non-lucid

I'm in my moms car, my sister is in the front passengers seat. We're driving somewhere and it's nighttime. I look out at the sky it's cloudless and dark, but all the stars are formed into evil shaped constellations, my mom and sister obviously panicked ask what's happening. I tell that I read this on the internet just before hand, that the holy spirit left the earth because it's almost time, so only the evil ones of another dimensions are here on earth with, we'd have to bear it until time. I see satanic symbolism in the stars. And then we get home and I contemplate whether or not to look up the stuff I supposedly read from before.

I realize I'm at my middle school, I'm with DC's I assume are my friends. The bell rings for us to go home, I know my mom is probably waiting to pick me up in the dirt lot across the street, but I want to hang out with my friends, we're exploring the campus. Then we walk near the exit and see this little blond boy, he looks like a 5th or 6th grader, he begins to chase us. I run over to this fence pocket with plants and wait, but then I see him come around the corner and I panic and hop the fence, I know he can't hop the fence so it bought me time. I'm at the bus pick up zone, there's 3 busses, and kids walking every where getting in the busses and I'm aware of the kids already in the busses staring at me from the windows. I realize I've noticed the area too long because here comes the boy. I run in between two of the busses and shove passed students. I get to the end of the busses and see my moms car in the dirt lot, I stand there wasting precious time thinking whether or not I should run to my moms car and go home, or still stay with my friends, but then the boy gets too close so I run across the street towards my moms car and the boy follows after me but gets stuck in the street with cars trying to drive and I hop into my moms car expecting her to be angry with me for being late, but she says nothing and just drives me away.

i was at some kind of bar or something with my friend from work. we where not really drinking, just kind of bored and hanging out. nothing really happened at this bar. The bar was kind of loud, jsut a bunch of mumbles and blurred speech, i wasn't really trying to listen to anyone anyways. I don't remeber what happened. I "woke up" on the floor in my old room at the house i grew up in, with my friend standing over me. i asked him what happened and he just kind of chuckled and said i don't know. My friend was all showered and wide awake, ready to go for the day, while i was waking up off of my bedroom floor trying to "wake up". eventually we went downstairs in the kitchen and where just hanging around, trying to figure out something to do. My friend from work started playing with my cats (cats that i had in my childhood). he was using one of those strings that dangle off of the end of a stick, making the chase it all around. eventually he was making the cat jump into me, and it was really funny. It was soffy, i couldn't stop laughing. My cats jumping into my knees and my lap while i'm sitting on the chair, trying to catch them. I was jsut really happy at that moment, truly content. Eventually we stopped playing with the cats and my friend told me he was going to go to subway for breakfast. i told him i would shower and then meet him there.

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This dream takes place at my current apartment.

I was just sitting in my apartment hanging out when i heard someone come on my porch and knock on my door. It was nighttime and dark out, but it wasn't too late at night. maybe 9 or 10 o clock. anyways because of the time i was wondering who the heck would be knocking on my door, along with the fact that i don't know anybody in this town. I turned on the porch light, opened the door and went outside. The person standing there was a short kind of chunky, nerdy wigger kid who was probably 19 or 20. He had glasses, and i could tell he just a little 'off'. He blinked abnormally and talked in a strange voice. He dressed like a wigger, but i could tell that wasn't him at all. He was just trying to fit in. This kid was a nerd. (not that nerds are bad, i'm a nerd too!) I noticed there was a bike on my lawn, i was assuming it was his. I asked him what i could do for him, and he said, "i was wondering if you need a tank.". This really threw me off. I knew he wasn't talking about a real tank, and being a fan of RPG's i immediatly thought of a 'tanking' type of character. This confused me because we clearly don't have RPG roles in real life, and i had no need for someone to 'absorb punches' because there was no one i had to fight. i asked him "what do you mean? I'm not fighting anyone, i don't need a tank. And we aren't playing any kid of games." He just asked the question again, and i responded with the same thing. I asked him what does he mean, that i'm really confused and i don't know what he's talking about. he just says, "yeah, but like...i'm gonna be the tank." I sigh, and look across the street. He blinks furiously a couple of times and adjust his glasses. There is a gas station there across the street, with a convience store. (in real life, there is just a house across the street.) I sigh one more time and begin walking to the gas station. The kid follows me, but i wasn't bothered by him. I was expecting to follow me, and that's fine. The kid waited outside while i purchased a mountain dew. I took the time away from him to collect my thoughts.

