non-lucid

I was in some sort of a bookstore. I was reading a book. It's inside a Catholic school (DBTI?). The lady cashier (librarian) asked if I have a book like it, and clarified if it's mine. Not, it's not. I returned it, and she said it's overdue. I have to pay 21 pesos. I imagined it was already two weeks since I borrowed it, and I thought I was renewing it all this time. I gave her money, but she said, 'Only four [pesos]?' I took more money out of my pocket, and counted two 5 pesos and two 10 pesos, and decided it's a total of 21 pesos.

I looked around for more books, and found a lot of colorful, hard-bound books, but decided not to borrow.

I was watching a story before my eyes. An alien. I transformed into a creature. I howled.

I was in a house. B showed up and we did something like a one-arm embrace or pat, then he went somewhere in the house. R was writing and signing something on the table. He said something about ignoring B. I wondered how can I do that if we're in his house.

August 23rd, 2013

Dream 1 (fragments): I was in a tropical city walking strolling around the roads, I come by a remote control helicopter, I try making it fly to the other side of the road but for some reasone it can't manage to do so. I grab at it and fly myself over some building. Something happened because I'm being chased by cops, I steal a car and run away, I'm now seeing myself from a top-down view, I drive up to a island crammed with soldiers and cops, I can't escape because I'm surrounded by water, buildings and very angry people. I ditch the car and run toward an apache elicopter with which I barely manage to escape.

Dream 2: I've been in vacation in a resort hotel with a group of people. I'm packing things up because we'll be leaving soon to go home. I spend some time chilling with the other people sitting on a low lawnchair, a girl sits on me, glares at me and then goes away, leaving me a little puzzled.
It's time to go and I go back to my luggages, I find out there's one missing so I walk around the place looking for it and asking around. I reach a room with two sofas and a few girls chattering, I notice that there are portable conditioners somehow crammed inside the sofas, I approach to look closer and see if my luggage is here. I turn around and see one girl igniting something. Flames start to spread and blaze around the room!

Lucid: I find my self inside a big mansion and realize I'm dreaming I'm following a group of people walking toward a room, I steel myself to remain calm and unemotional and resolve to try enduring something distracting to see how far I can keep myself in the dream. We reach a huge room with a big mahogany table. The DCs take their seats while I look around. I notice that there are some pretty girls around the lot, so I decide to try the most distracting thing I can do here is sex, I jump on the table and start inviting a couple of girls to join me, I'm still concentrated, I invite one more, still ok, I look around, the DCs sitting on the chairs have an incredible completely-bored look on them and staring glassily ahead, I notice another pretty girl that wasn't there before, I invite her too and her mother makes some complaint about her never listening to what she says, still with a bored look on her (god I hope to never have to play poker with these DCs). The girl comes, but it seems I can't handle four girls at the same time, the dream collapses.

I'm not completely awake but I have to breath manually so I can't just DEILD, I keep breathing as I was just before and attempt to WILD. I get sucked up in the "wave", I see a luminous gray-green ribbon of light flashing in different shapes while a loud electrical sound grinds my brain, I endure and relax. I'm again in the big mansion in a different room, there's a boy sitting on a chair I ask him where the girl from before are, he points toward another room, I follow. I find the girls crouched on a carpet, they're naked and crying, I notice they are covered with ugly gray scars all around their body, I try to heal them, it seems to be working at first but no, I try again and again, failing. The dream collapse, I'm too hungry to keep dreaming and I wake up.

LD induction attempt:

MILD, then WBTB/WILD

Thursday, August 22 3:30 am

I am part of an IRC class on lucid dreaming. I can't remember exactly what we were discussing though. I'm trying to show everyone in the class something that I feel is super important, though in my dream I don't really know WHY it is important. I just know it is a perfect example for our lucid dreaming discussion. While at the IRC, I am also at a LD forum (not DreamViews, some other forum I've never seen before), and there is a member who's name isn't right. There is a letter that doesn't match any letter at all in the alphabet! I realllly want to share this with the class, but just as I am about to submit a screenshot, I lose my internet connection. This seriously irritates me, because I feel like I HAVE to send this in, it is SUPER important to me, and I am frantic trying to refresh the chat and get it to connect again. Why I'm doing this, I don't know because I lost my connection, meaning I *should* wait for it to come back, instead of trying to refresh the webpage. But, I keep trying until my alarm finally wakes me up.


