, but are still coming after me. I manage to get to my feet and start to run.

The zombies are still really close to me. One zombie girl reaches out to me... I suddenly realize that she is a normal human, pretending to be a zombie so that they won't get her. She grabs my arm and pulls me away from the hoarde.

We run together into the woods, quickly putting distance between us and the undead. "I have a gun if things get really bad," she tells me.

"What's your name?" I ask her.

"I'm Torrie," she says. "Or Annie."

"Wait, is it Torrie or Annie?" I ask, confused.

"Yes."

I pause. "Um, okay. I'm Lola."

We end up on a very narrow path in the woods that has a fence on either side. We stop running. Everything has gone completely silent. "I don't like the looks of this," I whisper. "Maybe you should get out your gun."

Suddenly, a creepy voice rings through the air. "You have enroached too far into the hunting ground."

Torrie or Annie looks at me, clearly scared. Suddenly all manner of undead animals are quickly coming down the path toward us. "We have to go over the fence!" she cries out.

"Alright, you first." I help her over the fence. In the few seconds it takes to get her over, the animals are already at my feet. "Help me! Shoot them or something!" But Torrie or Annie is in shock or something and isn't moving. I stomp the animals' heads into the ground and quickly climb over. "Why didn't you help me?" I demand.

Then I see the state she is in. She's curled into a little ball, crying uncontrollably. Alarmed, I pull her into a hug. "Hey, don't cry. It's gonna be okay. Don't worry, I'll get us out of here." Since she is completely unresponsive, I pick her up and carry her. We end up in a small abandoned building, where I sit down and try to calm her.

I have a false awakening and am no longer lucid. Now I am outside of my old house with my dad and brother. The ground is frozen, and I am barefoot.

We walk to the back road; it is still apparent that we are under threat of zombies. On the road, there are weird tree and stick sculptures in the shape of people scattered about. Suddenly, we hear a weird sound. I realize it's coming from a huge metal tower in the middle of the briar patch to the right. In a booming voice from the tower, someone begins reciting the Lord's Prayer.

All of the sculptures come to life and begin reciting the prayer as well. The stick sculptures are carrying some kind of pamphlet and start jabbing me with them. I tell my dad and brother to run.

I manage to evade the creepy sculptures, but we have become separated. It is hard to walk properly, because I keep sliding on patches of ice. Eventually, I come to a place that looks like where I'd been before my false awakening. "Torrie!" I shout, hoping to find her again. "Annie?"

I walk into a nearby building and find her standing there. "L-Lola. It's you," she cries in relief. I run up to her and hug her close to me.

"Thank god I found you," I whisper, holding her against me. "I was worried that something might have happened." All I want to do is to sit there and hold her, but I hear some suspicious noises outside.

When I look out, two men are holding my dad and brother at gun point. One of them, who has a huge rifle. Walks up to us. "Well, well, well," he says creepily. "I think I'm gonna take you two young ladies as my wives." I give him an evil look, but he puts the gun to my back and marches us forward.

"I'll never let you take us," I growl at him.

"Oh really? And what are you going to do about it?" He turns and shoots my dad in the head. He falls to the ground, dead.

Enraged, I manage to get Torrie's gun from her bag and I shoot both men. One goes down instantly, but the man with the rifle laughs at me, even though he has clearly been shot in the head. "Well, you clearly have good gun skills, but can you---" I shoot him again. He is still alive, and laughing. I give the gun to Torrie, thinking she might have better luck. He just won't die!

I wake up shortly afterwards.

02.06.2013

More Sleep Paralysis- Succubus Attack (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am lying in bed awake, with my eyes closed. Alex has just left the room, and I'm contemplating getting up early since I only have about 15 minutes left before my alarm goes off anyway.

I suddenly get pulled into SP, however, and no longer have a choice in the matter. I momentarily think about fighting it, but I am tired and know that it won't be long before my alarm will snap me out of it.

Alex is talking to me, and I have to keep reminding myself that she is not really in the room. I really want to turn this into a dream so I won't just be stuck in SP for 15 minutes suffering through these annoying vibrations. They are more powerful than ever, to the point that an intense pain is pulsating through my ribs. This is definitely not normal...

The pain is getting to be pretty overwhelming, but I am still not in the mood to struggle to get out of SP. If I could just pull myself into a dream, things would be better. I try to focus on dreaming, but am distracted when a succubus shows up and a long scene ensues that I am not going to describe here. ._.