"what the hell does this kid mean? i want to help him but i just don't understand what he wants. The poor kid is probably just lonely and wants someone to hang out with. I bet he gets made fun of alot. and was this gas station always here? i'm pretty sure it wasn't. wow this mountain dew taste good. Why am i drinking this, this stuff is awful for you."

I throw my thoughts to the side as i step outside. I begin crossing the street back towards my house, casually sipping my mountain dew. We get back on my porch steps and sit in a comfortable silence. Suddenly, two ghetto/gangster kids come walking down the street from the left side, where the gas station is. They take a look at us, and begin crossing the street towards us. I could tell these two where the real deal, unlike my goofy little friend over here. I can only remember what one of them looked like, one was short and stubby like the nerdy tank kid, while the other one was tall, sort of filled out in terms of body. he had a dark milano skin color, short black hair and a trimmed beard/goatee combo. He wore baggy jeans, with black boots, a white and block colored hoody with the hood half hanging off of his head. I've never had good expierences with these kind of rapper ghetto people, or whatever you want to call them. I prepare myself mentally for a fight, these people tend to anger quickly when i call them out on their stupidity. They both stop at my bottom step and look at us for a minute before the tall milano one begins speaking.

"Ayo` girl what u doin' with dis fag u gonna ditch that kid come wit' me, u know wut um sayin gurl. Join up me nd me crew u know wut im sayin gurl. You cummin wit us gurl."

I shake my head and sigh, i don't want to deal with these clowns right now. I notice the nerdy tank kid is not next to me, i turn towards the front lawn and see he is looking around his bike for something. I pay no more attention to him as he's probably safer over there anyways. I open my mouth to begin telling these kids off, when a car pulls into my driveway. It's a light brown, almost like a coffee colored car. It's and old 70's detective kind of car. Sure enough, a middle aged man in his 40's gets out of the car. He's wearing a button up white t shirt with the sleeves rolled up, and the top button un-buttoned. around his neck hangs a police badge. he's wearing kaki pants with black shoes. His hair is short and black, gelled backwards. Clean face, no mustache. He begins walking towards me and all i can' think to myself is

"oh great here we go. now the cop is going to think i'm mixed up with these 2 gansters, and that poor nerdy wigger kid who just wants to be a tank will get caught up in it too."

I notice now that the 2 ganster kids are gone and the cop is sitting next to me on the stairs. He's holding 2 cell phones. They look really really old, like models you would have seen in the 90's. He ask me about them and i say one of them is probably my friends. I turn towards my yard and notice the nerdy wigger kid is gone. I look at the other phone the detective is holding and realize it's mine. I snatch both of them out of his hand fast and them in my pockets in one fluid motion. He just kind of looks me dumbstruck with his jaw ganging down, with his arms still sitting there as if he was holding the phone.

I say to him without looking, "I don't consent to any searches. Now what is it i can help you with?"

I caught him off guard. He closes his mouth shakes his head and begins speaking, "I want you to tell me everything you know about those 2 kids that where just here. They are in a gang you know. I know they wanted you to go with them...so i have an idea. YOU work for ME and you go undercover into that gang, and we'll take em down together. sound like a plan, yeah?"

I had to really give this some though. You know, i don't really like trouble, i like to just live peacefully in solitude, enjoying my time. But, on the other hand, i'd love to take down a gang. To clean up the streets would truly be a wondrous thing. I really had to give this one some though, and so i turned towards the detective and told him just that.

he responded with, "good good. Here, take my card. call me when you are ready, and we'll get right down to buisness."

He jumped to his feet and walked down the stairs happily while i just watched him leave in silence. He smiled and waved once before jumping into the driver seat and taking off. (why didn't he have to start his car?) I sit there for a moment, trying to figure out what the hell just happened. Nobody ever bothers me at my apartment, this truly was a strange night. I shrug my shoudlers and head back inside, locking the door behind me.