A note I want to make on this dream. I feel I was really close to lucidity for two reasons. One, I noticed something odd about that user name, and though I didn't understand why, I felt it of VITAL importance to share with the rest of the LD class. Had I managed to reconnect, I wonder if I wouldn't have told them it was an example of a dream sign....TWO, I kept trying to get my laptop to refresh the webpage. I lost the internet connection, therefore I should have just waited for it to come back, refreshing the page would do no good--yet I did it anyway. I wonder if some small part of me understood that it would eventually work if I kept trying, because of the odd way electronics behave in dreams. THEN there's the sheer frantic nature, the NEED to reconnect and show what I discovered to the LD class. It was such a strong feeling, I felt it even upon waking

Gotta catch up on my dream journal again! On the bright side, I think I just hit my dream goal of 7 days straight with remembering at least a dream fragment every night! YAY!

Wed, Aug 21 8:26 am

LD attempt: WBTB/Wild

I'm in a restaurant with two people I don't know, a man and a woman. I don't remember what they look like. The place I am in though is almost like a resort or casino or something. There is one floor, but it's split into 3 levels. The first level, there are slot machines to the right and a bar to the left. Then, up a small flight of stairs, overlooking the bar/slots is the area where the restaurant takes reservations. To the left on that overlook is an arcade. The two people I'm with and myself, we head up the small flight of steps to give the people our reservations. They give their names, and the employee lets them through; however, when I step forward, the woman taking reservations pushes me back, telling me I'm not on the list. I tell her that I'm with them, and they back me up on that. So, we go up yet another small flight of stairs to the restaurant itself that overlooks the entire place.

Now, as we go to our table (they are long banquet like tables with white table-cloths) a guy that looks just like Senator Marko Rubio approaches us, and starts to ask us if we are tired of people giving us such a hard time, just because of a slight change in reservation. He said that he wanted us to sign a petition to provide more oversight in reservations, so that when someone does want to change something, they don't get yelled at (strange, I know, I know). I don't sign it, and neither does the guy I'm with, but the woman does (I get the feeling her and the guy are a couple, even though they are just random DC, people I've never met IRL). We sit down at the table, and they start to argue with one another about the petition, her saying how some oversight is needed because of how annoying the situation is, and him saying it's not the governments place to get involved with something so trivial. We are about to order our food, when my alarm wakes me up.

Total sleep time: 8 hrs

Pre bed: nada

Dream quality and recall: average vividness, deep sleep and challenging recall

Comment: there was an increase in emotions during daytime, which is evident in the dream as well.

Early fragment: some story about dreaming and accounting for lds

Dream: I am waiting for the train, then get on it. A friend of mine is supposed to sit next to me but goes in the other carriage instead. I am taking my shoes off, white socks. The guy next to me is already asleep. Then the perspective changes and I see four of them - friends dining together (without me). I become enraged and show them the finger. They raise their glasses and so do I. My shirt now has wine stain that I try to clean with a cloth, but the cloth is dirty so it gets worse. Then I remember that I can use bread and ham to clean it, just like my dad did. I also take a bite out of my "detergent".

Fragment: A girl from my class is attracted to me and is kissing me. Later the class meets and I have some concerns about her kissing me in front of others. (I don't even like her irl)

WBTB (+had some anxiety thoughts initially)

Mini-ld: I have a FA at home with the person I was thinking about in the beginning of the WBTB. He irritates me and I become angry shouting at him. I realize this is a dream (I read something about karma and emotions during dreams yesterday). My anger vanishes and I make a remark about this. I go on to leave the building. Unfortunately, I don't remember if I phased or how I got outside, just that I was trying to fly down. So I am on a balcony or window and want to fly down the way the girl does in the end of Crouching tiger Hidden dragon, slowly. I succeed in controlling the speed of the flying till I reach the ground, then I go up again. I think I woke up soon after that.

No notes, went back to sleep.

Mini-ld fragment: I am in an unfamiliar room and there is a man in front of me and suddenly I shout at him my anxiety thoughts. Again, I realize this is a dream, I am quite happy I was able to catch this again. I apologize, the man smiles. Unfortunately, I can't recall anything else, the dream ends with the void. I shortly try to summon Angel Falls, but the position which I am imagining myself is making me feel uncomfortable. The images fade away.

