lucid

06.07.2013

Eating Cake with DeadDollKitty & Shoulder Workout of Death with the Grim Reaper (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I expected to have shorter dream recall than usual, but it seems even when I'm not even trying to recall my dreams to the best of my abilities with WBTB and such, I guess being over-analytical of things in life helps a lot in dreams. Guess that's a good thing, seeing how I'm getting better with hypnosis, and because I haven't made a hypnosis script to just have better recall with my dreams, these are just mini-novels compared to what I can potentially do with hypnosis.

It's truly amazing, and I'm always finding more ways to apply hypnosis to create triggers for other sensations unconsciously. It's unfortunate that some people never marvel or even want to revel in the thought of seeing hypnosis in a completely different way beyond their spectrum of misconceptions behind it. Anyway...

I'm with a dream character that has a mix of looking like DeadDollKitty and probably the Angela Varona that had the ABC interview of how she became an Internet sex symbol. One part of me wanted to believe that this dream character was more like DDK though, so I decided to just go with that instead. Seems we became close friends somehow, seeing how she asked me if we wanted to work out in the gym.

We're both outside, and it looks like it rained recently or it felt like it was going to rain. It mostly felt like the first presumption, seeing how the concrete below us was saturated with a darker gray color that's very wet as we're walking together. The grass to the right of us looked pretty wet itself, even though I didn't bother looking for mud-holes or anything where the soil is. You know how you can get the feeling that the grass is wet or not before you actually step into it? That you can notice the difference even if the area you're at is completely new to you and you didn't have a mental map of it in advance? That's exactly how it felt, and even though the analysis of just being aware of the grass itself would be trivial and petty, it felt pretty interesting for me to recall something like that, or to even be aware of that in the dream.

The sky around us, it had a calm and relaxing atmosphere around us, and is mostly a medium tone gray color with blue thrown in to make it less monotone and dull. I can recall some white specks here and there as well, and it felt like the sun within the dream wasn't going to show up at all. All of this was processed within a few seconds, seeing how most of my attention at the moment was on the dream character replica of DeadDollKitty,

DDK, she had a completely different vibe to her, at least how I interpreted her on chat when she comes on rarely. She didn't seem as cheerful in this dream, or at least even wanting to be gregarious with me. It was a weird persona this dream character was expressing to me, she wanted me to follow her, and I kept up at a reasonable pace. It's almost as if she became stoic and combined with her body gesture of showing that she wants to walk faster to whatever location we're going so that I would just follow her and not get myself saturated on trying to analyze her persona too much.

She didn't seem to show any signs of lacking interest in me having company with her, it seemed something was heavily going on within her head. You know how you can tell a person essentially goes into a trance with themselves when speculating about something and still manages to walk just fine to their destination? It felt like something bad was going to happen within her mind, and because I couldn't really go into her mind so easily and was more disheartened by her slight depression, it just made things seem much worse than they should be.

It got to the point where I had to know what it was she was thinking within her mind, what exactly was she thinking at that time? She gave off an impression that she was calm, collected, and at ease and yet it's as if her body language was telling me that she either wanted to find solace in some way but was too distracted with anxiety to hopefully come to terms with me and talk things out. She's wearing a black leather jacket of some kind that extends down to upper waist region, and she's wearing a white blouse underneath, the type of blouse that has folded sections and then wrapped with a strap in the middle.

The top of the blouse has nice spacing that makes her breasts the center of attention with how the black leather jacket makes a huge contrast for her Apricot colored skin. Although, with the hue this atmosphere outside in the dream gives, her skin is a bit more pale than usual, being a little bluer, as if the reflection from the sky truly made an impact in how I conceptualized her changing skin tone later on in the dream.

Her hair is dark brown, smooth, silky, and almost feels as if it was attached to her hair, it was too perfect in fact. Then she had long tight leather pants, or maybe even in the category of being between latex and leather. My recall of her pants in particular is kind of patchy, but I think that on the outer regions of her ankles, there were a few rectangular holes on the tight black leather-latex pants she wore that were aligned horizontally. Combine that with her black Motorcycle Biker Slouch Double Buckle Mid Calf flat boots (that had a top that was mid-way in reaching her knee), she was the classic biker chick.

That impression alone with her outfit, and her seemingly being in a hypnotic state of being with possibly speculating about things going on in her life that she probably felt she didn't have control over only added on to my curiosity for her. We continue walking in a moderately fast pace of walking, and whatever our destination ended up being, all I could recall for this moment while walking with her is blurry batches of green, gray, red, blue, violet, and a small streaks of yellow.

I believe the DeadDollKity dream character informed me that we're going to the gym to workout together, but with the clothes she was wearing, and what I was wearing, it felt kind of odd going to the gym. What I wore exactly is hard to recall, at most, I was probably having a similar vibe with the persona she had as this biker chick. I remember wearing a black shirt, black belt, and a black dress pants that had smooth creases along with black lace less shoes most likely, or just regular black biker men boots.

