lucid

Continued from: Dreams change - A stay at an ice hotel on another world - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

I can hear voices. They are very gentle voices whispering unknown names.
I feel like I'm floating.
Am I in SP? Am I dreaming? Am I dreaming within the dream?
I try to open my eyes but I can't.
I can't feel my eyes, in fact, I can't feel my body at all.
But I remain calm, I'm not worried at all.
I like the whispering voices, they are so calm.

Once of the voices gradually becomes louder:

"Wake up sleepy head!"

Huh? what? My eyes finally open.
Yuya is leaning over me.

"You weren't kidding when you told me you were a deep sleeper."
"How late is it? It feels way too early to get up."
"Does it matter? You do realize that you're technically asleep anyways yes?"

Huh? ... oh... OH!

I get our of bed.

"I forgot."
"Of course... don't forget to breathe. "

I don't get that she's making fun of me at first, and think about whether I have to breathe or not.
As soon as I get out of bed I realize how cold it still is.
I realize that I'm still in the same bedroom as before, but the thought is very vague and in the back of my head.

I start rubbing my hands instinctively.

"Cold?"
"No... I'm... stabilizing?"
"Does the dream seem unstable to you?"

I can literally feel everything.

"No."
"Then stop rubbing your hands and let's do something productive, alright? "
"Yes... how about we go somewhere... a bit less cold?"
"It's an interesting experience for sure, but I think I've had enough of it."
"Haha, alright, let's go to the other side of the planet, I think you're gonna prefer it over there."

She does the bubble teleport trick again. I have no idea how it works, but it is very quick.

We end up in a new location. It feels a bit dark at first, but my eyes quickly adapt.
In fact I very quickly acquire the surreal version I've experienced quite a few times in my dreams.
The landscape looks amazing!



Everything is sort of dark, yet anything that emits light is so colorful and bright.
The contrast between things is extreme.

"There's a small village right over there."

We're walking towards it slowly, I'm in no hurry.
I really enjoy just being here. Everything is so beautiful,
the temperature is just right, and there's a nice breeze of fresh air.

I take a closer look at Yuya as we walk along this path, discussing random things.
My vision is so good, I can see the pores on her skin.
She's so beautiful...

"Are you staring?"
"Err... it's... for science!"
"Haha... you monster. "

The portal reference amuses me.

We have to cross a bridge before entering.
There's a few funny looking animals floating in the sky above the bridge.
They all look like they belong in the sea rather than the sky, but they're interesting to look at nevertheless.



Everything is so colorful. I really love it when I have this surreal vision.
I should focus on it more often.

We finally enter the village.
It is inhabited by humanoids.
I've met their kind before, they're very similar to humans, except they are in some kind of symbiosis with plants.
You can see it very clearly if you look at their hair, because it's intermixed with plants growing out of their heads.
It looks kinda cool. Some of them also have wings.



We sit down at a bar out in the open. It's a really nice evening.
I suddenly realize that even though I'm always intrigued and amazed by these alien creatures,
I never actually talk to them.
It's time to change that.
There's a women sitting with us at the bar, why not talk to her?

"Hey, I'm Hyu, nice to meet you!"

Well, that might have been a bit formal.
She looks at me curiously.

"Hey! What species are you?"
"I'm human."
"Ooh, interesting! Spirit or dreamer?"
"I'm dreaming."

Oh wait, that's right. I AM dreaming.
Well, I guess I haven't really forgotten, I just haven't thought about it for some time.

"So, what do you do?"
"What do you mean?"
"In waking life, what do you do?"
"I err..."

Yuya looks at me funny.

"He's programming computer games."
"Oh, what's that?"

I'm not sure how to explain, but I can feel Yuya's thoughts,
which make it quite clear that all 3 of us could simply share our thoughts and
my explanations would make perfect sense.

So I proceed to explain what computer games are, and what programming them involves.
I'm really surprised by how well she understands everything, she is super excited to hear
about virtual games from another world.
Yuya becomes rather interested as well and we end up discussing what I am currently working on.

I talk about quadtree terrain, tesselation, atmospheric scattering, all sorts of things,
and everything makes perfect sense to them.
Even though I find some of the topics rather difficult, because they're rather new to me,
I am able to explain everything perfectly.
This is a lot more difficult in waking life.
Explaining what a quadtree is, and why it's useful for terrain is usually enough to fuck with people's minds.

Yuya and the other girl keep asking questions about computer games.
I try to show both of them a few games by projecting memories of playing them into their minds.
I end up showing them a few images from Portal, and they find the game concept amazing.
Logic puzzles seem to be very popular in the dream world.

After some time I feel the dream drifting away.
That's really unfortunate, I'm enjoying myself a lot.
I can't seem to prevent it by willpower though, and I'd feel stupid spinning around.

"Aww... I'm waking up..."

The words don't really leave my mouth, they just echo in my mind.
I wake up...

It's only after a few seconds that I realize how long this dream lasted.
My mind must be playing tricks on me, because combined with the last dream,
this felt like it lasted for at least half a day easily.

I neglected my online DJ quite a bit. :/
I'll try to update it more regularly again.


I'm walking around my room when I suddenly spot an owl sitting on the frame of a window leading outside.
I get a déjà-vu feeling. This doesn't come as too much of a surprise though, this very thing happened today in waking life.
(It did, I actually managed to film him for a minute or so. )


I am dreaming.
The owl flies away as I approach the window. That's kind of unfortunate, I wanted to pet it.
Looking outside the window I notice that everything looks rather weird.
For one, the colors are off, but the shapes of the trees don't seem to be correct either.
Everything looks close to it's waking life counterpart, but at the same time, it couldn't be more different.

