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[SIZE=5][COLOR="#EE82EE"][/COLOR][/SIZE]Primul Vis: Eram intr-o sala de dans si faceam ceva dansuri romantice(erau mai multi dansatori pe acolo) iar eu dansam cu un baiat foarte dragut avea parul cu plete,cret(semana cu harry din 1 direction) iar apoi el creca a inceput sa ma placa pentru ca si eu il placeam foarte mult...Apoi am fost in fata calculatoruloui(cand eram in casa imi tot spuneam mie ca trebuie sa ma epilez pentru piscina) si am incercat sa zbor ma gandeam ca eu chiar o sa simt cum zbor dar defapt doar un character de al meu de pe joc zburase foarte rapid de la un loc la altul(la piscina) iar ecranul de la calculator cu mapul ala era foarte galben si verde cu culori deschise si charul meu avea parul blond si scurt.Apoi am visat ca am fost eu la piscina (sufla vantul,era innorat) si totul acolo era foarte vechi pe un fel de leagan doar ca se rotea(exact ca ala din parcul lui diana doar ca erau scaune ca la leagane(erau rosii si vechi)) si erau mai multi copii acolo care ma tot intrebau daca vreau sa ma dau cu ei(Una din copii aia era lorena de la mine din clasa daca imi amintesc corect)Apoi am fost cu costul meu de baie roz si vroiam sa innot dar apoi mi-am amintit: Am uitat sa ma epilez,si sunt pe rosu..Apoi suparata(foarte suparata) m-am dus undeva unde era ceva ridicatura cu scari(ceva de genul unde era magazinul chinez pe bulevard doar ca mult mai mica si era si veche) apoi am urcat pe ala si m-am uitat in jos iar acolo era baiatul pe care l-am visat ca dansam cu el era legat de un scaun cu niste scoci alb peste tot era prins si el zambea la mine(pe jos acolo erau niste rumegus parca ars) iar cand cobori scarile acolo mai jos era o usa pe unde puteai sa ajungi la acel baiat(eu eram ingrijorata pentru el) asa ca m-am dus sa il dezleg(langa usa aceea era un om care parea malefic dar nu facea nimic impotriva mea ca sa il dezleg) M-am dus l-am dezlegat si apoi am stat undeva (eu , el , diana) iar el se tot uita la mine in timp ce vorbeam si in gandul meu era(wow baiatul asta chiar ma place si nu o place pe diana!) Acum imi amintesc ca era si ceva nunta sau ceva de genul(in care eu ma casatoream cu el) iar acum imi amintesc si ca eram cu diana inainte sa vorbesc cu ea (pe afara)
[COLOR="#0000CD"][/COLOR][SIZE=5][/SIZE]Fragmente din al 2-lea vis: Am visat ca eram cu niste oameni(2 baieti si inca cineva) iar noi ne luptam nu stiu pentru ce(prima data eram langa un frigider de inghetata) apoi mi-a spus rapid : INTRATI IN MASINA! iar eu am intrat(iar cel din stanga i-a spus celui din dreapta : Hey dar cine conduce? Si el a zis:Nu te teme conduc eu!) si el a inceput sa conduca super tare iar cel din stanga i-a spus:Hey lui ....(Un nume cu r,creca ryan) nu ii place cum conduci iar celalalt a raspuns: Nu imi pasa.
[SIZE=5][FONT=Arial][COLOR="#0000CD"][/COLOR][/FONT][/SIZE] The lucid one!:Am fost undeva(creca la mine in casa) cand dintrodata imi amintesc sa fac un RC(n-aveam nicio banuiala ca visez pentru ca era prea vivid visul) asa ca am facut unul iar apoi am inceput sa ating toate lucruri(in bucatarie am atins frigiderul,mobila,etc.) iar apoi m-am dus intr-un magazin(in timp ce mergeam la magazin ma gandeam sa fiu vampir si am devenit! m-am uitat in oglinda(de la perie) si aveam colti)(drumul de la casa pana la magazinul acela era exact ca drumul de la mine de la bloc pana in blocul galben) si in mijlocul magazinului era un fel de sertar doar ca avea doar o usita iar eu m-am gandit ca acolo sa apara tot mai multe lucuri care imi plac cu gandul ca o sa le mananc iar in timpul acesta ii tot spuneam unei persoane:Uite vezi!(zambind) apoi imi mai amintesc doar ca mi-am frecat mainile de mai multe ori si m-am invartit ca sa nu dispara visul iar atunci cand chiar a disparut m-am trezit instantaneu.

Dream recall from today's nap.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was in my bed and i was outside and i was looking at some random pigeon.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was in my room and i was having some problem with cables and speakers, location of everything on the table was messed up, like one of the speakers was hanging on the lamp somehow(i don't even use speakers IWL), but i thought it was normal. After a while there was weird sound coming out of somewhere. I checked the speakers but sound was getting weaker. I decided to check the lamp, and sound apparently was there. I suddenly remember that this sound is very familiar, and sounds like binaural beats, but i don't have headphones on, which means i am dreaming. Dream fades out though before i can do much and i wake up.

