non-lucid

Dream - Lucid

I was outside at night, looking for my coworker, Nate. I was on some sort of drug. I found him sitting on a park bench. I sat down next to him and talked to him for awhile, talking about a dream I had that night.

Then, he asked me something about the drug I was on. I told him it was some kind of fake weed. Then, we started making out. It was really intense and really good. I remember him pulling away once, and me involuntarily gnashing and grinding my teeth. I smiled and we started making out again.

Then, I remember being in his room, and laying on his bed. He had taken all his clothes off except for his underwear. He looked nothing like he does in waking life. He was all muscular and tan and was wearing a blue thong. I instantly found him unattractive. He started talking to me about his figure or something.

I then was sitting on a bench outside talking to some girl who was supposedly his sister. Her name was Emilee. She was very blonde. They had another sister as well, who was also blonde. Anyway, I was talking to her, and she started talking about sex. Then, her mom approached us. She sat on the bench and started asking why I was there and what we were doing since it was so late. Emilee started to make up some weird story about my boyfriend since high school breaking up with me, and something about elephants. Her mom thought it was bullshit and asked Emilee to leave. She left, and her mom started talking to me, asking me what really happened. I didn't think I could make up a believable story in that short amount of time, so I just winged it. I told her that Emilee was right, I had just broken up with my boyfriend since high school and I needed a friend. I also told her I had no idea what she was talking about with the elephants. Her mom seemed to believe me.

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I was entering Disney World before they opened. The sun was just starting to come up. I walked by this roller coaster that they were testing out before they opened. It had weird cars, they were all bugs. I remember specifically some being smiling, yellow caterpillars. I remembered I had ridden that coaster before.

There was nowhere to walk by the roller coaster except for super close to and between the tracks. I'm not sure how I ended up there, but I tried to avoid the carts as they were run through the track over and over. The sun was up now as well. As the carts were continually run through, the coaster started falling apart. Pieces started to fly off. I had to dodge a few. I even saw a whole section of cart fly out into a field somewhere. I started to think that they should probably close that ride.

Then, I remembered I was meeting my family there. I saw a huge line by the entrance to the park closest to the messed up coaster. I don't remember where I met my family, but we found each other. My dad started talking about how we were under a tornado warning. I looked into the sunny sky, and in the distance, I saw a huge wall of dark clouds coming towards us.

We all went to look for shelter. We came across this tent that had lots of wicker furniture under it. My parents wanted to stay there, but I lifted a piece of it up, and it was super light. There was no way we could hang on to anything there. I told them we should go to the arcade instead. We left and entered an arcade. Perfect, we'd be safe here. My brother started to play ski ball while we were there. I decided to play as well. For some reason, I was having trouble throwing the ball up into the goals. The thing was built weird, to where I had to roll the ball on the edge of the machine for it to get it into any goals. After the ball getting rolled back to me a few times, I finally started to get the hang of it. I felt like I was doing pretty well. Our games ended, and the machines started to feed out our tickets. My brother had scored higher than me, and got a few more tickets. I remember my score being 21.6 or something like that. I took my tickets and started trying to fold them up, but was having problems. My dad asked me something about the tickets.

The next thing I knew, we were in the car, driving through Disney World. My dad was driving. He said
"Doesn't that look like a funnel cloud?"
I looked to the right. Sure enough, a huge, billowing funnel had formed out of the wall of clouds. What was eerie about it, was that everything else was light and sunny, save for that area. My brother said something, I don't remember what, but as we drove, the funnel started making its way towards us. It was a full-blown tornado now, and a huge one at that. My dad said, frantically,
"Why is it coming this way?!"
I told him to drive. It made its way behind us...right behind us. But it kept going to the left instead of following us. It was tearing the park apart. I could see a ride with people in it caught in the middle of the tornado. We were safe, though. We were out of its path.