So maybe based from the clothes we were wearing, we came off a motorcycle or something, seeing how we found ourselves still moving reasonably fast as we're walking. The sensation was like this, you know how you walk or run on a treadmill for a good bit, and then when you come off and go on a different surface, you notice your mind still has the predisposition that you're still engaged with using the treadmill? That your legs are still slightly vibrating and you feel the very same ground you're now on moving a bit?



Of course, I'm not trying to make mind vs. body with skewed dualism, but hopefully you'll get the idea of how it felt. Also, another thing that I noticed with the DeadDollKitty dream character is how she had her whole left arm down vertically while she uses her right arm to make an L-shape across her stomach to hold onto the elbow of her left arm. It didn't come as a realization in the dream, but maybe she was hurt in some way, seeing how with her fast pace of walking, she probably wanted to find help right away.

The dream shifts, or my dream recall of what happened before we reached our destination occurs. We're now in a building that is pretty interesting in its composition. It seems that it's always changing, or maybe it's due to my growing awareness of the surroundings that makes it interesting.

DeadDollKitty had a completely different vibe to her, her countenance was alluring, it was impossible for me NOT to gravitate towards her visage frequently as I tried to socialize a bit with the dream characters within the building. I ended up making smooth by quick jerks to gaze at her visage a bit more while being occupied and confused on what to do next in this building.

I expected that we were going to work out, but that didn't seem to be the case. What was now a dark environment within a building was now filled with lighting and the realism of the dream was augmenting, but it still left that subtle hint that this all was a fantasy.

I could say that I was lucid in this dream, but it's one of those dreams where you don't even care about your level of lucidity, you just let it happen. You just let yourself become confused by the dream logic, of how the very same girl I was walking with that had this persona of feeling rushed, desperate to find support to heal her presumably injured arm into someone who comes down-to-earth, relaxed, and care-free.

The dream characters started to come together, and I had a sense that we would all end up eating together. I noticed long tables facing horizontally in my direction (as you're looking into the screen), and I can hear a few food carts rolling in. I get an automatic thought that it was going to be dessert coming in, but that could be DeadDollKitty along with the random set of dream character's chattering in the background of looking forward to eating cake.

For a moment, I found myself in a trance just like DeadDollKitty was when we were walking towards this destination. I found myself easily embracing my confusion and how I unconsciously built predispositions to prepare myself of being gregarious with the dream characters.

You know how we tend to have less conscious critical awareness of our actions and let them ebb and flow? And how we tend to be more suggestive and in agreement with others once we eased ourselves in their perception of looking at us? It's almost as if that despite of the fact that I was only fixated on DeadDollKitty's existence in the dream, even with my peripheral vision, the dream characters surrounding me had an augmenting aura of trying to reach out to me.

Because of this, because I can feel how they're naturally kind and sociable to me, my body becomes loose, I noticed my muscles becoming loose, my whole posture in general was relaxed and prepared to just get into the experience. I think I recall an elderly female touching my shoulder. Just one touch and I started to expand my 360 vision within the dream and noticed she had glasses on and a slightly buzzed short hair style.

The type where the ends are curly, loose, and in all directions. Her visage had small variations of creases, but they weren't that bothering to see. Her outfit in general consisted of a slightly diluted swamp green mixed with brown colored dress jacket and dress pants. I believe she wore a dark red shirt as well, and her skin tone was surprisingly full of life with its apricot-like hue.

I believe her touching my right shoulder was for me to unconsciously receive that as a cue to feel free to find a seat. So as I find myself realizing my conscious critical awareness in this dream, and the lucidity that naturally finds its way into my schema of this dream, I paused for a moment and looked around and everything seems to been made in a nice and fit package of just one of many things I think anyone would want in a dream.

Unconditional love.

And I started embracing the unconditional love and genuine nature of the dream characters that were enjoying each others' company and my company as well. They welcomed me with open arms, but they didn't need to express that directly. Their body language, their tonalities, the aura they gave out of having something within them forming into some kind of phantom hand pouring out its positivity and slowly trickling its fingers on my body.

I decided to take a random seat, and realized I'm not sitting near DeadDollKitty, the same person I was so attached to just a few moments ago was now considered someone equal to me. Her visage, her beauty, her youthful composition was just as equal as the elderly woman that touched my shoulder a few moments ago as well. But I still paid more attention to DeadDollKitty, mostly because I still held my attraction of her just a bit more.

I noticed for a fleeting moment, a moment that intensified as my awareness augmented, she was exhuming more confidence towards me. Her visage was flirting at me, practically just waiting for me as she folds her arms and raises her eyebrow at me in curiosity. It's almost as if this time, she's probably wondering what was on my mind just like I had the same curiosity before when she was talking in hypnotic gesture.

She's wearing a white sweater, only making myself having more presumptions of how she's sustaining her down-to-earth demeanor towards me and everyone else in the dream. For that moment, we both had the type of sentience and sapience where all that really matters was that we were going through this mental dance of teasing each other by distracting our awareness of ourselves with the other dream characters, and them coming back to just us paying attention to our awareness again.