Dream 1:

I was on some island in the middle of the swamp, and there was an base. I was with the team, we called ourselves 'ESP' and we all had special abilities of some kind. We worked as mercenaries, but only with people who had 'correct beliefs' about our abilities. Some people contacted us and we went on some missions on different island which was in the middle of the ocean and there was also some kind missile silo there.
After the mission we were back on our island-base and we had a long discussion about abilities and missions. Some other people decided to contact us but they were acting like they didn't had 'correct beliefs' and we started throwing random stuff into their boat. Shortly we had nothing to throw, so i went to grab more stuff and for some reason one of the things i grabbed was shower, which was on as well.
On my way i had weird sensation and i spontaneously realize that i am dreaming, suddenly i am back at my room, but i still have shower in my hand. The water felt... really nice and was kinda fascinated by that sensation. I looked around and decided to try to summon something. Was not very successful, but i managed to randomly turn a random shadow into an physical shadowy hand. Then i looked at my own shadow and apparently it didn't had a head( )/ Shortly dream faded out and i woke up.

Dream 2:

I was playing some platforming game, which was happening in some dark place and i was controlling a bunch of characters through it. At times it was switching from 2D to 3D and back and there was also weird zooming going on. There was an section with some weird platforms that looked like combination of skeletal parts and stone, and they only appeared after an special condition was met, which opened the way to the secret exit too. Also there was an section where characters were traveling on some kind of railway platform/transport through cave.
The game was getting harder and at some points it was getting almost IWBTG hard with enemies suddenly and quickly appearing out of the walls and almost no space to dodge them. The levels as well were getting more organic, i especially recall passage where there were some big insectoid things with tentacles moving in and out of walls.
Later on, there was an final chamber, the game went into 3D and the final boss walked in. It looked like some arachnid thing and it had a face. We defeated it and the place started crumbling apart and then dream faded out.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was browsing dreamviews and was discussing lucid dreaming and shared dreaming with someone. Then we decided to go for an attempt.
The dream switched to some game that looked like AI War, but we had lots of overpowered units.
Then i woke up, and for some reason i was sure that i was lucid that dream(I never realized that i was dreaming at any point, also forgot to RC again ) and i went to discuss it with person i was discussing shared dreaming with before(can't recall who though).

this was a short lucid dream i had. i became lucid right away. ~~~ i said to my self im dreaming again, oh and im lucid. every thing came clear, i walked to a small gate and opened. i didnt see anything that was interesting. just some regular houses and streets. then i flew up to see if i could find anything of intrest as i was glancing at my hands and touching the nearby trees to keep my dream stable. every thing felt so real but that was to be expected. although my body felt like i was on a salvia trip it but i was calm and realaxed and clear headed. then i came to a tree with pink and purple white flowers growing from the trips of the branches. it was great and stunning to look at. after all that i seen a computer animated looking cheracter that looked like peter pan or something flying around in the tree with some of his fairies. he said something i dont remember then i woke up. ~~~ lol haha what a fruity ending right salvia dream trip indead.

#170 - 4:16AM - WILD

I decide to go for MILD this time but I have a hard time getting comfortable and end up on my left side. I'm dealing with some insomnia so I decide WILD might be better. The last time I check the clock, it's getting close to 4AM. I still feel wakeful with racing thoughts as I focus on my face and back of neck so I turn on the irrational part of my brain to avoid thought. I think of random nonsensical words and phrases and soon they come to my mind without any effort. I begin to seen random images and soon I feel myself in a deep trance while maintaining consciousness.

I suddenly feel jostled as if my wife is turning over in bed or getting up. I feel the vibrations now but wonder if she is going to ruin it for me. I concentrate on the back of my neck and the vibrations get stronger. I hear some sound like she is walking in the room and going around to the right side of the bed for the bathroom. Then, she says something to me. I don't quite understand the words but I am becoming annoyed that she is unwittingly sabotaging my WILD. She keeps blabbing away and I am considering waking myself to tell her to stop but I remember this is a common dream sign during the early stages of WILD and I consider the possibility that none of this is really havening. At that moment I hear my wife snoring on my left side and I now know this voice is a dream character.

The vibrations intensify and I transition out. When I am standing I see a figure in the dark directly in front of me. I become startled and I instinctively throw a right hook to the face of this DC. I pull back at the last instant as I realize this might be my wife. I feel my hand softly but forcefully make contact with flesh. For a brief second I cringe at the thought that I may have just attacked my wife in waking life. But no, I remind myself that I am dreaming. Without waisting any time the figure turns darker than night and takes a more shadowy, demonic and feline shape. The entity has an appearance like Katz but more muscular and realistic and dark. It takes hold of both my arms and crosses them over my chest so that I cannot swing at it again. I am forced hard on the bed with this entity pressing on top of me and I fall victim to true sleep paralysis. I try to take control of the situation and yell, "You better leave me alone. Get out of here right now!" It doesn't respond. I see red glowing eyes mocking me. Then I think of the only help I can call on. I begin to say, "I comma...." My voice gets stuck in my throat. (typical for SP) I try again forcing each word. My voice is a gasping whisper, "I command you...In the name of Jeeee... In the name of...JESUS." In that instant the weight is lifted and the presence is gone... or at least held at bay.

I am a little scared to transition again so I wait awhile and begin to spin. I feel myself rotating faster and faster. The feeling is somehow comforting and safe. At some point I feel my central axis shifting and find myself standing, then lying down, then standing again, all while spinning. Then, I blindly phase out through the bedroom door and push onward until I think I'm outside. I look around and see that I am still in the bedroom. I try falling backward through the wall and circle around through the door. I don't feel like I'm getting anywhere.