Transition was weird. Vision was jacked up. Like part of what I was my room and the other part was a dream. I started stabilizing by rubbing my hands. When things became normal, I headed outside. There was this party going on right out there and I had no idea who it was, but everyone was getting wasted. I headed over there and got a few brews and they said that the beer ran out I told them "don't worry a keg is on the way". Two people came up carrying it and obviously it was awesome. I downed an entire pitcher and actually got a little dream drunk. The scene was tilting back and forth, and then the DCs were like "we're gonna hit another spot". We left and like things got weird. It was like playing a JRPG. We got random encounters and everything. I told them that were not gonna make it, and said maybe we'll go next time because I feel myself waking up.

Sunday 3/3/13 Bed on 3/2/13 sat 12:20am - 9am

Nap - 11:50 - woke up at 3:20pm

I started feeling body relaxing almost immediatelly and I wondered if it's because it knows I want to WILD. Waves of vibrations start washing over me, I count at least 4 or 5. At the second one, I wonder if I should just get up already, but I know it's too soon.

I get my first head-buzz when I think I have had enough. My leg is crooked begause cat is sleeping at my feet. So I turn to my left side and try again.

I got a WILD and at least 7 DEILDs, but I don't remember them all. Whole thing lasted for at least 30 min. Was not rushed through them as last time. I remember thinking in one LD wow, this is so long, I know I'm not gonna wake up. I hade this strange calmness and confidence.

Each transition was extremely mild. All I did each time was I realized that I'm still sleeping so I rocked my head (dream head) back and forth to start some dizzy motion thing and that usually get's me lucid.

Only at one transition I saw a large insect on my wall and as I was rocking back and forth, more and more spider webs appeared on the wall. I thought about just getting up then, since I knew I'm dreaming. But I got some nice falling down sensation and went with that.

Dont' recall all DEILDs.

1. WILD - I'm flying towards some futuristic city with skyscrapers on background of stormy clouds and sunny skies. On the way there I stop to investigate a beautifull sport arena. I say "take me there" while looking at the wall and I get zoomed in fast. I figure I better remember this new mode of transportation.

Can't tell if its football or baseball, so I'm making my way to the top to see the field. I'm desperate to see the sign on top to know what city I'm in. I thing it says Brewers.

2. DEILD. I'm walking in the back yard of RD10. I feel awareness slipping so I keep yelling something, but it keeps slipping. I realize, it slips anyway, and as i do, I get snapped back to it. This happens a few times.

In the very back, by the fence, there is a small patch of tropical sea of size of maybe 2 bathtubs. Incredible beautiful blue see-through water and white sand. I pick it up and let it run through my fingers.

3. DEILD Same backyard as in #2, only the whole backyard is tropical sea. Lots of white sand, sun, warm, shallow, blue water.

4. DEILD I'm standing on a shore line. Small waves are splashing over concrete shore. I look almost straight up and tovering over me are huge waves. I smile and say "take me there". After my first mouthfull of water I realize I should have said "take me over the wave". I'm bobbing on top of the tsunami waves, while collecting some kids taken out to sea by these huge waves. I pick a girl and a boy and maybe their mom.

I'm walking through the hotel and I get nasty looks from some people. I learn that I am in bikiny and I'm a young girl that she is obviously hated in this hotel. I think to myself damn, why did I have to transform into this girl for?

I make my way through corridors, looking out the small windows, trying to see which way I should get out. I come to a balcony. Beneath me is a tropical sea with beach. Incredible georgeous blue water, not see through, more milky, like some places in Hawaii. Only blue.

I jup in next to something I think is a school of fish. But it's a lobster and sea turtle. I say "turtle details" a few times. Turtle turns to me and asks "what do you mean turtle details?". I say I would like to see more details on him. It looks like whoever built him, didn't finish him, because skin and shell was missing in some places. But the green color was spot on. I feel the warmth of the ocean and atmosphere of a resort.

I lift myself out of the water to look beyond the sea wall. There is the angry ocean with tsunami waves. Ok, I decide to stay in my small peacefull sea and go explore the sandbars of blindingly white sand.

5. DEILD I'm with somone and someone says "invite her to?"

6. DEILD Here I"m at the house I was invited to in #5. A girl I used to know as a child now has children of her own. The little girl running around is not my friend, but her granddaughter. A doctor comes to give here a shot and while I watch, I start rocking to induce LD. I wonder if he notices if I fall asleep while standing up.

When he is done, I ask him if he wants to "do it". Sure thing, but I guess we both fall asleep. We wake up and he says we slept for half an hour.

*I feel like I could be doing this forever. But my big toe hurts like hell. My whole foot is crooked because of a cat sleeping at my feet. So i wake up and cat is not there.