Welp. Looks like i might need a tank after all.

I went on a trip with my sister, we'll call her Y, to a ski cabin. My other sister, who I don't get alone with, X had broken up with her boyfriend and he was there. I wanted to ski right away but nobody seemed interested. Kids started to go sledding on the hills and it wiped most of the snow away. There was metal underneath the snow. I watched them laugh and play for awhile.

I was running in the country. It seemed like I kept on seeing the same people every time I went for a run. There was a man who ran with an East Indian woman. I think he was her trainer. Throughout all the runs I never liked that man then on one he attacked me. It's like I was expecting him to but I didn't know which run he do it. I got away somehow and ran to my old neighbours house. I told them what happened and the finally let me in. I don't remember much but had a strange feeling being there and I still didn't feel safe so I left.

I was hanging out a Chinese bakery( like one of the small ones). I made friends with cashier. I left and did something( I know this is very vague). Then came back and I think it was New Year's Eve. This time I ordered food I asked what the item already on the table was. A different women told me it was stew. I remember it having a very watery consistency because I seemed to slurping it. As I ate my head was laying on the table. I tried to hold it up but couldn't. Then Y came in and I got excited and asked her to join me. She said no because X was there. I also saw my cousins but never talked to them. Then I paid for the meal using a 20 bill, this took FOREVER( not going to go into detail on this one). Oddly enough I really enjoyed the transaction scene, felt like a game, and I left the bakery feeling good.

Then I was walking in a path, behind where the ski hill was. I walked through long grass and there were train tracks. Something about suicide was put in this scene but I can't fully recall. I looked at a tree that had roses on it. The roses were very beautiful, inside was like a swirling galaxy. Then I was looking into people's eyes and they did the same thing. I asked how and they said it was plastic surgery. I walked into a plastic surgery clinic and there was an instructional video warning the dangers of getting your penis encased with gold. They were also showing how when you die you can stuff golden eggs into your breasts. There seemed to a support group for the people who had bad plastic surgery jobs.

The last scene was with me and my mom shopping g for groceries. We were loading them into the car. A young man held the trunk open for me, as a way to talk to me. I wasn't interested in him and just wanted to put the bags in the car. As I got to the drivers side, he was sitting in the seat and told me he would get out unless I go on a date with him. He then said he had to talk to me so I waited outside but he never came.

I was just taking a walk through the park, until a DC walked up to me and said he needs my help.He told me his girlfriend was in trouble, i said sure and i followed him to her location where there was this living statue that makes itself a fountain that pours dirt and trash instead of water, but before it would start pouring it would make a hole in the ground where it would bury its victims.We started gathering water in buckets so she could come out, but when we were almost at the end she died.
And every time she died the dream would just restart and we would try again this went on for a long time and i never managed to save her...Then i woke up.

1. [Non-Lucid]
I am Master Chief I think and I'm on a star ship fending against enemies with some other marines or something.

I'm ridiculously tired, I seriously don't have the energy to write it down.

The trip to mars.
Maybe for a crime, who knows?
But they said I'm here to do "paperwork".
It's a Thursday so there is no oxygen there today.
But that's alright I have a rebreather mask.
There's a girl at the Navport on Earth guiding me to our warp.
She's cute.
Someone I know - my old drill sergeant - sees me and says "You look like you're going home."
I see my dad one last time while checking in my ticket.
Tell him I will be back tomorrow, don't worry.
And then I warp to the ship interior.
I look around and there are gems encrusted on flaky golden walls like stucco.
Very curious . . .
"It's called dinosaur wheat..." someone whispers to me. A shudder goes down my spine and I wake up.

Quick bathroom break, prayer, back to sleep.

Fast forward a few hours later, dreamtime.
I am on the surface of mars, naked
with only a blanket draped over me.
My inventory is a knife.

There are unnamable creatures all over this planet, ready to tear me to shreds. Now I know this was punishment.

Why did I get sent here? Well it started with a 15 dollar skull. I was at a shop, and saw this piece, removed the price tag, pocketed and left. I was caught, taken to trial, and accepted my judgement. I almost escaped, ran through the city, a few guys chasing me. They eventually caught me. Now here I am.