Then I am back in bed and I begin to see something bright. It looks like just a chunk of vision but it looks like our hardwood flooring. I feel like my physical eyes have opened and I close them. I see the dark line of my eyelids close over but I maintain the visual on the floor. I feel like I am seeing through my eyelids now. I move forward.

I am now in the living room but its dark again. I flip a light switch but nothing happens. I remember the demon and become frightened again. I can feel the presence of it in the dark kitchen. I look around and see the rest of the house is lit as it would be at this time of night which always adds to the realism. I say to the demon, "I'm going to kick your ass!" I start thinking that I should not have said that and I start running backward to the front door. I distantly realize that I have never ran backwards in a dream and the feeling is slow and awkward but I want to keep an eye on that demon. I am afraid I will be attacked or held back. When I reach the door I yell again, "Ill kick your ass if you follow me!" I hurriedly step outside and close the door. Safe.

I look around the neighborhood. There is no light but star light and the stars are uniformly spread across the night sky in a dotted grid of purplish blue LEDs. It's beautiful in a dark and dreary sort of way. I gasp and let out a ,"Wooow." I think of trying to fly to a star but like that one dream I feel this dream is still a little too unstable. Then, I remember my original task and walk out into the street. I call out, "Doctor? Doctor Who?" My voice is strong and loud now and I find this comforting. I am looking for an intelligent DC and I want it to be The Doctor.

I see a parked truck at the neighbor's and look in the back for the TARDIS but it is too dark. Now, there is a bright street light and nothing but void beyond the light's glow radius. Several times the darkness takes my vision but I bring the dream back by looking at my hands. I rub them and feel the asphalt. The sensation is surprisingly realistic as usual. As I do all of this I continue to yell for The Doctor to come.

This waiting is hard as I really have to focus to keep the dream together. I wander a little down the street to keep the dream flowing and stay somewhat active. Soon I see the headlights of two cars coming my direction out of the void. They park haphazardly around me and I begin visualizing the doctors face as people get out of the cars. My seems to be unstable and blurry but I see two women and two men. There may have been a fifth person but I cant tell. One woman looks like Bob's wife, Linda, and the other looks and older, heavier version of Sally Field. I didn't realize this until after I woke up but one man looks exactly like a version of The Master"

and the other guy stood farther back in the darkness but he was tall and slender like The 10th Doctor.

I ask Linda, "Where's Doctor Who?"
She looks confused, "who?"
I clarify, "I mean The Doctor. Where is The Doctor?"
She shakes her head.
"You don't know what I'm talking about do you? No? Of course not." I roll my eyes.

I feel the dream fade and I grab her arm to stabilize. Then, all the DCs become very animated and start talking to excitedly to each other all at once. The conversation was very fast and seemed intelligent. I tried following but only understood bits and pieces that I can not longer remember. l speak over them all, "I want to talk to the most intelligent dream character." They don't respond. They just keep talking to each other and the noise begins to sound like a crowd of people. I am annoyed but also amused. I say with a smile, "This was supposed to be a simple thing but now I have all these multiple personalties in my head!" I raise my hands in the air in aggravation.

Suddenly, the "Sally" one stands out the most and I pull her away from the group. "I want the most intelligent dream character. Is that you?"
She nods "yes" but her eyes stay fixed on the group like shes still following the conversation.
I beg her, "Please talk to me."
She calmly replies, "In a minute."
"No. I don't have much time." I know I will wake up soon.
She looks at me now. "OK. Ill talk to you."
I forget my original questions and pause for a moment. Then I think of the nightmarish transition earlier. "Why did I have that horrible image earlier?"
She automatically and quickly replies. "Because of your background history."
I pause and think this over but the dream starts to fade. I take her in a hug for stability and let the others fade out though I can still hear them like in a tin can far away someplace.
It is dark but I can feel her next to me. We continue our conversation in the void as I speak into her ear.
"OK, That makes a lot of sense but what is it?"
There's a brief silence as if she is thinking it over then, "It's your mobile imaging..."
I feel like the DC is breaking down to gibberish now but I continue anyway. "My mobile imaging?"
"...unfolded."
"My mobile imaging unfolded?"
She replies with a flat, "Yes."
I start to ask what she means but I want to remember this so bad. I repeat the phrase over in my mind. I have thoughts that I might forget the first parts of the dream and I unintentionally wake myself up.

The "background history" comment makes a lot of sense to me but the "mobile imaging unfolded" seems a little abstract. What I take from her response is that I sometimes get these bedside demonic entities from my radical evangelical religious background coupled with childhood fears. My subconscious mind merely manifests these things into being when I feel confused that my wife or some other person is in the room with me. Basically in short, It was just a figment of my imagination. Nothing more nothing less. Definitely not spiritual warfare.

Finally ! I Finally tried to dreamwalk ! Here' s my very first Dreamwalking trial :


Tensō


Lucidity: 9/10
Control: 7/10
Vivacity: 8/10


I WILDed two times before that, this is the following of the second lucid I had this night.