*I watched "The Contact" again and was really obsessing about that alien beach with tropical blue seas. I guess that reflected in this batch of LDs. Thank you, come again.

Was in a previous dream and decided to deild into another. It went slowly as a felt my room around me materialize. I opened my eyes and say my desk was against my bed. I instantly knew it was a dream. It was a bright sunny day and I was at my moms house. The sun was almost blinding. I made my way outside and was amazed at how beautifully bright everything was. It was so vivid that everything had a shroom touch to it. There were little rainbows in the whisps of air around everything. It was as if everything was made of prisms. The dream was very unstable because some of the times I would get so blinded by the sun it would just start to fade away. I rubbed my hands on the grass trying to stabalize. it was happening very slowly. I started to roll in the grass laughing. I sat back up and looked around. This was by far one of the most beautiful lucids I have ever experienced. There were rainbows EVERYWHERE. I told myself this was a dream, but was careful not to think about it or else I could wake. It was super stable now. I noticed trees were shedding leaves and cotton puffs. They were thousands of them flying in the air all around me. I started to run super speed and hopped in the air. I was flying just the right amount. I wanted to take my usual route around mothers neighborhood and just apprechiate the beauty of this landscape. Everything was breathing around me and colors that were too beautiful and bright to see in waking life was coming to life around me. After flying for a bit I sat down and had to restabalize. I started to run the grass. This grass had catapillars running around. At a closer look it looked like they were dancing around the grass. It had a spiky feel to it so I got up and ran super speed again and took off flying on my second try. The sun was so blindingly bright that my whole vision became sun and I woke in a false awakening. I was back in bed and grabbed my dream journal to write it down. I woke kara up to tell her the dream and woke for real.

#51

I was on the hood of a car. Another car drove up about to hit me. It had a For Sale sign in the window. It cost $2600.00. I also saw a price of $2400 and $700. I was first relieved the price had come down, then I was afraid the price was $2600. Why else would that sign still be displayed?

This car was about to hit me, but it ran up the side of my car. I was on the hood of my car and rolling down the street only because of this car that was dragging me along. Now I'm between the car for sale and a city bus.

My car spins around and then I end up on the ground. I'm sliding down the street on my butt. I wish I'd gotten my camera so I could take a picture of the street moving under me so I could prove that this guy had made me slide down the street. I gave up on the camera idea, but then started thinking this was just strange.

I realized I was dreaming. I decided to go look for woman. I jumped up and started to fly, but I was pretty heavy. Darn! I decided to fly straight up and I got more speed up. Then I found a building and decided to fly to a window. I tried phasing through it but had some trouble. That's weird. I know the window can't stop me, so I phase through the wall and make my way through.

I'm in some kind of college. I start running on a curved wall for some reason. I go through some nonsense with a guy and some chick--unimportant. I look for someone pretty. I end up in a mall at Christmas. I leave and find my way back to the college. The women aren't college age. They are about 30 I guess. I think I ended up in a college because I'm trying to go back to school.

So I find a girl. She's older than a typical college girl. She goes into a shower. I go to the shower and see another girl who looks nice, but I want the first one. I take off my pants and underwear carefully so they don't get hung up on my feet. I open the shower curtain to the first one. She says something to deter me, and I tell her not to worry about that. I pick her up and we both drop straight down on her back. I land on top of her and start to make it with her.

I eventually started waking up. I tried to relax and stay asleep but I woke up.

I drank a few glasses of wine and went to a friends house the night before. These are atypical stimuli that I attribute to helping become lucid. I used no technique. I do believe that lucidity can be induced by a combination of atypical stimulus and meditation on whatever you want to dream about.

I don't have enough success with women to pursue them so much, so I plan to try to accomplish other dream goals from now on.

Date: 3/3/2013
Total sleep: 9 hours
Daytime Techniques: ADA (my version), meditation (visual, 20 minutes)
Lucid Techniques: MILD
Fell Asleep: 11:30
Dream Title: Crazy fun
Dream:
It is a pretty normal dream, but then I decide to go to sleep and try to WILD. I lay down and instantly teleport to the Dream Army Base (at the time I thought that I had WILDed, but then I realized that I had not. This is actually just a variation of how I teleport and how I WILD, which are similar enough for this to happen in my dreams)I go outside to the forest and travel through to a town. The sky is red, and I am pretty sure that it is night, and the sky is that way so I can see and so that I know that it is dangerous around there. I travel and a cat-girl meets me. Extremely cute. I think for a second that she is an extra, but she doesn't have that vibe. She tells me that she is going to show me a safe place and takes me upstairs. I ask her how the town got ruined and she says that a different girl like her has ruined it. I know that the girl must be an extra.


