non-lucid

today i dreamt i was in desert storm game, i was behind a rock, there was a sandstorm but me and my partners had to destroy
those 2 tanks. i tried to take a peek and they shooted a cannon bullet. i threw a smoke grenade so they couldn't see me.
i tried to sneak near them, when i got near them, i planted a c4 bomb, then i tried to go far away, keep throwing
smoke grenades, then i enabled the c4 bomb, and they both exploded. behind my mates there was a helicopter coming
above from that sand abyss, then my mates entered the helicopter.


Dream elements:

-Desert storm (game)



Technique used: ----------


hours slept: 7 hours

non lucid
*Me and my girlfriend flew in a car with by her sisters house.
*Roberto's mom kept saying his name when he wasn't around.
*Fell in love with a Japanese girl.
*My sister gave my brother an awesome CD we all listened to.
*Offering cake sincerely to all the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas.
*Exploring a random house in my old apartment complex.

Journal Entry non-lucid #9 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background:I slept late, and I woke up at 4am. I read some of Stephan Labergs book and went to sleep about 6:00am. The first dream was fueled by emotion because I was angry that day. Again 2nd dream I have no idea where it is coming from. I get celebrity appearances for some reason. Of course false awakening because I do reality checks when I wake up. I don't know where the "sign" dream came from.

Dream fragment 1 from 11:00pm-4:00am" Racist Black Guy": I was in a classroom, and my old math teacher from Calc II was passing back grades. Everybody was happy about their grades, I was also. My math teacher walked to me and said something funny then left. We were just sitting there waiting for something to happen. This girl, teacher's assistant, from Chem 120 walked in and told us to get to a chair. We all sat on same table. I sat next to, TO, he got up and asked me if I can hold his seat for him. As soon as he got up this black guy steals the seat, and he says, " I ain't even about to give back to him". He looked like a basketball player, way taller than me. I got mad after he said that, and I told him to get up from the seat. He started backing out with the seat because it was a rolling chair. He got up and he said," For real! you ain't going to stick with your own kind?" I told him that it is not about color or race. He got mad and said," You dark ass n*gga". I looked at my skin color, and then his. I started laughing because he was darker than me, and I thought he was joking. I then told him, " I love him for that" (for the joke). Despite my change of attitude towards him, he didn't change, he was still angry. He murmured something before he went in a different class room that got me mad. I went to this wall, they had little advertisement nailed to the wall. I picked out the nail, it was about the size of my fingers. I put them in between my fingers. I was now very angry. I didn't do anything though because he went inside the classroom. I carried this negative energy when I went back into the classroom. I tried to find the movable chair for my friend, but he already was already sitting down. I then put the nails next to him and sat down. The teacher's assistant then kept blabbering about how I am going to get a bad grade in class if I do that again. She told me what do you do everyday? do you waste your time? I got up and I wanted to brag about my grades, but I reminded myself very briefly that showing off is not for me and success is defined by me.

Dream fragment 2 from 6:15am-8:11am" Mr. White's Hit list": I was at a gas station with Walter White from breaking bad. He wanted to kill this man because their was a hit on him. The man was heavily surrounded by private security guards. When we got their, me and a couple of other people convinced Mr. white to leave. It seemed at first that he would listen, but instead he became desperate and tried to run him over. The security guards immediately took him inside a building. After being a little shaken by the incident, he backed up the car and parked a block away. He wasn't deterred by failing. We wanted to leave. The man with the hit on his head tried to scramble to a car. While his security guards were rushing to get going this man shows up to the car and smashes the mans face with a piece of plank. His head was torn off. It looked gruesome because it was blood and stuff mean just gushing out, but it wasn't "accurate". In waking life the skull would have been fractured and stuff like that. Instead it was like he didn't have any bone on him. White wanted to make sure he was dead, he grabbed his gun and walked out the car. He walked very slowly and very calmly, while his face looks furious. The private security guards blame his and started opening fire on us.

Dream fragment 3 from 6:15am-8:11am " False awakening": I woke up from my dream and started writing my dream in my dream journal. My sister shows up and starts talking to me about something. I wasn't listening, but instead trying to remember my dream. Then I woke up.

