non-lucid

Back into my lucid dreaming journey, and surprise surprise I remembered a dream last night. My recall has been fairly good for me personally even when I'm not trying to do anything dream related, I'm generally remembering either a dream fragment or dream every 2 days or so, which is a whole lot better than where I was at the beginning of this year. On a side note I am also going to start sorting out and categorizing these dream journal entries. Anyway...
Dream 1:
Length: Decently Long
Detail: Above Average
Awareness: Practically none unfortunately, was too caught up in the moment.
It began with me and my brother playing a 3D Mario game with someone else I think, who I might know IRL or not, I don't know, anyway we finished the game, and then he said that we had to find something to be able to keep on playing, maybe for some bonus levels or something. We set about searching for this, but then the dream scene changed. I was now in a cottage/house with someone who I think was my dad and we were watching cricket (which I normally don't like to do). He was telling me all about the game and stuff while I was half listening. The dream scene once again changed, and I was at an Olympic diving pool thing. I'm pretty sure I was still searching for the Mario thing, because I climbed to the top of the platform and dived off, and it felt really important. The dream scene changed for the final time, this time in my old house with my brother and the other guy. We had narrowed down our search for the Mario code or whatever it was, and a ghost/spirit of evil intentions appeared at the front door. We quickly reasoned that we had to have one of us lead him to where the code was, while the other two hid, or something like that. I reasoned it as me and the other guy were like positive and negative charges, and my brother as neutral, so the spirit wouldn't attack him (I know this doesn't make any sense at all. This dream makes no sense to me now, and I blame starting physics this week ). What ensued was a very tense, yet slow chase of sorts, because the spirit was being led directly after us, because it turned out our hiding spot in a wardrobe was where the code was. I distinctly remember before we woke up Me and the other guy hid in the wardrobe, then we pressed this light button thing 4 times and held our breath (I could actually here tense violin music like in horror films here). Then through the gap in the door I saw the spirit, more like a reanimated person then anything else, turn and stare directly at me. He held my gaze yet did nothing, so after 5/10 seconds I slowly ducked out of the line of sight from the opening, then he turned and went to the code. The dream fizzled away after that.
This wasn't a nightmare at all really, just very tense at the end and I woke up with a hammering heartbeat, but it was more exhillirating than scary. I also blame watching Children of Men for that, as that movie was intense

28th November 2013

I am standing in the back garden of an old friend of mine. I throw a bouncy ball and it starts bouncing all over the garden uncontrollably. It hits me in the face a couple times but it doesn't hurt, it's just more of a shock. It appears to be night time and the fence looks a darker maroon than usual.

Strange skip in the dream as I'm waking up, cuts to a weirdly drawn picture of a Castform (Pokemon). I am convinced there is a ghostly presence controlling me as I wake up (?)

I woke up still under sleep paralysis, the first time this has ever happened to me. I was struck by this fear that something terrible was going to happen. It was tough to open my eyes but when I did I instantly shut them again in fear.

I came into care for a rhinoceros with a foot-problem - I took him home - and completely logically he fitted under my kitchen bench.
That was his place then.
From time to time, I had to take care of the foot - and so weird - I read on here yesterday of somebody dreaming of scraping out the hooves of a horse. I vaguely remembered that in my dream. But the fact that rhinos do not have such single hooves, was also available - and I wondered, if I really had the right tool for the job, then.
I got him sorted somehow, though - and he went back where he came from - where ever that was.

This belonged into a first - otherwise very private and problematic themed dream with family and friends from school.

From the second dream - also private - there is a scene, when I was on an excursion from school in winter.
And I lost the others - when it still was hiking in a forest.
It was a mountain then and I had more and more trouble to overcome obstacles and jump down from rocks on good faith more or less.
Freezing - not having the right clothes on.
When I made it down - all were there already - and - they were completely surprised, why I had not skied down, like everybody else would have.
Bit later - another friend of mine with somebody more - came down riding beautiful horses.

And a weird thing with a former teacher flirting with me, when he went with me organizing ballerinas for a sports-lesson - it was kind of appealing - but nothing came of it.
Got the shoes, though.


There was also a Christmas party - but me and friends were not invited to the family thing - family of my first boyfriend.
We sort of had expected to take part and had our own party somewhere hidden in that house then instead - very dull room, no nice food, no presents..
And somebody made a mess in the house, where the family was - getting food for us and running away - and we were wondering if someone would come along and throw us out.
And so it came.