Then, I remember being outside under some structure. We were all sitting down on the ground. We were talking. I asked my mom where my phone was. She said she didn't know. I started thinking about where I had been, and figured out I may have left it at Nate's (going back to my previous dream). I got super pissed at my mom about it though, blaming her and asking her why she didn't pick it up or remember it. My brother pulled a bulky phone out of my mom's pocket, and said something about how she had taken that instead. I was yelling and screaming at her about it, saying I hated her and such. I had a glass in my hand, and I threw it to the ground. It just bounced. Fuck that. I picked it back up and threw it to the ground again. It smashed everywhere. My mom started yelling at me.

Then, I figured out where we were. We were by that crazy messed up roller coaster. They were running it again, testing it out. We were alright where we were; we wouldn't get hit by the carts in the area we were in, but we were still very close to the tracks. They were randomly firing off the carts. I looked to my left, and my brother was standing on the track. He was going to try to jump out of the way right before the cart hit him.
"Move, B, move! Get off of there!", I said.
He stood there. I saw the chain start to move under the track.
"Move! Now! MOVE!", I yelled at him.
The cart started coming towards him. It was the smiling yellow caterpillar cart. He tried to jump, but he didn't move in time. The cart hit him and he was thrown off to the side. He looked up at his legs. As he did so, I did the same. They were bloody and gored. I ran to him, screaming
"Hospital. Now. Call the hospital! Now!"
He started to cry. I knelt down beside him and held him, crying, telling him it would be ok. He hugged me as I tried to comfort him.

I woke up with a grimace on my face. I was still very sad. It took me awhile to fall asleep again.

~

I remember something about entering a Shoney's (ew), and seeing some really tall fat lady who was supposed to be their mascot. She approached me and handed me some fried thing. She was talking to me in character. I started to eat it. It wasn't too bad, a little chewy, but not awful. The end of it was sweet, almost like it was an M&M. I tried to ask the lady what it was, but she was talking to someone she worked with, she seemed upset about something.

~

I was with my friend Mike at a restaurant. We were drinking. I had an almost empty glass of wine and a full cup of beer. I sipped the beer. It was really good. Mike told me it was Sweetwater Blue. I loved it. I knew I needed to finish my wine. Mike suggested that I just down it.

Dream Journal #16 May 18th, 2011.

Wow.. i slept right through my alarm, that or it didnt go off. my dreams aren’t really that memorable. i only remember some fragments, although i did remember me suddenly thinking about lucid dreaming in the middle of my dream. most of the dreams were about school. they somewhat relate to league of legends because we had mana and stuff… but that’s all i remember lol. Not a good night for dreaming Tonight for sure.

edit: Weird, I remember this dream like 30 minutes after I woke up.

I remember being in Terreri’s class, and it wasn’t actually terreri but he was a sub. But he looked EXACTLY like terreri and had the same voice, but for some reason I knew he was a sub. I forgot what I did in there, but as I left class I forgot my shorts lol so I was walking around the hallways with only my boxers on. Sean and Andrew saw me and they were like wtf? And I was like.. damn, needa go get my shorts. So I get them and I see Anthony there still sitting in class like he had detention. Then I remember Terreri saying something about demons to him or whatever. I leave. As I walk the hallways, it’s like some kind of holiday similar to Halloween. People are behind the glass displays and they’re invisible, but theirs signs saying to come close to the glass display. As soon as people get close, students suddenly appear and scare the shit out of them. Me, on the other hand, I was able to see through their invisibility. I kicked one of my classmates who was invisible, and he was just like WTF.. how do you see me? I just laughed and walked away.

I was in a car I used to own. Possibly a VW Jetta. I was parked in a spot that was very cramped.
I tried to get around an obstacle, and I did, but then I was presented with another obstacle.
I went down a little bank, around a tree, to get to a lower drive. I thought everything was fine,
but then there were other cars blocking me. I couldn't seem to get to a clear area where I could
drive.

I finally made it to a garage where my Jetta was. Yea, I know. So, I talk to the mechanic and he
tells me that a flood got the car and I needed to replace the battery. In waking life, water gets on
the glow plug of diesels I think if you go through a puddle, but if it is not a diesel, water can still
make your car conk out.