Awake: Not really sure
Vividness: 12
Awareness: lucid
Length: 20 minutes
Emotions: Holy awesome crap!


Fell Asleep: Not really sure
Dream Title: Extremely dangerous
Dream:
I wake up and lay still and DEILD. I am not sure if I actually woke up or if it was just going back to the other layer of my dream (I know that dreams don't actually work in layers, but if you fall asleep in a FA, and then wake up later you have a higher chance of another FA IMO). I appear away from the cat-gal. I am in the streets. There are not many people. I go into a grocery store and hide there. There is a lot of people in a room up the stairs in the back and they are hiding. The catgirl comes in. This is a different one than before. I create a barrier to save all the people I am with out of a red ribbon about an inch off the ground (2.54 centimeters). I step in it, but only have the barrier part, not the teleportation part activate. I ask her what she wants and she says that chaos is the only fun she can have. I step out of the barrier and teleport the people back to the base (sorry, they were all clean. I take them away later). I attack the girl and she dodges. She runs away from me and I chase after her. I force shove her as she is running and she almost gets knocked over. I can't seem to throw a fireball, so I think of another thing that will work. "Incendio!" I cry. It shoots fire and she dodges and get burned a little. She disappears behind some houses. Drat. Almost had her. Awake.
Awake: Dunno
Vividness: 12
Awareness: lucid
Length: 15 minutes
Emotions: excitement

Fell Asleep: impossible to tell
Dream Title: Make sure everyone is ok
Dream:
I do the same as last and I still don't know if I woke up. I will count it though. Back at the Dream army base. I notice all the people are gone I must have teleported them away. I thought. I jumped into the red ribbon and appeared at the grocery store. The good Cat-girl was there.
"You shouldn't leave the ribbon because it is too dangerous." She says. Her smile never falling from her face.
"I am not afraid of anyone out there." I say. I know that I have to treat dreams as real as possible to keep them realistic, so I don't say why.
"It is much more powerful," she says "they are not happy with you."
"Are the people alright?" I ask.
"I led them home." She replies.
I watch the city through a window. It has somehow gotten darker and more evil looking. I want to save the city from this darkness, but I also want to take the advice of the local. She doesn't know what I am capable of, but I know that I should limit myself before I demolish the other catgirl.

Awake: Not sure
Vividness: 13
Awareness: lucid
Length: 15 minutes
Emotions: A little creepy (these aren't really emotions, but it is the general feeling of the dream.

I think about writing down my dreams, but decide that it was too fun to forget. I RC and go back to sleep.

Fell Asleep: Forgot to check
Dream Title: Crazy neighborhood
Dream:
I feel the same way I did the last few times like I WILD into it, but I do not realize it is a dream. I do not know how, but my dream got me to think that I was in a video game instead. I am in a different place. It reminds me of my parents neighborhood. I run around and the idea of the previous dream lingers a little. I am fighting an army and I need to win. I do not know why though. I run into a leader and he lets me know that wolfmen (opposite of cute catgirls) are running around and we need to defeat them. I spend a long time going over lame strategies with him that make no sense. I wake up. I am in a room with some friends of mine and telling them about the "game" I was just playing. They said that they are in it too. I jump in and out of the dream multiple times and talk to my friends. Nothing big happens till the end when I get out of the dream and am talking to someone when all of the sudden I feel something behind me. I turn around and I automatically know that it is one of the strongest wolfmen (They look more like wolves, but walk upright). It has a bat and swings it at me. I dodge and it hits a door frame I was standing in. I kick at him and grab the bat. Spin around and while peeling it from his claws I swing it and hit him in the head. A little confused about how he got out of the game I wake up for real.


Awake: 8:00 AM
Vividness: 10
Awareness: 9 (I was really really close)
Length: an hour or more
Emotions: a bit scared, mostly having fun


Notes: Google search that image for a full size image of that cat-girl. It is uncanny how similar she looks to the dream girl except the dream girl wasn't animated.

First thought in the dream, "great I'm dreaming again." I don't know what is causing this but it feels like I don't get enough sleep because my brain has been so active with dreams lately. I'm having back to back odd dreams.