Mini-ld: I am on the street but feel like my dream control is not working very well because everybody is walking towards me daringly. A dog charges at me and I start some sort of thought/control manipulation to stop it, but in the end grab it and put it on my shoulder/head and neutralize it. Three female DCs are bothering me, I have no idea what they want. I remember I can escape from them by flying, so I fly just a bit above them. However, they can still reach me and I am coming down against my will. I only know one other way to deal with them and ask them if this is what they want. They say yes and I rip one of the girls' clothes off. I wake up before any censure is necessary.

Fragment: Thus guy I know is giving an interview for the newspaper

I think recall is getting better.

Dream 1(fragment):

There was some vehicle warfare and tanks.

Dream 2:

Some factions were fighting for something and i was kinda in between, not belonging to any, i've had some powerful abilities and i was watching a few battles.
Then later at one point i was on some small island and i was talking to someone about the forces coming, and they indeed came, from one side a huge amount of futuristic ships/spaceships including one really big one that barely fit in the entire view. Then from the other side just as huge another armada appeared, made in more steampunk-ish style with airships. I've made a boat and left the area before forces collided.
I've had planned stuff to do, so i went to one of nearest cities, it looked huge and futuristic and it was kinda split between people with different ideals, so each section of it was having different main color and was made in slightly different style. Majority of city was section with buildings decorated with cyan lines, they were pretty glowy and it was getting nighttime, so it was a pretty view. that part of the city was controlled by some people who believed into some kind of scientific god or something like that and there were tons of labs and other science related buildings.
There i started with my plan, i secretly gotten into one of the labs, found some person that was really important and kidnapped him and he was unconscious. On the way out i used ability that drained his life force, for some kind of important experiment related to awaking some sort of power in specific people, then i was stealthing through the streets while carrying him and moving very quickly. A bit later i figured that experiment failed since person was nearly dying, so it's probably not who i was searching for. Then out of nowhere some old man in black suit appeared, which apparently was the leader of this faction. He had some abilities as well, but he didn't used them, we talked for a bit, before i used my powers and literally teleported his heart out of his body. The leader didn't died and said that he has nine more hearts, and that in fact he lets me take that for that person and that his abilities were linked to his hearts, which suddenly interested me more, i used powers to scan the heart and figured that the ability it had was some kind of energy burst. The leader disappeared shortly and i ended up transferring life energy from that heart to that person, so in the end he survived.

#1: Helping mom load some meat into a big black bag on the back of a truck. I find a bag of roast she missed and hand it to her and she put it in as well.

Possible inspiration: We bought a lot of meat to eat recently and we use black bags for trash. I was thinking about my vehicular dream sign before bed so maybe that’s where the truck came from (we don't own one).

#2: Grandma’s house. Don’t remember much, but I think I flew (grr I missed out on it). And something about hiding from grandpa?

Notes: Woke three times in all. Had a bit of trouble getting to sleep (thank you cat, but I’m not a big fluffy pillow), and was too tired to check the time and such. Really need to get to bed sooner, apparently 9+ hours ain’t enough. Also need to get more sleeping pills. Using the laptop is working out really great though. With my notebook, I couldn't understand my handwriting, but even if I mistype on the laptop, I can still read it. So used to deciphering typos by now. =P

3rd person. Tradition dictates the pharaohs of this dynasty marry on the first day of the new year for symbolic purposes, but his intended bride is tired of waiting. She cuts her leg with a knife and lets the blood run down into the dirt, a ritual attempt to soothe the drought the land is going through with her own life; since she isn't yet royalty, this is all she can do. Her intended husband watches this and decides to break with tradition and hurry the wedding. However, there's an incident where the couple goes on a voyage with their servants and attendants, and a woman is seen waiting outside at night to meet a lover in secret - it may have been one of the servant girls, but a rumor starts that it was the intended queen.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

I'm a student in a small class of maybe 10 undergrads, taught by Mr. G., a favorite IRL high school teacher, in a room based on the chapel building at that high school. We're giving presentations, and as I go back to my seat afterwards, I manage to knock over the display that holds up the TV monitor. I catch it and try to put it back to rights while the next person is talking but fail miserably, I think I broke something. One of the other students comes to help, this short geeky guy who does something very complex with the display, and I just stand back to watch. Turns out he's really, really good with his hands, I'm kind of into it. That was unexpected. I start talking to him and he mentions that he's got some hobby that involves building things, which seems pretty cool to me since I'm pretty much useless at anything practical, but he looks like I'm making him nervous so I back off.