Dream fragment 4 from 6:15am-8:11am " Sign": I was with my dad inside a car. I started having this nasty cough. I felt it to my bone. I told him I am going to need medicine. He advised me not to take any type of medicine. I was trying to get a very light cough medicine. We arrived at our house while I was asking him. The neighborhood looked very dark at first. It looked like sun was setting. People were running back and forth. I saw this sign outside of my house, on the side walk. I think it read "Here is proof for actual claim to this property" (I assume it was talking about the sidewalk). I then questioned why it would be there. I rationalized it by saying that my uncle must have put it there. I forgot that my uncle has moved out about a couple of months ago. I then tried to remove and realized that I wasn't strong enough and I went to my garage door. Incredible details in this dream, very clear, and I actually felt more connected to this dream.

There's a man coming down from his room to breakfast at an inn, somewhere expensive and in the mountains, there's snow visible outside, the place looks like a ski lodge. The woman he checked in with is sitting at a table, and he's surprised to see that she's still here, he half expected her to have left during the night. He goes and sits down with her, starts talking with her, but he's distracted, noticing that the innkeeper and his husband are watching them, not being at all subtle about it. This woman is someone in the public eye, and she's married or engaged to someone else, and the innkeeper looked a little scandalized when they checked in together last night.

He says to the woman now, "That... Well, it wasn't an accident. And will you just leave?" By 'that', he's referring to something that happened between them at dinner last night that made it clear he wants her - but it's something small, like a touch on the cheek or the leg; they aren't having an affair, despite the impression they've been giving people. He stands up and as he leaves he gives her this sort of very slight bow, and says "Sleep tight, Sonja."

Tips: Today I don't have a video. But I have an amazing article I'm quite sure a bunch of people (including myself) could use! It's about setting dream intentions and unless you get everything you want to get done in your lucid dreams completed. Here's the link:5 Ways To Strengthen A Basic Lucid Dream Intention


Entry:

1) I'm a reindeer. (this is my first reindeer dream lol) I'm in a field type place with my reindeer brother and he's talking about flying and travelling. "We need to fly around! I wanna see the world!" I'm the grumpy reindeer. "No we don't, we just need to survive." Then a crazy witch comes in trying to catch us and kill us. We run away and get away from her. (Now my perspective has changed to that of a man in a car driving, I'm wearing a black suit and black glasses.) The grumpy reindeer is riding in my passengers side. I'm trying to take him to a safe place. The other reindeer is flying over a traffic light in plain view. He tells his brother "I'm going off to be with Santa." Then the witch sees him flying and she's in her car. The traffic isn't moving so he gets away. Then there is another reindeer in a car, she sees him and pursues him without him knowing. The driver speeds off towards the safe place.
We're at a swampy place, it's foggy and dark but I can see that the "water" is a deep green and mucky. I think I (the person) has to walk/swim through it while the grumpy reindeer flies over it. We're now in a white room and I'm the reindeer again. The man in the now clean again black suit is sitting in a black leather couch. I have a phone now and the man has changed into my mom, while I'm now myself. There is a small tv on a cart in front of us now. There is some explicit content playing on the tv. I feel awkward because my mom is just like sitting there ignoring it. Then it freezes on the most awkward picture. I walk around and look at my cheap phone. The same thing just popped up on my phone and I hit the exit button really fast. I look out of a window and the sun is rising and I think "Oh my gosh, it's sunrise and I still haven't WILDed! So I wake myself up.

2) I'm with a large group of people (around 20-30 people) and we're in a forest type place with a road, we're near a stop sign. I'm Billy from The Grim Adventures of Billy & Mandy ...lectedIndex=17 - Bing Images (The little boy with the hat on.) Some extra characters are here (Erwin and someone else). They tell me to take something from the thugs. They have something that looks like a ball of burgundy hair lying on the ground in front of them, it looks kinda personal though. I walk up to them and look at them and say "I'm not gonna steal your thing I just wanna see if I can take it." Then I do some crazy quick move, like swing my leg out and spin on the balanced one to kick the item into my hand. I smirk at them, and kind of taunt them. I guess they're angry now. So one of them tries to punch me but I block it and punch him at least five times before he can back away and he's kind of confused. His friend just looks at me. The other guy tries to punch me but I grab his arm, and throw him on the ground, grabbing his leg and stepping on his balls, not hard enough to hurt just a warning that if he moves then it's gonna end bad. His friend walks up to me and I see a card floating beside his head that's twice the size of his head. It says "Leaf Storm" a pokemon move, in my mind. I say "If you use that on me his balls are gone." I guess he thought I was bluffing and I saw him move to use it and I crush his friends testicles. The attack hits me but it doesn't hurt at all, it just stirs up a lot of leaves, and now I'm ready to kill him (this is happening more now) I walk out of it and look at him and his friend and say "Oh. Now you will feel my rage." This is where awesome murder scenes usually happen but this time it gets blurry and I remember walking over their limp bodies, I don't think I killed them I just beat them senseless and they've passed out, I mean they didn't even hurt me, they just pissed me off a little. I walk back to my personal group of Grim, Erwin, and some girl. Someone yells out that I should fight "Charla" and she looks like a black version of Mandy, the blonde in the picture, Charla has black hair and she's tan. But the girl in my group says "No, don't! I want you to exist!" then they pull out Mandy and she's heated! Like yelling and flailing, and I know how strong Mandy is so I decide to back down...