This one began with me getting some cuddle time from my man, but I knew it was a dream because we were outside laying in the snow and it was switching between daylight and moonlight too fast and details about the location were wrong. We were interrupted by our friend who wanted us to go check out his new site seeing lift. He was having problems with it. We get on with the tour guide, who sits behind a wheel in it and proceeds to drive us up, which didn't make sense because that is not how these things work. It was like a sight seeing ski lift that looked like an old VW van. Anyway we get to the top and Boogs (my dude) goes to check out the warehouse there. I know it sounds weird. Why would a tourist lift have a warehouse at the top? It's a dream and our friend is a little odd like that. So the warehouse is supposedly haunted. The driver won't get off the bus, so I'm stuck watching over her. Then I hear clashing metal, like pipes falling. And dumb horror movie move of course, I go check it out. Weaponless. Meanwhile, I'm thinking the problem is ghosts, but what if that's not what is up here. I find Boogs and we're suddenly surrounded by these shadows. The closest thing I can compare them to are the shadow people that paranormal experts talk about. Or more closely, they look like the ghosts in Season 2 of Dr. Who the episode "Army of Ghosts".
We went back to our friend and told him, yeah it's haunted and then I woke up. So boring, yet true.
Dr. Who is still plaguing my dreams. But now thanks to watching an old Bond movie last night and an exhausting walk, I have other strange things fighting it out in my head.

This dream as a little earlier than the last one I posted. I took Galantamine but used MILD. Really didn't work so well but its still interesting. The lucid was so brief that I am not adding it to my count.

They Live MILD 4:10AM

I have a FA and am in bed with my wife. I hear the baby crying and she wants me to go check on him. I beg and plead with her to let me try to have a lucid dream. I tell her, "I took galantamine and I only do it once a week. Any other night and I would do it but please just let me try to dream." She reluctantly agrees.

I have another FA. I get out of bed but the house is different but familiar. I walk in the kitchen and see my wife. She looks a little like Deborah from "Everybody Loves Raymond". I don't find this odd I just know her as my wife. She is at the sink peeling carrots. The sink the old white ceramic and really deep. Some how I find out that it is after 6 in the morning and getting close to 7. I notice the sun is up and I feel really pissed that I just slept that long with out even recalling one dream. I think to thank her for letting me sleep but she looks pissed and is not even looking at me. I get a drink of water and decide to just go back to bed.

On the way I pass my dead grandmother. I look at her from behind as she walks into the kitchen. Somehow I realize that my grandfather is sitting in the living room watching TV. I really want to get back to sleep and try to have a lucid so I ignore them. As I walk down the hallway I think, "Wow. Your grandparents are back from the dead and you don't even pay them any attention. All that feeling guilty for not spending enough time with them was all for nothing."

I close the bed room door. It is an old heavy wooden door with a really strange knob and locking mechanism. All this is too much. It finally dawns on me. I say, "I am dreaming." but at that instant I wake up.

Ok this WILD was really "forced". I had started with MILD but it was failing. I just don't think it works well with Galantamine. I had several failed WILDs that began with FA's. Finally after a couple of hours of failing a waking I really had to try hard.

I tried visualizing a repetitive hand motion but it just wasn't working. I tried passively observing HI but it became weak and almost non existent. So I resorted to just focusing on my cheek bones and chest. For some reason this feels natural and works.

Gibberish WILD - TOTMs 5:43AM


This time my SubC was a little tricksy. I thought I might have felt a very brief vibration but wasn't sure. I tried forcing it and focused on the back of my neck. Nothing. I tried rolling my eyes to strengthen it. Nothing. So, I waited a bit focusing on my cheek bones. In a few seconds it felt like my head was thumping up and down on the pillow. Ah, now we are getting somewhere. I felt something like a shift. It was subtle. I tested it by moving my left shoulder back a little (I was lying on my right side). It felt sluggish and exaggerated. I open my dream eyes but I am still unsure. I do a nose plug RC and blow through. It's always a surprise when that happens.

I transition out of bed with a little difficulty but manage fine. I can see the bedroom door. It doesn't look right. Its always really dark in my room so I hurry out. I pause. We have a couple of bookcases immediately to the left full of books in waking life. This is where I placed the note for TOTM. I look for the spot but don't see it right away. The room is dark but there is somehow a nightlight behind the bookcases shining through. I notice several books are missing but that doesn't matter now. I look and find the folded sheet of computer paper. My wife had written something without me knowing what it was before hand. I wanted to add a little spin to it. I pick up the paper and examine. It looks exactly the same. I open it.

I find that I have to tilt the paper toward the light to read it. To my surprise it was just a bunch of gibberish. I really focu on it and try to make sense of it but it's just a string of letters and numbers on two lines. I thought to memorize it. I committed the first bit to memory but thought whats the point? It read something like this:

S312F65FT689SDH
FT3489FG8923VF8

That's my the password to my account! Wait no. It's not. I'm ok.