Full of dream-signs..
Full of interpretable stuff as well, but so what ..

Garage fire
My wife just left the house, taking her car. I become aware the garage door opener is still running, so I look out into the garage. I see that it's struggling, trying to get the door down, but the door isn't moving, only shaking a little. Sparks are flying, and I see smoke and flame. Across the street, I see a group of people talking, but they're completely oblivious to what's going on. I hit the button to stop the garage door opener, run into the kitchen, grab the fire extinguisher, and run back outside. Now I'm in the garage, firing the extinguisher at the visible flames. Thankfully, they're still small. I realize that I need to be able to shoot at the base, and I can't do it from this angle. I hadn't realized it earlier, but the flames are coming from the light on the outside of the garage. Now I'm standing on the front porch, looking into the junction box of the porch light. There are still some small flames in there, and I'm spraying the extinguisher into the junction box, trying to fill it, hoping it runs down inside the walls. I think I've got it all, but I know I need to call the fire dept and have them check it out. I'll also need to call an electrician and have them check the wiring, since this was an electrical fire. Since it's in the wall, and the wall is brick, I'm not looking forward to seeing that bill.


Fragments
I'm inside a large indoor complex. The hallways are very wide. I'm in one of the rooms.


I'm in a church or some other kind of large gathering place with some other people. We're getting ready to leave to drive somewhere else, getting directions for the next place (sounds like Mandy's wedding).

First thing i remember is that we were in a classroom and the teacher told us to go out and have sex with as many boys as we could. All of us were in shock. I went out and the school had some sort of carnival going on. There was a cute guy sitting and looking at me. Then his friend sprayed snow spray on me and the snow spray was on fire so i threw my self on the ground so it would get off me and i kind of fell into him. Then he told his friend what the hell man and his friend winked and whispered to him, so i could introduce you guys. The guy smiled and told his friend that he owed him. We sat talking for a while. I decided he was going to be the first guy i slept with for some reason. After that my dad came and we fought and he left. Then me and the guy went to the bedroom and kissed and i don't remember what happened after. Then after that my business teacher was talking to me and he was wearing a The Wanted Jacket. So i told him, wait, you like them too, and he was like i'm their manager so i started freaking out and kept asking him if i could take a picture with him and begged him if he could get them to Egypt. And then i was like i knew he was their manager. He lived right next to them in Sahel. They live near me. It was so weird. Then i don't remember what happened. It was actually confusing.

Date: 11-28-13
Technique(s) used: N/A
Time: 4:00 - 6:31 AM
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In the instant the dream started, I was thrown into a cold, Christmas-themed area. I had an objective - to steal a prized possesion within the walls of what seemed to be a store of sorts.

I walked across ice, feeling a small chill whip around the area. I make my way inside, where it is much warmer.

People flooded the space, which made this mission a bit more complicated. I made my way through the crowds, heading west of the entrance.

Swimming out of the ocean of people, I make my way over to a small section of the store - it connected the room I needed to get to, and the one leading to the entrance. There were many dressers, cabinets, and even a small section for books. Looking around, I saw only a couple of people within the room, and started to go to the objective when something caught my eye.

A young woman walked into the room, along with ehr daughter, just as I was about to leave. She seemed fime, but something didn't look right on her face. It seemed to be twisted and possessed, as if it belonged to a demon. She merely smiled at me, and I smiled back. Must be the watchdog, I thought. If she didn't know that I could see her real face, I'd be okay.

I helped her daughter pick out a book from a bookshelf, and made my way to the next room. This room bolged out forward, fitted with curved windows. I could see the snow and ice outside. The entire room shone an ocean blue, and was filled with artifacts.

I made my way to a small table placed at the center. It shone with a gold hue, bright and beautiful. It was a jar, coated with aged bronze. I lifted it up, surprised at how light it was, and pocketed the artifact.

Making my way out, I reached into my pocket, ready to call my affiliate that the mission was completed. However, when I reached in there, I felt nothing. The phone was gone.

I ran back inside, only to be assaulted with darkness, and woke into the world.