Then I was on top of the car that needed to be fixed. Two friends took a hand and helped me
jump down.

That's right. 4 separate dreams! I drank half a cup of natural apple juice before I went to bed (Not sure if this had any effect on my dream recall or not). Anyway, I'll try to go in the order I remember them.

My first dream had to do with some kind of family gathering at the Clevenger residence (The family I am going to move in with once I graduate). I don't remember much about this one, besides the fact that there was a spider chilling on a fence and I was messing with it. The spider looked something like a mix between a predator and a skulltula (and almost as big). I remember doing something to subdue it, but I don't remember what. I know I didn't touch it; that thing was scary as fuck.

The next dream I remember took place in school, as usual. There was a party in my classroom. Possibly having to do with being the end of the school year. Not sure. The classroom was packed, so I decided to go in the lunch line to get some food. My friend, Diorra stopped me and teased me about going in the line to see Vanessa (ex). I didn't understand why she'd even bring her name up to me, as we haven't dated in a year and a half and haven't talked in months. When I got to the lunch line, I saw her about 5 people in front of me, and I just went back to the classroom.

I'm not sure if this is the same dream or if it continued where the last one left off or what, but I'll count it as a 3rd dream... The bell rang and I began heading to English class (I took English last semester). The teacher said my group's assignment was to fill up a bottle with shampoo from some really old theater/stage that was all the way out in like Virginia. Why my teacher wants us to go to Virginia is beyond me, but we did it. I forget who drove. We arrived at the stage in about 15 minutes time (Virginia is a 3 hour drive minimum). It was dark, but the stage was lit, and we got whatever amounts of shampoo we needed for our bottle. Before getting back in the car, I saw some steps leading down a hill into some trees. I followed them 'til I saw a large house with the lights on. For some reason, it just popped in my head that this was Abby (some girl in my AP Environmental Science class) and that I should leave, so I got back in the car and I think the dream ended.

The last dream I remember is a dream I've had for awhile. It has to do with the video game "DOOM". I used to play this game a lot as a kid, and last night I dreamt I was on the Nightmare difficulty setting (basically the hardest thing you've ever seen. 10x harder than your Call of Duty Veteran or Halo Legendary) but died as soon as I took damage from anything. If you've ever payed on the Nightmare difficulty, you could imagine how annoying this really is.

I'm somewhat surprised I didn't DILD in my dreams last night, as I performed at least 20 RCs the day before. I also attempted MILD, using the mantra "I will be aware that I am dreaming".

I attempted to WILD and got the closest I have ever been. My entire body was numb (I don't think it was paralyzed yet) and I could feel my hearing slowly fading out the noise from upstairs and could hear a faint whirring. I could also see flashing lights as my eyes moved quickly back and forth inside my head. I like most everything about where I am sleeping now, except that my girlfriend's parents' room is directly above mine. There is a lot of noise coming from upstairs, especially when I try to take a nap. I felt the numbness begin to wear off and rolled over and slept normally.

I dreamt some kids from my school were on Dream Views and were explaining to me some tips on having my first LD. One person I specifically remember was Mark. This is very interesting, because he talks to me and shows me a lot of things in my math class. For a 3 hour nap, it is relatively disappointing to only remember one dream, and so vaguely. I took a 50 mg half-tablet of B6 before I took a nap. I think I'm going to do the B6 once a week from now on, after reading about side effects and such.

This started off with me at a friends house. It wasn't a house I recognized so, I don't exactly know which friend. A bunch of us were just doing random stuff outside. But, then we decided to open the garage door, inside this garage was a bunch of planes, his dad was some sort of pilot I guess. We were all in awe of how many planes there were. Then my friends dad came home and he was really angry at us for looking at his most prized possesions, thus swearing at us until he was red in the face. Here's the weird part, I was just sitting on the front porch and his dad was randomly landing planes in the backyard, but that's not all, a red dot appeared on the ground infront of me, I backed away and a fighter jet managed to hover in that area. The jet turned towards me and its guns came out of there hiding. I was about to be shot at by a fighter jet! I ran around the side of the house and into the backyard, along with one other friend. We wanted to go inside through the glass door, however it would not budge. We saw the fighter jet round the corner and point its guns at us and I screamed at Mr. Gibbers (Friends dad) to help us. He came over and asked what was wrong, I pointed at the fighter jet that was no longer there.