I wake up from a lucid and automatically DEILD. At one point, after closing my eyes for around two seconds, I give up on DEILDing, I just turn around to observe the moon...s. There are three huge red moons, kinda like that :
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After a while I stopped being amazed and decide to check reality. It doesn' t work. Screw reality checks, that ain' t possible. It's a dream. I get up and go out of my room. It' s dark. Too dark. I feel the dream fading, like sand slipping out of my hands. My sister comes; she starts making me loose my lucidity. Great. I can' t beat her up or I' ll get back in reality, so I rub my hands harder and harder doing my best to stay calm. As soon as I feel like I got my stability back, I rush to the light switch and light the room up. I renounce to the urge of destroying my sister and get out as fast as I can.

It' s raining. The night gets less dark and some kids come up to me and tell me something I don' t remember.
I try a standing front flip, I land like I do in real life : squatting. Oh well.
Wait, there' s something I wanted to do ... ah ! that' s right.
I get away from the pool and start shouting "Oneir --" nah, that' s not it.
So I start again doing the signs I chose for that technique and scream " Oneiros - TENSO" (tenso' s "transfer in Japanese), I fall on one knee and do the sign at the right upper corner of that photo :

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"Miaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggg gggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh"
Mia being how we' ll call my girlfriend ( whose dream I chose to walk in )
Looked like I wanted to become a super sayan.
I don' t see any bright light like I wanted, so when I' m done screaming I do a front flip to give the dream another reason to change scenery. As I flip I see the kids looking at me like I' m crazy. I guess they got a good reason.

I land in a park. I see some random kids from school. No Mia. I feel like I' ll wake up soon. I give myself no more than 20 seconds. I hurry and run up to a girl. I need to find her. I need her to see me, I need to wake her up so she remembers that. I turn that girl around. It' s not her. I was gonna ask her where Mia was but I woke up before I could say anything.
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So here it was, my first dreamwalking trial.
Anyways, for some reasons I didn' t feel like this was "just" a dream, I felt like it was another reality, where time is even more important than in real life.

The good news for this LD is that the light switches worked great! The bad news is that my prospective memory wasn't the best and my DC summons didn't work like they should, but I had fun trying. Some more focused mental prep and reminding myself of my goals would have helped, I think, so I'll just blame the short WBTB.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #89: Under Construction

I'm walking down a hall in my office with my friend "Leroy" and one other guy. The hallway is dimly lit and even though we're far from any windows, somehow I know that it's night outside. We're looking for some room that we can use to host a remote meeting that's scheduled to start in a few minutes.

The door at the end of the hall has been replaced with a thick sheet of plastic and the entire area looks like it's under construction. I think, "How do I know that this isn't a dream?" and I become lucid. I run my fingers over the wall, and it feels just like the walls at the office. "[Leroy], I'm having a lucid dream." Leroy doesn't respond and just stares robotically ahead. I continue to mutter about how I'm dreaming, but the target audience is really just me -- Leroy seems to have checked out.

We reach the end of the hall and I phase through the plastic into the next room, which should be a large, windowed room of cubicles, adjoining offices and meeting rooms. The windows are there but all of the furniture is missing and the room is incredibly dark. I reach for a switch on the wall without looking, knowing that it will be there, and flip it. The lights come on and I watch as the room quickly populates itself with gym equipment! I see a treadmill, a couple of stationary bikes, and a weight tree with 45-pound plates appear. I stare at the weight tree for a moment, and the image wavers self-consciously, forming odd little rectangles and finally disappearing entirely.

I decide to "give the room a moment", and look over my right shoulder at the wall for a few seconds and then look back. The room is still mostly the same but now there are five or six arcade-style redemption games arranged back to back in a circle in the middle. (The sort of ticket-winning games that you might find at Chuck E. Cheese's.) I take a quick lap around the games to size them up. During the lap I notice that Leroy is still standing by the room entrance and still seems unresponsive, so I don't worry too much about him.

I have the nagging sense that I'm supposed to be doing something but I can't remember what it is. I try to think of the tasks that I had planned but nothing comes to mind, not Task of the Year or Task of the Month. I remember talking with NewArtemis about trying to see whether her DC could shapeshift the way that she can in dreams, so I attempt a handshake summon, averting my eyes and extending my right hand. I do it incorrectly, though, more asking for her to show up rather than expecting that she will. Nothing happens for a while and at the end I rather pathetically say, "[NewArtemis], don't leave me hanging!"

Now I've become fixated on summoning so I decide to try getting Xanous to join the scene. Again I do the handshake summon, but the result's the same. I think of shapeshifting again and realize that Xanous can do this too. For some reason I remember that he uses the term "blutbad" in conjunction with shapeshifting so I randomly blurt out "Blutbad!" like that's going to help somehow. No idea what that was all about, but it doesn't work!

Edit: I remembered one more part of the dream. I give up on the summoning for a moment and try speaking directly to the dream. "Show me something important!" Nothing happens, though, and I try this twice more before giving up.