An advertisement for a Christmas event called the Forest of Lights; Christmas shopping in a small store that has cookies out on display, someone exclaims over them, saying that they're just like the ones his grandmother used to make, which he hasn't been able to find since she died, not knowing what they were called.

A grandmother talking to a baby which is also herself: "You're going to be just fine." She's a woman who grew up in the present era, then somehow mentally time-traveled to the past and became trapped there, and wound up living out the life of her own grandmother. She's at a family gathering now and talking about a business she owns, when she has to sit down abruptly, and then holds out her hands and comments on how they're shaking. She's sure this is the moment when she dies. She's very calm about this, to the point that the people around her think she must be joking. There's a narrator then, saying something about how a part of her always expected that when she died, she would simply wake up back in her real body in the present. But she doesn't. It was a mind-soul transfer, the narrator says. When she died, she died. That was it.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

I'm looking at a grave marker in Erana's garden, and examining the spell on it; and then admiring the spell over the rest of the garden that makes it a sanctuary, and noting how even the water of the two rivers which flow around it are affected by the spell when they come into contact with it. Looking at all that running water, I'm having doubts about whether this will be the best place for Olivia to stay over the next few days, even though we're on her native soil, and even though it's otherwise ideal. The river running under the bridge at the entrance to the garden is just a trickle at the moment, but there's an image in my mind of that river growing wider, turning the garden into an island. I start to walk into the woods, and I pass Rogerian coming the other way with an animal he's caught for the two of them to eat. Olivia wakes up and says something about the meal, sounding delighted.

I dream that I keep receiving random checks. They're from some sort of educational institution. I'm trying to figure out what it's all about, and it seems like they specialize in training people and sending them overseas to do various things. I'm nervous about the idea of living in a country where I don't understand the language. I'm trying to figure out if they're genuinely trying to recruit me, or it's some scam to trick me into accruing debt. I go to some sort of office, where I need to have my passport with me and have a blood test done (to make sure I don't have anything infectious/contagious). For some reason, I have bank notes from several different countries in my wallet, and have scribbled notes across them.