Goals!

- Remember something from IRL in a dream
- Succeed with WILD and learn more about the relaxation stage
- Meet Juroara and practice dream control

(I completed my second goal from yesterday!)

1.19.14 Sunday

Last night bed around 10:30 - 9:20

Lots of dreams. i put my dream log on the bathroom sink, coz I got sick and tired of me not writing my dreams down. I woke up from a dream but didn't have to pee. So just hoped to remember it later, and made mental note to put the log next to bed.

Still remember last dream of the night, and as I was browsing DV, I remembered another one, as someting reminded me of it.

DR1:

I'm outdoors with few people. Like a nature walk. Ground is dusty, dry, only few bushes. We see a snake camuflaged by being wrapped in shiny aluminum foil. There is a lizard in front of him and I think snake is after this lizard. The lizard changes into bigger one. He looks prehistoric, flat head like a frog. I tell someone its an agama, although I know it is not.

Then we see another cute lizard. He is small and almost black, but has some very dark green on him too. He is morphing as well.

We come to someones garden. Somebody points out 2 kittens sleeping in a shade of a straberry plant. As they see us, they start walking up the stairs into the house, where i see their mom cat.

These people start picking up the kittens and a small dog to take with them. I tell them they are not theirs, they can't take them. So there is a scuffle of sorts.

DR2:
I'm with some people in a house. Talking about how they left the water heater on while going on vacation and how I'm in trouble for using hot water.

I walk into a basement room, not having my glasses on, can't see clearly and I say so, then the people in the room say hi to me so I know who is there.

Kids we are with suddenly disappear. As we look for them, we come to a large indoor hall. On the other side, there is some shed with it's door moving. As if to lure us or trick us into thinking kids went that way.

So I go in, pick up a 4x4 and start smashing my way through the place. the walls are made of boards that have gaps, so I can kinda see whats in next rooms. One wall has an opening higher up and piece of wood is propped to it, as a walkway. I see 2 yellow glowing eyes on the other side of the wall. I say fuck it, I'm going throught the opening, which is a trap. I start smashing walls with my fists and swinging the 4x4 I smash everything, including the monsters. I have no fear.

I exit on the other side, into a quiet street in some modern city. People walking by, looking at me, as if they don't wanna have anything to do with me. As if I have just discovered their secret of keeping those monsters there. They shouldn't have, they are advanced and peacefull society, they should have dealt with their monsters in more civilized ways. And now I have discovered it, and they are kinda ashamed and relieved, that it's over.

Jan 19-20 2014

Lord of the Rings Fragment
I'm having a dream about a new Lord of the Rings or the Hobbit. Aragorn and Legolas are both in it.

Psych Sub-Box and the World's Largest Flamin Hot Cheeto

Later, I get a box that's supposed to be like a Loot Crate, but for that's weeks corresponding Psych episode. I tell myself I need to watch the last 2 episodes or so because I don't want to open the box and spoil it. It is supposed to, contain little momentos or items from the episode.
I went grocery shopping with my friend T to like a Safeway, and they must have been almost closed because some lights were off and certain aisles were cut off. All I was really getting was some flamin hot Cheetos and some other food item (I think either salad or yogurt). As I'm looking for flaming hot Cheetos I see a box containing the worlds largest flamin hot Cheeto. It was about 4-6 inches thick diameter and maybe 5-6 feet tall, according to the picture on the box it was in. The price tag is only like $15 so I send a pic of it to T and he heads over. I grab a small bag, then something else and T shows up so I show him the Cheeto. He picks one up and it falls over and we realize there are two sizes. The $15 ones are like 2-3 feet tall, and the 5-6 foot one is actually just under $170, but is a pack of 4.
Soon an old high school friend D shows up and I go to talk to her. She says she's busy and tells me to go wait at the front, and it was rude and I was offended, so I tell her I'm leaving and say goodbye, while heading to the other checkout. After a minute or two of checking out, D shows up and apologizes saying Target made her lose her manners. We catch up a bit on if she's in school, still working at Nordstroms and such. Then I wake up.