This is kind of weird, and I decide to jump out of the window to investigate.
I don't feel the impact of landing at all, the dream probably isn't very stable.
I start rubbing my hands, to get some feeling into my dream body.
As I do this I notice that the whole sky changes.
Huh? this is odd.
It suddenly starts to snow, even though there are no clouds in the sky, and it doesn't really feel that cold?

Just as I think that, I can suddenly feel the icy breeze. What the heck?
I decide to take my shirt off, to feel the cold even more strongly to hopefully further stabilize the dream.
This has worked once in the past, it might work again.
Unfortunately it doesn't really strengthen my senses though.
I can still feel the coldness, but the feeling is quite dull.
The colors aren't very vivid either, and rubbing my hands doesn't feel right.

I turn around and notice that my house is gone.
This dream isn't stable at all, this isn't working.
I decide to try something I have thought of a few times.
I will wake myself up, then try to DEILD and hopefully end up in a more stable dream.
I close my eyes and wait for a bit, focusing on not opening my eyes.

I wake up within seconds, and my eyes open just a tiny bit before I'm able to stop.
After some light flashing, which I don't really think about, I seem to fall back asleep.

I'm not entirely certain that I have begun dreaming yet, but I open my eyes anyways.
Yep, definitely dreaming!
I get up and rub my hands again, this time it feels much more realistic.
Great! I summon my phoenix wings and teleport to Teraluna, hoping to meet up with Yuya.


After meeting up we stroll over the local market, discussing random things.
I end up telling her about the dream I had previous to this one.

"Something has changed, my dreams feel different..."
"How so?"
"Colors for example. My dreams used to be dominated by cold colors, but they aren't anymore."
"Then there's coldness, I have only recently started to experience dreams where I was cold."
"Don't get me wrong, I don't dislike it at all, but for some reason it feels so weird."
"Haha, don't worry about it, your perception can change over time, it's perfectly natural."

"Yeah... if only the cold would feel remotely as enjoyable in waking life."
"You really seem to enjoy it in dreams, you've mentioned it before."
"Hey, wanna go visit the temple of ice on Twi'jur?"
"Uuh... sure, why not?"

I'm a bit worried that I won't make the transition to a new place without waking up.
This dream has been going on for some time now.
I try to suppress that thought though, it won't do me any good.

Yuya performs some sort of trick to create a teleportation bubble.
It's the first time I'm seeing it, she usually draws portals.


We end up inside a big room, which reminds me of an hotel reception.
I shiver from the cold... this place is completely made out of ice!



I wonder if ice hotels look anything like this in waking life... well, probably not.
We start walking up a spiral staircase, which is made out of ice as well.
The ice is very clear and you can see through the stairs.
My feet start hurting really bad from walking on the ice barefoot.
It really burns. I wanted to ignore it at first, but it just becomes too painful over time.

I decide to channel a tiny bit of energy into my feet, to heat them up.
I can feel a tiny layer of ice melting under my feet, and the pain immediately goes away.

"Try not to melt the whole place down, yes?"
"Haha, no worries."

Thinking about it, Yuya doesn't seem cold at all.
We reach a higher level of the building we're in, which is a lot more lively than it was downstairs.
There are different kind of humanoid creatures walking and flying around.
I spot many fairy type creatures with ice wings.
I'm assuming that they're the natural inhabitants of this place.



We stop at some kind of shop... they're selling ice creams, sweet!
It seems like you can only get a single scoop of ice cream at a time.
Yuya and I both get one.
She's sort of staring at me, waiting for me to eat my ice cream which I find a bit weird.
I decide to do something funny and put the whole thing in my mouth with a single bite.

"What... what are you doing?"

I realize I can't swallow, it's too big.
But I know just what to do, I channel some energy into my mouth, melting the ice cream, and swallow everything at once.
It was still quite a bit colder than I anticipated though.
I get a massive brain freeze, it hurts so much that my vision blacks out for a second.

"Haha, what are you doing? You don't learn, do you?"
"Nope. This is the correct way of eating ice cream, I insist! "

We did something after that, but I cannot recall what it was.

It's getting late and we're both tired.
Fortunately this seems to be an hotel and we get a room for the night.
To my disappointment, the bed is made out of ice as well.
Sure, there are some cloth covers over it, but this is going to be a cold night.
It's probably going to be uncomfortably hard as well.

"I can't promise that I'm not going to melt through this during the night."
"Haha, please don't do that, I don't want to drop into the room below us midnight."
"That would be quite awkward... but insanely hilarious."
"No doubt, I still suggest you keep your firey spells to a minimum."
"Alright alright. "

Sharing a bed doesn't feel uncomfortable anymore.
I remember that it felt really awkward the first few times after I started inducing lucid dreams,
but for some reason it abruptly stopped.
I'm much more confident around Yuya, I like it.

The bed isn't as uncomfortable and as cold as I thought it would be.
Still, I'd prefer it do be warmer.
My vision quickly starts blacking out.
No wonder, it feels like this dream has lasted for hours, there's no way I can keep it up for longer...

Continued: http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/hyu/...r-games-24512/

I had a long dream which I do not remember anything from, except that I was standing in my backyard. I looked over the crop field hill, then realized I was dreaming and became lucid. I wanted to get over the hill, so I took off and flew like a professional at a high speed and full control. A small moment after I came over the hill I opened my eyes though.
Kinda interesting actually. As I opened my eyes, I saw the dream disappear with the eyelids, as if it was some movie and you saw the person open their eyelids from their own point of view. I'm not sure if it was a false awakening..