But there's hope! I can see a small plateau ahead of me with a group of humans on top, beckoning me over. I reach the cliff side of the plateau and then realize there is a giant pillbug looking creature coming to me. I drop, let my blanket fall over me, and wait for it to get near. It investigates with its head, and I take the chance and jut my knife into its weak point.

Fade to black.

I remember playing some sort of airborne glowing shooting game with those same guys later on. It was vivid, but hard to describe, and after that I woke.

Journal Entry non-lucid #9 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I had multiple awaking and I was aware of waking up, thanks to a suggestion from strinky, and also from the tutorial about DEID. It was wonderful how many times we wake up and don't actually realize it, but my dream recall suffered a lot. I would wake up and forget. I would go back to sleep with the intent to stay aware but I end up sleeping.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:30pm-2:35am" Let's Smoke Weed ": A kid from my church wanted to smoke weed. I had like a handful. He came and took it. We were in my house and he came out through the front window. It was night time and I didn't know where he went, but I started preparing the weed for him for some reason.

Dream fragment 2 4am-6am "": Some store clerk gave me a 2 dollar quarter that was nearly the size of my hand. I was shocked by it but I didn't question it.

Dream fragment 3 4am-6am "": I was in some apartment complex and I was going up a building by climbing and climbing down. This felt more like a strong visualization because, I would feel my body in waking life and see the dream. I was partially in control, but I can't say "lucid" because I was not fully conscious of the dream itself. Well anyways I saw these nice colorful neon lights and I grabbed it and started throwing it. It felt like it was my conscious choice to throw it, but I didn't contemplate that it was a dream.

Dream Fragment: My moms cousin was using this website. I became interested and went to go check it out, it look suspicious to me in the back of my mind, it's red and black, but I continued on to create an account. During the process it fucked up and didn't create my account. I realized that this site was evil because it was called camission.com, ca- for calling, and commission. I meant if you sign up they do for you what you click for the price of your soul. I dodged a bullet, I almost joined the sight, and I went and tried to explain it to my mom and her cousin.

Dream: I was riding fixie bike, I saw that I was coming up to this what looked to be a daycare center, there was this lady going berserk in front of it, there were police and she was saying there was a pervert or something trying to get the kids, then she pointed at me and said "theirs one", I laughed because I didn't take her seriously, but then she started chasing me and I thought it the worst thing for her to lay a finger on me so I sped my bike up but she was keeping up, in fact passing me, so I rode into a field of dead weeds and she too went in and was gaining on me, so I turned into a neighborhood that I knew well that eventually led to my house, but then I thought I shouldn't lead her anywhere near anything I know because she'll bring the cops there later, so I made a u turn as did she, and I went into the backyard some how of some house, and went into the house and shut the door behind me and locked it and there were a little boy a little girl and their mom was in the garage, i didn't want to get caught by her so I went straight out the front door, but i heard the crazy lady get through the back door so sped into other backyards and got away.

There's a vampire who looks like a kid, who'd been having some kind of serious problems, but is assuring a friend of his that he's past them now. He's also discovered that, as a result of those problems, he can eat solid food now, and he's trying to stay off blood. He's optimistic about it. "I've been having some sickness, but-" His friend laughs, patronizingly. As a 3rd person observer, I side with the friend - this is a bad idea.

There's a woman working at some kind of community center, and a man who seems to be drunk outside, holding a knife. She's saying to him through the door, "Go home, Ray! You're sick! You need help!" Afterwards she starts thinking about fated events, and timing.

I'm working with a team of bounty hunters to catch two people, allowing one of them to lead us to the other without letting him realize he's being followed. We catch up to them in the woods, and they're both here, but they're unconscious, and surrounded by two "Wraths" - some semi-divine role, working for Ares. They're waiting for their master, who arrives just after we do.

Three people discussing a conversation they just had with a police captain who hired them. One of them uses the slang term "NeuTrooL", a pun on "new" and "true" and "neutral", which means information given by someone who mistakenly believes their view is an objective truth, completely neutral, when in fact it's influenced by their own bias.