I wanted to get closer to her, but our distance didn't really matter, I already felt her aura surrounding me even when she's just there patiently waiting for me to make a move to sit next to her. For a moment, the dream characters were seemingly non-existent, and her existence continued to become more lively. I started to look into her eyes a bit more, couldn't make a good distinction of the color, but I'm presuming it's between hazel, brown, or just pure green. I guess when her more saturated colored brown hair, green eyes would be more appealing to make her brighter.

Her cheeks were defined on the outer regions of her face, it was weird, it was fluctuating between being defined and not as apparent to me. You know how in video games where if you're close up to a character, you can see the sharpness of their whole body composition while the people in the background are literally just blobs and blurs? And this isn't just talking about our peripheral vision, it's when the developers create this system to imply peripheral vision for the character in the game viewing this.

It was exactly like that. My perception became a narrow tunnel, and I noticed my breathing is fluctuating as well. Mixing in with short breaths of lust over her figure and longer breathes that wanted to ease my libido. Breathing in lust, breathing out intentions of only seeing her as a friend in the dream. Imagine for a moment that in order to conceptualize what I just experienced looking at her, you know how when you're meditating, when you have that sense of silence after all those distracting thoughts become less intimidating for you?

When you get into a hypnotic state, or a trance of embracing the silence more? Where you start thinking unconsciously, and you're actually being aware of yourself thinking unconsciously? Where your primal instincts that you usually leave not being as developed as our more refined judgment now takes cover completely? Where we're this close from becoming animals wanting to fuck each other brains out, but then something within us restricts us from doing so?

I started becoming the unconscious, I started diving myself into this ocean where I let my unconscious govern everything that's happening to me. Almost salivating from her figure but closing my mouth to gulp it all down. And she knows this is happening, she continues smiling at me because of it, she keeps her position, as if she suddenly was like a person that models themselves so people can draw them in an art studio.

Then it became too much for me and I eventually came back to being consciously aware of the environment around me again. The dream characters that were blobs and blurs to me are now back again to their sharpness. DeadDollKity is still there, but with my 360 vision, she's not going to become a blur to me because I don't want her to be.

Sadly, this is the point where the dream recall goes down to crap again.

Losing my awareness, and not really caring that I did, the dream shifted into a completely different setting that now had a Point A to Point B to it. And it was because my emotions were the driving force in making things linear now. I'm completely out of the building where me and DeadDollKitty were looking at each other. She didn't exist anymore, the dream characters didn't exist anymore, it's just me again.

Then I started to get unconscious responses that the same DeadDollKitty character wanted to do a shoulder workout with me in the gym. I found my unconscious creating another model of her, only this time in a white sports tank top and very short blue shorts. She starts stretching her arms out, and it's just too much for me. As she's stretching, it's as if I'm purposefully finding my unconscious focusing on her breasts popping out more. Then she starts stretching her legs.


I shake my head, and she continues to say that we should meet at the gym again. Things started to become in-cohesive, and as I'm LITERALLY letting my emotions control my actions, I go into a "hands-off" approach to let things happen. I arrive at my destination, but it's clearly not a gym. More like going into an abandoned shed with a yellow light lamp above me conveniently (sarcasm) placed in front of me while the darkness is so apparent that something bad is going to happen.

And I knew something bad was going to happen, but again, I'm in a "hand-off" control in this dream. I noticed I was taking form of a female, one that resembles Ada, specifically the Resident Evil 4 version of her. I possessed her body for a moment with ease, and as I'm doing this, I can feel those tingly sensations and vibrations as I mold my consciousness into her form.

It was as like a stinging sensation, but it was completely pleasant to experience. I go back into caring less about the lucidity and seeing what Ada would do in this situation. I was in her body (of course I know it's an implication), and she quickly dodges some elderly man that was trying to stab her in the chest. He's wearing skin tight blue gloves, is bald, wearing circular glasses, and just suddenly became the enemy of this dream. He was in the process of wearing a blue grim reaper mask as he tries to stab Ada.

There were many moments where Ada was going to die, very, very, very close moments where just an inch off with the reflexes, and good bye to her dream body (unless I wanted to just bring it back to life). The old man becomes more irritated with her just moving too fast for him, and from there, I can't remember much after that.

The only thing that comes to mind as I'm fading away from the dream is seeing the back of Ada's body.

06.07.2013

Brushing My Teeth (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

So after the dream above, I woke up, had a false awakening basically. I was so into the thought of posting the dream eventually, and everything looked real to me. The sink, the toothbrush, everything, and then I think I went back to sleep.

Lol, missed a chance for lucidity, but oh well.

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I was in my dad's living room, and something prompted me to think that it was a dream. My brother stood right in front of me. To test my dream theory, I charged right through the wall and my brother, no fear. I saw his eyes widen as I rammed towards him at the speed of light, and I closed my eyes.

Once I opened my eyes I was standing outside. Well, I guess that this is a dream. I attempt flying, but then completely slow down and am slowly spinning out of control, as if I'm in space. This is the first time that I've been unable to fly in a dream. My gaze tilts upward, and the power lines are outlined against the sky. I float alarmingly close to them. All while this is happening, a calm, female voice similar to that of a flight attendant talks inside my head. It seems as though she is some sort of 'lucid dreaming for beginners' guide. She explains something about the power lines, and how they shock you.