Basketball Camp
I'm at a camp or get together with a lot of old friends,and it's at a basketball gymnasium. I show up with my friend T, but a lot of old friends come too, such as B, and also P, my cousin, is there. I remember there is a basketball challenge and my group is out in like 15 seconds. When leaving we have a ton of bags and I notice T left one. I call after him and he says he is coming back. I had a free hand so I figured I'd help. I think it's heavy, because in a little bit I hit some chairs and it throws me off balance. I dramatize it a little bit for attention, but then I actually fall and people rush up to me feeling bad. I was fine, and get up.

Semi-Truck Crash
At one point I'm driving and as I'm driving there is this massive semi-truck wreck. I was like the only one on the highway besides one other car. I see it all in slow motion like on a video and it's flipping long ways and such. Cops come and soon there are tons of cars in the area all stopped. Eventually they get the guy out of the semi, and he's supposedly famous, one of his eyes is stitched shut, and does stunts and tricks in YouTube. Some guy asks him with a microphone how he feels and he says ok. The guy who owned the mic mentions he just came from an injury as well or something and gets shut down by the famous guy.

January 2014 TotM, Random New Years Resolution
I walked in front of a man and thought what if he a duck bill on his face, and sure enough he did, and I instantly realize then I'm dreaming. It woke up me up, but I just visualized going back into the dream. Walking along that little corridor, and I slowly reformed. It started black, but I just kept feeling the walls knowing my sight would come in, and it did. I made a right turn, looking for the next DC I could find, and I came to a pool at a giant waterpark. I found a guy with long blonde hair who just came from the pool and was probably getting ready to leave.
I said "hey what's up" and he kinda just acknowledged me, but didn't give me a response. I wanted to stay positive to get a good response, so I say, "I've got a question for you when you have a moment." I get back "ok, just let me finish and find my shirt." He turns around and I realize if I don't force it, he won't give me an answer, so I just grab him by the shoulders and say "what's your resolution this year?" He looks at me with confusion and says "uhhh captain TV collar" ad walk away. Very odd indeed.

Snowboarding Uphill
I'm in Colorado or someplace snowy and am with my dad and my little sister. My dad has some sort of motorcycle with him, but it's also like a motorized scooter. Somewhere in between, I guess. It's slightly malfunctioning and wanting to go full speed even when not squeezing the throttle, and wants us to try riding it. I try first because I don't want my little sister getting hurt, and when I get on it, it shoots forward.
As it does so, I realize I'm going backwards up a mountain where skiers and snowboarders are coming down. I keep going and get to a point where I'm at a steep hill (it basically angles vertically after a bit), and I go as fast as I can at it, to make it up. I make it just high enough to grab the ledge with one hand. The cycle falls back down, and my sister takes it. I tell her to go really fast to make it up, but she just goes to the right where there isn't as steep a hill. At this point I'm just snowboarding, but it's uphill, which is a really interesting sensation.
After I get to the top of the hill, I want to go back down it because I see some people doing really cool tricks off the jumps here and I want to try them. My dad and sister could care less so they leave. I go to strap into my board, but I realize I don't have my boots with me. I talk to the DCs around me, but I just give up since I can't board without the boots. I go back to the place we were staying.
A couple of my friends are outside where we were staying and I hang out with them outside as well. The weather was extremely nice, just nice and cool, but no wind. I recall eating fruit roll ups at this point (it's weird because I haven't eaten fruit roll ups probably for over 5 years). I'm just taking big bites out of it, and it's extremely chewy, sticks to my teeth and what not. I remember that fruit roll ups usually have shapes in it that you pull out, and I recognize the face of Spongebob on it. My brother shows up later at some point.