00:00 Monday 2013-11-25
00:00 ?? bedtime
04:49
1) helping a little girl to play the piano. fingers 1-2-4 of the right hand. She's playing with a single flat finger, I'm trying to get her to use proper hand position and to keep her entire hand in position and to hit the notes using fingers 1, 2, 4. Her mother is hovering over her to the left. I'm trying to get the girl to answer a question: "So, pieces usually go by....?" (I'm trying to get her to say "fast"), "so if you want to play well, you can't play with a single flat finger, you have to put your hands in the proper place, so that you know where your fingers are" Her mother is bending over more, I say "Look Out!", the mother knocks over a glass of orange juice with her hair/head and it spills all over everything.
2) Outside dark night scene, going in to a bar from a street corner/intersection, some black guys are trying to pick a fight with us, we manage to dodge them and get inside, once inside we think what are we going to do in here, more anad more gang members are meeting up outside, I think we could make a run for it, but there's a guy standing guard so we're not going to be able to get out.
F1) cleaning up a mess after some kind of event, tall tables, a group of young people.
F2) going through a bunch of letters, showing them to MR's sister, he doesn't want her to see them, I'm holding through this pile of letters and shuffling through them. His sister is very interested in them she's looking for an important letter, like a response to her loan application.
F3) Baseball game
Got back to sleep! Hurray! Wasn't fast, but wasn't hours long, 20-40 minutes perhaps? Focused just on relaxing, holding wife, imagining I was breathing "lucid dream gas" that will put me to sleep and lucid dream in just a few seconds.
07:19
3) indoor shooting range, very small like a convenience store, 4 young boys are grouped at a single non-divided counter shooting guns at targets, one boy is standing back from the counter and I'm concerned he's going to hit the boy to his right who is standing up at the counter. I shoot a small revolver outside, at nothing in particular, about 6 shots, then I open the cylinder so the spent cartridges can fall out to the ground and I notice that they are made with a strange spring-loaded re-usable mechanism, a base and a "hat" attached to the base with a spring. I imagine you can use a recording of a gun firing to trick a criminal in to thinking you're out of bullets, then you can save the girl.
08:58
4) on a road trip, there are guys in the car, I say through the window I'm going to go get some ice cream. In the gelato shop, different extremely colorful very strange flavors, about 8. One has very bright purple in it and is a mixture of grape with something else. One is "liquid filled peanut butter cups." The serving guy gives me a "taste" that is a huge portion, more than a regular portion, and it quickly falls out of the cup all over my (right) hand.
5) in a small home drama show, in someone's living room, the room is filled with people following the actors around, there are a lot of lesbians there. I'm sitting on a couch watching. I recognize one of them sitting next to me, a colleague of my sister's, I slap her leg with my hand and say "What have you seen?" I know that her partner has been in town for a while, but she was new to town. One of the female performers starts laughing while reciting her lines while walking/running through the room to the right, I think that's unprofessional.
6) outdoors in a park at an asian/chinese food snack stand, I ask about the ones with the water chestnuts. The cook is going on and on about the different thickness of the skewers: Very thick and tapering like a carrot, or very narrow like a toothpick, the thickness of the skewer determines how much meat to put on. He asks "Have you ever been to Peking?" They have great snacks there.
7) watching a drama theater presentation in R, but the language they're speaking is English. My wife is translating for me which is ridiculous because the show is in English. We had earlier met some annoying gay guys outside on the steps and now we're sitting right next to them, one is immediately to my left and one other is behind us. My wife is continually whispering "translations" for me I say "what are you doing? Be quiet! I already understand" The guys are saying "shush!" I tell them I'm sorry about the noise. I'm surprised that the program was presented in English.
8) In an office-space, cubicles. We're trying to arrange my work place with office helpers, trying to get my monitors arranged for my computer. There's a young woman whom I share a cubicle with, she has a (in my mind) really stupid idea of combining the monitors and computers so that they're all squished tightly together, I think it wil be very uncomfortable sitting side-by-side with her in that small space. The bookshelves are very high to the side mounted way up on the cube walls. The arrangement is my two monitors turned long side up vertically arranged next to each other, then a stack of cubbies holding cables on the side, and I decide "ok I guess that will work." But then I don't like the cube is wide open to the hallway behind us, I don't want to move to this new position, where people can walk by and see what's on my screen.
10:43
9) Watching a TV news program, I'm sitting down in an armchair to my left, the TV is to my right, the ancorman introduces himself, then the camera switches to the anchorwoman who says "Thank You." and starts in on the story. MEO. A guy is being interviewed. The guy is wearing a multicolored (blue and red)? thick striped sweater. They're talking about a problem in houses, something about ice in the water lines, they're making fun of the story, they don't believe it, they say sarcastically "Yeah, because we know how long ice can last in hot water pipes!" The camera view drops down to the man's chest, can't see his face any more, and the guy has man-boobs visible through his sweater, I think this is very bizarre.
F4) teaching children how to do backbends on a gymnastics balance beam. A little girl is bending all the way over backwards, she's supposed to get her hands behind her, the teachers are on each side of her helping.
F5) sitting in a chair, there's a very attractive young lady sitting next to me, a little in front, in a slinky black dress, we make eye contact but I don't pursue it. Short blonde hair. I think I'd really like to get with her!