Shortly after the dream ended.

I was "awake" at 4:45 AM. Dad told i should stop trying to lucid dream. I of course did not listen, I laid down in my room and cleared my mind. I focused on a violet sphere and rotated it with my mind. I then had a falling sensation.
The dream ended.

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was possibly in a classroom. All the desks were arranged in a circle. The room was lit with kind of dull, greenish, fluorescent light. The class or meeting had ended, and everybody was headed out of the room. The room was empty as I left it.

There was a boy somewhere behind me. He was blonde, well-groomed, with a kind of effeminate bearing and voice. He had said something in class, and now he asked me, "Was I rude when I said that?"

I wanted to say yes, but I thought that would be wrong. So I said, "Well, you work so hard that nobody would think you were just plain rude. But people might think you were defensive."

Dream #2

I was walking along a sidewalk in a residential part of town. It was a sunny day, but there was snow on the ground. The snow had been cleared from the sidewalks and streets, but it was still piled up around the curbs and the grassy areas between the sidewalks and curbs. The snow piles were all wet and slushy from the sun.

I was apparently heading to a dance class (?). But, as I crossed a street and then walked past a glass-walled bus stop, I felt a bad headache and decided not to go to class. The headache was like a hard, concrete-like feeling in the back of my head. My eyes also felt sunken in, and I had a real drop in energy.

But I also felt like if I didn't go to dance class I would teach my teachers and classmates a lesson, as if they had done something to insult me and now I was paying them back.

I was apparently walking a few blocks, up a mild slope, to a train stop, possibly for one of the red trains, maybe the 2-train. I walked past either a college campus with red brick buikdings or a block of very nice, red-brick houses. There were tall trees shading the sidewalks.

A couple of tall, young, beautiful people were walking close behind me. The neighborhood may actually have been moderately busy with people overall. The people were joking about something they had done to a friend or colleague of theirs. They had taken something of his. When he got upset about it, they wondered why he could be so sensitive.

I passed another (or the same?) glass-walled bus stop. I now had in my left hand two bags from fast food restaurants. The first bag was from Dunkin' Donuts. It was a coffee. The second bag was from somewhere else. It was food, maybe even a donut.

I was getting close to the subway station. But suddenly I was in a vehicle like a big minivan. I was in the van with a few other people who acted or looked like subway passengers. The van was driving down concrete ramps that looked somewhat like ramps connecting different platforms in a subway station.

We kept going down. The area we were driving through looked like a mix between a subway station and a mall. There were stores like department stores and drug stores all through the corridors.

A big, muscular, kind of pale, white man who looked like a soldier sat somewhere across from me. But he also seemed, at times, to be driving this vehicle.

He told me and a couple other passengers, "When I'm driving a train, and they tell me we have to be delayed, I let everybody know exactly what's going on. I tell them, we'll be here for 28 minutes, and I countdown, and so on. That way people know.

"Some people like to keep passengers in the dark about what's going on. I think dispatch does, too! But I don't. When people don't know what's going on, they feel like the train will never start running again."

The man stopped the vehicle. We were really deep down by now. I saw the subway train off to the left. The front of it had a side door, like for a semi truck, which was swung open. I understood that the man was going to conduct the train.

I jumped out the left side of the van, but I landed outside on the right side of the van. For some reason I was worried about whether I had jumped out fast enough. I thought if I was too slow, the soldier would be impatient with me.

The area down here was also like a mall, and there were a lot of people lounging around like they would in a mall. I saw two big drugstore-like stores, one of which may possibly have been a bookstore. I thought that I might need to go to the store before I got on the train.