Amazingly, the thought of simply phasing through the walls and flying off into the night doesn't occur to me. I turn my attention to the redemption games, hoping that this could be fun and might even reanimate Leroy. I stand in front of one machine that's about 6 feet high and has a joystick on the front and a tall, tapering tower of lights inside its case. The lights are illuminated in a wave that moves repeatedly from top to bottom. I place my hand on the joystick, noting the little red button on top, and the dream starts to fade. I feel it coming and ready myself for DEILD, but when I emerge from the dream I'm too awake to go back in.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1(fragment):

I am walking around my room and shortly i feel an familiar feeling, like the feeling that i get when i become lucid, i decide to rub hands and indeed, the same feeling. But before i can do anything, dream fades out and i wake up. I attempt to DEILD but it seems like it's the end of the REM.

Nap #2(fragments):

I was in the helicopter and i was preparing to drop onto the roof of the tall building and do an assault operation, there was a pool and i dropped onto the garbage platform on it. I jumped around a few more platforms as they went down and pool looked to be very deep. In the end i failed one of the jumps and dropped into the pool. It was apparently very shallow and suddenly i was indoors and both the scene AND the storyline changed and i was just talking with some people and getting out of the pool.
Later on i was at home and was talking to mom about something, it involved menu which used icons from AI War for some reason.
And after that there was scene in some indoors area with yellow walls. There was a woman in black with an black hole generator device of some kind, which looked like three black rings that rotate randomly, as an part of the arm. She also had an companion which looked very stupid but was pretty smart. There was an talk between them and somebody else and after it dream ended.

4/22/13
I got into bed and just decided to go through my usual process for WILD instead of turning off completely. There are a lot of naps I take where I just practice going to sleep instead of practicing WILD. This time, I just went with my old strategy of not talking to myself and actively reminding myself not to talk to myself without using any words.

So I go to bed laying down on my stomach in a very comfortable position. HI starts up extremely fast. Or maybe I missed it. I began to feel a little funny and it wasn't SP. The lower half of my body begins to lift off the bed with a sensation that felt exactly like the times I had inflated myself before. I contemplate going with that, but I'm still not anchored into the dream and I didn't want to do anything that was going to interfere while I could still feel my real body. I tried to move my hand and it didn't work, so I could tell the dream wasn't quite ready.

I try to replace the floating sensation because there's an association with inflation and waking up in me right now. (I'm trying to remove this, because I do like the sensation otherwise.) The dark dream like state fills with water and it has a very refreshing feeling. I'm content floating in it, but I didn't really get rid of the inflated feeling. The water has the pattern of beach waves, and I get tossed forward and backward gently, floating halfway in the water. I don't offer any resistance to it.

I take my hand out of the water to see what would happen, and some bubbles appeared. I laughed, because I didn't have to think about the bubbles for any to come. The subconscious expectation has such a power that I can barely wait to start messing with it. A wave knocks over my head and I'm breathing underwater for a moment. I think about how dangerous this would be if I couldn't choke in real life.

4/23/13
I took another WILD nap today and had basically the exact same dream. The only difference, was that at the beginning, instead of avoiding inflation I tried to embrace it. I remembered that if I could initiate flight I would get some points for the LC. I didn't really start the transformation (that I could see, but I felt a little different) but I at least started floating more definitely than last night.
The dream still filled with water despite me not going for that this time, so it really seems like a huge copy.
I was going to try getting out of bed when my phone rang.

4/24/13
So I waited until the usual time before taking a nap again. I did more or less the same thing, but saw a bit less HI. I was planning on summoning the persona of someone I knew.
The same as the last two nights, I had a feeling of being lifted off the bed. The difference was that the previous two nights, it felt like I was being hoisted upwards by myself (A consequence of associating the lift with inflation), but this time it really only felt like my bed wasn't there. This was how my mind was presenting sleep paralysis onset, so I waited for sleep paralysis this time. Once the floating sensation transitioned to sleep paralysis, I did a DEILD roll and entered a complete dream version of my room at night.
I thought about summoning that dream character, but I didn't get very far before it destabilized. I don't remember what went wrong here, but I probably didn't strengthen the dream vividness enough.

04/21/13

Treasure on the Mountain
I am in a green field lying on a blanket, staring up at the clear blue sky. Someone is standing over me with a sword, and it looks like he is going to run it right through me when he gets struck by lightning. I hear, "Pii… kaa… chuuu!" as the lightning bolt goes off, the attacker collapses to the ground smoking slightly. I sit up and see there are more enemies around me, and a pikachu sitting right beside me. An angry pikachu. He uses his thunder attack on more of the people standing around me, I recognize them as Templars… I use Battery and add my lightning to Pikachu's storm.

Templars are taken out in a massive lightning storm. The field of green grass is now clear, though there are some burned spots on the grass where Templars got struck by lightning. I remember that the plan was to get to the moon and do some healing. I open a portal to get to the moon, then I go through into the area around the balancing pools. Nomad is already there, as is Winter. Winter is floating in the water as if asleep, she is a mermaid just floating in the middle of the pool about a foot under the surface of the water. I get in the water and feel its relaxing warmth, I focus healing energy into Winter and through Nomad's foot as well. Nomad has said the injuries on his foot are just about gone, which I am glad of. I focus more healing energy on Winter. I drift in the water for a few more minutes, or it might have been longer, I can't be sure. Nomad gets out of the water and I follow him to the moon tower. Inside the control room there is a display showing the deck of the Black Pearl, I know what ship it is because I can see Captain Jack Sparrow on it. A portal opens near the display and Nomad goes through it, I follow him. On the other side Jack doesn't seem surprised when Nomad and I just appear from nowhere. I notice we are sailing rather close to a sheer cliff on an island. The rock face climbs into the sky, it looks virtually impossible to scale. I see a ledge far up the cliff, almost to the top. I know that is where we are going. Jack says we have arrived just when needed as usual, so how do we go about getting to the treasure cave? I activate my tiara and form raven wings, flying up into the air briefly and then landing. Nomad transforms into a winged black feline, a lot like a large winged panther.