I remember that you could sometimes jump to initiate flight, but it's not needed. Soon I'm zooming down the road, above the trees. For some reason in Every. Single. Dream I have, the lower part of the town I live in (past the hospital) is always dramatically changed. In this dream, although I was lucid, I couldn't recall what the area looked like. I jokingly recalled the map of past dreams, not really meaning to explore further but thinking that it'd be funny if it looked like it did in dreams.

I looked down and imagined a small dog coming out of the bushes. Then, I put out my hands in a frame shape and imagined up a dog. It was small, and had matted brown fur. It was still cute.

The dog followed me along, I assume flying. I wanted to come upon something fun to do. We flew above a small camp of ruffians with blue tents. I saw people in tribal paint jumping about, and worried about them attacking me. I believe that this was when two or three other girls joined us, at least two brown-haired and one blonde.

We kept on flying. Our group quickly grew large, and I felt pleased. As if I was collecting people. We landed in a meadow. One girl and I stood by a fence. I studied her. I expected her face to be warped or somehow missing a nose, since it was a dream. She was quite beautiful, even her frizzy hair which stood a good three inches from her face somehow made her seem quaint. She was familiar, but I couldn't put my finger on it.

I told her that she was beautiful. She blushed and looked down. Yes, definitely beautiful, I decided. I asked her what she thought of me, knowing her answer already. This was my dream, of course she would respond positively. She gave me a critical head-to-toe. Then she said that I was beautiful. I jokingly said something about it being a dream. I was worried that she'd freak out since I'd called it a dream, but she didn't. She just half-smiled and laughed. So the people here were completely accepting of it being a dream.

I think that we were still in the meadow when I tried to write something down. God, that was a nightmare. On every single word I had to backspace and retype the letter, but even then I rarely got it right. I realized that it was hard because I was in a dream, and gave up on that.

I wanted to get to a city, and repeatedly commanded a taxi to appear. No luck. Then I told myself that we'd just take a boat. We fly a short while and we come upon a sea that is thrashing wildly, as if in the middle of a storm. We land on the deck and I see a few wary deckhands and smaller boats. I see a small yacht, but decide that it's too small. I pray for a giant cruise ship to pull around the mountain, but instead there comes a wild mix between boat and floating black truck. I didn't bat an eye at it in the dream, besides being disappointed that it wasn't a cruise ship. I pulls close to the deck and we fly to the 'boat deck'. There are doors that you open to get into the seats, and I immediately sit in the first row, window seat. The blonde girl is about to sit down outside the door, but I beg her to sit inside with me. I don't tell her why yet. She resists, but finally comes in to sit.

I want to turn her into an actor and it'll be easier with her since she's already blonde. I tell her that I want to change her appearance into that of an actor, and she readily agrees. I worry that it won't feel the same with her as it would if he'd just walked up out of the mist.

I tell her that I didn't want her to sit outside because things that I didn't have my eye on at all times in dreams had a habit of disappearing. I used the dog as an example, who I hadn't seen for a while and I could only assume had disappeared.

I faced her, but we were on land now. I made her hair blonde, since it was brunette now. I sharpened her nose, changed her teeth. I was having an awful time trying to remember what he looked like, and worrying that I'd gotten a feature wrong. The brown slowly spread back into her/his hair. I said nuh uh and quickly changed it back to blonde. Then he changed into a alien and I got a comic-like picture of him beating his chest while howling at the sky. As a bulgy eyed, white alien. I sighed in disappointment because all my hard work was wasted. I began to lose lucidity.

I was under these stairs, looking for my friend's little brother to put him to bed. With each turn the passageway got smaller and darker. I continued to brightly call for him. I turned once again, and knew that his was a trap to get me so deep in that I couldn't turn around to go back. I saw a panel on the wall shake, and I knew something scary was going to pop out behind it. It quickly turned to leave, and saw the little brother scamper across my path.

I'm running along a dark, leaky room with wet pavement. I'm filled with adrenaline, and can see my friends leaping forward and sprinting beside me.

I'm in a small, old-fashioned town. There's a funeral going on and I unwittingly say something offensive because I didn't know that it was a funeral. There a white church with a steeple beside the garage where the funeral is held. The brown casket is carried into the garage. Dream On by Aerosmith plays in the background, and I'm amazed that I can remember all the words. I'm also amazed that I've remembered the little details from 'a dream past'. I had a false memory of this happening in a dream, and of a crazy lady with wild hair interrupting the funeral.

Although it doesn't seem like it, I'm still partly lucid. I want to try to eat something, so a friend or two and I flew to a fast food restaurant. We go inside, and I break off the top of a drink dispenser. What looks like tapioca is inside. I have it in a cup, and know that it will taste awful. A cop comes over and is mad at us for breaking open the machine.
I force my friend to use her power to turn the white liquid red, hoping that it will disguise it from the cop and also make it taste better. It half-works, the cop stirs it with a finger and the color is instantly stirred under. I wake up.