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I'm sure I had a couple of dreams last light but my most vivid one was the last one I had upon waking up.

Myself and a couple of friends spawn on what I believe to be was a counter-strike: source map. I was unfamiliar with the map but since my friends were novices I was the leader. My team was Billy, AJ, Mike and Max. They happen to be random kids from my track team for the most part. We approach a staircase that makes a right hand turn into a small hallway that wraps around to the Demon who happens to be our new objective. The demon was a small almost azn child with Deep red eyes. I peak the AWPer who is sniping from a person sized opening at the top of the staircase. I spot a guy in the hallway and say "BILLY SHOOT DOWN THE HALLWAY" only to find out that billy has no guns...While preoccupied with the AWPER AJ some how managed to get into the hallway where he was fighting the demon. I quickly put on my try-pants and Dinked the shit out of the awper. I looked down the hallway and the demon was about to tear apart AJ's stomach. To my surprise he pulled his pants down and started sucking his dick. Which for some reason to me was even more alarming. All of a sudden we were on the track bus with the demon. Perhaps we had apprehended him and he was being held by us? For some reason I had to kill him so my friend MikeO lent me this badass pocket knife that had four blades. I quickly cut through his throat which practically melted on this extremely sharp knife. All of his guts fell out of his throat and everyone on the bus yelled "Ewww" as if someone just threw up or something.

My memory of how this began is kind of sketchy now:
I'm working on a class project with 2 other students. One of them, a girl, gets mad at me for some reason - unjustifiably as I recall. Since I can't stand to be on bad terms with someone IWL, naturally in my dream I seek out this girl later on to straighten things out.

The following I remember vividly:
I'm alone in a house at night. I'm possibly in that girl's house trying to find her. I walk past French double doors that are wide open; beyond them is a dimly lit back patio. There's a homeless-looking man sitting on a covered porch swing outside, and he's glaring at me. Part of his clothing is green, and he has a bushy beard. He looks threatening, he's not supposed to be there, and the doors are open - so now I'm scared. He's watching me, so as quickly as possible, I shut the right side of the double doors, and just as I try to shut the left side, he lunges at me. Holy crap!! I try to shout for help, but I find my throat severely congested and I can barely make a sound. He comes at me reaching with one arm, menacingly. Desperately, I reach out to grab his hand in an effort to stop him from grabbing me... and I wake up in bed, actually grabbing at thin air!

I've added this to my mental list of nightmares to revisit in future lucid dreams. Nothing against homeless people - heck, I give them money IWL - but I'll beat the living piss out of this particular DC the first chance I get. No one lunges at me from dark patios and gets away with it!
***** UPDATE *****
About a week after I dreamed this, a REAL homeless man who VERY CLOSELY RESEMBLED the nightmare DC came into my work IWL and acted very strangely. He had the same bushy gray beard, the same creepy look, and was even wearing green!! He asked about getting a job, hit on me, and started undoing his fly as if he planned to expose himself to an older woman who was getting fitted by our seamstress (I work at a drycleaners). I was about to tell him to get the fuck out, but he decided not to whip out his junk, and finally left.

This the first dream I decided to record, a weird one indeed.;)

I was in school near to water fountain, after I drank water I saw one of my friends had pistol. He offered to give it to me and I gladly accepted. I went to bathroom and hid the gun in my clothes and went out. Somehow I knew that two people that I didn't know are coming to school. I was walking to the front gate.

I don't know what caused this but I suddenly felt hate against those two people and wanted to kill them! So I became trigger happy, took out the gun and shoot a student in head and another one in leg.:D Stranglely, there was no blood at all and more strangely, no one screamed! Then I ran to front gate to meet those people. I saw one of them get out of car.

I went back in school and when that guy was halfway in, I pulled out my gun and emptied the clip on him. But somehow he didn't catch even a single bullet and ran out of school, got in the car and drove away! I suddenly realises what I've done!!! I felt terrible fear and depression!!! I knew that I fucked up my whole life and when the cops get here I'll be in jail.