Jack says something about how having a pair of wings sure would be useful… I use Of Wolf and Man to transform Jack to a winged form, his wings turn out to look like the wings of a giant sparrow. He flaps them a couple times and easily takes flight. All of the crew are watching the three of us with their eyes wide, no one says anything about wanting a pair of wings of their own, however. I pick up a golden monkey statue before taking to the sky and flying up to the cave entrance. Nomad and Jack follow me. Inside the cave there is a pedestal near the far end of the cave. There is a spot on the pedestal that is the right size for the golden monkey. I set the monkey on the pedestal, it fits into an indentation like a key. It sinks down farther into the indentation and then a door slides open in the back of the cave, a door that had been completely invisible before. We go through the door and down a long passage before coming to a huge chamber. The chamber is illuminated through a hole in the roof of the cavern through which I can see blue sky. The room looks even brighter than it would otherwise look because there are piles of gold coins scattered through the room, huge piles, it definitely looks like a dragon nest. And in the middle of the room there is a large golden egg nestled in a particularly large pile of gold.

Nomad has gone over to the egg and is looking at it closely. I comment that without its mother's flame to warm it the egg won't hatch. Jack asks what I know about dragons, I tell him I have seen a dragon egg hatch one time before, and this one looks like that egg off of Harry Potter. Nomad transforms into a humanoid winged black panther and takes the egg carefully in hand. I look around and see Jack Sparrow collecting some gold in a large sack. He looks and sees me watching, he says his crew won't work for nothing… There is so much gold there that the small amount Jack collects isn't even noticeable. Nomad suggests taking more, the egg probably needs to be in gold when it hatches. I collect a bag full of gold before we leave the cave and fly back down. The door to the treasure chamber closes when we remove the monkey statue. We all fly back down to the ship where the crew is still waiting in the Black Pearl. Jack tosses his bag of gold over amongst them, telling them that is their cut to divide amongst them, they look in the bag and seem very happy with that. Someone asks what about the other bag, and what is with the egg? Jack says he's going to be a father… then indicates a chest, which I pour my bag of gold into. Nomad sets the egg in the chest carefully. I tell Jack it's going to need some fire to hatch… fire like its mother would provide if its mother had still been there. We build a nest out of hay, grasses, and some wood, and then I use a small fireball to set it on fire. The fire caresses the surface of the egg. Jack tells his crew to gather what they can find that will burn, that fire can't be allowed to go out. They start bringing various items over. I wonder if the egg can still hatch, how long has it been without its mother? I am still wondering this when I wake.

Wednesday 4/24/13

last night bed 1am - 8:50am

Today nap 11am - 1:20pm

Nap WILD

I was getting close to WILD, so I imagined I'm flying upwards and I started to feel sensation of flying up, then I imagined falling down, and got that strong sensation.

Here I thought, that I must be already dreaming, no need to wait for any clues and decided to get up. I payed attention to my body standing up and it felt as my real body. Went out on my balcony and thought I better confirm, before jumping off. I did a thumb/palm and it was going in easily. Didn't push it all the way through, because I was a little grossed out. Then I pinched my nose and I could breathe. I didn't do these RCs in a long time. Even so, I was just climbing down on the outside of the balcony instead of jumping off, just in case.


I'm walking through neighbors yard. Looks like it's winter, trees are without leaves, maybe with some yellow, spring flowers. I walk over to our yard and neighbor is looking at me and waving, calling my name. I yell back, yes, you can see me, because you do meditations (he does IWL). But he can't hear me, so he stops.

I perch myself on top of the fence and start singing. Beautiful voice, melody, cool words. I'm very happy with myself. (As WILDing, one of my requests was let me hear some beautiful music. So I guess this was it? I guess I need to specify "not sung by me")

My dad and my mom are in the yard and it's so real, as if I was there for real. Dad in red tshirt, cleaning vegetables.

I don't know what to do, so I say this is also nice, visiting family. Then I remember I wanted to go to starship Voyager. So I say when I turn around, there is starsip Voyager. I turn around all smiles, but there is only open field.

I walk through the fields with a little girl and we are finding lots of toys in bags. I ask her if she would like them. Principal walks by.

As I get out of this LD, I start to iniciate another flying/falling sensation and it works. At some point I can feel both up and down falling at the same time. It was awesome. When it was over, I smiled to myself and said ok, now we can go and have a lucid dream. Again, I said to myself no need to wait for clues, I just get up. The moment I got up, neighbor came home with such a ruckus, sounded like she is moving or something. Damn. Then I just got up and will continue tomorrow.