#1 Rainn Wilson's Comedy Act
I am in some darkened theater and Rainn Wilson (Dwight Schrute)is on stage doing stand-up comedy. My wife is next to me and her sister is next to her. Rainn has some sort of drum that look like a metal coffee can in a square box on a stand. He stands in front of it and says something about how he's Jewish. We all laugh at lot a his jokes. Somehow I am able to reach out and pat the drum a few times.

Then he randomly starts playing violin with a full orchestra behind him. People take this as the end of his act and start leaving in mass numbers. My wife, her sister and I decide to stay. I think the music sounds amazing and relaxing. My wife and her sister get up to get a closer seat since there are some open now. My wife wants me to follow but I realize that for some crazy reason I have and erection. I wave her on and tell her I'll be there in a minute. I visually follow her with my eyes and get a good idea where they are sitting. I try to understand why I have an erection but am in now way aroused. Then I think this happens a lot during dreaming.

I briefly wake up notice that yes I do have an erection and renter the dream non lucid. I have some thoughts about the music. Maybe that's his way of getting everyone to randomly get bored and thus ending the show in some strange dryly humors way. Or maybe he doesn't want people to linger and greet him backstage. That must be it.

I am back in the same seat and every is as if I had not woke up at all. (Perhaps I didn't really wake up?)Now I have some sort of blanket or cloak that I hold in front of me. As I walk it wraps around me and I feel secure and cozy. I find my wife and her sister almost up to the front and I sit next to them still enjoying the music. At the point more and more people start leaving. The music ends and Rainn says something. Then, "If you linger that means you a close pals with Dwight. You'll be just like him." I look over and my wife and her sister are gone. Some blonde is walking past looking displeased. Not wanting to be like Dwight, I say to her, "That's it I'm out."

I follow massive amounts of people out of the exits. The line just to get out seems impossibly long. For some reason, perhaps out of habit, I pat my pockets noticing my wallet, keys, and cellphone are missing. I begin to panic thinking it must have fallen out some place. There is some small table next to wall with my stuff. I snatch it up and check the contents of my wallet. My cards are missing along with my driver's license and Social Security card. I panic. My dad passes by and asks what's wrong. I tell him and he walks away uninterested. I want call my wife now to get the numbers off her cards to alert the bank and credit card company. I fiddle with the phone and place find it very difficult to place a call. One I finally hit send it disconnects immediately.

I realize I had wondered into the parking lot. I just wonder around looking for my wife or the car while trying to place a call. I feel helpless and actually begin to cry of the whole situation. I feel tears rolls down my cheeks as I become aware of other pedestrians and vehicles passing by me. I try to hide the fact that I am crying but eventual decide I don't care. I keep trying to call my wife and I become very pissed that my phone just wont work right. I begin to remember something and think, "This happens a lot in dreams." For some reason I think about how easy it is for my father in law to use his phone. Then, That's it I just need a new phone.

I put the phone away and now I am in some Christmas shop full of Dr. Sues looking stuff. I think this must be some sort of "How the Grinch Stole Christmas" replica. I figure this would be a likely place to find my wife. I look around some narrow zigzag hallway decorated with lights and garland but only see strange faces. They are all women and I get the feeling like I should not be in there. Like maybe I wondered into the women's restroom. I wake up.

I use MILD and visualize an OBE with mantra

#2 Spiderman?
I wake from some NLD that I can't recall and am able to DEILD. Maybe I am just waking to REMatonia or SP. I feel tingles in my arms and legs but no vibrations. This time I really expected vibrations. I incorrectly visualized my OBE. I'll have to keep that in mind. I wake for awhile and become very bored. I don't think to induce the vibrations and I start visualizing wondering the house hoping to exit my body that way. I start with walking along the bedroom wall noticing the fell of it with both hand. I press my body to it almost hugging it.

Suddenly I am crawling up a wall that looks like the semi-gloss green of the bathroom and become lucid but on a lower level than usual. Now I slide down the wall as I think about gravity. I shift my thinking and think that gravity is wherever I choose. I tell myself that gravity is in the wall. I now get a grip and crawl to the ceiling. Again I chose gravity to be on the ceiling and I crawl to that. I begin to enjoy my control of gravity and crawl all over the small empty room that I am in without much effort.

Now I realize I have an erection again and...I'm embarrassed to say... I start humping the wall in various places. My lucidity begins to slip and I lose all self control. I wake up before too much happens.

#3 Xanous Knows Baseball
I am on a professional baseball field. I see my name on some batting roster and I head to the dugout. I laugh that my name actually reads "Xanous". I do a double take and notice that the spelling has morphed into a type of l33t speak but still clearly says "Xanous". I don't catch this and think, They must have got confused somehow and used my online name. I actually like it and decide to just go with it.

I see Tonya from work in the dugout and I ask her name. She says her name is Coraline and she is from Guatemala.
For whatever reason I blurt out, "GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAL!"
I laugh at my mistake. "Oops. No that's soccer. We are playing baseball... HOOOOOOOOMERUN!"
She laughs and tells me how to say home-run in Spanish. I slowly repeat the word several times and she corrects me until i get it right. I can't remember what it was now but it was some long complicated word. I wake up.