1. I was walking down this dam and out of
no where the sky got really dark, despite
it being a sunny day. Then a tornado came
out of no where and I hit the deck. It
actually passed RIGHT over me, but it was
weird because I felt no suction whatsoever
and it was actually kind of funny. Should have
realized this and become lucid.

2.I first remember being at this buffet type place
with only a couple people there. I can distinctly
remember grabbing my plate, then getting a piece
of chicken parm pizza, potato wedges (which the guy
had JUST put out, so they were fresh and yummy), and
then went back to get a piece of chocolate pie. I then
walked outside and realized I had forgotten to pay.
Then I went back inside to do so and everyone working
there was all freaked out for some reason and packing up.
Then the dream got a little less concrete and I remember
going out back and helping some guy replace the water heater,
which I'm not sure what had to do with anything else but yeah.

3. I was at school and in the restroom there were a bunch of people
texting, not too unreasonable. However I then went back to lunch and
the bell rang, and for some reason I was just moving really slow
(happens to me a lot in dreams, despite my best efforts) and I
was late to class. Then the teacher came running out of the room and
said he had the wrong class and told everyone to wait in the cafeteria.
Then a bunch of cops showed up (some of which were my teachers, weird)
and began this big investigation of I'm not sure what. That's about all
I remember.

I was back to school. I had to take an exam where the tasks were at both sides of the paper. But tasks were really weird. I had to be a girl on the train. ANd i had to pretend i was innocent, not harmfull. And i had to take pictures of myself, beeign bonded and torchured. But in real i had to destroy the world.. Then i haid to record a music track and enter a competition. I did, i made a metal song then send it to the reviewboard.. and they answered congratulations, you have won the competition even though that people who dont like this genre of music did not vote at all. There was a question, what did euroasian people eat in medieval ages 1437? I wrote cabbage, beans, corn.. which i later deleted because i remembered that Columbus didn't came back from america yet. And some food i made out. Next question was "this is the year of the moon! moon equals a letter I. what is I?" This question was something about meditation, and i didn't know how to answer it. But the strange thing about this exam was the numbering of the questions, they didnt follow as they should, it was like 22,23.. and then no questions and later 28. And then i went to a bar. I overheard two guys talking about metal music scene in my town. One said that here are many metal pubs. And in reallife there is none, so I asked him where were they before? and he answered that a discoclub jungla.. was renovated into a metalbar. I said thanks, im trying to finnish my beer, and a friend from ireland passed me by.. he was drunk already, he went straight into beveragestorage.. and another friend said, well he is wasted.. and i said well that's his problem, he will be even more.. and he brought a beer which i have never seen before. It was our local beer Lasko, but the label was totaly out of order. On the left there were people and ice.. in between there were broken glasses, and on the right there was an elephant in a desert. And usually it is a mountaingoat on greed surface. Then we went into a car, we picked up 2 girls.. but we had a feeling that they are going to kill us. So i stopped the car, we went to take a leak, and we grabed shotguns and sneaked around my car, and bang bang.. shot them trough the carglass.. And then i found 4 thirts. 2white and 2 black, they were all wet. I was trying to get them dry. I found those poles and rope, which are ment for making clothes dry, clothdryers. And i tried to hang those shirts on the rope. I just couldnt. I took the first clothpeg and it was too small to hold the shirt. And then i took the bigger one in a crocodile shape, still to small. And then i saw that there are some blueprints on the shirts. The blueprints were for Davinci's flying machine. Well i have to get them dry i said to myself. I walked to a tree which i was climbing a lot in my childhood. And it was huge. I climbed to the first branch, and i start to hang those shirts on the branch. I hanged 2 out of 4..

Technically a nightmare, but I was not as scared as I should be, before I went to sleep I prayed for a blessing against fear, and a blessing of protection, so my dream self was actually quite a champ.

Shooting game against girl? on a motorbike, she was really tough and I ended up having to jump into a lake to escape her wrath. I feel like that was a game on a TV, because now I am inside a house with my soulmate, someone else, and a friend who is adding an attachment to the TV for me, and wrapping wires around.