I just look at the paper incredulously. For some reason I whisper, "What the crap?.... Ah shit." I think to try and force it to make sense but really I was satisfied enough to have done the TOTM. I toss the paper aside and move on. I walk into the living room but everything is going dark now. I start rubbing my hands and thinking of a new location. I rub my hands for quite a while just walking around in the void trying to make something appear. I can't decide where to go. I lose focus and wake up.

I stay still and DEILD. I feel like I have to force it the way I did the WILD. Really it's just that I have no vibrations and I have become dependent as making it my signpost for "GO" time. I stay patient and calm. This time I feel a definite but subtle shift. It almost feels like a brief dizziness. I take a risk and do a nose plug RC. I blow through and transition out of bed.

I walk back into the living room but feel the dream ending and going dark again. This time I resort to making out with the hardwood floor and rug. I mean really making out. (You gotta do what you gotta do) The feeling of the floor on my tongue is exactly what I would expect. While I feel the rug in my left hand, I even put a leg up and slide up and down on the floor. It was not sexual per-say just really about getting as much tactile sensation as possible.

Anyway, after I feel stable I notice the room is brightly lit and vivid. I look up and see our old boxy awkward looking TV where our newer flat screen should be. I smile and think this would be something to break. I sit up and punch the screen but it's solid and hurts my hand a little. I try again with the same effect. This time I think to aim beyond the screen and really follow through. My hand just phases into it. I give up and look around for something else to break. I see an empty beer bottle on top of the TV. Perfect! Thanks SubC! I step back and throw the bottle hard into the TV screen. The bottle shatters into a million pieces and makes a really nice and clean glass-breaking sound. Satisfied I walk out the front door.

But I pause. I think, "I wonder what this dream is about. I wonder if I am in my house for a reason." Standing halfway out the door, I turn and look at the room. I was surprised to see that the room was completely furnished and surprisingly close to real life. Usually my LDs have very little furniture. The only odd thing that I see is an extra doorway where there should be window. It is completely dark in there and I think I better not go that way. Besides I have another mission in mind. (I kind have wished that I checked it out, now that I think about it)

I slowly step outside. The front porch and yard is vivid and realistic. I feel self conscious because I feel like I am in just my underwear. I touch and feel myself and see that I am right. I tell myself it doesn't matter in a dream. I want to find the TARDIS and see where it takes me. I look around as I walk down my sidewalk. Something catches my eye to the right. I see a ground level sign about 8 ft. wide and 4 ft. tall mounted on a brick foundation. The sign is light up from inside. It is white with blue lettering. I think its some church sign. I walk up to it and look closer. It reads:

FAMILY
FA MILY

I find the sign to be annoying so push my shoulder into until it tips over and crashes on its back. I hear an electronic short circuit and the light goes out. Ha! I broke two things.

I look around and see a cop car across the street at some gas station. I worry that the cop saw me and will come arrest me for vandalism. I run back to my yard and feel somewhat safe. I think to run to the back yard and hide but I figure I'm better off not looking too guilty. Then I just forget about the cop and remind myself that this is a dream.

I look up at the sky and see two moons. One is a normal full moon and the other is a reddish orange full moon. Both are a little blurred. I note this as strange but normal for my dreams.



OK focus. I want to find the TARDIS. I look around expecting to find it. I imagine the unique sound it makes when it's teleporting. I stand there looking and waiting. The dream is fading. I realize that I was idle for too long. The dream always fades when I do that. I remember the success of making out with the sidewalk I had last week so I run and jump and do a belly flop on the sidewalk in the exact same spot. I start licking the concrete and feeling the grass. But I eventually wake up.

Total sleep: 9 hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs
Techniques to get Lucid: I’m not really sure about this. I tried to WILD, and when I entered the dream I was instantly lucid, so it didn’t feel like a DILD, but it didn’t quite feel like a WILD either
Recall Techniques: DJ as soon as I woke up
Time Fell Asleep: For this dream, about 5.40am

Dream Title: Finding the Dream Army HQ
Dream: (I didn’t have much control in parts of this, so Lucid will be in green, and controlled parts will be in bold as well.)

I walk into a room which happens to be the living room of family guy (I had a goal to be in an episode of family guy and meet everyone, but I guess this doesn’t count because I didn’t stay there long and I didn’t actually mean to go there.), and some of the characters are sat on the sofa. They give me a weird look like they know I’m not supposed to be here. The whole area around me looks really weird because it’s in cartoon, but my attention is mainly draw to the TV for some reason. I don’t even know why. At this point, some men come in (I think from the TV?) and grab me. They drag me away somewhere which I have no clue where it is.