Total sleep time: 7 hrs

Dream1: I am in a supermarket looking at the shelves, trying to find some coal. I soon see a number of large plastic bags full of coal. All of them are sealed, and I need one piece only. I then notice that one of them is open and while pretending to be looking around, I swiftly take out a rather pointy piece of coal, the size of my palm. I put it in my pocket and try to pass the cashier without being noticed. The guard obviously sees something strange about my behaviour and soon finds the piece of coal. I try to mumble an excuse that I forgot to put it with the rest of my shopping items. He believes me, puts a barcode on it, I grab some more items and head for the cashier. I am examining the piece, thinking I should have gotten a smaller, rounder one.

And this wasn’t lucid?

Fragment2: Something that resembles my hometown, school classmates are here again. I am looking at what I consider to be a church, thinking about Sagrada Familia, but this building is brown and is Portuguese? I am trying to travel to school by bus but end up confused again.

Unidentified Fragment3: Where my grandma lives, the streets, but someone is blocking the way so I have to go around and use another road to go back home. I might have been lucid for a micro-second here, but my memory is really vague.

Dream4 DILD: I feel like I am still somewhere in my grandma’s neighbourhood, talking to one of my classmates. The story we are being told is rather strange and irrational, some kind of animals have been activated, they leave their cells, memory of skateboard? At first I think that these animals or whatever they are will wreck havoc in the city, so we will be safe in a hotel.

I am in the hotel, I have a room there, I notice that the place for the room card has some sort of inverted moustache things, but totally dismiss that. I am walking around the corridors, when I see a friend running around, looking somewhat scared. He tells me that he is running away from these things, because they are now in the hotel. I look down the stairs and see that they have completely messed up the first floor. I try to go back to my room, but get lost in the corridors. I enter some room, which then becomes my room.

A guy from the hotel staff enters the room, and pretends to inform us about the situation. But I feel that he is fake and one of them! I do not pay attention to him, but head for the window, start opening it. I look out and see that there are staff members on every window below me, supposedly explaining the situation to guests. What a perfect timing, these can’t be real staff members. I jump out of the window, land in the nearby yard, the staff member is after me.

I continue running and become lucid. I am in something like hill-like suburb area, so decide to descend by flying over the houses, instead of taking the road. I am flying over the hill and houses for some time, it’s great, flying feels as if I am on a deltaplane. I want to see if I can speed up my flight and try to by concentrating ahead of me, but the speed remains constant. Then, I have some minor navigational issues, I am turning left without any desire to do so, can’t continue to fly straight. I land near some houses.

Then I somehow find myself back in the hotel room! This time one of our guests from real life is in the room too. “We really should be leaving”, I tell her. She starts to pack her bags, wants more time. I tell her that there is no need to do that since this is a dream. She can leave everything here. She looks at me with some disapproval. I also feel like I have forgotten something and have the urge to take my handbag and room key. “What handbag, this is a dream!”, I remind myself and then jump out of the window again. We must have been on the second floor. I land down, my boyfriend is there this time. I see other hotel guests are trying to leave the hotel, so everybody is queuing for a taxi. I am so happy my boyfriend’s DS is here, finally I can have some fun with a partner, and we will do TOTM together. I say to him “You know what, this is a dream, so let’s not wait for the taxi, we will find an alternative way to go”. We leave the hotel area, we may have pushed a girl on the floor while walking out. She is now lying on the floor, my boyfriend looks at her with concern. “This is a dream, leave her”, I tell him.

We continue on the road and I do my speed movement thing - I am moving very fast, as if I am on a motor bike, just without one. Now it’s just me, speeding on the road, trying to get as far away from that hotel. I try to increase my speed to see how fast I can go. This time it works, but I only speed up to the extent that I am still able to observe where I am moving. I think about TOTM as I am moving forward, but decide I need to be just a bit further. I look around, some special medical center complex, it goes on and on. My memory gets messed up. I am seeing Gabriela from desperate housewives in my mind, her two children are really her younger sisters? I look in front of me, still moving forward “I am dreaming, I am dreaming” I tell myself, then everything slowly fades and I wake up.

Comments: Still no coal to diamond, but I got so many lucids in the past few days, I am simply speechless…

I'm having a hard time remembering how I got to understanding I was dreaming. I was in some room with many windows and a high ceiling. My understanding is that I'm in some building that is supposed to be recreational for kids 10-18. So I'm in this room, and I realize I'm dreaming and there's no one else in the room. Immediately after I figure out this is a dream, the dream starts to collapse and the room is getting dark. I start shouting "clarity now!" as I'm looking up at the ceiling that starts to get fuzzy and darker.

The dream exits out and I'm in dark matter alone with my thoughts. I'm thinking to myself 'did I cease to exist? this isn't right...' and then I feel my body land onto something under me. Of course it's me laying on my bed, but I can't see anything and I'm unable to move. I keep breathing heavily trying to wake myself up but nothing is working. Suddenly, I emerge into this really bright room sitting on a bed. The walls are covered with long streaks of blue, red, and orange and the ceiling seems to open up into the bright yellow sky. I take one look at this place and conclude that the last room I was in was simply a dream and that now I'm actually awake. This place seemed too real to be a dream... this is experience was surprisingly very freaky and scary for the amount of stuff that didn't happen.