New scene:

I get to a town, it's daylight, I think zombies are around I find a hatchet on the ground, open a door and throw it in at the first person I see
Well now I am arrested, and in a jail cell, that was not a zombie! How rude. This cell is so tight, there are 3 toilets literally next to each other with 3 inmates(myself included) having to stand on the toilets because there is no other room in the cell. One of us slips and feet splash into a toilet

Now I am free again, but I have to make a dangerous trek across the wasteland back to that town. I am with a group of people, who all see to have some sort of special powers. We are motorbiking across this desert. The very last of us in the line is landskiing attached to line on a bike ahead. We pass a group of monster/demon/people and they end up getting the guy who was skiing and tearing him apart. But his special power is that when he dies he tears reality apart and turns into a giant digitized heavenly motorbiker and rides right out of the sky and back into our reality on a dirtbike. How useful.

We make it back to town, and it is nearing dark and we are prepping our safe house because the werewolfs will be out soon. I seem very interested in this process, and I know it is my first time here, so I am unsure of what will happen, but the other guys are seasoned and know their jobs. It's dark now. We have everything closed except for the blinds of one of the windows(bullet proof). It is one of those german style blinds that are on the outside of the window. The window is the size of the entire door frame. It is dark so I can't see out the window but as I start to let the blinds down, they suddenly stop falling down at about my heads height. Upon closer inspection I can see the outline of a werewolf, and the blinds have landed on his head. He puts his hand to the glass and starts using his claw to draw circle motions. So I pull all of the blind string out at once, and back up, and then kick forward toward the glass right at his face to startle him backwards. It does the trick, he pulls back, I release the string and the blinds drop further down.

When I turn around I to head back to the others, I find that I am outside of the complex now... and it's dark. WTF. Anyways I get ripped apart by monsters, and then I have the idea to use the power that the other motorbiker had, and in a semi lucid state I start focusing on breaking reality to fight back the monsters. I summon hundreds of copies of myself to fall out of the sky and blazing speeds, and land on monsters. I start spinning my avatars exceedingly fast like tornados and other effects. But I cannot get back into the house. I know why, because if I use any sort of reality altering trick to get into the house, the monsters will "learn" that same skill, and be able to break in. This goes on for a few moments, but then in my half lucid state I become careless and try to get in. I cannot,, until I use outside of the box thinking. I expand myself around the entire house(I can see the interior briefly), and then expand myself outward to the shape of a giant snowglobe. Then I SHATTER my giant snowglobe, and the snowglobe inside the house on the shelf shatters and I expand from that smaller globe into the house. Along with all my demons. Clever, but deadly.

Everyone dies.

1. [Non-Lucid]
Watching something on TV in a school classroom when someone gets a text message saying that theirs a gas leak and the fire alarm is out. I commented that the fire alarm is out so we should get out of here, everyone agreed and we left.

2. [Non-Lucid] [Vivid]
Was drinking through a really weird straw that was not easy to get much out (the drink tasted like coke), there was no cup either, suddenly got ridiculously excited (it felt good...like it usually does)...woke up in a sticky mess -.-. [Random Lucidity...no?]

3. [Non-Lucid] [Vivid-ish]
On a ship (oil tanker thingy) with a girl, shes driving through waves so I mentioned to not let the ship go side on to the waves as to not capsize.
The waves appear to be getting bigger and bigger until we end up in an ocean of these huge shiny ice blue crystals (some even floating in the air). Now we are having to navigate around them trying not to hit them with the ship.
Not sure if were still in the ship or not but we are still trying to get through this ocean, we end up in a narrow passage.

4. [Non-Lucid]

Fragments:
In some sort of enclosure for an animal

In my dream, I was sitting in my computer room with my brother. There was also a psychologist sitting in a green plastic chair. She Had short straight black hair, and smiled a fake smile.

First she asked my brother if he had any competition lately. My brother didn't know. I suggested tennis.

Then the psychologist turned to me and asked "Remember the demon?"

I think she was referring to an old dream I had ages ago...which freaked me out a bit

I just smiled and laughed at her saying "Haha, we all go through those horror stages!"
In the corner of my eye, I saw my mother stand behind me.

(I became Lucid after my mum entered the room)

The Psychologist was smiling sweetly at me, but I looked into the reflection of a tv behind her. In the reflection she was glaring at me. She looked like she wanted to kill me. She had yellow eyes with flecks running through them.

I then had some kind of seizure and then fell to the floor. I was freaked out so I closed my eyes and pretended to be dead.

Then I woke up at 12:00am in the morning XD Feeling freaked out and scared.