The dream turns to a kind of 3rd person mode (It is also not cartoon anymore), but it’s similar to when you see a movie when they have dropped a camera on the ground, but it’s still filming. The camera has fallen next to some blunt wooden spikes which are part of some torture facilities. Along the bottom of the screen/my vision is a countdown of time that I had been here. The actual place that we are in seems to be like a mine or a wet cave system of some sort. Anyway, occasionally, I see myself being dragged along one of the tunnels. I am interrogated for 12 days, and then tortured for 13. As I am put back in my cell, I notice the angry guard dogs that are barking outside the door.

Sometime later, the boss appears at my door and tells me he has some private business for me to take care of. The dogs are with him, and they try to bite my hand but it just feels like they are licking me instead. I decide to like the dogs. The man points to the spikes where the camera was earlier, and tells me he is going to lift them so I can go to the kitchen. I do a mini jump as I realize I have a chance to escape. The guy looks at me weirdly, but carries on to the kitchen where he tells me that my job is to feed the dogs. He hands me some food which looks more like bird food, and 2 dishes which are about 10cm wide. For some reason, the kitchen looks like my old next door neighbour’s house (The twins). I begin to think that because this is a lucid dream, I need to remember details (like the amount of time I was there for) so I can write them in my DJ. The boss stands here for a while watching me as I formulate a plan in my head. I know now that the spikes are gone, and the dogs like me, that it will be easy to escape. He eventually leaves and I run outside.

However, as soon as I get there, it all becomes cartoon again. This really starts to annoy me, because after a while of trying, I can’t get it to go back normal. Straight ahead of me in the distance is the city that I was going to use to find that guy (Who may be my dream guide.) As I can’t seem to turn everything non-cartoon, I decide to teleport and find the Dream Army HQ. I turn around expecting there to be a forest there. Just my luck, it also happens to turn off the cartoon effect when I do. Walking forward, I see the beginning of the forest, but I large concrete building stands about 15m in. It looks quite suspicious and it is not camouflaged at all. However, I realize that it does have brilliant defenses such as thick walls and guards that are invisible. Stopping just in front of the door, I look up to see a lot of scribbled writing on the wall above it. Most of it is nonsense written backwards, and the only thing I have managed to remember that was one it was the only normal word. ‘Welcome.’ The door, which is more like a garage door (Like shutter that is really thick and a brick red colour), opens to reveal a soldier stood there. Behind him I can see what looks like a locker room. He quickly tells me the password and shuts the door. I realize that this is a memory test. The general now opens the door and asks me it.

“9, octopus, adventure.” I reply, repeating exactly what the soldier had said.

The door shuts again and then re-opens. Instead of a locker room being there like I expected, it is a full blown command center. I step in and the door closes behind me. The room is dark, with screens covering pretty much every wall that show maps, heat sensors and the like. Everyone is dressed in army camouflage gear, and most of them are walking around with papers in their hand, talking about enemy movement and things like that. I tell them that they have a pretty nice set up here, and that I really like it. The general thanks me, and I ask to speak to him in a more private area. We walk over to a table. I start whispering about how I have been sent here by the highest up command that there possibly is. He just stares at me cluelessly.

I have to explain to him how his command center is good, but he doesn't actually have anyone who goes out into the field, which is what I am there for. He nods slowly, but I can tell he still needs more of an explanation. I begin to explain who has sent me, this high up commander person, and I start to think more and more that she is like a woman off Fallout New Vegas.

The dream then fades away and I wake up.

Time Awake: 6.20am
Vividness: 8 or 9/15
Awareness: 9/10
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) Not including the days of torturing and stuff which was mostly a time skip, about 10 minutes.
Emotions: I felt an extreme amount of pain when being tortured, amazed at the command centre, and kind of annoying with the General that was really dumb.
Dream Signs/Tags: Cartoon, Torture, HQ, command centre.

03/02/13

Kidnapping
I am standing near a cabin of some kind, it looks like a rather old cabin, and I see there are other people around. I recognize the people from the Dark Tower books I have been reading. I see two of the big coffin hunters there, I identify them as Eldred Jonas and Clay Reynolds.