This was a very long dream / lucid dream series, going on for at least 45 minutes to an hour. I lost lucidity early on and regained it, so the first part of the dream is extremely scrambled. Also, a little background on one portion: I recently found out that Wife thinks lucid dreaming is more or less a waste of time. I was disappointed by this and concerned about what her DC might be like in future dream appearances.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #88: Reconciliation Hour

I'm in a lucid dream where I'm in a current of strong running water. I'm taking things easy, reminding myself to be more patient in life. I have a false awakening into a completely rearranged version of my house, downstairs. I hunt around for my dream journal... there it is, on the counter! I reach for it and as I grab it, my friend The Schwartz walks up and asks, "Hey, whatcha doing?"

"Hang on, [The Schwartz], I've gotta get these dreams written down. My dream memory is good for like 3 seconds. If I think about anything else, it'll all go away." I feel my dream memories leaking out of my ears. (Figuratively.) He looks a little hurt and I remember that the message of the dream I just finished was to be more patient. "Sorry, man. I know I'm not as patient as I should be sometimes. My dream was about getting better at that. You were even in it." (I assume this is true but no longer have any memory of it.)

I crouch down by a coffee table and get ready to write. Just then a full-sized poodle noses aggressively toward me. "Hey puppy," I say, reaching out to pet it. The dog turns away, totally snubbing me, circles around behind me, and then bites me hard on the butt. Another dog, a German shepherd joins the poodle and behind them I see my real two dogs (Siberian Huskies) lying on the carpet, panting.

"[Wife]!!" I wail, going into the kitchen. "Why do we have four freaking dogs in this house now? Wasn't two bad enough?"

Wife is in the kitchen cooking huge pans of a strange, purplish, bubbling yogurt conconction with her mom. "Oh, those belong to sissy and [brother-in-law Muppet]. We're just taking care of them." I grumble at this but sit down to journal. All but the last 2 pages of the DJ are filled, and the last entry is really hard to read. It says something about 139 pounds, but everything else is blurry and shifty. I demand proof that I'm not dreaming and become lucid.

"Hey, [Wife]," I say. "I'm having a lucid dream."

"Cool!" she responds. "Why don't we go to the park?" And then we're someplace else, holding hands and walking outside along a broad, grassy path with a great number of other people. We trudge past a flooded parking lot and the steel-toed boots I'm apparently wearing are soaked through. I'm annoyed at first, then remember that I can just fix it -- I do.

After walking for a long while, we get to a playground. The playground is a sort of cross between a playground and a petting zoo because all sorts of little animals like sheep and pigs are playing on the equipment as well, mingling with the kids. Our two kids (who weren't in the scene before) streak past us and join in the playing. My oldest son E sort of sits on another boy and I cringe, worrying that there might be some sort of confrontation. All is well, though, and everyone plays happily.

We do this for a while and then wander various paths in the park, the kids coming and going. There's an indoor scene as well where our son E gets to take a class and writes on the blackboard (something he can't do all that well IWL yet.)

Eventually we return home and put E to bed, except he's sleeping in a crib for some reason now. I'm happy, the way I feel after a great day out with the family. I keep looking at my hands as we put him to bed, reminding myself that I'm dreaming. Each time I do, I seem to grow an extra finger. The extra fingers even work pretty well although it seems to take extra special effort to move the "new" fingers vs. the old ones. By the end, my right hand has nine fingers.

As we leave his room, I show my freaky alien-looking hand to Wife and she laughs, saying, "That's awesome." I laugh too, peeling the extra fingers off like a glove and tossing it into the corner of a room where it lands with a rubbery thump. The fingers transform into a brightly-colored kerchief.

I say, "You know, I wish you felt differently about lucid dreaming." (IWL, Wife expressed that she thinks lucid dreaming is pretty much a waste of time.)

"I love that you have these dreams," she says, smiling.

I'm confused. "But you pretty much told me that this was a waste of time." She looks away, her smile fading. Then it hits me how caught up I am in confusing fantasy and reality, even while lucid. "Sorry. I forgot. Here and now."

She smiles again and turns to leave the room. I check her out as she's walking away. "Not gonna happen..." she says, without turning around, and bounds out of the room. I follow as the dream fades...

Dream recall from today's naps. Short WILD and short DILD, still a good result after yesterday.

Nap #1:

I am in my bed and i have feeling that something's different. I open eyes and room is indeed different, i take off headphones and can still hear binaural beats, confirming that i am dreaming. I notice mom doing something on the table to the left, which is table that is not in my room IWL. I get up and rub hands, dream stabilizes, but as i walk towards the balcony i accidentally make an error, i think about the waking body in the bed... and i wake up.

Nap #2(fragment):

I was in my room, i was recording some game, but i was controlling it from the distance and apparently my PC was not really there? I recall there was some part of the level with falling platforms. While recording i noticed that there's alot of circular sawblades on my bed(Sawblades looked like ones from Half-Life 2), i was a bit annoyed and kicked them off the bed onto the floor. Their physics glitched out(Again, like it happens in HL2) and two of them were stuck floating in the air horizontally. I sat onto one of them while recording, and then was thinking that i finally recorded something while sitting on the sawblade and how awesome it is( ).
Ad i finished with recording i went to do an WILD attempt, as i was falling asleep i felt something different, like that i am dreaming, but for some reason i can't open eyes. I start rubbing hands and after a few seconds i can open eyes, though not fully. In a few seconds the pillow starts shaking and there's loud noise that gets louder and louder, it gets ridiculously loud and then changes into a snore as i wake up properly.
Dunno if it was an actual snore or HH...