Tips: I have two things to share! One is a concept that I like from the last video I posted, the other is another video that helps with everything. The first one is that your thoughts are like a waterfall. You can either stand under the waterfall or observe the waterfall. Standing under the waterfall is symbolic for being bombarded constantly with thoughts, standing away from the waterfall and observing is symbolic for watching the flow of your thoughts but not getting interactive with them, and having complete awareness of where you are (both mentally and physically, which in a dream would bring awareness). I'm aiming for being able to take myself from under the waterfall for WILD, because once I can do that I'll be able to sit back and watch my thoughts flow into dream without being interactive and getting lost in the flow of the thoughts. Here is a great video! 99% is a bitch. 100% is a breeze. - YouTube



Entry:

1) I'm in a college dorm but it's a lot larger than in movies and reminds me of my houses kitchen, actually we're in the kitchen of the dorm. It's me and my brother with two college guys and a girl. They're trying to find my name for registration, and they start pulling beer out of the freezer and the girl gets really drunk and the guys are trying to take advantage of her but she's not that drunk.

2) I'm with the Avatar and the group (in the same environment I was in in my last Avatar dream) we're in the desert and Aang is trying to find one of the Air Nomads rare temples, we fly up to a desert butte, it looks a lot like this one ( butte landscape - Bing Images ) except that it has entrance holes in it. We enter through one and it's large and empty except two or three Earthbenders sitting on the floor, father and son and someone's who's a family friend. (The scene switches) I see some fire nation soldiers (who look like they're not "current" at all, so this kinda feels like it's in the past) and their general is an older guy I can't recognize. They jump onto the mountain/butte/huge desert hill and as they near openings an Earthbender flies out and stirs up dust and runs around. They attempt to catch him but just as they realize he's a distraction Aang and the group fly out and of an opposite entrance. I'm hanging onto either Aang or riding a flying carpet with Katara. Aang is in front of Katara and the general jumps off of the wall and tries to catch us (I guess we were supposed to not go far because we're on a flying carpet) but Aang speeds up the carpet with Airbending. The fire nation general says "I've gotten no closer to them even though they shouldn't be moving, it would be foolish to continue." And he gives up.

3) I'm in a hotel with my female cousin and both of my siblings. I walk out of the hotel room and just as I get out to the entrance I see a blonde girl staring at me intently. Then my cousin walks up behind me. I tell her (without looking away from the blonde girl) "Go back to the room. Now." but she doesn't listen to me and stands there like a total idiot, I run to the door and lock the door of the hotel. I see the girl going to the second door. "I'm such an idiot." Is what comes across my mind. Just as I turn on my toes to run back to my room the girl opens the door and I sprint. My cousin enters right before me backing into a corner, I lock the door and back away slowly. I notice both of my brothers sleeping. The girl opens the door and I say "How did you do that?" (I should have realized it was a dream.) She continues walking while staring at me. Then her brother and father walk in behind her and I get an adrenaline rush, I attack the girl. As I push her on the bed choking her I see a metal chair in the corner and I reach over and pick it up, then I force one of the legs through her eye but as it kills her she turns into my little brother and he's this horrible shade of death blue. I get furious. I see the three of them trying to escape my rage. Not gonna happen. Her brother has a gun so I run for him. I slam him onto a car, conveniently the cops are there and he tries to shoot me but I point the gun away from me and he shoots his father, then I aim towards his sister and shoot her, with his hands. The cops run over and either shoot or arrest him. Either way I've murdered his family and now I've shown them part of the extent of my rage.

Goals!
- Meeting with Juroara
- Learn more about my personal WILD
- Practice dream control

Non-lucid, this one I can't recall all of it but enough I think to make it worth me getting it out of my head.

I remember being in a car, I think it was stolen and myself and a women where trying to escape from someone. We get to a shack to hide, talk about some things I can't remember, then she tries to make a move on me but she isn't my type so I pull away. Did the routine "don't want to hurt you but we're better as friends" thing and that was it.

Next thing I know I'm in what looks like a gun range, the firing area is normal enough except that there's workbenches and other materials. Downrange however is filled with different sports areas, basketball court, baseball diamond, football field. My dad was there, which makes sense because we both have a CPL and carry a gun irl. Anyways he pulls out some awesome looking new type of automatic rifle, I try telling him to be careful and he replies "I know what I'm doing". He aims downrange, pulls the trigger and starts spinning around like you'd see in a cartoon. I duck to take cover but end up catching three rounds in the shoulder, no pain. I get up and start yelling at him, he just put the rifle down and walks away. Last thing I remember is looking downrange and not shooting the rifle because of kids playing basketball...