The third one I am not immediately able to place. Susan Delgado is also there, her hands are tied in front of her, she is talking to the others. I can't hear what they are saying, but she motions to Jonas to come a bit closer. When he gets close enough she spits right in his face. He smacks her for that, knocking her to the ground. I come out of the brush and tell him he shouldn't have done that. He looks at me strangely, then says I don't want to get mixed up in this. I have one chance to just walk away, which is more than I deserve. I tell him he had better be the one walking away if he wants to live to see tomorrow. Last time we met it wasn't his time yet, but now I figure it's close enough to his time to die. He laughs at me, pointing out that I am unarmed and he and his men have guns. He points his gun at me, but that doesn't worry me. I walk directly towards him. He fires his gun at me, but my Witchblade armor blocks the bullet, so I just keep walking towards him. He has a baffled look on his face as he fires twice more, neither of those shots having any more effect than the first one. I am standing right in front of a stunned Jonas who doesn't seem to know what to say or do. I say he has one more chance to cry off and leave Susan alone. There is now a gun to the back of my head, Clay Reynolds is immediately behind me.

Jonas says I have made the last mistake I'll ever make… which is the last thing Jonas ever says before he finds himself with a hidden blade buried in him. Clay clearly hasn't seen what happened, though he does notice the shocked look of pain on Jonas' face. He asks Jonas what is wrong, but Jonas is unable to answer. While he is paying more attention to Jonas than to shooting me I spin around and stab Clay before he can shoot at me. The third guy is pretty freaked out by now and he takes off, no doubt to tell the others what just happened. I go over and cut Susan free. She seems worried about where Sheemie might be now. I look around for a bit and I see Sheemie come running out of the brush, he hugs Susan and says he is so glad she is ok, he got so scared when he saw the bad coffin hunters but he didn't know what to do. He then gives me a big hug and says he will thank his friend whose name he doesn't even know. I tell him my name is Raven. Susan says this place obviously isn't safe… they need to find another place to hide. I am trying to think if I can remember a good spot when I wake up.

Ambush
I am hidden in tall grasses, and I see I am not alone there. There are four men there with me, though three of them look like they're still boys. I recognize all of them. The three boys are from the Dark Tower series. Roland, Cuthbert, and Alain.

The fourth isn't from the Dark Tower series at all, I recognize MoSh. I look around and it seems we are following some people. I look and see a man I don't recognize come running from somewhere behind. He is out of breath and finally manages to say that Jonas and Reynolds are both dead, the crazy bitch killed them. When he mentions the crazy bitch everyone looks over at a black wagon with what looks like a corpse driving it. I realize that must be Rhea, the local witch / bitch / crazy old woman. As if realizing what crazy person everyone thought he meant, the man says no, not her, some crazy bitch with a knife for an arm. Now people just stare at him as if he was the crazy one. There is a brief period of chaos, then finally Roy Depape takes charge of things and says they need to keep going.

If Jonas and Reynolds are really dead, there's nothing to wait for. And even if they're not, they dare not be late or all of them will wish they were the ones who were dead. So the group of people moves on. I can't tell exactly how many of them there are, the group is traveling in a long drawn out line. There are only three horses there. I figure the first thing to do is jack one of the horses being used by the parade of assholes passing by. But not all of them are on horses, so maybe a horse isn't even needed. Cuthbert nails a couple of horse riders from behind with his slingshot, the two fall off of their horses without being noticed. Roland says to take out as many as possible silently before alerting the whole group. He says he thinks there are about 50… now 48… but maybe we can get that number down before the real fight even begins. Cuthbert isn't waiting to be told, he has nailed two more of them with his slingshot. 46. Take out some of them silently… time to play a little Assassin's Creed with these guys. I make my way around to the other side of the path and then I make just enough noise to get the curiosity of one of them. He comes over to investigate and gets rewarded with a hidden blade to the neck. I haven't had a chance to do anything else before I hear a gunshot. Now the fighting is really getting started. There is a lot of shooting going on. Someone on a horse is taking aim at one of the boys I was with so I grab him, pull him off his horse, and stab him before he can fire. There's a gunshot and someone falls over right behind me, I look in time to see the gun was aimed at me. Apparently someone has my back as well. I see MoSh pull someone off a horse and kick them hard in the head before climbing up on the horse. He rides off in the other direction after a couple of the enemies. I climb onto the horse right beside me. For some reason I find I have a crossbow instead of a gun… but I figure it will do the trick. I fire several quick shots and take out two more enemies, though I miss the third as he turns to fire at someone off to the right. I see Roland riding after Depape, just as he rode after Jonas in the book. Depape has the bag with the wizard's glass in it, I wonder where Rhea has gone after having it taken from her. Crawled into a hole, no doubt. Roland shoots Depape through the hand to make him drop the bag, and catches it on the way down before firing two rounds directly into Depape's face. There are a few shots fired after that, but it seems most of the enemies have lost their desire to fight and they are retreating. Roland is holding the bag with the wizard glass in it, gazing into the bag with a strange look on his face as the others try to get his attention. I think I could try to snap him out of it but before I can do anything I wake up.