#4 Off-Roading
I am sitting on a large 4-wheeler waiting of some black truck with huge off road tires to pass me. The sky is over cast and there is a large mud puddle on the trail. Somehow the driver of the truck communicates to me that they are waiting for me to lead them. I smile and motion them to follow. I say something like, "Try to keep up." with a cocky grin on my face.

I drive thru the mud and down the trail then I take a turn up an impossibly steep hill. I feel the 4-Wheeler struggle and throw mud as I open the throttle but I make it. At the top there is a shear grassy drop off. Beyond looks like something out of Skyrim but less rocky. I follow the narrow ridge but now I am being pulled along by a push mower. A long line of pine sapling get mowed down then I reach a steep muddy hill going down and ride down. At the bottom I think I should have done that on the 4-wheeler. Now I am on the 4-wheeler instead.

There is a camp site near some building that is basically a wall on the side of a dirt cliff. I gather up my stuff and load the 4-wheeler to leave. There are two guys coming out of the building. I think they must be the ones that were in the truck. They ask if this is how I go mountain climbing. I say, "No there's no rocks. I like to rock climb like that." I point to a poster tacked to a tree of a man rock climbing. the two men start talking to a 3rd unknown person. I get the feeling that they two guys are a gay couple. I look them over and they look too... pretty to be out in the woods. The more feminine man on the right says something about going to "The Wretched Festival." Is that a gay thing? Now they have their arms around each other. I begin to feel perturbed by it so I drive off without a word. I wake up.

7-7-10

Lucid Dream from a couple of nights ago:

I don't remember a lot from this dream. At one point I was doing the thing I do a lot in dreams where I fall backwards from standing position and catch myself before I hit the ground and go back up to standing position. I really love to do this in dreams. It feels really good and it seems so natural to be able to do this that sometimes I don't realize that I am in a dream.

However this time I did realize that I was in a dream after doing that for a while. Sometimes even after I know I'm in a dream it takes a while to really sink in. So I thought about the fact that this was a dream as I fell backwards a few more times. But then I realized that I could do whatever I wanted.

I flew up, but then I saw my grandpa. He has been dead for a while and I felt really happy to get a chance to see him again. So I went up to him and started to hug him. Hugging him made me think of my dad who is also dead.

I don't remember if I made my dad appear, or if he just automatically appeared by thinking about him. But there he was. I went up to him and put my arms around his neck and held him close and put my cheek against his.

Suddenly I was overwhelmed by emotion and I started sobbing and sobbing and I couldn't stop.

I finally woke up.

5-29-10 (missed posting this one)


Lucid Dream:

I almost forgot about this dream since I have to get up early this morning to help a friend move and never wrote it down...or even had a chance to go over it in my mind. So here is what's left of it.

I remember being in this old little burger place in a small town. I looked outside and saw a tornado coming toward the place that I was standing. I started to run away but realized that there was no way I could outrun it.

I suddenly became lucid.

Something about a tornado made me think that there was once a lucid task involving one. I thought it might have been to merge with a tornado (I still haven't checked to see if this actually was ever a task or not).

So instead of running from the tornado, I ran straight at it. As I got close I decided to start spinning myself with my arms out so when the tornado went over me I would already be spinning. I guess it worked. The tornado was obviously not a very powerful one and much more like just a dust devil that I have had personal experiences with in real life. I spun around a bit inside of it and was lifted off my feet for a brief time.And that's all I acutally remember of the dream. Something tells me that there was much more to this dream.

6-23-10

I had a lucid dream two nights ago. It wasn't that great. I didn't even remember it until later in the day. And I did the wrong lucid Task of the Month. Oh well...

But this is what I do remember:

Something made me lucid and I was flying around. (No memory about where I was)

But then I remembered that I really should be trying the task of the month. Since I hadn't been keeping up on it like I should I was having a hard time remembering what it was. I finally decided that it was "to give someone a gift".

At this point I was in a store. I looked over and saw Robert. I reached in my pocket to see what I could find to give him. I was wearing shorts, and the pockets were shallow and empty, except for some lint and crumbs.

I saw a shelf next to me. I reached around behind the shelf to grab something to give him. I didn't want to see it ahead of time. I wanted to be surprise of what my mind would chose. I felt a package and pulled it around so I could see what it was. It was full of little metal beads for making a bracelet.

I handed it to Robert and said, "Here is a gift for you". But I wasn't satisfied so I reached around again to find another gift that seemed better. But it was another of the same things. So I kept trying.

Eventually I lost lucidity in my frusration to find another more interesting gift.

5-14-10

Lucid Dream:

I was at what was supposed to be Emily's house. I was just leaving and saying goodbye when I noticed that the mountains by her house seemed all wrong. It occured to me that I might be dreaming. I felt a little disappointed at first because I felt that the dream was almost over. But then I thought, "Why do I think that? Just because I am leaving Emily's house?"