A woman's telling me about her dreams, with a large cast of recurring characters and ongoing storylines. She's telling me her most recent one, about "the Prince and the Magician", and says that the Prince is captive but still playing an active role in events. As she talks, I see the prince sitting in a room that has something crystalline about it; he's a fae-looking thing, and he's sitting in front of a mirror with a spell on it, talking to someone at a distance. The creature in the mirror is very large, and has fur. The woman telling the story mentions the name Ba'alrael.

PREP

• Nose plug reality checks throughout the day.
• Visualization of what I would do if I realized I was dreaming.
• Mantras during the day and before bed - "I remember my dreams," "I wake up after my dreams," "I check my reality often," "I know when I'm dreaming."
• Awareness, as often as possible, of sensory input.
• Mantras repeated at each awakening during the night.

Dreams not marked this time, as all dreams were written down after my last awakening in the morning.


DREAMS

(1) I was Jim from The Office, and Dwight and I inherited an enormous sum of money. I decided to use it to fund two women in need, the younger of whom was named Hayley. I became Hayley, and Jim and I prepared to have sex. Before we did, I used an ovulation prediction kit which showed that I would be ovulating this coming Monday. Jim said, "Oh, then perhaps we shouldn't..." I just smiled and said, "Jim, I can't get more pregnant than I already am."

(2) I was at a party of some sort, and my middle school English teacher, Mr. Crete, was there. I wanted to catch up with him, so I took him to the side and told him he looked tired. We had a fairly long conversation which ended with him reminiscing about how many buffalo wings I used to be able to eat in one sitting [lol?]. I took this to mean that he considered me disgusting and no longer wished to continue our conversation.

I left Mr. Crete in a hallway and went outside onto the patio, where I found my middle school best friend's father, Mr. Bartoli. I asked him how Brittany was doing, and he shook his head. "She's a lost cause now. She's become a complete liberal nutjob, getting tattoos and doing God knows what else..."

Intrigued, I decided to seek Brittany out. I thought this change in her might be an opportunity for us to become friends again. I went over to her house, and we reconnected and decided to play video games. The game we chose was some sort of porn game wherein the controller was a dildo, and you had to give the controller a blow job (which caused your game character to fellate another character) to completion in order to advance to the next level.

My mother called and told me I was needed back at the party, as my grandmother had just shown up. I went back. While there, I saw an old lady repeatedly place her used paper plates on top of the trash can instead of in it. This infuriated me. I confronted her, saying, "Look lady, there's a reason they call it a 'trash can' and not a 'trash shelf.'" She threw her garbage away with a stunned look.

(3) My friend from high school, Jenna, was also pregnant at the same gestational age as I was. She believed she was pregnant with twins or triplets. I flew away from her, dropping down into a church through an opening in the ceiling. Inside, several dozen Jesus impersonators stood together on a balance beam, holding their arms out as if they were on the cross. I dove down from the ceiling and flew into the back "Jesus," knocking down all of the impersonators like dominoes.

(4) I attended a pool party, this time with three attractive women who I understood to be the fairies from Disney's Sleeping Beauty. I looked down to see that I was wearing a frumpy blue striped bikini. The fairies looked me over and exclaimed that I simply couldn't be seen at the party in such an unattractive outfit. They transformed my bikini into a much sexier, skimpier black one. However, as the party wore on, I noticed that the spell's power was weakening and my old bikini was beginning to show through.


THOUGHTS
I know for a fact that there was MUCH more to these dreams. I was unbelievably exhausted every time I woke up last night - I blame the pregnancy. I would wake up feeling like I hadn't slept in days, and I couldn't muster up any energy to write down my dreams as they came. So, unfortunately, even though my brain dutifully woke me up after each dream, I wasn't able to record them until I got out of bed this morning. Recall naturally suffered, though it's still much better than two nights ago.

Looking forward to getting my first lucid of the year. I know it's just a matter of continuing what I'm doing.