But when the scene changes to show me back at my apartment (doesn't resemble anywhere I've lived IRL - colorful and cluttered, deep blue walls, hanging plants and vines in every corner), he's come along with me and my friends, or roommates, I don't know who these DCs are meant to be but we're close. As we walk in the door, the short/geeky/unexpectedly hot DC is saying to one of them, this blonde girl with all these little braids in her hair, "You're not on the drain, are you?" which is apparently some kind of drug. "I would never," she says, acting all offended - waking me can't tell if she's serious or not, either way dream me thinks it's funny. We came back here to get high anyway.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

I'd been flying down through the levels of some mansion and heading outside, planning my night, weighing the appeal of being alone vs being seen, but when I fly out the door, True Blood's Ginger is at the gate. She wants to come back to work at the club. She'd taken maternity leave but lost the kid, and tried to come back to the club pretty much immediately afterward, but the boss told her to take the paid time off anyway - I don't know why she's so desperate to come back, she doesn't work for tips so the money's the same. But she convinces me to let her in, and she tells me where to find the key to the gate. I go get it, but it's got some kind of trap - when I uncover the key, a dart shoots out and hits Ginger.

Flashback. First time I'd met Ginger, she'd been hysterical, claiming someone, a priest, had been kidnapped by these two guys I knew well and was being held in their barn. The guys tell me the priest was there, but perfectly fine. Giving a sermon, in fact.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

3rd person, following Julia. She's waiting by a statue at the gate to a city park, sometime around the turn of the 19th/20th century, and she works in a country estate as a maid or a nanny or a governess or something - anyway, she's just come into the city for the day. She's meant to be meeting one of the other servants there, but the woman she's meeting is late. Julia doesn't really mind, it's helped her make a decision actually. She's been thinking about how much fun she had on an earlier outing with me, just watching (??? something involving birds, seemed like a very ordinary everyday event for most people but something she hadn't done before), and thinking about the drab grey dress she's wearing, and always wears, covering her ankles, and generally thinking about taking chances and breaking out of her shell and so on. She stops waiting for her friend and, thinking about how much she's got to do and counting up how much money she has with her, she first goes to buy postage and mail a letter she'd already written but hadn't decided whether or not to send until now.

Her thoughts about money derail the storyline - a guy at the door of a restaurant convinces her to step inside and she finds unexpected fees piling up on her.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

Just a fragment of dialogue (phone call woke me up): "-chance to take hold. Valerian root," in a male voice, possibly mine.

August 23 2013 - Dream Fragment #1 - I was in a large mansion with my family and I remember walking out and seeing people that were neighbors. I walked out and remember something happening and then them trying to kill me. I walked outside and saw a file cabinet that said a room used to be inside that had pictures of dead bodies and I got kind of freaked out.

Dream Fragment #2 - I see Army members playing cards at a table, and they say that people inside are playing Dungeons and Dragons. I look in and they all look older than I am, so I ask if there is an age limit. They say that I have to be “considerably older”. I remember seeing one guy that apparently wasn’t in the army but had a Call of Duty MLG series shirt on.

Dream Fragment #3 - The house at the start of the dream burned down but yet everyone survived. There was also some kind of monster there. I remember a flashback to me in this chaotic, multidimensional complex with five different directions of gravitational pull. Each room held a Pokemon (weird, I haven’t played it or watched the anime for like a year now :p).

Dream Fragment #4 (This came chronologically before Dream Fragment #1) - My dad and I are shopping at a department store somewhere within 100 miles of my house (can’t remember the town name) for cat treats. They say that are are anti-something to do with electricity, so your cat doesn’t shock everybody it meets (I guess in dreams cats have interesting superpowers ) but another couple grabs it out of my hands and they buy it. We then travel on the road to the house that burned down.

June 02 2013 - Dream Fragment #1 - I am on stage in front of a huge auditorium more or less directing a concert type thing but from the back. The section I am directing consists of percussion instruments that sort of look like this: bit.ly/13xI5AN. They make cymbal crash noises when hit together. They sound pretty good with the song. I see an old man walk up on stage and start to yell. I said that I am directing and he screams that they’re not cymbals but cymbal covers and that they sound terrible. I feel hurt. I walk backstage and still the man continues to berate me. I run out of there and get in a car to drive away. I can’t remember the rest but there is something about my friend and something else about Nyan Cat. I wake up at an unknown time and perform a RC. I am not in the dream world.