00:00 Wednesday 2013-11-27
00:20 bedtime
00:35 still up, getting relaxed.
04:45 (garbled, only tiny fragment recalled in any case)
Long time getting to sleep, argment over snoring, probably didn't get to sleep until 07:00
07:45
1) Playing an old 1980's Control Data Corporation mainframe newtorked interactive multi-user space game called "Empire" (a real thing BTW). My view is filled with the screen showing my and the other ships flying around. I am very quickly pressing the key sequence that launches torpedoes and detonates enemy torpedos. I have a few dogfights with enemy ships. I think my O ship (smallest/weakest one in the game but fastest) has faster torpedoes than the other teams'. I make a kill against another ship. I am dodging enemy ships and fire frantically, constantly changing course. I then set course for a planet where I can fuel. I imagine approaching a huge space station (not in the game view any more).
Inside the space station, the aftermath of a Jedi battle, I'm a jedi and we've taken over the world. A female jedi partner and I are meeting with the former rulers of a world we hve conquered. We're then in a hallway approaching a door where we will make a broadcast presentation to the world telling about our new rulership of this world. "Great time to not have any pants on" I think, noticing I have no pants. I try pulling down a short robe which I'm wearing, it seems to stretch down to the floor. I imagine walking down the corridor with the bottom of the robe wiping along the floor. There are some colorful patterns on the bottom of the robe. My female partner says I should just tuck in the robe to my (underwear?). She says "everyone in the world is watching this (presentation) except The Force." One of the former, vanquished rulers is approaching, I'm sitting down, I think he may try treachery and try to kill me in my bad position with a lightsaber as he walks past me, I imagine him trying a fast attack and I respond by blocking with my lightsaber. I don't like that guy.
There is a presentation of an orchestrated fight sequence given by young children, about 3-4 of them diving and dodging and rolling around on mats.
09:37
2) watching a merry-go-round, there are some women there I'm watching.
stuck between a wooden fence and a building. The fence is like a ranch fence with side wooden boards and lots of space in between the boards. I can't get out, I don't fit somehow. Some woman says "don't worry just don't drink or eat and you'll get through." 3 women from the merry-go-round walk by.
10:56
3) on the beach of a beautiful very bright turquoise blue ocean. Someone says "oh there's whales!" I hear whale-sound in the air, I want to hear it in the water so I lean down over a sandy bank and put my head into the water to listen. I see the flat side of the sandy land above my head. Someone (my cousin G) says "what are you doing, you can't swim there!" But I love it and I would love to swim there, I don't care. They become killer whales, a parent and child. In some large ship with many levels. The small killer whale is a monster with a face full of teeth, dark (purple?) colored. It's following and trying to get me. I'm trying to take a picture of the whales, I have an old-style flat, wide, and long instamatic camera.
4) laying a table outside in some sort of garden for dinner. Inside there's a gathering. One narrator is a mostly naked, large white blonde-haired woman with extremely pale skin and super bright blue veins, turquoise, dark-blue-purple, all over her skin. I find it really nasty.
There is a pit set into the floor of the room under a grating, with buckets at the bottom. They need to be emptied and cleaned. I need to pull them up, it's hard because it's about 10 feet deep I don't know how I'm going to get them up. Emptying and cleaning the buckets.
F1) Caressing the arms and legs of some woman.
5) There's a woman lying in bed with textured stockings on. I start peeling the stockings off (ripping them off in strips). She's in bed with her husband/boyfriend, she likes what I'm doing, but he wakes up and starts smacking me around, I protest and say that I'm just trying to fix a tear in the stockings.

I was in my dream and my buddy tony was there with me , He looked like he was all drugged up and he was carving sculptures from little white blocks. Maybe soap. Anyways I think he was trying to sell them. We were in an old abandoned building and people were walking around like it was an office. I woke up but nothing came too me as too trigger lucid effects. I remember though I felt bad for him in my dream.

So there I was just sleeping on my bed and all of a sudden, I see this list of dreams pop up in my head.
I looked at all of them and just randomly picked one. Next thing I know, I'm in an old Japanese house with a blackout. Me and the other two roommates were just walking around trying to turn power back on and then I just popped back up at the same list again.
I looked at the list and found a League of Legends dream. I went into it and GangPlank was shooting his gun at me and I woke up.

Morning of November 27, 2013. Wednesday.



In my dream, my wife Zsuzsanna and our children are in our backyard in perhaps late morning, seemingly of the home we live in now on W Street. There are some differences though, one being that the gate is more towards the middle of our fence on the west side of the property, and there are also additional trees. At least four miniature resplendent quetzals fly around, both males and females. At times though, it seems like they may also be a rare species of hummingbird. (Hummingbird and quetzal composites have appeared in previous dreams.) There is a heightened awareness of beauty and peace. The vibrant energies of the reds, greens, and blues move through the air as they seem interested in the flowers growing near one tree near our fence. My wife watches them cheerfully. At times, they seem more and more like hummingbirds (or perhaps just with hummingbird heads and way of flight - as their wings are sometimes moving more like that of a bee). It is like a special mystery or “visit” for our eyes only. I am sort of puzzled as to what they really are but feel they are like a special gift in some ways. (A quetzal also appeared in probably the most vivid dream I ever had in my lifetime, on Easter morning of 1986, age 25.)

Amusing trivia: Curiously, the audio reversal of “quetzal” sounds just a little like “Aztec” (ket-so…os-tek), whereas “Quetzalcoatl” sounds a little like “little old Aztec”.