I recall being on a rather large tropical island where I was inserted with either 20 or 24 other dream characters in random locations. Once more this was a sort of hunger games set up, but that we were allowed to work together and claim more than one victor. But then why were we all fighting? I don't know, dream logic I guess. Also, at this early point I guess I was mildly lucid because I had the sense that there were no repercussions if I died.
I decided to try and find some friends to help me to survive longer, and that the best way to do that would be make my way along the beach. But (atleast on the side of the island where I spawned there was a large cliff (I'd guess maybe fifty feet) with the beach being on the bottom. I couldn't descend the cliff so I made my way through the jungle along the top of the cliff.
I walked for some time, and found myself rather bored. I went off thinking about several subjects in my life. I noticed that the jungle looked somewhat trampled and beaten; there wasn't much undergrowth and there looked to be some trees that had been cut or trimmed to make walking through the jungle easier.
I eventually found that the cliff was getting lower and therefore I was walking downhill toward the beach. When I got to the point where the jungle and the beach merged I found there to be a small bay connected to a river that ran inland to the island. There was an even smaller island on the river, and across the river was a very dense jungle with some huge trees.
It was early dawn by this time (it had been nighttime when the dream began.) and the sun was rising. I heard a whistling noise and looked over my shoulder to see up near the top of the island's mountain a white firework shoot up and explode. This was apparently some kind of indication that the first kill had been scored (for the hunger games setup)
I noticed a small rusted metal ship on the island in the river and decided to investigate it. The hull was rusted through in places and the ship's iron ribs were visible, so it was far from sea worthy. The entire island was overgrown with ferns and grasses.
I made my way down the island (the mini island was long and thin in the river.) to the side more toward the large island. I found a concrete platform with a staircase that ran down under the island. Ever intrepid, I decided to descend into the complex.

Badly drawn map of my route and the area until I went underground.
Anyways, I get into the complex, and open a huge rusty iron door that looks like its a hundred years old. It was also at this point that I began to feel as if there was some presence with me in the room. If felt like the presence was the same as the one that was running the entire game.
There is only one room. I pull one of those light switch chains that hangs from the ceiling and a couple of incandescent lights begrudgingly flicker on. The room is small with cinder-block walls and a large workbench. The workbench has a piece of wood above it with nails into it and all of the nails have tools. There is also a large bin of sheet metal nearby.
I stop and think for a second how cool it would be to craft some armor and weapons for this hunger games setup. I decide to do so, but realize with just the metal, I won't be able to do very much. I also get the feeling that the presence believes that's cheating.
The "presence" proceeds to spawn a stand behind me containing dozens of tiny drawers. Each one has different sizes and shapes of screws, nuts and bolts. Perfect, now I can craft my armor.
I craft armor for both arms as well as a chestpeice of sorts. I may have also done armored shin boots, but I cannot remember. (The time spent crafting sort of skipped) The armor looks clean and professional but has something of a minimalist design, lacking a lot of detail. I don't care.
I realize there is another door that runs deeper into the complex. I open it and find that it looks to be a janitor's closet. There is another door on the opposite side of the closet.
I open it, and I am in what looks to be a clothing store, but in an eerily empty atmosphere. Nobody is here and the lights are flickering. I make my way into the corner of the store, and somewhat randomly become lucid. (Well I was semi lucid before, but here is where I became properly lucid.)
I decide to make my way back to the surface. I think about my goal of asking a dream character what their new year's resolution is (also known as the Task of the Month for this month.) But first I need to find a dream character. After this, I do a nose pinch reality check just to double check that I am in fact lucid dreaming.
I continue making my way back to the closet that leads to the way back, but am interrupted by waking up.

Today i dreamt i was near the garage near my apartment with my dad.
i asked if he could show me his bmw m4, i was excepting and wanted to see his bmw m4.
but he said he didn't have, instead of that i saw a motorbike that had M4 sticker on it.
well i wanted to give it a ride.


Fact of the day: I saw a BMW m4 near my school today


Dream elements:

-dad
-motorbike
-m4



Technique used: ----------


hours slept: 7 hours

Today i dreamt i was on the villas street with tito i don't know why, but then i saw
a parked car near that street with 2 ways, 1 to right 1 to left. the car was on the middle of the sidewalk
parked. i open the door, entered in the car, i lying in the car, i was trying to sleep. tito
was calling me to go outside, but i just ignored him and keep lying there.


Dream elements:

-tito
-inside the car
-lying



Technique used: ----------


hours slept: 7 hours