Thebeastofold's Dream


driving with employer, stonehenge, and sky curtain?


I woke up at 4:16 am again as i most always do.....so i decided tyo do a WBTB WILD...and what an experience......after pictureing and repeating "chichen-Itza" over and over again in my mind, and as i was WILD'ing, i noticed, froma distance, my fingers, hands and toes were twitching, and my eyes were moving as if i was in deep REM....and just as i went into the dream, i fainly remembering rolling over as i entered the dream....I also noticed, just as dreamed,. i felt a brief whole body tingling..i dont know if i was getting to astral or what......i dont know...

I was in a room ive started in in many many dreams over the years, seemed to be aspects of every bedroomive ever llived in, there was a huge pot with tons of twisted and curled twigs stuffed into it, with a vase nestled in the middle of the twigs....and i kept looking at it, convinced someone had switched out the original vase with the one that was in it now...weird....i becam,e semi lucid and decided to go outside. my employer was sitting in a car in the driveway, and i thought, maybe he can drive me to chichen-itza! so i got in, and we drove for about 15 minutes or so, i was guessing..and all of a sudden, i was completely lucid! i said stop! when he stopped i jumped out and looked around and said yes! i'm dfreakin lucid! i can get to chichen itza now! and i repeated chichen itza several times as i was looking around, then the dream started getting fuzzy, so i yelled "clarity now!" a couple times then it was crystal clear...i decided to to a RC and tried to push my fingers through my palm..it didnt work, but i was even more lucid now than i was before, i looked over to the horizon and the horizon was a giant curtain, with 2 openings, one opening was a stonehenge tilithon in the centerm, and it was pouring rain on either side of it...the other opening was even bigger, it was freakin huge, and i decided to go there...i started running, then thought, i'm dreaming, why not fly! so i took off flying!! it was really cool, i flew into the larger opening and there was a giant freakin huge glass tube tv sitting there, mustve been 3 or 4 stories tall and wide, and there was a picrture of chichen-itza on it....and as with alot of my flying dreams, i tried to fly to the tv, but i flew inthe opposite direction i wanted to go, so i bounced off the wall opposite the tv, and off the long ass couch that was there, and i concentrated on lucidity and flew straight tothe tv...i got to the tv and hit the screen with my hand..i was hoping to fly through it, and i noticed the screen was super dusty...heh weird, i kept floating all around the screen but couldnt get through it, and i said outloud, come one! i'm freakin lucid! what more do you want!!! at that point, i heard a voice in my head say, kind of in a ragged whisper "the stones are the key" and as i turned to go the the stonehenge trilithon i woke up......havent been that lucid in a while..it was great!!! and my second WILD! way cool!!!

Smoked weed last night, killed recall. Only one dream remembered.

The Golden Frozen Mangos

I was walking along a sidewalk sale, something similar to a clearance sale in a rich town.
There was a fresh market stand with some very delicious looking food.
I pull out and glance into my wallet, I find IOU's and a used condom wrapper.
Then I walk over to the stand and look at what they have.
All kinds of exotic fruits and berries were sprawled out on a wooden cart.
The stand-keeper notices me nearby and says he "noticed my interest in his stock."
He exclaims to me that he has "what my mind desires"
At this point I'm like WTF this guy is a creeper.
He tells me that I need to give him $5 and he will show me.
I tell him I have no money, and I look into my wallet again.

There were 2 crisp $50 bills lined up in the pocket of my wallet.
I didn't have that money before, and instantly it hit me.
Reality had melted and reformed before my eyes.
I was lucid.
I handed the man a 50 and told him to keep the change.
He led me over to something I had not previously seen.
It reminded me of one of those ice cream vendors that can be wheeled around with an umbrella.
Inside there were bags of frozen mangos.
They seemed to glow.

The man gave me a bag, and I was on my way.
I tore open the bag and started eating the mangos.
They were the most delicous, and ripest flavored mangos I had ever tasted.
It seemed like 5 minutes that I had walked down the street and ate mangos.

As I do in all my lucids, I found the keys to my BMW in my pocket, and there it was by the sidewalk.
I hopped in, and sped off.

The leather stitching, and interior were all down to the mark. Gear shifting as smooth as butter, the smell of the clutch was in the air.

All the lights were turning green in my favor and I was enjoying myself.

I heard a strange sound that seemed almost external.
Everything turned to blackness, and I felt tired.

My friend had woken me up for breakfast.

Mayatara's Dream

Thugs
With Zilla and Riverstone at my hometown. We just left my mom's and we're going down the street when some thugs get out of a car at the end of the street and start pointing guns to people and robbing them. One of the guys, a chunky Mexican looking guy, points a small black revolver to my face. I evaluate the situation, notice that the other guys are busy with their own victims, so I react very quickly by stealing the gun and pointing it back at him. I tell my friends to run and I'm thinking what to do next. I planned to shoot the guy on the leg, so he won't chase us, but there are some kids around and I fear they might get hit by lost bullets, so I just pretend that I will shoot and then shoot into the air and run after my friends. The other guys realize what's going on and all start to chase us. I run to my mom's door with the key, to let my friends in. I'm worried about their safety.