There was a dream where I was at some sort of island theme park. It was supposed to be pretty scary. I was with Nguyen and a few other people. We stayed there for a while. There were a few of the higher ups frying there as well for some reason.
There was a pretty intense part of the park, probably one of the three parts of the park where you get toured around by some clown looking guy, and randomly throughout the ride he would go crazy and you have to calm him down in order to progress without anyone having to be taken. It was a very intense and somewhat scary ride. There was a whole fiasco with who I was staying with and the clown. They didn't look like the clown from it, but they somewhat did. The face paint on the one clown would change color when he went insane during the ride.
Watson was there with us, and he ordered a bunch of video games to the park address but he wasn't there to pick them up the next day because he was probably missing or something.
Then I went with some of the higher ups from my work from the park to another part which was in a house hotel area where my grandma and aunty were staying. There were a few interesting things that happened there and then I got a ride with them back to the park. There was another part of the dream that involved them and my work more heavily but its pretty hazy.
I get back to the park and have a pretty intense moment where an entire hall of people turn into the clown looking things, it was kind of scary but moreso just intense and in tents. I end up finding out why the clown was so crazy though when I try to escape from the park one night through a flashback.
In a past life the clown was in fact a starfish whose daughter starfish got destroyed by the waves and rocks and environment. Life is hard for other creatures. He dragged her to a place near the ocean and rocks where he could sort of protect her and try to help her heal, because starfish can heal relatively easily. He ends up turning into a large barnacle to protect her. I just remember intense feelings of sympathy for the clown starfish barnacle, and it all made sense why he was so angry to me at the time. Then the dream ended.
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There is a pretty major dream, kinda vivid, where at the end of it, we end up somewhat around Las Vegas celebrating something and a small cruise turns into a large extravagant one.. It seemed to be around Hawaii because there were huge boats and also F15's in the water that we were all riding. It was an amazing celebration There was some production as to why it was being recorded as well. I think it was after work in my dream. I had a feeling that I had never seen this before even though I am from Hawaii.
I cant recall the rest of the dream as of right now.
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an extensive dream about me, Nguyen, Scott and my Catholicism teacher as well as all the people in my weekend catholic school as we go out, learn, and get into hi jinx. we end up having some lessons I forget which kind. Then I end up talking to my friend Nguyen, as we need Halloween costumes... We go to a mall and we buy two nun costumes that pull away into other costumes like party boy. we the go to our catholic class via shuttle, where we meet my friend scott, who has now turned into a douche for some reason and feeds me some bs story about how he had moved or seen his house where his mom and him used to live where he was beaten by his dad as an excuse for being a douche. He slaps an old man on the face in the subway.
then we go back to class after trying to figure out what we re going to eat for lunch as we cant decide, we almost don't have lunch.
At class there are many people i know. It is held on the top floor of some building in a city like pearl city. we talk and our teacher seems like an asshole. I see some of my cousins in my class and one of them is singing a song by Die Antwoord. I am pressured by the teacher to see if I am going to volunteer for whatever thing they had going on the next day, which I was hesitant to do because I had no clue. Then we went on with our lives after the class and having decided that I wouldn't go on this excursion the next day, as I still want to have a weekend. Then the dream ends.
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I go to a convenience store with my mom and sister and Martinson. We get into a small confrontation.
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Had a WILD. Went into SP then got woken up by a little boy. Room was small. He said "she" wanted to see me. Went to see a somewhat scary dream lady that I turned into my memere. I decided I wanted to get away at that point so I fell through the ground into a backyard. There was a few trees and dogs there. Pretty vicious dogs but I love them so I let them bite me. I go into another scene where its a beautiful open field and I fly around. The weather is so nice, and there's pine trees. The weather gets darker and on top of a hill I see Kim Jong Un. I fly away to a desert area where the world gets like runescape and I think im in WoW. I start to walk around the crowded halls. I have a movie like vision of two girls in the town. Sisters.
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Had a crazy dream where We were travelling across country with a bunch of people, some high school classmates and whatnot and we went to a very high class party. There were a lot of drugs and debauchery going on at this party. That was pretty much the extent of it.
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Had a dream where i was in my old house and every night a demon dog would come and try to harm us but we would hold it back.
Had another dream where a dog used a paint brush in its mouth to paint a large canvas in the back yard
Had another dream where we were all staying at my cousins house and we were going to have a huge pot luck. Some of the people that I work with were there such as Lawson and Harris.
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Bunch of awesome dreams last night. Had one where I was going through some sort of fun house where some somewhat evil things popped out at you and it was a test of whether you could handle them all. Spirits and stuff would try to enter your body. After I got out of there I went up to this other place and saw my aunty who turns out was taken over somewhat by these evil things. Then I woke up in a somewhat military barracks where we all had bunk beds. They said it was code red mopp 4 because the room was painted red.
Then I had some other dreams which were all very vivid. After flying around in one of them because I knew that I was lucid, I tried to conjur something, but for some reason it wasn't working. I also toured my aunty around because I knew that she was taken over by demons. When I got tired of the dream I fell through the floor to see where I could go to next.
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Had a dance battle with Nguyen just while i was taken over by the grim reaper who actually looked like a muppet. I was part of an organization that was housing a girl child that its members were keeping her hostage because she was the key in unleashing the Old Ones. There was a jerk at the head of the organization now who basically runs things in the background Me and a bunch of my real life co workers were all a part of this organization. He tried to get all of our contacts through each other by forcing us to give him our contacts but some refused.
Had another dream where I went to a mall with some friends, but it wasn't a huge mall. I tried to impress my friends with a display of acrobatic skill by jumping all over the place in the mall and doing some cool stuff. There was an upper area in the mall which was a sort of play area which was like a rotating skating rink but instead was a moving platform that span and you had to run with it and try not to fall off of it because it was very high in the air.
Had another dream where I was back at home and for some reason my dad was there as well as my mom. My dad basically took over my moms room and my mom was left to stay in the living room, which was weird because it was her house. There were quite a few interesting dreams this past week and this past night The most interesting was the one where we were part of an organization that was corrupt and there was a figure head that was a little child who was a mere pawn in the whole thing.