I decided to commit suicide but my gun was empty. So I thought maybe I could jump down from rooftop. I went out of school and searched for a building which I can get on top of. I found and old one. This part of dream was a bit disorted and stupid because I couldn't run fast enought and jump to grab the edge.:lol: One moment I was on street the other moment on top of that building.:shock: Until I found out that the height isn't high enough to effectively kill me.

So I decided to jump from school's rooftop. I needed the keys for it. So I went back in and got the keys by threatening the person who had them. School interior wasn't how it was supposed to be.:roll: I went upstairs and noticed other students follow me up. So I threatened to kill them if they don't go back down. Among them, I saw one of my friends that I like. On my way up I saw the headmaster in his room drinking something in one of the glasses that I have in home.:eek:

I unlocked the door and got to rooftop. I wasn't thinking about jumping down, I don't know why. I saw the guy that gave me the pistol beside me and saw the headmaster on the other side of the rooftop saying I should go see him ASAP before the situation gets worse! I told the guy I'm not gonna tell that I've got the gun from him. I lied.:D

Then I was in headmasters room talking to him!:? I told him where I've got the gun from and told him it wouldn't have happened if I didn't.:( I looked at my gun, it looked like as if it was made of paper and cloth.:lol: The headmaster told me that I'm totally fucked!!! So I cried to death and woke up.:panic:

Dream Signs:

1. After I killed a student and injured another one, no one behaved as the should.
2. I couldn't run or jump, teleportation.
3. My guns seemed like as if it was made of cloth and paper. (The most obvious one)
4. Headmaster was drinking in a glass that's mine.

This dream seemed pretty logical and real I'm surprised!

Reallity Checks:

Unfotunately, even after I noticed these strange things I forgot to reallity check. Because of that, I didn't become lucid.

17.05.2011

Chasing Tsunamis (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had a FA in my room, but it was a bigger room. The ground was moving like if there was an earthquake. I experienced several small earthquakes in a row, but they were not powerful.

Some people was outside crying and running around. I was surprised because here in California we are used to it. I left my room and got to the living room, which was bigger than usual. We had a Christmas tree that the top half, was broken. It had no start and I think it was a yellow tree.

I got out to the street. I was in some sort of downtown, but the pavement was made out of wood. In addition, it was solid frozen surrounded with ice.

I saw a few Tsunamis happening, but oddly, these only damaged the road where they were overrunning. Instead of feeling all the roads with water, only the road I was in was being filled.

Suddenly, Bart Simpson (lol) started to heat up a piece of wood on the pavement. This piece warmed up and started to create steam and to melt the ice around. This formed new small Tsunamis all around.

I could see people chasing Tsunamis and I decided to do so. The waves looked normal, but there were more like a wall of water, as the back of the wave was flat. Some kids were laughing at the back of these waves.

17.05.2011

Readings and healing at the backroom (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was at work, but the store was way bigger and I had a different manager. I was told something and the manager started to laugh.

I went to the backroom where I found a kitchen and met with a psychic. I had to find a light or something. The psychic told me she had a light, made out of her energy. She told me that as I was a psychic too, I could hold the light, but non psychic would just make the light vanish.

The psychic offered a reading, but I told her I could make my own readings as I was able to Read the tarot. The psychic opened a small box with joints and cigarettes, offering one. I told her I did not smoke, besides of the eventual cigar. I decided to take a cigar.

A few moments later, the psychic was giving a reading to a guy about his work. She told me that I needed to heal that guy after the reading, and I agreed. However, the psychic was smoking and bothered the guy who was receiving the reading. A few moments later, the psychic was a medium now and she needed to find some evidence on the Spirit World.

17.05.2011

Healing and proving (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in a very big place doing readings (probably Tarot, cant remember well)
I gave healings to several people, and I was proving my psychic abilities to some skeptic people, which made feel good.