Student exchange I
I'm at some foreign city, I get a bit lost in the streets, but finally I arrive at a university where apparently I'm spending some time - maybe a summer course or a student exchange. There are a lot of students from Africa, Middle East, Asia... but I'm particularly close to some arab girls, who look like super-models. They are all very intelligent, cult and independent. I see them as the future of their countries, until one day when they appear all dressed up, impressive hair and make up and invite me to join them in going out with some rich arab guys, who are looking for brides. I see these intelligent, independent woman, all of a sudden obsessed about just looking pretty to hunt a rich husband and I tell them how that is disappointing. But the worst thing is that deep down, I am also imagining myself being courted by some sexy arab prince myself and the idea pleases me. I go for a walk in the park to clear up my head.

Greasy kitchen
I'm working at a communal kitchen, serving the poor and starving people. I am incredibly sweaty, greasy and grimy, when I'm surprised by the visit of my guru to the premises. At first I don't recognize him in the strange clothes he is wearing and all the people around him, but when I do, I break through the crowd to greet him. He doesn't seem to recognize me under all the dirt on my face, but he finds me somewhat familiar. Not enough to stop to talk to me, so he just leaves and I feel sad.
Anyway, I don't have much free time to sob, because someone calls me to the kitchen, saying it's an emergency. There's a little monkey hiding under the kitchen counter and he seems in distress for no apparent reason. I take him out with care and realize he is not hurt. He is nevertheless very stressed out about something under the counter. I check it out and I find there a sick hamster, who is his little friend. I take care of both and the little monkey calms down and looks thankful.

Lucid experiments
I get lucid when inside some house, near a window and I fly to the outside. I should have recalled the meeting point at Chichen Itza, but instead in my mind came the idea to try some things I had discussed with a guy past friday about lucids, namely, doing meditation in action, trying to smell things and plunging on the ground.
So I floated slowly down a stone paved path, with only my toes touching the ground and used that sensation as the focus of the meditation. This path was leading downwards to the ocean and was flanked by a stone wall. After a while going through it, I saw some flowers to my left, over the stone wall and I stopped to smell them. Their smell was subtle but very clear. It was a sweet perfume, but they all seemed to smell the same way, from geraniums to lilies. Anyway, it was an accomplished task, which I don't recall ever have tried before.
Then I floated to a patch of grass and plunged on the ground, wanting to experience "swimming" on the soil. This guy I met told me he still hadn't succeed in doing so and I had never tried. Apparently it is very hard, because our mind sees it as a solid barrier. Crossing a wall is easier, because you come out on the other side, but "swimming" on the soil is quite more challenging.
For a very brief moment I did it. I could see and feel the grains of soil surrounding my body and offering resistance to my "swimming", but soon I was "ejected" to the surface and could not continue doing it anymore. So I had the idea to look for a mole tunnel. Sure it would be tiny, but I could easily trick my mind to go through it and have the experience of "swimming" underground.
I found a hole and put my head inside it, but had to retrieve as two cute little puppies were coming out in my direction. Then a black chicken came out and a third puppy. Apparently it was the den of some wild dogs and they kept living chickens inside as livestock. This totally distracted me and I lost lucidity. I was totally enchanted with the little puppies when a fourth came out of the den. He was completely white and had a few blood spots on his fur. I took him to my mom's and cleaned his wounds in the bathroom. I noticed he smelled really badly, like dry blood and poop. He then started talking to me. He said he had one bad injury on his belly under the fur and asked me to treat it to. I asked him to breathe deep as I poured hydrogen peroxide and he was very stoic. I put bandages over his wounds and he thanked me for my kindness.

Student exchange II
Back to the student exchange dream, I'm now supposed to be with some team mates going to a game, which resembled handball but was plaid with juggling clubs. There were four teams, paired up into two simultaneous games. Our performance would count for the final evaluation of our exchange experience or whatever it was. But some girls from an adversary team plus their trainer, really hated our guts for some reason, so they gave us wrong information and we didn't actually know that our game was somewhere else, but we thought it was right there after theirs. So we waited, just to find in the end that the rest of our team had been waiting for us elsewhere and had lost the game for insufficient players. We tried to defend ourselves, hoping to save our final scores, but the trainer bitch
was denying that they had tricked us. I couldn't accept the injustice, so I kept on pestering her until she was so sick of me she admitted in front of everybody what had happened. We would still fail on sports, but I didn't care, I had high scores on everything else.
It was my last day there and I went for a stroll in the city. It looked like somewhere in the UK. Could be London. There was a nice flea market and I wanted to buy lots of stuff but I restrained myself, thinking about the luggage limits on the airplane. Then I heard music and found a live concert in a square. For some reason, I was convinced in the dream that the band was the Arctic Monkeys, but I don't even know them. They looked more like a gay band on a gay parade. Don't ask me why.

Keanu Reeves
Also have a fragment of a dream with Keanu Reeves on it, but I just recall he was sitting on a chair to my right.

I appeared in my room. I got up and looked around, making the dream stable. I thought about how realistic everything looked and felt.

I walked out my front door, trying to picture something els on the other side. After several times, I decided to just fly to where I wanted to go.

I flew off my porch, amazed at how real the chilly wind felt. I pictured snowy mountains off further in the distance and they came into view. I spotted a series of caves in the mountains.

The mountains and caves, looked like they had World of Warcraft graphics. I flew into the caves, trying to find the frost giant. I thought the frost giant looked like a dwarf from WoW, a dwarf wizard. I was incorrect, the frost giant looks like a yeti.

I woke up in my bed again and flew outside to the mountains again, with new knowledge of how to explore the dream.