So I took off flying. I flew between some rocky hills/cliffs. I tried to fly higher than them, but seemed to stay the same height. Then the ground dropped below me. I could see it sloping down toward the ocean. I flew out and over the water. I then remembered the Task of the Month where we are supposed to skydive off a sky scraper. I didn't have a skyscraper nearby, so I just decided to free fall into the ocean. I was up a good ways, so this felt like a big deal to do this. I could feel the wind rush by as I prepared myself for the cold wet water.

I hit the surface and sank all the way to the bottom, which was actually maybe only 12 feet or so down at the place where I landed. To my surprise the water felt neither cold or wet. It just felt "thicker".

The next thing I remember I was back on the land. I saw a very good looking guy. He had light brown hair, blue eyes, and a little stubble. I went to him and started to kiss him. The kisses felt very real. I then took his hand and started flying with him. We flew back out over the ocean. It was dark now. I could see the very last bit of light at the very edge of the horizon. So I could just barely make out where the ocean and sky met.


We flew out a ways. I suddenly had this little chill come over me as I remembered how creepy I find the ocean at night, and here I was flying out over it so far that I couldn't see anything on the land behind me. I even asked the guy, "Isn't this creepy to be way out here over the ocean in the dark?" I think he agreed. Finally I saw some lights of some ships ahead of us. They looked like cruise ships. I flew up to one and landed on it.

The guy and I stated making out again.

And that's all I remember.

4-27-10



I was having camera troubles, and I decided that I had to be dreaming. I took off flying. I remember reaching out and trying to touch things as I flew so I would feel more part of the dream.

Then things got kind of weird and kind of became a sex dream. I realize I wasn't fully lucid in parts. Like I thought Sam from Supernaturals was my boyfriend. But I do remember I kept saying, "This is my deam...we're going to do it my way." I really don't remember a whole lot.

4-10-10

Lucid Dream (maybe this is several dreams):

I had gone on this trip with a group of girls. We were staying in this awful motel room that was decorated in burgandy and pink. I took out my camera and tried to take pictures but the battery was wrong. I took it out, and it wasn't the right one. I was mad because I couldn't take any more pictures on this trip.

I didn't go lucid at that point.

Later we were in an airport watching these huge jets take off. Then I was on a plane. Seems like something happened, like we almost hit a building. But I don't really remember that.


Then I was back at home in my childhood house. I was in the backyard. I don't remember what triggered lucidity. But I suddenly knew I was dreaming and flew up in the air a bit. I felt a bit unstable in the dream, so I rubbed my hands together. I realized that it had been forever since I had done this in a dream. I noticed that it really did bring me back in to the dream. I felt more physically there.

I looked over the fence into the neighbor's yard. They had their sprinklers on. I knew I wanted to go through the sprinklers. I thought that it was either a Task of the Month from the past...or something that I had decided at one point I wanted to do. So I swooped down until the water was sprinkling on me. The water felt very real.

I flew back up. I then remembered reading on of my LDs from a long time ago where I had used my five senses...and how that had made the dream way more meaningful. So I flew over to my roof and rubbed, my hand all along the brown asphalt shingles. It was satisfying to feel the roughness under my fingertips.

I then remember one of the other Tasks that I had been wanted to try for a while now was to meet a fictional character. The one that popped into my head was a character from a story that I had started writing myself a while ago. I flew back up and looked into the neighbors yard again and saw a wheelchair. I thought it was empty at first. But as I got closer I saw a child sitting in it. I wondered if this was my character as a child. He started talking to me. What he said didn't make sense. But I thougth it was cool that he was interacting with me.

4-2-10

I read about the Lucid Tasks yesterday and told myself the next time I was lucid I would do those. Apparently it's good for me to set goals like that becasue I got lucid last night and completed both tasks.


Lucid Tasks Dream:

I was having camera problems and was feeling very frustrated. There was something I really wanted to take a picture of (though I can't remember what it was).

Something in my mind reminded me that this meant that there was a chance I was dreaming. I didn't want to think about that possibility because that meant that whatever it was that I was taking a picture of was not real, and I really wanted it to be real.

But I decided to try to fly anyway, and wasn't too surprised when I took off gliding and knew that this was a dream.

I then remembered the Tasks that I wanted to try.


I landed on the ground again. I was on the side of a nearly empty city street. I could see no cars and very few people.

I decided to try the basic task first--the simple headstand. So I bent over with my hands down, just like I would do a hand stand in a pool. I put my head on the pavement and tried to balance my legs in the air. At first I was having trouble maintaining balance. I had to tel myellf, "Oh come on... this is a dream. I should be able to do this with no problems." And at that I steadied myself and held a headstand.

Pleased with myself, I decided to try the more advanced version of a headstand. I wasn't sure how this one would work. I had never separated body parts on a dream before. I had no idea if they would come off easily or not. Would it hurt at all?

I grabbed my head in my hands and started giving a sideways pull. I wasn't sure if anything was happening. Then I noticed my shadow on the ground in front of me and I realized that that would be a great help.