May 31 2013 - Dream Fragment #1 - I am at a very large concert, and I look around and can see many people in an enclosed auditorium-type building. I am playing a saxophone(?) and suddenly I realize that the concert hasn’t started yet. Someone (one of my fellow band members) thinks that it’s a good idea to go to the grocery store and get food before the concert. I get in the car and go with them. The store is chaotic with everybody there. I remember trying to get back to the concert but to no avail, and I wake up and do a RC. I have woken up.

Dream Fragment 2 - I went to department store with some girl in her 20s. Looking at bras for some reason. I think there was something about Mario. I then remember my friend Peter playing Halo and fighting a large monster with a shotgun, which he killed and everyone was shouting “Go Peter!” and things like that. I felt jolted, and I did a RC, and realized I was awake.

May 29 2013 - Dream Fragment/Full Dream (It was long) #1 - I dreamed about going with the people in my math class to a U2 concert somewhere in Boston/New York, and we went in. We got tickets and I saw a candy dispensing machine, and went to get some, but on the way saw a machine making popcorn, and grabbed a handful. I felt guilty and needed to pay for it, but for some reason it was free. I took too long and missed one showing, but there were more. There was an attached hotel with stone walls and more or less primitive beds, and each band showing there had a room for people. I was looking for my room, and couldn’t find it. My mom was staying in the Bon Jovi one, and showed me mine. I felt very unsettled there and decided to watch some TV before turning off the lights. I fell asleep and woke up, and did a RC. I had woken up.

Dream Fragment #2 - I remember something about running, and then something about dying. I also remembered being right outside the math wing at the high school. I snapped awake and sat up in bed very fast. Did an RC, was awake. I then attempted to DEILD.

Dream Fragment #3 Something about a hatchet, and I have a false awakening. I see something about school (even though it wasn’t lucid, the DEILD did something), and wake up. I am awake.

May 28 2013 - Dream Fragment #1 - Cruise ship. Something about 450 million dollars. I have some kind of action sequence and awaken. I do an RC and I am properly awake.

Dream Fragment #2 - I am talking with my friends about games. One of my friends and another kid, presumably my best friend, are playing a small co-op puzzle game, and a kid I know and I are talking. (Very realistic) We seem to go to a video rental store, (not unlike a Blockbuster in terms of shape) and rent some video games. I then immediately wake up, and perform an RC. I am in another dream.

Dream Fragment #3 - Small bubbles are floating around; I can see small knick-knacks in them. The seem very far away, and I can’t reach them. I see one with some platonic solid in it, and will it to come to me, but I wake up for real.

Dream Fragment #4 - I am at a restaurant. (It feels very high up and on a wing of some kind) I see a table adjacent to me, but all the people at it are vampires. I don’t know why, but then I realize the person I am sitting with is a vampire. I do an RC, but then realize I am actually a vampire, too. I wake up for real and it is time to get up.

May 27 2013 - Dream Fragment #1 - Something about evolution. Animals and their types. Also some doctors and I doing something with them. I wake up, do a RC. I am awake.

Dream Fragment #2 - In the house of my teacher or one near his in my town. I see a Ford GT in the garage, and go inside. People are in a panic and I hear an old woman shouting something about cataracts. I wake up, and I am actually awake.

May 26 2013 - I slept away last night, didn’t have a chance to record it until now. I can remember seeing Boston across a short river from a city in Maine (Portland?) and me looking for Spartan (Halo) armor because I got to the center late. I finally found some official clothing and also found a nice-looking hat that read something like “Council”, “Board”, or “Negotiator”, (May have changed, should have used as a RC!) but found a real suit after the place apparently became stocked with armor. I then walked across a large open field, (some kind of patrol?) and somehow got to a small structure. A silverish room with a safe was there, in which people put money. I looked and saw that the wall was the same as the ceiling and briefly went lucid. I made no attempt to stabilize, (facepalm) and then woke up. I was back in the room, directly in front of the safe. I took the money for some reason, and a DC (my father, I believe) got angry at me for doing it. I woke up, did something else, and then woke up properly.