I was flying near the mountains and I spotted what looked like the dwarf wizard, on a rocky platform. I flew down, but I had difficulty. After fighting my way down, I found that it wasn't the dwarf I was looking for.

Frustrated, I flew through more caves, trying to find him. After doing so for awhile I woke up.



((((I'm going to find that dwarf next weekend, I think ill call him the frost dwarf.))))

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

1:00

Thugs
With Zilla and Riverstone at my hometown. We just left my mom's and we're going down the street when some thugs get out of a car at the end of the street and start pointing guns to people and robbing them. One of the guys, a chunky Mexican looking guy, points a small black revolver to my face. I evaluate the situation, notice that the other guys are busy with their own victims, so I react very quickly by stealing the gun and pointing it back at him. I tell my friends to run and I'm thinking what to do next. I planned to shoot the guy on the leg, so he won't chase us, but there are some kids around and I fear they might get hit by lost bullets, so I just pretend that I will shoot and then shoot into the air and run after my friends. The other guys realize what's going on and all start to chase us. I run to my mom's door with the key, to let my friends in. I'm worried about their safety. I wake up with the sound of an alarm of a car out in the street.

2:10

Student exchange I
I'm at some foreign city, I get a bit lost in the streets, but finally I arrive at a university where apparently I'm spending some time - maybe a summer course or a student exchange. There are a lot of students from Africa, Middle East, Asia... but I'm particularly close to some arab girls, who look like super-models. They are all very intelligent, cult and independent. I see them as the future of their countries, until one day when they appear all dressed up, impressive hair and make up and invite me to join them in going out with some rich arab guys, who are looking for brides. I see these intelligent, independent woman, all of a sudden obsessed about just looking pretty to hunt a rich husband and I tell them how that is disappointing. But the worst thing is that deep down, I am also imagining myself being courted by some sexy arab prince myself and the idea pleases me. I go for a walk in the park to clear up my head.

3:00

Greasy kitchen
I'm working at communal kitchen, serving the poor and starving people. I am incredibly sweaty, greasy and grimy, when I'm surprised by the visit of my guru to the premises. At first I don't recognize him in the strange clothes he is wearing and all the people around him, but when I do, I break through the crowd to greet him. He doesn't seem to recognize me under all the dirt on my face, but he finds me somewhat familiar. Not enough to stop to talk to me, so he just leaves and I feel sad.
Anyway, I don't have much free time to sob, because someone calls me to the kitchen, saying it's an emergency. There's a little monkey hiding under the kitchen counter and he seems in distress for no apparent reason. I take him out with care and realize he is not hurt. He is nevertheless very stressed out about something under the counter. I check it out and I find there a sick hamster, who is his little friend. I take care of both and the little monkey calms down and looks thankful.

4:00

Lucid experiments
I get lucid when inside some house, near a window and I fly to the outside. I should have recalled the meeting point at Chichen Itza, but instead in my mind came the idea to try some things I had discussed with a guy past friday about lucids, namely, doing meditation in action, trying to smell things and plunging on the ground.
So I floated slowly down a stone paved path, with only my toes touching the ground and used that sensation as the focus of the meditation. This path was leading downwards to the ocean and was flanked by a stone wall. After a while going through it, I saw some flowers to my left, over the stone wall and I stopped to smell them. Their smell was subtle but very clear. It was a sweet perfume, but they all seemed to smell the same way, from geraniums to lilies. Anyway, it was an accomplished task, which I don't recall ever have tried before.
Then I floated to a patch of grass and plunged on the ground, wanting to experience "swimming" on the soil. This guy I met told me he still hadn't succeed in doing so and I had never tried. Apparently it is very hard, because our mind sees it as a solid barrier. Crossing a wall is easier, because you come out on the other side, but "swimming" on the soil is quite more challenging.
For a very brief moment I did it. I could see and feel the grains of soil surrounding my body and offering resistance to my "swimming", but soon I was "ejected" to the surface and could not continue doing it anymore. So I had the idea to look for a mole tunnel. Sure it would be tiny, but I could easily trick my mind to go through it and have the experience of "swimming" underground.
I found a hole and put my head inside it, but had to retrieve as two cute little puppies were coming out in my direction. Then a black chicken came out and a third puppy. Apparently it was the den of some wild dogs and they kept living chickens inside as livestock. This totally distracted me and I lost lucidity. I was totally enchanted with the little puppies when a fourth came out of the den. He was completely white and had a few blood spots on his fur. I took him to my mom's and cleaned his wounds in the bathroom. I noticed he smelled really badly, like dry blood and poop. He then started talking to me. He said he had one bad injury on his belly under the fur and asked me to treat it to. I asked him to breathe deep as I poured hydrogen peroxide and he was very stoic. I put bandages over his wounds and he thanked me for my kindness.

7:00

Student exchange II
Back to the student exchange dream, I'm now supposed to be with some team mates going to a game, which resembled handball but was plaid with juggling clubs. There were four teams, paired up into two simultaneous games. Our performance would count for the final evaluation of our exchange experience or whatever it was. But some girls from an adversary team plus their trainer, really hated our guts for some reason, so they gave us wrong information and we didn't actually know that our game was somewhere else, but we thought it was right there after theirs. So we waited, just to find in the end that the rest of our team had been waiting for us elsewhere and had lost the game for insufficient players. We tried to defend ourselves, hoping to save our final scores, but the trainer bitch
was denying that they had tricked us. I couldn't accept the injustice, so I kept on pestering her until she was so sick of me she admitted in front of everybody what had happened. We would still fail on sports, but I didn't care, I had high scores on everything else.
It was my last day there and I went for a stroll in the city. It looked like somewhere in the UK. Could be London. There was a nice flea market and I wanted to buy lots of stuff but I restrained myself, thinking about the luggage limits on the airplane. Then I heard music and found a live concert in a square. For some reason, I was convinced in the dream that the band was the Arctic Monkeys, but I don't even know them. They looked more like a gay band on a gay parade. Don't ask me why.