I then watched as I slid my head off my shoulders (no pain or discomfort at all) and lowered it to the ground. I also didn't noticed any change with the way I was viewing things. My vision remained focused on the shadow.

I placed my head on the ground next to my feet. I felt no sensation on my head at all as I carefully stepped up on my head. My feet, however, were bare, and I could feel my head and hair under my feet. I stood there for a moment.

And then must have lost lucidity because I remember nothing else.

2-17-10

I did had a lucid dream a few weeks ago where I became lucid and started flying, and felt lonely and wanted someone to fly with. I thought of a friend that I had recently gotten back in touch with. As soon as I decided that it was him that I wanted to fly with, I swooped down to the ground and saw him. I took his hand and we started flying. But for some reason he didn't fly as well as most of the people I take flying with me, and I ended up having to put my arms around him and carry him under me as we flew.

12-24-09

Lucid Dream(WBTB):

I was at my mom's house. The dream was involved, but I no longer remember what we were doing. But I do remember it started getting freaky. I remember passing these human skeletons. Some even had some flesh still onthe bones. One of them was from a murder that had happened not long ago. I thought it was awful that the bones of the lady were still there. (I think these were all outside the house.)

Then I was in my mom's bedroom when the house started to shake. Something about it seemed way worse than just a normal earthquake which wouldn't have bothered me. I started panicking. I started screaming for my mom.

Then I realized that it was just a dream. But I was still freaking out as the house continued to shake. The "just a dream" wasn't sinking in fully. I then realized that I had the power to wake up and not have to deal with this any loger. So for the next few moments I was trying with all my might to wake myself up, but getting really frustrated because I didn't seem able to.

Then lucidity hit me fully.

I ran to the window and flew out. The shaking slowly stopped. I flew around over buildings and I was suddenly happy again.

[There is a part here that I feel the need to skip. ]

Then eventually I must have lost lucidity. I was with Jeff and Jim in this building and we were fixing it up. Jeff was taping the drywall and Jim started painting. I noticed that Jim was painting this really neat mural. I noticed the details and started raving to him about how cool it was.

Later when we were done and leaving, Jim told me to call him at 7:30 am.

12-21-09

I had a super long LD this morning.

I was driving a truck and having problems controlling it (typical dream sign) I finally was coming up to another truck that had some either surf boards or snow boards sticking out the back. I started slamming on the brake, but the truck kept going at a slow roll until it ran into and broke the "boards" on the back of the other truck. I was horrified. But the feeling and situation caused me to become lucid.

I don't remember all the details. I remember flying around a lot. I ended up at my grandparents. I saw that the neighbors had Christmas decorations out front that was 8 reindeer pulling an RV. As I watched it took off flying. I had the momentary thought that they spent way too much money on something that fancy. I flew around some more. I flew across the valley to the mountains on the other side.

At that point I remembered that TOM to find Santa's sleigh. But as I looked around none appeared.

I flew some more (and I really think I was doing things that I have now forgotten)

I do remember feeling pain in my finger and looking down saw it was covered with these little burrs. I tried to pull them out, but they had these really sharp little barbs and they just stuck to my other fingers. I tired to just make them disappear, because I knew this was a dream and that I had the power to do so. But they wanted to stay. So I did the next best thing. I landed on the ground next to a group of ladies and said, I know you all have tweezers with you. Can you pull these out?" They then all pulled out tweezers and quickly pulled them out. I felt pretty good about taking care of that problem so easily and quickly.

I was about to leave when I noticed I had one burr left on my finger. I saw a teenage guy. He had sandy brown hair that curled a bit over his eyes and over his ears. He had blue green eyes and a light sprinkling of freckes across his nose. I went to him and asked him to get it out. He did. I then sudden had this desire to kiss him. So I went to him and started to make out with him. He kissed me back. It was one of those odd kisses and felt "slimey". So I then flew away.

Later I noticed that slimey feeling in my mouth still, and I started spitting out all this green slime. I remember thinking "Oh sick, that is so nasty. Why did my mind have to do that??"

Dream recall from today's nap.

I was browsing dreamviews and i was counting score, i already had great score from three lucids on 5th ( ), also i had some cards with unit icons from AI War. I went to nap.
Then i wake up(Forgot RC!) and can't find cards for a while but then notice them, they were moved to a different place, then time is only 01:00, which makes me realize that i am dreaming, i have that dreaming feeling but then i wake up.

Last night I have a dream that I'm kissing deeply with my boy classmate.
This boy classmate has a crush on me since in first year highschool and it's true.


We are on my english teacher's classroom. It's very weird that inside the room there is a ride and I and my boy classmate rode on it. So when the ride is about to start, we're kissing in LIPS and I don't know why we did it. When the ride started, I looked at the people who is with us also riding and I saw them they are also kissing. I think it's tradition there in my dream that when you ride in that ride, you have to kiss your partner (opposite sex) and so we did. My boy classmate really wanted to kiss me so he kissed me in my neck but I refused because I'm afraid what will happen next. But in the end we kissed very deeply that I can feel our tongues but I was able to control myself because I know if I'll not stop I'm sure it will lead to sex.


I dont know what does it mean.