This is odd to me because neither my dad or myself would be that ignorant about guns. I was a SGT in the US Army and have had extensive weapon training, he owns a ammo reloading business and is very experienced with guns, so I don't understand why I dreamed that...

There's a set of boxes which, when arranged properly, will display a poem by Rumi; it's a game, a puzzle. Each box is engraved with a few lines, the trick is in figuring out the proper order, and there are hints, such as do not separate the loved ones, send the child to school, don't leave him to wander the shore with the mermaid and her knife. The last part is easy enough - one box ends with a line about water spirits, another box starts with a line about a child, I'll just be sure not to connect those two; but there are quite a few different lines that could be interpreted as 'loved ones.'

A woman is sending a message to her employers, as a result of which the building she's in will be locked down and everyone inside will be killed, including herself and her two assistants. Her assistants are artificially-created humans, and display no emotion, but I'm thinking that the loss of their lives is just as important as any other life.

A woman has just been teleported into a castle, somewhere very dangerous, by someone named Anna, and she's very annoyed about this. Although Anna isn't here, the woman yells about it anyway, on the assumption that Anna will be watching her with magic. It's not just the danger that's upset her; at any other time she would have killed to be able to get into this castle, but right now, she'd been in the middle of something urgent, and she really needs to get back to it, so she looks for the way out. A hooded figure appears and reveals a passage to her, a passage that seems to violate the laws of physics and which is filled with a seemingly endless line of graves, and he tries to speak to her, to guide her into that passage, but she ignores him - she's spotted the main doors. As she walks away from the graves and towards the exit, she passes a box with some marking on it that makes her think about dragons, thinking of them as the product of elemental spirits that gathered together and festered.

There's a crowd of people leaving a castle - although the castle looks historical/fantasy-ish, the clothes the people are wearing are futuristic, as is the glass-enclosed walkway they're leaving through. A woman who works for the castle as a kind of hostess is escorting a small group of people at the head of the crowd, congratulating them for winning a spot on some vessel, and then she says to the rest of the people following them, "Good luck in the race!" By which she means - these people are following the winners because they intend to take their spots by force, and the moment they're beyond the castle's protection it'll be every man for himself.

At the end of the glass walkway, the hostess leaves them, and the people pass through some barrier. The people in the walkway had seemed, not necessarily good-looking, but like people who put a lot of effort into their appearance: well-dressed, well-groomed. Once they pass through the barrier, this changes: they're naked, they look like they haven't bathed or shaved in months, more fat, less muscle. The castle was a kind of retreat, but everything it provided was an illusion; now that they've left, the illusions disappear. The people's reactions vary - most of them are shocked, but there's an old man who seems to have expected this with a sort of I-told-you-so attitude about it. There's a teenage boy with a bad knee who's particularly horrified, as he'd believed his knee had been fixed by the castle; he's complaining to his parents that they might as well have stayed home, at least at home they had servants. The castle had its guests doing a variety of chores, citing the spiritual benefits; now it's clear that was a scam.

A woman's saying, "It must not have been a good reality for Vanessa and Vilya." 'Vanessa' is an alternate version of herself. As she's speaking, I see the two people she's talking about, sitting before a very large fireplace. Vilya suddenly leaps up, as if he's just been hit by some stroke of inspiration, and he rushes to a table set up with a variety of alchemical instruments.

Three people in an underground room, grey stone walls lined with bookshelves. A woman and an old man who she's close to, and a young-looking man who made some kind of deal with them - I'm a disembodied observer, but I recognize him from my most recent lucid dream, as the 'future version of myself' who doesn't actually resemble me at all and who looks more like he's from the past. They've barred the doors in the hopes of giving themselves a little more time before someone arrives to stop them - guards or police or military, something along those lines, they're expecting some specific group and they know it's just a matter of time. But they've come to this room to find something specific, and there are hundreds or thousands of books here and no obvious organization to them. The woman's saying "Wherever (something) it'll take us forever to find it." The young-looking man had been sitting down with his eyes closed; now he opens them. They're glowing yellow, which startles the woman. He says, "I have found it. He has used the Britannica articles-" He continues talking, but I've become distracted by curiosity about that locating technique he just used; I associate it with a search technique I'd used in yesterday's dream.