8:30

9/25/11

DILD

Recall: decent

Notes: This was a long dream, but my recall has slumped a bit recently.

It all started back in Oak Park. I was wandering around with two friends at nighttime, and we approached my middle school. There was a lot of action going on around; police were everywhere. We found out that people suspected a shooting was about to take place. We decided to go in and stop it. My two friends were wearing bullet-proof vests, but I didn't have one. They were some bounty hunter type people. People around think I am crazy for walking in there unarmed and unprotected.

So we split up and look for anything suspicious. I wander the halls for awhile, while occasionally peaking into classrooms and checking out students. After like 10 min of this, I end up on the 4th floor. There is a skinny white kid looking very sketchy; he even had a trench coat for Gods sake. He saw me and the other cops around and was still acting funny. I thought that he wasn't the shooter because he was being so blatantly obvious about hiding something.

My 2 friends show back up and want to head out. I say I'll leave too, but I just want to see how this kid turns out. I still didn't believe he had anything, but I would be a bad cop if I let this sketchy dude go unchecked. I look back and he is getting in someone's face and pulls out a silver gun. I do a double take and pounce into action. I grab his hand with the gun and point it in the air. I fire a few rounds into the ceiling trying to empty the clip. We continue wresting and the gun gets pointed at me. Luckily he wasn't able to pull the trigger before I fought it off. By the way, there is a crowd around us watching; none of those assholes tried to help. He falls on the ground and I am wrestling on top of him. I can get the gun pointed at the back of his head. I pause for a second to think if I should shoot. I don't have faith that I'll get a good chance to take the gun, plus he almost killed me earlier. So I pull the trigger--a spray of blood and its all over.

I stand up a hero. But it doesn't feel right. Instantly I know its a dream. I do the nose RC and I'm dreaming. DAMN IT. I was a hero, I saved the day, and it wasn't even real. (This is one of the few times that I was pissed to find out I was dreaming.)

So I leave the building and get into the back of a car. Someone starts to drive me somewhere. I decide to try and shrink myself. I look at the seat of the car and suddenly it is a giant leather wall. I was about an inch tall. The car stops and the door opens. I go outside and it a long stretch of road in the middle of nowhere (still at night). I want to try and fly. I am so small that the wind should be able to take me. I feel a gust and suddenly I am off. I am flying super fast about a foot above the ground (but I am an inch tall so a foot isn't THAT close).

I land and return to full size. I want to fly again so I look to the starry sky. I try to take off, but nothing happens. I stare up for a few more seconds and look back down. I am hovering at like 3 ft. and then fall back down. I repeat this a few times, and then give up, frustrated.

The dream skips. It is daytime back in Oak Park. I find a car and start racing down the streets. After awhile of gunning it through downtown I get out and look for something else. I use telekinesis to throw the car straight into the air--it never comes back down. I do the same with a street sign.

I start looking for some girls. I find a hot one on the street and start going at it for a bit. Something happens and I have to stop early. Two guys come up and each want to be next. I scoff at them and walk away. Then across the street, in front of the Frank Lloyd Wright Temple is Heather! Finally! So I get up and start fooling around. She has huge boobs and I start (*eye muffs) titty...loving her. It works better than ever before because of their size. I switch positions and eventually I lose her somehow.

Well if I was able to inadvertently summon an old crush, then why not try another? I try to find Mallory. I end up going into a house and asking someone if they knew where her room was. They showed my a room with 4 beds. I dig through a bunch of dressers so I can try and find which bed is hers. Eventually I lose the dream before finding her.

Dream - Lucid

All I really recall about this dream is it being like a video game. First, I was in a classroom. It looked like one of my elementary school classrooms.

I was in a house at night, and I had to watch out for something in there.

I also remember riding in a car with a couple of other people. Something had happened as to where when we got mad, we'd grow these insane beards or mustaches. Wtf? I wanted to fix that because it was silly.

There was a football stadium in there somewhere too.

~

I was outside in what I think was a football stadium. The sky was very blue and it was daytime. There were other people around as well. They looked kind of cartoony.

I spontaneously just knew it was a dream. I flew into the air, but not too high. I wanted to let the dream play out to see what happened.

But of course, that didn't happen. I was then in a mall, watching people walk by. I decided I wanted to try to visit Hyu again. I walked around, searching for a wall or something I could draw a portal on. I found a pillar, and just as I was about to draw the portal, I thought of how Hyu teleports to get places, and how much faster that is. I decided to give that a whirl.

Only problem with that was I had no idea how to even begin to do that. I stood by the pillar and saw many people walking by. I though of my destination, though all I knew about that was it was wherever Hyu was. I thought about that for a little bit, and things started fading. I was losing the dream because I was just standing around doing nothing. I started to walk around, but everything went black.

~

I was then somewhere else. I tried to count my fingers, and was coming up with 5, sometimes 6, but I thought I had just miscounted those times. I tried to make an extra finger grow out of my hand, but couldn't. I had an inkling I was still dreaming, though.