I was wondering about private/DV journalling the last week - and stopped doing it in here.
I found, that while it is good, to do it on a recording function of my I-Phone - without the drive to trans-scribe it - I do not even always listen to it once more.
So this can´t be good.
So I´m back.
But I also have this stupid problem of sweating esp. while vivid and active dreams - and I sort of automatically start moving and opening my eyes to get a new shirt.
It is good I can start dictate, while doing that - but anyway - got to try to really keep still and eyes closed and feel a bit damp and un-comfy for the sake of recall!

While I can hold on to fragments, while doing the changing - I believe this is mostly optically - I do loose the bigger narrative like that.

Many - unnoticed dream-signs: Place of my youth, friends from back then, removals, looking for a place to live.. and more in the other fragments, too.

So - three of the several fragments on the 4 min. audio-file, I grumbled together:

I wanted to move back to the place I spent my youth, and was looking for somewhere to live - me a man, I don´t know, came along a small street - rather a way, where there where lots of old-fashioned, formerly very beautiful Bavarian buildings - like old farm-complexes and also normal houses - all were completely ruined, though.
One could look through wooden pillars - and even inside was nothing interesting to go examine and "pillage".
Something I felt like doing - and I was disappointed, not to see furniture or interesting other things inside any of them.
I was also wondering, how it could be, there were ruins in such a "popular area" close to the lake.



I was with one old female school-friend out to look for something to wear for a party - and we suddenly thought - why not just take something.
But as it were - there was almost no space in the 2 shops, we went in - and nothing we wanted, either - so back out we went.
Then she was suddenly gone - and I had to pass through a café with tables on the side-walk.
Twice something fell to the ground unnoticed - first an expensive ear-ring - and I picked it up and gave it back to the woman - and then some figurine of a board game - also gave that back to that woman.


The last thing was the nicest - I think, not often in my dreams do I hear something beautiful.

I was sight-seeing inside a big government-building with another friend back from school.
I still have some contact with some of them - but not him for too long, actually.
Inspired by Sivason - I might write a mail to him..

Anyway - there were columns with singing bowls - some of them filled with water.
My friend circled with his finger around the rim of one filled bowl - and the most wonderful sound emerged - crystal-clear and very sublime - "hanging in the air" for a while after.
The one closest to me didn´t have water, but I found and poured some in - and started trying it out myself.
But it didn´t work out as beautifully - almost didn´t work at all - and bit later - we left.