Ugh. I need to get my dreaming skills back up to where they used to be. It's so frustrating.

EDIT: My mom just called me and told me she had her first lucid dream where she had control! YAY!! I'm proud of her!!

Also, I was her dream guide! She said that I was in all 5 lucids she had this morning, and I told her that she was dreaming, she could do whatever she wanted, how to switch dreams, and how to reality check!!

Just had to add that...I thought that was so cool!!!

[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Dream[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts[/COLOR]
[COLOR="lightblue"]Hypnagogic[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]This morning I used the timer method and even though I didn't used it correctly my motvation to use it , or something, made me lucid anyway. It's not that odd because the timer makes me have about 12 WBTB attempt and each time I fall asleep, the chance to lucid dream is increased, because I am more aware. And this time I could really explore the dream and it's environment. [/COLOR]

[COLOR="red"]I realised that I was dreaming and I walked out of my house, it was night. I started to think about what it ment to be lucid, and I realised that nothing can harm me. So I thought let's try getting killed by a car, and when I though about that a fear overwhelmed me, and I lost my lucidity...[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]The timer woke me up, well so I thought.. I were in my room and I hear an unpleasant buzzing sound. There was bees in my room! They were really big and I ran out of my room. I watched the bees as they ate honey which for some reason was all over my room. In real life I have an electric flyswatter, but in this dream it was gigantic. It was laying in my room on the floor and one of the bees sat on it and it turned on and I watched the be get electrified to death.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]Then I had a weird dream about me being Borat and I saw a hot chick on the airport, and she wasn't wearing anything to cover her, ehrm upper part. So I said "Very nice how much" haha. Weird but funny dream.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="red"]Then I woke up in my dream bed and there was a really hot chick laying next to me and yeah.. I got lucid :P I can't blame me she was way out of my league, as all girls seems to be in my dreams. Anyway I went out of my house (I resisted the distraction!) and I remembered that I had been lucid before, and I started to reflect over the fact that it's allways night in my lucid dreams. I remembered that I had once thought of in real life, how the pavement will look in my dreams, will it look real or like a bad texture? It looked real, very real and detailed.
I walked around my neighborhood and I saw that my busline took a weird path, it was not on the road but on a cycle path. I didn't consciously stabilised this dream, but by observing the pavement and realising how odd the bus was I guess it made me more anchored to the dream.
I wanted to see a grocerystore that I often go to, but this time in the dream. It's a small store, but in this dream it was enormous! I went in there and saw that it looked nothing like it. I watched a hot girl from behind and I told myself that I am not going to get distracted by her, "it's my dream tricking me" I thought. I then saw her face, and it was not what I expected, I immediatelly looked away. The grocerystore changed into a video store and I wanted to summon a person.
In my previous lucid dreams when I have tried to summon a person it was very easy, because all I needed to do was to think of that person, because the dream was just like a vivid thought. This time however, it felt like reality, if you want to know the feeling, I will try to describe how I felt. It felt exactly like reality although I wasn't as aware as I am in reality it felt like reality, but I am tired all the time, not exhausted, but the feeling you have after you have woke up.
So it felt like summoning a person in reality, which is impossible, Neo could free his mind in the Matrix I couldn't..
I asked a person behind the disk where I could find that person, and she said "Oh the How I met your mother series is in the back". "Weird that wasn't what I asked" I thought. I then saw that that person's face started to morph like a bubble, I got surprised, but then I looked away and when I looked back it looked normal again.
I went out of this store and when I got out I was far away from home, I was on the streets of New York.
I did a flying attempt, and I managed to levitate, but not fly with control, by doing this I associated it as a dream again, and I lost my lucidity, but I continued dreaming that I was lucid.[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]I said to myself "this is my dream, I control it!" I then flexed every muscle in anger and screamed "Someday you will all bow to me and I will be your God!". Some people started to approach me and said, we will obey you if you can stop our leader. Who is your leader? I asked. Who? What time are you from? they said surprised.
Then they told me that I was supposed to get up from a special ladder while they distracted guards.
While I was climbing that ladder a train approached me and it was going to drive in to me if I didn't hurried up.
I managed to climb up and on the top there was some weird creatures, I can't explain how they looked like, but one of them kicked me in the head and I fell and I woke up.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I think I am going to continue using the timer, because if I can get experiences like these every morning, I will soon learn how to stay and to start believe so I can control the dream.[/COLOR]

Kumara's Dreams

A mish-mash of fragments and in and out of lucidity...

Fragment 1: semi-lucid, frustrated because I couldn't seem to see anything. maybe a thin line in between my eyelids. I remember heavy eyelids and blackness, and trying to see.

Fragment 2: In a building, possibly my home (in the dream). The walls are painted a medium periwinkle blue, and there are rectangular objects on the wall (like transformer boxes) that are a lighter shade. The color has been done by my friend E, who is a professional color consultant IWL, and she is explaining to me how, "It's about the flow..."

Fragment 3 - Somewhat dissatisfying sexually stimulating fragment

Thank you for being in my dream

Dream 1 - I was lying on a couch, semi-lucid, semi-asleep. The couch reminds me of my grandparents' couch, and I see a figure in a blue dress sort of floating at the wall, coming closer. I wonder if it is my grandmother...I project my awareness and ask her if she is my grandmother, she maybe answers no and I can see that she is not. She seems sweet and benevolent. I nestle back into the couch to fall asleep (in the dream) as she moves behind me/the couch and past my head. I sleepily say to her, "Thank you for being in my dream."



A room full of women who seemed happy to see me
Dream 2 - I am on a bed and feel someone behind me, massaging my head with hands in my hair. I am lucid, not very clear though. I am on my hands and knees, crosswise on the bed...I look to my right, and see a black man with close-cropped hair and maybe facial hair in the mirror behind me. I purr.."Baby...", extract myself and move off of the bed into another room.

The room is full of women. I notice a teenage girl with long hair and braces sitting in a rocking chair and smiling at me, I'm thinking something about how ordinary they look, like regular, real people.

I'm kind of fuzzy-minded...I look behind me and there are several black women seated at a table all facing me. I struggle to do or say anything...finally I have the presence to ask one of the women, "What do you represent?"
She says, "Environmental interests."
I'm surprised, wondering what she means exactly, thinking maybe, of course, that she is some kind of lawyer representative. I ask the next woman, and she says something similar.
I notice the woman at the end to my left, and for some reason I say to her, teasing, "wow, you look like a badass. Like you are some kind of bad ass office manager or something!"
She has a strange look on her face, and it's kind of distorted, she moves her head back and it looks like she has a mustache drawn with a marker now. I notice on one hand that I'm making assumptions but I don't seem to be able to help what I'm saying.



I Can't Control the Dream Bus

Dream 3 - I'm standing outside of a bus. My mother and my sisters are flinging accusations at each other and are all angry and about to all walk away from each other. I think if I can just manage to intervene and use the active listening and peer-counseling techniques I've learned, maybe we can all get down to our real feelings and be vulnerable and forge some intimacy between us. I somehow convince us to all get on the bus, and I'm trying to clear everyone else off.

It's a "Houston Rockets" bus (idk)...everytime I think the bus is clear then more people pile on. They are all black. I'm frustrated with the bus driver who keeps letting all of these random people on.

I see my brother-in-law sitting across from me and he says in a snide tone, "I'm tired of hearing you be so angry." I get PISSED because I hardly even talk to my BIL (IWL) because he's one of those people that is always preaching or bitching about something and there's never an actual 2-way dialogue, so now I avoid him. I say or think, "ME??? You are tired of hearing ME be so angry?" I might have argued with him for a minute.

I say something to my sister about this while holding her hand and looking into her eyes, and about how I can't stand her husband and I'm not going to talk to him or have anything to do with him anymore. I don't remember her reaction.

(What stood out for me in this dream was the feeling of wanting to control the situation.)




My Favorite Drug and the Marvelous Mystery Ride to Nowhere

Dream 4 - I am in a cave/tunnel, seated on a roller-coaster ride sort of ride. There is someone like a carnival hawker talking up this Marvelous Mystery Ride. I am in the last car, sitting next to my friend HC from middle school. The hawker is handing out drugs. I have a big baggie full in my hand, and it is full of clear round discs (I think maybe like NZT in Limitless). I think, what the heck? This is just sugar? I'm handed another baggie, this one is full of clear pellets that look like small round crystals. I'm pretty sure these are all sugar, too. I take one out to pop in my mouth, anticipating a hard CRUNCH...nope...these are just sugar, too. What the heck?

I notice that the people on the ride seated in front of me are all facing sideways instead of to the front, and they are vomiting.
I reassure my friend that I will be ok, because I'm facing forward, and I'm in a different kind of car than they are, mine has cushy protection all along and above the sides, protecting our heads.

September 23, 2011

My recall isn't that great right now so obviously my awareness isn't either. I somewhat remember being in my room with a couple of my friends and they were all telling me I was dreaming. I remember being very confused and so I did a reality check. The reality check worked and showed I was dreaming. For some reason I didn't believe it and didn't want to get out of bed until I knew I was dreaming so I did another reality check and it failed. The rest is lost and I can't remember any of it.

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I could not move and I called my mom to come even though I knew my Fiancee was lying next to me. She came and was trying to force my top jaw to open. I was wrong and hurt. I became mad. Then I woke up and did not move. I went Straight into sleep paralysis and had vibrations and sound. I had the initial fear but remembered to relax. The vibrations felt like a limb that was a sleep and was now getting circulation but there was no pain. The sound was like wet rubber rubbing against itself over layed with loud ringing of the ears. After a few seconds, I then came out of my body. I went in and put of my body and got stuck on the ceiling every time. Every time I slid out I felt the vibrations go away from the top of my head down to my toes. It was like I literally was sliding out. Every time I slammed back I started the vibrations and sounds all over like before. I did this I think four or five times total. I heard a voice say "not to far, come back". I thought I sensed a tether from belly button to belly button at some point. I had some fear that I would wonder too far and not get back. I tried to think of what I wanted to dream about and be lucid. I thought I would fly but that's what I always do so I decided to find a dream guide. But when I opened my eyes all I could see was the dimly lit bedroom. I tried to grab the ceiling fan once but felt my hand grab the sheet and jumped back into my body. One time I looked down and saw my body laying in the bed. It was hard to see myself because the room was dark but I could make out my legs out of the blankets and see my face in the glow of the light from the humidifier next to me on the end table. The whole time there was a ghostly phantom image of a woman floating ceiling level. She was attractive and I thought maybe I would have sex with her but realized it was wrong and a waste of time. It looked like she was sitting behind a desk and was silently conversing with someone to the left of me. I never bothered to look over at the other person. It was like they where observing me. I finally woke for good when the cat moved.

Are OBE's real or just dreams?